My wonderful pet has managed to get my computer to allow me to run Sai again so now I can do arts!! :D Now I just need to find the time to do said arts... I have a very busy work schedule now. So ye.

I don't have a decently working computer anymore and cannot do digital art. I sometimes do traditionals but that's pretty much for physical customers anymore. Even then its very rare. But whatever.

I'm sorry for my sudden bouts of moodiness, I really am.

♥I'm getting better though, thank you so much for those who care, I'm honestly so grateful for any little thing you do for me. I would not be here if it weren't for you.

I was wrong. It isn't an incline. I'm very much declining. I am so bitter right now it's unbelievable.

I can feel an incline in life. This is so great. I really need this to be my last pack of cigarettes though. Tbh, if you've never smoked cigarettes, just don't even try it. It's so not worth it.
I feel so much healthier body-wise since I moved up to Minnesota. I just wish I could get a few things in life going full throttle.

Just wanted to show you a thing :>

My mate does playthroughs of games and streams them and such and it would be hella awesome if you could check his stuff out, what harm?

His Twitch
His Youtube

I'd really be happy if you could check it out, cuz it'd make him happy :3

Thank you for your time dahlins~ ♥

I srsly didn't know foxes could drive like what?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXg_b-LfRhw

I'm sorry for not putting out any art for a while. I've been very.. busy? I had previously moved from Oklahoma to my mother's for two weeks and now I'm at my aunt and uncle's in east jesus nowhere minnesota in the fucking boonies with shitty internet and no reliable way to transport myself to and from town. I'm going insane right now. I am antsy and anxious, Keep having pretty bad anxiety attacks. I don't know when I'll get back into the art flow, but the way things are going right now, it won't be anytime soon. I'm sorry.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15540825/ <- Rare/Highclass Bunzillas

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14054630/ <- Mothcat eggs

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12072053/ <- Mochi neko girls

Lookit it jiiiggglleee!!!! I'm so happy right now omfg yaaaaaaas!!!

Got my new icon from Like seriously amazing holy shit I'm dying of happy ♥

Alone this time.
Though, this is for me to work on myself to better myself without relying on someone. I don't want to be the burden anymore, I don't want to be the failure who cannot remember to do simple things because my interest in everything around me is simply zero. I am sad to have parted with my mate of almost three years, two days before his birthday too.. I sure am a piece of shit for that.. But I just.. I couldn't handle anything there anymore. No matter how good it could have been for me, how good it already was, I just wasn't happy and I felt unwelcome. I hate feeling unwelcome.
If you're wondering, he's single now, looking for friends and maybe even a mate. He's straight though.. I'm going to do at least this for him because he's such a sweetheart, I love him to death but not in that way anymore. I want him to be happy the way I want myself to be happy.

His name is Moonlight. but you can find him on furry sites as moondemonn, moonndemon, or whatever else. His account on here is

but yeah. That's what I'm going to do for him, help him find friends, people to talk to, to keep him company.

I'm now in Minnesota though. Going to stay here with my mother for a few weeks or so until I go up north north to stay with my aunt to help take care of my uncle who has been recently diagnosed with cancer.

I will be doing this until I have enough money saved up to move to the uk to be with someone whom I love endlessly. There's my news for the day. uwu)/~♥

A lot of new followers~ Hi there :'> I hope I can continue to pique your interests with my artings~


Just because curiosity, what would you guys like to see more of in my arts?

This morning, my dog was put down. He had become a danger to everyone as his aggression was no longer fixable.

This is the first large pet I've ever had die. My hamster died and I was unscathed.
Not this time. Not such a pet that requires time and a lot of love and care. A pet which I was given on my birthday. A lovable, gorgeous dog. Half lab, half pitbull. Pogo, or Po. I will miss you my precious baby. I really will.. I already do.

Tryin'a stay on track with my master's refsheet x 0 x
http://www.livestream.com/katekawetha

I have a really good friend who's more than deserving of some patronage~
Her art is so cute but so sexy at the same time! You should totally check her out, she makes a lot of ychs and can whip up a commission in no time!

Thar she be~!

It was pointless to stream. other than the thought that someone might come in made it easier to concentrate. but no. nobody. I'm not too surprised. Like nobody ever reads these journals lolol
I know none of you and it doesnt matter.

I need to stay on track and this is the only way how.
http://www.livestream.com/katekawetha

Life is stressful.

Will be heading to minnesota again... I'm so tired... so weak... but I'm sick of how things are going down here with my mate... so sick of it... I'm only 20... I'm not ready to be a perfect little housewife. I can barely keep track of myself. Especially when the only people to emotionally support me with my struggle with depression are only through the internet...

I hurt.. but I'm just so tired... so exhausted...

91% Switch
88% Bondage Receiver
83% Experimentalist
66% Submissive
56% Primal (Predator)
55% Brat
54% Girl/Boy
45% Masochist
43% Exhibitionist
43% Primal (Prey)
43% Voyeur
34% Non-monogamist
32% Brat Tamer
30% Bondage Giver
29% Daddy/Mommy
29% Dominant
21% Vanilla
13% Degradation Receiver
13% Sadist
13% Slave
9% All-Rounder
8% Master/Mistress
7% Pervert
0% Degradation Giver
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=56997

*giggles like a dork* Well then >w<;;;

Y'know that last post I made about the depression, It's really irrelevant to how I'm feeling right now. I literally feel like living sunshine. I'm drawing my two loves, just gave my dragon some cuddles and hugs and am starting to actually see the light in this world for the first time in a long time. I'm so happy I feel like crying. All I could ever ask for really is that someday, I'd be able to have them both close. But sadly that won't happen. I wish it could. I need to think about these things next time my depression decides to creep in on me and make things seem like all hell is around me and doom is immanent, because I literally cannot get enough of this feeling. Though, knowing how depression works and works on me, without my pills, this will be but a fleeting feeling. The warmth will dive back into my heart and hide behind the cold darkness that swallows it up so much. But I know it's in there now. I know it still exists. I know this feeling can happen again and I so very much wish to feel it a lot more often. I'm so happy you guys. I really am. I'm drawing again and I'll post these very soon. Because they need to be posted. They need to be seen. I want to show them off to everyone!~

I hate a lot of things, blahblahblahblah... I'm getting my ass kicked by depression.

Wish I was drunk off my ass but I'm too broke to even drive places :DD

HAHAHAHAHAHAFUCK

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