While pursuing jobs and financial solutions, I'm not doing much during the days.

So, I'm open to OC, give me a holler on a messenger. I could use the company and practise to get back into the swing of things.

I got fired, I can't get any art done and I'm so horribly confused about things.

Man I'm in a sad sad state right now.

Just venting.

Wooo, two journal posts within 7 days of each other. Now if only the celebration would carry through with the rest of this message.

I've mentioned it a few times, the long story short: Job crisis. In the past week or so, quite a bit has happened. Plenty more stress, all that jazz. I'm probably not going to have this job much longer. For the simple fact of how much stress and grief it has been causing lately.

I'm going straight to the point, instead of mucking around with it. I'm looking for someone -in- Thunder Bay, Ontario, Canada, who's looking for living accomodations. The original plan had been to rent, then I found out I could own the place and live on my own. This worked splendidly, and before work started screwing with me, I had the time and I was under nowhere near the same kind of pressure.

Then work started screwing me around left, right and center. It's driven me up a wall, wrecked my sleeping patterns, and driven me back to playing MMOs compulsively. I've turned off my MMO accounts (again)

So back to the point of this journal, if you, or someone you know is in the Thunder Bay, Ontario area; Like I've mentioned I own a house, inside the city, ten minutes away from a bus depot, two minutes of walking away from three major bus lines, have a backyard, driveway. Everything, internet, can get TV (I don't watch it), washer and dryer, own room, full bathroom, full kitchen.

The house is in good condition, (I just need to finish painting the walls ;;>.>) and the price range is in the $450 canadian a month. That's including the share of utilities.

This isn't a joke, I'm looking for serious people, feel free to catch me on any sort of messenger. Wether it's long term, or short term, obviously I'd prefer long term.

Thanks for listening to me rant, and anyone who reads this, if you so even think someone might be interested, please let them know. Arrangements are negotiable, and particularly for folks of this community, I am a furry artist. No benefits there, just nothing awkward about interests. I'm open minded and easy going about life at home as long as others are neat, respectful.. etc etc...

I won't bother with the life rant. It's been the usual, work, lack of sleep, stress and what not.

Mainly been working on my finances.

For all the people waiting on commissions, so sorry. I'm truly sorry about the delays This next part is an explanation of sorts, both for the delay and for what everyone can expect in the future.

When I first set out to do commissions, I made the mistake of assuming I could make all the time in the world I wanted to get them finished and just bulldoze through them. This was a terrible idea, art, simply can not be rushed.

This all had a snowball effect, instead of only taking 2-3 hours as I originally planned per piece, it's been turning into 6 hours and more. My obsession to get better hasn't relented any. So between personal moral and philosophical dilemmas, not only have commissions been stalled, but pretty much everything else art related except for doodles just to clear my brain.

I'm aiming to have the rest of the commissions done inside of two-three weeks,  aliasi is coming to visit July 21-27.

When commissions return, prices are going to be higher, and I'm not going to offer as many slots (I'm not going to say, all of you who want one, let me know) I'm probably going to restrict it to 2-4 per batch. Much more manageable.

Again folks, I really do want to apologize. My lack of discipline is terrible /Piro XD

Man, talk about a lack of art lately.

It's been a few things really. Work is the most pressing. It's hard to keep to a regular schedule when I'm working 11:30am to 9pm one day, and then 8am-5:30pm the day right after. Not only is it screwing with my sleep schedule, but four nine and a half hour shifts back to back, not that bad on paper.

The last hour is like uber brain/body drain though.

I'd dare say a level 70 affliction spec'd warlock draining my soul. Which is the other thing, WoW has it's fingers in my soul again.

I can't see it eating that much of my time really, I'm just not the addict I used to be.

Man, my head just hurts lately. I'm trying folks, but it's a losing battle, as soon as I see how this work from home job goes, things may very well be improving.

On the plus side, I'm only $55,000 or so in debt... with no post secondary education what so ever.

And I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, if I don't stop drawing porn all together, I probably will be creating another online identity, dedicate this alias to porn, and the other, to clean presentable stuff. I've just been thinking about a professional career on my art, and furry porn, I really can't depend on, need wider horizons.

I also don't want to feel guilty when I sit down and start to work on a WH40k digital painting and think 'Well shit, I can't post this to my one and only online art account over at FA'

So yeah, I'll keep you all posted.

Heya folks, long rant, if you want the long story short, scroll right to the bottom.

This isn't political, religious, or anything 'drama' like. It's an essay of sorts, about characters, stories and plots.

A Characters Importance: The Association of Consequence and Deus Ex Machina

Part One: The Intent of a Character


Part Two: The Cause of the Character


Part Two: The Impact And Consequence


Reiterating such a simply stated thesis in other words, this will be a personal observation on the effect of characters on other people, plots and story settings based upon personal experience. Their measure of importance in relevance to events, realism and other characters. All of which is subjective and relative to the situation and bias of the individual making the observation, so I will try to make it as objective as possible, if you don't mind following my train of thought.

Part One: The Intent of a Character

A character should always have a purpose, for a character without a purpose is nothing more then an out of place prop. For most characters, the purpose is quite simply, existential, that is to say, day to day life and what it brings forth. The more interesting and involving characters, tend to exhibit supernatural purpose. That is to say, the more interesting characters, usually have a more interesting and unusual story.

Regardless of context, there will always be a story behind a meaningful character. Wether this character is a hero or villain, they are rarely of significance to anyone if they are random, disposable and of no importance. The intent of any well intended character, is to bring forth a story, and the involved details, to the focus of attention.

Characters of fiction, are reflections of real life. Sometimes warped and distorted beyond recognition, sometimes merely shown in a different light, but still as true as an honest reflection in a perfect mirror. At base, they are the purpose of a story, the intent of a character, is at heart, to tell a story.

Part Two: The Cause of the Character

With room for arguement and definition, a character is an entity of defined intention. Someone who has an idea of what is happening, wether they are blissfully ignorant, or fully aware, same as they have a choice in the outcome of matters, through the effect of inconsequential action, consequential action, or mere inaction. The character will get involved.

What I would argue, makes a difference, is how a character's actions, impact the progress of a plot or storyline, and how those actions are made available to the character. Be it as rational thoughts, logical reactions, or available tools. In the real world, no one has a utility belt, most people don't know extraneous tidbits of information under duress. These same exhibited traits, define the interesting characters, from simple existential characters.

It can be done believably, realistically, and conscionably. However, it can be a tad common to see such outcomes that favor the main character, regardless of odds, by virtue of the character's importance to a storyline. This is hotly debatable, as any good story, needs a good character, and what moves a good story forward to a better conclusion, is impossible to clearly define.

To provide an example, where a story presents a hero triumphing against improbable odds time and time again without fail. While it may endear romantic notions of invulnerability and supernatural capability, and in some situations this is the obvious intent. When that hero triumphs, simply because he is important, more then likely through Deus Ex Machina (the perfect solution being available at the right time, or no plausible solution being available, but the hero triumping regardless) ie resolutions and trials with no relevant purpose, other then to simply showcase a character's importance.

A character is generally, to provide a body and face to a story, not be mounted as a trophy of importance in a particular scenario. Characters rise and fall in popularity with time, but without a meaningful story, and with trivial expositions to inflate importance, they fail as a character.

Part Three: The Impact And Consequence

Any story can be presented with any character. What you will oft encounter with happenstance characters and partially thought out plots, is that they lack substance and consistency. You may find romantic tales of fairy tale like endings, this may very well be what you enjoy.

As an artist and aspiring writer, I find myself striving to fully flesh out not just the strengths and weaknesses of a character. I find myself striving to fully explore a character's reasons, availablities, limits and purposes. Some of the greatest stories available, exhibit characters in situations that stress, and sometimes break the limits of their characters, redefine their reasons and purposes, and that, is a story well told.

It is a story where the story still comes across, and yet the character has been made important by the story. The story was not made to glorify a character's importance.

Long story short: Characters that win just because they're important (which is of relative definition) and not because of merits, tend to suck :D In my humble over worded opinion anyways.

Hey again folks.

Like I mentioned in a previous journal, I've been contemplating an art CD as a project. This is going to be a two part process.

Just to let you know what my aim for an end product is; 3-5 digital paintings, 10-15 colored images and 15-20 sketch/ink like pieces. More then likely in the $20-$30 range including shipping prices.

So, send me a note on FA (since everyone can do it), don't bother with a message, just use
'ART CD: <Insert Theme>'

This is two fold, makes it really easy for me, and well, you have to keep it to basic key words. Try to avoid specific characters, if there is sufficient demand, I will cave in.


There's 360 some odd of you watching me, spread the word to your like minded friends, the more votes, the more likely your favorite kink/topic/fetish gets an entire art CD done.

Hiya hiya folks, getting an update in to let you know I haven't fallen off of the face of the earth.

1) I am not going to guarantee my commission prices when I open up for commissions again.

This means two things, prices are more then likely going to go up, and secondly I might be offering digital paintings for dirt cheap within the next batch.

2) I've been having thoughts about my little parody comic, that might just turn into a project in and of itself.

3) Kids! You'll know what I mean when I get these sketches done.

4) ART CDs, which are fucking awesome. Thinking doing one, how about a vote for what the theme should be?

On the topic of voting your favorite theme, I'll make an entire journal when everything is ready.

It's Tuesday, 10:15pm as I start to write this. My body is telling me to go to sleep, my brain is saying no. Why for, I never really know. It's all just a silly biochemical rythm, and we're free to ignore such things as we please.

Yeah, I'm having a philosophical day. I always try to be serious, but I cope with the world by taking everything easy. Life by hypocrisy and paradox. I really wish I were observant enough to know the world around myself. I just get too lost in the world within.

There's some sort of balance to this life. I just find myself ignoring it by choice. I find myself making the choice to tip from extreme to extreme, as if it's some sort of metaphysical exercise to better refine my sense of self and goal.

All at the same time, I find myself shutting out the world and drawing those precious few people closer then ever.

I can't help but laugh and smile. I pick a path to follow with my life's goals and directions, so happenstance. Six months ago, I had all the plans perfected on where I would rent, who I would rent with, where I would be in six months, then twelve and eighteen months from there.

Then I up and bought a house. So I figured I'd put my nose to the grindstone and get this place fixed up and rentable. Live a more free life. I find myself putting that off, because the freedom really, is I can look at these unfinished walls, walk on these floors that I sanded and refinished with my own bare hands, I can look into my barren fridge. I'm happier then I've been.

When people ask me for advice, I preach the exact opposite of how I live. I tell people it's wise to practise security, that happiness is what you make of life. Yet I've found that I'm allowing life to shape what my happiness is.

I'm more lost then I ever thought possible, and I'm the marker on the map. I've got people coming and going in greater amounts then ever before. My co-workers turn to me more and more for answers about policy I really have not read. Then again, most of these people are starting to show improvements in their quality of work.

Again, this is all something that makes me chuckle.

The characters in my life have become even more numerous. The few I call friends have shrunk by a large margin, and I find myself reaching out, searching for fresh blood to get friendly with. I've finally become mature enough to say 'No' and nothing more, to let people know when I will simply have nothing further to do with them.

I've found that I've grown up some more, in ways I can't count or describe.

When I first started writing this journal, my thoughts were a mess, yet I've found by rambling about, I've cleared my thoughts and refined my goals.

In the next three months, I want to be able to sit down with an art program, and produce something painting like. By the end of the year I want to be someone more then just a good furry porn artist. I want to be a good artist. I'll be damned if things like sleep get in my way XD

I want to thank people for dealing with my manic habits.

Most of all I want to thank two people, Mega Mahoney (Who does have an FA account apparently,  aliasi ) for her continued friendship, for being one of the best companions I could never have imagined to have at my side. Thanks for reminding me my three brain cells are enough to get the job done, thanks for putting up with my fussy behaviour, and thanks for showing me a side of kindness I'd never been able to see until I met you.

The other person is obvious,  achak ; Whom I want to thank for being such a genuine companion. I can't write enough about how much his presence as a friend means to me. Even if it's nothing more then being online, the world is a little better knowing he's around.

There are many more people, and I don't mean to exclude anyone, this sounds horribly sappy, but you all hold a special place in my thoughts. I want to make people who have faved my art, watched me, contacted me, for lack of a better word, proud.

Thank you for reading my rant. If you ever get down, sit down and just type your thoughts out. It's terribly therapeutic, so much so, it's probably illegal in some future police state xD

And I just finished selling the past 11 hours of my day to CnC3/Commission sketching,

OC anyone?

Back to commissions, three day weekend, should be able to knock quite a few of them down.

Sorry about the delays folks. PC troubles are a pain when you do your work digitally.

I'm a gonna kill tigerdirect....

They shipped me a micro atx case and forgot my CPU fan >:|

So much for a weekend of decompressing.

Just needed the weekend to decompress after the week of hell.

So back to work and getting those commissions done within the 2 weeks promised in my rules :D

Well... I'll give TigerDirect.ca this, they're good at damage control. They just had my 19" LCD rushed to me (it was only shipped out yesterday finally)

But that's not what I'm talking about. I've got this Acer 19" widescreen setup and the color settings tweaked. I feel the need to repeat myself;

Holy sweet cross stitching Jesus

Damn my laptop screen sucked D:

First two observations;
-I can now see what people were saying when they were telling me stuff was too faint. I'm so sorry folks D: that's just horrendous on a lot of my sketchy stuff. (And a lot of that was touched up in GIMP to darken the lineart already)
-I can also see what people were saying about the kind of art I was producing. I've just been awestruck at the kind of detail I was putting into stuff without realizing it.

What can be expected? Much better art now that I have a screen that can display true color/brightness.

Take care folks :D

Avoid them. No matter how cheap, chances are you will get screwed over.

This computer, is the eigth or so order from them, not a single one has gone smoothly. Prices are good, but inevitably they screw something up.

Long story short, order was delayed several days because of their idiocy in handling it. They said they'd super UPS it, I even got a supervisor or some such who promised me, gave me his ID, and I even followed up with him, yup UPS super duper shipping, should have it all friday at the latest.

I just called UPS, not only did TigerDirect.ca not fulfill their order out of their Canadian warehouse(s) as they promised, but it's being fulfilled out of some backwater warehouse in the US.

/rant off.

Save yourself the money if you want, I know I won't be shopping there anymore.

Heya folks,

Good news around, the computer tower should be getting here tomorrow with the monitor arriving day after (go go tigerdirect.ca screwing up 4 times in a row) and then art should really pick up afterwards :D

I want to touch base on a few things;

First and foremost, I want to thank everyone that has commissioned me, is commissioning me, is spreading the word about my commissions. You're frieking awesome :)

The compliments, eheh, muchly appreciated ^^;


Artistic Freedom: This is something people are throwing around in their commission requests all too freely. What I want to dispell, is the illusion that at current prices and how the projects are handled, the preview sketch is your opportunity to correct small things. Not change your entire request.

Those two words, Artistic Freedom, effectively surrender your right to request any major changes if they fall outside of the things you requested for the actual commission. I don't want to be a jerk about this, I want to invite further business, but these prices are low, to encourage people to spend some money on me. They are not to be mistaken for a full fledged $30 (sketch type commission) or $50 (inks and colors) kind of commission. They are done relatively fast, and to a high standard.

If you're going to commission me, please have an idea of what you want, referrence material is handy, and be specific.

If you say 'Here are some referrence pictures, I'm giving you artistic freedom to do what you want' and nothing else. I'm going to burst your bubble right now, when I send you a preview sketch, and if there are glaring anatomical problems according to your standards, and you didn't outline any specifics or they were not obvious in the referrence material, you are SOL, or (this is something I'm mulling over) going to pay a surcharge to have your project redrawn.

I'm only really making about $5 an hour here. It's something I like to do, and it gets people art for a really good price. Please be kind, know what you're asking for, and realize, that you are bound to honor your request. There's nothing forcing you to pay or have the commission finished (which is bad for me, let's not wind up having to pay full up front and leave refunds at my discretion)

Thanks for your time folks.

Heya folks.

Long story short, my laptop is sucking balls. The screen's flickering, it doesn't shut down, and it lags and freezes when just sitting. After doing the computer dance (defrag/virus scan/spyware... etc etc) it's still acting up.

Toshiba quoted me $900 in repairs not covered by their warranty and a turn around time of 3-4 business weeks.

However, for $1600 Canadian, this is after taxes and shipping, I can get the following from #

19" LCD Montior widescreen
AMD X2 3800+
Asus A8N-SLI SE
2GB (2x1024mb)
256mb GeForce 7900 GS Extreme
80GB Western Digital 7200
Windows XP Pro
NEC Super duper ROM-a-ma-bob (DVD/CD ROM/Burner)
Midsize case with a 600w SLI ready PSU
Better heat sink.

Got my credit card sorted out, ordered the computer as of 05/07/2007, total bill was $1450. Now to just get those commissions done to soften the blow :) Thanks everyone

Tis a monster, tisn't the greatest nor the cheapest. It's the solution I'm looking at though, I spent $800 on this laptop and it's crapping out before it's a year old. So I figure I might as well invest into a modestly powerful system that will last a while and give me further freedom when it comes to art.

Having to wait 20 seconds for GIMP to do some basic jobs is teh lame. It's really silly to be honest, even OC is starting to lag, online and offline.

Why am I bringing this up? Well I want to bring out the budget commissions to soften the blow to my wallet.

I'm offering Quick & Solid commissions. Done via OC, I'm more interested in raw quantity then actual money made per commission.

These are single character prices

$10 - Quick Commission
- Along the lines of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/527939/ & http://www.furaffinity.net/view/528034/

$15 - Solid Commission
- Along the lines of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/523102/ & http://www.furaffinity.net/view/527338/

Additional characters are a flat rate of $5 a piece in either situation

Word of mouth really helps, so if you can let others know about the cheap deals happening, would be muchly appreciated.

Take it easy folks
-Ross

Questions, comments & concerns; kaross[at]tbaytel.net - suggestions also welcome

Payment preferrably via paypal or some such equally as speedy.

Many many thanks to  BlastGoggles &  Moonfire for helping me tweak parts and save $300!

 achak, all told I've known the guy for maybe eight weeks total. Out of nowhere to the rest of the world, I just started posting piece after piece of art of the guy.

I don't know what to say about things really. They're private and concern no one. Yet here I am, posting my thoughts to an open forum, for what reason? I know of only one, I'm bursting with emotion right now.

Over the past two months, it's been wicked and an opportunity to enjoy his company. Not to say any less of others :) Achak has just stirred up my creativity in whole new ways. First I thought, it was just fresh input and fresh ideas that had my gears cranking.

Then out of nowhere, I suggested an OC session and we just went with it. Had not had that much fun in so long. We hit it again and again, OpenCanvas that is. Not a single time did he impress a single idea on me, nothing more then simple and honest suggestions. It's the kind of guy he is, gentle, playful and fun.

This is why I've taken to him, this is why I started flirting with him. This is why I draw him and call him 'My Thunderstorm'. It's a possessive and I honestly feel it's too early to label it an endearing term. Even if we only wind up as great friends, Achak will still be My Thunderstorm to me, because he causes quite a commotion with my creativity and attitude in positive ways.

I wish I could say that this was something new and wonderful, really it's just two friends who've hit off on something. It might become more, but no one can see the future.

So, if in the future, you have something to say about art I've done involving the two of us, if it's not nice, don't say it.

<3  achak

Don't mind me, went to bed >.>

Well amongst other things, like learning a British Metric Fucktong (BMF) of art techniques in oc that have translated well into my skills as a whole, I realized something.

It took 3 years or so, but I finally produced 10mb worth of furry porn in .jpg/.jpeg format. I am officially a pervert, no ifs ands or buts about it.

Just wanted to ramble a bit before sleep.

I might put commissions down for a while and just do requests. Sort of an anything goes as I please thing.

Thoughts? Discuss!

Firstly and foremostly, I want to thank  achak &  twitch_the_dragon and company for being supportive.

Past two months have been rocky as all hell, and it's getting rockier. For pretty obvious reasons, ie insomnia and lack of sleep, I haven't been able to function, much less work. So I'm busy looking for a new job before I get fired from my current one.

I do believe this will be my last call center as the past two years have been great learning experiences. I can however, say without assumption, that call centers are at the bottom of the jobs I would want to work now. If you can get in on one that you're comfortable with and the site staff are all around good people, they're good jobs. In Thunder Bay, this is hardly the case.

As for my house, it's still not done, with no motivation to get it done anytime soon as the people who were planning to move in with me in the first place, have gotten cold feet. No big deal, I can actually afford this place on my own, it's just empty and hampers my finances (hamstrung is more like it) But it's an opportunity.

There will always be opportunity when it comes to life. I've gotten myself out of that little rut, and I'm pushing forward again, getting more art done (as evidenced by three pieces of Mirelle art in one day, expect to see more of that delicious blueberry colored babe)

And that's all for my journal today folks.

Keep moving forward, find your opportunity and make it happen.

And the lack of it. Sorry folks. Life's just been bleh!

Anyways, new piece of sketch tastic crooked boob art in the scrap section. Go look at my post apocalyptic doodle and stroke my ego.

And here I am, out of my mind. Can't sleep, don't feel well. It's just one of those days unfortunately.

Gotta keep moving forward though. Work on the house has slowed to a slow slow grind. I feel so bad ;-; commissions stalled last month because of the house work/real job. Need to get those 2 actually done and write off the others that haven't followed up.

Anyways, what I really want to talk about is EVE Online. Sometime in April, my two pod pilots roll over 10mil skill points each. Makes me proud (where as most other MMOs when I crested a certain cap, I started to get disgusted with how much time I'd sunk into the game)

Right now, I'm just care bearing it up. My first pilot, my dirt monkey (aka accomplished Hulk Pilot) started into exploration and probing. Go go Covert Ops Buzzard.

My combat pilot (can't make up my mind with her, AFs, Battlecruisers, Raven pilot). She's a good ol Caldari Missile Whore.

Wondering how many of you out there might play the game? Would be nice to catch some more like minded folk online.

Send an evemail to Ras Shiko or May Shiko with the following phrase 'Go go EVE Online' and I'll draw you a sketch of your choice (with certain limitations)

-Ross

Been a while since I got around to one of these. This isn't a meme, it's not a rant or a gripe. Just some plain old speculation. Seriously, if you've never just sat down and stopped doing everything or lay in bed after waking up, I think you should, it does the mind good. Can help you figure out what you're after, or what's really on your mind.

I did that for about three hours this morning, my body is so programmed to wake up for 730am now it doesn't matter how little sleep I get. I will wake up, and it's a good thing, regular sleeping patterns have been a great thing since I read about how much more important it was to go to sleep and wake up at regular times, then it was to just get eight hours of rest whenever.

What I really want to think aloud about, is art. It's just over four - five years ago, can't remember which honestly. That my dreams at being a novel writer crashed into a solid brick wall. The long story short, is that I had spent the better part of a year and a half writing a full length scifi space opera and meticulously poring over it. And it was good, good enough that the publisher actually wanted to get it out onto the book shelves. Then they found out how old I was, and things went downhill from there.

It's also about the time I -really- found out about the internet and got into the furry fandom. On and off, I tried to keep writing, never got all that far with it though, because left, right and center, I was being bombarded with comics, art, and the reality, that writers have to be really good. (And I know quite a few accomplished writers that I feel rather privileged to know as friends)

Then I met someone, on a MUCK, who took a look at the few doodles I had sat down and invested several days on. I really can't remember the conversation, but I remember the philosophy, 'Never let someone else make up your mind'

Hardly speak to the person anymore, which saddens me a little. Great person, great influence. I will always wonder where I would be, had I not met this person.

I should probably move on so you guys aren't horribly mauled by the wall of text. Ever since I started drawing, the ego thing happened, I'd draw, sit back, not be happy, but when I showed people they were impressed. It was funny how it worked though, whenever I got praise, I always remembered that little nugget of wisdom I'll carry to my grave now. I never let them make up my mind.

Like any good artist I indulge my ego, and I indulge my obsession, I love and hate my art, my progress. When I look at where I am, I rarely let myself look back, which is something I should do. I'm always looking forward though, trying to get better. Because one day I want to honestly be able to say something meaningful, honest, and true to the person that set me down this road.

I guess I'm posting this all, because lately, a lot of people I know, are right where I was a few years back. Just starting out, figuring it's too hard, or they don't have what it takes. Every single time a friend or someone I chat with starts off on it, the obsessive passion I have for art these days wells up, and I find myself ranting like a zealot.

Some people get it stuck in their head that you have to know this, this and this. That you have to use these pencils and those pens, and that you have to do it by some set of instructions.

I honestly started, just banging my head against a wall, and metaphorically, invented my own wheel. By no means did I actually have to learn some of the most basic foundations and elements via trial and error. I could probably be two or three times better at art then I am now. There are plenty of books, I'll always recommend people sit down and draw first.

There's no point spending money, reading someone's published opinion on how to accomplish something. Simply for the fact, if you're not willing ot make up your own mind first, there can be little to no reason or incentive to carry on.

In the past months, I've had easily twenty or so different people, most online, a lot in real life, start asking me for advice. I've even had someone's girlfriend and her sister offer to pose for me.

I've found something that's just a hobby, and it's become a passion of my life. I don't need a muse or a cause. Because I've got friends and my own mind made up of how I do things.

To those people who actually do read this far, you've got a lot more patience then I do. If you're someone who's looking at drawing, painting or writing, make up your own mind first. Don't let people make it for you. You'll probably only ever find yourself disappointed.

Invent your own wheel, it's not as hard as it seems.