Hi there folks!

Johnny Blanco here and March 3rd is my b-day and while I am currently not working I am getting unemployment (thankfully) but I also could use a little extra cash to take care of the three outstanding bills I have (around 330).

I have a lot of stuff I posted on ebay (here: https://www.ebay.com/usr/johnnyblan.....75.m3561.l2559) and if you see something that you might want why not throw a bid on it? I have two rare robin hood books that are going for a minimum of $50 and $75 and these are both complete. If you want to donate to me personally (you don't have to) but my paypal is johnny.blanco[at]gmail.com

Also, a friend of mine coerced me into making a amazon wish list so here's that : https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/.....shlist_lists_1

Like I said before no one has to help me or get me anything for my b-day.. if you want to it's much appreciated. I DO have a job lined up which is what I wanted to talk about next as it's $15/hr but it's 100% remote! Orientation starts on the 8th and the job starts on the 13th.

Letsee what else what else.. I did a project for a website and got a lot of store credit around $700 worth.. so there's that.

Thinks.. that's all I can come up with at the moment.. anyway.. yeah.. thanks for reading this! Love yas!

Johnny

Yep! House get! More pics when it's done... :)

Ok.. I got into Indiana on 6/16 and we were going to close on a house that had a LITANY of problems (mold, screwjacks holidng up the foundation, door was off, etc) and we tried to settle on 135k for that house and they were like.. nope! And we said.. fuck you! BYE! So we put in another bid on a different house and we got it so we're waiting back on the inspection on it. Best thing about this house? It's on a CONCRETE SLAB! Sooooooooooo yeah :)

One thing I loveloveloveeeeee about Fort Wayne? You want an Xbox Series X? You can GET ONE here. No joke! We went into the local gamestop and I said "dumb question you guys don't have a PS5 or Xbox Series X do you?" They said.. yeah we have both! So we got an Xbox Series X! That simple! :)

And the food out here's amazing! and CHEAP! Honestly there's a Chinese place that's not far from where we are staying and it's a fucking DRIVE THROUGH! And the food is GOOD! :)

Anyway, I gotta go.. stuff to do and places to go! Will give a Savannah walkthrough of the house when it's done! :)

Love yas!

Johnny

Just a heads up.. will post more detail later :)

Ohgodohgodohdogohdog.

So the paperwork has been done and the house was supposed to go to closing on 5/31 but we were delayed a day due to the holiday. So.. hopefully in 24-48 hours 242k will be in our account.

Also, this is A LOT to ask but.. my mom used to say you don't ask you don't get. I don't have the money to get this RN and I think it would help me in drawing.. but I am unsure.. but this bundle has writing in it as well..

Here it is: https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....p;term=drawing

I am looking at the 182 pound level.. because that has how to draw 1-5 and how to write 1-2. I KNOW this is a lot to ask .. but.. if anyone wants to get this for me I would greatly appreciate it.

Thanks folks.

Update: There was a previous buyer that backed out and we got 455k and there was 4500 in problems so.. with all the bills paid (mortgage and a fucking 17k hero loan.. don't get this.. it's also a PACE loan) we're walking away with 242k .. not too shabby! :)

The ink has dried on us selling our house. $460k for this place? Yep. And we owe around 180.. sooooo.. we'll have a good nest egg to relocate to Indiana. :D

First things first.

No I am not leaving the furry fandom. I have been in this fandom 30 goddamned years and I am not about to quit now.

What has happened over the past few months.. is.. inspiring and heart breaking at the same time.

1) We had to put down our dog Diego. He was an old boy that we had for 12 years and he was either 2-3 when we had him or more so .. 14-17 years old? His hips gave out on him and we gave him an at home service where he was put to sleep. He seemed to smile when he went.. god I miss that doggo. The next do we get is going to be a PUPPY so we can teach him and watch him grow and hopefully he'll love to play.

2) I was working for a place called Conduent.. I fucking quit that job and have been working for Voter Registration since February. Most of the time this place is pretty chill but one of the recent events pissed me off as we have four teams and one team wasn't doing shit and when we called them out on it one of the people said "Let the manager come and tell us to do that!" I heard that and I was PISSED. So much in fact when THEY needed OUR help.. I left. It was close to quitting time anyway.. so fuck it.

3) Birthday was March 3rd and I got a Horseplay Toys Roo that a good friend gave to me. Other than that my 53rd b-day was forgettable.

4) The point of the title of this post.

We're leaving CA.

We're done.

The house appraised for 425,000 and we have an offer for 450,000. We got new carpet, landscaping was done , the guest bathroom is being repainted and had gotten a new vanity. The whole nine yards. Where are we going? Fort Wayne, Indiana. Houses are cheap, the job market is good and cost of living is LOW.

CA is a nice state.... to visit. Living here? Fuck that. It's too goddamned expensive and the people are getting ruder EVERY single day. I have lost count how many times someone has been rude to me FNAR. I am so done with it. And the drivers? No. Fuck that shit. NO ONE knows how to drive out here.

So the plan is to sell the house, get money, pack our shit in a POD and move to Fort Wayne and look for a house. We have seen stuff in the 150-200k range and if we walk away with 280k (which is possible RN!) we will be SO far ahead of the game it won't even be funny.

California is the place you wanna be? Sure. If you're rich to enjoy it. Otherwise find a new place. And that's what we're doing.

I am nervous and excited at the same time. Scared too. But fuck it.. you live once.. and if we can find a forever home and get jobs, roommates and have money left over?

Yeah.. worth that risk.

Love y'all.

Johnny

Ok Furries. Lets have a chat but probably no one will read this shit anyway so I guess I am doing this for my own benefit rn. People will look at my tweets from yesterday (which, none have been deleted) & might ask yourself a question.

"Johnny? Why are you so angry?"

Lets begin

Lets start a month or so ago where I was employed, kinda happy and I decided to put up a wishmas list. Who knew that shit would go south so quickly? So I lost my job, applied from unemployment and started a new job so everything should be peachy keen right?

Wrong.

Unemployment was certified now going on two weeks and nothing has been done. They say if it goes past that to call them which is impossible because they close at noon and it's nearly impossible to get to a LIVE person on a fifteen minute break. You have a BETTER chance of hitting a fucking LOTTERY than that happening. However, since Christmas was coming I was hoping for a Christmas miracle of someone either getting me something off my wishmas list.. or something else happening like unemployment clearing or getting my $600 from state. None of that happened in fact the OPPOSITE happened where my mate got HIS $600 and that just pushed me past my breaking point. Imagine this. Your job is hard and you work hard and you are getting chided by a co-worker who's a temp to "work harder" when you are ALREADY doing that. That coupled with people keep asking me "What did you get for Christmas". NOTHING! I GOT NOTHING! OK!? FFS! And THIS is the fandom we're in now. We USED to be looking out for one another. WE USED TO CARE ABOUT ONE ANOTHER. Now? FUCK no. Unless is someone high profile or someone trying to do something out of the ordinary you are SHIT out of luck trying to get help from people. Think i'm wrong? Look at DreamerHyena fuck look at Fernando's at AC! We raised HOW much to keep their doors open? And it's not like I haven't done anything in this fandom.. bullshit. I had spent hundreds of THOUSANDS of dollars on meals, rooms, items, etc to HELP people. I gave someone their first REAL tail. You don't hear about that shit because it's become the fandom of "what have you done for me lately?" And then you have people in this fandom who ALWAYS have to be in the spotlight GOOD OR BAD. That idiot green wolf comes to mind. If I have to do shit like that to get followers then fuck it i'll delete twitter here and now. And I am not saying EVERYONE did this when I was like this there were a few that asked like DadBodHorse offered me $20.. I didn't take it.. and LEEFOXMCCLOUD05
asked if I was ok.

I wasn't.

I'm not.

I'm stressed. I am stressed because I can't pay bills right now. I am stressed because this job is the HARDEST job i've been in and it feels like ... what I do isn't important. And the support system that I am supposed to have.. the fandom.. is more like "Look at what I got!" rather than "Are you ok?" Look at the tweets I posted over the last 24 hours.. an idiot screaming into the void.

Asking for help.

And getting none.

*wipes eyes*

I don't know what to do anymore. I am doing ALL that I can and it feels like it's not enough. I need help and I am not getting it. Not from the government, not from my job & not from the fandom.

And it hurts. A fandom I have been in and active with almost 30 years I quoted Scrooged yesterday and this quote is me rn: There are people having trouble making their miracle happen. There are people that don't have enough to eat, or people that are cold. You can go out and say hello to these people. You can take an old blanket out of the closet and say "Here!", you can make them a sandwich and say "Oh, by the way, here!"

I am probably going to get backlash for this and frankly IDGAF. I'm done with my rant. I hope you got what you wanted .. because I got nothing.

And side note: I am MORE than just a tiger that likes balloons if people get me presents like that.. I swear to god.. how about ASK? How about ASKING what you need or want instead of assuming? I did that! I asked! Fuck I gave my so called ex-mate a LAPTOP and what did I get for that? I got called as greedy as trump as he PROMISED to get me a flausi deer. Guess what.. didn't happen.

Christmas.

Fuck it. Tired of it. Tired of fucking trying and failing. Tired of working in a job and have some offhanded bitch temp worker (I am a temp as well) saying that I need to work HARDER when I am doing MORE than THEY are. So.. goddamned done with everything.

And instead of people going .. hey .. are you ok? No.. it's like screaming into the fucking void.

Just.. done..

*rips up christmas list and looks REALLY fucking angry*

Just.. don't fucking talk to me right now Ok?

https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-the.....f+share-flow-1

Oh and in other news I am going to be starting work and my mate got a job that starts not too long after his other job ends and we might sell the house and move to Ft. Wayne. That's it :)

So found out this week my mate Manitou's job is being phased out and his last day is 12/31.

Can life stop shitting on me for a minute?

.... yeah.. back to square one.

Ok I just came up with that term so .. yay!

Christmas is in like two months and I wanted to know if it is ok to post something like this to here and Twitter.

I wanted to split it up into like four tiers like easy, medium, hard and insane lets say and insane would be outlandish things like pay off my mortgage (like that'll happen ;) or something otherworldly extravagant (hey I can dream can't I?)

But is it wrong to post those? Let me know what you think I need a distraction off of BLFC for a bit. Yeah seeing the stuff on Twitter and kinda happy/sad about it. Happy that people are having a good time and sad 'cause I can't go. :/

Love, Johnny

With BLFC next week and not being able to go .. yeah.. I am more than a bit depressed over it.

It sucks because I feel like time is running out for me. I am 52 years old. Trigger died a few months ago and he was younger than I am ;(

I just want to go to a convention and be a fucking hyena for a weekend.. is that really to much to fucking ask?

Fuck Covid.

I really don't know how to feel right now as my mate is depressed over his job and I found out that one of my friends died over the weekend.

Trigger Happy Squirrel might have been annoying to a few people and yes he had his moments but he did a LOT of good for the furry community and the inflatables community as well. He loved to make toys that were bigger than normal and it delighted everyone that saw these at conventions.

He supposedly collapsed in the yard and died.. so.. I dunno how to feel.

I will miss him ;(

Now.. this seems to be a similar title but.. it's not

I am going to be working for the County of Sacramento. Period.

No more temp jobs. No more bullshit. I am going to be an employee.

To say that I am estatic is an understatement.

This happened with a certain tiger in the inflatables community who runs a community. So I have a story to tell about that and I decided to come forward about it now.

Why? Because of what happened on my birthday last year. Lets roll back the clock shall we?

I was approached by someone around Feburary of last year how they saw my Merek fox and wanted to get one of their own. I politely told them that I had sold mine a long time ago (and hated myself for doing so and STILL do). They were like.. well can you ask M? They are the people who make it and these are the only people who I can get a fox from. I also tell them that I didn't really want to reach out.. but I said I would try and do so.

So I had an email exchange with M and it was professional as I wasn't about to rip this guy off. For those that don't know M he's an older person in the inflatables community, doesn't give a shit about anyone else and has designed toys that if they pop up on the market they go for a premium (like at least a grand).

At one point I was like ok well thanks and have a great day and that was the end of that. Right?

Wrong.

Posted to their group. Verbatim. T is the Tiger.

M- "Does anyone here know of possible plagiarist (my real name) He has indicated a desire to have Jets illegally copy G&G designs, and expressed gis fear of being sued for doing so. Is this name familiar to anyone, and if so, can you give me more information about him? Address, employment, or any other info to ID and target gim if needed?"

So to be clear. This asshole wants to doxx me because he thinks I might steal his designs. NOTED right now you can buy COPIES on Honygi and he doesn't give a fuck about that.. but it gets BETTER.

T - "As far as that real name goes, that would be Johnny Blanco (furry name) I cut ties with him years ago because he’s a douche bag. He started a bunch of drama and I had to step in to stop it. He got nasty and abusive with me when I asked him to stop what he was doing, he totally melted down, left the forum and I blocked him after he sent me several nasty emails."

This "drama" he alleged I created (which I didn't) was about people being upset about some posts on the forum. Was I pissed? Sure. Because I forgot to mention that T is the MODERATOR of this group. He stated that there were RL problems going on and he "couldn't be bothered" with the drama going on in the group. Then why are you a moderator? Honestly?

Oh it gets better.

M - "He seems he has faded away under heat. I did NOT give permission for Jets to make copies of the Fox. Hongyi will do it anyway, but with poor paint, so to be expected, as they copy everything else.
And interesting that it is that old name for him, but I already got a message from a friend that the person was a tosser. And another email from HIS friend begging me to NOT dox him. Guess he saw the weapons and ran."

1) I didn't fade away.. I saw the conversation was going nowhere and decided to drop it. 2) I got this threatening messages from my "friend" who relayed all this information to me and 3) this all happened on my birthday.

So I did some digging, found his facebook and with the pictures he posted to his facebook and some backtracking I had his address. Noted, I didn't do anything "illegal" I used google maps, pictures from his facebook and that was that.

Also , I failed to mention that doxxing is a federal fucking CRIME!

And the only thing I tried to do was help someone get a fox. That's it. I cut ties with that asshole who apologized profusely but the damage was already done.

I am STILL sore about this. What if some asshole decided to swat me and put me and my mate, roommates and dog in danger becuase of this bullshit?

This is the last thing I will say about this as I am getting too fucking heated. This is directly to T and M.

Leave me the fuck alone. And thanks for ruining my b-day last year. I am sure that one of your cronies will read this and spread it back to you and frankly I don't care.

Yeah.. I am glad I have today off. :/

And frankly I don't give a fuck.

This goes out to Lil Nas X. Yeah the guy who put out Old Town Road that you hear every five fucking minutes.

You're a troll. You're not a furry.

And you're trying to troll the furry community.

Don't you have anything else better to fucking do?

Honestly. I find behavior like yours deplorable. Furries aren't hurting anyone and yet you want to go ahead and troll us. You want to make fun of the fandom? Fine.

But I will say this and I don't give a good goddamn who it offends or hurts.

You disrespect me... I will fucking put you in the dirt.

I don't give a flying fuck who you are. Money doesn't make you a god. If you get shot in the heart y'know what happens? You die like everyone else.

I hate celebrities like this asshole. I have money and I can do whatever I want.. ok.. that's fine.

But NO amount of money you have will let you disrespect me. None. Because I will tell you this much, you'll have your bodyguards fight for you. I don't have any bodyguards.. I fight my own goddamned battles.

So if you're going to troll us? Fine. But I say this and mean this with every goddamned fiber of my being.

Disrespect me.. and I will fucking end you.

In a few things.

a) Myself. That last journal shouldn't have ever been posted. I went back and re-read that story.. it isn't scary. It could have been done better. And I am going to strike everything until a certain point and re-write it.

b) Some of the people in the furry fandom. You know who you are. If you can either a) try to justify sexual assault / crappy behavior because you are a fursuit maker b) decide you can jump the line because you are a "famous musician" in the furry community to get your covid-19 shot or c) left the fandom and decided to come back because people have to hear your side even tho you are not just a noted zoophile.. but someone who wants to have sex with either dead or dying animals. No.. get the fuck out.

c) My birthday. Yes, I got a few gift cards but.. sigh.. the one thing I wanted and was hoping to get never came. Ok. Rewind here. I have been watching two shows Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel on YT and I love characters from both shows. I wanted to get wished a happy b-day by either Angel Dust or Alastair (both characters on Hazbin) but.. it didn't happen. Sighs.. and I looked at the prices for a custom song or mesasge from Stolas from Helluva boss.. and.. $125? no.. just.. no.. sorry I like the show and I like the performers.. but.. that much? I can buy a RL item for that.. hell I can buy a inflatable reindeer for that.

So.. yeah.. just meh right now :/

I wrote a few stories for /nosleep. My last story was removed even tho it got 49 upvotes. They said it was "not scary." Yeah and a story about poop has 600+ upvotes and is still on /nosleep.

I don't feel like writing ANYthing ANymore. I'm fucking done.

UPDATE :

So I "talked" to the people about my story comparing it to that literal shit story that's on that subreddit. Their response? They muted me for three days. Yeah.. that behavior REALLY encourages me to write fucking more.

Way to go assholes. Oh and when I said I deleted it they're like that's ok. It's ok for me to delete a story that YOU removed because NO one would see it and it had close to 50 upvotes in 24 hours. So OBVIOUSLY people thought it was either good or scary. Right? Fucking. Idiots.

Just like the title says. I am tired of this.

It's all me.. it's nothing that someone else did or whatever else.. it's all me.

And it's very little things that either get me angry or depressed. For example someone said they were taking bids on a PP Pink Wolf and it got up to $985 so far. What pissed me off? I sold it to someone for what I paid for it.. to .. be.. nice.

And that's continually fucking pissing me off. I am nice. And yet.. if I need help there are times I am prolly screaming at the fucking wall. Yes some people have helped in times of need and I am grateful.

But also, lets think back there's around 10-15k that I spent on people that I will not get back.

And that irks me.

It irks me because I get talked about behind my back especially when I have tried to help people out. I LITERALLY last b-day was threatened with Doxxing.. oh and that? Came to nothing. Even tho.. even THO.. I found this fucker to his STREET ADDRESS.. how? BECAUSE HE'S ON FUCKING FACEBOOK!

Anyway, yeah.. It's to the point of me not even wanting a goddamned b-day this year. You want to get me something for my b-day? Give my boss some fucking enlightenment and tell her to hire me.

Like I fucking doubt that'll happen.. i'll get struck by lightning and hit by a meteor at the same fucking time.

Ok. As I type this it's 2/3/21

In a month it'll be my birthday.

Now I dunno how to feel about it.. I really don't. People have asked what do I want for my b-day? And TBH some of the stuff I want is kinda expensive.

However, I am not asking people get it for me. Y'ever see the posts on twitter saying that they want this or that and people should get that stuff for them?

Yeahhhhhhhhhhh that's not me.

Anyway, what do I want?

Art (of Savannah of course ;)
Pics of your fursuit with balloons
a 3d resin printer (I am prolly gonna get this)
inflatables
I would like a new set of paws for Savannah NGL

Now for the printer and inflatables I am not asking for something new.. hell if you had a good one lying around i'd prolly take it.

But what I really want is a job.. and who knows.. might be able to get that on my own.

Take care and as Phil Defranco says.. I love ya faces and i'll talk to you soon