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Posted 14 years ago... YAY
Posted 14 years agohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3dh2VNLM4Ck
So the quick job update... I'm working as a Game Advisor at Gamestop at Zona Rosa. I know that it's been a while but still...I want to try to hit up a con in the near future. :D Hopefully MFF or FWA if i can... It's going to be a huge maybe :D
Jax
So the quick job update... I'm working as a Game Advisor at Gamestop at Zona Rosa. I know that it's been a while but still...I want to try to hit up a con in the near future. :D Hopefully MFF or FWA if i can... It's going to be a huge maybe :D
Jax
SEXY NERDS :D
Posted 14 years agoSandvich
Posted 14 years agoEPIC.....RAP BATTLES OF....HISTORY
Posted 14 years agoNew thing I started doing
Posted 14 years agoHey All,
I know I haven't been posting... Partly taking a break from updating FA but still I have updated my profile with furry Sinfonia brothers.
:D
later,
Jaxson
I know I haven't been posting... Partly taking a break from updating FA but still I have updated my profile with furry Sinfonia brothers.
:D
later,
Jaxson
RAVE TIME :D
Posted 14 years agoFur Cons...
Posted 14 years agoIs it really that important for me to go to fur cons anymore? Seriously who would want to see me? Plus i don't want to be around people that just want it like a high school thing. Seriously I'll have my suit and have for uses that i want to. *shrugs* I am at the point where more important things should be take care of not the issues of drama that usually draws it empty head around me.
*shrugs*
Just a rant,
jax
*shrugs*
Just a rant,
jax
AWWWWWWWWWW Moment :P
Posted 15 years agoYes that's me during thxgiving... :P
FML
Posted 15 years agoThis sucks...Looks like... all the planning and praying that i get accepted to the University of Wisconsin...Madison has been shot. Looks like Going home is the only other option for me. <.<
*sighs*
And have fun at MFF Ya'll....
*sighs*
And have fun at MFF Ya'll....
Update Number 2
Posted 15 years agoI JUST GOT LAID OFF <.<
Thanks to politcal now.... I now am back on the market.... for Jobs...
*sighs*
Now back down to looking... or i may have to head back home..... That's the last shot or the last plan for me <.<
Jax
Thanks to politcal now.... I now am back on the market.... for Jobs...
*sighs*
Now back down to looking... or i may have to head back home..... That's the last shot or the last plan for me <.<
Jax
State Of The Otter: November 2010
Posted 15 years agoFirst a little flashback:
OOOOOH YEAHHHH!
But anywho.... how am I feeling this past october to today....I have been going up and down mostly thanks to work. Work has kinda been interesting cause... of the political things and the politics. But I thanks to work i am still working... until today <.<. Found out that work doesn't know if I am really going to be working the next day or training... So I am taking it a day by day bases.
The Second biggest thing is that I have been trying to be a better roommate... despite some drama that happen that i was thinking about myself. But at least that is gone...I am going to try and be the best roommate....
The finally thing... Things emoitonally have been okie. At least the biggest things is that I don't know if i can actually make it home for thanksgiving this year again. So I might be spending Thxgiving with Friends again.
Speaking of Friends... I do miss them in other state more like the ones in IL and Lower wi. Driving is going slowly... at least i am trying to look for a car so I can drive it to places. Yes I am willing to get a junker... even if it means drive somewhere to visit friends.
And the other biggest thing... NO! I can't make MFF <.<. As much as it means for me to say... MFF is off the con list this year... My suit and myself can't make it cause of well other things. Work and RL Shit. Yeah...Otter is scaificing everything to get back on my feet.
Finally....I got some good news from the college point...I'll find out if i get into the UW! By then end of the month.
*crosses paws* I hope!
Relationship Stauts: Still looking for dates... I has some ideas :P
Later Days,
Jax
OOOOOH YEAHHHH!
But anywho.... how am I feeling this past october to today....I have been going up and down mostly thanks to work. Work has kinda been interesting cause... of the political things and the politics. But I thanks to work i am still working... until today <.<. Found out that work doesn't know if I am really going to be working the next day or training... So I am taking it a day by day bases.
The Second biggest thing is that I have been trying to be a better roommate... despite some drama that happen that i was thinking about myself. But at least that is gone...I am going to try and be the best roommate....
The finally thing... Things emoitonally have been okie. At least the biggest things is that I don't know if i can actually make it home for thanksgiving this year again. So I might be spending Thxgiving with Friends again.
Speaking of Friends... I do miss them in other state more like the ones in IL and Lower wi. Driving is going slowly... at least i am trying to look for a car so I can drive it to places. Yes I am willing to get a junker... even if it means drive somewhere to visit friends.
And the other biggest thing... NO! I can't make MFF <.<. As much as it means for me to say... MFF is off the con list this year... My suit and myself can't make it cause of well other things. Work and RL Shit. Yeah...Otter is scaificing everything to get back on my feet.
Finally....I got some good news from the college point...I'll find out if i get into the UW! By then end of the month.
*crosses paws* I hope!
Relationship Stauts: Still looking for dates... I has some ideas :P
Later Days,
Jax
No More SL for me
Posted 15 years agoIt has to drive me insane.... unfourntally i am getting off of sl for good.... so I can be more out and friendly to people and not be an ass :3
Quick Post Before Heading Out The Door...
Posted 15 years agoOkie,
For once...I actually am trying to be the better roommate as i am. I am at least trying to make an effort to say..."Hey Wags, Lets go out tonight?" Even having one of my friends help me out by calling him to kindly invite him to the little get together at Plan B.
A couple of questions that has gone through my mind....
1) Do I think he is a Stupid Old Lion? No... Never thought of him like that.
2) Have I done anything to piss him off? Me thinks I have... and Willing to Forgive and Forget and even still be there.
3) Was this a PITY PARTY INVITE? Honestly No....This wasn't a pity party invite. We were all going to hang out and relax and dance after work. I would love for him to join. Plus squeezing 6 bodies in the car was kinda trap. I wish we had another vehicle. My friend suggested that we actually invited him. So I said, call him up and ask him.
4) Am I trying to be a Good Friend? Yes, I am. If i am one of the worse friends that I have... then why am i here. Plus the other reason is that AT LEAST I AM TRYING.
If I am one of those ass hole friends then tell me to my face.... and hell... How am i suppose to know his birthday... when I want to do something for him on that... At least i am trying to be a better friend... but All i get is fucking shut down or thrown into a corner.... At least I am well trying to be friends... But all I am is a fucking nobody....
Later,
Jaxs
For once...I actually am trying to be the better roommate as i am. I am at least trying to make an effort to say..."Hey Wags, Lets go out tonight?" Even having one of my friends help me out by calling him to kindly invite him to the little get together at Plan B.
A couple of questions that has gone through my mind....
1) Do I think he is a Stupid Old Lion? No... Never thought of him like that.
2) Have I done anything to piss him off? Me thinks I have... and Willing to Forgive and Forget and even still be there.
3) Was this a PITY PARTY INVITE? Honestly No....This wasn't a pity party invite. We were all going to hang out and relax and dance after work. I would love for him to join. Plus squeezing 6 bodies in the car was kinda trap. I wish we had another vehicle. My friend suggested that we actually invited him. So I said, call him up and ask him.
4) Am I trying to be a Good Friend? Yes, I am. If i am one of the worse friends that I have... then why am i here. Plus the other reason is that AT LEAST I AM TRYING.
If I am one of those ass hole friends then tell me to my face.... and hell... How am i suppose to know his birthday... when I want to do something for him on that... At least i am trying to be a better friend... but All i get is fucking shut down or thrown into a corner.... At least I am well trying to be friends... But all I am is a fucking nobody....
Later,
Jaxs
Current Music Mood... State of the Otter: Mid October 2010
Posted 15 years agoCurrent Music Mood:
Yeah besides that... how am i doing... on a scale between one-ten... about a 7. I have had my ups and downs. Mainly more downs. I don't know why it's starting to bug the fuck out of me. Seriously I went from hyper loving Jaxson to more like WTF EMO Jaxson. I do miss my friends... all of them in Chicago, Madison, Milwaukee... and even Home... But really I do want to go back to a furcon.. but I have totally written off cons this year.. To focus on RL.
Work has been intersting. I went from having a full time job 40 hours a week, to not having work this week. Cause "Time Warner" the person who we were calling on be half of... told my work that i wasn't a top seller. It wasn't fair that I only made two sales. And partly they told me to call back on Monday. Not having any hours....and no Cash. WHY THE FUCK ME?!?! If anything happens on Monday people will know.
Working on Driving is taking slow. I am going for permit this week. Let's hope to god that i can do it. If not... It's back to the study board. Partly...I don't want to use my roomie to get me to and from to college. I kinda want to drive on my own... That would not be cool.
Also, I am thinking about bringing about the vlogs again making it more random rather than me staring at the screen... Yeah i kinda want to make it entertaining.
Overall... That's how i been. And that's the state of the otter for Mid October.
Later,
Jax
Yeah besides that... how am i doing... on a scale between one-ten... about a 7. I have had my ups and downs. Mainly more downs. I don't know why it's starting to bug the fuck out of me. Seriously I went from hyper loving Jaxson to more like WTF EMO Jaxson. I do miss my friends... all of them in Chicago, Madison, Milwaukee... and even Home... But really I do want to go back to a furcon.. but I have totally written off cons this year.. To focus on RL.
Work has been intersting. I went from having a full time job 40 hours a week, to not having work this week. Cause "Time Warner" the person who we were calling on be half of... told my work that i wasn't a top seller. It wasn't fair that I only made two sales. And partly they told me to call back on Monday. Not having any hours....and no Cash. WHY THE FUCK ME?!?! If anything happens on Monday people will know.
Working on Driving is taking slow. I am going for permit this week. Let's hope to god that i can do it. If not... It's back to the study board. Partly...I don't want to use my roomie to get me to and from to college. I kinda want to drive on my own... That would not be cool.
Also, I am thinking about bringing about the vlogs again making it more random rather than me staring at the screen... Yeah i kinda want to make it entertaining.
Overall... That's how i been. And that's the state of the otter for Mid October.
Later,
Jax
*whimper*
Posted 15 years agoI hate when i am in one of those moods that you have a negative effect on your future.... It's more like you feel like your flawed in every shape and form that you want to change.... Really... the positive is that your working 40 hours and almost graduated but barely knows how to drive. Wish there was a way that i could fix my impatiences and also get a lonely part...but really... just feels like i am an embarrassment to my family or to myself....
*le sigh* Makes me feel down every time i hear a 90's song that i like.... but my mind is thinking why should i bring up bad memories of my past... having something brought up from me that really does look bad in my past.... It was stupid... and now it also brings up if i am a proper submissive or i just play one to get into peoples pants.
Sucks to be me... Really... I don't know what my future holds If i can drive... if i can actaully drive and show myself that i can still succeed...And not be shown as in using anyone as a way to get into college. More like... *sighs* I don't know...
Sometimes i just want to be left alone... just be held... I just want to cry...
if people hate me for who i am then tell me to my face as in tell me in a note on here....
*whimpers and curls up*
nothing's so loud
as hearing when we lie
the truth is not kind
and you've said neither am i
but the air outside so soft is saying everything
everything
all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say...
nothing's so cold
as closing the heart when all we need
is to free the soul
but we wouldn't be that brave i know
and the air outside so soft, confessing everything
everything
and it won't matter now
whatever happens to me
though the air speaks of all we'll never be
it won't trouble me
and it feels so close
let it take me in
let it hold me so
i can feel it say...
*le sigh* Makes me feel down every time i hear a 90's song that i like.... but my mind is thinking why should i bring up bad memories of my past... having something brought up from me that really does look bad in my past.... It was stupid... and now it also brings up if i am a proper submissive or i just play one to get into peoples pants.
Sucks to be me... Really... I don't know what my future holds If i can drive... if i can actaully drive and show myself that i can still succeed...And not be shown as in using anyone as a way to get into college. More like... *sighs* I don't know...
Sometimes i just want to be left alone... just be held... I just want to cry...
if people hate me for who i am then tell me to my face as in tell me in a note on here....
*whimpers and curls up*
nothing's so loud
as hearing when we lie
the truth is not kind
and you've said neither am i
but the air outside so soft is saying everything
everything
all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say...
nothing's so cold
as closing the heart when all we need
is to free the soul
but we wouldn't be that brave i know
and the air outside so soft, confessing everything
everything
and it won't matter now
whatever happens to me
though the air speaks of all we'll never be
it won't trouble me
and it feels so close
let it take me in
let it hold me so
i can feel it say...
Otters Working Again
Posted 15 years agoAnd yes it's a full-time JOB!!!!
Jax
Jax
Frustration.....
Posted 15 years agoOkie usually i don't mention this... but do some people don't read journals or even understand that sometimes you have to say in a nice way... No I can't make cons cause of RL or I can't make it this year cause of money and REAL LIFE COMMIMENTS... Fur cons are fun yes i know they are but when your about a year away from graduating college... you have to step out and focus on your studies... and even have to come up with the cash to pay for stuff....
Please don't mention to me...Can you make blah blah blah con.... this year... the answer will be no.... if you mention to me that i can pay for you....to get to blah blah blah con... it would be a no.... and that does not me i will get in your pants.....For Fuck Sakes....I have RL to deal with. Because... well i want to get to a con that was payed for by me... and even help with things....
Later,
Jax
Please don't mention to me...Can you make blah blah blah con.... this year... the answer will be no.... if you mention to me that i can pay for you....to get to blah blah blah con... it would be a no.... and that does not me i will get in your pants.....For Fuck Sakes....I have RL to deal with. Because... well i want to get to a con that was payed for by me... and even help with things....
Later,
Jax
Wishigan...I'm back
Posted 15 years agoI am back from Vaca... Pics To Come :3
MEME Time Again
Posted 15 years agoIt's a meme!
Leave a comment with some sort of comment and:
-I'll respond by asking you five questions to satisfy my curiosity.
-Update your journal with the answers to your questions.
-Include this explanation and offer to ask other people questions, if you're so inclined.
And yes this is from my sister...on LJ
1) Favourite movie of the past four years? It -has- to have come out in the past four years. No cheating.
God...If i do have to say my favorite movies from the last four years.... Watchmen and Inception. Leo DeCap Was fucking Hot in it :P.
2) If you didn't have the furry fandom, what fandom would you have ended up in?
Tough question....I would have to say something Sci Fi... or even Nero and live action Larping. Yes i went there Larping.
3) If you had your dream job, what would that be? Why?
Dream job....I would have to say either in San Fransisco working at a Gay Pride Magazine working with the GBLT community... Because i am gay...do something that i love... or Working in an advertising agencies back in Chicago and experience truly what an advertising agencies and see how it runs...
4) Bacon is good on many things. What's the best way you've had bacon?
Welllll Having bacon bits on ice cream... but the true story was i love having it in maple syrup.
5) Your favourite birthday was...?
I would have to say the year i was 21 where two of my former co-workers decided to treat me out to bowling and beer. And also besides getting pulled over in my step dad's suv.
Jax
Leave a comment with some sort of comment and:
-I'll respond by asking you five questions to satisfy my curiosity.
-Update your journal with the answers to your questions.
-Include this explanation and offer to ask other people questions, if you're so inclined.
And yes this is from my sister...on LJ
1) Favourite movie of the past four years? It -has- to have come out in the past four years. No cheating.
God...If i do have to say my favorite movies from the last four years.... Watchmen and Inception. Leo DeCap Was fucking Hot in it :P.
2) If you didn't have the furry fandom, what fandom would you have ended up in?
Tough question....I would have to say something Sci Fi... or even Nero and live action Larping. Yes i went there Larping.
3) If you had your dream job, what would that be? Why?
Dream job....I would have to say either in San Fransisco working at a Gay Pride Magazine working with the GBLT community... Because i am gay...do something that i love... or Working in an advertising agencies back in Chicago and experience truly what an advertising agencies and see how it runs...
4) Bacon is good on many things. What's the best way you've had bacon?
Welllll Having bacon bits on ice cream... but the true story was i love having it in maple syrup.
5) Your favourite birthday was...?
I would have to say the year i was 21 where two of my former co-workers decided to treat me out to bowling and beer. And also besides getting pulled over in my step dad's suv.
Jax
For Once
Posted 15 years agothe phrase "i told you so" has kinda been through my head since now taking a relaxation with a friend in Madison. But what many people don't know about me is that i have gone through a lot of shit and my emoitonally want to be sped out.
What people don't really understand about my personality...or normally do not see...I normally act hyper around big groups...basically pleasing everyone that i come into communicate with in someone. (for example fur cons, big groups LAFF or even just a small group). But once you meet me for the first time you see the hyper... "oh yea new friend *spactic wags*" but really it a mask i hide behind... I turn very clingly (sometimes very annoyingly) i don't mean to do it... but really it hides my true personality... But when you get me alone... I turn very calm and very quiet.. sometimes...it tells people that is something wrong...But really i am in that zone where i can be at a state of ease and very into my inner shelf.
Unfourntally, thats what brought an utter confusion with some people that when they saw me and esipcally when i was in baraboo... I would go somewhere quiet...and be at the state of ease... and then it would get so messed up that i had no where to go... more like if i wanted to hang out with friends... i would get so fucking irrated sometimes cause i am so dependent right now it isn't funny... hints why i am stopping the whole you know getting my butt in gear and not moving... Yes i realize moving every 6 months has hurted me phyiscally and mentally but you know it can heal.
What people do not understand... is that if i have to go home... Yes I will... hide from the fandom a bit just to keep my mind at ease.... but realize that sometimes you have to do that....I now realize at almost the age of 25 that i still have life to live and if i have to prove my damnself that i need to do it i will....
So, Yes... No Fur Fright, Midwest Fur Fest, and maybe Furry Convention North. If i get invited to any con i would go but i might be hegistant to go cause of college... I have friends that want to invite me to MFM or even FWA.... even someone that is willing to pay for me.... I would but it's money that I don't have.....
Yes this is going to be on my FA but here i am going to leave it on my journal...locked comments.... Sorry... It's how i feel now.... ya'll can poke me when i get back to Sauk City...
Later,
Da Otter
Starcraft II
Posted 15 years agoIs awesome and wondering if anyone wants my battlenet id please send me a not on here
Jax
Jax
Pimpage
Posted 15 years ago
jaskieOne Word
Posted 15 years agoSTARCRAFT II BABY *bounces around*
Taking A Small Break From Helping Roommates Mom...
Posted 15 years agoFor those who are wondering how i am feeling not being in the house in Baraboo...
A) I am a lot happier...I can actually focus on stuff and really tackle things that were not set out for me in the house.
B) I can actually concentrate on things... like getting school done.... Even last night i got my transcripts sent to University of Wisconsin-Madison....HUZZAH!!!! *does a cute otter Dance*
C) Helping Wags mother out seems to put him in a happier mood and also having someone in the house that can help him out emotionally brings him to a more calmer self.
D) Onto some bad news...I quit my job at Pirece's only because it is a really long drive from Baraboo to Sauk City and back... It really sucks the gas from the roommates car. So now i am back on the job market again. Which is going to be intersting. I know what people are going to say... you jump from job to job to job to job aka location, location, location. When really it's a gas suckage for the roommates car. Not Good. I don't care what people think about my decisions this is the one for me to tackle and my choice no matter what.
E) The Con plans... Yes They are now going to be officially scrapped. (As in i need to take a break on cons and let real life kick me in the butt) So scrap my plans to go to Folsom, FF (Fur Fright), MFF...;FCN is a big big big big big big maybe.....So yeah.... No debuting the suit... but that does mean i and pimp out my other fa my fursuit fa....
pitchblackhusky
That's what's the update from the otter....but a word from our sponser
A) I am a lot happier...I can actually focus on stuff and really tackle things that were not set out for me in the house.
B) I can actually concentrate on things... like getting school done.... Even last night i got my transcripts sent to University of Wisconsin-Madison....HUZZAH!!!! *does a cute otter Dance*
C) Helping Wags mother out seems to put him in a happier mood and also having someone in the house that can help him out emotionally brings him to a more calmer self.
D) Onto some bad news...I quit my job at Pirece's only because it is a really long drive from Baraboo to Sauk City and back... It really sucks the gas from the roommates car. So now i am back on the job market again. Which is going to be intersting. I know what people are going to say... you jump from job to job to job to job aka location, location, location. When really it's a gas suckage for the roommates car. Not Good. I don't care what people think about my decisions this is the one for me to tackle and my choice no matter what.
E) The Con plans... Yes They are now going to be officially scrapped. (As in i need to take a break on cons and let real life kick me in the butt) So scrap my plans to go to Folsom, FF (Fur Fright), MFF...;FCN is a big big big big big big maybe.....So yeah.... No debuting the suit... but that does mean i and pimp out my other fa my fursuit fa....
pitchblackhuskyThat's what's the update from the otter....but a word from our sponser
