After a few conversations and some sleepless....er, sleep overnight, I decided I'm not leaving (oh wow, how predictable right?), well, being in that shoes, it's hard to think properly about the big picture.

Not gonna make a weasyl, not leaving FA, not leaving the fandom, not leaving my friends. If you leave for weasyl, you're leaving your home site where you met all of your friends, and possibly your friends in general. Is it really worth breaking hearts for? To go to a site where it's not 100 percent perfect (course no site is perfect)? Woohoo, you get to have a personal banner for your page, way to go. But is everyone gonna see it when you move? You won't know that.

Point being, I'm not leaving, moving for me, is a bad idea. This is where I started, this is where home is, and I'm not gonna abandon home, least not yet.

Thanks to you all for what you've done for me, you all mean the world to me. I won't be going anywhere <3

I dunno it's just......everything that happened recently..with here and....at home and...family and....just everything in general is, really starting to become very confusing to me. Lots of changes, new things happening, events, and such.

Nevermind the....moving to weasyl or staying on FA B.S, that's not the point of this journal. I might.....I might just leave.....the fandom in general. It's been, on the back of my mind ever since the whole drama thing started. I mean if I left, what kind of consequences would happen? Who would I leave behind? Who would I hurt if I did this? Would anyone miss me? Would anyone say "good riddance"?

Basically, if I left, would anyone, GIVE A SHIT?

I don't know why this is eating me up, but it is. I mean, pretty much, 80 percent of my friends currently, came from this site! This is my home! This is where, I can find my friends, streaming, gaming, whatever......and i could join them, be a part of their lives. Hell already, I might have one move in with me and be my roomate.....the fact that I'm not alone, that i can GO to someone for help, for guidance.....it's a wonderful feeling....that I never had in my life.

And now, with the drama going on that's affecting everyone....this is changing people I thought I knew.....that would leave FA, for some their....FIRST site they joined as part of a fur community....and boom....gone....away from existence. People I was so interested in seeing and meeting....gone.

I dunno, I may leave, I may not leave the fandom. I dunno.....if folks don't care or kick me off then....whatever....but I just want to say I have a second family, and so many friends....thanks to this site. I got a lot of thinking to do.....

Just in case some of you might not know, I'm still open for coloring work for sketches. Need more work on my plate, so if you want a pic colored for a few bucks, feel free to note me ^^

Remember, safe for work pics only and name your own price.

Who would do it with me if they were willing to be in front of a webcam? owo

I'm now open for coloring work. Need your sketches or lineart colored? I can do it for you, safe for work only. Commission info can be found in the commission tab on my page :3

Note me or comment here if you're interested :3

*christmas hugs for all* I love you all ^w^

So, my buddy  -lando- is going through some rough times, so i'm gonna open some coloring work to help donate for the cause. Get any sketch or lineart flat colored, name your own price. Comment here if you're interested.

here's my friend code if you want to add me :3

2681-0236-1917

Inspired by someone on twitter, I want to do "Real Life Tuesdays", where we ask each other real questions. Our lifegoals, pursuits, etc. Why? I dunno, might be interesting to do :3

So, ask away :3

So, for this thanksgiving, i'm gonna do a very big project, to help the community out a bit.

Next pay period, i'm gonna go to the grocery store, and gonna buy a few turkeys.....well...more like 8 or...9 XD, some mashed potato mixes and some canned vegetables.

Then, I'm gonna go straight to the St. Francis House (info here http://stfrancishousegnv.org/) and donate it to them. So that way the entire homeless community can have a decent thanksgiving dinner.

So why am I telling you this? (OH YOU WANT PEOPLE TO DONATE FOR THE CAUSE RIGHT!?!?! WELL NIIIIIIICE TRY!) Nah, i don't want your money, tha'ts why i'm working more to raise money for it XP

I just thought it'd be cool to tell you all what i'm gonna try to do this thanksgiving.

okay, now you can proceed back to what you were doing before x3

Buuuuuut, my bud  trinitylight did it, so i participated XD

Answer if you want to:

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?

You all made it freaking awesome. Thank you all <3

https://youtu.be/wpjmATbb0h8

Except, I'm 24 now! XD

Cause I got something AMAZING from this guy  toonyk9 right here, check this oooout!

https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u.....tsnugcomm1.jpg

How good is this?.....I love it! I like how he drew the shapes on him it's really cool ^^

And to think, this was only 15 bucks. I know right? That's a really good deal. If you want a cool pic like this, you should definitely commission this guy. I'm serious, he's absolutely awesome and fun to commission. He's got great prices, he's very organized, and can draw AWESOME inflation work.

Also, best part, no charge for extra character....yeah you heard right. You can get as many characters as you want in one pic, 1, 2, 5 whatever, and it'll still be one great price.

Here's his journal here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5168267/

Hurry Hurry Hurry! :D

you want a good story, but can't seem to write it? well, give this guy a shot http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5161294/

He's pretty good x3

Month of pumpkins, candy, cool weather, leaves, my 24th Birthday, Costumes, Halloween, my 24th birthday...okay, kinda subtle. But hey, that's why I like october. I'll be 24 on the 24th x3

https://youtu.be/OprxX6QCkWE

This song really speaks to me in a way. If you become friends with someone, anyone, never take it for granted, and never abuse it. Because if you hurt them, it hurts them more than you think. Love leaves a mark on a person, and if it's hurt, the pain is much more unbearable. Just thought i'd share it with ya XP

Um....you do know it's only for a day or two?....right? And that it'll still be up, only in read only right? I mean....people do know about that right?.......right? D:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzVWy-XkKns
Well? :D

Folks, who get mad....and call the person who made them mad out. Like, for example,

"BWAAAAAH, MY LIFE SUUUUUCKS AND EVERYONE HATES ME! BLAME  kajaart!" or something like that. That's just an example.

Basically, the point is, if you're mad at someone, and you have to vent, that's fine, BUT DON'T, CALL THE PERSON OUT LIKE THAT! That's not cool, like at all.

Don't worry, it's not a drama journal, but more of a explanation why I like hugs so much ^^

So, a few folks ask me a lot "Why I like commissioning hug pictures so much?" Some assume that it's just a fetish, but actually, it's not :P

You see, growing up I was hugged a lot from my parents. Growing up for me though any other time, from elementary school, to high school was kind of like a "Man, why not make my life more challenging why don't you >.>"

When I was in 4th grade, I had one of the worst teachers ever, name was Ms. Green. I always had a hard time learning things, since i was academically challenged. My mom told Ms. Green about my disability, but atlas, she didn't listen and always brought me down about not getting something right. And right in front of everyone to.....cool huh?....One time, whoever didn't pass a test had to stay inside the classroom while the others got the rest of the day at reccess. Course with me and Ms. Green being the same room, I didn't understood what happened, so I cried a lot. And she would point and tell me stop crying, only wimps cry.

The last straw was when I asked to go to the bathroom during a test, she let me go, I came back, and the first thing I hear was "Call your mom right now!". I didn't know what happened, until she said I was cheating on a test and I have to tell my mom what I did. I was in the freaking bathroom, why would you do that to me? So, I called my mom, she knew something was up, so she came to my school after class, talked to the principle about what happened. And the logical solution was to be home schooled the rest of the year, since i couldn't change teachers.

At that time, I felt like I did something wrong, so i cried waiting outside the office. When my mom came out, she knelt down and gave me a hug, telling me how much she loved me and how she was proud of me.

And ever since then, growing up, whenever I had to go to the hospital for surgery, seizure related issues, or having the school tell me i wouldn't graduate high school due to me not being able to pass the Standardize Testings, my mom and dad, were there, holding and hugging me, telling me that they love me and that I meant so much to them.

One night before i left for bed, I remember my dad told me "People nowaday go through so much stress, whether it's from family issues, school issues, mental issues, or so on and so on. So if you see someone alone, or scared, or crying, you hug them, comfort them, and tell them that you're worth so much".

And to this day, I still keep those words to heart. Thanks to my parents, I passed high school, graduated college, made so many friends, done so many amazing things I've never thought I would do, and better yet, proved the teachers who thought I wouldn't get far in life, that I did it. I beat them.

So yeah, hopefully that would explain a bit better on why I like hugging others so much. Because I love every single one of you, and you mean so much to me. You have no idea <3

A friend of mine  galethedrolf just got screwed over financially. He's in desperate need of help, here's the journal explaining it all. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4957410/

If you guys are interested in commissioning him, please don't hesitate to note him.

This guy, right hurr  galethedrolf, is doing commissions, and he's really good at it to. For a great price, you won't be disaapointed. Check him out.

Enough is kind of enough.

There are a few folks I commissioned out there for sketches, and it's been at least 4 months. I talked to a few of them and we got it worked out. This isn't a threat, I promise. But if it does, i promise i'll take it down upon request.

But to those i commissioned for sketches, one month, and I will have to ask for a refund. I'm sorry, but that's the way it has to be. I don't want to specifically call any artist out because it would be rude.

If you're an artist i commissioned for a sketch, please note me at least what your gameplan is or something. If you can't get it done, i have the receipt on my paypal and will be happy to show you the copy of how much you owe me.

I'm still open for coloring work and such. Only if you're interested.