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Commissions OPEN Sept. 2023
Posted 2 years agoI'm currently open for commissions! For now on commissions, will be handled all on one site -- Prices, request forms, queues, WIPs, etc. all in one place
Check out the link if you're interested!
https://artistree.io/calicokai
https://artistree.io/calicokai
https://artistree.io/calicokai
Check out the link if you're interested!
https://artistree.io/calicokai
https://artistree.io/calicokai
https://artistree.io/calicokai
March Commissions OPEN
Posted 2 years ago$80 USD per character for flat color
+ $50 for shading -- Example 1 Example 2
+ $50 for backgrounds Example 1 Example 2
Form here: https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
+ $50 for shading -- Example 1 Example 2
+ $50 for backgrounds Example 1 Example 2
Form here: https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
https://forms.gle/kxyvKBzG8Xxhe2FP7
Commissions OPEN! [CLOSED]
Posted 4 years agoView the commission form here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/41840750/
Commissions are not taken on a first-come, first-serve basis. Instead, the commission form will remain open for 1 week and projects will be chosen by personal discretion. I will try to prioritize first-time clients but this is not a guarantee. The number of available slots will be based on the amount and complexity of submissions.
Note: currently not taking ref sheets at this time
Commission form And TOS here:
https://forms.gle/ANUvpMQ912L39bLG8
https://forms.gle/ANUvpMQ912L39bLG8
Commissions are not taken on a first-come, first-serve basis. Instead, the commission form will remain open for 1 week and projects will be chosen by personal discretion. I will try to prioritize first-time clients but this is not a guarantee. The number of available slots will be based on the amount and complexity of submissions.
Note: currently not taking ref sheets at this time
Commission form And TOS here:
https://forms.gle/ANUvpMQ912L39bLG8
https://forms.gle/ANUvpMQ912L39bLG8
Twitters
Posted 6 years agoIf anyone is on Twitter, I have a couple accounts that you should follow!
Main account: @Calico_Kai
NSFW art account (18+ only): @Calico_Lewds
Main account: @Calico_Kai
NSFW art account (18+ only): @Calico_Lewds
Birthday
Posted 8 years agoI'm 24 today
Whoo
Whoo
What would you like to see more of?
Posted 8 years agoHey guys
Currently away from home visiting a friend for the summer and while I'm taking the time to take a little bit of a break from drawing, I do want to stay in practice so I can comeback full-swing!
I need something to work on in between commissions but I'm low on ideas so give me some! What kind of drawings would you like to see? Pin-ups? Chibis? Porn? Fan art? Rule 34? My drawing process? Something else? Let me know! Send me some pose or content ideas and I may just draw it!
Currently away from home visiting a friend for the summer and while I'm taking the time to take a little bit of a break from drawing, I do want to stay in practice so I can comeback full-swing!
I need something to work on in between commissions but I'm low on ideas so give me some! What kind of drawings would you like to see? Pin-ups? Chibis? Porn? Fan art? Rule 34? My drawing process? Something else? Let me know! Send me some pose or content ideas and I may just draw it!
Feeling like giving up art
Posted 8 years agoI hate that this seems to be the only type of journals I make here on FA but I really never have any idea of something to write here and I need somewhere to vent this out to.
For the past year and a half now my ability to draw has been nothing but a drain on me physically and mentally as I feel like I just not good enough and that no matter how hard I try I am just not improving. It takes me so very long to get even a single drawing done and the lack of recognition a majority of my work gets just tears away at my confidence. Nowadays I try my damndest to be productive but can never manage to ever get anything done and the only acknowledgement I get of the things I do manage to do is pity from friends. I try to keep going and I do get periods of when I am feeling good about my work but those moments are so very few and far in between all the self-loathing and frustration. It's gotten to the point where my current mindset for so long is that I shouldn't even be trying - that this doesn't make me happy and only makes me sad and upset so by bother? I try to listen to what others say but none of it helps me.
"BUT I LIKE YOUR ART"
These kind of remarks mainly come from friends who I've known for years and who are pretty much my only customers. But of course they are going to compliment me when they see I'm upset about something.
The thing is, a lot of the time it's not even the final product that bothers me - it's the process of trying to get to the final product. People that compliment me see the final product but don't know how much of a struggle it was for me to get to that point. There have been numerous times where I'll give up on drawings because I just can't make a sketch that I can work with. Things that I have repeatedly practiced over the years that I should be able to do in one sitting takes me weeks and sometimes I never even finish them. There have been multiple occasions where I'll accept a commission of something that should be manageable for me and take weeks to do it only to find that I just can't make it presentable and end up refunding the client. It's so painful and just makes me want to give up entirely.
Though I try and try I can't maintain any kind of consistency in the way my art looks or even in the way I approach things or how long things take me. I can be proud of something like my most recent icon and complete it with relative ease but if I were to try to make another headshot drawing it'll turn out awful. I just don't understand it. If I've done something for years and have gotten better at it, it should at least a little easier to replicate but it's not for me. The more I go at drawing, the more difficult it gets and I find myself getting stopped sooner and sooner in the drawing process.
It just feels like after 7 years of drawing, I shouldn't be feeling any of this. This should be easier for me. Not that I'll never be frustrated but to be frustrated ALL the time? With poses and characters I've practiced extensively? It feels inexcusable. I should be farther along as an artist by now but I'm not. There are people years younger with less time under their belt that are doing things way more impressive than I am. It makes me feel like I have failed.
"YOU SHOULDN'T STRIVE TO BE POPULAR. JUST MAKE ART!"
Ironically enough the kind of people I see say this are people who produce detailed works, have thousands of followers/watchers etc across all their social media and art gallery sites, and make a good bit of money from their art. The disconnect between what they say and their own experience is so staggering that it just makes me roll my eyes at statements like this.
I'm not looking to have tens of thousands of followers/watchers or to make thousands of dollars a month from Patreon or to have an ego trip or superiority complex because so many people like my work. I mean yeah that would be nice but I know I'd have to work up to that point if I were to ever get there. And I know that just because a drawing or work of art doesn't get a lot of attention doesn't mean that it isn't good but it still helps. People like to have their work noticed and appreciated. People like to get compliments. It helps build their confidence. And granted my work now gets more attention than it used to but what am I supposed to make out of a submission where less than 1% of the people that saw it actually favorited it? What am I supposed to make out of 0 comments from anyone other than people I already know? What am I supposed to make out of how it seems like the more frequent I post, the less inclined people seem to be to watch me? Hell, I've even LOST watchers from posting art somewhat frequently.
I don't really know what to do about either of these things. My work would probably get more attention if there was more of it and if I posted frequently. But I don't post frequently because I get too frustrated halfway through and that makes me self-conscious. And I'm self-conscious also because the things I am the most proud of get glossed over or do get the feedback I hoped for. The two just reinforce one another in making me perceive myself as a bad artist. Or that I shouldn't even consider myself an artist to begin with. I've been telling myself that if I keep feeling this way, I'll quit by the end of the year. Dunno if I'll stick to that. What's been keeping me going with art is just I've always had an urge to draw and going without drawing makes me feel like crap but that urge has been fading this year.
Some friends have said it's just my depression and that my focus, consistency and motivation will improve with treatment. Guess I'll try that in August since I'll be out of town for a month starting next week.
I'm babbling and I don't know if any of this is even coherent or not. I just needed to get these thoughts down somewhere.
TL;DR I just want to be able to draw and finish things without getting frustrated and I want my work to be noticed. But neither are true and it frustrates me to the point where I want to give up drawing.
For the past year and a half now my ability to draw has been nothing but a drain on me physically and mentally as I feel like I just not good enough and that no matter how hard I try I am just not improving. It takes me so very long to get even a single drawing done and the lack of recognition a majority of my work gets just tears away at my confidence. Nowadays I try my damndest to be productive but can never manage to ever get anything done and the only acknowledgement I get of the things I do manage to do is pity from friends. I try to keep going and I do get periods of when I am feeling good about my work but those moments are so very few and far in between all the self-loathing and frustration. It's gotten to the point where my current mindset for so long is that I shouldn't even be trying - that this doesn't make me happy and only makes me sad and upset so by bother? I try to listen to what others say but none of it helps me.
"BUT I LIKE YOUR ART"
These kind of remarks mainly come from friends who I've known for years and who are pretty much my only customers. But of course they are going to compliment me when they see I'm upset about something.
The thing is, a lot of the time it's not even the final product that bothers me - it's the process of trying to get to the final product. People that compliment me see the final product but don't know how much of a struggle it was for me to get to that point. There have been numerous times where I'll give up on drawings because I just can't make a sketch that I can work with. Things that I have repeatedly practiced over the years that I should be able to do in one sitting takes me weeks and sometimes I never even finish them. There have been multiple occasions where I'll accept a commission of something that should be manageable for me and take weeks to do it only to find that I just can't make it presentable and end up refunding the client. It's so painful and just makes me want to give up entirely.
Though I try and try I can't maintain any kind of consistency in the way my art looks or even in the way I approach things or how long things take me. I can be proud of something like my most recent icon and complete it with relative ease but if I were to try to make another headshot drawing it'll turn out awful. I just don't understand it. If I've done something for years and have gotten better at it, it should at least a little easier to replicate but it's not for me. The more I go at drawing, the more difficult it gets and I find myself getting stopped sooner and sooner in the drawing process.
It just feels like after 7 years of drawing, I shouldn't be feeling any of this. This should be easier for me. Not that I'll never be frustrated but to be frustrated ALL the time? With poses and characters I've practiced extensively? It feels inexcusable. I should be farther along as an artist by now but I'm not. There are people years younger with less time under their belt that are doing things way more impressive than I am. It makes me feel like I have failed.
"YOU SHOULDN'T STRIVE TO BE POPULAR. JUST MAKE ART!"
Ironically enough the kind of people I see say this are people who produce detailed works, have thousands of followers/watchers etc across all their social media and art gallery sites, and make a good bit of money from their art. The disconnect between what they say and their own experience is so staggering that it just makes me roll my eyes at statements like this.
I'm not looking to have tens of thousands of followers/watchers or to make thousands of dollars a month from Patreon or to have an ego trip or superiority complex because so many people like my work. I mean yeah that would be nice but I know I'd have to work up to that point if I were to ever get there. And I know that just because a drawing or work of art doesn't get a lot of attention doesn't mean that it isn't good but it still helps. People like to have their work noticed and appreciated. People like to get compliments. It helps build their confidence. And granted my work now gets more attention than it used to but what am I supposed to make out of a submission where less than 1% of the people that saw it actually favorited it? What am I supposed to make out of 0 comments from anyone other than people I already know? What am I supposed to make out of how it seems like the more frequent I post, the less inclined people seem to be to watch me? Hell, I've even LOST watchers from posting art somewhat frequently.
I don't really know what to do about either of these things. My work would probably get more attention if there was more of it and if I posted frequently. But I don't post frequently because I get too frustrated halfway through and that makes me self-conscious. And I'm self-conscious also because the things I am the most proud of get glossed over or do get the feedback I hoped for. The two just reinforce one another in making me perceive myself as a bad artist. Or that I shouldn't even consider myself an artist to begin with. I've been telling myself that if I keep feeling this way, I'll quit by the end of the year. Dunno if I'll stick to that. What's been keeping me going with art is just I've always had an urge to draw and going without drawing makes me feel like crap but that urge has been fading this year.
Some friends have said it's just my depression and that my focus, consistency and motivation will improve with treatment. Guess I'll try that in August since I'll be out of town for a month starting next week.
I'm babbling and I don't know if any of this is even coherent or not. I just needed to get these thoughts down somewhere.
TL;DR I just want to be able to draw and finish things without getting frustrated and I want my work to be noticed. But neither are true and it frustrates me to the point where I want to give up drawing.
