my computer is coming on friday my mother said.
so i have to wait till then, maybe i can sketch out things traditionally id have to try, just so i get something done with things i need to do. not sure aaaaaa

im in midlothian for a long time, and im bored XD id love to meet some friends here, but im too shy for that sheet, so i guess if anyones in the dallas are or arlington? ;; we can hang out at the mall and arcade? idk aaaaaa

( i do have a car XD so yeah )

my desktop is sadly still in maine, i can draw still ( i think ) if my computer can handle it, i have my laptop but the memories is horrid. like super bad!
it might take a week to get my desktop to texas. ;-; so commissions and art trades will be a bit late. im so sorry aaa

im about to go on a plane with my cat who hates me for giving her a bath and not feeding her for 24 hours o3o lol
oops

how does one have a nice birthday when there best friend is upset hhhhhhhhhh

jacob cough cough

no like legit.. idk what to do.. ;; it doesnt feel right for me to be happy when ik hes upset and why hes upset and stoof.. idk x__ X..

//goes to the bathroon

- Name: Blu or Ann ( Hate that name )
- Single or taken: Taken =P
- Gender: Male / Female dont care
- Birthday: May 23 1995
- Sign: Gemini
- Hair color: Black and red
- eye color: Brown
- Height: 5'6
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay? /:Uhm.. gay af XD
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: COCONUT STUFF ALWAYS!
- What are you listening to right now?: sad moosics
- Who is the last person that called you? Mari and Jacob <3
- How many buddies are online right now?: 3 c:

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F A V O U R I T E S
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- Animal: Zebras, Wolves , Huskys, pitbulls
- Colour: Blue
- Drink: Monster soda, and sprite
- Element: Fire
- Food: Junk food
- Game: Pokemon q w q
- Movie: Harry Potter ( all ) , Disney Movies, Magic mike ( mm chris pratt ) , Guardians of the Galaxy
- Song: Everything, im not picky
- Subjects in school: Graduated.! fookers
- T.V.: SUPERNATURAL
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: Yeee
- Smoked?: Yes.
- Bungee jumped?: fuck that shit
- Made yourself throw up?: Yes.
- Skinny dipped?: .. yes c<
- Ever been in love?: Yeeee
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Nope
- Pictured your crush naked?: yeee oopsie
- Actually seen your crush naked?: YESH B)
- Cried when someone died?: Actually.. once
- Lied: When i had to yeah
- Fallen for your best friend?: .. >w> yes a LONG time ago
- Used someone?: Never.
- Done something you reget?: Of course.
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Hoodie, ripped Jeans
- Desktop picture: My art B)
- CD in player: Nope
- DVD in player: HP

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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: My fucking cat
- Hugged: No one
- You kissed: No one
- You IMed: Jacob
- Talk to online: Jacob, Mari, Austin, Lush
- You sexed it up with: o_______________o uhm.. go away
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A R E | Y O U
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- Understanding?: Very.
- Open-minded?: Very much so
- Arrogant?: No
- Insecure?: Yes
- Random?: FUCK YEAH LOOK A DILDO!
- Hungry?: Always, gotta eat dem chips
- Smart?: street smart
- Moody?: does too hyper count o3o
- Organized?: no
- Shy?: depends on who i talk to
- Difficult?: im a lil shit
- Bored easily?: when mari doesn't love me.
- Entertained easily?: look a bug. yes
- Obsessed?: JENSON ACKLES HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
- Lazy?: Some times
- Angry?: When ppl are dicks yee
- Happy?: Sometimes
- Hyper?: ALWAYS ijdgchneriufdkjmg
- Trusting?: Mari said :yeah sometimes : lil bitch

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R A N D O M
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- In the morning: not awake.
- Love is: scury ( from mari ) , but for me love is about finding that one someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.
- I dream about: Night terrors
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Eyes and personality
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W H O
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- Makes you laugh the most: Myself c: it's true holy shit.
- Makes you smile: Im grumpy all the time.
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: chocolate c:
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D O | Y O U | E V E R
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: MARI WHERE YOU AT BOO!
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?:.. im confused, im myself u-u ( yes i want a dick )
- Wish you were younger?: BITCH im like 3.. XD
- Cry because someone said something to you?: mari said she hated me once. i laughed . Jacob called me a lil shit once, i cried.

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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: All the time.
- Of Cd's: da fuck is this shit. ( supernatural so like a lot )
- Of scars on my body: my wrists from past stuff, my cheek cause of my fucking cat, over the eye cause of my brother, a few on my legs and some on my tummy.
- Of bones I've broken: My leg, my finger, my nose, my foot, my knee, my elbow c: im clumsy

i want to stream my art with my music playing BUT im not sure which stream is good o-o
my computers stupid lol XD
so something with little lagg

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ill be 22
ew

how much should i charge for art like this

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23587242/

Why not lol XD im in the mood to do some art trades , maybe ill finish them today maybe not, i need to finish commissions first! ;v;
if you want to art trade then drop me a note!!

WOW O-O I NOW HAVE OVER 50 PIECES OF VINNY
OH
MAH
GAWD
HOD THAT HAPPEN SO FAST XD

i spoil him rotten oops
just look o3o
http://sta.sh/2svo9miizio?edit=1

welp, i just called the cops on our neighbors for spinning out in the middle of the road every single fucking night non stop, without my parents knowing i called so.. if they stop by my house im fucked..


this ass hole spins out in the middle of the road every damn night, even when cars are passing he still does it without a care! there is plenty of marks on the road as well.

im anxious that the officer will stop by my house to talk to me about the call.. if they do my mom will literally kill me.. =/

Since ill he finishing up commissions tonight and some adopts I might open some more slots idk aaaaa doubt anyone would want them tho xD

I'm at work bored and alone but I have a couple hours left, then I have to go home and finish packing... Fun! Anyone wanna chat hufff

I come online and see a bunch of messages in my shouts, i legit thought it was my friends spamming me like they always do, but no.. it was messages from people i don't even talk to wishing me well.. o-o that was a shocker, oh gosh.. idk how i feel about that, that's so sweet for you guys to do hhhhhhhh hdfjguikjvhnetrgkjvfd fuck you Jacob for making a journal , and for sending me a dang book on skype hhh
the first time in a long time i feel wanted ( as an artist shh ) and maybe in general idk ;;

i was venting to jacob last night about stuff ( he made me, then left me u-u aloneeeeeeeeeeeeee ) i didnt think he would go and do this stoofs.. ;-;

<3333333

ya know, i get beat up every day of my life, i get torn into little pieces by my house hold.
i get left by people i thought cared about me even just a tiny bit.
but yet im still nice to people, i still like to help others.
fuck, helping others makes me actually some what happy with my sad pathetic life lol

but im glad i have my little group of best pals i can stick with, i know they will never leave me no matter what. They mean the world to me, i don't show it ever ( cause fook. XD ) but i think im going to start drawing group drawings with them. they deserve more then that but ya know.
they make me who i am, they are my rock in the shitty world. without them, i would legit be nothing.
I love you guys so much. <33 thank you for putting up with my bull shit 8D yaaay

Rig , Mari, Jacob, Lush, Austin

i love you guys

i think after i finish up the art work i have to do, i might leave??
idk hhh its not that fun, ive made a couple friends yeah but like.. idk x_____X

yee so i wanted to let ya'll know im doing commissions today! all day till i pass out so i can get them done lol

i also wanted to say, i might be getting a new fursona o-o like.. ill still keep Vinny OFC, but id just have another sona along with him, id like sonas that represent different parts of me??? idk if that sounds right lol oh well.

also for payments for people, my paypal is acting up, and idk what's going on with it B(

or ocs lol
i want to see peoples refs, mostly for experimental art XD that i will start doing after i finish up these commissions , i haven't been uploading a lot, since a commissioner would rather have there art be privet , SO i only have two more commissions to go~

as for responding to noses, ive been slow with that and i apologize aa! ive been through so much this month alone x-x

the reason why i cant get close to people..
is because when i do
they always find a way to hurt me in the end
no matter what it is

..... maybe i should just stick to the friends i knew for the longest time..
oh well. just a normal thing for me i guess.
i should have known better...
ill just go with the flow with the ones i have now..
bleh
i guess what im trying to say is..
im actually heart broken over this one friend..
stupid i know

oh well, back to netflix...

anyone want to join a call with me and a friend o3o


its random but oh well
XD

i got into a car crash today.. fun fun..
the jerk was turning and i was going straight, i didnt see him and i smashed head on into his truck.. my car is totaled and i cant drive it ever again.. worst part, its my moms car..

im still fucking shaking and my leg is fucked up..
i feel sick as hell, and i barfed a lot already
my air bags didnt deploy but i had my seat belt on..
everyone is saying its his fault since i had the right of way.

-photos
http://sta.sh/2fqv9byfm0b?edit=1

when your making twin characters with a friend and they take forever to answer a question and just sits there like
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ill be alone for a couple months waiting for the bae to get home, and id love to meet ppl there, and actually have friends 8D

yay

just a little update i guess?
i'm feeling a bit better, still un easy about certain people and certain things, but i will get over it.
with that said, ive been thinking about my art style as of late, and i hate it XD
i want to do the chibi style BUT not full out cheebs. hhhh
i think im scared to try XD

ive been sick this entire week with strep throat weee! XD

i've been thinking about a lot of stuff as of late. Which I figured why not let it all out in a fa journal, seems legit o3o ''

but..

after i finish up my commissions and art trades, i might just leave. Or take a break, not from just this site, but everything. The internet, My Youtube account. everything. Might also take a couple week break from skype.

Things are just getting to me right now ,and it hasn't really been the best couple of months either, that being online, in real life, and with my own issues.

I know this isn't true, but some times I just feel un wanted and that im a huge burden to people, which i don't want. idk, I figured it would be better if i took a break from the internet?
But at the same time, it wouldn't make a difference considering half the shit going wrong is in my own house hold.
emotionally abusive mother, who wishes she never adopted me ( told me that many times ) , an ass hole abusive brother, who does damage emotionally, and physically, an abusive sister who doesn't really give two shits about me. The only one that actually cares about me, is my dad. But sadly, he doesn't have much time to live..

I get called names every day i go into work by people out side, who think there cool. One of them called me a hipster lesbo, i kinda laughed at that xD

I could go on and on internet, i really could. Maybe i'm thinking about all of this, because a date is coming up in which a close friend of mine died in. who knows.


anyways, i guess that's it for now.

Bye internet.

*EDITED
i just got woken up to my "mother" yelling at my niece and saying she hurt her feelings, cause she wont help out, doesn't listen, has no responsibilities , does nothing around the house bleh bleh BITCH shes fucking 7 years old! made her cry hard core like.. WTF she gets that enough from her actual mother.