Hey everyone, here's a little art vent cause I feel like some of you will get it.

I have lost the habit of geeking out on a drawing for hours. Lost the passion I feel like. Don't even know what I like at this point even.

Since I went on a journey to become a professional artist, art feels like a performance now, constantly having to prove that I'm worth it. Putting so many barrers that it stops me from doing anything and having motivation.
Art used to be freeing, now it feels like the exact opposite. Fear of judgment makes you forget about what you want for yourself.

Ever since I started my (contemporary lol) art school journey (7-4 years ago) most professors directly shit on illustration. It really did affect me, as everything needed to be credible, not amateur, "worth'', even if I don't show my illustrative work to them. Now I realize how much I would like to refind my happy place in drawing.

Social media isn't helping as hours upon hours of work are translated into a single post. You overconsume the work of so many talented artists that you feel worthless. Fantasize about how much it seems fun to be them (spoiler, it's not, it's the internet, everybody shows their good side)
I now spend so much time thinking about the things that I could do, but don't.

I love to do commissions (and kinda have to) but it really is a scapegoat to not work for myself, because in the end it has become harder.
Some people seem to love my "clean" style, and I'm glad, but I also know that a part of this cleanness was born out of insecurity.


I know the culprits, but I have some mental barriers that I have to drop because it poisons everything. Depression is of course, not helping.
Every art motivational speaker feel like a taunt.

I have a hard time seeing how I could reignite my flame for my old love that is arts. Especially cause I feel the urgency to do it.
I felt like my only goal on this earth was to be creative, and every "I could" turned into "I need to do that". It sucks the life out of me before I even start anything.

Thank you for reading, kisses to everyone, I hope you're doing well!

Go see that man !!!!
Posting mostly nsfw and gore woops

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/funnyhorseperson/
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/funnyhorseperson/
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/funnyhorseperson/

Back from vacation :3 !

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61469048/

Like everything about it sucks, I don't wanto contribute to that platform, but I kinda like the idea of only posting furry porn on it lol.
Is it worth to start posting there again?

Hi everybody!
I wanted to give a bit of news since I disapeared for a year (Also thank you to the new watchers!)

Didn't have much time to draw but I nailed my first art diploma !
If you like ceramics (and especially if you're a tranny) give it a look;
https://www.instagram.com/dawid_blawicz/

I will participate to Art Fight this year !
https://artfight.net/~JollyJersey

I'm happy to have a bit of vacation to draw again.
Thus, my commissions are open again ;
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61469048/

Have an awesome summer !! 🌻​

Open

☘ Feral fullbodies count as a half body ! As long as they're not too complicated ☘
You can contact me here or on discord: officialfishfanpage
Do not hesitate to ask for more specific exemples.

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✦Line✦
_{exemple (nsfw fullbodies)}
- Head shot: 15€
- Half body: 23€
- Fullbody: 27€

✦Monochrome with minimal shading✦
_{exemple (nsfw scene)}
- Head shot: 17€
- Half body: 25€
- Fullbody: 30€

✦Colored✦
_{exemple (sfw tf fullbody)}
- Head shot: 20€
- Half body: 35€
- Fullbody: 40€

✦Colored and shaded✦
- Head shot: 30€
- Half body: 35-40€
- Fullbody: 45-50€

✦ The chef's specials ✦

✦Multiple panels✦
(from 2 to 5, little to no background)
-Lines only: 60€ to 200+ for the most complete
-Monochrome: 70€ to 250+ for the most complete
_{exemple (nsfw ws)
exemple (nsfw halfbodies)}

✦Scene✦
(includes a background or compo with numerous objects)
-Colored: 70€ to 200+ for the most complete
_{exemple (paleoart)}
-Colored and shaded: 80€ to 250+ for the most complete
_{exemple (paleoart with two characters)}

✦Reference sheet and custom designs✦
(Includes at minimum a colored fullbody)
- Minimum: 45€
- Classic Two fullbody + headshot: 100€ to 150€
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- Complete ref: 150€ to 250+ for the most complete
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exemple (stylised ref)}

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☘ Note ☘
- Complex clothes and mecha can add up to the price
- NSFW usually costs around 10% extra
- Payment only via Paypal after validation of the sketch
- Payment plans possible for big commissions
- Ask me if you'd like me to have full on artistic liberty
- You must provide a reference sheet other wise it will be charged extra

✓ Will draw ✓
- Any species, human, furry, feral (sfw)
- NSFW, any gender and sexuality.
- Kinks I'll draw; watersports, pony/puppy play, transformation,
bdsm, leather, degradation, pool-toy, plush
- Mecha
- Gore
- Drug use

✕ Won't draw ✕
- Hate art
- Kinks I won't draw; fat, scat, fart fetish, gore, horror, hyper
- Things I'm against; non consensual, cub/loli, feral nsfw
- NSFW to minors