Heeey everyone....!

It's been awhile.....

I have me reasons...

I like to say that I'm back though..! So come and talk to me!

I'm 24 today
and surgery went well
there done!
lol

Haha I wish I was going to talk about the song...
but..
I'm not..
instead, I'm really am going under...
that means I'll be going through surgery..
scary!
tomorrow at 10:15am
wish me luck! Or something like that.

So, on Monday I was ridding my bike and I was going down hill and at the end of hill there where 3 big guys. As I got closer I stared to ring my bell a good few times. They did not move..... I tried to use my break.....it did not work...I crashed into them...

I never broken or fractured anything before....
This pain was new to me, that my mind was going all over the place that I didn't realized how much pain I was in until I was asked to do the X-Ray.... never screamed so loud before...and hope to never do such thing again...

I broke (crushed) my radio bone = fractured elbow, so it's not too bad, i have to be moving it around there and then but it's not fun. I also hate the idea that I have to ask for help for small things.... big things, I don't mind too much.

If….

If I never went down hill, would we of ever of met?
If I never wear black, would we be in the same group?
If I never followed you, would I ever of learned?
If I never changed would I ever been accepted?

What if……..

what if I was gone, would you even notice?
what if I was to die tomorrow, you would probably be happy, and enjoy all you ever wanted, am I wrong?
what if I was in a coma, how long would you wait?
what if I had amnesia, you would probably take advantage of this, maybe escape, I wouldn’t blame you, right?

what if this was that and that was this? It’s 20/20 So I could be wrong, Or I could be right. knowing both paths is like trying to read your mind. Not easy.

So I'll be giving a tribute speech towards, on Thursday and I would like for them to read on what I'll be saying about them, a few of my guys that I am proud to off known and still keep in contact with, of the best of my abilities. With one of them it would be a lot easier if they had a cell phone, but you know all is well.
And so, here it goes.
It's meant to be only 4-5mins long, so haha this will be short.

A good way to unwind is to do something that doesn't rely much thinking. One of my favorite ways is watching a lot of anime. And I mean a lot, so much that I can end up watching a whole season in one day, unless of course it is more than 12 episodes then two days. XD

My enjoyment of anime, was introduced by a few guys that I've made during my college adventure that I am in. The adventure started when I deiced that I was going to this event called glow fest at ISU where i met someone of the most memorable people in my college adventure.

These few guys, had no clue on whom they were about to deal with, and yet, they all gave up there time to get to know me, to open my eyes on who I was ignoring the most, and that was me.

Because of that reason, from the pure hearts that they have, and for the only year that I was to have with them, they all worked with me, in bettering me, in keeping me standing when I had hard days, in understanding that I'm never alone. There was never a day where I would go to them and be let down, nor was there ever a day where I couldn't see at least one of them. These few guys where so wonderfully caring to me that even this day I am very blessed and thank-full to of meant them.

I hope that one day, we could all met again.

(miss you all)

Just a few years back I used to be at ISU (which is at Bloomington Normal, get the pun) but then, things turned a little and I had to step back. At the same time, I was trying my best to turn around, it took time, but I was able too. Only, by that time, I realized that I had to let go, and just turn around, again, and keep on going. One of the reason's why I realized that I had to let go, because, no matter how grateful I am, I now know that I only had to truly say thank-you just once, to the ones that were there for me in my first year of college. But I didn't, and if I was to go back to normal, I don't think I'd be able to stop. And therefore I'm not, I'm now at NIU starting a new era, letting go and still growing. I will tell you this, I miss you guys and I hope you guys are doing well. Hope one day in the future we'll all see each other again.
Cheers to good health, strength, and good company.

So the other day, my bank texted me, just as I was about to go to bed, saying that someone is using my card!
And I checked to see if this was true, and it was!
OhMyGosh, just knowing that this was happening, really put me into panic mood - that's all i need right now is more stress, I have finals coming up - I really couldn't sleep.
Plus the idea on how much the person used, was really pushing me over the edge.

Everything is fixed now.
Even so I am now eve more paranoid about everything related to what I do with a card.

to me, it is not at all fun having to go through this, yes it is an easy fix, but it is still a ridiculous thing to happen.

I so hope that I don't have to go through that again.

This video has left me speechless.
Weeeellll ok, I was able to say wow out of this, but that's it - that's how speechless I am, that I can't say more, when I have a lot to say about this video... Honestly, I think I'll just leave it here and have you make your own thoughts about it. It REALLY gets you thinking there is so much more to say about this video.
It left me with goosebumps, just for watching this video.
YOU should REALLY watch this.

http://www.upworthy.com/i-never-tho.....-was-wrong?g=2

So I had to do research on the coca-cola ad for the 2014 Superbowl - picked this ad because I really thought that this was pretty well done - and when I did I just couldn't believe that there was so much hate about this ad, I mean seriously! The national anthem wasn't written by an american, it was written by John Stafford Smith, a British composer, and we find that perfectly ok. Then, Just so you know the poem, America the beautiful was written by a lesbian, Katharine Lee Bates, so why can't this song be sang in different languages by the people who live in America ?


~aren't we the land of the free?

Need a pick me up? This is the Pep talk for you
~watch it, it's awesome and adorable, plus it'll change your mood. :)

Lol I know chessy and it's coming from Taylor Swfit, but lol I cannot think of anything better, other then saying it's my birthday!

Anyways it is MY BIRTHDAY and haha ya I'm 22
Soooooo yay me!

In 7 days, the 3rd of Oct. (10) I (1 me) will no longer be 21! 0.o
It's kind of crazy because it doesn' feel like it's been a year! Haha omg!

Anywho,i'll be 22 in 7 days! woot!

So today, after class, I went to the lounge because I was very tired and wanted to desperately sleep. The only problem was that an event outside the lounge was going on and they were very loud, so it was a little hard to nap, but eventually I was able to at least rest with the ability to tone out most of the noise.

I was doing just fine, until I smelled food, and one must understand that if there is food in the lounge there is a good meal and a free meal for food is not free. :/ Anyways, I opened my eyes to see if there was a line, and there was, so I closed my eyes to rest a little more and to wait.

Once I rested a little more and there was only three people long, I slowly got up and went to get my free hot dog, haha yay! Me got to eat! I got my hot dog, chips and drink, went back to my little area, and enjoyed the food, the only little thing was, that thw hot dog was a warm dog, but not much to complain there cause it was free!

Anyways, after having my lunch, I tired going back to sleep, as I still needed it, but I was cold as ever, so that didn help as much, and so I noticed one of my friends, that is a personal heater so, again I slowly got up and walk to him and kind of just flop myself on him and took his warmth, this is when the crazy kicked in.

Because I was so tired and I shit from home coming to into my head, i started to be sad, but then one of my other friends where like are you ok? And i was like yes I am, why? because my happyness is fading, and I was like don feel bad! ~hugs him~ Then I went back to my other friend.

From there, is when I lost it! OH boy did I really lose it! I went from being super tired to grinning to falling to floor from laughter to being on the floor because I can't stop laughing, like my friends where asking what's so funny?!

when nothing was, and if there was I couldn't explain because it was all about anything with me, and then I realized it was all about anything about me because I was crying at the same time which made it even funnier cause like the idea of releasing so much emotions at one go, just became very funny to me, it was great.

Yet, I ended up laughing so hard and crying (but not as hard as I was laughing) and the fact that I was tired. Oh still very cold. My body started to not function right and I was just being coo coo at the time, that my body wanted to do one thing after the other, sleep, laugh, cry, talk, keep myself warm, anything that I was feeling.

That some of friends kept on asking if I was ok, on which I kept on saying I was even though they didn believe me at the time, and then Just when I was just about feel better, I collapsed on my friend for a good few min, so I think, and then I woke up feeling a little dizzy, had some of my friends drink, and slowly I started to feel all better again.

Afterwords, I felt amazing, like everything single part of me did, till this day, I have yet have felt so good in my life before, even thought I went a little crazy, and I had my friends wondering if I was ok, I'd do it all over again, as I never felt so good before.

What a day.

So this morning, I was washing dishes! Yay! I'm such a good daughter! lol
I was doing so, because we are trying to sell the house and we were going to have a showing today - so we had to clean up - and i was like i'll wash the dishes! And I did, all was going well until i got to a glass cup!
As soon as i stared to wash the cup, BAM! part of it breaks!
And then the blood starts coming out! Yup the cup got me a deep cut!
= 4 stitches, my mom fainting, OH and becoming a righty for about 14 days Woooo

And that's my story!

If you need a laugh, or just wana laugh - these diary's by dogs are cute but laughable

So i thought this was an interesting perspective, and that this video should be shown to many.

All should very watch.

please and thank-you.

I have learned to share, so i am telling everyone - even if you weren't part of it... I'm also telling everyone, because it is truly amazing on what it takes to come in, start over, and to trade in the old for the new and to keep on making it new. Here are my "short stories" to give a better understanding on what i mean and what all of this is about.

Aug 18th 2011, sometime in the morning: My first time stepping foot into college - Illinois State Unv, with barely a health heart to start out with. Meaning all i cared about was the freedom of being away from my parents.
I moved in and was happy as free bird, but depressed as a lonely stray.

The glow fest and after: I went there on my own, out of boredom. But who would of guessed that I would end up meeting two out six - i meet them later - coolest people in the world! Only, during that time, i never thought they would even end up being my friends - or even more to speak of - in all honesty, as of now, i cannot but think that i am the luckest girl in the world. But before i could say that, back then, after ending the year, i couldn't help, but to think that i did not deserve them at all, because i was selfish to one of them - making him fall in love with me by making him worry about me because of my selfless thoughts to the end of my heart and mind. I always seemed demanding to one of them as i rant about life, every time i was upset. I used the oh im sorry look, if i mad them mad or something, just to get away with it. I made another feel bad so I wouldn't go back to dorm alone at night. Then not to mention, because of therapy sharing on how i felt became a habit - sometimes i wish i didn't as i have never spread a tear in my life until then - and made me thing that all i was doing was bothering them. So why in the world did they even bother to stick around, i asked myself, sometimes.

The show and the end: In like around Oct i joined circus. In April circus put on one of the best shows that i always remember, perhaps it is because i really enjoy life of the backstage, boy was i very sad when it was all over. I got even more sad when school ended, because I was finally understanding why I had six most amazing guys on my side, never quitting, teaching me on how to go be beyond what i see and to find my way one my own. To that reason, my other learnings - education - was to late to be learned and I had move on to another place.

The other place: Year two comes along, now at College of Dupage. Before I entered, I thanked all of them with my heart and appreciated everything to have done for me, i still do - i cannot tell anyone about them without giving out a few tears - and i always will. I also apologized, and as i did, i learned that my actions where not horrible, as for every action there was a reaction, and that was more learning experience to add in there lives, and where not mad on the things that i did.I was surprised. Confused - at first - also. Nonetheless, my steps to COD - the start of year 2 - where noticeable right away, and i met some more people - much more, only, for the most part, as acquaintance - i was amazed. There is when i realized that, the six guys who helped me, i was never alone, even if we where apart, as they where in me and that's when i was able to see that i wanted to change for the better and to fine who i am and be that person, to start it all was by using the greatest experiences i had with all of them. This is because the one who i made worry the most told me that not only can i learn from the stories he would tell me but from my experiences, my stories that i tell others, as well, and i have been keeping that in mind - and a lot my lessons - ever sense.

End of this years finals: Tuesday, May 7th, took my last final at 2pm. From someone who thought about ending , to someone who knows how to smile, of the truth - no mask - and gliches there and then - going back to being depressed... - and for someone who loves her for being her, no tricks this time around, as she (I) still learn my ways of who i am and what i can pick up in education. I have no dubt in my mind to understand how lucky i am to know people, such as these guys, in my life. Not to mention that he is helping to build more of me with education. Which brings it back to having the greatest feeling to be the luckest girl in the world. That i hope they read this, to know how much each one of them means to me. I wish i could see them, to show that i have grown and to let them know that im still growing into being someone so much more.

I miss all of you!

So we watched this at class, and i fine it funny yet true at the same time, in the end i wanted to share this to everyone as well.

Enjoy

Last night i went to this small cute zoo, the Cosley Zoo, at night to see the wonderful lights, which you'll have the chance too see in a few minutes.
Anyways we got there it said adults: 18-56 $3 kids: 0-17 free; ZERO-SEVENTEEN! free! OhMyGOsh did I have one of the biggest smiles on my faces. Never would think to come across a place where it's NOT kid 0-12 0r 0-4 or something from 0 between 12, in my life. It's a winter miracle! To see that see that somewhere in this world acknowledge the idea we are still kids, at least in heart. Not to mention that it was exciting to know that i didn't have to pay $3! Don't get me wrong it's not a bad price, but the idea to go from 21 to 17 again was pretty exciting i could not past this fun opportunity. It was so much fun. The lights where beautiful, there where still some animals out, well inside but we got to see them and pet some of them! Oh man was I spinning for joy this whole inter time we where there. That I was filled with so much, i was not cold! For the first time ever I was not cold! And i am always cold, like you have no idea on how cold i could get! Just not this time around, this time i was actually warm. I was only cold, when it was time to leave, because it was a little sad to go. I am so going back in the spring where it's warmer and more animals are out! Which will equal more fun pictures.
Man, what wonderful exciting last nights of 2012!
For those that live around Wheaton, IL, if you haven't already, you should definitely go!

more imfo: http://www.cosleyzoo.org/

In the coming end of my high school days a hypnotist came to our school: my thoughts I don't wana be picked it won't work on me.
Today a hypnotist came to my college today, and i was picked!
Haha OMGOSH! finally! <--- finally? she says? didn't she say she didn't want to be picked?! ( May it be true, but after everything and going to a few more of these - things change )
After all the times i went and saw one, I finally got my butt up there!
And so....
I knew it!
I wouldn't last long!
I snapped out of it, pretty dam fast, but did that stop me from faking everything else?!
HELL NO!
I faked the rest of the stuff making a fool of myself, only i didn't care! I think it's because I had my eyes closed. I had a lot of fun!
In the end - one of my friends believed i was out like a broken lamp the whole time!
and
Another knew i was faking it, most of the time!
i find it kind of funny that I can act so well when I have my eyes closed, and for the fact I didn't care one bit what I did in front of people - without a doubt, twas an amazing feeling! ( I wish I was more like this with my eyes open! The time will come )

Took this from  doctor_fox
1. Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA profile page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you a color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Ask you a question.
5. Tell you something I like about you.
6. Give you a nickname. (WARNING: NICKNAME MAY BE "HEARTY SMARTY SMOOCHY-WOOCHY BABY-WABY!" COMMENT AT YOUR OWN RISK.)
7. Tell you the object that is to the left of me.
8. Dare you to do this in your own journal

So this weekend I went to Normal, IL - ISU as a birthday gift from one of my good friends. Like no joke, he even paid for my trip.
Anyways
I have to say, I was more then excited then I originally was as i was waiting for this weekend to have family of come!
It was so great to be back to normal.
I can not tell you on how lucky i am to have people who care about me and whom are by far the greatest people I ever meet in my entire life. I'm not even over exaggerating, as to at least how i feel.
Seeing that people such as  doctor_fox and  link4 have made a great inpack on me in under a year ( a whole school year) I am indeed lucky to have the chance too see them again, even if it was just for a little while, Just seeing them again really meant a lot to me.
That this was truly the best birthday gift I could of ever asked for!
I had a very great and exciting time.
Than-you guys so much on helping me create such a memorable 21st birthday.
I'll never forget.

~Kala~

Ps. Miss you guys already!

So, i Just had my first Daiquiri!
AND
I
Still
Feel
Fine!
:)

Yay for finally able celebrate age with a drink! LOL Xp

oh what a happy birthday I had

and thank-you  WolfKendo for the crazy gift!

Did I get your attention?
Fantastic!
As it is true in seven days my twenty year old self, well die... but for the good! As life will move on to my 21st!
Haha omg it's kind of crazy, that my birthday is coming up very fast!
Yet, i am very excited for a very different reason!
As crazy as this sounds, ima let you all know.
Soooo my birthday is on the 3rd of Oct, which means i never really got to celebrate my golden birthday! TT_TT I know it's not a "big deal" but it's a very BIG DEAL for me! Xp and so it's like i want to celebrate! but when? then i said to myself hello! dog years! which means I'm 3 once more!
And so i maybe turning 21 and now able to drink and all, but in heart and soul i am going to be turning 3, so no alcohol - i know crazy! right me not drinking on my 21st? gez
I for one don't really care, it's all. Having a binky..... is all i need to be overally happy and "drunk"
Oh man, i can't wait!