Well, happy Singles Awareness Day too, but really the main purpose of this journal entry isn’t for this special holiday, but more for the news on the Requests I been doing lately. And well, the three artwork pieces are done…sorta of. They’re all currently flat-colored, I haven’t made them into full-detailed yet. Reason why, well there’s a few reasons.

But the main reason is simple…I lost my motivation to continue doing Requests. It had kinda started in late parts of January, I was reluctant to do requests but considering ever since I first started in November, it became like a need to do requests each month for a certain amount of time. During the time of November, December, and January, I was in a sense very motivated to do such artwork pieces, but as time progresses onward, I eventually lost motivation to continue working on Requests.

With how I am, I tend to get railroaded with my work, and other things have been catching my interests and even felt like working on a fanfiction story, which is WIP currently. But anyways, I had tried to get myself motivated enough to work on further coloring the three current requests into full-details…but forcing myself to do it without the motivation for it, it gets exhausting and more of a mental hindrance.

So, my apologies, but for the time being in the coming months after February, I won’t be doing any requests. Once I feel motivated enough, I’ll likely do such in the future. But for now, I’m sorry for stopping doing requests. I will be posting the three flat-colored requested artwork pieces AFTER posting this journal-entry.

Hope you all have a good holiday today.

Well, that’s it for the wait, I had waited for up to 12-days for anyone asking to make a request for their character in a Status Reference Request. I had given enough time waiting for anyone to make a request, and so far I only gotten one.

The completed artwork piece will be posted up in my gallery before this journal, here is the link to it: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59501741/

And here is the list of those who made a request for their own reference pictures:

1.  mr_odium

Yep, only one person made the request, oh well, I’ll be focus on making their requested artwork, and their status reference will be posted sometime this month. As for when I start doing requests again…wait for February, just have to wait and see really.

Well, I have posted the sketch on January 1st, and now it’s the 7th. So far, I only got one request, so I decided to make a journal entry for a reminder of this: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59373624/

I’m doing a free YCH status reference artwork piece, the idea of your character entering a soulsborne-like world with a starting stat.

But to make things a little easier on me, here are the seven job-classes you can choose for your character if you decide to request for the artwork piece, as each of these seven job-classes have the stats in their category.

Job-Classes:
Cleric – Level 1 – Vigor: 10 – Mind: 12 – Durability: 8 – Muscle: 9 – Dexterity: 9 – Knowledge: 8 – Faith: 14

Jester – Level 1 – Vigor: 10 – Mind: 10 – Durability: 7 – Muscle: 7 – Dexterity: 12 – Knowledge: 12 – Faith: 12

Hunter – Level 1 – Vigor: 12 – Mind: 7 – Durability: 7 – Muscle: 12 – Dexterity: 12 – Knowledge: 10 – Faith: 10

Mage – Level 1 – Vigor: 8 – Mind: 12 – Durability: 8 – Muscle: 8 – Dexterity: 10 – Knowledge: 16 – Faith: 8

Tamer – Level 1 – Vigor: 12 – Mind: 12 – Durability: 12 – Muscle: 7 – Dexterity: 10 – Knowledge: 10 – Faith: 7

Warrior – Level 1 – Vigor: 10 – Mind: 10 – Durability: 10 – Muscle: 15 – Dexterity: 15 – Knowledge: 5 – Faith: 5

Wretch – Level 1 – Vigor:10 – Mind: 10 – Durability: 10 – Muscle: 10 – Dexterity: 10 – Knowledge: 10 – Faith: 10

These are the starting stats of these job-classes, so just imagine doing a soulsborne game and when you customize your character to look and fit into these job-classes.

Just please remember, I am mostly doing this because I enjoy it, but these seven-starting job-classes will make it simpler for me with the reference artwork. As for the four categories, please describe to me of what you want with your characters in the status, I’ll try my best with them.

And of course, once the YCH Status Reference is completed is when the intake of the requests is over and I gotten my list of those to work on for this month.

Current List so far:
1.  Mr_Odium

Well, Happy New Years everyone, hope everyone had a good month so far. And no doubt everyone has decided on their new-years-resolution. For me…well, this is my newest journal entry, and it has been a long time since I posted one, the last one was in October. Again, it’s rare for me to do a journal entry.

Heck, I had managed to post an artwork piece once a day ever since I first started on October 17th! Heh, I had even thought of if I could manage to post an artwork piece all 365-days of 2025!

…That’s a joke.

At first the idea of doing something like that seems to be entertaining and interesting thing to try. But after having time to think about it, and the feeling I get when I discover I hadn’t posted an artwork piece on a certain day. Once it posted, the stress for the day is relieved…that is until nearing the next day.

I have stated I got like over thousands of flat-colored artwork pieces I had done, but I would prefer to post the ones that are ready and fully detailed like what has been seen in my gallery…which means needing to constantly work on making the flat-colored artwork into full-detailed variants.

I am tired and would prefer to not do the joke idea of an artwork piece once a day. I plan to relax, not worry about being late to post artwork. Best that I just go with the idea of posting when I feel like posting.

Those who’re making requests in YCH Status References, no need to worry, I still plan to do them and will post them within this month AFTER the finished version of YCH is posted.

So, if any of you see that I didn’t post an artwork piece on any of the coming days, just means I’m not going to be worrying about it. But will work on and post my planned artwork pieces when I feel like it.

Have a safe and Happy New Years.

Been mostly silent on FA, besides life IRL and all that. I'm still alive, just living out my life, work, and improving my artwork and stories.

Over the years I been working on my artwork, drawing them in sketchbooks, then coloring them on my laptop. It has been about like…well, my last artwork posted on here was in year 2022, so it been a long while. Even more so since my last journal entry in year 2020. So, after so much time, besides work IRL, I been working and improving my artwork. There have been some goodies I loved and enjoyed, while some that were not so good, some that feel incomplete and still need improvement. And since today, October 17th, my birthday, I decided to post some of my artworks to show what I made so far.

But I'm not going to post them all at once. More like once a day, as long I remember to do so that is. Sometimes I will forget, sometimes I'll be busy IRL or working on sketches then coloring them up, who knows.

Other then that, I hope you all have a good day/night now.

It has been more than a year since my last journal entry, and by making this entry I am letting all the people watching me know I’m still alive. And yes, by the title of this journal, yes, I am thinking of doing requests again. But I have not forgotten on what had happened long ago.

So, to state with requests, I be doing requests that catch my interest. If your request doesn’t catch my interest or if I don’t want to draw it, I have the right to not draw it and I will decline the request. If your request does catch my interest, I may or may not draw it, after all, it’s my decision to draw it or not.

Other then that, hopefully things go well this time. You all have a good day/night now.

I can now see why most people don’t do requests, and despite me literally saying I have the choice to draw said requested sketch, or don’t. It was never a guarantee promise on me making sketches even after a short while talking and reading/listening to said requests. To the point that my PM on Fur Affinity and Eka-Portal get multiple messages, even impatient ones. And worse yet, I for my error, had put my username on my sketchbook’s spine and was drawing while at my job (I work at the library in my hometown and I was on break at the time), and for the first time in my life, I dealt with an entitled-beggar.

What happened can be simplified, the guy wanted me to draw him a comic. I had stated I do sketches as a request, the way the guy made it sounded he wanted a comic that is ten-to-twenty pages, of a dragon capturing and doing whatever he wants with a princess while luring knights (honesty, wouldn’t mind writing it as a short-story). But considering comics are big projects, especially since I draw sketches, I denied and offered I could draw a sketch of a dragon eating a knight while the princess watches from her cage, which sounds easier for me and it is a free sketch to him.

Nope, the guy told me he wanted a comic, and reminded me of my journal entry of my views on requests, and thus his request is a comic. I replied I would probably make two-to-three sketches, not literal pages of comics, heck, I rarely ever draw comics, unless some sketches I’ve drawn has empty space, just enough that I can use to make a small picture of what the predator did as well. So once more, I told the guy I don’t do comics.

Instead of accepting it and maybe go with two-three-part sketch idea or changing to a different idea, the guy was upset and told me that it was his request and that I must do it. And if I refuse to make it, he would tell my boss that I do porno sketches. That immediately annoyed and frighten me a bit as he was willing to do blackmail, try to get me fired for not doing what he wanted.

One thing to clarify here, my boss, a nice lady, knows I got a DeviantArt account, and I tend to post safe-sketches, mostly reference and bios and such, as DA is more of a safe-zone compared to FA and Eka. So she has no idea I had an FA and Eka account.

Once more, had said earlier, that I was on break. But my boss did notice the commotion and came over, asking me on what was going on. The guy had a smug grin, like as though daring me to either accept drawing his comic or suffer for it.

What I did though, was told my boss on what the guy wanted. That he wanted me to draw a porno comic of a dragon kidnapping a princess, roasting knights that come to rescue her like baked potatoes and doing whatever he wanted to the princess. My boss was of course, was in disbelief, shocked and disgusted clearly, while the guy was shocked that I literally told my boss on what this guy wanted me to draw for him. I continued that he wanted me to draw it all for free, but I refused, I stated I was willing to draw his characters, but I refused to draw such a comic, and I had stated that the sketches would be for free. I refuse to draw the comic and he was going to tell her in a form of blackmail.

My boss, the librarian spoke to the guy, asking if that was true. The guy had struggled for a moment before saying I was lying before he blurted out that she should check my sketchbook, indicating that I did adult-rated sketches.

I didn’t mind for allowing my boss to see my sketchbook, because here is one detail about me folks.

I tend to be organized, to the point that I have two separate sketchbooks, heck they’re even labelled on the bottom part of the spine; the labels being SFW (Safe for Work) and NSFW (Not Safe for Work). My sketchbook was SFW, and it mostly had sketches of dragons, humans, monsters, fantasy creatures, aliens (such as that unique one that was my current sketch at the time). There were zero porno sketches in there, so I was safe.

The guy was in trouble and was told to leave, and she plans to call his parents (which tells me he was either a teenager or a young-adult), which again, it was a small-town. I’m an introvert-type of guy, but my boss likes to talk to a lot of people, so I’m not surprise that in my small hometown, she knows his parents.

So, if that guy is on here on FA or Eka, be glad you never told me your account name (or maybe you don’t have one and just watch the sites), otherwise I would’ve put your account name on here if I did.

So yeah, after said incident, kinda ruined my interested, still was annoyed for what had happened. I did share the story with my brothers and parents, as they are much more understanding with me and my sketches, but they told me one thing that I’m more willing to do actually.

“Don’t do requests for those you don’t know.”

So, after hearing such, and thinking about it, and even recalling how a few years-back that I had tried to do requests too. I decided to listen to said advice.

So from now on, I will only do requests from those that I know of and view as friends, not strangers. I will do gift-art sketches at times for those I appreciate. But as for requests, only friends can ask me of such.

But also for the time being, I’m taking a break. Of course I do have my own sketches, multiple actually, that I want to upload eventually. But as for those that requested me for the past few days, I’m sorry, but no, as I’m clearly not in a good mood for such anymore. I possibly might be in a few weeks or months, but not currently now.

As for that beggar who got in trouble, I would be apologetic if he didn’t try to cause trouble. But since he had tried to get me in trouble with my boss, I don’t care how in trouble he is, so I’m not apologetic for him that he got in trouble.

Also, please don’t ask me in-real-life for requests, as I don’t really like talking to new people, I tend to mumbo and remain quiet most of the time. And typing comments and replies are so much easier for me instead of talking in person.

And with my explanation done, no more requests for the time being, I’m sorry if any of you were waiting for me to be available, but I again, the only requests I be doing is from those that I considered friends.

And with that, have a good day.

Greetings everyone who watches and read my journals (despite the fact of how rare it is for me to make journal entrees), and recently, some things have been coming to my mind, of certain things I would need to say. To explain on why I prefer doing Requests more than Commissions.

My reasoning for doing requests more than commissions is simply because I put my heart, the enjoyment into drawing sketches that are requested, I draw such as best as I could and feel to me personally, that it is good enough.

Commissions turns the hobby into a job, turns the heart of enjoyment into money and forced to just do it. To draw it and try to make sure it's 100% perfect to what the customer desires. Which, to me, it makes me worry if the sketch I would draw for it doesn’t match their expectations for such.

Another golden detail, requests can be of choice. If I like the idea to draw it, I'll draw it. But if it is something that irks me in someway, or timid to try, I can merely deny the request and state my reasoning, no harm done.

Commissions though, the moment there is an agreement (before/after payment), there is no backing down, the artist MUST make the sketch, even if it irks them to such a point that they might hate themselves in drawing it or view it as garbage.

For me, requests allow my creative joy to flourish and not be limited down. Commissions is like shackling the heart.

So to me, that is why I do requests, and also gift-arts when I feel like doing gift-arts towards those I appreciate.

Now, after good explanation, time to bring in another topic and reasoning for this journal to come up. I am willing to do requests, but only three requests at a time, no more then that. And even then, there would be a time when I need to take breaks from such drawing, to allow my passion for the creative arts to refuel in a sense. And constantly asking me over-and-over without giving me time to think carefully on if I want to draw said request or not.

As it being requests, I have the right, freedom of choice to do said request or not. And if I don’t feel any creative desire to draw such, then I will say such.

And anyways, after explaining my reason. I will say that so far, there are three people making requests, in which I will do such for them, and they will be listed below.

1.  daddison09 50% (Halfway done) (Requested on Furaffinity)
2.  Somersault34567 0% (Hadn’t started yet, first request must be done first) (Requested on Furaffinity)
3.  transformer33 0% (Hadn’t started yet, first and second requests must be done first) (Requested on Eka Portal)

And with that stated, I’ll be working on these three, and will update my journal entrees so to let you all know. But again, after doing such, I might take a break so to rest my arms. Or I might start it up for the next three requests after. Until then, patience is a virtue.

On the side-note: One of things I won’t draw are humans and human-like beings be the predators in such voracious scenarios. If the human is a prey, then sure. But if the human is the predator, I have difficulty getting the creative image of it in my mind without all the logical errors popping up, resulting an artist-block in a sense. That and I had never done drawing a human as the voracious predator before.

Well now, I did not expect that. 25 people voted, and out of them all, there was a tie.

1st. Goodra (7-Votes) and Froslass (7-Votes)
2nd. Charizard (4-Votes)
3rd. Lucario (2-Votes) and Alolan Ninetales (2-Votes)
And Gardevoir, Alakazam, and Arbok each had 1 vote each.
See? https://sta.sh/013kql2r1w5z

Also, just to let you all know, I’m one of the few who voted for Charizard. Oh well…

I’m shocked man, I had thought Froslass was going to win, but the last voter had picked Goodra. Well, I need to pick one family, not combine two, after all, they’re not in the same Egg Group.

So, with that, there is now a new Poll, this time, the choice is simple, between these two: Froslass and Goodra.

Here is the poll: http://www.strawpoll.me/13761387

On August 31st will be the date the vote ends. Until then, happy readings, and have a good night/day.

Well then, the poll has been going on long enough, so as a heads up, the Poll will end after tomorrow, August 21st, meaning once the clock reaches the stroke of 11:59pm, the vote is over.

I’ll also provide a snip of the voting poll to provide proof of what family it will be when the next chapter comes out so everyone will know.

It is your choice to vote or not, but just know that it will be over at the end of 21st of August. After that, the voting will be over, and the highest voted Pokémon Family will be the Family that my main character will be living with.

Until then, here is the link of the Voting Poll: http://www.strawpoll.me/13664277

Until the end of 21st, I wish you all a good day/night.

May sound like of Kingdom Heart, but it’s just how I feel for a long, long time.

Wow, it really has been a long time I been on here, heck even much longer since my last Journal Entry. Guess it’s mostly because of my daily life, work days getting hard, difficult time writing stories, I rarely even draw, oh how I miss the old days.

Back then, when the first time I started on these kind of sites, I been just an observer. Back then, I didn’t have any friends, any I had from my school days are even rarer. It been such a long time, after such I had basically never saw the ones I trusted ever again, been five-six years I guess. And I mean few, one or two; for any other friends I thought I had were mere stabs in the back, abuse my trust in them, and thus cause me to feel fearful of making new friends.

Many people don’t really know this, than again I guess it’s because I hardly even talk about it, so it’s more of my fault really. I have Asperger’s Syndrome, a type of Autism. If you want to learn more on such, look it up on the internet and read the details if you’re curious, or don’t.

Anyways, I had accepted the lifestyle of a loner in the old days, heck I’m still basically a loner now. But after so much thought, well…

Been just an observer on the first site I ever been in, besides such I work my daily life in a library, among the things I love; books, and even draw in my Sketchbook. But on sites like these, I been just a Watcher, never talked to anyone.

Until I finally did made a comment on something, and after a long time of talking, started to develop friendship, and from it I started to feel the connection, talking other people online, like given a chance for something I hadn’t truly experience, friendship.

Back then, the one thing I wanted to do on these sites is to be helpful, help others smile, be happy for things, and heck at times be a little troll with one or two jokes here and there. Heck writing stories is something I love to do, along with drawing of course.

And with RPs, it had gotten even better as well. I was happy throughout that time, good memories.

Nowadays, as I remember, after so much time since the last time I was on here. I was thinking for the past months, thinking hard and deep. Doing so causes blockage to my stories, my drawings, heck even talking to others. Been focus on my work over the months, and eventually, when I tried to make a return…

Like in last April, I wanted to work on the stories I had written, want to see that spark again. Guess in a sense, I was slowly losing that spark, that feeling of happiness and joy. Before even such the last time I tried to make a comeback…

I was scared.

Been gone from sites for days, weeks, months, and when I finally do return online, I grew fearful, fearing of seeing bad comments, heck even saw them in my dreams that would turn into nightmares.

In truth, I don’t really have friends in real life now. Besides work and family…I’m alone, and I will always be alone. And that loneliness I hardly feel at times, either bottled up or be plain forgotten, which isn’t healthy I know, and I likely should ask for help, problem is…whenever I do, I either forget this feeling, and even when I had succeeded in trying to tell my family, they either hear it as mumbling or think I’m just joking.

Sometimes I feel…nothing…

After so much time now, I just feel like a Nobody on these sites, feel like I am worthless. It’s pointless for others to talk to me I guess.

Whenever I talk to others on these sites; just appearing to be strong or still okay, simple friendly comments. Since for people like me, typing comments is a whole lot easier than talking.

But now, as I write this, I can tell I’ll likely forget this journal entry. Or if I do remember it tomorrow, I will be feeling negative thoughts upon seeing what comments I might receive, thus nightmares of fears of being hated by friends on here. Hence why I hardly even do journals I guess.

Now, what was the point of me writing this long journal? Because I felt like doing it, and I feel like crying as I type this whole thing out, and when tomorrow comes I’ll just be my normal, loner self, working at the library till eventually I would get back online and see the comments. I don’t drink alcohol consider I hate those drinks so obviously I’m not drunk for making this entry.

But just saying ‘I felt like it’, just felt it won’t be the correct answer I guess. Like, just simply making a journal entry of your own book of your own life I guess.

Guess now I’m just typing gibberish, might as well get it out of my head and say the reason I felt like typing this journal entry. It’s because something I had watched had basically clicked a switch in my head.
The Final Episode of Red vs Blue.
When Church made that speech before the end of the credits, it had been stuck in my head. Everyone’s life is their own story, like some would read a book of a life of a certain being, like Eragon in Inheritance, Twilight Sparkle in My Little Pony, Frisk in Undertale as well as any main character of any book or movie. The point is, their life is known, and eventually the book would end…

Heh, starting to lose my train of thought, what I’m trying to say, and everyone’s life is like a book. In stories people would read of what the main characters would experience throughout their lives, how their characters are shaped into, and what their ending would be in their story(s).
How I want to explain this is now getting difficult for me, my own thoughts are telling me of how stupid of me for making this journal, wanting me to just stop and forget it, and man how it feels like I should just delete this journal and pretend I never even wrote it, not wanting to waste your time. The moment I do though, just feels like…

Well, whatever I guess. I typed this journal and I will post it. It is your decision to read it if you want to or not, nothing is stopping you. I hope you all have a good day/night now, and if you do make a comment, I will try to reply back sooner.

I am just writing this journal entry so to let everyone know what’s been happening with the stories I been writing. Mainly to say that I am still trying in writing the stories I had started months/years before. At times I had difficulty in writing them, especially with the cursed writers block at times. Had found a way to get out of writer’s block now, but even so, I got several stories I’m writing. And I shall list them here to let you all know of which stories I’m still working on.
These are the ones I’m still working on:

- YuGiOh! Duels of the Actillian
This story is a sequel to the first story “Arrival of the Actillian”, about a human travelling through the dimensions and is trying to find his way home. And is now currently in the world of YuGiOh! And has made new friends and duelling games and hidden organizations, if you’re interested to read, than here’s the link: http://lord-josephiroth.deviantart......-the-Actillian

- The Power of Three
This story is in the Pokemon World, where there are two trainers travelling through Johto. This story was originally a sequel to the first story: Journey of Johto, but that story is pretty much cancelled, instead it will show signs of the characters who appeared in that story in this one. And the Power of Three is basically a sequel to one of my finished stories: Pokemon God/Trainer. If interested to read, here’s the link: http://lord-josephiroth.deviantart......Power-of-Three

- The Forgotten One
This story is about another dimensional traveller who has great powers, but has no memories whatsoever, and so he travels throughout the dimensions, learning things during the time and trying to regain his lost memories. If interested to read, here’s the link: http://lord-josephiroth.deviantart......-Forgotten-One

Besides those three, there are two other story projects of mine that aren’t listed here, because they won’t be found on this site, but on Fanfiction and FIMfiction. Those stories are:

- Orderly Spirits
This is a displaced story of when four brothers who went to a convention, bought several items from a merchant, and then got sent straight to the world of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. And even though their past history seem unknown, but are known through history, many things to learn about these four brothers, especially after being trapped in stone for more than a 1000 years and bring the back-stabbers some vengeance. If interested to read, here’s the link: http://www.fimfiction.net/story/236.....rderly-spirits

- The Monster Trapper
This is basically my newest story, of the world of Monster Hunter. It’s about a Pro Trapper living in his usual lifestyle of capturing monsters and working with new teammates and friends and encountering a dangerous group who’re out to get them because the idea of befriending creatures are wrong. If interested to read, here’s the link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/111506.....onster-Trapper
Another detail to know about this story, it’s merely of my character’s POV to another guy’s story, his name is Cosmic Guardian. If you’re interested, read the heart of the story: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/106055.....i-della-caccia
And also, I’m not the only POV writer who joined the idea with writing the stories, another writer who goes by the name, The Blue Tigrex. If you’re interested to read his POV story, here’s the link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/111593.....es-to-remember

These are the stories I am currently working on, and also I’m working on a few sketches as well. Just letting you all know that I’m still alive and working on these five stories of mine. There is also some possibilities of writing some new ones, new ideas popping up in my mind after all. And maybe a few vorish stories as well, just have to wait and see.
As for reasons why I haven’t been active most of the time, work basically the most weekdays, I got a busy job, and at times get too tired to be online. Work seems to be lessening for a time now, so just to let you all know I’m still alive and working on my projects.
Happy reading and have a goodnight everybody.

Man, it’s been a whole year and few days since I upgraded this journal. And the lateness for future episodes too, curses the writer’s block. Anyways, no more sign-ups, too late, had a whole year pretty much. Anyways, so far the ones who are now in the show will be listed below.

There may be a slight possibility in the future for more, but just have to wait and see really. But now; not only episodes to write but characters to draw, bring forth details of the duelists.

And now the list of the Duelists who are going to appear in Yu-Gi-Oh! Duels of the Actillian! And as well as whom those Duelists belong too, and here they are:

- Dan, who belongs to  biocoal, is on both DA and FA

- Aurion, who belongs to  aurion_black, is on FA

- DX & Jonathan, both belong to  wolf-knight-1, is on both DA and FA

- Gregory, who belongs to  shiron91, is on both DA and FA

- Pyro, who belongs to  alphadragonvore, is on DA

- Dark, who belongs to  gogeta-ss20, is on DA

- Kate, who belongs to  mysound29, is on DA

- Henry, who belongs to  lilithreinightshade, is on DA

- Brandon, who belongs to  eragon13666, is on DA

9 Duelists have joined the show, what would happen next, no one knows, just have to watch for the next episode of, Yu-Gi-Oh! Duels of the Actillian!