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Hey guys, slowly migrating over to Twitter due to ease of upload and further reach of audience. I'll still actively check FA, but I don't plan on uploading here for the foreseeable future.

Follow me on twitter at https://twitter.com/Kaiitaal

Over the course of 2020, I've taken it upon myself to hone my skills in SL as a photographer. Over time, I feel I've improved since I started. In that regard, I'd like to thank you all for your support, be it favs/comments/watches.

You guys have given me reason to keep doing this, not only for myself but for others involved.

A personal thank you to my mentor and good friend Drake at https://twitter.com/ThatFancyHorse1 for coercing me into doing this. I probably wouldn't have stuck with it if it wasn't for you.

Thank you all, I hope 2021 is better for everyone!

Kaii

I wasn't expecting to get such an overwhelming amount of favs over some second life pictures.

Sadly, it's way too hard to respond to everyone individually, so thank you all!

New year, new FA GUI.





Neat.

So recently, I was met with a security breach on Telegram, which resulted in a furry from the GTA obtaining my mobile number then proceeded to harass me with sexual requests and a slew of text messages. I had to threaten this individual with police.

I do not share my number with anyone, for any reason. I discovered that telegram was displaying my phone number to certain individuals whom I've never shared with prior.

Check your security settings on your apps.

Sorry to those who used to chat with me on there. I won't be back.

I'm finding myself using my FA less and less as time goes on as I've begun to use a dormant Twitter account I made years ago. I'm very likely going to be making a transition to that platform soon, as I don't really interact with anyone on here and vice versa.

That being said, I won't be deleting or disabling my account, but instead letting it go dormant.

Was fun while it lasted, feel free to follow me on Twitter. (Link on profile.)

My good friend is opening back up for telegram sticker commissions. They're super cute, you should poke him for examples! Go check him out!

There is no God, for if there was then how'd this evil take me? It seeped and crawled it's way along my face as mother wept.

I'm gonna talk about something I've yet to speak about. I feel the need to do this, since I've kept this to myself for a very long time. I'm not going to go into length or specific details, but summarize instead.

So, for the longest time, I struggled with really bad anxiety. It stemmed from what became an abusive relationship with my ex fiancee. I call the relationship abusive. Years of reflecting on this has changed my mindset on the situation.

Let's call him Mark, because even though we don't see eye to eye anymore, and frankly probably never will, I'm not the person I was 5 years ago, and I don't feel the need to out him. I already did my damage, and admittedly, it was a terrible thing to do. I was very spiteful about it. Now, keep in mind, I am not saying I was perfect by any means. I've grown as a person since then.

We met over Second Life, years ago. He was a chill dude back then. We hung out a lot, and towards the end of a previous relationship, he was there a lot for me. That was pretty cool.

Over time we fell for one another and ultimately I asked him out. He, of course, said yes. I was happy as a pig in shit.

We eventually got to meet, as this was a long distance relationship deal. Most of our time together was spent over Skype when he wasn't visiting. That first meeting, golden. I couldn't have been happier.

As time moved on, however, things started to not look so good. Moods were awful, and more often than not we would fight. I won't go into details, but there was nights where the fights got so bad, I would have these excruciating panic attacks, some of which would cause pain so severe that I would end up going to the hospital.

But, I loved him. I stayed there because of that. (And no, I didn't stay because I was afraid of being alone.)

Over the course of time, things grew worse. I'm pretty sure it came to the point where we couldn't stand each other. The fighting happened daily, there was always something one of us would yell at the other for, or make the other feel like shit for. He'd play on my emotions, I would always be on his case about things. We'd bicker over the dumbest shit and it eventually got to the point where the relationship became so unstable, I had to end it. We became toxic to one another.

That hurt, a lot. And I mean, I didn't show it at the time. I was very emotionless about the whole situation. But it kicked me after a few weeks. I felt like I wasn't right for anything or anyone. The damage from the whole ordeal was there, the anxiety was real. And it stayed, for a long time. I feel like that was karma slapping me in the face, because I went above and beyond to make his life as bad as I felt he made mine in the end.

You might read this or you might not, but you know who you are. It took me a long time to come to terms with who we were as people back then, and who we are now. I'm sure to this day and onwards, we'll never see eye to eye, and we'll hold resentment for each other. And that's okay. I truly hope your life has been better from the outcome, and you're striving to be the best person you can be.

But in my own anger back in the day, I went too far and probably hurt you way more than you hurt me. I was an absolutely terrible person. For that I truly apologize for all the terrible things I've done to you. It's long overdue and you deserve it.

I do miss the good times we had. I'm okay if you never forgive me for my part in things, but I forgive you. You were there through a big part of my life and you'll always hold a place in my heart, resentment or not. I'd be okay with being friends again at some point, even if it's just simple hellos.

I don't hate you anymore. It's too hard to hold that hatred.

Today marks my 5th year smoke free. Having gone from 2 packs a day to nothing. It was a helluva first week, but between the daily choking in the morning and the ridiculous price of cigarettes in the USA at the time, I was able to quit with a bit of willpower.

5 years going strong. If you're looking to quit and you don't think you can, let me tell you that you can. Never doubt yourself.

He's looking to get started with commissions, and his doodles are super cute! Check out his journal/page.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8676811/

We need a hero to prevail

https://twitter.com/TeddyTaterTots/.....524130816?s=19

Boosting for a friend. Selling customer t-shirts. Check the link

No one knows how to hold a conversation these days.

Wasabi peas~


<3

I cannot wait for this to release.

I'd give up my musical talent to be able to draw in a heartbeat.

(inb4 practice. I suffered a compound break in my dominant hand. stuff hurts.)

Father, on this day I promise to never be a friend of Rome, to treat them as a mortal enemy. This promise I make with my blood. I am the son of Carthage, and let the blood of Rome flow in the oceans of war.

And they don't stop coming.

It's my birthday! Yay!

Anyone here play? Just getting into it. Have a few friends who play, but looking for more! Hit me up with a note.

Haha, 4 years ago today, I quit smoking. Fuck me it feels great.

All it takes is determination. I used to be 2 packs of 25 a day, every day. I woke up one morning, looked at my ashtray, and said "Why the fuck am I doing this?" Dropped it right then and there, cold turkey. Just like that I was done. I remember the first day or two was pretty rough, but after that it was smooth sailing.


If I can quit, so can you! Do it for your friends, your family, but most importantly, do it for you. You're worth it.

So I don't normally do this, but...

My buddy is in a tight spot right now, and could do with some commissions. He's currently open and accepting most anything for doodles.

He's a good guy and his art is quite nice. If you'd feel so inclined, check him out, drop him a line. Throw some money at his face for dirties.

But for real though, he could use the help. The least you could do is go check him out. That doesn't cost a dime.

If you at least read this journal, thanks. But he'll thank you even more.

Things are looking great. Went through a spell of anxiety/panic attacks for a few weeks. That sucked. :(

Been a tough few months altogether, there's a move prospect in my future to London Ontario, hopefully. I'm pretty excited for that bit.

Work has been kinda interesting. Been shuffled around a bit between departments. Now settling in to an advanced resolution center for AT&T. That's kinda neat.

I know no one reads these, but it's nice to talk a bit.

Cheers!