Im not seeing any...

I would like to join one so that I can feel more comfortable in the fandom again. Share experiences and stories...

I feel so lost lately...alone..

Once I zero out my to do list and start freshly new. I plan on being way more professional and timely. This means once I start a commission, my goal will be to complete it same day.

I will honor all refunds requested (because ill have my job back)

If I made a negative impact on your decision please let me know. You dont have to openly/publicly if you fear others flaming you. So email me your concerns if you have them

Litterpawsart[at]gmail.com

Id really like to know how badly I have damaged my clientele base...so if you read this please at least say yes or no. You dont have to elaborate but itll help me figure out how to fix things.

For those that have waited over a year, I will be offering in stream freebies if you enter a stream that day. I feel I can mend the error of my bad luck this way.

Thank you for your input.

I want you to be comfortable when you talk to me. Please never be afraid to send me a shout. My notes are disabled but please feel free to email me at

Litterpawsart[at]gmail.com

Its my commission business eemal only!

Its very hard for me to keep track of my commissioners lately for updates because the chemotherapy is effecting the memory portion of my brain. I forget what I had for dinner the previous night when I wake up..its scary.

I just ask you to be easy on me. Please dont badger or be rude. I will provide an update to the best of my ability if you just ask. So I ask you all to contact me and not wait for me to contact you.

I reallu hope you understand.

The condition side effect is known as "chemobrain" wikipedia is useful to find out more.

My last chemo should be at the end of November!!

So winners dec through march will be not affected!!!

The rest shall be transferred over into the year 2015 with the same winning options!

I hope that is okay

I want to inform yall that once my queue is zeroed completely out I will be adding hermaphrodites to my WILL DRAW list.

Still working on the list this week. I took the day off today because my hair is just...falling out in handfulls...its quite depressing.

After a week of suffering from chemo this passed monday im now feeling better and finally home.

Next treatment isnt this monday but the monday following. Itll be #3.

The results are good! Im showing shrinking in the tumors!

Im going to try and get some work done this week. Hoping all my remaining pencil YCHs so I can focus on only computer art.

I just absolutely fucking loooove when people that dont know me assume shit. I dont normally cuss and I do apologize but im royally pissed off.

Was inquiring about what kind of pencil commissions people like, not exactly taking commissions and this one person goes the hell off on me.

Im apparently a tracer.
Im apparently lying about my cancer because stage 4 treatment would kill my child (shows what she knows)
Im apparently only pregnant but lying about the hodgkins lymphoma trying to pity my way into money.

Once again I was inquiring about what people liked. And if my pricing seemed fair. I didnt say "OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS"

And she rudely attacked me. I even shared medical documents as proof and ultrasound pics. What the hell?

I do understand that, some people out there do cry wolf about medical conditions but mine is 100% legit.

Some people...

I received an email asking me why im working on other peoples commissions and taking in more work. I had no idea I opened back up for commissions? Think I wouldve known that. Im pretty positive I havent been physically able to art properly for a few months now.


To be honest. I havent had the opportunity to work on commissions effectively since my health plummeted last year.

Its not my fault if my clients dont read my journals.

Bottom line is I always finish what I owe, regardless of how long it takes. My health conditions have really impacted my business as an artist. Especially the professionalism I used to have. But it can not be helped.

Im not in denial! Im dying! I know this and im not rolling over. But im also not going to stress over my workload until my immediate health isnt in danger. Its an absolute fact that I have cancer. Ive updated my customers best I could with each exam and even provided proof photos.

If you as a client have not noticed this. You apparently arent too worried about your commission. Just know that im fighting this demon and as much as I hate to say it, their is always a risk I could lose to it! It very well could claim my life and then what? You will message a dead persons email with rude remarks until you go to my main page and see the RIP posts.

Give me a chance to recover please...

Chemotherapy isnt fun. Undergoing chemotherapy while pregnant isnt fun. Believe me when I say I feel horrible about not being able to properly work my hand off for you like I used to.

But I cant remember what I had for dinner because of these chemo drugs!! Let alone remember a whole to do list. I can only do so much...

If and when I overcome this battle, I just may give up art all together. I will close commissions entirely that way my only focus will be what I need to finish to satisfy my clients. I never intended for a 1-2+ year wait for anything. I didnt just wake up and decide "oh. I think I want cancer" This was thrown on me unexpectedly. Its ruining my life. But im doing my best to focus on getting better so I can focus on living a good future life and get back to the things I did before I was dying.

So I had my second treatment of chemo today. I hate it so much. I cried once I sat down in the "treatment chair" as they call it..

Know whats weird. The nurses pushing that stuff have to wear protective equipment and im just like "thanks for injecting me with poison"

They have to wear it. Because if it gets on your skin you need plastic surgery :/

Anyway I feel like crap...

Insurance cancelled on june 30th with no warning. Fighting that...so now I going to have to pay some out of pocket somehow...

My paypal is iurshadow[at]aol.com

If you do donate please please put your FA name so I can return the favor somehow.

Im so sleepy.

Here is to praying my body responds better to this one and I can get something done...

My last chemo treatment is mid december.

All artslave months will be carried over into the new year.
I appreciate those of you who have been patient and even more so the ones who have and requested I take it easy.

Chemo is rough. Cant lie about that. Money is tight. Cant lie about that. But my family and my supporters are amazing and I dont know what id do without yall.

I can tell here who cares the most byy journal comments.

If you have a FB account feel free to find me under Kandis Whalon.

I did start chemo today and to lower my stress levels I may hiatus from skype and fa for a short time.

Please do not pay for art slave months this year unless you really want to and are willing to wait for the following year. I can most definitely understand if you want to *release me* and not pay at all as well

I should be finished and in remission from cancer by christmas! So anything with 6 months is on hold. Chemo isnt affecting right. Thats whatvibwanted to know anyway and uts also affecting my mind thinking abilities

Im finding myself forgetting what I was doing or forgetting I was holding something..

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I have a third tumor in my lungs that is causing me to suffocate slowly. Which is why ive been having problems with eating and breathing.

So. It begins.

just a copy and paste from my FB. cause im lazy and tired of being here...

Well looks like im in here one more night. They are going to let my last IV bag run out and take me off of it for the rest of the night. They want to monitor how i handle hydration and keeping nutrients in myself on my own by eating and drinking.

At least i wont feel like an android/cyborg soon.

My MRI results have come back that my cancer masses have indeed gotten larger, which is a huge part of my breathing problems and the issues i have been having as of late. Including swallowing food.

They want me to highly consider starting chemotherapy right away. Whether it be while in the hospital or outpatient at my Cancer Doctors Office.

My mother and my husband think a stay in the hospital for my first dose of chemo would be better and safer. But i dont want to be here anymore..but i guess at least they can monitor my baby easier if i stay a little longer and get my first treatment.

im scared. But ive gotta do what i have to...right?

There is no visitation limits in the Oncology Department. the only thing is they lock the doors after 9pm so you have to reenter the building through the ER. So anyone is welcome to visit me and at nearly anytime. Its a perk of being a cancer patient i suppose. Oh and Critical Care has all the limitations, but thats not my department.

So im currently waiting on my mom and my grandmom to come here so we can talk with the doctor about the options and what to do further.

My husband will be by later on this evening after work. I miss him so much. I cant wait to see him.

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second part

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lots of visitors today, really made my day. i got beautiful balloons from my dad and michelle. and baby clothes from my grandmother. stuffed animals from my best friend amber and chris came to see me. and my mom was here and we walked around and i feel great now that i was able to get around for a short while. i dont have to be hooked up to th IV tonight so im sooooo relieved about that.

chemo looks like a go for this week or next week. but in the end its gotta be done for my sake and for Kyte's sake as well. The cancer is consuming my body and i cant wait any longer without conscequence.

well, after several ER visits they admitted me into a room this passed friday evening.

it sucks...but it is the best place for me. They have me on constant IV hydration, monitoring me. Blood work daily. I have a high risk OB come check on the baby twice a day.

visitors and calls are nice, meals are good. sleep is plentiful. but boy is my body exhausted from all this. I should get results back monday about the progression of my cancer. depending on that, will depend on if i start chemo this week or if i can still hold off longer. but i have a feeling that i will be started sooner than i had hoped...

Yeah. Im not going into a huge speel. But basically my throat almost closed all the way up and blocked my air passage 100%.

I drove myself to the ER like a dumbass almost passing out but I was so panicked and I didnt want the ambulance bill...but ill never do that again...

My throat is still a lil swollen. Its hard to stay hydrated when you cant swallow properly...im on prednisone steroids so minimize the inflammation in my throat. So far so good but sometimes I get so scared itll happen again.

I find out monday if its related to my cancer..

Im feeling a lil depressed tonight..

A lil doodle. Nothing special might cheer me up v.v

My char here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6943863/

Kaeko getting a hug would be nice. I could use an internet hug...

:c

Thanks in advance

No kiriban this time. No time for it :c but thank you!

Couldnt do it without ya!

My lil boy.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/13629496/

This question has been nagging me a while now and I just cant sleep. So what is your preference and why do you feel that way?

I personally adore traditional mediums. I want to learn the proper way to mix coloured pencil and markers. Or just learn the proper why to use coloured pencils. They amaze me.

Digital is fun. But I feel its way more simplified.

My husband actually came up with this idea lol

So I usually buy this XL Canson bristol board paper. Its 11x14 inches. It says it weighs 96 lbs.

Ive already used 2 pages so instead of 25 itd be 23.

Im considering auctioning off the entire sketchbook BUT so im not artblocked like the last time I did this, the book will be filled with pin up poses. Nude. Clean. Erotica. Lingerie. Bondage. All that good stuff.

Now should I reveal the poses during the auction or keep the sketchbook a surprise until shipped out?

Already have a few sketches in the book. Ideas? Thoughts?

Of course remember completing the entire thing with pencil and marker will take some time. So I would need patient bidders.

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Basically. Im considering auctioning off an entire bristol board sketchbook full of pin up female preposes. And to be completed by me.

Examples of completed traditional work~
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/13362513/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/13607876/

Lingerie special! :3

Need to pay rent! Just realized we are 1 month behind on it!

Okay I dont have much time so if I forget something ill edit or just answer your questions.

Okay okay. So I went 2 hours out of my town up north to see a specialist. I love that doctor!

It was a long visit but super worth it.

I had a MUGA scan taken and if you remember the heart echo was 40%. Well turns out it was WAY off
Im at a healthy 70%!!

At 34 weeks ill be induced and ill start full treatment of chemo/radiation after the lil cub is born! Hoping my body can hold out that long at least. If I cant wait. I pray for minimal damage to my unborn child.

Im just happy we are finally planning.

Still kind of under construction...its a lil hard to figure out but I think im starting to understand it?


Any advice?

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