Thank you so much for 400 watchers on FA! When I started writing so long ago I never realized how popular my stories would be. I would like to celebrate somehow but I'm not sure what I'd like to do. One of these days I could write a little story with some of your OCs in it as a gift? I just need to get off of my fat ass and start making stuff faster XD

It has been a year since I have graduated. I haven't been able to pay rent or my student loans. Despite graduating with a 3.8 GPA and a decent reward for one of my projects, I'm getting denied from even working at Walmart. I think I am in a state where I am overqualified to work a job like that, and underqualified to actually get a decent job. Quite honestly, I have been working shitty jobs my entire life and I'd rather die than work something rough again.

The email I just received said my tax returns will be revoked, some of my income will be taken each paycheck, and more and more negatives. I really don't know what I can do to move forward, and it feels like the school has successfully targeted a poor sap like me to reap them for their naivety. It feels like there is no bright future for me. I just feel weak and powerless sometimes. The only way I can move forward is by ignoring it all.

I have debated on contacting a business that will remove my Game Design degree from the records and shed myself away from the school entirely. I've heard doing so will also remove these student loans. Full Sail University has been under fire lately because nobody is getting work from that school. I still talk with everyone I went to school with and it is all the same sad story. They have actually started making fake contract jobs inside of the school where students will work for like a month. The jobs usually includes made up work and is only there to make their school look better.

I'm not exactly sure what I should be doing at this point. I am just exhausted from it all. I've started going to the gym just to find enough energy to stay awake. Most of the time I am so tired that I can't concentrate on even writing. I haven't been able to code for about a month because I keep thinking AI will just take over everything I know.

I don't know if anyone cares, but I just want all the help I can get. Please support my silly stories and share this around.

Hello friends! I am opening up for writing commissions. I am also thinking of doing another YCH story. If all else fails, I think I want to do a raffle... or some sort of drive to get me more followers. I've had a massive amount of success lately with writing and I can honestly say it has improved my mood quite a lot. Thank you to everyone who has helped recently, even if it is a simple word or two. One thing I have started to consider is the value of putting your all into what you make. I think over the last few months or so I have been doing a good job taking a step back and allowing myself to heal. For so many years I thought that work was not supposed to be fun. That isn't true. I've found love in writing again and I *think* if I ever get into a bad slump again, I may be able to break out of it. Only time will tell. In any case, I do need more support. I want to continue creating and pushing myself as hard as I can to improve.

Here are a few ways to message me your idea (these are clickable):[/u]
Google Form
Discord
Or simply message me here on FA through notes!

Work Queue: Trello


What I WILL write:
- General fat fur kinks
- Feederism (mild to extreme)
- Immobilization
- Inflation
- Bimbo + Dumbification
- Lactation
- Pregnancy
- Slob
- Any sexuality or gender identity
- SFW and NSFW
- Non-kink
- Follows Harkness test: https://imgs.search.brave.com/bhXN6XNVV0vVzeoIp8MkIFa-M_gOrN2KUtN0OUGl5Kc/rs:fit:860:0:0:0/g:ce/aHR0cHM6Ly9pLmt5/bS1jZG4uY29tL3Bo/b3Rvcy9pbWFnZXMv/b3JpZ2luYWwvMDAx/LzI2Mi8wMjMvYzM4/LnBuZw
- Original characters or fanfiction

What I DO NOT write:
- Gore + Violence
- Scat + Watersports
- Underage
- Non-consensual
- Focus on drugs
- Death feederism
- Does not follow Harkness test: https://imgs.search.brave.com/bhXN6XNVV0vVzeoIp8MkIFa-M_gOrN2KUtN0OUGl5Kc/rs:fit:860:0:0:0/g:ce/aHR0cHM6Ly9pLmt5/bS1jZG4uY29tL3Bo/b3Rvcy9pbWFnZXMv/b3JpZ2luYWwvMDAx/LzI2Mi8wMjMvYzM4/LnBuZw

Yesterday I went to a support group for those who had a difficult childhood. More specifically, it was for children who lived with or grew up around parents and family that were alcoholics or substance abusers. The first thing I noticed was I was the youngest person there. There may have been one other that was my age, but it was debatable. It made me realized that this was something that may effect my entire life which is a little scary. However, it immediately became apparent that everyone there was supportive, and I felt like I was around people that I could understand. We all introduced ourselves, and we got to the meat of the meeting: a focus on accepting praise.

I never knew people had a voice in their head that was telling them that they did a good job. I have always just done things, got through it, and went onto the next project. I've never felt any sort of joy for what I had done. To fix this, one person described themselves mowing grass, and stopping just to give themselves a pat on their back and reward themselves. Something like this might take some time for me. It is kinda funny, because this new dragon sona Lux... I wanted to make him extremely greedy. STARVED for praise, even. You can see this in my other sonas, albeit at a lesser level. I suppose even before this group, I was already sensing a complete lack of this in my life. Dunno. Maybe it is a good thing to ask for more sometimes. :)

It makes me want to admit something: I struggle A LOT with buying new things and spoiling myself. I wear clothes that are 10+ years old. I don't buy the newest gadgets. I've never been on a vacation or gone to cons--things like that. Even when I did have money and a stable job, most of the time I'd just focus on the most important things and put money aside for emergencies. Now that probably doesn't sound like a bad thing to most people, but no. It is to the point where I started feeling completely stagnant in my life. Am I truly living this way? No. If you have been following me for a while, you probably know that I have completely burnt out and am now struggling to make ends meet.

This first meeting has given me the wisdom to accept a few things:
1. I should value what I have created to a much higher standard
2. I need to reward myself more, even if I feel scared or worried about it
3. I really, really need to slow down. I am a workaholic to fill in the void of my loneliness
4. It is okay to accept help from people
5. I desperately need to talk to more people

I don't know if this'll help anyone. I've always liked to journal my journey here because I find it kinda fun. I'll keep these journal entries going of my time in this group.

And you know what? GO SUPPORT ME!!!! BOW down to your dragon lord on My Patreon and visit my other links: Linktree

I'm going to start spoiling myself and finally live life. I'm glad to have gone to this support group because man, I was anxious about it. It isn't easy being vulnerable around strangers. XP

Support Group
One of my local friends reached out and told me about a program for those who have lived a difficult childhood and are in need of a support group. After reading some of the stuff that this group has created, there are sources that may improve my livelihood. I recognize I have real trauma from my past that I need to comb through. We'll see!

Essentially, this support group is for adults who feel like they don't have a good grasp on life because their childhood was torn from them. I think only good vibes could come from something like this. It is communities like these that many people need more of. Face-to-face interaction with people who have gone through the same stuff might heal a good portion of what I'm going through right now.

Writing
I'm sure some of you have noticed I have been writing almost non-stop for the last month. The amount of support I have gained from it is staggering. I thank you all for that! I like writing again! I think something clicked where I realized wait a second... this is awesome! I am being paid to create stuff! For a while, I looked at my writing with distaste, like I was wasting time writing fanfiction instead of learning how to code. Now, I think any work is still a good step in the right direction. Why should it matter that I'm writing and not flipping burgers somewhere? It's literally paying some of my bills.

Video Game
For those of you that have followed for a while, you may know that I have always wanted to make a video game. I have finally started to do so... but the way financial institutions are going, I have no way of knowing if I could even ask for money for making anything furry or queer-related. That isn't stopping me though. It's something I've always wanted to do. I'm not letting the last few years learning game development to go to waste!

So far, I have an RPG / Text-Adventure based in a sci-fi world. The main character will be an anthro dragon that can travel through space just by flying because... dragons are cool I guess and can uhhhh... just not die without oxygen :P. This idea was inspired by Final Fantasy XIV's Endwalker if anyone knows what I'm talking about.

But, this dragon will need to bulk up to have enough energy to glide through space. It'll be like milestones for how far the player is in the game I think! I already have a (somewhat) working weight gain system. I haven't even touched the other stats yet XD.

Each planet will have their own creatures and people, and weird events. Of course, I'm not going to make each planet GIGANTIC. There might be a few areas for each one though.

My plans are to get a nice base for the game working and give it out for people to basically bug test for me. I am hoping to get something small out sometime in the next month or two. We shall see! I'm really excited to work on it though. :)

There's two days left for my character poll on Discord! Join in so that you can vote now.

Here are the current standings:

Krystal (Star Fox) -- 1 vote
King Dedede - 4 votes
Sly Cooper -- 5 votes
Carmelita Fox -- 0 votes
Valoo -- 5 votes
Banjo -- 4 votes

Click to Vote in my Discord!

Once this is completed, I will write a weight gain story about that character. I think it'll be fun! I chose these characters because all of them need a little love. I don't see them too often! I aim to fix that... Bwahahaha!

I'm doing a poll for the next character I'll write about over in my Discord! Come join and vote!

Discord Link

1. I get my first car and license after becoming independent from my horrendous upbringing
2. The entire world shuts down because of Covid the same year and I live out my early 20's completely isolated
3. I work all the way through the worst of it as an "essential worker" and basically become a zombie
4. I get so fed up with the Trump supporters I worked with I start going to college to learn how to code and follow my dreams making video games
5. I graduate nearly at the top of my class
6. AI completely destroys entry level coding jobs
7. I volunteer at """"internships""""" for no pay for a year to get job experience. NDAs prevent me from showing anything I made
8. I start writing more erotica and theorizing making a fat fur game
9. Credit card companies shut down NSFW work through Steam, Itch.io, and probably WAY more things soon
10. Sadness

I really don't know where I'll be soon. I am going to continue learning as much as I can to become relevant again but I see very little hope. I just feel tired y'all.

I woke up about an hour ago thinking of my father. He's probably about 70 years old right now. I can't stop thinking if I should give him one last call and tell him how I feel about him. I have never considered him as a real father. I've only seen him a handful of times, and those times have been filled with grief. He is a shattered man that had only married once and never had any real goal or motivation toward anything. He is a drunk of thirty + years that barely knows who I am. He is the reason why every time I'm around alcohol, I am extremely on edge, especially around loud drunks. It is also why I don't like the bar scene. The last time I called him he didn't know my age. I'm unsure if he even knew who I was. He sounded like he was deep in a drink. The fact is, he is my father. I only have one. And honestly? I wonder if it would cause me more pain to know that he dies without me saying how I truly feel about him.

Hello friends!

I've been deep in the writing mines lately, and I'm ready to make this month a productive one. I'm officially opening for commissions again!

As always, I write SFW and NSFW stories primarily focusing on fat furs, weight gain, feederism, and the like. I am also open to branching out if you've got something unique on your mind! I know times are rough, and I'm trying to hustle and create alongside you all. We'll get through this!

Here are a few ways to message me your idea (these are clickable):[/u]
Google Form
Discord
Or message me here on FA through notes!

Work Queue: Trello


What I WILL write:
- General fat fur kinks
- Feederism (mild to extreme)
- Immobilization
- Inflation
- Bimbo + Dumbification
- Lactation
- Pregnancy
- Slob
- Any sexuality or gender identity
- SFW and NSFW
- Non-kink
- Follows Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox
- Original characters or fanfiction

What I DO NOT write:
- Gore + Violence
- Scat + Watersports
- Underage
- Non-consensual
- Focus on drugs
- Death feederism
- Does not follow Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox

I have been practicing meditation and mindfulness for a while now. Whenever I am stuck writing or coding, I have allowed myself some room to breathe. Only when I feel decent will I return to a task. Overworking myself ruined my drive to do most things - even things that I used to love. I'm sure you've noticed, but I have written several stories in the time that it would have taken me months in the past. I have one story in the finishing stages and another that's the longest commission I've ever taken in the works. I'm even powering through two hours of learning how to code and building a Git each day. It feels pretty good.

One thing has been made clear though: I needed to take better care of myself a long time ago. I am the type of person that will work 12 hours without breaks and crash for days afterwards... only to do the same cycle again. The pomodoro technique (25 minutes on-task / 5 minutes off-task) has forced me to stop whatever I'm doing and do things like, you know, drink water. Eat. The things people usually do naturally. College and working definitely put a stopper to some of that and I'm still trying to get away from that cycle.

Still, I want to ask for help. I want to find a job that has some form of advancement and meaning. If anyone can lead me into entry-level coding jobs, editing written works, or anything you'd think I'd fit into, please tell me. Otherwise, I am going to put my links to commissions here if you want to help out that way: https://linktr.ee/jollyguts

Keep strong everyone! We'll make it through. <3

I have started a secret video game project I can't show off! It is all volunteer work for a mod in a beloved game. I am working on level design, which is something that I have always loved to do and I'm happy to be part of the project. I am learning a new engine, and have met many new people within the project. It has been a blast!

I've been writing a lot more. I have a personal series - something that I've been writing in my own time for quite a while now. It is based in the Elder Scrolls universe and is incredibly long. I will probably break it up into chapters and release those individually over time. I believe that by having a consistent upload schedule, maybe one chapter a week, my stories will be fresh on people's minds and it'll give people something to look up to. Once I have that sorted, I am working on a large commission and a semi-large trade. My goal is to write around 1000 words a day.

I went mini golfing and got second place! It was pretty fun, and my friends were wild. The person that got first regularly plays so I guess my patience worked to my favor. I just wish I could have gotten my hands on some of the food there...

I'm also DMing more. I am running Curse of Strahd almost every week. I am playing in a new group's campaign every other week as well. More D&D in my schedule is better in my opinion!

I beat Oblivion: Remastered. That game is super fun, but since I had already beaten the original, I just did the quests that I knew were great and rushed to the end. It was much, much easier than the original. I didn't even have a broken build or grinded. I just kinda... snuck around and killed everything in a few hits. I remember the original being brutal sometimes, probably because of the stamina and leveling system.

I also finished watching Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood. That show took me nearly a year to finish, mostly because I keep throwing myself at projects (and I just don't find watching things alone fun). It was great, and I see why so many people love it. I had always heard good things when it was releasing, but I never had internet or anything to watch it on. Next up, I want to watch Delicious in Dungeon!

I'm also studying HTML and CSS. I'm nearly finished with the CSS course, and I feel proficient at making simple websites now. I am planning on learning JavaScript next, and see what I can do from there. My goal is to get into the tech industry - something that I can do on the side just to scrape by while making creative stuff. I've basically just been waking up and doing this for the first few hours of my day when dopamine is high. Then switching to writing or working on game design. I'm learning everything with FreeCodeCamp.org, LinkedIn Learning, and YouTube. I'm putting everything into a Git with detailed notes. If anyone knows of a way of getting into the industry, I would love to chat. I work hard, and I need to make a break into something.

A week ago, I stopped drinking coffee. I have never felt better, and I believe it is because coffee just reacts to my body poorly. Even if I work out like crazy and drink water, I still feel horrendous before the day is done, and the next day I hardly sleep and feel even worse. I started drinking coffee because I was slamming three part-time jobs and college together. It uh... wasn't great. I can concentrate so much better, and I stay asleep for way longer. All that caffeine just made me anxious and my thoughts raced faster than I could keep up.

I'm still searching for a partner. I have realized that my priorities lie in making a family that I never had, which might be in itself quite a greedy goal. I don't know if that is feasible while having these hobbies of mine, but I still want to try. I'm not getting any younger, and I want to keep pushing myself to grow better and healthier. I'm looking for someone that's AFAB and looking for something serious. Just putting it out there~

My dog is getting pretty old. I believe he is around 12 or 13 years old. He's still incredibly sweet and active, but I can tell that he gets confused sometimes. I hope I can make these last years happy for him. He's helped me through some very dark times.

I'm down to 225 lbs. My peak was 245. This is only because I can't afford as much food as I used to. I am also weight lifting, and cycling. A couple days ago I even jogged. I am being a little more active because I was getting so exhausted some days that I could barely get out of bed. Plus, well, it helps with depression. Bringing caffeine back into this though - I think coffee was the worst contender for my exhaustion. I still love to be big and fat, and I love all of the comments I get for it. It makes me feel happy! I just care about health as well.

Next month I plan to become proficient with JavaScript. I need some sort of stable income, because this stress of getting by doing odd jobs is honestly hurting my creative energy. I'm also going to continue to avoid caffeine, because it truly has hurt a good chunk of aspects of my life. I don't even drink much compared to some people I know. I guess I'm a lightweight... somehow lol. I also plan to continue writing, and I would really like to make a Patreon for extra income. I am trying to use social media a little more. I literally have a timer to dedicate around 30 minutes a day to it just to put myself out there. I want to spend next month chatting more with everyone, because loneliness is killer. I wish I was more extroverted, but this is something new to me. I've had the same handful of friends all my life, and while I love them, I want to um... know girls. I don't know how else to put it XD.

I've intentionally left out a lot of the negatives here because I know all of us are having a rough time. I think we can make it through this!

My car's tire blew out. Luckily it was literally in front of a car tire shop. Guess that was my car saying April Fools? I'm picking it up today. However, I have been terrified to look at my bank account lately. This was the first time in a bit that I was forced to look. I am kinda shaken but I had to do it some day. I need to start doing something again to make money. I think I'm going to try to make a Patreon and really delve into my work. I would appreciate everyone's support, no matter how large or small. Even a simple message helps sometimes.

On another note, I've had no luck getting a primary care doctor. My state's insurance is basically useless after several phone calls going back and forth with companies for the last month. That means I couldn't contact a therapist because I have to get a referral. I'm fairly certain I have some form of major depression. I've been doing my own research and trying a few tactics to remain active and creative. At the moment I'm basically just sitting around until I'm bored enough to do something productive - dopamine fasting. It is hard on my brain sometimes but it is kinda working. I've also been bike riding and getting more sun. I mean hey, I had an interview a couple days ago after applying to places so something is working.

I still want to create things though, and I want to push harder toward making games. I am also still writing. I think the best thing for me to do is keep creating things no matter what the medium is and try not to force it. It's a win so long as I'm having fun. I admit that I play and watch too many games. It is an addiction toward quick and easy ways to get dopamine. I'm not addicted to drugs or anything but it is still negative. I mean some days I'd watch HOURS of Youtube and feel horrendous. If I'm serious about being creative, I have to eliminate these bad routines.

I am planning on setting up more commissions and a Patreon. I will definitely send out links when I get the chance to make everything look nice. Right now I'm just concentrating on getting my car fixed and finding a job. I've probably sent out a hundred applications last month. After reviewing my portfolio and resume, I've decided to completely remake both. After that, I immediately got a response... so good sign I guess????

Thanks everyone for keeping in touch. I really appreciate it. 👍

It has been several months since I graduated at the top of my class with a director's award. I haven't gotten a single job, and only three or so interviews, none of which were for games. The friends I graduated with are also struggling extremely hard despite being at the top of their respective degrees as well. We have all made a couple games together in game jams to build our portfolios. Fact is the video game industry (and the tech industry in general) is collapsing. My goals have always been to make games, be independent, and make my own family. I am achieving none of these. I am starting therapy. The state of the US and the rest of the world is angering but it is what it is.

Ultimately, I don't want to be where I am now writing erotica. I don't see a future in writing, and I haven't felt that love for writing in a long, long time. I always want to shoot for the moon and create something amazing. It pains me, but the world keeps getting crazier, and I need to fend for myself. I have been learning everything I can about coding through Freecodecamp.org because I'm unsure what the next step I can take is. Web design? Idk. Seems like everything entry level can be made with AI.

I just need a stable position somewhere to get me by. Trying to make it with writing is just not feasible. It takes me a good hour just to write 1000 words anymore. Even if I raise prices, that fear that I'll be in my 30's, 40's, and so on struggling as I am now is terrifying. Quite honestly if I didn't have my friends right now, I would be homeless.

So I think I want to spend all the time I have pushing to get something better. I think I am going to force myself to limit my time on here, on video games, and everywhere else until something good happens. I'm going to study hard and keep applying myself, just as I did before with college. This sucks big time but I don't know what else to do. Please, if you know of anything I can do - editing writing, working for a paper or magazine, Blender, coding with HTML, CSS, C++, or anything you can think of, please tell me. Otherwise I guess this is it for now. :/

Thank you to those who have kept an eye on me. I appreciate all the messages. I'll still be around.

Hello fatties! I'm rolling my fat ass back into my cave and writing. As always I have information on how to commission below. If you are interested, please message me what type of story you want either below in this journal or in my notes on FurAffinity. We can also chat on Discord with my username: Jollyguts

$15 per 1000 words

The P L A N:
1. Volkenfox (10000 words)
2. Charfan (10000 words)
3. 2nd YCH Story?
4.
5.

What I DO write:
- General fat fur kinks
- Feederism
- Immobilization
- Inflation
- Bimbo + Dumbification
- Lactation
- Mild slob
- Any sexuality + gender
- SFW and NSFW
- Non-kink
- Follows Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox
- Original characters + fanfiction

What I DO NOT write:
- Gore + Violence
- Scat + Watersports
- Underage
- Extreme age difference
- Vore
- Non-consensual
- Focus on drugs
- Death feederism
- Does not follow Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox

When I started writing I had no idea that people would enjoy my stories so much. I used to write on loose paper before I got my own computer. When I was able to upload my stuff I had to borrow my neighbor's internet by uploading it in my backyard. Things have been tough but they ARE getting better. It just takes one step at a time. Keep pushing in 2025 ya'll.

This year was incredible in many ways. I graduated with near-perfect grades and received a course director's award. I immediately found volunteer work out of school where I joined game jams and a few different studios. Ultimately I found a perfect one for me - one where I am being taught by someone who has worked on games like Elder Scrolls and Dragon Age! We're making a dark fantasy game along the lines of Dark Souls and Witcher. Pretty cool! I've become pretty proficient with coding and people are starting to notice. I just need that push into something that'll give me enough to flourish my wings.

I finally moved out of my family home. Storytime: I had lived there since I was probably 10. That means I lived there for like 18 years. Honestly? It feels wonderful to leave. I no longer have to worry about it. The new home I am in is so much better and cheaper. The only thing that I wish for is privacy. I want to be able to stream and make content without bothering people and I can't really do that here. It is still a step above where I was in that old home though.

I am writing so much more now. I have created several new stories from commissions you guys wanted me to write. I am so happy to have that support! School took so much of my time so I couldn't write until now. And now I'm writing and making games! I have even given the idea of a fat fur game I may want to create. I'm kinda stuck between making it primarily text-based so I don't have to worry about art, or something like Paper Mario which would require a lot more art. Dunno. They both have their charm. I want to start drawing myself. Digitally... I am super new. I feel like I can draw on pencil and paper but as soon as I'm tapping on a screen it is rough. Practice makes perfect though. Maybe it is something I can concentrate on this year!

I'm looking back upon my previous year's retrospective and... man. Quite honestly I've been through a lot. Reading through it has made me, idk, relaxed? At least a little bit. Things are much calmer. I graduated. I did well. Writing this just makes me want to sit back and chill.

I have a few thoughts after writing all this. Goals that I want to accomplish in 2025:
1. I want to move out. I want my own apartment and my own space.
2. I need to fund my projects. I need to create a Patreon and continue to make what I love. It has always felt wrong putting a price on my work. That needs to change.
3. I want to create a video game for fat furs. I've already started. 2025... I want to showcase something.

For some of you who have been watching my journals, I have begun my delve into game development. Well, I just got my Game Design degree. I've already volunteered at a couple of different studios. I'm also making a game with some of my best friends.

I am starting to write again as well. The goal is to have enough time and resources to both write and make games. I would love to combine the two. I am pretty proficient with coding and have put my fingers in several other aspects of making a game. I think now is the time to start planning and seeing what I can make.

I still think one of my goals is to make a text adventure game inspired by Noone's Fatty Text Adventure. I believe that game made me realize how much I like feederism, and inspired me to write in the first place. I think it will be a fun project!

I have also moved elsewhere. My rent is more than slashed in half. There is a working water drain. It is pretty good so far. I just wish I had more privacy. Thank you to all of those that have stuck around!

Hello friends! I am opening up for commissions! Now that I am finishing up with college I want to get into more freelancing gigs. Well, I already had one before! Writing is super fun and I'm happy to get back into it. Might as well open up for commissions, ay?

Slots
1. The_EXxtra: 5,000 words [Finished]
2. Jaykar: 8,000 words [Finished]
3. P1ka: 3000 words [Finished]
4.
5.

What I DO write:
- General fat fur kinks
- Feederism
- Immobilization
- Inflation
- Bimbo + Dumbification
- Lactation
- Mild slob
- Any sexuality + gender
- SFW and NSFW
- Non-kink
- Follows Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox
- Original characters + fanfiction

What I DO NOT write:
- Gore + Violence
- Scat + Watersports
- Underage
- Extreme age difference
- Vore
- Non-consensual
- Focus on drugs
- Death feederism
- Does not follow Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comm.....test/#lightbox

Now that that is out of the way, MONEY!
I'll make it simple: $15 per 1000 words. That's it.

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If you are interested, please message me what type of story you want either below in this journal, in my notes on FurAffinity, or in Discord which you can find me as simply: jollyguts

I will begin by writing an outline. Once I finish the outline, I will then share the page with you. If you want to change the story, I will alter it during this portion of development. I will then finish these changes and start writing! I will not demand payment until after the story is written. Once finished, I will give you the story to read over. Then we will discuss payment through Paypal. Thanks!

This place has been a cozy corner of the internet where many people can flourish and express themselves. It has helped me through so much. I have followed the last few months of the medical issues and the pain of our current medical infrastructure. I wish for Dragoneer to rest in peace.

I have declared that I want to move out of the house I have been renting. My family who owns it refuses to fix it. The main water line is broken so I've had to put the dishwater in a bucket and dump it outside. This has attracted bugs. My dog and cat have fleas. I've hooked a garden hose to the washer so the water disperses in the backyard. The $100,000 shadow lien that my uncle put on the house is still relevant so even if they sell it they will probably not get any money. It isn't worth $100,000 anyway so I assume all of that money will go to the government or something. Half the windows are cracked or completely broken and the very foundation is visibly cracking. I've had to put blackout curtains in my room with blankets to keep out the scorching hot weather. I stopped paying them full rent because none of this has been my fault and we've been living like this for years. They are angry now because they can't pay their medical bills with our money. I am lucky that I didn't remodel more of it when I was in my early 20's and still naive. I would have never gotten any of that money back. I've still lost thousands of dollars and any investment I made is lost.

I will need to find somewhere else to live very quickly. I wish I could relax but I have never had time to do so. Honestly, I've fallen into such a huge depression, especially after the peak of Covid. I worked for so long to get somewhere in my life where I felt comfortable. I worked at the same place for 6 years as hard as I could until I went from a server to a cook. None of that mattered because of the losses I've dealt with recently. The only thing I can do is type to get some sort of relief by expressing my thoughts here. I haven't slept well in a long, long time. I don't think I will until I find work that treats me with respect and a place to live. The only thing that is keeping me going is coffee, working out, and my friends. I am thankful for having a found family of best friends I've known for half of my life. At the very least, they have let me rest easy knowing that we will all find a place together and that we will all be okay. The future is cloudy but I know we will get by.

I would like to write more on here just to get a little money on hand. I can try my best to make something. I know my track record with commissions has been shoddy at best but I have a hard time feeling 100% writing most of the time because everything feels so far away. Just reach out if you can. I would prefer writing SFW stuff atm just to keep a clear head.

If there is one positive I can admit, it is I can look around and see the good I have done. I am a hard worker, and I have transformed a hoarder's house filled with roaches and mice into a decent home. I can repeat this process of building a comfortable home in my name. I will just have to start at step 1 once again. In any case, I am doing extremely well in school and have numerous projects I'm working on. The key factor is time, energy, and keeping a level head.

And you heard me right earlier, I am working out. I get so stressed out nowadays if I just sit around and eat. There is a truth behind shocking your body to keep your mind straight. It helps with my anxiety tremendously. I wish I could have that mindset of just relaxing and gaining but I am just not in the right environment for it. I have lost about 15-20 lbs recently. I am by no means endorsing losing weight. However, I do wish for everyone to be happy and healthy. If you can do it, I say keep the chub on. Maybe one day I can catch up.

If I can give any advice to early adults in my situation it is to get everything written on paper. Do everything by the book. Don't trust your family or friends to keep their word. If someone is backed into a corner, they will do anything to protect themselves. Keep receipts and records. Time and time again I see families consuming each other whenever someone in the family dies to get every last drop that they think they own. Maybe this is a generation kind of thing and newer generations will have more respect for each other but I have my doubts. And honestly, make mistakes. Don't follow the rules. I feel like now that I'm a couple of years from 30 I spent so much time trying to achieve something that never could have happened that I don't know who I even am. I wish I had experienced the world, partied, and made relationships. Instead, I just worked and now look where I am. I still feel like I am as clueless about how the world works as back then and I still have nothing to show for the work I've done.

I'm going to take a moment to just chill. Thank you for reading if you made it this far. I just really needed to get my thoughts together.

Hello friends! I am opening up for commissions!

What I DO write:
- General fat fur kinks
- Feederism
- Immobilization
- Inflation
- Bimbo + Dumbification
- Lactation
- Mild slob
- Any sexuality + gender
- SFW and NSFW
- Non-kink
- Follows Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comments/1b6coo/the_harkness_test/#lightbox
- Original characters + fanfiction

What I DO NOT write:
- Gore + Violence
- Scat + Watersports
- Underage
- Extreme age difference
- Vore
- Non-consensual
- Focus on drugs
- Death feederism
- Does not follow Harkness test: https://www.reddit.com/r/scifi/comments/1b6coo/the_harkness_test/#lightbox
- Anything I deem too much for me to write

Now that that is out of the way, MONEY!
I'll make it simple: $15 per 1000 words. That's it.

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If you are interested, please message me what type of story you want either below in this journal, in my notes on FurAffinity, or in Discord which you can find me as simply: jollyguts

I will begin writing a first draft. Once I finish the first draft, I will then share the page with you. If you want to change the story, I will alter it during this portion of development. I will then finish these changes, edit it, and we will discuss payment through Paypal.

Thank you for sticking in there and reading all this! I hope to fatten your head up with juicy words and make you beg for more~

Pretty much after I wrote that journal 3 days ago everything went to hell. All of the supervisors at work are leaving because the head director has made terrible calls. Now I am doing three high level positions again all at once at a fraction of the pay that the previous employees were getting. I am looking for another job. I am not showing up today and the place can rot. I don't know what is going to happen but I can't stay there. I'd rather starve.

I am going to start applying to places ASAP. I'm putting my word out there everywhere. Please, if anyone knows of any positions that have anything to do with technology, please tell me. I am learning everything I can to get out of food and customer service. This can't keep going on.

I've been making decent money, gaining back some of the weight I've lost, and I'm finally working on some games. I'm the lead AI guy in my small group and am driven to keep learning anything I can. I'm looking back in my journals for the past year and I've come to realize something: vacations and extended time away from work may help other people, but not me. I needed to learn to love what I needed to do. No matter how much time I spent trying to relax, ultimately it made my anxiety so much worse. I am constantly doing something nowadays, but I'm also taking things much slower and listening to my body and mind. I don't know how long this will last, but for now I'm fairly happy. I hope to keep this up for as long as it can.

Most of my creative energy is now going to a game that I may never show here. It is portfolio work that I can show to companies and my final project for school. I do want to eventually make a game here in the furry community. I believe I want to mix my writing background with a text adventure game. Noone's Fatty Text Adventure brought me into this community and I always had the dream of making something similar.

I haven't posted much recently but that is because I'm spending quite a bit of time working on developing skills that I can apply to game development. I'm hoping that I can find another job because, while the one I'm at now gives me a lot of money, I am basically working full-time. If I can just find something part-time, I would love to do more creative work for a little cash. For now though, I just gotta keep pushing. Thanks for keeping around everyone!

I turn 28 today!