Ok. Can someone explain this to me?

Supposedly there has been closed characters in this fandom for awhile now. What this means is that you have to get a character from the creator of the species in order to have said character.

And my mind is going.. ok.. and?

So let me get this straight if I wanted to have one of these closed characters for my own. If I wanted to create one of these from scratch with my meager abilities and then get another artist to draw said character. What would the creator of the species be able to do?

NOTHING!

This is just DUMB to me! And yeah I know it stems from the video I saw about someone supposedly spending 20,000 on a furry art commission of a grem character. So what? What if I want to create a grem character? Are you saying that I can't? That's like someone coming up to you and saying you can't create a dutch angel dragon or a protogen or a batwinged tiger.. see how DUMB that sounds?

So if you see a closed character.. and you want one? Make it your own. Period.

First I want to say thank you to whoever gave me the positive energy to get this job. Y'all are awesome.

So here's the deal. I worked for this place my first job. My boss she LOVED my performance. And now that I am ranked with the county...

Lets just say that if I do good the chances are high that I might be hired on

AND I get to tell the job that I slaved at for six months to go pound sand?

This is BETTER than Christmas day for me. This job that I am at right now? Yeah. It paid the bills. But they didn't let any point to treat me like DOGSHIT along the way. Did I screw up? More than a few times. But did they? Let me think about this. Yes. They NEVER fully trained me and when I asked them "stupid" questions they were like.. "you should know this by now!" HOW?! by fucking OSMOSIS!?

God DAMN I feel like a kid on Christmas morning.. I am not going to be mean or unprofessional (fuck my sister told me are you gonna call in sick? and THAT had crossed my mind!) but no.. just because they're a bunch of assholes.. doesn't mean that I get to be one. I am BETTER than that. I am more professional than that entire office (let me tell you.. I go into work everyday dress pants and shirt. There are people in there that go to work.. dressed like they're going to HIGH school!)

So .. yeah.. that's my life :)

Y'all can say fuck 2020.. but for me.. THIS .. right HERE.. is a GODDAMNED win :)

Love, Johnny

First, the truth.

And I hope this comes true because if this happens it'd be a win for everyone. *deep breath* ok, here goes.

I had gotten ranked with the County of Sacramento a few weeks ago for Office Assistant (Rank 2) and I had been waiting on any type of offers for jobs and so far nothing. So I decided to reach out to some departments and.. that got nothing. So for the hell of it on Friday I contact my agency where I got work with the county. Lo and behold they have a position starting November 2nd ... at Code Enforcement. Why is that significant? Because, they share the SAME building with Building Inspections which was my FIRST job with the county! I want to go back there SO bad and I KNOW if I work hard and prove myself they might consider me for the position (I talked to Dennis one of my friends there and they say they're short staffed.) So.. if you can throw some good luck my way? Please?

And now the lies.

I cut someone out of my life recently. I had to. Not my mate thank god as he can be an asshole but he's still sweet. No I am talking about someone that I don't even want to mention his name. The thing that pisses me off about this "person" is that he lies. Alot. He lies about what he's done in this life and then when you ask him to back it up he can't. He lied about his check saying that he'd get me a toy that I wanted and of course.. that went out the window (It was a flausi reindeer if you were curious). And me helping this person was all a one way street and I took a backseat to all of his B.S. Hell, I even gave him a working laptop because he had no way to be online and he NEEDED it.

But that ends now.

I cut this person out of my life. I am sorry. If you help someone yeah you don't expect anything in return. However, if you help them and you OFFER them something in return.. and then you just spout out a tirade and compare me to our current president.

Yeah. Fuck you.

I want NOTHING more to do with this person. And I think my life will be better off without him.

Anyway, thanks for reading and if you can throw me some good ju-ju that'd help :) Oh and what I meant about a win for everyone? Well.. once I get caught up on bills and shit.. I could possibly help out artists on here. That's a win.. right?

Love, Johnny

First.. hell no.. I am not taking art commissions. I am NOT that crazy.

What I will take are writing commissions and here's what you get (it does sound like a lot but listen)

$40 gets you a 2000+ word story. Yeah if it goes to 2500-3000 or even a bit over that I won't charge you more.

What can I write about? look at my gallery and see. :)

Is there stuff I won't write about? Eh.. I dunno? Note me and see?

So yeah.. any takers?

Ok guys I want to get in on VR Chat.. but... I am broke. :(

Is there anyone that either would make a model for me (I'd write them a story of their choosing around 2500+ words) or know where I can get a free hyena avatar? Please lmk! :D

Edit: I meant an anthro hyena avatar.. but that one Shiny recommended I might use that too! :D

Well it seems that you can't defend people on Twitter either as they take it as abusive or harmful behavior so I got suspended. Fuck it. I am done. Twitter is home to toxic assholes anyway.

Ok guys! I wanted to say thanks to the two people who got me around $350 that I needed (Vrghr and Elkiunico) so that's passed I had a great idea..

Why not sell more stuff I really don't need / want?

And there's a BIG list but it's on twitter.. but I will post it here! (https://twitter.com/jblancotiger/status/1259169219842682880) I have had this up for less than a day and so far the only things sold were the 30-30 cels.

Go check it out and this money is going to be used for a computer upgrade for moi! I need it.. my system is 9+ years old.

Long story short I am lucky If I am working 8 hours this week. Here's why. The server that I use to access a program on .. either died or blew up or something. This was MONDAY. They say that they are going to have this up and running on FRIDAY. SMH.. whoever their IT dept is.. is an IdioT . Anyway, I am NOT asking for handouts as I have a ton of furry and non furry stuff to sell. What do I have?

Original Cooner art from various muscle portfolios (Lion, Tiger and Coyote)
Cooner's 2004 Musclefur portfolio
Wild Life #1 (Antartic press comic)

There's more that I can scrape up but for now that's what I have. And I am not asking outrageous prices on these (prolly a little more what I paid for the original art $60 each, $40 for the portfolio and $20 for the book)

I will do a deeper dive today and find other stuff to sell. I know I have an elaborate piece done by DripRat called Welcome to the machine which is full color as well as a Steve Martin original line drawing of a balloon piece he did for me (that'd be at least $60)

So if anyone is interested, wants pics or whatever.. please let me know. I want to raise at least $400 and I am NOT taking donations. I am selling stuff. Thanks for reading and if you can share this around please do so . Thanks.

Love, Johnny

Ok folks. This is what I like to call three strikes. Lets get started shall we?

The first strike was trying to help someone. There is a guy who's not a furry but loves inflatables and wanted a certain inflatable fox so I was like I don't have one I sold mine a lonnnnnggg time ago (and I wish I didn't but I had to so I could keep my house). And I tell him what about Hyongi as they have it but he's INSISTENT that he wants an ORIGINAL fox. Anyway, he asks me what if we mailed this guy and ask him about it? I did and a exchange came back and forth that was believe it or not civil. So I was like no harm no foul right?

Wrong. Way wrong.

Which leads to strike two contacting this asshole in the first place. Now I am not saying his name here but I get a message from a friend on Telegram that has four words.

X is looking to doxxx you.

And I get this shit. On. My. Birthday. So I go off on this idiot that I tried to help and believe it or not he takes care of it. But.. I am not satisfied. I am like.. ok.. you doxxx me on my b-day and you ruin it.. lets see what I can find out about you..

And guess what. This guy has a FB page, pictures of his house and with some reverse engineering I track him down to the street. No doxxing, no hacking.. just him being a fucktard. Oh and if you go to his FB page.. you'll see TONS of anti-trump / government posts how he wants to see them "shot in the head". Yeah.. real mature behavior for someone that's 72 years old.

And what's strike three? Dealing with a person with the initials AF (you can figure this shit out) oh and while were on names.. if you have a name that has a suffix like king or master (except for Stereomaster.. he's cool!) .. yeahhhhh.. yer coming off to me at least like an entitled douche.

AF has tons of commissions that he's paid for and I reached out to him on Twitter and we talked on Telegram. This is when I was offering around 2k word stories for $40 (which is STILL a good deal) so I hash out a few concepts and he's like.. well.. I am not paying you $40. I can get Transgenic to write this for $20 and he's better than you. That is when I lost my shit. He was just going on and on and ON and I deleted the telegram chat.

Seconds later he's like.. why'd you delete this? And he goes OFF on me and the best part? He's like.. you got me banned from FA before you asshole! GEE! I wonder why? With a fucking entitled attitude like this the mods SHOULD find someone that's been evading a ban for YEARS and either IP ban him or something else so he'd STAY GONE. You have a lot of great art done for you.. sure.. even animations .. but THAT doesn't make you a fucking GOOD PERSON. MORON.

So.. am I done with writing? Prolly. I might write stories / ideas for friends ..but.. a lot of furry stuff? Prolly not. As for drawing? I dunno.. if I got good I KNOW there would be tons of people like that.. and they'd be like draw for me for free. And the answer to that is the same fucking answer for writing for you.. for free..

NO.

If I write for you as a GIFT that's DIFFERENT because that's something I WANT to do . And the divide between writers and artists are fucking RIDICULOUS! Artists get TONS of faves and comments and writers get.. shit. Unless you're Kyell Gold or some other famous fucking author (and for those that say that's not true.. fucking look at the art here.. )

So yeah.. that's all I got to say about this shit.. It's been bugging me for WEEKS but when a certain lion released a certain video and praised that person.. it fucking set me off. And if this gets me suspended or banned.. how? I didn't mention ANYfuckingBODY by name. People can figure that shit out for themselves. *shrugs* I am getting too fucking old to care about this shit anyway.

Ok folks. Here's the deal. If you don't like the prices someone is charging for a service do us all a favor and say.. thanks but I am not interested at this time and be polite about it. For you to say "Well that's too much and I can get this at a better price from X" is just shit to an artist? I bet not. I paid my friend WhyteYote a good amount of money for a story not just because he needed it but because I paid for QUALITY. If there are people that can write stuff you like at a fair price.. GO COMMISSION THEM! But I am going to be DAMNED if I am going to lower my standards because my prices are too high. If you think my prices are too high and you want something for free. Here's two free words for you.

Fuck. You.

I am done. I am prolly not going to write for anyone for quite sometime. Fuck trying to get something for something I like doing.

... for a day.

Yep! I went back to work Thursday for another company and the job for the most part is easy. Granted I have been there for two days and I am getting stuff down quick but as I left yesterday I made a mistake I got to talk to my boss about. I need to pull some files I put up in the bins as I didn't scan them first before doing that (to my defense I was tired). But nothing that can't be fixed! :) I LOVE where I work as it's closer to the house and everyone is AWESOME :)

Ok. Usssssuaalllyy when people tell stories and all that bullshit there are three sides to them. Their side , my own

And the truth.

Well this is all true. Because I have logs and shit to back this up. Here's what happened.

Around a week ago (around my birthday) I get a notice from my friend Andrew how this guy wants to talk to me about inflatables. I say sure. Long story short he wants a Merek Geiger fox. I don't have one. I sold mine. I list some alternatives and get met with no no and no.. it has to be a merek fox. Fiiiiinnneeeee. So I get this "great" idea to help this person. I decide to email him directly to see if he will start a new run of foxes.

BIG mistake.

I basically ask him politely (Yes, I have the mails saved to prove this) and he said no at every turn and they'll release more on Ebay when they're ready (which is code for "No, fuck off") and I am like ok.. thank you for your time. And they start asking me all this bullshit about how I was from some company or how I was from IYRU (an inflatables board) and I answered no. Ok. I figure problem solved right?

Wroooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

I get a message from my friend who's on the board saying that Merek is threating me with Doxxing. I ask him to archive everything and lo and behold there's the evidence I need.

Oh but it gets better because one of the moderators on the board (not saying who) decides he knows who I am (I used my RL name) and associated me with Johnny and basically decided to call me every name under the sun. All because I "freaked out" about him because he wouldn't do his job as a moderator.

Um. I hate to say it. You can have problems in your life. I have them now. And that's why I am NOT a moderator of ANY kind. But if I have a problem with someone on the board.. and you are a moderator.. then YES! I fucking EXPECT YOU to do your goddamned job! REGARDLESS of what's going on in your life. Take care of it or STEP DOWN.

And finally the coup de grace I get a call yesterday at 5:15 pm asking me to call my agency. In short my contract was ended. Why? I wasn't a "right fit for the company" which is bullshit for "we see that we can do the job with one person and not two." So.. yeah. I am home, a bit pissed off and just want to fucking scream.

But am I done? Oh FUCK no. I turned 51 but I am NOT about to fucking QUIT. I am applying for jobs (not temp agencies.. jobs), going to mow the lawn today and be fucking PRODUCTIVE.

As Max said in Elysium "This ain't gonna kill me."

This is going to sound really selfish or self righteous or whatever else.. but.. I want to make something clear.

If this stuff isn't new. I don't care. I would gladly take used items. Hell my friend Kenny Kitsune gave me a used 3DS XL for Christmas a few years ago and you know what? I loved it and still care for it and play with it to this day.

Anyway, what do I want? This is the list:

1) 3d printer (doesn't have to be new but I do want something that I can at least print mini's off of)
2) Nintendo Switch (again doesn't have to be new)
3) Horseplay toys Caribou
4) Phenod husky or whatever (same type of toy.. not picky)
5) One of those illumination cyber visors (and if it had a crack in it I wouldn't care)

Other than that.. that's all I can think of. I would be grateful for anything either on or off this list. Thank you for reading this. Love you all

Johnny

So I don't know if it is crass to ask for stuff for my birthday or not so what do you guys think I was thinking about posting a shortlist here but I don't know what do you guys think

Ever have a dream that was so real that you had no idea that it was a dream in the first place? Yeah. That happened to me.

The scenario was I was at a con in one of the rooms just hanging out and I saw a suit that I hadn't recognized before. It looked like a white goat with black horns but I saw a LOT of badges hanging from their neck.

One was Griefer

Now for those that don't know me and Tilt Longtail go way back. I remember meeting Griefer a while ago back when I had my V.1 version of my hyena. He had liked Savannah and said he was the most favorite hyena in the whole world. So.. I had given him the adoration he deserved.

Anyway, back to the dream. He notices me (because he has his head on and I am out of suit) as I call his name (Griefer not whatever the suit was) and he goes "Heyyyy." and just comes over to me and hugs me.. gently.

And I felt it. I .. felt it.. I felt like I was there and he was really hugging me.

And then I woke up.

So.. yeah.. I almost cried when I got up..

Ok. I will say this. I like Twitter for the most part.. However, some of the people on there have to go.

In one case. Aaron Carter. This douchebag got myself banned from the platform for a few days. Let me explain.

I saw that this asshole was not only STEALING someone elses art but was SELLING it through his shop (google that shit) and I basically said that he should be MAULED by the lions that he so idolizes.

Banned. Bullying.

How? I have no fucking clue.

Anyway, I am looking for work (yes it's only been one week since I've been without a job and I hate it so much right now. I would rather be working). But, I am also using my time constructively. For starters? I am drawing again. Yep, the tiger with zero talent is drawing again and i'd prolly take requests too because I am glutton for punishment.

Also, saw alot of movies via Kodi. Color of Space is AMAZING!!! If you love cosmic horror / HP Lovecraft.. watch that shit!! NOW! The Lighthouse however.. steer clear of it.. that movie was overhyped as fuck and it sucks.

Anyway, need to finish cooking dinner as Manitou is playing Forza Horizon 4 I hear a song in the background and I google that shit and find it.

It is now my anthem.

Never, never, never, ever
Never, ever, ever say die

Chvrches - Never Say Die.

And.. I am not going to.

Johnny

Period. I am done. No one cared about me there anyway.. :/

I feel depressed for a myriad of reasons. I am losing my job this week (it was a temp assignment), the other job I had my hopes on right now is going nowhere and FC is this week. I want a fucking break.. but I am not getting it. I want more than anything right now is a job. I don't know what else to do. I am 50. I am a hard worker. I show up EARLY and start working.. what fucking MORE do you want?! The place that cut me and replaced me is regretting it as people are leaving and this "kid" can't cut it. And when I make off comments on here I get fucking ganged up on. Hell I left IYRU maybe I should leave here as well. I am just tired. There's gonna be 1000 posts saying omg! FC so fun in a few days and I am "literally" 130 miles from it. And even if I COULD go.. Savannah's fucking broken. I haven't suited in years. What the fuck do all these posts matter anyway.. no one's going to fucking read them.

Hi folks. Sorry for not being really active on here as.. well.. as someone put it "The poop has well and truly hit the windmill."

Where to begin? On 1/21/2019 I started at a company called Pro Unlimited (I don't give a fuck about using names now. I really don't.) and as I interviewed with these schmucks they said "Oh there's a chance for this to go permanent" Great! So I go ahead and get myself into the role which is data entry and supporting analysts that support clients. And this place has BIG clients like Nike and Apple to name a few. So I am working and 1 month turns into 3 which turns into 6 and still no offer. So I ask my boss and they say he'll talk to the higher ups. Ok. Great.

You see where this is going right?

So on 11/7 I am dragged into a meeting saying that they replaced me and they're cutting my hours to 2 days a week. Now mind you at this point I have been here 10 months, missed ONE day and that was because my mate was in the hospital, never been late and had gotten EVERY task done on or ahead of schedule. I was pissed to say the least and the reason that was given was this program "Was for someone of an accounting background." or "For recent graduates".

I proved that bullshit false in a hour. One person who works there BARELY graduated HS and the other person who had my job was in her 30's. Soooooo.. yeah.

I can't PROVE it's ageism but the asshole that replaced me is as dumb as a fucking post and 21 years old.

So I go into work Monday and I get a call from my agency saying where am I and I say I am at work and they say "well.. your schedule changed this week.. didn't anyone tell you?"

I. fucking. lost. it.

I basically threatened to quit right then and there. But cooler heads prevailed and I decided to stay.. but NOT before going to HR and telling them EVERYTHING. How I suspect i am being discriminated against because of my age and all that other bullshit.

So that's the story of this whole fucking mess. I will tell you this. I am actively looking right now and there are some irons in the fire and I can't talk about most of this shit because I don't want to jinx it.. but if this works out I will be SET.

And I cannot WAIT to get the fuck away from this place. Because when I am gone.. this asshole is STILL working 3 day work weeks.. work comes in DAILY. Who's going to pick up the slack? Not my fucking problem and I already told people shit's going to fall apart. Some scoffed or laughed.. but then again.. I have had businesses SHUT DOWN after I had left, departments have fallen APART after I have left.. this isn't me boasting.. this is FACT.

Anyway.. enough ranting.. I don't want fucking christmas to happen this year because shit is going to fall apart.. :/

Love y'all

Johnny

What's the best way to get better at something?

Practice.

So..

I can't believe I am going to say this.

I am going to take requests to do stories.. yes.. stories.. that I write. Basically ... porn.

What do I write about? If you have to ask.. .... yeah.

Balloon / inflatable stories get priority. And if you come at me with a sentence ... I'll prolly say no and move on.

However, a paragraph or two? Yeahhhhhh I can work with that.

So any takers? Note me.

This week.. sucked. And I will tell you why.

Basically I missed another BLFC and it's only 150 miles from my house. I couldn't shirk off everything and go to it and even if I did..

Savannah's broken.

Yes, Savannah is broken. Let me explain. There was a cheap plastic piece in the head that warped (yes I left it out in the garage that was 100000000% my fault) and the plastic broke. So I got wonderflex and created a new piece with the help of my friend but.. there was nothing to attach it to. I was so angry. However, a friend of mine Zoren decided to take up the task so I paid him $200 (well right now $175 but I will owe him the rest when the repairs are completed) to fix it and he's working on not only repairing the head.. but making it better.

So even if I did go to BLFC I couldn't really have fun. I LOVE suiting. But.. it was also my job. Yes I am working and have been for months at this place and it's not like it's the county where I work for 5 months 29 days and that's that. No. This is private sector and I am doing a good job I am told however, sometimes when it's dead I play on my phone or watch YT (can have it on in the background.. they're fine with that) and I get a light scolding from my boss.

So with everything.. it came to a head Thursday night when I went to bed early (were talking 8:20pm folks.. early for me).

I went to bed. And I cried. I cried long and hard. Got up the next day and cried more as I saw a bunch of clips from Zootopia, Inside Out, blah blah blah.

But when I got to work I had an epiphany. I was like OK I am bummed but what can I do to turn this around? Well what do I like about cons outside of suiting?

Buying stuff.

Ok. great. So what can I buy myself that would cheer me up?

Balloons of course.

So.. with some quick thinking I coordinated a plan that was out of an episode of the A-Team. I contacted Stryps over at Anthrowear and we negotiated a price and I sent him the money via paypal. I then talked to my dear friend Tym and I sent him over to get the parcel. Mission accomplished!

At that point. I felt.. loved. I had no idea how to explain it.. but I just felt like people rallied around me to make me feeling better.

So if you do feel depressed.. just remember a line from one of my favorite movies.

"It can't rain all the time"

Johnny

So. Yesterday I came to a conclusion.

That I was acting like an idiot.

So what if this kid on Twitter said that he could "shadowban" me. Guess what. It's bullshit. Shadowbanning DOES happen on Twitter but I think the ONLY people that can do that shit.

Is Twitter.

I was more upset that I would be saying things to people and not getting any responses. Over what? Over something I said that I was heated in the moment? I was upset the way people were acting and I basically said I was close to leaving the furry fandom and Twitter. I didn't ASK for people to kick me when I was down.. and guess what.. they did.

The people that were there were the asshole that "blocked me" because I made transphobic comments in the past. Um.. asshole. I will say this again s-l-o-w-l-y so you can understand. If I DID agree with an asshole like that. I apologize. I was PISSED off at my roommate who IS TRANS and made my fucking life a LIVING HELL! I am GLAD she fucking left (and yes. I am STILL calling her a she.. even tho I could be an asshole and misgender her.. which. I. am. not).

People LOVE to find shit to be offended at now. There are people that get up and they go out of their way to find shit on their timeline. I also made an EDD post where I was pissed that someone bought a ton of garbage food at a 99 cent store, paid with EDD and got into a nice looking Mercedes (and I didn't have a job at the time). People are like well .. she probably borrowed the car or something like that.. yeah..

And she could be scamming the system.

But the transphobic comments I made? That was from 2017!!!!!! REALLY?! So I get a position with OwO news and you spent.. GODS knows how much time to comb through my timeline to look at something you wanted to be offended at and get me kicked off of that shit?

I feel sorry for you. I really do.

To me I could give a fuck less if I am with OwO news or not. Because they are like "hehehehe we won." no.. you didn't. You robbed people of hearing about my experiences in the fandom. So good job on that asshole.

Oh and these are the same people .. I fucking bet.. if I comb through THEIR timeline i'll find something they said to be offended about. We ALL have said stupid shit in our past and this Cancel Culture that's going around.. needs to fucking stop. Because you know who suffers?

The rest of us.

Last year we lost James Gunn as the GOTG V3 director over.. what.. stupid shit he said in the past? Kevin Hart, Liam Nesson, Chris Hardwick and tons more have had shit dredged up on them. And the thing that pisses me off is that these people think that their shit does NOT STINK.

WHEN IT FUCKING DOES. WORSE THAN ANYONE ELSES!

So.. I thought. Fuck it. I am not going to be involved in Twitter drama, if I get a hater I will block them and love the people that love me. That's it.

Don't let the bastards win. Yep. That sounds like a good fucking idea to me.

*is trying to type with tears streaming down his face*

So. Next week is my birthday. I am going to be turning 50 years old.

And I don't think I have a place in the furry fandom anymore. Let me explain.

I joined the fandom in 1992 and it was a great place to be as people were acceptable and there was drama here and there but it was limited and we took care of it. But I still felt included and loved as it was a great place to be. Years later I would get my first fursuit which was a lion that I called Pride named after one of the two lions guarding the NYC public library. Later on it would transition to Savannah and I still have him today (which we'll get more on that later). And then I discovered Twitter.

And I saw the true face of the fandom. And it is ugly and unforgiving.

You say something no matter what the context was in that moment and people will bring up months and years later. True story. I was going to be a writer for OwO news and guess what.. someone digs into my past and sees that I made transphobic comments. So that means I must be transphobic and a horrible evil person right?

No.

It means that I had a roommate that I will just label "asshole" and asshole was a militant feminist, vegan and also transsexual. She DEMANDED respect even tho she fucking emotionally vomited on EVERYONE in the household. At one point she was like I am leaving and I was like.. BYE! GTFO! I swear to god .. she even went after my mate because he didn't know what to make of her being trans and he adopted a neutral stance. She was ANGRY at this and called him a transphobe! HOW?! HOW THE FUCK CAN HE BE WHEN HE DOESN'T HAVE ENOUGH INFO TO SUPPORT HIS VIEW ONE WAY OR ANOTHER?!?!?

So. I was cut from that "news organization" because people who love to crusade for shit.. SJW's in the fandom.. good god..

The last straw was people bullying a prominent fursuit YouTuber from going on a podcast. This was something that this person wanted to do and yet they get yelled at and talked down to because they are going to do this. So they back out. And I say that this person was bullied into not going on the podcast and I was upset... and still am.

This is what we have become.

We have become people who are upset over EVERYTHING. We wake up EVERYDAY looking for something to be offended at. And people don't give a fuck WHO they hurt or what the fuck goes on. In fact the post that sent me over the edge was from another "hyena" who said that my account was Shadowbanned and no one would see any updates from me.

So that's it. No one would even see my b-day? Fuck this.

I deleted my twitter.

And now I sit here. I am actually angry, crying and really upset over this. a 50th b-day is supposed to be a fucking milestone in someone's life. It is supposed to be special.

And thanks to the many hateful and shitty people who are in our fandom now. Congrats. You ruined it.

Hi folks,

First I am sorry for not posting shit here for awhile. I figured most of you are on twitter and you follow all my news there. However, I figured to just post an update here to be safe.

Right now I am working thank god and I am not working for the county so that whole 5 month 29 days bullshit is done. This place also lost 5 people recently and I am still a temp so who knows. I am working at 17.50 /hr and believe me the job isn't that hard. It's taking shit off of an excel sheet and transferring it into another program. So yeah.. I am pretty accurate as well as fast so they're impressed as all hell!

The only thing I don't like about the place is it's in folsom. It's a bit of a drive and I have to leave at 6:55 to get there for 8:00. Most of the times I will get there for 7:30 - 7:45 and when I roll up I start work. Period. I am getting along with people there and getting shit done. So there's that.

Other than that things are going OK for the most part. I am trying to get back into writing but my heart doesn't seem into it. I am thinking of starting up the Costume series again with Tina and Rose going on vacation to Wonderland amusement park. But I dunno..

Anyway, time is getting short here and I should get ready for work. If yer not following me follow me on twitter at jblancotiger

I have this jinx about not talking about jobs and such especially when I am up for one

I had a chance to interview at the place I am working at now. Great opportunity, great salary and I know most of the job.

However, I was told yesterday out of the several candidates that were selected.

They are selecting zero. Not even me.

And I come to work asking for more work, I am always on time, I am always in a great mood and I am always helpful

So why did they not pick me? :(