Well, my mind has been overflowing with NEW characters lately. For some reason I can't get into many of my old ones anymore. Kao-Keo will always be my little brain-baby who will never be forgotten, but I dunno. Kaydyn, my silly armadillo girl. I still like her a lot, but I dunno. I want lots of rattie characters. I may be getting a few more pet rats, after the last unfortunate time I had them. Won't go into detail because I don't feel like it. But the lady I'm getting them from said she'd keep them for me, and I said I'd give her whatever she needed to keep them there as long as she could, which may wind up being about March or so. So anyway...

Lots of new rodent characters. Rats, rabbits, and a new rabbit hybrid, a corgi-rabbit...some new bears, and a mongoose. I'm odd. I wish I had a way to hook up my scanner....

I'm happy with my life, just not where I'm at in it. If that makes any sense.

I want to go back to college, but have no idea what for. I would love to be able to make it as a children's book author and illustrator, but well...I have to actually have more faith in my writing for that. I love my ideas, just not when I try to tell them in a story....it all gets jumbled and such. I'd love for Jose and I to find our own place, things are just too stressful staying here. And I'd love to have more time to draw and to get a chance to post. But since the only scanner in the house is in his brothers room...well I hardly get the chance to go in there. And feel odd when I do. So there.

I have created a new character. And she's sorta my new fursona...but at the same time not? She's like Kao's other half, though she came about from some tinkering around with potions Kao was doing. And blam! She's unconscious for who knows how long, and wakes up with a second head! Well, after repeated much smaller doses, they're finally separate and yea. She has no name, Kao just fondly calls her K. And stinky butt.

Well, the move went well, but then didn't work out so well.

My mom didn't want me back home, and wouldn't let me move back in, so I'm living with my boyfriend and his family right now. Two brothers, a sister certain parts of the year when she isn't away at college, mom, dad, and grandmother. Well, mom and grandma don't see eye to eye, so by the end of October we're moving from this house which grandma owns, but mom and dad pay everything on, including over $30,000 in renovations, which when grandma sells they aren't getting a penny...and into a slightly smaller one. So, I've been helping them clean by day, working by night, and getting maybe an hour or two of sleep a day. Today is the first of my two days off for the week, so we'll see if they let me have it off for real. xD

I'm not complaining about having to help, I just don't like being sleep deprived, it makes me grumpy, and I'm a nice person. I don't like being grumpy!

Well, it should go without saying I haven't had the time to draw much lately. A few doodles at work here and there, and a cuuuute badge....for myself. Yep. I've been feeling very inspired lately, and I want to start work on my commissions....but I just can't find the time!

Well, gotta go, out of time online already...>.>;

Well...I am moving on Thursday, and have only 4 boxes packed of my stuff...I brought home more today from work though....which is where todays crazy started.

I had to work grocery stock, even though I'm a cashier. I'm not used to it, so it sucked a bit. Especially since the manager pulled me halfway through the night to do enough work to keep me busy for the entire night, and still not get completely done...and I HAD to be done. So that didn't work. and I got overtime out the ass, even with two people helping. So! Then I get home and realize I have no checks left to pay bills, so I run to the bank to get the money out so I can get some money orders later tonight at work. I had $100 less than I thought, but oh well. I don't keep track very well at all.

Then. I get home and wonder why I didn't get a call from my man yet. Can't find my phone. Use another one to call my phone, and someone answers. A cop. So at least the phone was safe. Back on the bike out into the heat, get the phone after giving the cop practically my entire life story, then get home, and here I am, sweaty, and stinky, and need to go to bed!

Bye!

Hahah! Sorry if you're upset by the flood of pictures in your inboxes. I won't be sad if you don't comment, or angry if you express anger. I just want to post stuff so bad..I miss having a lot of time to draw. But I think I'll go do some of that here soon. I'm feeling inspired in my slightly sleepy state.

For anyone who cares...I'm movin soon! We, that is my bestest friend of a million years and counting, just got approved for an appartment the other day.

So....much need for boxes, and to decide what to take, and what to throw away. I'm such a pack rat....worse even than my real pet rats! xD

A live movie. Alvin and the Chipmunks.

They actually look like chipmunks this time, instead of oddly deformed kids.

I'm wigglin' with joy. :D

To get the creepy story off my front page, I'll post this journal about how I'm posting pictures of myself with my awesome hair!

Get ready for it!

I need to get ahold of the actual story, I read it this morning, but apparently an older fellow I worked with was arrested two days ago. Why? Rape. 22 different charges, all on minors...all of which are his grandchildren.

He told me first time we met that I reminded him of his granddaughter. With a big ol' smile and twinkle in his eye. I thought he was just bein' a sweet ol' man....but now I feel slightly ill.

I've worked alongside this guy for four months, seen him at least three days a week, talked with him all friendly like. He always seemed a little creepy, but most old guys are creepy ol' pervs. They like to look here and there, but yea. Not him....

I've got two of them now! WHeee! They are so adorable! Both are girls, and black and white hooded and so soft and adorable and cute!

They're still the size of full grown mice, they're just too cute. I love them.

Well, I'm getting my hairs cut again soon. Soon as in tomorrow afternoon soon.

And it's gonna be 'hawked. Because I said so. And have wanted one for soooo long. A bright green one is my dream. But no. Wally World has silly rules saying hair must be naturally colored. Hmm...maybe I can still get some sort of fun with various shades of blond, red, and browns and blacks. Who knows. It'll be a hawk, and thats just SEXY. And AWESOME. Like JOSE.

But none of you know about Jose. He's nice. More about him later then. <3 I'm gettin' a 'hawk!

http://www.justfunnypics.com/funnypics-468.html

Shhh! It's funny!

What is my age? Do years really matter?

I'm old enough to know how the world works, and young enough to have hope it may change.

Thats my age.

In my opinion...age counted in years is meaningless, just a way to keep track of time. Age counted in experience is the truth. A man could live and die and never age much past childhood. Sheltered from truth, violence, and death. It is the losses we face which age us most. Some things gained can do the same, but not as quickly. A man who dies loving only his mother has lived a poor life indeed, even the man who has lost ten wives has lived a much better life.Tkure the body itself ages and withers away, usually at a much faster rate than sould and mind, but is difference in appearance really that unusual from person to person? Whether from age, gender or race there will always be differences, but they are to the eye alone. Close the eyes and open the mind, how different would the world appear then?

-From one content enough to admit certain differences don't matter...screw what the world perceives as normal, and go on being happy.

(Please don't ask the meaning behind this course of thought, you won't learn the answer...unless you're someone who really knows me well, and I trust to tell the truth.)

Well, whats been going on in life to keep me so tied up and not drawing?

I've bought a few new games. And been playing between them.

Digimon World DS: Training to beat the seven lvl 99 Demon Lords.

Pokemon Diamond: Training to beat the elite four super easy.

FFXII: About 20ish hours into the game.

FFVII: Just came in the mail yesterday...50 bucks, damn! BUT time for 48+ hours of gaming folks! Yep, my two days off start now, and off I go to get blisters on my thumbs.

Oh, and in the news of the love department. The idiot begged me to give him a chance...I'm giving it, but being tough on him. He's also been quite ignorant of the fact he's still close to loosing me...and hardly calls, even when he promises. Soooo...I sorta have my eye on a few choice people whom I flirt with quite often...if any of them show any true interest back, I may just move on...yea.

Hmm...and art block, boring at work, and I have a stupid rash on my face/shoulders/neck/chest. It itches and sucks hard.

[EDIT:: I'm only taking paypal for these, the email for that is kaokeo@gmail.com. If you just want to donate, thats ok, but if I find out who you are, you get a sketchy too! And be sure to leave your FA name in the transaction!]

Okay...I have three questionable transactions on my last bank statement...and they screwed up my carefully calculated budget! I only have $34.00 and some change in the bank...and I just sent out a check on the 22 for $75. So you see my predicament? I don't get paid until thursday either! And I'm sure the check will make it to, and then get cashed by the people before I get paid!

I'm taking emergency sketch commissions for $8, that includes shipping, which by the time I get them all done and gathered up, I should have my next paycheck.

You'll get a good nice detailed image of one character on cardstock, and a sketchbook page of doodles for this price. Good deal? I need at least 6 people to commission me to meet the minimum amount of $41 to fill my bank account back up enough for this one bill!

Well...now that I've calmed down about it a bit...I guess I can say it. Though seeing her pictures on here, and just thinking about announcing it will just make it more real...it sucks. First the bullshit with my mate, and now this...

Well my baby Mocha (http://www.furaffinity.net/view/350193/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/view/350192/) was killed oh about five days ago now I think...I've sort of lost track of time lately. There was a stray pitbull wandering around the town, from nobody knows where, and it decided to snap the neck of my loving little fluffball. I raised her from a kitten! For five years she was my little butt-hat as I slept! Good news is the dog was caught and euthenized, bad news is it did get another cat a few blocks away first. I've had pets die before, and I've had my mom dump about ten cats, two of which I was VERY attached to at the pound, overnight, without tellin' anyone. Makes me angry. But my Mocha...to know she didn't even get a second chance with anyone, she was still my kitty, and she was murdered!

And please, don't read this and think I hate pits! I don't! I have met some nice dogs in my life, and some of the nicest were pits! I just hate that particular dog for what it did. It could have even been a corgi, my favorite kind of doggy, and I'd still have hated the damn thing! Okay. I'm done...

They don't know when they have a good thing. Even when they're about to lose it.

Which he almost did, voluntarily.

Well, we'll see how tonight goes, maybe things will get better from here on, maybe they'll get worse. Who the fuck knows.

I sure don't. I don't know anything anymore.

Except what it means to love someone your head tells you you shouldn't...I do love him. More than anything...and I'd do anything for him. Forever....


Really. I'm alright. Just slightly heartbroken. Easy state for me to get into.

Hmm. I'm commissioning people, and I owe a few bills. In all...I'm spending $319 this paycheck.

I'm addicted. To spending. MONEY.



This, plus my recent pic turn me into UTTER PHAIL material.

I mean, so much so that some guy will look back on this as he's about to make some horrible dreadful mistake and name his second son Edgar. But then he remembers, "Oh, there was that crazy furfag online, like a million years ago, she failed so hard! Oh no! I already have a son named Edgar! Lets name this one Chuck Norris! That sounds familiar...but its made of more win! And this one won't turn out gay!" the little five year old next to him looks up in horror, "Sorry son, just because your named Edgar, it means you'll be gay. I can just feel it in my toenails." So little Edgar sits in a corner and cries while the doctors pry his little brother Chuck Norris from his mommas bloody torn up pussy, and then two days later mom, dad, and little baby go home. Little Edgar is still crying in his corner, all forgotten and lonely.

THE END.


Oh, and does anyone know a GOOD scanner brand or what have you. The one I have now is made of more fail than this journal and my brain! Price doesn't matter, I can always save up some. Hahah, I wonder if anyone is even reading this part of the journal?

From LatinVixen: http://mixedcandy.com/

And I make enough money to have the first 30% by the end of April...but with very little spending/saving money left over.

The first 30% is about $600, the whole suit is around $2,000. I'll be able to save up plenty by the time it's all due, May '08. But I would like to get a little extra spending money for this month and next, so I can keep eating good lunches of chicken and things, with lots of sweet desserts and such. Without having to resort back to $2 a day, a noodle bowl for $1 and one drink to last the day at 75 cents!

Okay, so heres the deal. I'll be doing sketch and ink commissions of single characters. I'd do colors but lack of time, and lack of a good wrist for that sort of thing at the moment, yea.

I'll take five at a time for now. How's $5 busts for sketch, $7 for inks, $10 full body sketches, $14 inks sound? Too high? Haggle me. I needs...or at least wants the monies.

I hope enough people see this! I'll go do a sketch now to show what they'll look like!

(Oh, and I can mail these out, but it might not be until oh say...sometime in May or the end of this month that I get around to it.)

Well. It's gettin' close to that time now. Noonish. And I'm damn tired today. I can usually stay up til one and still not be tired. Well now.

G'night.

And to Korthiez...I loff yoooou!!!!

Come this thursday I'll have around 600 dollars burning a hole in my pocket. I want to commission people.

Who? Whoever.

Of? Eh, any of my characters, Kao-Keo preferably, but if the commissioned artist likes another of my characters better, who am I to tell them not to go for it? :3

How many? Well...I dunno. I'll decide that later. I'm thinking of spending between 50-100 of each paycheck on commissions. So 100-200 a month. Yea, I'm a whore. Shh.

Yes. Not cat. Not fox. Not anything else you're odd little minds can think of. Wolf. She said so, so it is so. And I think it's obviously so. So there.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/432162/

(Eh, I saw Micah post it, so I thought why not, I know not as many people watch me, but I thought I'd help. I likes to help.)

So, about a week ago I had this weird dream. Let me go into some detail.

There is this man I work with who is probably in his fourties, but he looks good! His body is great, and his face is just one of those that seems to not really age that much, his white-specked hair is what gives away the most.

Anyway, let me tell you how much I abhor giving head. I do, I hate it. I mean, when I do it with Randy, it's fun and good and great. Though I've never liked it before, crazy as it may make me sound, the other guys skin smelled and tasted bad, even straight from the shower...and I just have a weak stomach and low tolerance for bad smells. Hardly any people smell good...god now I sound like a freak! xD Randy smells great...but thats off topic.

Anyway, in this dream I was in a nice big house with this man. We were in what looked to be a family room, and the entire house had a modernistic nautical theme, port windows and those shimering pictures that are sold at some stores of boats and light houses. The walls were white something....dull looking, but with a shine at the same time, like some sort of stone, and the floors were white marble with the black running through. It was beautiful. And I had the feeling it was OUR house. Though noone actually lived there, it was more a meeting house where we both went to secretly meet. Yea, fancy for something used for such a bad reason.

Let me state that I am a very loyal individual who never even has a cheating thought! To have a dream like that really got to me. And now when I see the guy...I sadly get a little...well...yea. Horny. It makes me feel disgusting and dirty. I love my fiance, and I'd never do anything to jeopordize our relationship...and this dream, and it's after effects have really got me stressed!

I'm just glad it wasn't a full out sex dream, just head. In front of a large port window and circular glass table...it gave me a good idea for a drawing, but I'd feel so awkward drawing it knowing what inspired it, and gave me the amazingly beautiful setting...

(cross posted from dA, because I'm a lazy loser!)

First, the quiz, which was quite fun!

1) What was your first Pokemon game?
Silver, and less than a month later I traded it for Yellow, and that game was broken, it kept restarting itself. The kid wouldn't trade back, so I went to buy Silver again, I loved Lugia, but they only had Gold, so I wound up buying that. (I finally found another copy of silver this past summer I couldn't help but buy.)

2) Can you remember who your starter was? If so, who?
Cyndaquil. One I was obsessed with fire types, and two, its just so damn cute, especially when it evolves to Quilava, for some unexplained reason, my favorite pokemon.

3) Did you ever complete the Pokedex in any games? Which one(s)?
Only in Crystal. And mew and celebi were traded from my cousin, I don't know if they were real, or game sharked, but he did clone them, so he didn't have to get rid of his own. xD I do know he's been to some of the american nintendo events, and one when he still lived in Japan. (His dad, my uncle, is in the air force, so they've lived all over.)


4) Did you watch the Pokemon anime? Who was your favourite character?
You know, I almost didn't. Another cousin of mine and I would fight about Digimon and Pokemon. He said digi was a rip off, but yea. I did start to watch it, caught most epis of the first season eventually, most of the Jhoto, and the first half of Hoenn. I hated the orange islands for some reason, so I never really watched much of that. I love Misty. Shes so rude and mean, but in a cute way.

5) Do you still watch the anime?
Nope. I don't have cable. xB But if I could watch it, I would. I really want to see the new season.

6) What's your favourite Pokemon type? Explain.
I dunno! Fire I guess, just because I loved it when I was a kid. Fire's cool too, my pyro streak will never completely die. And flying and electric too, just because both are sort of air element, and well, I like elemental stuff, and storms, lots of wind and lightning. xD


7) Who's your favourite Pokemon?
Quilava. Yep. No real reason. Of the first 150 though, it's a tie between Nidoking, and his prevos, and Ditto.

8) Which Pokemon do you dislike the most?
Jynx. I love smoochum, but jynx scared me when I was little, and I still think it's the ugliest ever made.

9) Which is your favourite region?
Hmm, Darsein! xD I can't choose of any of the ones in the games, so I pick my own, just to be difficult! (Though I love the Jhoto games, and how you can go from Jhoto to Kanto. The G/S/C generation is my favorite.)

10) Which is your favourite Pokemon series (ie, Kanto 1-151, Johto 152-251, Hoenn 252-358, others)?
Well, the originals in Kanto got it all started, so I've gotta love them. A lot of my favorite pokemon are from that series, but I'd have to say Jhoto wins with me, though I do love Hoenn too, and I'm excited about Sinnoh(sp?)

11) Can you say a series Pokedex, without a reference, in order?
If I was still in Middle school I could tell ya the first 151, and then the first few past the starters of the second set, but yea, now I can't!

12) Do you know all the type advantages, disadvantages and all the
super effective matchups?
Yea, though sometimes I have to sit and think for a minute, Dark always confuses me, I half think Pshycic is good against it, but thats backwards. xD Then I remember that, and fighting wins over it, so yea. Blah.

13) Did you prefer Pokemon before the new ones, or after?
Before. I was in the fourth grade when the cards came out, I think. At least thats when I learned about them. And I started to collect them. I miss my Charizard, Alakazam, and yea...I had all the holo cards from basic, fossil, and jungle (save one or two I had in just the normal rare), but they got stolen when I stupidly took them into school in the sixth grade.

14) Have you got an Original Character who is a trainer?
Sure do! I have a ton. My fursona Kao-Keo is one, then I have a few I used to RP with, Kaydyn(not to be confused with my armadillo girl), Daenen, Troxa, Kayla(based off myself, xD), Kay-Kay(also based off myself, only more hyper), Keitaro/Kei, Skylar, Carson, and Newvellius/Newvie. Oh, and an unnamed girl from a fanfic I was writting. xD There were blank lines drawn where her name would go. I couldn't think of one to fit her, she has a Zubat as a starter.

15) Have you ever wrote a fanfiction story about Pokemon?
I've written a few. And even created a site for RP. It's down now, but I'm thinking of resurecting it when I finish working on setting up the story completely for the region its set in. Darsein.

16) Was the OC based on yourself?
Kayla and Kay-Kay, Kao-Keo too, since she's my fursona. xB

17) Who is your favourite gym leader?
Winona of R/S/E

18) What about Elite Four trainer?
Phoebe, she reminds me of an Island girl, and for some reason I love island people. Like Hawaiians, one reason I love Lilo and Stitch. xB

19) If you lived in the Pokemon world, who would you starter be?
Out of ones designated as starters, Cyndaquil, because I love Quilava. xB But if I could have any, it'd be between Cyndaquil, Nidoran(male), and Trapinch.

20) Which city would you live in before you started your journey?
Oh no, I have to agree with the person I stole this from, that tree-top town rocks! -Goes to look it up- Fortree city!

21) Would you travel just in the one region, or spread to other regions?
I'd go everywhere! I wanna travel the real world, and if I lived in the Pokemon world, why would that be any different? xB

22) Would you train just one type, or different ones?
I'd catch as many pokemon as I could afford pokeballs for. (I'd totally have like a ranch or some sort of research place with lots and lots of room for thousands of em! I'd even take care of other peoples like a daycare sort of thing!)

23) What kind of Poke-Person would you be? Trainer? Breeder?
I'd start out as a trainer, but then become something similar to a professor or something, like I said above.

24) Would you collect gym badges? Or keep Pokemon as pets?
I'd battle and train the pokemon who wanted to battle, and the ones who are too shy and stuff, I'd just let them follow me around as pets.

25) Who is your ultimate two-on-two team? Explain.
Lessee...out of the ones I use on the games, I have to say I love my team of Aggron and Flygon. Though if an ice type comes up I'm mostly screwed, but oh well, I've never lost with those two!


And stuff....work is killing me. I can't hold a pencil for more than five minutes it seems without my hand falling asleep so badly that I drop it. Yep. It's annoying.

Oh, and the old pokeRP forum I used to have up, I'm thinking about fixing up and re-opening, just for the hell of it. If I can find it again, that is! xB

Hmm, what else....Oh! I'm back on Gaia, and kind of back on Neopets. I'm working on a story line that I think will be great as either a childrens book series, or comic strip, sort of Calvin and Hobbes like. By that I mean, it'll be made to be in a book form, but in strips, not comic book pages. (Unless Calvin and Hobbes was really a strip for a paper, but I wouldn't know about that, if it was. xD)

So yes. That's about all that's going on in my life right now. Besides Randy getting more adorable and perfect everyday. :3 I love my man.

Oh yea! And some movie reviews. I saw three different movies yesterday, and I'm gonna share MY very opinionated opinions on them.

First Bridge to Terrabithia. I remember loving the book and original movie in middle school when we read then watched it in english. The only plot points I remembered were the girl being an athiest, and the boy loving to run. And yea....I was rather dissappointed by this movie. The previews made it seem heavy into the fantasy, and the neat looking creatures. But all the showings of the creatures were shown in the previews! It was slow, boring, and just had nothing special at all to it. Not to mention I'm sure it left out parts of the book, thus leaving the movie with a few plot holes. But oh well, for a kids movie, good, for a movie to go see to feel like a kid again, bad!

Second, but actually the third I watched was Farce of the Penguins. Now, I didn't see March of the Penguins, so forgive me for enjoying this parody more than I should have, but I thought it was great! Really really retarded, but so much so it was hilarious! Crude humor is one of my weak spots, the fart jokes got old, but the perverted stuff, that had me laughing. I'd quote my favorite line here, but I don't want to ruin it for anyone who hasn't seen it and is actually thinking about it.

Then finally, the best for last. Ghost Rider. Let me just say, I was a tomboy and love Marvel as a kid. I pretty much read only X-Men and Spider Man, though I did know of most of the others. Ghost Rider was sadly one I missed out on though. I want to look into the comics more, because the movie was fantastic. I mean, just wow. There were so many great scenes, it's hard to just pick one that stood out to me. But now the song Dream On will forever remind me of this movie...I won't say anything to ruin the movie, but thats just the first song that came on after we left the theater, and for some reason to me, it seemed to fit parts of the movie perfectly, in my twisted little mind anyway.

So, that is it now. So long and take care!

My own computer, and wireless internet!!! Yay!

Though right now I don't think my wireless is working...I think I mooched off of someone elses....which is both bad and funny. I think my moms boyfriend got mad about the wireless and unplugged it downstairs...because when I connected, it was a different name than what I used to set it up downstairs earlier. Oh well. As long as no one gets bitchy, I suppose I'm alright. ^^: I just hope I get everything working properly from my own house soon! I don't want to get in trouble over something so silly!

Well thats it. I can now look at porn in the peace of my own bedroom! Oh, and I can do internet phone stuff now, as soon as I get my faster conection to download the right stuff. :B