Well, interesting tidbit of writing news.

I have an idea on a new writing series, that I will publish though our "Dream Universe" books (but also post here.) I was looking at a Babylon 5 series DVD I possess (Babylon 5; the Lost tales), and I had an even better idea than 'Dream Tails'

The Lost Tails of the Dream

it combines elements of our 'dream' universe, with my own knowledge of folklore and combines them into a "OTR" radio style. IE: actors, acting out the roles.

I've always wanted to write a sort of OTR story, since I'm in love with the art. (Jack Benny RULES! (giggles)) and after several ideas it's all come together in my head.

Some of the ideas came from:
My story: "Reconciliation with a wolf spider" Where Spiritwalker II (The one that united the world after the great catastrophe) told a tale of "Grandmother Spider" to her companions, acting out the parts. - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40780796/.

Two OTR shows on YT (Jack Beny at Camp Hawn), and one I can't find yet, a Great Gildersleve one, and one from the Appalachian Creatives Society (ACTS) - https://acts-theater.org/ which I got to actually see last year, loved it! It may go back even further, seeing Jenny Wiley shows, Fort Boonsboro when I was a younger doe, or even fawn. (I can't completely recall but I have seen a number of live plays by amateurs)

So as soon as I can, I'll post my works.

- Kantuck Atsilawesa

Well, after consolidating ALL of my Spiritwalk story files into a coherent structure, and re-read them all, I managed to redo the first chapter.

Starts has always been the bane of my writing career so I've done a lot of research and practice on this subject. I think now with Spiritwalk, I'm on the right track.

What is Spiritwalk, my new folks asks? "The Spiritwalk" as it's aptly titled, is my Magnum Opus. If it comes out as I see it, it's a 3 book novel, recounting a certain Anikawi fawn-doe having to do a right of passage into adulthood as her culture dictates. Two years, away from the tribe and valley. Having to live on her own, without help, out of towns and cities where they could 'take it easy' instead of doing as they're told. Then return, where they're given an adult name, and considered an adult.

To our western mentality the idea of forcing a 17 (some go even earlier) into the world, for two years all by themselves and to return may sound like madness. But in many primitive cultures that's not unusual. It took me a long time to find that reason but the concept is sort of sound; In the tribe, their numbers are small; interbreeding is a real danger from such a small community, Information and knowledge isn't easily replenished. Like a pond with no source or exit of water, it'll grow stagnant and slowly silt up to the point it's just a small depression in the land.

Another aspect is that the very first Anikawi came that came into this tribe, and then when she turned 13 with her first estrus; with no bucks around, she left for two years. When she returned, she had two fawns in tow, as well as several dozen other Plentycaels (the uplifted animals class) and with that, the elements of the Spiritwalk was formed. Now every Anikawi (and some others) do this in celebration and honoring Spiritwalker the first.

Bala leaves behind her entire family, her young son and her lover Stardreamer for 3 years. Things conspire against her, but when she returns....oh that's when it gets interesting.

For the world comes after the great catastrophe, and the world has been living on the edge of a knife; both classes mistrust each other, and Bala gets an idea of reunifying the entire world under one banner of trust and cooperation (which ultimately she does but she'll be very old when she's done finally.

I'm going to try to post the first chapter here, sometime next week.

Ok, thought I'd throw out an update.

Yes, I'm still around, no not married (who'd want this old doe anyway?) The maker hasn't taken my spotted angel yet.

But things are finally, slowly (think glacier) slow heading on the right path, (I hope!).

My resume is finished. Waiting for my career coach to help me with the final things.

I've shelved one story 'Perchance to Dream' where I think it's time to move on, from "The Dream" universe for awhile. Even though I'm still working out in my head a new short-story series called 'Dream Tails' Just sort of campfire tales you might here at times. Folklore of Native Americans, Appalachia, and others. It may be re-told folklore with a fur background, or might be totally original. Some showed up for awhile in my directory 'dream tails' But this time all will be set someway in the Dream universe. We'll have to see how it goes. One is already in the works; 'Shutur's Sword' but totally re-written in my old vision. I thank DummyPuppy for his insight.

I'm finally back on track, with an OLD (IE: ancient) story of mine called "The Spiritwalk" I've spent the last 2 days taking all of the directories and merged them into one coherent whole, finding story fragments, and complete stories that need to be merged and re-written in order to do this right. It's a 'hero's journey' story but I'm using both Campbell's and anothers' more condensed version but in different acts. I found after re-reading the stories written that I'd been writing them in that sequence! Till #4 where I hit a brick wall and never could get past it.

When each chapter is done I'll post it here, and though Owl Haven. You can see a few of them already on my gallery. Especially the Leave Taking, with Russell's incredible artistic art.

My original vision is a 3 book novel, and only after 'shadowing' I saw I could write a novel, so I'm trying again. Everything will show up here, ultimately.

One thing before I go. Thank you ALL for your support on my last journal 'I have no title' It hurt but now it's in the rear-view mirror, and that job part is fixed too. So doe pretty soon.

Now, I exit, stage right.

I need to get this out of my mind.

My job asked, if I would volunteer to go to a sister store and help out with problems they was having. Of course, I said yes. OT, mileage, and I needed the doe. (so to speak.) Plus visiting the town of my Ala Mater, who would say no?

On the way there, traffic was a nightmare, but it cleared enough to gain some kilometers when it happened.

I'm not sure what happened. I didn't see them in time. two mallards (Anas platyrhynchos) males, I'm guessing ran or ran/flew across the road. At first a truck swerved and either hit the first mallard lightly. It was knocked across the side of the road tumbling and rolling. The second...(sigh)

I swerved, trying to do the same; under the car between the tires. But something happened and I can only remember fragments, a horrible 'thump' and the car jumping. It must have gone under the right front. I didn't stop, for as I said traffic. I didn't look back, just carried on. I did issue a prayer to the Maker for the life of the Mallard, to say I'm truly sorry for the accident, for I didn't wish that to happen.

This has bothered me ever since. I was pleasant and acting normal when I stopped by, but the memory was still haunting me. I did my job and went above and beyond. Got back to the parent store and clocked out.

All that money seems worthless now.

Insensitive people may ask; "So??? What's the big deal? it's a duck"

It may seems stupid to such people, more worried about their video games, and social (crap) media. But to me, /I ended a life/. Although it's taken a lot of life experience, and adjusting myself. But I learned lessons, from my elders. Now I know all life is sacred. I, at least, must see and know that /life is a gift/, and I cannot just causally end those, even a bird, even by accident.

I can at least admit, I'm ADHD. My reaction times may have been slowed due to cutting off caffeine and stims at 12pm (It was about 1:30pm) which I do, in order to sleep. So I take in plenty of water to keep from having dehydration fatigue, and high-fiber foods to keep my energy up. But that /doesn't speed up my brain processes./

Ok, time to face the day.

- Kantuck Atsilawesa

Quoting Kosh "And so it begins ...."

On the 15th, my new classes started. And as I thought, I was in a forest fire, tail raised high, and running in circles.

Finally, I saw the path and raced for it, and at 9 pm, on the 19th I got my 1st week's assignments done!!

I wrote on a private Discord server:

7:03 AM]Kantuck Atsilawesa: Whooo....last night, I was up till 9pm getting classwork done. Damn, this has been so confusing. Little meanders and blind tributaries of study, and work, I kept walking into (noisy doe) as well as 15th, - 18th I kept having distractions and things needed done first before class. But I think I've done it all, and only have today's assignments to do before a week before the next batches need done.

I got a kanban, and Eisenhower matrix's in place. org-agenda's. my special 2do list program and everything I needed printed now is printed, put in the right dates. I just asked my professor if I missed anything from last week to make sure I get those done before end of this term.

I'm nervious about getting behind, and not making an excellent mark. Remember I'm 59, I can't go on running around in a blind panic, with my tail up. I have to have a clear path forward, to get out of GW, into a job(s) that will make me more financially stable, to achieve my dreams before I'm taken into the Maker's arms. I want to enjoy my own home, land, and animal companions first. After all, life is a very precious gift, I can't squander it, and have to honor what I was given. (edited)

Now, as two of my heroes once said:

Susan:
The Babylon Project was our last, best hope for peace.
It failed.
But in the year of the Shadow War, it became something greater: our last, best hope – for victory.
The year is 2260. The place: Babylon 5.

and Delenn

It was the end of the Earth year 2261. It was the dawn of a new age for all of us. It was the end of one chapter, and the beginning of another.
The next twenty years would see great changes, great joy, great sorrow. The telepath war. The Drakh war. The new Alliance would waver and crack.
In the end, it would hold – because what is built endures. And what is loved endures. And Babylon 5... Babylon 5 endures.

Now, all I have to do is get off my encounter-suited butt and do something! (giggles) (also put up all my current DVDs, and binge-watch B5 again before the new series comes on.) giving me loads of incentives to get very well ahead

- Kantuck

I just wanted to post a thank you to everyone who responded to my inquiry about the IT job thing. It's given me a lot to consider, and to keep in mind. I even copied all of this, to my journal to keep, and printed it too. (I trust digital like I trust the government. :( )

It's freed my mind, even if today I got a bit of a dream fragment, that also alerted me. (transcript here)

Kantuck Atsilawesa: I had a dream that kind of was a 'wake up call' (literally this time, it came at 3:45a :(. But in it, it was brief.) I was in another retail store, and I remember thinking or saying that it looked similar to my Goodwill. Ashley was there, the carts had yellow handles, not blue so it wasn't GW and I think it was a Dollar General. -- anyway. I got a cell call and read it was something. But I knew it was my school, so I took the call and the lady was talking, and said "I'm sorry, but you don't qualify for something, something..." I asked, "So you're saying I can't do this? I can't advance?" there was no answer, no nothing for a moment, and I just hung up. it sort of collapsed around my head then, thinking this is my future. nothing. stuck in retail for life, with no advancement.

I come to analyze it some, and I'm sure it's anxieties coming though, I seem to remember too I had some sort of trigger from early today/yesterday. Oh yeah. now that my Asus (EEE, 2006) has died, and of course, all the other electronics stopped working, I was reminded of my age. I had the computer since 2006. I've used it for everything, and there is no real alternative. Everything is 'bigger', thinner, and of course, piss poorly made in terms of keyboards, AND the costs -- ouch.

I see it as a warning too. Don't get complacent. I have to keep studying, learning, and kissing ass. I'm too old, and still not out of the woods yet. But am I also missing something? Is there a ticking time bomb in my future that I forgot to fix?
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That time bomb is the biggest worry. What if I have to be vetted? Will they dig up something 20 years ago that will blow up in my face? Or even recently, like all my fur stuff?

I have time, probably a year, but still. I have to keep looking over my shoulder, at the preditor after my tail. :(

I posted this on Mastodon, so I thought I'd ask my peers too. You always have been helpful, and supportive over the years. So what do you advise?

(message from Mastodon)

I'm making a switch in my career to an IT job, starting Jan w/classes. Now I read this: https://news.slashdot.org/story/24/.....-powered-world

Right now, my classes are just basic 'get started' something to get me out of Goodwill. I'm not sure now which path to take. I know Python 3, BASH, and a bit of a few other languages, so should I give up pure programming? Learn it on my own, if an employer needs such. What other IT jobs are there? Ask my advisor.

https://www.gocomics.com/nonsequitur/2024/11/22

just under a buck ;)

Well, like my collage,  MelWhite, I'm on a social site too. Come on by

https://mastodon.social/@kantucknadie

I was kicked in the metaphorical balls, not once, not twice, but three times in very rapid succession. How? Let me tell you.

I was busy elsewhere, when I heard a conversation from two employees. talking of what can she do, to a neighbor who's got too many dogs, and now a puppy /tied to a friggin tree/ with shelter. It was shivering.

Damnit, that image is floating around in my mind and refuses to leave.

The 2nd is when I was helping another with a big donation. Well, they happened to have a small picture frame that caught my eye. It was a beautiful Datamation, one of those types that's like the tattooed man, with too man tattoos. That wasn't what bothered me, but the /dialog beside them./ "I had a good life - I guarded - I was loved - I was a friend"

That nearly did it, but then as soon as I walked in, what do I hear on the radio? "All dogs go to heaven"

That song is hard enough to listen too on good days. But I swear, I lost it. With tears rolling down my face, I left and went to the break room. I felt like just going home then and there, but one of our supervisors came in, asking what's wrong. I explained it to her, and how it's hurting.

I got to stay in the break room until I could compose myself. Then went back to work. On lunch, I went to Burger king and ate /alone/.

While back, a lady came in asking if she could just buy this sewing machine cabinet, and not the machine. I got a manager, to authorize that. Once she got it, she hugged us both, so thankful.

I'm finally over it, the pain is gone, but why did it hit me so hard? I must still have issues with Dot, and Schyner. I had to put /both/ down, due to that damned cancer, and I guess it's still a scar in my mind.

Just a quick update: I'm nearly uploaded all of the Terra storyworld information files. Next stage will be to correct errors (which I'm seeing) but next week most probably. Thanks again to  snoop-leon for his nudges

Ok, I think I worked out the bugs and details on how to make my Terra universe links page. A pain under the tail, but it'll work here. Now DA is next. Give me a few days. I'm hoping at the end of the week, I can start posting the first files here.

I also hope, once finances are stable, I might be able to get artist(s) to start drawing at least a sheet showing each species. Including the incomprable Russell Tuller.
- Kan

Firstly, thank you all for your advice, and support over the last few journals. I appreciate it all even if I can't respond individually to everyone. My time is extremely limited now, but I still recognize my worth to everyone here. It was you people who got me through the hell of 2018/2019, and the slow road of purgatory I'm still on.

Also to: Snoop-Leone for starting me on this path of worldbuilding of my Terra universe. I've wanted to do this for a very long time (since 2010 at least) but many reasons stopped me. No more

But to the update.

First, I've spoken to the collage, and a Pell Grant is in effect. Now I only need approximately $550 by the end of December. Easily raised and paid thank the Maker. Goodwill, at the end of my semester, will reimberse me.

Second, I finally have worked out what's causing this painful throat/Bronchial tube problem, after I hike; Exercise-induced bronchospasm. I'm to receive a short-acting bronchodilator soon, and it appears to be caused by dryness, and cold. A direct cause of the mild allergy-induced "tickle" cough I've had for many years. I refuse to let my body stop me from my love of the hike, and stopping me from giving my dog the long walks and sniffs she so loves.

Lastly, I am nearly finished writing up the Terra universe uplift documentation. I just finished the Hevron (or uplifted horses) entry and the Anikawi (uplifted deer) is next on the list. It may be lengthy so I'm thinking a week perhaps.

For now, the entries are short since I have little. But this is a start and gives me ideas that I keep adding to.

The idea also is for here, I'll have an index file, with a current date on each entry. Then I'll update the index and the entry at the same time.

I'm also in the process of making a timeline. Until the great reunification, I had quite a bit, but afterward it's very hazy. I know of two major events. 1st contact with a reptilian species who are the descendants of the most intelligent dinosaur species of 65 million years ago.. Taken to another planet by one of the ancients of the universe just months before the asteroid crashed on Earth.

They have been on Earth for centuries, only revealing themselves after the reunification, however.

The second is a minor thing but the terraforming of Alpha Centeari B II, now known as 'Haven'. Featured in my story. "H8" (on FA)

I'll be in touch.

I offically go to the collage on the 24th of this month to finalize all the requirements for the classes. I'm now offically enrolled in 2 classes;

CIT 105 - Introduction to Computers (rolls eyes, been in them since 1981. Please! - giggles)
CIT 111 - Computer Hardware and Software (another easy!)

The only thing, I believe I need to do is getting the Pell grant going, and see what that takes. Michelle at the store I work on said GW will help me in this.

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The 2nd: I'm offically still working on the Terra universe information files. If I can, and I'm sure I can. I'm going to set up an index to individual entries on here. It'll be pull up the index, click on a hyperlink, and you'll see the current documentation. I have the seeds of all of the uplift species started so it's just a matter of time.

I will need help in learning how to world-build however. I got a nebulious idea on how to do the Terra Ragnarok setting (after the comets and interplanetary attack) but it's mostly notes, and ideas in my head. Anyone know of a good class online?

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3rd and final. I'm making serious progress on learning python3 in advance of my class. I gave myself 3 months to do the book. I'm on ch8 already, and things are starting to form in my mind about programming. There is 11 chapters of 'Python Crash Course, by Eric Matthes' and the rest is actually coding. That will not require a lot of study, just work which can be done in my head as I do other things.

- Kan

Boy...how does one start a letter such as this?

Perhaps; "Where have I been all this time?" yes, that may be it.

As many of you know, My Ma passed to the Great Maker's arms in 2018, and the following year I had to do something again so painful I dreaded it but finally I let my best friend go from the damned cancer that was slowly killing her. They say the reaper causes pain, but he also takes away pain.

That's the only thing that kept me going. She was out of pain, and not suffering even if I was being ripped apart, especially by the Wampus cat aspect of me. Constantly calling me a murderer, it wasn't time, etc.

They say at times, one is born, then they are 'reborn.' People of the Christian faith say that, but I left the Church, and all the dogma when I was far younger ("When I wore a younger girl's clothes" to paraphrase Billy Joel.) But there is logic, and truth to the term 'reborn'

I have been in purgatory all this time, fighting tooth and hoof for every scrap of achievement I've now achieved. Gone down many a dark path, wandered into woods deep, and black, only to finally stumble back thirsty and hungry for the light that will point me to the right way. The Maker is NOT making this easy for me, by any means. I hold no animosity toward this, for I know ultimately it will make me stronger, wiser, and more vicious a fighter. I am tired, but surprisingly I've been finding something strange. All the anger, and rage I kept inside, to manifest as the Wampus Cat, has dissipated and I fear life less and less, for now I'm starting to see it as a gift.

I have a focus now so bright it illuminates my entire life, for my spotted angel has been there, at my side all this time. Now, everything I do, I have to do is for her.

So this brings me to the current day; I promised Ma two things on her deathbed, a) I will become an appraiser, and b) get my BA.

I tried, worked and got all my classes and on the verge of achieving this. The rug was yanked out from under my hooves, and I fell flat on my face. The market had locked up so badly, that NO ONE is hiring any new trainee. They're barely getting any work to support themselves. The experts say it may be 2028 before it thaws completely. I can't wait that long.

I tried Ma, I know your by my side, watching me and understand but this is another blow to me.

So in the last couple of months, I've changed gears, and starting the path toward an IT career of some sort. At the moment, the path is foggy, I can't make out what is ahead of me, but with my spotted angel at my side, I know one thing.

No matter what, I'm pushing forward and I will do what ever it takes to make this happen. I will get my own home, land, and animal companions at my side. I can see that far at least, nothing else matters, and I ask the Maker continuously that I can do this before Ember is taking back to him, leaving me alone.

Yes there will be other animal companions, but none can replace my spotted angel.

Now that I've board you, I'll let you back to what ever was occupying your time.

Terra world entry #1 2024-09-19

This is a general journal for my Terra framework, that I'm starting to compile for a 'fan' of my universe (hello fan!). It's going to be a slow process, but I'll make sure all is linked.

Terra is a world I started back in 2010 for ideas and fragments I kept seeing in my Escherian mind palace. Ultimately it lead to the story H8 (https://www.furaffinity.net/view/21427846/) and a print https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29343258/.

Sadly, this is STILL a WIP, as I've never been able to really get any traction on it, but I though by putting it down maybe things will improve, and with help from others.

So sit back and enjoy.

As always any suggestions, advice, praise (ha!) Comment in the entries.

- Kantuck Atsilawesa Nata-akon

I thought I'd share, see if anyone can help

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:60554527

It appears someone's cat fell out of a window, and needs help with vet bills. I hope you'll all look and see and possibly help if you can.

https://www.gocomics.com/brewsterrockit/2023/03/30

That is all

Ok, I was serializing my new novel 1 chapter a week. But things went a bit sideways, so I uploaded the last of the chapters - 12 - 15. I'll fix the connections when I return home. My apologies to my fans (all 3 of them -- waves!) But here they are.

What? Where's the rest?

There's a complete part 2 in the works and will be serialized here as well. But I still invite you to download, review, or order the first book to see all of the stories that Sandwolf and Claude have made.

and will there be more books? Well...there's big plans in the works, and I'll serialize all I write here for you all. I already have 'forward the dream' in alpha now. Written in a flood of words over 1 day.

In related news; This story has helped me break though several problems including figuring out why my stories come in bursts, not in other ways and I've found a way around my ADHD writing problem too. Check out https://www.advancedfictionwriting......wflake-method/ (or on Amazon https://www.amazon.com/Snowflake-Me...../dp/B00LWBZ696)

I know you purists will roll eyes, groan, and hold your muzzles. But hey, it's either this, or I don't write more works. I've got more stories in the pipeline using this method and it's helping a lot.

Basically my ADHD affects my memory and other parts of my brain. So I get flashes of plots at times and I write them down as fast as I can. But tying them together, as well as making sense of what I'm reading is a massive challenge. Who are these characters? What world are they in? etc.

I saw the solution in 2010 but of course THAT's another problem. I at times can't see the forest for the trees. Then I saw flashes of insight on my Terra, and Terra Ragnrok story-worlds. I kept writing down what I saw read it many times and started to see this was a story-world. From there came my uplifts, and ultimately this story.

As soon as I can, I'll post part 2 here, and more writing is coming now.

Just one thing; how can I get time to write? :)

My novel part 1, plus several stories from my writing coaches are now on Amazon. Check it out!

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0BH1BHTW9

Osiyu everyone, or should I say

"Back in black, I hit the sack
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Except for brief peeks out from the forest green I've been quiet for the past year and change. I assure nothing bad had happen to me, just around Feb of last year I made a major decision to change my life for I knew at my age I couldn't keep going as I was.

Before 2018, I was in college, advancing for my BA in Psychology/Sociology when as many long-term watchers know my mother passed away in 18. What I didn't post is that within eight months six people I cared about also passed too My cousin who was a big-sister to me (and one of the few of the family who knew of my pansexual desires), my mother of course, my real-estate appraising supervisor, (which threw me for a loop), two friends of 20+ years, and another cousin.

2019, the climax of the life crisis had me putting down my closest friend; my lab Thunder due to some sort of cancer. That put me into a deep depression that required professional help. Of ALL the things that happened in 18, Thunder was the most painful act of this hell I went though. It hurt worse than any I lost in 18.

By the end of 19 after scrabbling for work (including going to Tyson for 3 months; bad mistake) I wasn't thinking too clearly. I heard '$16 an hour' and cash bells started going off. I didn't actually see I was doing 10 hour shifts, 6 days a week until 21! It took all that time to catch up as memories started to finally rebuild and come to the surface. I left Tyson finally when I was falling asleep at the wheel coming home -- at 1am. I also was definitely not all 'there' due to the problems with Thunder and not getting enough sleep.

It was actually so bad, that between 18 - 2020, I had almost no memories at all. A supervisor at a restaurant I was in, in early 19 asked my age and I told her what it was in 2018 but she did the math and showed me I lost two years of memories. My therapist said that I was in survival mode and all those have been suppressed, and I should regain them over time (which has proven true.)

By 2020 I'd gained employment at a local Goodwill, and suddenly things started to change for the better. I've grown, healed, and come out of my shell (closet on the other paw is a strict no-no) and grown as a person greatly. Now I'm well thought of from the customers and staff. Won awards(!), learned a lot of new things including how to budget, an intense frugality (far more than my normal Appalachian frugality) and gained good friends. Sadly no one truly special in my life aside from my mother's last and greatest gift; my dog. I wear a shirt at times saying "My rescue dog, rescued me." Although she's not a rescue (mother bought her) she did rescue me. Her intense loyalty, love and happiness kept me sane and now has installed an intense desire to work, and a lust for life. I do it all for her since now she is in essence my daughter (even if she has 4 legs and a tail -- giggle)

Now we come up to the last year. Feb I realized how old I was, and saw no real path for me to achieve my dreams (house, land, and my animal companions.) My dog sort of showed me that, and reminded me of my dream from 2015; the house I was saving and working for was shot when I needed all $22,000 I scrimped and saved for just to survive and help Thunder though his final days. So I started back to work on my original idea; getting my real-estate appraiser's license. But the appraisal board of Kentucky told me I needed to take all new classes. I thought 'four months, bring it on' Boy did I miscalculate that! While in the classes, I had to do my normal stuff as well learn how to actually study. A few wrong paths, and nearly 3 mouths trying to pass USPAP (the law part of Appraisal work) and finally in late August I got though my classes.

Now I just heard from the Appraisal board. They accepted all my class work, I just need a short 7h class to finish. Then get a new supervisor, spend six months with him/her and then fill out lots of paperwork, and some more classes for a total of 150 hours. Pass the state test, and I'll be a fully licensed appraiser.

The beauty of being supervised is #1 all those old appraisals I did with my former supervisor is now null and void; useless. which is ok, we had a small fire in the storage unit that destroyed 2 years worth so I couldn't give those to the board. The appraisals I do for the new supervisor will be the ones I have to turn into the board. This time I know what path to take with these.

#2 I get paid for each and every appraisal I do! It's only half since my super has to go with me for each appraisal, go over the results but that's fine. That along with Goodwill's pay means I'll start to make money enough to replace my old and aging car (it's a 09 Rav 4) and be on my way to my house again.

And this time, I'll make it. I never thought it'd take this long but it's taken this long to recover from the life crisis and get going. I'm pushing myself to get the house at least to the point of actually buying it by Sep 1 -- my birthday.

I'm now very clear of my path, precisely what I need to do each step of the way, so...

2023 is my year!

I almost forgot; in the year and change you all posted things on FA. I assure you I remember some including to two people. I accidentally erased all comments (That damned 'nuke' is a royal pain under the tail) I'll be in touch ASAP.

Also writing; Yes I never actually 'stopped' but in the intervening year I got together with two other authors and now I actually learned how to get around this ADHD problem I have with writing and now stuff is coming including my new 'Shadowing the Dream' novel. This goes within a collection of 'dream' stories that we're pushing for a December publishing of the first book!

Ok, I got to run, It's nearly time for work so see you all soon.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:58970255

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I assure, I haven't just died. But several very serious things came up that must be dealt with ASAP. Currently my licenses. I'm going to be taking my real-estate sales person license sometime in April, my appraisal license is much more work, and I'm trying to finish all of this CE (continuing ed) I must do before May. Nearly done with the first class, will have to see how many more I need to do.

Taking 8 hours a day away from this, slows me down greatly. I may have to take a week PTO vacation soon just for this :( At least I have nearly 3 weeks saved up. )

Gotta get it done before going to the happy house dressed in a nice white suit, in a soft room. Forests, take me away! (giggles)

I was shown an article in the Times about 200 wolves slaughtered, in 3 days.

There is absolutely no reason for this, but done because humans wanted to, and given the opportunity because Trump and his cronies are kissing every ring offered.

I'm sick of the damned last government, and not afraid of saying it. I have no problems with ANYONE's party affiliation. But I have much against a very closed minded approach. Thinking that HItler wasn't doing anything wrong, which goes for the same thing with the last administration.

Honestly, I think the GOP has dug themselves a hole the depth of the Mariana trench. But that's not my worry.

I left a PDF of it, incase you won't or can't get on that site here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40904688/

Osiyu everyone. It's been awhile yes. But things have finally improved for me. First the greatest. I'm though the life-crisis of 18/19. 2020 disipte the virus problem I had no major problems in the whole year. Ember is alive, and very well. My health has also improved and even my financial health as well.

I took advantage of all of Goodwill's classes and benefits to my advantage. It seems that all the things I've done though the years for financial was essentially correct, just needed some tweaks and adjustments. Putting my last $4000 of my house money into Raymond James was also a HUGE success. I'm now up to $10k, and although I'm still only half-way back. I now have to my name $13k so I'm on my way.

I've sometime -- possibly November or so of 20 I passed a major milestone. I now am past the /survival mode/ into *living mode* and I ordered the Lego ISS model, in late November but -- I haven't got it /yet/ due to many problems. The seller has just offered to refund nearly half since the price has dropped in half, and had so much problem getting it to me. I took his offer, already got the half in my account and waiting (im)patiently for it. (giggles). This was to be my Christmas present to me in 2018 but I was too mixed up to think property. 2019 of course was also a horror, so I lost 2 Christmases. But in 2020 I was determined to give Ember her first one since 2017 and I did. My tree had all of my old ornaments on it, she got some nice treats and toys for christmas and we watched a couple of movies that day.

Now I've been at goodwill for one full year. There's major talk of expanding the store, fore we're one of the best /in the state/. It may happen since we've already got new shelves. The problem is there's not enough room to hold them yet! It came at a bad time when the clothes bales are about ready to be called for and we're pressed for space.

Now the future. This year I've made a major goal of getting both of my licenses ASAP. I'm close to getting my sales-person license, the appraisal one will be a lot harder but there's new things I'm exploring.

Will I get my BA? No idea but at my age, it may be useless. By the time I get my appraisal license, I'll be busy making more money so I may forego it.

I've started a major project for the future 'Operation appraisal' is my effort to set up a computer tool system that solves many of the problems, my supervisor had with computers. I'm setting up a homemade cloud server, and I have the server, and cable already set up. Just working on the software.

The car's being fixed up as a portable office.

I've been working on one part of this, that should solve a lot of problems I have with time management. EMACS/Org-Mode has an agenda aspect. I recently found that you can set it to pop-up messages when something is due. (like an appointment or to watch a show). I use EMACS/org-mode almost continuously so this will be a great tool.

I FINALLY managed to solve my email client problem for good. Alpine email client now works finally. Since it's terminal based it works even with my ancient 2gh/2meg memory Asus EEE.

There is other minor things for operation appraisal but if my plans are correct, it'll be a HUGE help for me. My super had 8 file cabinets full of her appraisals before she passed. I'm going to digitize all of my appraisals and make a dozen copies all over the place. On Blu-Rays, on flash drives, cloud, and with a friend's house. I don't want a bunch of paper copies anymore.

By the first of 2022 I'll be a licensed appraiser, and sales-person and putting all my work into one major goal. The house, land and finally back home. What I wanted 3 years before.

I just heard that the very first 3d printed home is on the market for sale. https://www.zillow.com/blog/3d-prin.....d-home-226492/

In my home area, one like that may be only 20 - 30k! I haven't researched it yet, but I already have made up my mind, I'm making a tiny house (around 750sf) I've been in such and they're cozy but livable. So a tiny house 3d printed? I'm estimating $30k only.

A couple more things;

#1: I'm very nearly ready to post a new story. It's in stage 3 now and will be read at Owl haven, so prepays Wednesday.

#2: Good News Everybody! I'm in the process of writing my first novel! In reading "Sirius" by Olaf Stapledon" - http://gutenberg.net.au/ebooks06/0601151h.html I started to see a story dealing with my uplift class of the Terra Framework (the SF, star trekian like storyworld of 'H8'.)

Although I cannot say this is purely mine, I'm using Sirius as a template, giving me valuable practice on writing a novel. But it will be all my own words. I've already written the first paragraph, but no title yet.

As soon as it's in stage 1, (skeleton) I'll re-write and get each chapter into stage 5 (finished) before I post said chapter here. That keeps me from being overwhelmed at the finishing up stage.

I'm cautiously optimistic now.