Sorry to be asking for assistance again, but I need help pretty bad.

I've got bills piling up, and I can't keep up with it.

If you or anyone else can help me out, I'd be most appreciative.

I am still working on my disability and have my interview in October, I need help until things get finalized.

Love you all,

Kampfer

I posted art! Isn’t that crazy?!

I’m trying to get back into clearing commissions and I wont lie, my trello is completely inaccurate with a lot of stuff now. I need help.

Please, if I owe you anything, I want to get it to you. Please PLEASE note me and we can get things reorganized.

Id really appreciate it if everyone works with me here, I’m doing my best to catch things up.

Hey everyone.

I am still working diligently on getting the disability stuff figured out, hopefully this is the last time we have to submit anything. It has been a process I was hoping to never experience but once it's done, I will hopefully be ok.

Until then, I am still raising funds to combat bills and expenses, and I could really use everyone's support. I know I have been asking for a long, long time, and I am sorry. I wanted this to all be figured out by now, but with the current goings on in the government, it has been far more difficult than it should be.

Currently, I am in need of $340 to cover bills that hit, and I am still looking to get as much help as possible with the GoFundMe.

Thank you all for reading, I hope this weekend treats you well.

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I am going to do everything I can to try to spread this around and get things taken care of. I don't have many options past this. I can't keep going with the voices telling me to stop. I need reprieve and I need hope.

Please spread this around if you can.

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It's weird I'm at that point where someone has to remind me it's my birthday. I'm completely lost on time.

Thank you for being you.

For those who were awake to night's ago and saw me breaking down, I want to apologize for the worry.

I do need to admit though, I took a handful of benadryl in an attempt to not wake up the next morning. It was well into a normally lethal amount.

However, due to tolerances built by all my meds, it failed to work.

Obviously people are going to be happy it didn't work, and with a more clear head now I am too, but I want to emphasize that, like many times in the past, I did technically successful do what I needed to to end it, but factors beyond my control didn't allow for it.

Knowing I did it hurts.

I've had attempts in the passed that were unsuccessful sure, but the times I've done my part to make it happen and for it to still fall through, those haunt me. Especially because I have continued try and have my completed attempts fall short.

With every job opportunity falling through due to my type of disability, with all sources of income (plasma donation included) being shot down due to the possibility of siezures, and now the bills passing to take away life saving medicine, I don't know what else to do.

I've at least had Healthcare through all this and with the absence of that being possible, I won't have any of the stuff I need to even mildly get by. I won't be here once the medications run out, that's for certain.

I'm scared out of my mind and it's only going to get worse from here.

Asking for help has always made me feel horrible, and contributes to this stress. With it being the only option for survival, it's all I can do. And with medical going away and needing to pay out of pocket for every single thing, it won't be viable anymore.

I'm being as transparent as possible because I've been trained to now by my therapist. If this reaches people that can help, if it helps people understand my wellbeing, or if it shows the world how bad things can get, maybe this post will be worth it.

If you wish to donate to my wellbeing and help me last as long as possible, or until things change in the government or my disability hopefully goes through, I'd be beyond grateful.

Thank you.

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So, I won't lie I was kind of hoping the YCH was going to be more popular than it was. I'm not sure if I did something wrong, if maybe it was too expensive, if maybe it's just the wrong time or what.

Was there something about this ych that missed the mark in your opinion? I'd like to know so I can maybe make a better one in the future.

I currently have no queue on these so if you'd like a quick piece of paw art from me that can double as an icon, check out this Google form!

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....orm?usp=header

How would you guys feel about a ych like the ones I used to do? The paw close up ones? I was thinking like maybe $40 a pop or something to raise money for bills

To those following my Bluesky account you'll have noticed the posting of art as we've begun to kick back into gear. I haven't posted it all here yet but I will soon, likely after the next piece is finished.

In the mean time, I'm looking to get a job in security, I have an interview on the 20th. I'm not sure if it will be accommoding to my medical needs but we are going to give it a try. It's probably the closest thing I can get to a job I can do that fits my limitations. If it works out then hopefully everything moving forward will be sorted.

Until that time comes however, I still need help. A LOT of help. I have bills that are very late, though I've had some very kind people help me out as much as they can. I could really use any financial assistance anyone is willing to offer while I get everything else on track.

I also would like to open for more sketches once this batch is complete.

If you are able to, I'd really appreciate spreading the word.

Thank you all so much for the patience and love. I hope this year will be much more frequent with art.


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Many bills have landed, along with many more to come. I need a massive amount of help and the new administration makes the disability hope look very bleak. I'm going g to still keep working on art again but it takes time, and recent events at home have caused some issues.

Please help me out if you can, I could use any level of help anyone is comfortably with. Please do not overextended and remain safe yourself, only help with what you can do safely.

Thank you all so much. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know.

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You're cool

I hope you're having a good week

Please check in on your friends and make sure you're taking breaks and drink king water

Shits hard rn

Have a good night ok?

I want to say first of all happy new year. It's going to be a long 4 years I'm sure, but I'm hoping this will be the true final year in fighting for disability. Until then I'll still need by help, reluctantly.

Right now, I need help finishing off what's owed for my car tab renewal, as well as an overdraft for chase that landed because they wanted to do that at 9pm on a Wednesday. Together I need a total of $300, and I need any help I can get.

Thank you all so much, I have some art I'll be posting here in the next days, probably tomorrow.

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everyone You've no doubt awoken to the dumbest news you could have. The most disheartening feeling that the entire country is against you. The fear that your life is about to turn upside down because some people can't vote for a women, can't vote for lgbtq rights, can't accept abortion, and would throw us all away for the promise of cheaper eggs.

I'm sorry you woke up to such a horrible thing.

It's not over.

We are here. We are always going to be here.

They've thrown worse at us, and we are going to keep our arms locked and take everything they throw at us. They can try to break us all they want but they will fail.

Everyone who voted for this will learn quickly that they are about to be betrayed. Do not give them sympathy. Teach them not to be so blind, and give them the education they never got to see through the obvious lies.

We will have 4 years to defend ourselves, as we always have, and just as many to spread the information about what people never wanted to hear. We can continue to lift each other up. We can continue to fight.

Do not give up. Take a few days to grieve, do not give in to despair. Focus that anger and sadness and everything else into your armor.

It's time to fight once more.

It is with regret that I have to once again say I've been once again been denied, even with having a legal team.

I have no idea why. I have had two friends make their way through and win their cases in their first and second times. My lawyer is saying to obviously appeal and do this again, which is my only option.

I'm... So tired.

I got the news two days ago. I've been nothing short of completely without will to continue. This is all I can hope for anymore and they are ensuring I will not make it. They know my situation, they are aware I'm suicidal and have horrible mental issues. My only assumption is they want me to give in to the dark thoughts so they don't need to do the paperwork.

I'm now forced to continue to ask for help, something I've fucking hated and continue to hate, and makes me feel worse every time. Another 6-12 months of this hell.

I'm so sorry, to everyone. This isn't where I want to be. I wanted things to be over. I'm exhausted, I'm tired of hope. I just want to stop waking up. This isn't worth it.

So, I'm going to be real.

I had some life changing news a few days ago. I'm trying to come to terms with it.

I am 2 days from my call with Social Security, and I am already beyond nervous. My mental state over the past year has been degrading rapidly, more than I thought I suppose. With everything else I usually post on here I always feel really bad posting bad news and I just want life to normalize and I want to go back to having a life. Well...

As my court hearing approached for the disability stuff, I wanted to have another talk with both my therapist and psychiatrist. I had recently gone to Furry Migration, and was having a very hard time discerning this reality from one I've lived before. While derealization is not new to me, the frequency has been increasing immensely, and while it used to nearly always involve my father, it now is just... happening. a few days after the con, I forgot all of it, a week and a half in fact. Having small sections of memory loss isn't new either as depression and PTSD have a habit of causing these issues, but massive amounts of times are also becoming more frequent. Then the new dreams started to come.

I've always had PTSD related nightmares, they cause non-epileptic seizures and I wake up with massive pain in my body. I was put on medication to forget dreams, but it doesn't stop the actual physical aftermath. Sometimes the medication isn't enough.

I've had dreams with multiple dreams within dreams before, but the ones I started having made me miss the PTSD. I do not say that lightly. I would rather re-experience my dad's sexual abuse than these horrors. The reason is because it never felt like I could escape. Every time I woke up, I didn't and it would happen somehow again. It was always inevitable no matter how hard I tried, no matter what I'd do to prevent everything. I do not know why these nightmares contain geometric shapes, but there was always this symbol that, the moment I'd see it, I could never look away. It would demand my attention so fiercely that it felt like my head was under a hydraulic press with the sound of a flashbang. I'd beg for it to kill me until I'd "wake up" hoping that I'd have woken, up, and make sure to remember certain signs, then eventually, it would happen again.

I have not once felt like I have been awake since then. I do not know if I am awake now. I feel like I could see the shapes and the symbol any moment, and everything that has happened in the past few days would have been another "dream" within this one. All I get to do is assume what I'm seeing is real for now and pretend to be ok.

I've officially been declared to have full on psychosis, officially leading to Schizophrenia and Dementia, at the age of 34. All the mental damages from the past has caused so much damage that it sped up the process that my mom's side of the family has been prone to.

And it made me realize that after all the work I've done to fight against the damages my dad made, and try to have a better life, and just even try to reclaim some of my mental state, it was all going to be slapped down by genetics coming in the open door that was left open by everything else.

It was all pointless. All the effort, all the time, was just wasted. I'm going to now very likely be able to get on disability one way or another due to this, but with the cost of knowing I don't get to spend the rest of my life just being able to relax after everything I've been through. It will instead be spend wondering what I did in some other life or other universe to deserve anything like this.

I know stuff like this isn't really something that is targeted to people, I wasn't specifically born to my dad to suffer, I wasn't born to suffer, this is all just incredibly unfortunate. But it's hard to be here and not feel cheated to see your dreams stolen, your hopes broken, and your future on a timer, because a man's abuse decided to start and speed up the genetic timer, just giving me one last "fuck you".

I keep trying to figure out a way to come to terms with it. Joking about it, seeing it as just a shortened timer and getting things done quicker, treat it like normal life anyway, all that. And I know neither of those things are the end of the world, both have had medical advancements to both slow and sometimes turn back the clock on them. It's less about that and more about how all of the work I've been doing was effectively completely shut down, despite the fact that I was having a hard enough time putting any hope into any of it to begin with, when I was so close to this disability finish line with this hopefully good news I cant really just celebrate now.

My goal right now is to, I guess, continue to work on mental health, with another goal of meds changing. I'm gunna invest time in doing mental training to help maybe get memory improved. I've been told exercise is good for Schizophrenia and Dementia, so I guess I'll try to take that on too. Like with my hand, I'm going to try to keep things going, cause it's all I CAN do.

Right now though?

I'm... I don't know.

I'm physically exhausted, I cant even begin to interoperate what my mental state is. Somber maybe? I don't know.

All I know is, if I forget you all sometime soon, I want you all to know, I love you very much, I'm sorry for putting you all through stuff. I'm sorry I couldn't give more art, I'm sorry I've been slow. I still want to try and finish commissions when I can, or maybe refund people when I get disability. I know none of this is really life ending per say, but for me it feels like the last of my hope got torn away, and my future and soul were shattered.

I'll keep everyone updated on Twitter and Bluesky first. Longer stuff here.

Thank you for reading.

I'm roughly two weeks our from my court hearing for disability, and I'm hoping for the best thisbtime since I have legal rep. I still need a TON of help before then, as I have car payments and insurance and stuff to pay for.

Not only that, but having recently got sick caused me to need to buy some covid tests and some special things to easy my coughing so it wouldn't be really bad. I have an EBT card now, but it's not enough for an entire month, and it's not helping that due to the labor day weekend hitting the same day as the refill, it pushed the refill an entire week back.

All together for the month, I'm needing $1620 with everything covered. If the court turns around quickly and accepts my disability, they will also have a ton of back pay for me to get, so if this is all done right then, I shouldn't really ever need to ask for assistance ever unless something really fucking dire occurs.

So, that's where I am, the final stretch. I need everyone and anyone's help.

If you have spare funds, if you can help me get this last bit, I'd be absolutely over the moon greatful.

Thank you all so, so much for your support and love and patience. I can't wait for this chapter of my life to be over so I can work on my mental health fully, and maybe be able to come out a winner with my stylus in hand.

Love you all, thank you 💜💙 ‎
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I'm still in need of help for bills for the month, and I've done everything I can from raising what I can around asking for help.

My car insurance just hit, and I have a few more things landing tomorrow. I CANNOT lose my insurance because I have so many appointments for my mental health. I'm also just about 4 weeks from my court hearing with my lawyers.

In total I need an immediate $400 to cover my insurance, medical stuff, gas, and food that my ebt couldn't cover, and will need about $200 more by the end of the month.

Please help out if you can.

I'd really really appreciate it.

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So some chud edge lord hacked FA just to accidently dox himself when he got slapped with a 300k bill for the site and his favorite site Kiwifarms disowned him for his bullshit too. He also got his ceype scam to tank.

He doxxed himself, got hit with a 300k bill, failed his crypto, is hated by his favorite site, and is easily tracked by the FBI.

That's what you missed

Go post your wonderful work and it's good to see you again 💜💙

Hey everyone.

With my disability hearing about 6 weeks out now, I need help just a little longer. I need to take care of roughly $1400 per month in bills. So far, a little under half has been taken care of thanks to some wonderful help.

I do however still direly need help with about $750 more, to cover food, insurance and rent.

If anyone at all is able to help out, even in small amounts, I'd really appreciate it.

Thank you all so much.

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Neer you'll never get to see this but...

Man you gave us all a home... You did so much for us all. You got so much shit thrown at you all the time by the biggest piles of shit and you kept giving us a place to be.

You gave me a home.

You made me feel safe here.

You became MY friend.

You came to me and talked to me and I never thought I'd be someone that would mean anything to someone that created this place. You made me feel so special.

And all you got all the time was people shitting on you and harassing you and dog piling you. You'd get slammed with bills and tragedies and you'd never stop giving us a place to call home.

Neer... I'm never gunna forget you man... I wish you could hear me or read this but I know you can't and I want to scream it so you can... But I know it won't matter so I'm not even sure why I'm doing this but I just want you to know how much you meant to me and everyone else...

I love you so much dude I don't want you to go but at least I know all of your pain will be gone I hope that's at least something. You deserve so much rest after everything...

If there is a God please take care of him...

Rest well Neer I love you so much man.

I don't usually post this kind of stuff here but I just want to throw this here.

Living in Minnesota now for 5 years, I've been able to see the type of work Tim Walz wants for the world. The man is nothing short of special, there's a reason he's hated so much by the far right. He's by far the most human person you'll ever see at a presidential speech.

The man backs everything with his heart and soul, and has done amazing things for us all here. Healthcare, childcare, codifying abortion, making this state a haven for LGBTQA+ people and more. We are also about to have his back up move in to take his place, Peggy Flanagan, who is arguably more violently pro trans than Walz.

You are all about to see a fucking show in November and Walz is about to be everyone's favorite uncle.

I can't wait for you all to see.

For the first time in a long time, you can be optimistic for the future here.

I'm 34 today.

I've been doing a lot since my dad died to try and reclaim my life and try to celebrate. It's hard to do as a survivor of things like this, I get that. Maybe I shouldn't be trying to push this along so quickly but I just want my life back. My anxiety had been riding so high until today.

This morning I was reminded that I'm always going to be chained to someone who shouldn't be able to have a hold on me anymore, leashed to someone through the mortal coil. Now I'm branded by him, the same way he would justify his abuse.

"Sin"

I was a sin. Unwanted, unloved, only causing pain, trouble, and destroying the family. Now it's carved i to my arm. And I just got to sit there and watch it happen. I don't even know what or where he got objects to cut from, but it didn't feel like me doing it. It just felt like I was watching it happen.

Now I have this. I've already been suggested by close friends to let it heal then get a tattoo. Part of me wants it continued to be "Sinful" so it can be mine, another way to spite him and make it my own.

All I know, is it's been a long day. My arm hurts. And I just wanted this to be a good birthday. He took another from me.

I'll try again at 35 I guess.

I wanted to say something special before going to bed. As of today, thanks to all of you and your kindness, my credit card debt is no longer here to burden me. Through the use of National Debt Relief lowering the payback costs immensely and everyone's support, it's done.

While I do have other debts, like a car and smaller personal loans that cover groceries and stuff. My credit card debts are officially gone.

I cannot thank you all enough for that. You are all such wonderful people.

I just wanted to take this moment to thank you.

I still have payments to make until disability, like car payments, rent, those personal loans, and food and insurance, but with one thing down, the others are more attainable.

If you're willing to help me get to a better place, please consider helping me out.

I'm almost there.

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