That they gave me an inhaler. Omg. Never thought id have to use one of these things...its so weird..

Have you yourself or do you know anyone who has had a heart transplant?

If you are assuming the worst here, yeah..thats why im asking....

I could be in better spirits!!!

Look for a short but eventful stream tomorrow!

Few things.

First is they gave me a medication that actually gives me energy! I feel like I might have a productive 5 days!

Second. A bunch of marker pieces are being mailed out with the help from a good friend next week! Im going to package them and he will be doinf the personal mailing n.n

Third chemo finally starts next week. Here is ppraying for positive results! !

Fourthly. I came across a paycheck stub while cleanimg and organizing medical bills. A paycheck I never cashed was still attached! And it was valid! I get to keep my health insurance a lil longer!!!! Today was full of miracles.

Go jump on them. Most still at starting bid!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/13421261/

While im in the ER again I just wanted to take this time to tell you thank you. To each and everyone of you.

Cause I feel like a f-ing terrible person for not being able to get shit done in a timely manner....im stressed from the cancer...stressed from the pregnancy....stressed from not being able to return to my fulltime job...its eating me alive!!!

So this offer stands while im fucking bedridden from chemo..

Additionally. I need $202 before the end of the month otherwise my health insurance will drop me. Im with unitedhealth care through the union. No insurance
..no more cancer treatments..possible death in near months. No gyno for the baby.. But I cant pay my dues because my bitch MDO denied my light duty....grrr

So those that havent paid for art slave months. I could use a lil help...v.v

Paypal: iurshadow[at]aol.com

I want to work on a new badge design. They are adorable big eyed chibis.

Tell me what you have. Boosters range from $2-$5. And boxes range $30-$100. I only want English cards.
looking for the sylveon box!
Looking for charizard flash fire box
Looking for fennekin, chespin, froakie box
Older 90s boxes/cards

Tell me the value of your item. Ill do research if it sounds fishy.

Boosters ill trade for traditional marker badges.
Booster boxes ill trade full body single char traditional pieces.

Digital is a no right now. My body cant handle the strain of sitting in the chair for so long and the screen makes me nauseous cause meds.

If this sounds fair please let me know what you got or find.
Ill also consider your personal collections because Im an eevee/eeveeon collector.

Thats what I decided to do today for stress relief. Organize my 5 binders of cards. Looking for xy boosters too!

Just a heads up. Many boxes to wt out. : )

So rushed to the ER sunday. Husband drove like a bat out of hell down the interstate while I screamed in agony.

I think I couldve filled a fishbowl with the amount of waterworks pouring down my face. Anyway. Get to the ER. Forced to wait like 20 mins btw triage/registration/finally being called back.

Doctor comes in. Looks me over. My back/shoulder/left side of my neck/portarea/arm/side is all swollen and really hurts to the touch. Its all bruised like I was beat up.

I get xrayed. They tested out and flushed my port thinking it was clotting my artery. Port works fine, pulled blood from it, injected me with morphine several times. Each doses only lasted about an hour before I started screaming from pain again.

So they diagnosed me with muscle spams caused by my port surgery. And sent me home with meds. The swelling has not gone down...and im tired of this excruciating pain!

I went in at 12 and discharged at 5 and feel like I wasted my time. Im still hurting bad. They say there is no infection but im not so sure. If there isnt infection why did I swell the fuck up in the first place???

It hurts so bad...

Wellp. Im aiming to complete all my traditional marker pieces by the end of sunday night.

If that goes like planned I want to try to get a majority of them mailed out by next weekend. Here is to hoping. After that I should only have big digital commissions to focus on.

Chemo starts on the 20th of this month. It will make me really sick. Ill be away from my home desktop under the care of my mother so I do plan on bringing my tablet pc.

Ill get it all done. Just need to take it a day at a time...not accepting anymore so inquiries are closed!

:C

Administration deleted my incision picture.
I got in trouble for plagiarism? Wtf. Its my chest/collarbone/body

Ive read your prayers that I did get...thank you to those.

Here it is. Warning for grotesque incision pic.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ihlo1ne64.....2014.59.06.jpg

https://www.dropbox.com/s/zrl6ge23n.....2021.09.28.jpg

to answer redires question
http://sydneymedicalinterventions.c.....slider%202.jpg


Paypal is iurshadow[at]aol.com
Please put your fa name in note so I can thank you properly when this is all over. All donations are funded toward my treatments and nutrition for my 12 week old fetus.

Supporting is free
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Supporting is free. I get my portacath tomorrow to ready for chemo. But still struggling immensely. Thank you for any support and shares.

Comments of prayers and good fortune really help my mentality. I feel like im going to go insane half the ttime.i feel so alone in this cancer battle. I dont know anyone else struggling lymphoma. I get breast cancer survivors talking to me but its just not the same.

For more direct donations. Paypal is iurshadow[at]aol.com

Anyone ever had a port installed in their chest?

My surgery date is on the 28th. Im very nervous, I heard it can get infected.

Just looking for personal experiences with one. Im a bit scared.

It..didnt go as hoped..

Ill try to make this as uncomplicated as I can.

Chemo treatments are supposed to consist of the drugs ABVD. The drug A is heart toxic. My heart test again came back 40% capacity when my age range should be 65%.
By administering the A drug their is a high chance my heart capacity would drop to 25% capacity and potential for heart failures and problems for the rest of my life.
My doctor wants to cut out the A drug altogether if these odds come back from a second opinion. She wants to replace it with another drug but she says its not exactly pregnancy safe.
So im stuck btw a rock and hard place now.

Im taking requests for refunds if you want them. I can only refund in small amounts.

I dont want cancer to claim me and not give you what you want. I dont wish to have loose ends. I dont want to bad rep. Im struggling...I dont want to owe if I dont make it through this.

For those that do not know or dont read every journal, I was diagnosed with Hodgkins lymphoma stage 2b. They want to test my bone marrow for stage 4 testing but im against it being 10 weeks pregnant now. Hl is a type of cancer that lurks in your immune system. Im constantly sick/weak/sleeping and struggling each and everyday.

If I started your work ill give a partial refund. If I have not. Ill refund but im forced to refund in parts.

They put me out of work since feb 20th. And my husband only makes $300 a week.

Only things I can focus hard on is traditional work that I can do from my bed. I still have multiple!! Items to mail out just no money or strength to get to the post office.

If you wish for a refund please let me know. Ill do my best like I always have.

https://fundly.com/m2/lymphoma-canc.....dis-and-family

Support needed. Donations not required.
Any extra I receive I want to donate to a hl awareness charity. People need to know more about it, stop getting misdiagnosed.

Having cancer makes you cherish life a little bit more. My treatments start next month. I just pray myself and my unborn child are strong enough.

Good news. No heart surgery but im on hisk risk watch.

So...my heart echo came back no good. Even though the masses are on my lungs. My lungs are healthy but nothing found on my heart but my heart isnt strong enough?

Im very confused and scared. I cant focus at all!! Im tired of the hospital and tired of the tests...

I know this is just the beginning but I want it to all end....

My mother really feels as though I was given this child as a means to fight through this. If I didnt, she thinks I would have given up on life and my child is a blessing.

I will start treatments may 10th. While im in my 2nd trimester. No chemo will begin while im in my 1st tri. My cancer doc dr. Hagan wishes to see me every month til I start to see how rapid the cancer is spreading and if I have time to wait. If I do not get treatment before september, I will not survive.

It is possible I may have to sacrifice my babe if the cancer is spreading far too rapidly in short time. This scares me but I wouldnt be given this gift just to be taken...

I get to have a cub of my own. Finally.

Im just checking up. Im sort of awake for once.

Morning sickness is a bitch and ive been dipping dill pickles in moosetrack ice cream. Yum

Id love to hear them. Family or friends or yourself.

I need a little hope.

Results are in.

I am confirmed positive for Hodgkins - lymphoma. I am positive for cancer...

Stage 4

I just...dont know how to feel right now