Thinking of starting an online campaign. If you don't know what it is, don't bother replying. There's a 98% chance you wouldn't like it.

For a long time I tried to convince myself that I wasn't Christian anymore. That it was repressive, bigoted, intolerant, and responsible for the world's problems. I even went and followed Gods hardly anyone actually worships anymore, rather than God.

But as I've decided to finally settle in and get on with my life, I've come to the decision that I was baptized, I went to first communion, I went through confirmation... I might as well stick with it. This isn't changing anything of my core personality. I'm still who I am, just as I always have been. I'm not going to try and change anyone and don't worry about me being ANY different than I was.

I believe that God loves us all, even if we don't fit into the mold exactly, and that no one should be FORCED to take a path they don't want to. One has to come about it on their own. It's not always easy. But I'm confident that things are going to improve from here. Because dammit, I'm TRYING now.

And because I've stopped running.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6691637

Go have a look! The poor girl needs the money. :c

Here's the deal. A while ago I said I'd see how things went this year at Furfright before I decided to stop bothering with the majority of the fandom or not and just stick around my friends.

Well, I've made my decision.

I'm done with cons.

There were people who made this year fun, awesome, and memorable in lots of ways that I'll remember fondly for a long time (You know who you all are. I love you guys so much. <3), but it still wasn't enough to make me want to spend that much money just to deal with what I had to for the most part.

Most people there were loud, rude, arrogant, selfish, petty, and just downright unpleasant. A "friend" of mine who'd been in a rough way finally, or so it seemed, got over the vices that were making his life miserable and I was looking forward to having a great time with him.

But like the majority, he'd rather get smashed off his face and focus on self destruction than have an ACTUAL good time.

And speaking of smashed people? Way to totally keep other people from sleep, 50 something drunken lunatics outside up to like... 3 in the morning. It's not enough the air conditioning didn't work (Thanks for that, by the way, Crowne Plaza; Even when I was out of suit and handling/furtographing Snow and Reiz, I needed the headless lounge!!!) and the humidity was killing us all, you guys had to go and top it all off by being total, complete douche-bags.

And the final killer for me was when I was tired and wanted to go back to the room, and I was in suit. I get into the elevator because of how tired I am and I don't want to fall down the stairs. There are like, eight (!) people in the elevator at once, and I'm crammed near the back. So here I am asking the nearest person to press the third floor button and she just all of smiles and waves at me like a lunatic.

Really, lady? Thanks. Thanks the crap for not taking three seconds out of your life to help someone. Here's me hosting two awesome friends out of the sheer goodness of my heart, buying them dinner on Saturday night, donating like, almost 100$ to the War Dogs charity, and generally just trying to be a good person, and then all this happens.

Don't mistake my meaning. I'm not asking for pity, nor am I wallowing in despair. But when people inevitably ask me "Why not go to like, conventions or something?" I want something to link to to, that, in explicit detail, explains why the fuck I'm done with cons.

And for all you illiterate fucks out there, I close thusly.

Peace out bitch yo son dog-ku.