Oh boy! It certainly has been a while.

Many angry journal entries, I see.

OKAY SO YEAH UPDATE TIME!

Been working like crazy, on top of going to school at ICB for Audio production. Which, by the way, is what this is about.

I'm learning how to make beats and use a MIDI pad n shit, so I'll be making music! I have Pro Tools and all the shit I need except for a MIDI pad, so those are gonna take a while to produce when I'm not in class until I get a MIDI pad of my own. In the meantime, I've made a Twitter for fuckin Koda, since all of my music that I make myself will be produced and labeled as him as the artist. Ya know. Like Renard and all that jazz. So GO FOLLOW HIS TWITTER (Its also an RP account too ;D SFW tweets, NSFW inbox ONLY!)

Koda's Twitter: KodaT5150

My personal twitter: RadTrash5150

Since I can't vent on Facebook anymore apparently

It appears that we've reached a day and age where we treat each other as bad, if not worse, than the meat we eat. We judge people on looks and either accept or pass on them. Do people not stop to think 'Well they're not winning any beauty pageants, but what right does that give me to pretend they don't exist?' I mean........why is this such a difficult thing to do? Why do people have to ignore everyone just because they're not sexy enough? I'm not attractive. I get ignored by EVERYONE. Why? Because I'm not super ripped and have a massive bulge.........I have my friends and all, but is it seriously that hard to just have a conversation with me? I mean.......I give my time of day to anyone who wants it........like if someone just sends me a message, whether you're ugly or not I still respond! I still attempt to make a friendship.........why is it so hard to just.......talk? Why do we have to treat our fellow people like livestock? "Nope. He doesn't have enough muscle NEEEEEXT. Nope he's not winning any blue ribbons NEEEEEXT. Ah, per-waaaaait, nope his reproductive organ isn't big enough NEEEEEEEEEXT! WHY AM I SO LONELY?! D:"

AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING. WHY DO YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING LONELY WHEN YOU DENY EVERY HUMAN BEING THAT ISN'T A FUCKING STUD A BASIC CONVERSATION?! WHAT?

I just wanna live on a planet where people look beyond physical traits and actually give a person a chance to be great. Why do looks have to mean absolutely everything?

"Message me, I'm bored!*"

"Ugh I hate being alone someone talk to me!**"

"What ever happened to good guys?***"

*=Only if you're rich and are nothing but muscle and horse cock.
**=Only if you're super hawt
***=I'm just fucking retarded. Don't even bother messaging this dumb cunt, bro.

God I fucking love it when people make plans and invite me then all the fucking sudden when time comes around..........boom nobody fucking answers their god damn phones. So fucking fed up with people.

I'm giving up on a social life.

Honestly I'm just tired of this stupid game.

I thought this was a day and age where women were more comfortable with their sexuality and their bodies?

Guess I missed the memo on meeting the requirements of a near triple digit income job, looks of a chiseled MMA fighter, more educated than a college professor, mental stability, and on top of that, a summer sausage dick, just to even be considered as a friend or someone to talk to, let alone a fuckbuddy/boyfriend/one night stand.

Okay.

WE ALL JUST WANNA GET PAID AND GET ROWDY!

I FEEL LIKE RAMMING MY HEAD REPEATEDLY INTO AN ANVIL WHEN PEOPLE CALL VENOMOUS ANIMALS POISONOUS AND VICE VERSA

IT BITES YOU AND YOU DIE = VENOMOUS. RATTLESNAKES ARE NOT POISONOUS.
YOU BITE IT AND YOU DIE = POISONOUS. POISON DART FROGS ARE NOT VENOMOUS ITS IN THE FUCKING NAME.

AND FOR THE LAST MOTHERFUCKING COCK SUCKING GOD DAMN PUSSY EATING TIME THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A WATER MOCCASIN IN THE STATE OF OHIO THEIR RANGE IS IN THE SOUTHERN STATES GOD DAMMIT.

KNOWING THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN VENOMOUS AND POISONOUS COULD SAVE YOUR LIFE FUCKING LEARN IT GOD DAMMIT.

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.

/endrant

A little bit of a controversial topic

But uh, yeah so I realize at this stage in my life I'm beginning to more frequently feel like monogamy is a joke.
Every relationship I've had since I was 17 has felt so dull and boring and I just can't deal with being tied down so like.
I've decided that for now, until I crave settling down, I'm just gonna be promiscuous.

What are y'alls opinions on that?

I know a lot of y'all got some pretty good relationships and what-not, but I'm just not about it anymore.

I REALLY NEED TO GO TO A 90S CLUB SCENE PARTY LIKE HOLY SHIT

I HEARD RHYTHM IS A DANCER ON THE RADIO TODAY AND FLIPPED HOLY FUCK

AH'M SINGLE AND WANNA GET MY DICK WET WHAT'S UP

or just make friends that's cool too.

*visits artist's gallery*

*oh wow this is pr-........*

*nothing but inflation and hyper fat growth*

:I

Can there be like, actual fat/chubby characters that aren't always macro'd, hyper'd or inflated?

Like damn.

You can't fucking include everyone without pissing someone off.

JFC people when I fucking said 'amateur cloud competition ladies feel free to compete!' I fucking meant ladies are welcome!

Women in this fucking vape community bitch about not competing cause the guys always win!

We fucking kept the big comp winners out by saying 'NO STATUS VAPE ALLOWED'

JFC dude I'm done.

This kinda super dick headed tattoo artist by me just gained mad respect from me today.

He posted a video of a super fucking rad furry tattoo of this chick's squirrel sona in hiking gear and he was super rad about it and I messaged him and he invited me to come check out the next sessions on it!

He had furs in there and everything and said how cool the fandom was so I was like fuckin aye dude

Idk I guess just every time I see support for the fandom I get hella happy about that......

Have I realized how overrated is the Lapfox label is as far as furry music goes?

Any other good fur artists to recommend?

SUGGESTIONS GO

Okay so you're gonna insult me on facebook for vaping and calling it a hipster trend while your selfies are all of you wearing snapbacks, sleeveless tees and ray bans like that isn't a hipster trend?

lol wow dude and to top it off you're being a dick about vaping and admitting on a public domain website about smoking weed in public?

Least my shit's legal, little fucknugget.

Fuck douchebags. In fact: Fuck everyone that has a fucking sense of self superiority.

I'm on the same level as y'all so don't fuckin act like you're better.

Because trust me, I WILL bring you to my level and beat you while you're there.

Fuckers.

Like fuck the fuck off.

Jesus fuck. Oh my GOD YOU'RE 'PURE'

NO THE FUCK YOU'RE NOT.

Just because you're drug free, alcohol, tobacco and promiscuous sex free does NOT make you a better fucking person than the people who do those.

FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING INTOLERANT, PIECE OF SHIT CULTURE.

You listen to shit-ass fucking music and wear jeans meant for people with pussies. You should feel so fucking proud of yourselves for dressing like a bunch of fucking pussies and holding yourselves above everyone else.

Fuck you.

Someone please explain to me how I'm so smart.

'But Dusty grades don't necessarily mean you're not smart'

I just..............I dunno, I don't really ever see how people think I'm so smart for accomplishing such easy tasks during the day.

Like, my security operations training, I pretty much just have to answer a phone, arm/disarm substations and keep track of everyone and like.........apparently that's difficult and I'm so smart for being able to do it?

:/

I'm nothing special. I can't really do much spectacular work. I'm a terrible salesman because half the time I fuck up what I'm saying or I stutter really bad. And by stutter, I mean like........repeat things, repeat things, repeat things while I come up with uh, come up with the uh, the next thing.

Like that.

So people just look at me like 'The fuck they got this retard workin here for'

I just really don't, nor probably ever will, see myself for what I'm really worth.

And I kinda feel like an ass for it, but...........

One of the vaping groups I'm in, the main head honcho of the group has Asperger's. Now from what I know it apparently makes you socially awkward and sometimes causes dick-headed ness?

So like...........I can understand 'But I can't help it I'm so sorry! ;A;' But its all like 'Yeah I have Asperger's fucking deal with it.'

And I'm like..........that, to me, sounds more like an excuse than an actual reason. Someone asked for help and you insult them and demean them because they don't know as much as you.

I have ADHD but do you see me saying 'Oh yeah I have ADHD fuck off' whenever I change the topic of a conversation or do things my way that makes more sense to me than your way? Or when I just CAN'T seem to understand because it literally makes no sense to me and how sometimes I say shit that makes no sense?

No. I say 'Whoops my bad.' I don't even fucking mention it because I am NOT my disease.

Idk like its just kinda stupid to let it have absolute control over you and just make excuses and expect the world to deal with it and bend to your needs for it.

Like nah, man. You suck it the fuck up and man up, owning up to your fucking mistakes.

Take some god damn responsibility.

So what, I can flail around and beat the shit out of you and say 'Whoops I have Epilepsy and that was a seizure sorry deal with it.' And suddenly everyone be okay with it?

Or you could, like.......ya know................


Suck it up and /not/ let it bother you? I mean seriously are you really gonna let someone who doesn't even have the balls to show their face get to you?

Just because people commit suicide over it doesn't mean you have to take offense to it.

FFS just grow the fuck up and quit being little pussies :V

GROW A FUCKING PAIR OF BALLS AND QUIT WHINING ABOUT HOW EVERYTHING OFFENDS YOU FOR FUCK'S SAKE

DO I FUCKING CARE ABOUT THAT? NO.

AM I GOING TO MAKE MEAN JOKES? YES BECAUSE THAT'S THE KIND OF PERSON I AM. I WILL NOT CHANGE SHIT FOR THE FUCKING WORLD BECAUSE EVERYONE IN IT IS A FUCKING GOD DAMN PUSSY.

I make rape jokes.
I make gay jokes.
I make racist jokes.
I make dead 'X' jokes.

Get the fuck over it.

Rub the fucking sand out of your vagina you fucking hippy ass bastard and go whine on the internet about something else.

GOD.

Dan Smith.

Good fucking GOD is he a gorgeous man.

Seriously. Unf. That hair. That voice. That charm. That fucking smile.


God fucking dammit.

ARE THERE ANY PEOPLE HERE THAT MAKE BOX MODS AND CAN DO A BOSS ASS BOX MOD THAT WON'T BREAK MY BANK

Hey everyone!

How many of my watchers are RPers? Or how many of you know some really good RP partners?

I'm looking to get some more consistent RP partners.........I just like to develop storylines and complicated scenes

(with smut too so mostly modularity and herms and pretty chilll characters and stuff.....)

But anyways, who wants to RP? :3

Add me on Skype: the_new_brony

ANDREW W.K. IS A FUCKING FURRY

IS NOBODY ELSE AS EXCITED AS ME?!

Is just curl up in a ball and just exist...........tuck my personality away into a tiny cramped jar and just..exist........to just go about my day to day life.....work.......exercise......repeat.........work.......exercise.......repeat. Don't go to vape shops.......don't hang out....Just work.......exercise.......repeat. I'm tired of being myself, giving advice tirelessly and opening up my heart to anyone who needs it to just be.............tossed aside when my heart runs dry...........I'm just tired of it all. Suicide would be too good a death for me to even think about it.