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General | Posted 18 years agoI don't socialize much online. I'm a hermit on line and offline.
I need to find some new chat rooms to visit or remember old ones I've forgotten about XD
I need to find some new chat rooms to visit or remember old ones I've forgotten about XD
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General | Posted 18 years agoWell, I really have to hand it to three things, private insurance, medical documentation, and being complacent.
For those of you not in the loop, this is in regards to the last journal I posted and the synthetic skin graft I got this most recent Thursday. The story short is, there was a high likelyhood that if scar tissue had settled in, my right arm would have been buggered, taking my current drawing capacity with it. Being medically documented as right handed, a catastrophic injury like that, would have resulted in a huge compensation. So here I am, not even a week later, and I owe thanks to my current employer's private insurance.
Feels weird, looks weird, but they got shit sorted fast and the doctors are saying that the graft should take and I really shouldn't see any complications since the scar tissue was mostly prevented and a successful graft was completed within a week.
That's not really what this journal is about.
I'm cleaning house, when it comes to art. I'm setting aside a lot of art projects that I just can't get the muster up to work on. The last two commissions I had in my list, I have also cleared as it's gone on six months, mostly due to my own fault. There were some communication issues, no money has changed hands (reviewed my paypal logs before I made this decision).
I'd like to say it's good news all around. Yes, two potential and cheap commissions are not being completed. In all reality, I'm a very selfish self centered fuckwad, part of me says I should feel bad. I'm honestly not going to though, they were taking me upwards of five and six hours to complete to a 'polish' that was simply 'acceptable' not what I wanted to achieve.
Someday maybe I'll be that rich or have enough passive income that I can sit down and draw requests for free. But at this point in my life, I'm using my time, for my own betterment. I really need to start steering away from this public whore I started turning myself into.
No guarantees when commissions will be open, if ever again. Taking money for art ruined it in a lot of ways for me.
For those of you not in the loop, this is in regards to the last journal I posted and the synthetic skin graft I got this most recent Thursday. The story short is, there was a high likelyhood that if scar tissue had settled in, my right arm would have been buggered, taking my current drawing capacity with it. Being medically documented as right handed, a catastrophic injury like that, would have resulted in a huge compensation. So here I am, not even a week later, and I owe thanks to my current employer's private insurance.
Feels weird, looks weird, but they got shit sorted fast and the doctors are saying that the graft should take and I really shouldn't see any complications since the scar tissue was mostly prevented and a successful graft was completed within a week.
That's not really what this journal is about.
I'm cleaning house, when it comes to art. I'm setting aside a lot of art projects that I just can't get the muster up to work on. The last two commissions I had in my list, I have also cleared as it's gone on six months, mostly due to my own fault. There were some communication issues, no money has changed hands (reviewed my paypal logs before I made this decision).
I'd like to say it's good news all around. Yes, two potential and cheap commissions are not being completed. In all reality, I'm a very selfish self centered fuckwad, part of me says I should feel bad. I'm honestly not going to though, they were taking me upwards of five and six hours to complete to a 'polish' that was simply 'acceptable' not what I wanted to achieve.
Someday maybe I'll be that rich or have enough passive income that I can sit down and draw requests for free. But at this point in my life, I'm using my time, for my own betterment. I really need to start steering away from this public whore I started turning myself into.
No guarantees when commissions will be open, if ever again. Taking money for art ruined it in a lot of ways for me.
Luck, Life, Karma...
General | Posted 18 years agoProbably a mix of all three...
For all the people I've pissed off, irritated, wronged and what not, if you wished something horrible happened to me, I guess tonight was probably it, barring few worse things.
I work at a fast food restaurant, in the middle of training to become an assistant manager. I was working the kitchen tonight.
One of the duties is to empty the bins full of grease. They aren't heavy, no more than thirty pounds. Easy and harmless to do if you're wearing the sleeve length mitts, which I was.
Then I stepped on an uncooked, thawed french fry. Before I could say 'oh shit' I knew I was in a bad position with almost 30 liters of boiling hot grease in my hands. So, no I'm not horribly disfigured, I don't know how I managed it, but I did, I didn't fumble the bin of grease.
It splashed, I've got second degree burns from my lower arm right up to my shoulder. I also landed on my elbow, causing hairline fractures.
Unfortunately, I'm right handed, and this all happened to my right arm. I just got back from the burn and fracture wards. Gonna try and make as speedy a recovery as possible, but they're saying my right arm won't work the same again. Probably means I'm done drawing for a long time.
I'm going to bash my head against a wall until I get back into the swing of things, I just want to publicly apologize to everyone who's been patiently waiting for art, it's gonna be a bit longer. I hope this levels out my karma for a while.
For all the people I've pissed off, irritated, wronged and what not, if you wished something horrible happened to me, I guess tonight was probably it, barring few worse things.
I work at a fast food restaurant, in the middle of training to become an assistant manager. I was working the kitchen tonight.
One of the duties is to empty the bins full of grease. They aren't heavy, no more than thirty pounds. Easy and harmless to do if you're wearing the sleeve length mitts, which I was.
Then I stepped on an uncooked, thawed french fry. Before I could say 'oh shit' I knew I was in a bad position with almost 30 liters of boiling hot grease in my hands. So, no I'm not horribly disfigured, I don't know how I managed it, but I did, I didn't fumble the bin of grease.
It splashed, I've got second degree burns from my lower arm right up to my shoulder. I also landed on my elbow, causing hairline fractures.
Unfortunately, I'm right handed, and this all happened to my right arm. I just got back from the burn and fracture wards. Gonna try and make as speedy a recovery as possible, but they're saying my right arm won't work the same again. Probably means I'm done drawing for a long time.
I'm going to bash my head against a wall until I get back into the swing of things, I just want to publicly apologize to everyone who's been patiently waiting for art, it's gonna be a bit longer. I hope this levels out my karma for a while.
Relationships
General | Posted 18 years agoI had a rude wake up call after working a twelve and a half hour shift. I'm honestly glad it came about before things went worse with it all.
I'm no role model, I do things I regret, I'm human, I'm normal. I'm no one exceptional, but I came to FA to 'express myself'. I may not be the greatest writer, I'm not the greatest artist either. One thing I need to start working on, is expressing myself more vocally. Less of this subtle and cloak/dagger stuff.
The past few months, I've been so worried about work, life, hate, insults and accomplishment, I forgot about being happy. I forgot about making someone important to me happy.
In a lot of books, I 'probably deserve' to have nothing, be nothing and have never been more than nothing. Some days I wouldn't argue with those comments and opinions. There are a lot of things I will not apologize for, there are a lot of things I will apologize for.
I'm getting off topic though, I need to be getting to bed so I can wake up and start a new day on the right foot.
Because as much as my mind refused the concept, in a small way, a serious relationship, is as much about 'owning', as it is being 'owned'. It might be old school, but I firmly believe in monogamous relationships, and saying to world 'this one is mine' something I've avoided for fear of coming across as harsh, is actually a bit of endearment. I'm finally seeing it as something more than just petty, because to this person, showing that I care so much, to stake a claim, shows a lot.
It's not all just barbaric and what not. For the longest time I've always told people I'm no one interesting, it's gotten to the point where I started believing it. I was so very wrong, because no matter what you think, there's always bound to be at least -one- person who's interested in your life story. I'm just ashamed to admit that one person was right in front of me, asking me to tell it, for the past six months.
I've done a lot of crappy things, I've been on the receiving end of a lot of crappy things. I won't try to convince people to be happy and forgiving. We're all only human, and the world will continue to spin, conflict will happen.
Just don't ever look so far ahead, and so far abroad, that you lose sight of what's right in front of you. I made that mistake, and it was one of the very few, I doubt I could have ever lived with if I didn't get a chance at the last second to rectify things.
I'm no role model, I do things I regret, I'm human, I'm normal. I'm no one exceptional, but I came to FA to 'express myself'. I may not be the greatest writer, I'm not the greatest artist either. One thing I need to start working on, is expressing myself more vocally. Less of this subtle and cloak/dagger stuff.
The past few months, I've been so worried about work, life, hate, insults and accomplishment, I forgot about being happy. I forgot about making someone important to me happy.
In a lot of books, I 'probably deserve' to have nothing, be nothing and have never been more than nothing. Some days I wouldn't argue with those comments and opinions. There are a lot of things I will not apologize for, there are a lot of things I will apologize for.
I'm getting off topic though, I need to be getting to bed so I can wake up and start a new day on the right foot.
Because as much as my mind refused the concept, in a small way, a serious relationship, is as much about 'owning', as it is being 'owned'. It might be old school, but I firmly believe in monogamous relationships, and saying to world 'this one is mine' something I've avoided for fear of coming across as harsh, is actually a bit of endearment. I'm finally seeing it as something more than just petty, because to this person, showing that I care so much, to stake a claim, shows a lot.
It's not all just barbaric and what not. For the longest time I've always told people I'm no one interesting, it's gotten to the point where I started believing it. I was so very wrong, because no matter what you think, there's always bound to be at least -one- person who's interested in your life story. I'm just ashamed to admit that one person was right in front of me, asking me to tell it, for the past six months.
I've done a lot of crappy things, I've been on the receiving end of a lot of crappy things. I won't try to convince people to be happy and forgiving. We're all only human, and the world will continue to spin, conflict will happen.
Just don't ever look so far ahead, and so far abroad, that you lose sight of what's right in front of you. I made that mistake, and it was one of the very few, I doubt I could have ever lived with if I didn't get a chance at the last second to rectify things.
Three things
General | Posted 18 years ago1) Iron Man movie, yes it could be crap, yes it could be awesome. I don't care either which way, Iron Man, is one of the -biggest- influences on my imagination. I remember when I got an Iron Man graphic novel when I was like 9, I read and re-read the damn thing until it fell apart.
Iron Man, started my love for everything scifi, my love of personal power armor, and if you know me/listen to me, also gave birth to the imaginary MetaVerse that Mushiko Inc inhabits.
*bouncebouncebounce* :D
2) In place of any further pageview things, every so many pageviews, I will hold a scavenger hunt of sorts.
Simple, easy, etc etc. Basically a list of clues, first person to hunt through my gallery and send me a private note with either the names or links to all the pictures, wins.
This needs some refining, but it's a better system than the whole pageview kiriban thing that only seems to attract page camping, and potentially photoshoppers.
3) IRON MAN!
4) And I've posted an in progress sketch of the 'Sarah 1520' in gear picture at the start of being colored. This is to get critiques on a few things, if you want, feel free to comment and critique it or catch me on a messenger and talk to me about it.
Iron Man, started my love for everything scifi, my love of personal power armor, and if you know me/listen to me, also gave birth to the imaginary MetaVerse that Mushiko Inc inhabits.
*bouncebouncebounce* :D
2) In place of any further pageview things, every so many pageviews, I will hold a scavenger hunt of sorts.
Simple, easy, etc etc. Basically a list of clues, first person to hunt through my gallery and send me a private note with either the names or links to all the pictures, wins.
This needs some refining, but it's a better system than the whole pageview kiriban thing that only seems to attract page camping, and potentially photoshoppers.
3) IRON MAN!
4) And I've posted an in progress sketch of the 'Sarah 1520' in gear picture at the start of being colored. This is to get critiques on a few things, if you want, feel free to comment and critique it or catch me on a messenger and talk to me about it.
No Subject
General | Posted 18 years agoArrgedblah
General | Posted 18 years agoTwo things
I've spent the past eight hours on lineart and I've only got like half the body done. Busiest character yet o.O
Still have the background to do...
This is for just more than one person, I'll make it generic though.
If someone shows you a Work In Progress and it's not even half done, don't think you're being smart, wise, awesome, cool, friendly, or helpful, by pointing out obvious flaws.
Chances are you're simply going to get a harsh reply, and then sobbing about how you're sorry is not cool. Seriously, this has happened with like 5 people tonight.
Same thing, 'hey here's the sketch of what I'm working on at this very moment' 'all of this is wrong' 'did I say I was done?' 'no' 'so you're assuming I'm an idiot then' 'no' 'Why did you bother to point out every obvious error?' 'well I thought you could use some help' 'did I ask?' 'no. jeeze I'm sorry man'
I'm being an asshole, but this is a complaint I've heard from other artists and it's a personal pet peeve. Take 10 seconds to ask if it's all right to offer some suggestions. I make it a point to ask people if I can offer some suggestions, never assume, because when it comes to artists in the furry fandom, I'm finding via the grapevine, that generally there are a lot of people saying the exact same thing when an artist shows off anything but a finished piece. A whole crapload of people pointing out things in a Work In Progress, that they haven't gotten around to yet.
Fuck and I meant to keep this short
WATCH IT! -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pPCkhYMQgY
I've spent the past eight hours on lineart and I've only got like half the body done. Busiest character yet o.O
Still have the background to do...
This is for just more than one person, I'll make it generic though.
If someone shows you a Work In Progress and it's not even half done, don't think you're being smart, wise, awesome, cool, friendly, or helpful, by pointing out obvious flaws.
Chances are you're simply going to get a harsh reply, and then sobbing about how you're sorry is not cool. Seriously, this has happened with like 5 people tonight.
Same thing, 'hey here's the sketch of what I'm working on at this very moment' 'all of this is wrong' 'did I say I was done?' 'no' 'so you're assuming I'm an idiot then' 'no' 'Why did you bother to point out every obvious error?' 'well I thought you could use some help' 'did I ask?' 'no. jeeze I'm sorry man'
I'm being an asshole, but this is a complaint I've heard from other artists and it's a personal pet peeve. Take 10 seconds to ask if it's all right to offer some suggestions. I make it a point to ask people if I can offer some suggestions, never assume, because when it comes to artists in the furry fandom, I'm finding via the grapevine, that generally there are a lot of people saying the exact same thing when an artist shows off anything but a finished piece. A whole crapload of people pointing out things in a Work In Progress, that they haven't gotten around to yet.
Fuck and I meant to keep this short
WATCH IT! -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pPCkhYMQgY
I are retarded
General | Posted 18 years agoI was applying toothpaste to toothbrush... toothbrush bristles somehow flicked a small gob of toothpaste into my eyeball.
I am such a retard.
I am such a retard.
Something tells me
General | Posted 18 years agoThat I should just stop writing and focus on the art.
Seems every time I post a personal opinion, I get blacklisted and it's impossible to find conversation or people to oC with.
Blah.
Seems every time I post a personal opinion, I get blacklisted and it's impossible to find conversation or people to oC with.
Blah.
Something Smart
General | Posted 18 years agoI was waking up today, sorting out my priorities and putting up my 'To Do' list so I can referrence it from where ever (when I've got details, all I really need is a name), and I was also in a few chat rooms before a job interview.
A few people were going back and forth about who owed who art.
It all seemed so preposterous. A lot of stuff has seemed preposterous lately to me, when people complain about taking insult from a very harsh critique and then complaining when I suggest they move past the poorly worded (or very possibly intended insult) and take the critique for that.
I guess I'm finally going through those phases in my life as a person growing up and as an artist developing, where things start to 'sort out'.
That is, I'm not taking much insult or stressing much over harsh critiques and insults, I don't find myself caring about comments. The pageview contest thing is more of a reward, but it's really just page camping, I've been trying to figure out something more interactive to encourage people to interact.
I just had to giggle, what started this whole journal was the stray thought 'Man, I remember when my art started to get better back in March and I looked back at some earlier art and saw how bad it was' This has happened quite a few times. All I can say, is I'm taking pride in that fact, that in the space of months of probably some of the most stressful days of my life so far, I'm still able to improve noticeably.
Always figured artist's needed an ego, one of those mystical requirements to be good. I've just avoided the whole thing, but I think now I've got something to be egotistically giddy about.
Thanks for reading folks :)
A few people were going back and forth about who owed who art.
It all seemed so preposterous. A lot of stuff has seemed preposterous lately to me, when people complain about taking insult from a very harsh critique and then complaining when I suggest they move past the poorly worded (or very possibly intended insult) and take the critique for that.
I guess I'm finally going through those phases in my life as a person growing up and as an artist developing, where things start to 'sort out'.
That is, I'm not taking much insult or stressing much over harsh critiques and insults, I don't find myself caring about comments. The pageview contest thing is more of a reward, but it's really just page camping, I've been trying to figure out something more interactive to encourage people to interact.
I just had to giggle, what started this whole journal was the stray thought 'Man, I remember when my art started to get better back in March and I looked back at some earlier art and saw how bad it was' This has happened quite a few times. All I can say, is I'm taking pride in that fact, that in the space of months of probably some of the most stressful days of my life so far, I'm still able to improve noticeably.
Always figured artist's needed an ego, one of those mystical requirements to be good. I've just avoided the whole thing, but I think now I've got something to be egotistically giddy about.
Thanks for reading folks :)
Memememememe
General | Posted 18 years agoI snagged this from 
Muzz who I stealth watch >.> I'm in a good mood, life is good, and I figure, why not. Seross needs some more love.
1. What is your character's name?
Seross, find a mother crazy enough to just give her kid one name and she can explain his lack of a last name.
2. What is your character's name in anotsher language?
It's a language so awesome my keyboard couldn't do it justice.
3. How old is he/she?
Old, I say over 20,000 because it's a nice big number (and I like nice BIG things) it also gives a lot of ground for explaining his general vastness of knowledge and still keeping him rather simple.
4. What is your character's race/species?
Lasparadis, it's a nightmare elemental that looks like an anthro T-Rex with anaconda snake and rabbit mixed in. Came up with the idea while I was sleep deprived many years ago.
5. Do they have a crush?
In more ways than one.
6. Do they have many friends?
Yes, for reasons which I might explain in the future, pillows and pie are included as friends. >.>
7. What planet is your character from?
Earth, because it's the trendy things.
8. Does your character like to eat?
Surprisingly no.
9. What's his/sher favorite food?
Meat when he does eat.
10. What's his/sher favorite drink?
Whatever is on hand, alcoholic or not and is somewhat tolerable.
11. Is your character annoying?
No, he's quiet, realistic and tries to keep his nose out of pointless stuff. Except when he gets the idea that being 120feet tall and doing handstands is a good idea...
13. Is your character loved?
This is an answer for others to answer, he 'loves' some. Not for me to say if he's loved.
14. Is your character hated?
Most definitely, people can be retards.
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
No.
16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Bisexual, loud and proud.
17. Is he/she a virgin?
Hahahahahahahahaha...... Most definitely not.
18. Name 3 hobbies
Blacksmithing, spending time with people, relaxing (it's an art form)
19. Is your character normal?
Size changing rabbit eared T-Rex thing that's super buff, used to be employed for an interdimensional megacorp... No, and that's the normal stuff about him in my eyes.
20. Is your character attractive?
Well duh, I came up with the idea when I was 17 and full of hormones. I still like the idea of a super buff athlete type, but I try to avoid overdoing it.
21. How does your character handle emotions?
He shuts up, if you press him, he will go 'Seross smash!'
22. Does your character have other forms?
Yes, a feral form, although this was a cute thing that came up in a role play with
aliasi and I liked it enough to make it canon. He can also gender bend (ie change genders between male/female)
23. Does your character overreact?
Does the pope wear a funny hat?
24. Is your charcter a criminal?
By standard definitions yes, and he continues his criminal behaviour, most people just tend to leave him to it. All things considered the smallest he can get is 12feet tall. You tell an officer to go handcuff that.
25. Does your character go to school?
He was taught, developed a preferrence for self teaching and exploration. (Majors in Metallurgy, Blacksmithing, Metaphysical Alteration)
26. What's his/sher IQ?
Dumb as a bag of bricks, but 20,000 years of experience leaves him appearing smart.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
A few, cursed boxers that don't come off, an infection of a super nano-thing called the 'Aggressor' and a few others. But those are my little secrets :3
28. Is your character dead?
I don't think he'll ever qualify.
29. Does your character have a family?
To put it lightly, yes. More to come (TM)
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
If he hadn't after 20,000 years, I would shoot myself as the mediocre writer I am.
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Read above. I'm not going to bore you folks with novels.
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
To quote the Muzz 'I don't know' because it's a really hard and unfair question to answer.
33. Is your character single?
Maybe.. Not really.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
Yeah
35. Does she/sshe have an element?
Nightmares and the color red.
36. Do you role-play your character?
Yeah >.> There are some things I'm not proud of X3
37. Do you write about your character?
Used to, need to get back to it, it's mostly writing for comics now.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Yarrr, and it's usually got Godzilla effects.
39. Does your character get depressed?
Yeah, but he tries to avoid it at all costs. That whole testosterone thing.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Never thought about this.
41. Does your character have any fears?
Insecure about being able to protect those close to him, fear of failing, fear of losing control. Most general male fears and a few others.
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Yup. Quite a few, he's a very real character.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Used to, when he was young and naive, he learned to believe in himself and others equally soon after.
44. Does your character like music?
Yup, heavy stuff. Heavy rock, heavy metal, etc...
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Bass. Lots of it.
46. Is he/she impatient?
Depends on what's happening.
47. What's something funny about your character?
He's only got three working braincells? The rest are poisoned by testosterone, aliasi says it's true so it must be!
48. Name 5 nicknames
Bunnyrex, Ross, Big Red, Red, Studmuffin XD
49. Does your character curse?
Only when appropriate, he tries to be a gentleman.
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
At this point in time I'm going to say he's still sleeping and dare you to go wake him up *offers a pointy stick*
Muzz who I stealth watch >.> I'm in a good mood, life is good, and I figure, why not. Seross needs some more love.1. What is your character's name?
Seross, find a mother crazy enough to just give her kid one name and she can explain his lack of a last name.
2. What is your character's name in anotsher language?
It's a language so awesome my keyboard couldn't do it justice.
3. How old is he/she?
Old, I say over 20,000 because it's a nice big number (and I like nice BIG things) it also gives a lot of ground for explaining his general vastness of knowledge and still keeping him rather simple.
4. What is your character's race/species?
Lasparadis, it's a nightmare elemental that looks like an anthro T-Rex with anaconda snake and rabbit mixed in. Came up with the idea while I was sleep deprived many years ago.
5. Do they have a crush?
In more ways than one.
6. Do they have many friends?
Yes, for reasons which I might explain in the future, pillows and pie are included as friends. >.>
7. What planet is your character from?
Earth, because it's the trendy things.
8. Does your character like to eat?
Surprisingly no.
9. What's his/sher favorite food?
Meat when he does eat.
10. What's his/sher favorite drink?
Whatever is on hand, alcoholic or not and is somewhat tolerable.
11. Is your character annoying?
No, he's quiet, realistic and tries to keep his nose out of pointless stuff. Except when he gets the idea that being 120feet tall and doing handstands is a good idea...
13. Is your character loved?
This is an answer for others to answer, he 'loves' some. Not for me to say if he's loved.
14. Is your character hated?
Most definitely, people can be retards.
15. Is he/she emo/goth?
No.
16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Bisexual, loud and proud.
17. Is he/she a virgin?
Hahahahahahahahaha...... Most definitely not.
18. Name 3 hobbies
Blacksmithing, spending time with people, relaxing (it's an art form)
19. Is your character normal?
Size changing rabbit eared T-Rex thing that's super buff, used to be employed for an interdimensional megacorp... No, and that's the normal stuff about him in my eyes.
20. Is your character attractive?
Well duh, I came up with the idea when I was 17 and full of hormones. I still like the idea of a super buff athlete type, but I try to avoid overdoing it.
21. How does your character handle emotions?
He shuts up, if you press him, he will go 'Seross smash!'
22. Does your character have other forms?
Yes, a feral form, although this was a cute thing that came up in a role play with
aliasi and I liked it enough to make it canon. He can also gender bend (ie change genders between male/female)23. Does your character overreact?
Does the pope wear a funny hat?
24. Is your charcter a criminal?
By standard definitions yes, and he continues his criminal behaviour, most people just tend to leave him to it. All things considered the smallest he can get is 12feet tall. You tell an officer to go handcuff that.
25. Does your character go to school?
He was taught, developed a preferrence for self teaching and exploration. (Majors in Metallurgy, Blacksmithing, Metaphysical Alteration)
26. What's his/sher IQ?
Dumb as a bag of bricks, but 20,000 years of experience leaves him appearing smart.
27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
A few, cursed boxers that don't come off, an infection of a super nano-thing called the 'Aggressor' and a few others. But those are my little secrets :3
28. Is your character dead?
I don't think he'll ever qualify.
29. Does your character have a family?
To put it lightly, yes. More to come (TM)
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
If he hadn't after 20,000 years, I would shoot myself as the mediocre writer I am.
31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Read above. I'm not going to bore you folks with novels.
32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
To quote the
Muzz 'I don't know' because it's a really hard and unfair question to answer.33. Is your character single?
Maybe.. Not really.
34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
Yeah
35. Does she/sshe have an element?
Nightmares and the color red.
36. Do you role-play your character?
Yeah >.> There are some things I'm not proud of X3
37. Do you write about your character?
Used to, need to get back to it, it's mostly writing for comics now.
38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Yarrr, and it's usually got Godzilla effects.
39. Does your character get depressed?
Yeah, but he tries to avoid it at all costs. That whole testosterone thing.
40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Never thought about this.
41. Does your character have any fears?
Insecure about being able to protect those close to him, fear of failing, fear of losing control. Most general male fears and a few others.
42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Yup. Quite a few, he's a very real character.
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Used to, when he was young and naive, he learned to believe in himself and others equally soon after.
44. Does your character like music?
Yup, heavy stuff. Heavy rock, heavy metal, etc...
45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Bass. Lots of it.
46. Is he/she impatient?
Depends on what's happening.
47. What's something funny about your character?
He's only got three working braincells? The rest are poisoned by testosterone,
aliasi says it's true so it must be!48. Name 5 nicknames
Bunnyrex, Ross, Big Red, Red, Studmuffin XD
49. Does your character curse?
Only when appropriate, he tries to be a gentleman.
50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
At this point in time I'm going to say he's still sleeping and dare you to go wake him up *offers a pointy stick*
The End of A Story
General | Posted 18 years agoI've mentioned that August 30, has always been a day of significant changes... I'll let what has happened speak for itself.
2004: I made a change this day, one for the worse, as I opted to not continue from high school directly into college.
2005: I made a change this August 30th, I started drawing, I made the resolution this day, that I would become good enough at drawing that people would know my name, that people would -want- to associate with me, because of my art.
2006: I made the change, instead of taking advantage of an apprenticeship to carry on working at a call center, thinking it would be for the best.
... A lot of bad changes, all decided by myself after a harrowing week...
2007: I made a change this birthday, I changed how I lived by going to the gym, I changed someone's day by helping her catch all the papers from a box she had spilled, I made a change for my future, not myself, by taking things into my own hands. This is the day, where I made a change and put an end to a sad story of my life. It's not plans, it's not ambitions, it's actions. I've stopped resenting what I don't have going for me.
I started making things happen for myself today. It feels good.
2004: I made a change this day, one for the worse, as I opted to not continue from high school directly into college.
2005: I made a change this August 30th, I started drawing, I made the resolution this day, that I would become good enough at drawing that people would know my name, that people would -want- to associate with me, because of my art.
2006: I made the change, instead of taking advantage of an apprenticeship to carry on working at a call center, thinking it would be for the best.
... A lot of bad changes, all decided by myself after a harrowing week...
2007: I made a change this birthday, I changed how I lived by going to the gym, I changed someone's day by helping her catch all the papers from a box she had spilled, I made a change for my future, not myself, by taking things into my own hands. This is the day, where I made a change and put an end to a sad story of my life. It's not plans, it's not ambitions, it's actions. I've stopped resenting what I don't have going for me.
I started making things happen for myself today. It feels good.
The Sixth of Seven Strange Days
General | Posted 18 years agoThis day has always been a major hassle. Please read the previous journal entry 'A Story of 7 Strange Days' for full details. I'm just going to jump straight to the meat for my readers.
August 29th: A day of vicious rumors
2007: Having had plenty of job/financial troubles this summer, I've been weighing in the option of cashing in one of my few small investments to stay out of the red. I've had quite a bit of trouble of getting a hold of my investor over the past few weeks to discuss my options. I finally got a hold of her today, and I couldn't get any information out of her, apparently someone impersonating me has been trying to cash in all of my investments and I need to gather up documentation to prove I am the real me now.
2006: This was the day I found out about a particularly nasty rumor floating around behind my back, instigated by a certain individual I had helped move to Thunder Bay, had helped find a job, had helped get established, had help integrate into the social scene. This was the day I found out just how vile and low they were, having found out they had taken it upon themselves to 'educate' people around me about several 'terribly dark' secrets that really weren't true.
2005: This is another one of those things that's going far back. I'm pretty sure this was another rumor surrounding the fact I had not attended the graduation ceremony. Really nasty, really vicious people who were taking plenty of cheap shots behind my back. This wasn't resolved until a few weeks down the road. Needless to say it was another vicious rumor that surfaced on the 29th of August.
All in all, these coincidences are funny and I'm doing what I can to take things in stride. Just need to survive tomorrow when a change always seems to happen and never for the best.
August 29th: A day of vicious rumors
2007: Having had plenty of job/financial troubles this summer, I've been weighing in the option of cashing in one of my few small investments to stay out of the red. I've had quite a bit of trouble of getting a hold of my investor over the past few weeks to discuss my options. I finally got a hold of her today, and I couldn't get any information out of her, apparently someone impersonating me has been trying to cash in all of my investments and I need to gather up documentation to prove I am the real me now.
2006: This was the day I found out about a particularly nasty rumor floating around behind my back, instigated by a certain individual I had helped move to Thunder Bay, had helped find a job, had helped get established, had help integrate into the social scene. This was the day I found out just how vile and low they were, having found out they had taken it upon themselves to 'educate' people around me about several 'terribly dark' secrets that really weren't true.
2005: This is another one of those things that's going far back. I'm pretty sure this was another rumor surrounding the fact I had not attended the graduation ceremony. Really nasty, really vicious people who were taking plenty of cheap shots behind my back. This wasn't resolved until a few weeks down the road. Needless to say it was another vicious rumor that surfaced on the 29th of August.
All in all, these coincidences are funny and I'm doing what I can to take things in stride. Just need to survive tomorrow when a change always seems to happen and never for the best.
A Story of 7 Strange Days
General | Posted 18 years agoHey folks,
This is another long, but light hearted read. About a phenomenon that has haunted me the seven days up to and including my birthday of August 30th, for as long as I can remember. Without fail, this chain of unlikely events has unfolded time and time again.
It's weird to say the least, and I hope it's simply coincidence. As my Mom always says though, everything happens for a reason, and I'm hoping that reason concludes this Thursday, August 30, when I turn 21.
I'll give you folks examples of what exactly I'm talking about, I can only really remember about 3-4 years back (they aren't spectacularly amazing, the amazing fact is that they repeatedly occur the same day)
It always starts August 24th without fail, this is the day I've quite literally come to call the 'Good Day'
2007: August 24th, 2007, was the day I made the choice to move my life further on, and amusingly it was also the same day, I found out I was being asked to return for a third, and final interview for a government job. Good news.
2006: Last year, this was the day, I was hired on to my next job at Startek, even as I was in the midst of a bloody battle with my previous employer to correct the reason stated on my record of employment from 'Job Abandonment' to the actual Resignation it was. Good news, that I was hired even though it quite literally looked like I had just flaked out on a similar job.
2005: Two years ago, this was the day I found out that I had taken first place in a creative writing competition and won the $500 first place prize. Good news, even if a week early than it should have been (was supposed to be announced August 30th)
Footnotes: This day, has for the past two years, been good news about getting good jobs, prior to working full time, it was always some kind of monetary gain, lottery ticket, contest, gift for a kind act, etc etc.. The only thing in common is the day and nature of what happened.
August 25th I call this one, the 'Odd Day'
2007: Quite simply, this was the first time, in forever, that a lady (she was pretty good looking to) started flirting and seriously trying to pick me up. Just plain odd, I've never before attracted female or male attention, it's always been me chasing them. Odd but fortunate.
2006: This ties into the job I got last year, instead of having to go four weeks jobless due to the training classes being full, someone had to quit before training started and I got into training next day. More odd but fortunate news.
2005: I'm a bit foggy about this one, pretty sure it was the day, I was randomly confronted by a few of my friends about being 'gay' and being offered unconditional friendship and support. I'm actually bisexual, but at the time, it was just plain odd.
Footnotes: As has been the trend, these days have been a little weirder, but always fortunate. It's from the following day forward that start to worry me.
August 26th This is the day things start to go Sour
2005, 2006, 2007: It's the same, and continues to be the same years previous and years continuing. I've actually made a regular habit of observing this day for good reason. Every single year without fail, milk, no matter how far away from expiration, has gone sour, when taken straight out of the fridge. My mother and I tried to avoid this last year by opting to buy milk the night before, it was fine that night, but when the morning came, it had curdled and it had been in the fridge all evening.
Footnote: This probably has the most resounding implication of some kind of weirdness, as I was seriously lactose intolerant up until I hit puberty and grew out of it.
August 27th I dread this day, but it's the least in those to come. Fights always happen on this day.
2007: I got caught in the middle of a major relationship fight of two best friends, because I let slip what I was drawing a friend for his birthday. For clarification, these two friends are boyfriend/girlfriend, I had never been told of the girlfriend's near psychopathic hate for anal play, while the boyfriend has a fondness for it. As mentioned, when I accidentally let slip that I was drawing the boyfriend two lesbian anthro foxes playing with anal beads. The proverbial shit hit the fan. Totally unexpected as they had been getting along so well, even in private.
2006: Probably one of the tamest years yet, this was simply a large disagreement between sides of my family. My father's side of the family had been visiting at the time, and the topic of my bastard father (he abandoned his family, without a proper divorce when I was only two years old, and has so far been a lying cheat, trying to repeatedly ruin my mother financially, emotionally and socially). Like Shakespearean plays, much to my mother's protests, they all launched off into an uncalled for tirade, as my father had just been audited and caught red handed of fraud.
2005: Two friends, broken noses and baseballs bats, over $20. They weren't drunk, it just got out of hand really fast, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Luckily, it was only broken noses for them.
August 28th The day the technology breaks, one of the most annoying days.
2007: My motorola phone, which has been kept in top shape, unexpectedly fries itself. A known manufacturer's defect, but I had never done anything to provoke the defect, it simply tripped, fried itself, and left me having to sign on for another 3 years to avoid paying $200 for a replacement phone.
2006: My original PC tower, the one I bought and built entirely myself, unexplicably, shutdown and stopped operating. Testing the components seperately revealed that they all worked. But when combined together, it was like the Voltron of FAIL. Just wouldn't boot, no matter what, and this trouble persisted through four accomplished and trust worthy certified technicians at varying shops in town.
2005: My sony walkman mini disc player, suddenly popped off it's hinges and bent the metal mechanical arms that the door used to open and close, without provocation. I'm the kind of guy who only needed one mini disc, and never opened the device after putting the original in. The one time I accidentally open it, it just up and wrecks itself to the point of it being cheaper to buy a new one.
And that so far, is 5 of the 7 days. I will update you guys with new journals as I endure the final three days. Wish me luck :)
This is another long, but light hearted read. About a phenomenon that has haunted me the seven days up to and including my birthday of August 30th, for as long as I can remember. Without fail, this chain of unlikely events has unfolded time and time again.
It's weird to say the least, and I hope it's simply coincidence. As my Mom always says though, everything happens for a reason, and I'm hoping that reason concludes this Thursday, August 30, when I turn 21.
I'll give you folks examples of what exactly I'm talking about, I can only really remember about 3-4 years back (they aren't spectacularly amazing, the amazing fact is that they repeatedly occur the same day)
It always starts August 24th without fail, this is the day I've quite literally come to call the 'Good Day'
2007: August 24th, 2007, was the day I made the choice to move my life further on, and amusingly it was also the same day, I found out I was being asked to return for a third, and final interview for a government job. Good news.
2006: Last year, this was the day, I was hired on to my next job at Startek, even as I was in the midst of a bloody battle with my previous employer to correct the reason stated on my record of employment from 'Job Abandonment' to the actual Resignation it was. Good news, that I was hired even though it quite literally looked like I had just flaked out on a similar job.
2005: Two years ago, this was the day I found out that I had taken first place in a creative writing competition and won the $500 first place prize. Good news, even if a week early than it should have been (was supposed to be announced August 30th)
Footnotes: This day, has for the past two years, been good news about getting good jobs, prior to working full time, it was always some kind of monetary gain, lottery ticket, contest, gift for a kind act, etc etc.. The only thing in common is the day and nature of what happened.
August 25th I call this one, the 'Odd Day'
2007: Quite simply, this was the first time, in forever, that a lady (she was pretty good looking to) started flirting and seriously trying to pick me up. Just plain odd, I've never before attracted female or male attention, it's always been me chasing them. Odd but fortunate.
2006: This ties into the job I got last year, instead of having to go four weeks jobless due to the training classes being full, someone had to quit before training started and I got into training next day. More odd but fortunate news.
2005: I'm a bit foggy about this one, pretty sure it was the day, I was randomly confronted by a few of my friends about being 'gay' and being offered unconditional friendship and support. I'm actually bisexual, but at the time, it was just plain odd.
Footnotes: As has been the trend, these days have been a little weirder, but always fortunate. It's from the following day forward that start to worry me.
August 26th This is the day things start to go Sour
2005, 2006, 2007: It's the same, and continues to be the same years previous and years continuing. I've actually made a regular habit of observing this day for good reason. Every single year without fail, milk, no matter how far away from expiration, has gone sour, when taken straight out of the fridge. My mother and I tried to avoid this last year by opting to buy milk the night before, it was fine that night, but when the morning came, it had curdled and it had been in the fridge all evening.
Footnote: This probably has the most resounding implication of some kind of weirdness, as I was seriously lactose intolerant up until I hit puberty and grew out of it.
August 27th I dread this day, but it's the least in those to come. Fights always happen on this day.
2007: I got caught in the middle of a major relationship fight of two best friends, because I let slip what I was drawing a friend for his birthday. For clarification, these two friends are boyfriend/girlfriend, I had never been told of the girlfriend's near psychopathic hate for anal play, while the boyfriend has a fondness for it. As mentioned, when I accidentally let slip that I was drawing the boyfriend two lesbian anthro foxes playing with anal beads. The proverbial shit hit the fan. Totally unexpected as they had been getting along so well, even in private.
2006: Probably one of the tamest years yet, this was simply a large disagreement between sides of my family. My father's side of the family had been visiting at the time, and the topic of my bastard father (he abandoned his family, without a proper divorce when I was only two years old, and has so far been a lying cheat, trying to repeatedly ruin my mother financially, emotionally and socially). Like Shakespearean plays, much to my mother's protests, they all launched off into an uncalled for tirade, as my father had just been audited and caught red handed of fraud.
2005: Two friends, broken noses and baseballs bats, over $20. They weren't drunk, it just got out of hand really fast, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. Luckily, it was only broken noses for them.
August 28th The day the technology breaks, one of the most annoying days.
2007: My motorola phone, which has been kept in top shape, unexpectedly fries itself. A known manufacturer's defect, but I had never done anything to provoke the defect, it simply tripped, fried itself, and left me having to sign on for another 3 years to avoid paying $200 for a replacement phone.
2006: My original PC tower, the one I bought and built entirely myself, unexplicably, shutdown and stopped operating. Testing the components seperately revealed that they all worked. But when combined together, it was like the Voltron of FAIL. Just wouldn't boot, no matter what, and this trouble persisted through four accomplished and trust worthy certified technicians at varying shops in town.
2005: My sony walkman mini disc player, suddenly popped off it's hinges and bent the metal mechanical arms that the door used to open and close, without provocation. I'm the kind of guy who only needed one mini disc, and never opened the device after putting the original in. The one time I accidentally open it, it just up and wrecks itself to the point of it being cheaper to buy a new one.
And that so far, is 5 of the 7 days. I will update you guys with new journals as I endure the final three days. Wish me luck :)
Commissions!
General | Posted 18 years agoYay! Something positive.
This is just a heads up, I'm down to 3 commissions that need completing. I'm working on Ninjapuppy's right now. The other two are pending confirmation that they still want the commission and the content.
So to for the next batch (I've learned my lessons from the first, gonna keep the batch sizes smaller)
Now this is important
I am not accepting new commissions right away
This is simply to give you guys a heads up about the new process, get some feed back about what you guys think and give you a heads up if you might want to commission me, but will need time to get funds together.
I will only take 4 commission spots per batch, doesn't matter what kind. Four and that's it. Once those are done, I'll either open up for more or take a break. This is of course, first come first serve basis.
Payment: Preferrably paypal, other options can be discussed (even if you didn't get into the current batch). Now if you are using paypal or some other form of instant payment option (please clear it with me first) you are -not- to pay me until I show you a sketch. No sooner, and preferrably within 24 hours. Why? Because it's a choice I've made, if life goes awry and I can't work on commissions, I don't want someone else's cash sitting in my pocket.
This is non negotiable, I've already had a few instances where people claim they paid when they got a spot for a commission, and lo and behold, they hadn't. Yes this opens me up to being ripped off, but the stage of art I will be showing you, will be watermarked. So you will see proof that I have started your project, you can make any corrections (this is not changes, only corrections) at that time, and this is when payment is expected, when I approach you with a preview of how things are coming.
What I will need from you:
Preferrably a referrence picture (in color, or with color samples)
Point form notes about character
-No ifs, ands or buts, if you get a spot, and only send me a large character description, and refuse to condense it down to the basic facts about your character, your spot will be FORFEIT.
I'm drawing for you, not reading your descriptions, I really don't want to have to go through your descriptions and figure out exactly how you intended things. I want simple facts, I don't muchly care for 'flowing silky skirts that shimmer in the sunlight'
Specifics about what you would like to be happening in the picture (else see below)
Other things:
Artistic freedom : I was very lenient on people who told me to have some freedom with their request, and then tell me it wasn't what they wanted, after I presented what I had spent time on already. If you use these two words, provide me with only a character description and no details of what you want the picture to be of (ie what's happening, what setting, when, etc etc) you will be approached for payment in full before work starts.
The difference between a Correction and a Change : As an improving artist, I will gladly make corrections to errors, these include anatomy, pose, actual discrepancy from provided referrence material. I will not make changes, if you decide after the fact, even before I approach you with the preview of your project, to change the content of your commission project drastically, you may very well be subject to paying in full up front, an additional surcharge, or being refused service, and potentially being denied future service.
Mind Reading Tax: I am not kidding, this is more so experience from collaborating, trades, and commissions. I can not read your minds, I will not be able to read in between the lines of what you're communicating to me via text. So please tell me any relevant details that may be implicit or not included. If you think of something after the fact, I've got MSN/AIM/ICQ and you can note me on FA, I will always appreciate information that makes my life easier and your money all the more well spent. But please, keep the above in mind about corrections/changes.
This is more so for situations where Jhonny Joe says he wants a commission of two characters, both herms, and he wants them fucking. He fails to tell me he has a preferrence of Herm A, doing Herm B doggy style, and tells me, after I've shown him a progress picture, that Herm B is actually riding Herm A cowboy style.
This is a flat rate of $10, this is as much as it is a deterrent to people being vague, as it is incentive for you people to tell me what you want. You're giving me YOUR money, I want to be sure you get something that makes you smile and appreciative. I want your money to be well spent, and yes, I do want you to come back and spend more money on me ^________^
The Mind Reading Tax (M.R.T.) is applicable at my discretion, non negotiable, and refusal to pay (Keep in mind I'm fairly relaxed and understanding, misunderstandings, miscommunications etc do happen. If it gets to the point where I'm slapping this on, you've either pissed me off, created a lot more work, or something unforseeable) will result in your commission being stopped and charged the appropriate price for the stage it's at, refusal to pay for the commission WILL result in denial of future commissions and I will publicly NAME AND SHAME you as such. This is incentive, I want to co-operate with you, not fight with you.
That about sums it up for amendments to the process o.O Sorry about the mini rants about particular things. I hope not to have to worry about the MRT, but if it comes up, you can't say I didn't warn you and give ample heads up. If you have any questions or feed back, give it to me! I want to make you people happy to spend money on me :3
And now, the examples and prices of what will be available shortly :D
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709081/
Digital Painting
$45
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709089/
Digital Lineart & Digital Coloring
$25
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709103/
Digital Sketch
$10
Sorry for the huge read ^^
This is just a heads up, I'm down to 3 commissions that need completing. I'm working on Ninjapuppy's right now. The other two are pending confirmation that they still want the commission and the content.
So to for the next batch (I've learned my lessons from the first, gonna keep the batch sizes smaller)
Now this is important
I am not accepting new commissions right away
This is simply to give you guys a heads up about the new process, get some feed back about what you guys think and give you a heads up if you might want to commission me, but will need time to get funds together.
I will only take 4 commission spots per batch, doesn't matter what kind. Four and that's it. Once those are done, I'll either open up for more or take a break. This is of course, first come first serve basis.
Payment: Preferrably paypal, other options can be discussed (even if you didn't get into the current batch). Now if you are using paypal or some other form of instant payment option (please clear it with me first) you are -not- to pay me until I show you a sketch. No sooner, and preferrably within 24 hours. Why? Because it's a choice I've made, if life goes awry and I can't work on commissions, I don't want someone else's cash sitting in my pocket.
This is non negotiable, I've already had a few instances where people claim they paid when they got a spot for a commission, and lo and behold, they hadn't. Yes this opens me up to being ripped off, but the stage of art I will be showing you, will be watermarked. So you will see proof that I have started your project, you can make any corrections (this is not changes, only corrections) at that time, and this is when payment is expected, when I approach you with a preview of how things are coming.
What I will need from you:
Preferrably a referrence picture (in color, or with color samples)
Point form notes about character
-No ifs, ands or buts, if you get a spot, and only send me a large character description, and refuse to condense it down to the basic facts about your character, your spot will be FORFEIT.
I'm drawing for you, not reading your descriptions, I really don't want to have to go through your descriptions and figure out exactly how you intended things. I want simple facts, I don't muchly care for 'flowing silky skirts that shimmer in the sunlight'
Specifics about what you would like to be happening in the picture (else see below)
Other things:
Artistic freedom : I was very lenient on people who told me to have some freedom with their request, and then tell me it wasn't what they wanted, after I presented what I had spent time on already. If you use these two words, provide me with only a character description and no details of what you want the picture to be of (ie what's happening, what setting, when, etc etc) you will be approached for payment in full before work starts.
The difference between a Correction and a Change : As an improving artist, I will gladly make corrections to errors, these include anatomy, pose, actual discrepancy from provided referrence material. I will not make changes, if you decide after the fact, even before I approach you with the preview of your project, to change the content of your commission project drastically, you may very well be subject to paying in full up front, an additional surcharge, or being refused service, and potentially being denied future service.
Mind Reading Tax: I am not kidding, this is more so experience from collaborating, trades, and commissions. I can not read your minds, I will not be able to read in between the lines of what you're communicating to me via text. So please tell me any relevant details that may be implicit or not included. If you think of something after the fact, I've got MSN/AIM/ICQ and you can note me on FA, I will always appreciate information that makes my life easier and your money all the more well spent. But please, keep the above in mind about corrections/changes.
This is more so for situations where Jhonny Joe says he wants a commission of two characters, both herms, and he wants them fucking. He fails to tell me he has a preferrence of Herm A, doing Herm B doggy style, and tells me, after I've shown him a progress picture, that Herm B is actually riding Herm A cowboy style.
This is a flat rate of $10, this is as much as it is a deterrent to people being vague, as it is incentive for you people to tell me what you want. You're giving me YOUR money, I want to be sure you get something that makes you smile and appreciative. I want your money to be well spent, and yes, I do want you to come back and spend more money on me ^________^
The Mind Reading Tax (M.R.T.) is applicable at my discretion, non negotiable, and refusal to pay (Keep in mind I'm fairly relaxed and understanding, misunderstandings, miscommunications etc do happen. If it gets to the point where I'm slapping this on, you've either pissed me off, created a lot more work, or something unforseeable) will result in your commission being stopped and charged the appropriate price for the stage it's at, refusal to pay for the commission WILL result in denial of future commissions and I will publicly NAME AND SHAME you as such. This is incentive, I want to co-operate with you, not fight with you.
That about sums it up for amendments to the process o.O Sorry about the mini rants about particular things. I hope not to have to worry about the MRT, but if it comes up, you can't say I didn't warn you and give ample heads up. If you have any questions or feed back, give it to me! I want to make you people happy to spend money on me :3
And now, the examples and prices of what will be available shortly :D
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709081/
Digital Painting
$45
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709089/
Digital Lineart & Digital Coloring
$25
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709103/
Digital Sketch
$10
Sorry for the huge read ^^
Excuses....
General | Posted 18 years agoSo like I mentioned in a recent submission, I figure this is probably just another step in the downward, mindfuckf of another major episode of depression. I really don't know why I'm bringing this up, bothering to post it. Expression has always been good for me, and as much as I want to evoke tears among other emotions with my art, I don't want to let my crap ass depression be present in it.
Ever since about feburary, that's when the stress kicked up and the 'true' start of this episode could be fingered. Back when I bought this house. It's just been such a hassle. I had been sitting on the idea almost five months at the time, I figured 'hell I don't have a real companion' I might as well get into a long term engagement with something. How fucking naive and bad of an idea that was.
And seriously, as long as I make $8 an hour, 40 hours a week, regularly, I don't have to do much else other than finish painting the place, and keeping it clean. That's before I have people renting from me. Yet this is where a lot of my anxiety attacks stem from. It's trivial crap. I don't know how I allow myself to continuously remain bothered by 'background' noise.
It's the size of this place and how empty it is. Even with a cat, it's still empty, still lifeless. It's still an empty house. Crap can sit for four weeks, and some months I don't even notice the difference. If it weren't for the fact my cat flings litter everywhere downstairs when I don't change his litterbox, well that would be an ugly sight next time I remembered to check it.
I'm just honestly hating how dead this house is to me, not to mention all of the fucked up shit that's happened in it, that I hate trying to rationalize, that I avoid at all costs. This house is for lack of better words, making me crazy. Can't really find anyone to rent from me when the rent is pretty good for what people get compared to other prices.
I'm ranting and venting, I have to fix the house situation, maybe I can find another house, single level, far more manageable for one person.
Or get someone(s) to start renting from me...
I want to spend time with my companion, but a good seventeen hours of driving seperate us. I hold onto this frail little net relationship, like it's the best thing I have going, and in my eyes it is.
I have floated around, I have looked, and maybe it's a matter of it being the wrong time. But any single person I meet who expresses an interest in me, I only find physical interest in. I've spent months trying to nurture an interest in them other than purely physical when it comes to a serious close relationship. It just doesn't happen, I've got a lot of friends, no fuck buddies, significant others, boyfriends, girlfriends, or what have you.
Never have, yet this relationship, it's something else, his personality, his voice, the memories, they make me forget the depression, they make me feel warm and fuzzy. I want to meet him, and hug him, and talk, and share parts of me that I've never wanted to share with anyone else (and no, not just my body, but parts of me as a person, that have been kept personal)
And you know what? If this 'relationship' crashes/fails/ends for whatever reasons, I know I'm going to cry, I know I'm going to hurt. I know I'm going to feel a lot of things, but I'm going to be happy, because I had this opportunity. I'm enjoying what I can of it.
A lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough attention, a lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough affection, a lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough support.
A lot of days, I feel like a failure.
I turn twenty one in six days, and I feel like the biggest failure. Compared to the world, compared to role models, compared to the group of friends I practically grew up with. I have no post secondary education, no job that's lasted longer than a year, other than almost three years as a cook at a KFC. I know my life has just started, but I can't seem to shake the feeling, that even by my own pretty relaxed standards, I'm a failure.
I can't control or do anything about these anxiety attacks I get, I can't seem to do anything about these bouts of depression. You might be saying to yourself 'hey this might be shit this guy can get help with' I've looked down that road, three out of three assessments have recommended medication that all have the potential to reduce creativity.
I'm sorry, that as the person I am, I would rather suffer, and occassionally vent. Than to sacrifice my creativity to be a happier wage slave.
I can't seem to find the happiness in improving as an artist anymore, I can't seem to enjoy myself as a gamer and friend these days. I can't seem to appreciate the accomplishments (what few I have) tucked under my belt. I still see the color in this world, but it all feels grey.
As an artist, it feels like I have failed myself as I can't seem to enjoy life as much as I remember.
Sorry for the rant.
Ever since about feburary, that's when the stress kicked up and the 'true' start of this episode could be fingered. Back when I bought this house. It's just been such a hassle. I had been sitting on the idea almost five months at the time, I figured 'hell I don't have a real companion' I might as well get into a long term engagement with something. How fucking naive and bad of an idea that was.
And seriously, as long as I make $8 an hour, 40 hours a week, regularly, I don't have to do much else other than finish painting the place, and keeping it clean. That's before I have people renting from me. Yet this is where a lot of my anxiety attacks stem from. It's trivial crap. I don't know how I allow myself to continuously remain bothered by 'background' noise.
It's the size of this place and how empty it is. Even with a cat, it's still empty, still lifeless. It's still an empty house. Crap can sit for four weeks, and some months I don't even notice the difference. If it weren't for the fact my cat flings litter everywhere downstairs when I don't change his litterbox, well that would be an ugly sight next time I remembered to check it.
I'm just honestly hating how dead this house is to me, not to mention all of the fucked up shit that's happened in it, that I hate trying to rationalize, that I avoid at all costs. This house is for lack of better words, making me crazy. Can't really find anyone to rent from me when the rent is pretty good for what people get compared to other prices.
I'm ranting and venting, I have to fix the house situation, maybe I can find another house, single level, far more manageable for one person.
Or get someone(s) to start renting from me...
I want to spend time with my companion, but a good seventeen hours of driving seperate us. I hold onto this frail little net relationship, like it's the best thing I have going, and in my eyes it is.
I have floated around, I have looked, and maybe it's a matter of it being the wrong time. But any single person I meet who expresses an interest in me, I only find physical interest in. I've spent months trying to nurture an interest in them other than purely physical when it comes to a serious close relationship. It just doesn't happen, I've got a lot of friends, no fuck buddies, significant others, boyfriends, girlfriends, or what have you.
Never have, yet this relationship, it's something else, his personality, his voice, the memories, they make me forget the depression, they make me feel warm and fuzzy. I want to meet him, and hug him, and talk, and share parts of me that I've never wanted to share with anyone else (and no, not just my body, but parts of me as a person, that have been kept personal)
And you know what? If this 'relationship' crashes/fails/ends for whatever reasons, I know I'm going to cry, I know I'm going to hurt. I know I'm going to feel a lot of things, but I'm going to be happy, because I had this opportunity. I'm enjoying what I can of it.
A lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough attention, a lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough affection, a lot of days it feels like I don't show him enough support.
A lot of days, I feel like a failure.
I turn twenty one in six days, and I feel like the biggest failure. Compared to the world, compared to role models, compared to the group of friends I practically grew up with. I have no post secondary education, no job that's lasted longer than a year, other than almost three years as a cook at a KFC. I know my life has just started, but I can't seem to shake the feeling, that even by my own pretty relaxed standards, I'm a failure.
I can't control or do anything about these anxiety attacks I get, I can't seem to do anything about these bouts of depression. You might be saying to yourself 'hey this might be shit this guy can get help with' I've looked down that road, three out of three assessments have recommended medication that all have the potential to reduce creativity.
I'm sorry, that as the person I am, I would rather suffer, and occassionally vent. Than to sacrifice my creativity to be a happier wage slave.
I can't seem to find the happiness in improving as an artist anymore, I can't seem to enjoy myself as a gamer and friend these days. I can't seem to appreciate the accomplishments (what few I have) tucked under my belt. I still see the color in this world, but it all feels grey.
As an artist, it feels like I have failed myself as I can't seem to enjoy life as much as I remember.
Sorry for the rant.
Would you so kindly...
General | Posted 18 years agoI'll admit, when the opportunity reared it's face to get Bioshock LE for free, because EB games sold my preordered regular copy, I couldn't pass it up. I've been drooling over this game since I heard about it, considering I have an original copy of The System Shock on those tiny not so floppy floppy disks (3.5s?) which goes hand in hand with System Shock 2.
It was everything I expected, and dreamed for, and several friends I've shown it to, who were just expecting another hyped up shooter, were completely blown away.
It quite literally got to the point, where I was hijacked to a friend's house, we attached my PC to his 52" HDTV, and seven other gamers all kicked back, drinking and relaxing, while I went around snapping my fingers. (Incinerate is too much fun, it's quite literally got me wanting to be able to light people on fire by snapping my fingers in real life)
I figure it's going to take a while for me to figure out what exactly I didn't like about the game. It was orgasmic, between the eight of us (seven watching and myself actually playing through the game) it was a a really enjoyable, dare I say, orgasmic, marathon and gaming experience.
Although, now I've got seven people waiting to borrow my copy of the game until they get their own (the local stores are backordered another two weeks already c.c, talk about a sleeping hit) this means I'll be getting some drawing done.
Between the two endings I've gotten, the one where you harvest the Little Sisters and the one where you rescue them, I like the rescue one more so. I am a suck for happy endings though.
It was everything I expected, and dreamed for, and several friends I've shown it to, who were just expecting another hyped up shooter, were completely blown away.
It quite literally got to the point, where I was hijacked to a friend's house, we attached my PC to his 52" HDTV, and seven other gamers all kicked back, drinking and relaxing, while I went around snapping my fingers. (Incinerate is too much fun, it's quite literally got me wanting to be able to light people on fire by snapping my fingers in real life)
I figure it's going to take a while for me to figure out what exactly I didn't like about the game. It was orgasmic, between the eight of us (seven watching and myself actually playing through the game) it was a a really enjoyable, dare I say, orgasmic, marathon and gaming experience.
Although, now I've got seven people waiting to borrow my copy of the game until they get their own (the local stores are backordered another two weeks already c.c, talk about a sleeping hit) this means I'll be getting some drawing done.
Between the two endings I've gotten, the one where you harvest the Little Sisters and the one where you rescue them, I like the rescue one more so. I am a suck for happy endings though.
No this is not a rag on SunderedMoon
General | Posted 18 years agoIt is however a personal observation after a few days.
I can be a total jackass, retard, asshole. Maybe not that dramatic (and please never let me have my own page on ED c.c) I think I just need my head screwed on straighter then it is right now.
My webpage needs more porn, and I need to finish that CD I started back in June.
As for the perfect nemesis I was talking about a few days back, I've put that on the backburner with becoming the most awesome artist ever.
This page needs more fun and porn. Definitely more porn. So I shall strive to bring you people more porn, and more importantly, better quality porn.
Something to that effect yeah.
I can be a total jackass, retard, asshole. Maybe not that dramatic (and please never let me have my own page on ED c.c) I think I just need my head screwed on straighter then it is right now.
My webpage needs more porn, and I need to finish that CD I started back in June.
As for the perfect nemesis I was talking about a few days back, I've put that on the backburner with becoming the most awesome artist ever.
This page needs more fun and porn. Definitely more porn. So I shall strive to bring you people more porn, and more importantly, better quality porn.
Something to that effect yeah.
Feh-losophy
General | Posted 18 years agoLife:
Is about three things to me;
Survival, not of the fittest. My own, personal survival in more ways than just the basics, financially, spiritually, mentally and physically. I do my best, to insure that not only am I meeting the basics, but going above and beyond as a personal challenge. Often I fail, but it's not all about winning, Aliasi (aka Mega) continues to pound it into my head, that the journey is as important as the destination. I personally, still figure the culmination will mean more to myself at this point in time.
People, those around me, those near, those far. Just in general and those really important to me. Family, friends, companions, 'good company' (what I call people who I know I can confide just about anything in, few and far between, but damn do I consider myself lucky to have a lot of good company) When all is said and done, my world revolves around people, I continuously choose, and excel in people related jobs, I might be quiet, but I've got friends I would fight for, and I can rest assured, I've got friends who would fight for me.
Philosophy, has always been important to me. I have always tried to find a philosophy to best fit the situation. I'm pretty sure I'm bastardizing the practise of philosophizing, but it's calming and it is the closest thing I have to spirituality and religion. It's not all practical and it's not all psychadelic. Philosophy is my way of rationalizing the world.
Art:
Is about two things to me;
Progression, because when I first set out, I set out to become someone good. I think I suck to this day, I expect to suck for the rest of my life. I get to laugh when people say I'm good, I can't argue with the critics, but I will always be trying to find someone better than myself and striving to go further. Right now, there's a lot of people who are significantly more talented than myself. I salute these people, I admire them, and I hope, that some day, I can set the same example for someone else.
Expression, because realistically, in real life, I am very quiet until I'm angry and in a fight. Most of the art the internet sees is porn, that's just my hormones, the stuff most folks enjoy. I really don't think my private emotions belong on display at this point in time. Maybe some day, my emotions can replace the hormones. For now, you'll all have to live with the hormones.
Love:
Is one thing and only one thing for myself;
Committment, call me old fashioned, but I thoroughly believe in a simpler form of love. I believe in a concept of companionship, someone you share your life with. A soul mate, I don't believe in predefined companionship. It is something you forge and figure out with your significant other. I hope, and I cry, and I laugh when I think about whom I hope is my companion. He makes me smile, me makes me cringe, but I can't stop caring and wondering about him. He feels the same, or so I gather from what we share. He cares so much, and I wonder where I would be as a person if I had not met him.
Love is what you make of it, it's not the ideal that someone tells you it is. You can most definitely adopt someone else's, but Love, is between two, maybe three, maybe more, it's what you make of it. Don't let someone else tell you differently.
I love art, I love life, I Love my companion. I live to progress and express, I survive to commit myself to my friends and my companion. I express myself and indulge philosophy to better understand my expressions.
The question I ask, is what about yourself?
You could call this a meme of sorts. Sort things out for yourself, you've got Life, Love & Art. Pick three things for one, two for another, and only one for the last. There's no specific order, it's what you make of it, and probably makes it something other than a meme.
Is about three things to me;
Survival, not of the fittest. My own, personal survival in more ways than just the basics, financially, spiritually, mentally and physically. I do my best, to insure that not only am I meeting the basics, but going above and beyond as a personal challenge. Often I fail, but it's not all about winning, Aliasi (aka Mega) continues to pound it into my head, that the journey is as important as the destination. I personally, still figure the culmination will mean more to myself at this point in time.
People, those around me, those near, those far. Just in general and those really important to me. Family, friends, companions, 'good company' (what I call people who I know I can confide just about anything in, few and far between, but damn do I consider myself lucky to have a lot of good company) When all is said and done, my world revolves around people, I continuously choose, and excel in people related jobs, I might be quiet, but I've got friends I would fight for, and I can rest assured, I've got friends who would fight for me.
Philosophy, has always been important to me. I have always tried to find a philosophy to best fit the situation. I'm pretty sure I'm bastardizing the practise of philosophizing, but it's calming and it is the closest thing I have to spirituality and religion. It's not all practical and it's not all psychadelic. Philosophy is my way of rationalizing the world.
Art:
Is about two things to me;
Progression, because when I first set out, I set out to become someone good. I think I suck to this day, I expect to suck for the rest of my life. I get to laugh when people say I'm good, I can't argue with the critics, but I will always be trying to find someone better than myself and striving to go further. Right now, there's a lot of people who are significantly more talented than myself. I salute these people, I admire them, and I hope, that some day, I can set the same example for someone else.
Expression, because realistically, in real life, I am very quiet until I'm angry and in a fight. Most of the art the internet sees is porn, that's just my hormones, the stuff most folks enjoy. I really don't think my private emotions belong on display at this point in time. Maybe some day, my emotions can replace the hormones. For now, you'll all have to live with the hormones.
Love:
Is one thing and only one thing for myself;
Committment, call me old fashioned, but I thoroughly believe in a simpler form of love. I believe in a concept of companionship, someone you share your life with. A soul mate, I don't believe in predefined companionship. It is something you forge and figure out with your significant other. I hope, and I cry, and I laugh when I think about whom I hope is my companion. He makes me smile, me makes me cringe, but I can't stop caring and wondering about him. He feels the same, or so I gather from what we share. He cares so much, and I wonder where I would be as a person if I had not met him.
Love is what you make of it, it's not the ideal that someone tells you it is. You can most definitely adopt someone else's, but Love, is between two, maybe three, maybe more, it's what you make of it. Don't let someone else tell you differently.
I love art, I love life, I Love my companion. I live to progress and express, I survive to commit myself to my friends and my companion. I express myself and indulge philosophy to better understand my expressions.
The question I ask, is what about yourself?
You could call this a meme of sorts. Sort things out for yourself, you've got Life, Love & Art. Pick three things for one, two for another, and only one for the last. There's no specific order, it's what you make of it, and probably makes it something other than a meme.
*insert scream here*
General | Posted 18 years agoYou know, one thing that I do believe my life would benefit from, a true, thorough nemesis.... Or maybe I'm a nemesis to someone or some people o.O
Random musings while I draw.
Seriously, what would you figure a quiet, yet subtly influential figure to be?
Feh, this is what happens when I don't have enough people to OC/Chat with.
Random musings while I draw.
Seriously, what would you figure a quiet, yet subtly influential figure to be?
Feh, this is what happens when I don't have enough people to OC/Chat with.
Incentive...
General | Posted 18 years agoIf you're looking for something happy, cheerful and what not, go straight to the bottom.
For those that like to hear the nitty gritty of a furry porn doodling person.
I thought everything with my employer was pleasantly wrapped up....
What's this? That's right, no Direct Deposit final paycheck. Call them up, all final paychecks are paper only.
Whatever, I ask when I can pick it up, it's already been mailed. This is fine and dandy! I'm getting my money.
Many many many days later...
.... a phone rings in the background...
'What do you mean it never got mailed out?'
...
'And you lost it!?'
....
'You guys are assholes.'
....
'And you won't reissue it until it expires on it's own after it's 120day lifetime.'
To sum the conversation up, they're douche bags, they won't put a stop on the original $1100 checks ($500 in accrued vacation and $600 for two weeks worth of work.)
This means another three months of being fucked over. This really ruined my day today.
As such, that puts me almost $2000 (The long story short, how I wound up that far in the hole, is that two of my utilities never told me they weren't getting cash via auto-withdrawal, and I got hit with almost $700 in arrears that I need to figure out, I'm pretty sure about $400 is from the previous owners, which I shouldn't be paying, because I paid a lawyer to make sure of that...) behind when it comes to cashflow. I plan to have most of the commissions done by next week and taking new batches of 2-3 at a time (more manageable) until I'm caught back up.
So, I present to you folks, the future commission prices:
All commission prices are for a single character, simple background. Background complexity + multiple characters are negotiable. Examples provided are outdated, but will be base line standard, minimum. If I can't get the point across, I will do my best with your projects, as I would like to build a reputation for myself :)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709081/
Digital Painting
$45
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709089/
Digital Lineart & Digital Coloring
$25
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709103/
Digital Sketch
$10
And that's how the prices go folks. When it comes to finished lineart (ie darkened lines akin to inks) is not something I'm offering overtly as it's not something I feel comfortable charging for. If you really really want something with finished lineart, but no colors, it can be discussed.
As soon as I finish this current batch of commissions, I will start taking new projects, and I will keep people posted through my FA journal. Next few months are gonna be crazy o.O
For those that like to hear the nitty gritty of a furry porn doodling person.
I thought everything with my employer was pleasantly wrapped up....
What's this? That's right, no Direct Deposit final paycheck. Call them up, all final paychecks are paper only.
Whatever, I ask when I can pick it up, it's already been mailed. This is fine and dandy! I'm getting my money.
Many many many days later...
.... a phone rings in the background...
'What do you mean it never got mailed out?'
...
'And you lost it!?'
....
'You guys are assholes.'
....
'And you won't reissue it until it expires on it's own after it's 120day lifetime.'
To sum the conversation up, they're douche bags, they won't put a stop on the original $1100 checks ($500 in accrued vacation and $600 for two weeks worth of work.)
This means another three months of being fucked over. This really ruined my day today.
As such, that puts me almost $2000 (The long story short, how I wound up that far in the hole, is that two of my utilities never told me they weren't getting cash via auto-withdrawal, and I got hit with almost $700 in arrears that I need to figure out, I'm pretty sure about $400 is from the previous owners, which I shouldn't be paying, because I paid a lawyer to make sure of that...) behind when it comes to cashflow. I plan to have most of the commissions done by next week and taking new batches of 2-3 at a time (more manageable) until I'm caught back up.
So, I present to you folks, the future commission prices:
All commission prices are for a single character, simple background. Background complexity + multiple characters are negotiable. Examples provided are outdated, but will be base line standard, minimum. If I can't get the point across, I will do my best with your projects, as I would like to build a reputation for myself :)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709081/
Digital Painting
$45
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709089/
Digital Lineart & Digital Coloring
$25
-
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/709103/
Digital Sketch
$10
And that's how the prices go folks. When it comes to finished lineart (ie darkened lines akin to inks) is not something I'm offering overtly as it's not something I feel comfortable charging for. If you really really want something with finished lineart, but no colors, it can be discussed.
As soon as I finish this current batch of commissions, I will start taking new projects, and I will keep people posted through my FA journal. Next few months are gonna be crazy o.O
Musings
General | Posted 18 years agoSooo, while I'm working away here (got four commission sketches going, just alternating between all of them to keep the momentum going) I find myself facing a dilemma that cropped up back in May. I keep avoiding this topic, because it makes me feel like a jerk. aliasi as always, has been a good source of logical rationale, and keeps reminding me to just do the math and stop screwing myself.
I blame all my time spent at call centers being brainwashed to make sure the customer is happy. All of you people are great people, still when I count dollars from commissions, I go into customer service mode. I like to think that this helps me with commissions a little more, making sure I deliver the best/most accurate product I can for a person's cash.
This is the dilemma though, I'm running into 6+ hours on a $15 commission, because while I'm spending time trying to figure out the sketch and work the anatomy, I'm not doing something that's making cash. I keep trying to argue it this way and that. I can't ignore my rather, touchy, financial situation.
I'm either looking at a part time job to supplement my income and relegating art to a side hobby. Or up the rates I charge for commissions to make more money off them. It's not something I've taken lightly, I'm two months down the road and I still feel like it would be highway robbery.
Sooo I'm going to fish my small little following for suggestions, comments and ideas;
How much would you pay?
Don't worry so much about time involved. Just figure if you had some disposable cash, what would you be willing to spend on commissions of similar style & improving quality?
1 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/564804/
This is a truer form of a 'digital painting', no actual line art. This is what I'm leaning towards with my regular efforts.
2 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/690836/
More traditional lineart & blended color job.
3 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/657517/
Simple, concepty sketch thing.
Sooo, for 1, 2 & 3, respectively, what would you people with your generous wallets and purses pay? Please, ask your friends, I'd love to get back to taking commissions at a reasonable rate for everyone involved.
aliasi as always, has been a good source of logical rationale, and keeps reminding me to just do the math and stop screwing myself.I blame all my time spent at call centers being brainwashed to make sure the customer is happy. All of you people are great people, still when I count dollars from commissions, I go into customer service mode. I like to think that this helps me with commissions a little more, making sure I deliver the best/most accurate product I can for a person's cash.
This is the dilemma though, I'm running into 6+ hours on a $15 commission, because while I'm spending time trying to figure out the sketch and work the anatomy, I'm not doing something that's making cash. I keep trying to argue it this way and that. I can't ignore my rather, touchy, financial situation.
I'm either looking at a part time job to supplement my income and relegating art to a side hobby. Or up the rates I charge for commissions to make more money off them. It's not something I've taken lightly, I'm two months down the road and I still feel like it would be highway robbery.
Sooo I'm going to fish my small little following for suggestions, comments and ideas;
How much would you pay?
Don't worry so much about time involved. Just figure if you had some disposable cash, what would you be willing to spend on commissions of similar style & improving quality?
1 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/564804/
This is a truer form of a 'digital painting', no actual line art. This is what I'm leaning towards with my regular efforts.
2 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/690836/
More traditional lineart & blended color job.
3 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/657517/
Simple, concepty sketch thing.
Sooo, for 1, 2 & 3, respectively, what would you people with your generous wallets and purses pay? Please, ask your friends, I'd love to get back to taking commissions at a reasonable rate for everyone involved.
OpenCanvas
General | Posted 18 years agoAs of right now, I'm working with openCanvas 1.12b.. I've been looking at openCanvas 4.5+.. It looks like a truly robust program, and hell, I know most of it from top to bottom already.
Right now though, being jobless makes me hesitate about spending money on a new piece of software. What I'm curious, is, are there any of you who watch me, that use oC4+? Or if you know someone that does, could you ask them if there are any major/significant benefits to using oC4.x over just plain vanilla 1.12?
Thanks for your time and reading
Right now though, being jobless makes me hesitate about spending money on a new piece of software. What I'm curious, is, are there any of you who watch me, that use oC4+? Or if you know someone that does, could you ask them if there are any major/significant benefits to using oC4.x over just plain vanilla 1.12?
Thanks for your time and reading
Thoughts and what not.
General | Posted 18 years agoWell the visit is done and over with. Mega aka aliasi got home safe and sound. I got to drive for ten hours Friday with barely any breaks (woo woo, I did get paid in the form of a current, up to date, complete Transformers compilation book. Sooo geeksexy)
I've been decompressing myself and getting back into the swing of things artistically. There are two things on my brain when it comes to art; I need classes, or some serious referrence material to bump my skills up to that next level, maybe even someone just more experienced than myself that I can talk to and get advice from. The other, is the program I use, OpenCanvas is great fun, but it's also terribly limited; it can produce amazing quality work. I just don't have the knowledge to squeeze the most out of it though.
The major thing is the gaps of knowledge in the basics, after spending three years (going on four) of teaching myself, there's a lot I still don't know that I need to figure out and learn. I'm just starting to get impatient, this delectable obsession/hobby, is driving me up the wall, and I can't quite seem to find enough information to keep pushing the boundaries of my skills.
I keep mucking around with pencil, pen and digital. I'm getting more and more comfortable with backgrounds and referrence pictures. I'm having fun screwing around with alternate styles for backgrounds (characters too!) Still, I'm largely just working with what I have. I want more.
On that note, I stopped and took stock of my art this morning, outside of half a dozen commissions over as many years, I really don't get much art, either the stuff I pay for, or gift art (which I've never gotten). Just kinda struck me and made me sit down.
Makes me wonder, am I recluse? Am I just mean? Made me question the kind of person I am. I'm also the kind of person that always says 'Don't worry about it' or 'No need'. But, I'm really starting to question that part of me. Maybe it's time I became a little more greedy? I literally can't count with both hands and feet how many art trades I've finished my half of, and gotten my half in return.
Maybe I'm just that crappy of an artist....
aliasi got home safe and sound. I got to drive for ten hours Friday with barely any breaks (woo woo, I did get paid in the form of a current, up to date, complete Transformers compilation book. Sooo geeksexy)I've been decompressing myself and getting back into the swing of things artistically. There are two things on my brain when it comes to art; I need classes, or some serious referrence material to bump my skills up to that next level, maybe even someone just more experienced than myself that I can talk to and get advice from. The other, is the program I use, OpenCanvas is great fun, but it's also terribly limited; it can produce amazing quality work. I just don't have the knowledge to squeeze the most out of it though.
The major thing is the gaps of knowledge in the basics, after spending three years (going on four) of teaching myself, there's a lot I still don't know that I need to figure out and learn. I'm just starting to get impatient, this delectable obsession/hobby, is driving me up the wall, and I can't quite seem to find enough information to keep pushing the boundaries of my skills.
I keep mucking around with pencil, pen and digital. I'm getting more and more comfortable with backgrounds and referrence pictures. I'm having fun screwing around with alternate styles for backgrounds (characters too!) Still, I'm largely just working with what I have. I want more.
On that note, I stopped and took stock of my art this morning, outside of half a dozen commissions over as many years, I really don't get much art, either the stuff I pay for, or gift art (which I've never gotten). Just kinda struck me and made me sit down.
Makes me wonder, am I recluse? Am I just mean? Made me question the kind of person I am. I'm also the kind of person that always says 'Don't worry about it' or 'No need'. But, I'm really starting to question that part of me. Maybe it's time I became a little more greedy? I literally can't count with both hands and feet how many art trades I've finished my half of, and gotten my half in return.
Maybe I'm just that crappy of an artist....
Everybody do the locomotion?
General | Posted 18 years agoAll things told, things are finally going better. Finally getting art done again, Mega's visit is going well.
The only thing that's not moving along at a super duper good/fast pace is my job hunt. Not that I mind the break from wage slavery. Hopefully, I'll have the remaining bunch of the commissions done in good time. Then I've got a few requests/prizes/pieces of gift art to do and then commissions should re-open.
Just want to publicly say, I appreciate your patience folks. It means a lot to know that people are still looking at my page now and then even with the sporadic updates.
The only thing that's not moving along at a super duper good/fast pace is my job hunt. Not that I mind the break from wage slavery. Hopefully, I'll have the remaining bunch of the commissions done in good time. Then I've got a few requests/prizes/pieces of gift art to do and then commissions should re-open.
Just want to publicly say, I appreciate your patience folks. It means a lot to know that people are still looking at my page now and then even with the sporadic updates.
