1. I havent made a journal in years...

2. im making this one to add to my profile rather then be a journal

3. im very nervous around new people and that is the point of this.

Its difficult for me to comment on pic or note other people here cuz im very nervous and have been scared by some internet bullies many years ago((I thought I was over it but I get it left me with a little PTSD...tho I feel that might be too strong of a description for it)) so I realy just hope we can be friends when we talk and im sorry if I come off weird ^^

im righting this realy realy to get it off my chest and cus I dont think it will be seen by that many people

there ya go...have at it x3

finily got my 1st paid VFX job ^3^

I need to meet more of you guys <3

I was thinking

Desa Bells ((play on words of decibels))
Double Bass
Bassline
and Six String

if you have any other ideas I would love to know them, remember he is a music pony

I need to update this more ^^;

*throws shirt off* WOOOO

Heya. Trying to get some word of mouth out there. A friend of mine would like to start a plush-making business here on FA, but needs a bit of money to help get started. They plan on using the donation money to create a few projects, which will then be displayed on their page. If you can help, whether by donating some money, or by spreading the word, please do so. You can note  Icefyer for their paypal, since they don't want it shown in public due to fear of being hacked. If you donate please do NOT send it as a donation, because Paypal shuts down accounts that aren't "legitimate" IE, PETA and other big-name charities, nor as a Gift, because if lots of "gifts" start flooding in, paypal locks the account.

thats that jernal out of the way :3

played lazer tag and got borderlands 2 :3

and I hope to have a good one :3

finily done...and got the internet going....what did I miss

pplllleeeeeaaaaaassss <3

ok what the heack...terns out that the people moveing into my house, ya know...the reson I was moveing out? they desided not to move in becuz there was a tax lean on there house and they didnt tell us........I dont know what any of that meens but what I do know is now I will be moveing twice...I could have stayed in my house but NOOOOO this person had to get us out of there....*sigh*....cant stand this, now im stuck at my grandmas untill the condo is ready

yup im liveing with my grandma now, in a few mounths or so I will be moveing again but atleast its all packed still...*flops my fat lard ass onto my bed*....

im moveing in with my grandma wile the house I intedt to move into, gets ready (not sure what that meens, all herd it from my parents). so sorry if im not on this weekend, might be back mondy or tusday

this is the jernal of  Arkveveen PLEASE POST AND SPRED THE WORD PEOPLE!!!

What I need help with:

1. I need to meet a furry in person here in Wildomar, California, who'd be willing to drive me to a clinic or whatnot so I can start getting these health issues diagnosed. Also, I just need more real life friends or to meet furries in real life.

2. I need financial support to go see a doctor or at least go to the free clinic.

3. Emotional support in my time of need.


Hello again everybody.

It doesn't look like things are going so well for me. My health is in an unknown status, and I worry I may be hospitalized or dead.

But, I realized that I have very terrible habits. For instance, I seem to put ROADBLOCKS up in my own life and have a bad case of "learned helplessness". I always get in my own way and create reasons for not being able to help myself. Other habits include dragging strangers/friends/family down into my own problems by ranting to them, asking for help, and always making up reasons for why none of the help or suggestions will work. It essentially defeats the purpose to even ask for help if I keep refusing it or acting like I am refusing it. It's a viscous cycle of getting severely worried to the point I am crying, reaching out for help, and then forgetting about all of it for awhile. I can't put it off any longer, I may have a bad heart problem and may suffer the consequences if I continue to act like there isn't a problem simply because I didn't die or get hospitalized yet. But yet my body does not respond to my concerns, I just sit and complain like I am doing now. I make up reasons that I think are true for not even doing anything, as I said. But if this continues, I will die. I don't want to die at all, and the very thought of it makes me want to cry. Life is too wonderful and fun to just let myself die, but yet why can't I just go confront my mom again to help me? Why do I just forget about all this and just go on with my life?

Whatever the case is, I have the threat of homelessness on the horizon thanks to my current living situation (jobless, living with parents who are not getting any younger, don't have driver's license). Yet I don't do anything because I am an idiot. I have a serious psychological issue if I think things are going to continue being so comfortable forever if I don't do anything to help myself. But instead, I reach out for help and expect people to drive me to a clinic, help pay for a physical exam, or whatnot. I expect actual physical aid, rather than advice. But I don't know of anyone willing to help... Otherwise, I shouldn't drag you all down into this, I deserve whatever health problem I have, and then some. It's my atonement for being a selfish, whiny brat even at 24 years of age. Spoiled, lazy, and completely helpless in mind but not in body.

So, thank you all for your support, and pray for me. Because soon, I may not be long for this world. At least in the coming years...

THATS ALL THERE WAS GUYS, ARKVEVEEN IS ALSO STARTING A CAMPAIGN TO HELP SAVE HER SELF. PLEASE!!! CHECK IN WITH HER AS REGULARLY AS YOU CAN, SPREADING THIS JOURNAL IS ONE WAY TO HELP AND ALSO SHE WILL BE POSTING AWARENESS PICTURES WHEN EVER POSIBLE.

people loosing jobs (reasons unknown) and I just wanted to get my thoughts out.

......I dont have a job to lose and that actually makes me upset scents I cant offer advice to those who need it...all I can say is I hope you guys with your problems can get it fixed soon before the world throws something elts your way *hugs those who need it*

my close brother and dear friend jjames is looking for a good artist who can draw a gift for his girl frend.

if you think you can do it, look him up please thank you <3

had a very VERY odd dream last night...you could call it a nightmare but it was more like a movie, very cinematic and I was never in any danger.there were theses ghost but there weren't really ghosts they had these mid evil weapons inside them and they would eat you and chop you up into nothing and so some witch put a curse on my house which was for some resin out side Santiago and I had a dog that was also one of those ghost things but it was good and wanted to save me, and then it terns out to be jake from adventure time and one of then things terns him evil and I have to get him back...and then spoonyone (from thatguywiththeglasses.com ) shows up and helps me out...and then some one starting shooting jake who opened his mouth very wide swalod the bullets and fired then back at the shooters, not sure who they were.......and then Will Fairl showed up and made a parishoot that helped get out of the house I guess and then I woke up..........

im just as lost as you are right now...

right here =D
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/zicnoracel check him out, nice guy, loves drawing ^^

Yeah, as if SOPA and PIPA weren't bad enough (and they're only shelved for now) we also have ACTA to contend with.

More info here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yQ56UNL5zeo

WHY IS IT HAPPENING!!!!...it had better not go through or elts its going to be hell on earth >=(

with this dragon leading the charge!

whats your revolation? :3

becuz I dont know what you all celibrate XD hehe hope its been good for all of you ^^

CUZ IM SICK OF QUICK SCOPES AND PEOPLE USEING THEM IN CLOSE QUORTERS COMBAT!!!!...and then they go on to use the side arm for long range stuff

realy...it has to end