All I can say is I passed and I will graduate.

I just feel so blue.
TTLY
Love all you guys.

Is it just me?
If my parents blocked it, that'll suck.
SECONDLY, if it the dA system is down then well... that SUCKS

Stolen from  FennecFur

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Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Furaffinity Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6

Level 5
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone Through Internet
(X) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 8

Level 6
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 12

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 16

Level 8
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 19

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 24

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 28

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 28

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 32

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 33

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 38

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 40

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 42

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 43

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge (a small one, like an 8 foot drop xD)
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 43

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 44

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 48

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
( ) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 49

Level 24
(x) Believe(d) In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail
SO FAR: 50

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 51

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 52

Level 27
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 54

Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 58

Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
( ) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 61

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas (Just the other day I got $2.63 because my money didn't transfer in time when I went to the gas station xD
TOTAL: 61

Yay, let's do that.... never again XD

Stolen from  FennecFur


What color are your underwear/panties?
Cyan

Do they have a design?
White kittens (don't laugh please)

Girls, what color is your bra?
Cherry Blossom Pink

Is there a design?
Just cute lace on it.

what color are your socks?
Neon pink, green, yellow, blue striped... I love my neon socks! <3

Is there a design on them?
Stripey neon duh

Are you a virgin?
110%

Happy that way?
For sure.

What is your favorite sex position?
I don't know, nor do I want to know.

What is your sexuality/sexual orientation/What the fuck do you consider yourself?
fairly straight.

Do you look at hentai?
Huh? Oh, like anime porno?? Nah, not my thing.

Real porn?
Nope, I don't want to.

Do you read smutty/porn stories?
Only if they are from my ex-Ian who PLEADS me to read them... they are all about shaving nude girls bald... it's creepy

Do you read/watch/look at gay porn/hentai/stories?
I don't.... look, this is just going in circles.

Who was your first kiss with?
Nick...  joshdexter45 He is awesome.

Are they of the opposite sex?
Yeah, especially when Nicholas is a male. XD

Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
No. Not intending to.

Is there any one of your friends that you would ever consider having sex with?
If I said Nick, I'd mean like once we get married.

What would you do if you walked in on your partner having sex?
I'd be like "OH GOD PUT ON CLOTHES!" and then say "YOU BETRAYED ME NICK! How... how could you?" and run out of the room crying.

Do you have any piercings other than your ears?
No, I'm afraid of sharp things going into my flesh

If so, where?
^

Do you have any tattoos?
Nope

If so, where?
^

Have you ever been pregnant/got a girl pregnant?
I have never been el-prego, I go to a Catholic school, and my parents would kick me out if I got that way, so yeah... also, don't wanna be a teen mom.

Ever done any illegal drugs?
sorta

If so, which ones?
American Mountain Dew in Canada (here it's too dangerously full of caffiene to be permitted)

Have you ever cheated on someone?
I had feelings for another man while I loved my ex, Ian

Ever been cheated on?
Yeah..

Have you ever been called a whore/slut?
Only in a play.

Do you own any sex toys?
No, just action figures, plushies, MLP dolls, you know, kid toys.

Have you ever had a sexual fantasy involving a relative?
Ew ew ew ew, Not happening.

Have you ever masturbated?
Nope.

Have you ever taken a naked picture of yourself?
No.

Have you ever taken a naked picture of someone else?
Not ever going to

Are you on any form of birth control(the pill, the patch, etc)?
I reeeally wish I was.

Have you ever written/drawn smut/porn?
Just once an "oversized" furry with size 77Z boobs.... it was slightly smut since she was wearing some clothes

Do you swear in front of your parents?
No, I have to use the words: turd, fudged, crap, dang it.

Do they care?
Yeah, they'll punish me.

Are you uncomfortable yet?
YES! GET ME OUT OF HERE

Are you taking this quiz of your own free will?
Yeah, but I thought it'd be less awkward.



STEAL IT! REALLY!

my right ankle is injured.
Some idiot spilt blue Jello on the stairs, I slipped on it and hurt myself.
I wish my boyfriend  joshdexter45 was there, he woulda kissed me... and made me happier.
He's at school for the night, something called ThinkFast, I don't want to starve for 25 hours.
Unless I could wear my furry ears and tail during it... but school policy says no costumes on no costume days.
Oh well,
I hope it heals up, I NEED to get a tail to  fennecfur and I do want to go out of the house, so yeah.

Hope your days don't suck.

I don't know,
I just feel depressed, I think it's hard to live, I know committing suicide would cause more harm than good, but, it feels like you are emotionally empty sometimes.
I'm glad I have furry ears, paws, and a furry tail to wear, it really helps, it just cheers me up.
I just wish I my dad wasn't so stigmatic and wouldn't be mean if I said, "Help me, Im depressed, I want to hurt myself or even commit suicide" He'd threaten me by saying I'm going to be sent to the crazy hospital, and that I'll be grounded for being depressed.
I have to wait until I'm 18 before I can go to a psychologist to help me get rid of my depression.
Until then, wish me luck, it'll be a hard rest of the year.
Thanks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mfI.....eature=related
It's awesome...
"I'm fine... In base 4"

Hey, I've been off of here for I guess a year now.
I have been on Deviant Art, still fairly emotionally unstable, no fursuit yet.
I NEED to do that... get a fursuit or even just the head.


Hope you are glad I'm back.
-Kandy out!

Sorry.. I'm not doing the fursona pillows after all...
I can't do all the work, I'm behind in school... I'm sorry.

I have been off of F A for a while, I'm glad I came back while the MLPFiM them is still around sort of.

I didn't commit suicide, I was busy, and I have had my internet not work so, yeah.
Don't worry. I'm not dead

 fennecfur helped me see why suicide would be awful, and well, she's right.
If you know someone who is suicidal, be a sympathetic listener, offer them help.
If you are thinking about suicide, think about the people who do care, and what will happen to your friends if you die, and don't say "I don't have friends", if you die, all your stuff is taken by the government and sold off, burned or sent to value village.

So yeah, some reasons to NOT die, and it ruins others' lives.
If you can't live for yourself, live for those who love you.
Help others by getting help.


sorry about the half rant, I just need to let people know about serious things.



So back to me, I'm feeling better, I am finishing some stuff, I might get more furry supplies soon and make more furry stuff.

Because everyone (but my FA, dA and real firneds) is making me feel retarded, neglected, alone, and depressed.
I wanna die.
No one stop me if I do, if I don't reply within a week, I'm dead.

12 year olds get in less trouble than I do just for me being me.

Suicide is looking really good right now. It might get better... or worse.

I have 6 slots for fursona pillows,


example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6362946
1  xXRadioactiveXx
2  xXRadioactiveXx`s friend
3  PaperDragon300
4
5
6



Hurry, they're free, so, they'll go, you'll need to give me a picture/refrence sheet of your fursona so I know what to make.

Thank you, let me know if you want one

put a bottle of beer in the freezer for 3 hours.
when you take it out, tap it hard enough, but don't break it, and the beer will turn into a beer-cicle!


THIS IS TRUE!
I just saw it on Mythbusters!


Tell anyone, pass it on, show it as a party trick!


THIS IS AN AWESOME THING TO DO!

Lauren is doing fat bunny fursonas for free for fat bunny week!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2583290/


This is awesome, isn't it?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2564757/

She is in dire need of money, so please commission her or at least spread the word!


Her art is quite good and she is in a tight spot.
PLEASE spread the word if you can't give.


What if it was one of your friends? Would you help them? In the end it WILL make a difference

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stolen from  fennecfur

Have you ever really thought about all the things you've done in fursuit? Here's a list of questions to help you figure out just how much fursuiting you've engaged in ;3

No rules (apart from having fursuited at one point or another), just answer the questions any way you'd like!


Posed in front of a mirror?
- ALOT!

Been shopping/to a supermarket/store in fursuit?
- I dreamed of it in WalMart.

Been group suiting?
- Alas, no.

Ever put on your fursuit for no reason and worn it for an extended period of time?
- When my parents were out and I danced and did random stuff.

Have you walked around your hometown in fursuit?
- Not very far, but yes.

Fursuited in a different state?
- No, sounds like fun.

In a different country?
- Nope, parents would be mad if they found my fursuit in my luggage, even if they found my fursuit.

Fursuited at a con? If so, how many times?
- None... but I will one day

Drank in fursuit?
- Milk..

Eaten something?
- Candy no doubt about it.

Put on someone else's fursuit?
- No.

Ruined the magic in public?
- Yes, when I took it off since people looked at me like I was a freak.

Gone to a furmeet in suit?
- I'd love too, but you know, my parents wouldn't approve

Been in a moving car while in suit?
- No.

Been glomped while in suit?
- No, I would like to.

Glomped someone while in suit?
- Only people I know.

Made a child smile?
- Try a whole Kindergarten class!

Danced?
- Yes.

Been in a fursuit dance competition?
- Nope. I wouldn't want to look like a fool

Done something that attracted a large group of people while in suit?
- Walked in a parking lot across from the Kindergarten class who called out, "It's an animal" and "Here kitty!" (but I'm a raccoon)

Experienced a hater?
- My friend Nick HATED furries but I convinced him to become one.

Longest time in fursuit? (what counts as being in suit is up to you)
- .Half n hour with paws, ears and the tail (my fursuit so far) It was FUUUUUNNNNN

And finally...
Most memorable moment in fursuit?
- Looking in the mirror at it and feeling proud, but more likely the thing with the kindergarteners, the teacher found me later and told me that he liked what I did.



I might fursuit for them next year.

I may sound like a cry baby ranter...

But I'm just really depressed right now...

I am tired of putting up with my family, not being able to turn to anyone in my family when I'm hurting badly.
I am sick of feeling like I'm nothing and having suicidal thoughts (which I am too cowardice to act upon), crying when I hurt badly, having no confidence, and not being able to associate with the people I like as my friends.

I'm listening to Jimmy Rae by Corey Hart... it's a good crying song.

My sister got mad at me when my niece stole my headband, when I was talking calmly when she was demanding I stop 'ranting' with my niece, when I went pee during her class, and she banned me from going to my niece's swim classes.

I hate my sister, she belittles me, she makes me feel metally retarded, and she treats me like I am a stupid -hole!

So recently in my city, a husband had his license suspended for driving over the speed limit to try to get his wife, who was in labour, to the hospital.

I got on the phone line and talked to the radio guy about how the police should have escorted them to the hospital/ taken the wife to the hospital, instead of giving the guy 2 $200 tickets for trying to save his baby which could have died during the contractions (sorry for being so graphic)

And I was saying about how the police really majorly screwed up, as they are to serve and protect, but they didn't do what was right at the moment.





I felt good to rant for once and not be put down for what I believed in.
So I'm happier now.

So, today I just feel gloomy, I have since yesterday.

Yesterday, I drove down a street named after one of my friends (He's with his girlfriend at an anime convention and I won't hear from him)
I was thinking about how all the friends who live in the same province who I talk to on the phone are away having fun.

I was glad I was on last night when VanillaPupcake was doing art on livestream and now I know the pony's name was Glory but they renamed her.


So I went to bed.


Today, My Aunt and I were in the sweltering heat, but she did buy me a video game... but I feel guilty that she bought it for me because it was $20 she could have kept for herself.
I feel sad and I made a book in which I will put saddish songs and poems into.

I'm just feeling blue, really blue.
I just want to talk to my friends, I'm rather anti-social and only people I trust really talk to me when they have time....


Yes this is like a god damned pitty party, but I just want to vent.
I would cry but then my Aunt would know I'm hurting, or I'd waste all my cover up to hide my 'raccoon rings' around my eyes when I cry (no reference to Kandy)

I'll be fine, I just need time to calm down and stop crying.

http://goquests.com/go/m/fundraiser.....ring-Jake-Home
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2514731/
 vloggah had his dog put up for adoption, please help him get his doggie back.



Doing this for a friend of a friend.


If you feel you know someone who can help, spread the word via message, note or journals.

Have I been on here for a month?
Wow...
Well... I am not on here to post, I'm here to keep in touch with friends... that's all.


Bye for now to my alliances and furry friends, I'll be away in Gimli, then in my grandparent's camper... and on next Thurday I'll be with my Aunt, so I MIGHT be allowed on here

I am having one of the worst days.
My computer's internet died when I was doing something 'important'
my cat threw up and it got stuck on my pants and bedding
I had a nightmare about my house catching fire.


And my mom was out in the yard working, but she came in, put my bedding in the wash and made me lunch... that is so sweet of her.
Taking time out of her busy schedule for my needs.


Moms can be mean, weird and sometimes embarass you, but when you need them, they can be some of the greatest people to understand and listen