Yeah so I posted 2 journals stating that I was doing incredibly cheap commissions... and I only got one person to commission me. I'm still currently working on the ref sheets when I can ((whenever I'm over my friend 's house ((he owns a tablet)).

So yeah. It was a total flop. What else did I expect -_-'



On a lighter note, I think I'm going to change my fursona's name. I was thinking DeJa Blu. If I do I'll probably migrate to another account and ditch this one. Japanese names are cool n' shit but eh... whatever. I don't mind the name DeJa. Opinions anybody??

Much

Alrighty then!! I am accepting the 100 Sketch Commission challenge thingthing...

CLICK HURR FOR EXAMPLE

I'm in an incredible amount of debt from school and I need as much help as possible. Any and all help will be greatly appreciated.

I DO HAVE A PAYPAL NOW and if you would like to pay with that that's fine. I still do accept money orders :D
NOTE ME IF YOU HAVE ANYMORE QUESTIONS

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Alrighty then!! I am accepting the 100 Sketch Commission challenge thingthing...

CLICK HURR FOR EXAMPLE

I DO HAVE A PAYPAL NOW and if you would like to pay with that that's fine. I still do accept money orders :D
NOTE ME IF YOU HAVE ANYMORE QUESTIONS

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ALRIGHT so GOODNEWS is that I finally got to save up enough money to buy a laptop ((with a weeeeebit of help from me mum.)) I'll be able to do homework and digital art now :D MEANING i'm accepting DIGITAL ART commissions. ((unfortunately still money order only.... *grumbles*))

BADNEWS..... still no fucking scanner and the ones at FedEx are hesitant on what ppl scan... I asked them if it was okay if i scanned in my drawings/linearts and stuff and they said that they have a strict policy with things like that. First thing that comes to mind is BULLLLSSHIIITTTT... so I shrugged and said I would take my business elsewhere... which... happens to be nowhere right now -_-' Yey for still being fucked over.

Regardless, I'll have somewhat of a special going on... or something...
DIGITAL SKETCH: $5
DIGITAL CONBADGE: $10
DIGITAL REFSHEET: $25
ANYTHING ELSE DIGITAL: ....whatevers o-o''

I'd like to personally apologize to Ainoko for the incredibly long delay on their 3 refsheets... I'm honestly reconsidering doing them completely digital and probably a discount of sorts... there's just alot of wrong going on and I'm sorry for it =\

But, things are going alright for the most part other than my art issues and...not issues.
Much

Haven't actually updated in a while so I thought I should.

School's alright, work's a bitch ((lookin' for a new one)), still scannerless, still drawing and whatnot, and the mate's doing well.

For sweetest day yesterday he got me a ring. It's absolutely GORGEOUS ^__^. I'll try taking a pic of it sometime soon... or something.

As the title does say I am open up for commissions ((as always)). I can ONLY ACCEPT MONEY ORDERS!!!!

Currently the only things I'm good at doing is badges.
Average price for one: $10

if you wanna know anything more note me or e-mail me.

Much

*Are you a furry?
Yesm
*If you have a Spouse/SO - Is he/she a furry too?
Yupyup
*How long have you been in the community?
Since I was about 8ish... soooo about 11 years
*How did you find furry?
I was on the net when I stumbled upon an amazing artist that created wolves into what looked like a human, an anthropomorphic character... her name was GoldenWolf and I fell in love with the fandom ever since :D
*What's your reason for furry (what interested you to get into the community)?
Started following other artists that did the same sorta artwork as GoldenWolf... then it just took off from there
*What's Furry to you?
Cereal :3
*What are your favorite aspects of our community?
How we're a huge dysfunctional family :D
*Do you use any furry terms? (i.e. yiff, paws, murr?)
I whimper every now and again and go murrgghh...but that's 'bout it.
*What do you wish furry was NOT associated with?
When there's either legal issues or mainly misconceptions
*How strongly do you feel about someone bashing the community as a whole?
I feel alil offended at first... then I laugh
*How strongly do you feel about anyone bashing you yourself for your interest based on the media's aspect of what furry is?
It fucking sucks trying to explain our "lifestyle" to a closed minded conservative... Tetsu knows what I'm talking about -_-''
*We all know furries have alot of sexual aspects in this fandom, What's your opinion on it?
Some ppl do, some ppl don't. I pretty much do *shrugs*

Personal

*What is/are your fursona(s)?
I'm in the midst of changing her name but Katsuko is a blue fennec fox... I plan on chaning her name to Blu Ballew :D
*Do you have any fetishes that pertain to the fandom?
Haven't tried 'em yet :(
*If you could magically morph into your fursona would you?
More than likely
*Do you believe you have a spirit animal?
- If Yes, Is that spirit animal your fursona(if not what is it?)
Idk I'd like to think I was a fennec in my past life... but eh, anything goes
*What other fanbases/groups are you a part of?
Uhm... nothin' much really.
*Anthro/Feral, Therian or Kemonomimi (Not a furry, just a human with animal ears and a tail)?
Anthro
*Are you a fursuiter?
If yes, How many do you own?
If No, do you ever plan on being a suiter?
I wanna be so badly ;-;
*How many of your friends are furry?
It's half n' half, more or less
*How many pets do you own, if any?
One dog and a shitload of fish.
*Aside from furry what other interests do you have?
Videogames, drawing, music, driving to nowhere in particular.
*Are you confident enough in yourself to say that you're a fur, no matter what the media says?
I'll say it, but it doesn't mean it's not gonna be a fucking pain in the ass to try and explain it x_x'

Meetups

*Do you attend any cons?
If no, would you attend any cons?
If yes, which cons have you been to?
Never been to one ;-; , but I'd like to someday
*Do you go to local meetups(bowling, public outings...etc)?
-Read above answer-
*Have you ever attended a furry party?
-If no, would you attend one?
I waaannnnaaaaaaaa ;-;

Online

*Have you ever met up with a fur you talked to online?
Nope
*What furry websites do you attend?
NEOFurs and FA
*What non furry websites do you frequent?
Facebook, iSketch, Youtube, StumbleUpon, etcetc
And last, but not least
*Has the fandom done anything for you that you're thankful for? Has it taught you anything or brought you anything you treasure greatly?
Fuck yes :3

Sooo yeah... haven't been on in a while... had over 1000somethin' submissions, shitloads of journals, and a few other things. Don't mind it really.... just have been busy as all get out.

Work's been insane ((yeah I still got it :3 )), school's been insane, still scanner-less, and I'm slooowwwllyyy paying off college n' shit.

I'm still drawing alot... I just wish I could fuckin' scan my shit in.

Anyway, I'm doin' what I can. Nothin' more I can say than that.

Much always

Got some bloodwork done, threw up, lost all me colors, got my colors, went home, rested for a bit, then realized I had forgotten to get a doctor's note for school and work. I got it taken care of now but at first I was like... FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU

now to go take another nap - u -

Been incredibly sick for the past 4 days... only to find out that it was one of the antibiotics I was taking for my bronchitis that was making me feel worse.... meaning it gave me nerve pinches, felt like someone was reaching into my body and plucking my nerves with a rusty spork.

Yeaaah... not fun... I'm just tired of being sick and just what feels like a downward spiral. Regardless, I called my doc back and she said to stop taking it. I just wanna feel better damnit =\

What sucks even more so is that I have to work this evening from 4-8pm...which really isn't all that bad depending on what I'm doing. Hopefully I won't throw up again x-x''''

Much

Look, I'm fucking thankful she got banned... HOWEVER.. for all I know my employer(s) could've been watching and instantly think wrongfully of me.

Lemme explain: I work at Chuck E Cheese. I go into that stupid rat maybe 4 to 5 times a night, making kids happy n' fuck.

Last week, a co-worker of mine comes up to me and goes "You know, you're pretty good at this! Have you done this before??" and I smiled and said no, but I've watched enough Fursuiters and have taken some "note" more or less as to the mannerisms n' whatnot. And of course he goes "WHAT'S A FURSUIT?!" so I explain what a furry is and that i take NO PART WHATSOEVER in the whole sexual act part of it.......

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and then this shit hits the fan like a fly smashing into a windshield of a car going 120mph.... http://vimeo.com/6619090


....fuck....

So the ODST Truck came to Cleveland today. ((well... more specifically North Olmsted)). Arcus () n' I were there for maybe 2 hours waiting to go in the truck and play firefight for 10mins ((they started letting ppl in at 12pm... we went at 10am and there was like.. maybe 20 ppl infront of us already)). It was totally worth the wait.... and the sunburn x-x''

Aside from that it was fun.

Now onto important matters... I'M STILL TOTALLY TAKING COMMISSIONS AT YOUR OWN PRICE... I NEED HELP WITH SCHOOL AND BUYING A NEW SCANNER. IF YOU NEED MORE INFO ABOUT IT YOU'RE MORE THAN WELCOME TO NOTE ME

That's all for now :3
Much

((this is slightly edited from the last one... yey))

SO, my scanner's completely shot. So what am I gonna do? I'll do ya ART!!!! AT YOUR OWN PRICE!!!!!

HOWEVER the only setback I have right now is that I can ONLY take MONEY ORDERS!! And the second setback to not even having a working scanner or knowing anyone that has a working scanner is I'm pretty much forced to do digital work.

**I'll do sketches, badges and bookmarks... but I CANNOT do refsheets in digital. If you absolutely NEED a refsheet in digital, we'll work something out.**

Not only does not having a scanner throw my other commissions off, but I can't even attempt on getting a scanner until I pay off school a bit more ((i still need about $300 more to secure my place at Tri-C)).

Any form of help is appreciated. Thanks for your time.
Much

School's goin' good. It's the reason why I haven't been on here too terribly much.

Work's goin' alright. Wouldn't mind more hours so I could get some more goddamned money... and so I propose... NAME YOUR OWN PRICE COMMISSIONS!!!!!!.... to an extent. Like... I don't want someone to only pay me $5 for a refsheet.

But seriously, I need the money more than anything. I am looking for a second job, which would pretty much eliminate any spare time I actually had.

So I need some help. BowlingGreen keeps charging us more for late fees because we can't pay on time..... goddamn I love irony.

I currently take only money orders and will be getting PayPal soooooon

Again, I need all the help in the world. Thanks for your time!
Much !

School started yesterday ((yus, on a saturday ((if you had looked at mah previous journal, you'd know what my schedule was ;P ))

Work's pretty damn good. I don't mind it at all and I don't have to deal with [strike]lilshits[/strike]children. Make pizzas, put them on ppls tables, make other stuffs, clean, and taht's as difficult as it gets =]

Aside from that I'm gonna be hangin' out with Arcus (()) at school n' stuff during the weekday ((well... on mondays and wednesdays)). Either way it's all good.

I've come to good terms with Tetsu and for now, and/or for a long while, we're just gonna stay friends. I'm not really looking for a relationship right now. I'm just flirty and not taking anything too seriously as of right now :3

Uhm... I can't think of anything else right now... TITS AND PENIS!!!!!!

Much !

((copied from ))

I really would like to help out and
He could use a new pair of boots for when he goes back to work/school - and she could use stuff for her baby that's coming
Please donate to help me help them out - even a dollar would be great!
Read here for more details:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/893656/

If you so choose to get a commission from them, let me know and I'll do a free sketch for ya or something of the sort :3

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SOOOOOOOO Day 2 of job training today :3
I just wanna get the training over with and start workin' n' stuff. I'm actually reallyreally excited 'bout it :D I'll be learnin' how to make pizza n' shytes ...yeys

ANNNNDDD school starts this saturday. Maybe I should post my schedule in case ppls are curious o-o ...hm.... yus I shall ^-^
Beginning French I- MW 9am-11:15am
((...i know some french...but I've never actually taken a class lol))
Mac Basics- S 9am-12:15pm
((....i know every nook n' cranny of a mac.... I think I'll be alright in this class ((...fuckin' requirements x__x''))
Intro to Visual Communications- Th 4pm-5:50pm
((...yey))
History of Photography- MW 2pm-3:20pm
((....because i can... lol))

And that's 'bout it. My scanner's on the fritz AGAIN.... and I'm just about done with everybody's stuff. I just need to scan it ((providing my scanner stops being an asshole x-x''))

Much !!

Got a job after searching for months... finally getting paid to do some shit art for ppl... things have gotten so much better on the homefront.... school's starting soon..

and the only thing that's making me sick and finally begin to crumble is knowing the fact i basically threw something away... or... rather.. had something stuck on fly paper and just tossed out the entire thing all together ((do your best to see the "figuratively speaking" part of that..)).

I just... really dont' understand why I was so cocky, so nasty, and so manipulative all up until i signed out of a messenger that i just sat and stared at the monitor, my neck getting tighter, and my vision becoming distorted that i realized "...why the fuck am I crying...".


*kicks some shit over and walks out*

So, YUS, I got the job!! ^____^ Thanks to everyone that had wished me luck n' whatnot.

Been searchin' since May and i FINNAAALLLYY got one :3
I'll be workin' kitchen and I start orientation on monday. Sooooooo excited ^-^ Thanks again everybody :D

oh, and btw, Tetsu got a job today, too. He's gotta be workin' at Stank n' Shank :3

As my graduation stuffed owl that drives Bailey insane would say, "HAPPY DAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!" ((...he usually cries for no reason when it says that o___o''))

Much !!

2nd interview at Chuck E Cheese tomorrow/today. It sounds excurtiatingly promising that I could get this job.... which I NEED more than anything right now.

They say that "IF" I get the job, I'll be workin' kitchen. If I could be the mouse, too, that'd be pretty kickin' read. I'll technically be semi-suiting lol.

Aside from that, been working my ass off otherwise ((even though it doesn't seem like it ((sorrehs)).

Yey things are lookin' up :3 they usually do with time.
Much !

soooo I come home from Tetsu's place today, run up to my room to put my laundry on the couch ((..i'm lazy..)) and what do I find? ALL of my request pics torn to shreds and puked on.

You see, I keep them in a bin ((i'm sorta tidy)). All of my requests are in one bin and everything else is in another. One of them didn't have a lid on and you can just use your imagination.

Not very happy with Bailey ((my dog)) but... suppose it was my fault for leaving my bedroom door open AND the bin open. Don't necessarily know what he was goin' after, though o-o''

SO!! I'm changing everything ((the requests... ((for now..)) to just badges. I need to get shit done and badges are simple for me.

Sorry and hope ya understand. Ugh x-x''
Much

Simple title for a simple update:

Applied for two jobs today, did my fall semester scheduling couple days ago, annnnnd I finished up the 3badge commission :3

However, I think I'm not gonna do free stuff anymore. I'm running low on supplies as stated in previous journals and I just need the money.

That's all for now. Much !!

Abasiophilia (Casts, Braces, Wheelchairs) - Nope

Age Play? - Nope

Adult Baby/AB Parent? - Nah

Algolagnia (Pleasure derived from physical pain)? - Yush

Amputee Fetishism (Amputation/Deformity)? - Nope

Anal Sex? - Why not

Andromimetophilia (Androgeny)? - Hm... idk

Arse (Ass Play, Worship)? - I don't care either way

Asphyxiaphilia (Breath Play, Choking)? - Sure

Balloons? - Meh, not so much

Bestiality/Zoophilia? - *Shrugs*

Beating (Flogs, Whips, Canes, etc.)? - Yus

Biastophilia (Committing Rape/Sexual Assault)? - "Willing"

Biting/Teeth? - Nomnomnomnom

Blood (Drawing Blood, Cutting, etc.)? - Depends

Body Hair? - Not too excessive

Body Modification (Tattoos, Branding, Piercings, Scarification, etc.)? - Ink n' Piercings plzkthx

Bondage (Blind folds, Gags, Restraints)? - Yush

Breast/Nipple Torture, Clamps, etc.? - *Shrugs*

Candle Wax? - Yus

Chains? - Yus

Chastity Devices? - I dunno o-o

Chinese Balls/Ben Wa Balls/Anal Beads? - Meh

Cling Film/Plastic Wrap? - Sure

Cock and Ball Torture, Clamps, etc.? - Idk

Collar and Lead/Leash? - C'MERE!!

Confinement/Caging? - I dunno

Coprophilia (Shit Play/Scat)? - NO

Costumes (Period, Fetish, etc.)? - ...Period? O_o... anywho, yus

Cross Dressing? - No

Cupping (Suction of the Skin)? - ...lol I think it'd be funny

Dacryphilia (Arousal from Tears)? - Depends

Defilement (Seeing a partner dirty or wet) - Idk

Denim? - O_o whut?

Depilation/Shaving? - I don't wanna shave ppls o-o''

Diapers/Diaper Lover? - NO

Dildos (Hand-held & Strap-ons)? - Yush

Discipline? - Sure

Doctor/Nurse Fetish? - ZAT VAS NOT MEDICINE!!!!

Domination? - Yup

Ears? - Teehee

Electrotorture (EMS TENS units)? - Shockin' :3

Emetophilia (Vomit, Regurgitation)? - Blegh

Erotic Photography? - Yush :3

Exhibitionism/Sex In Public? - NO... i'm very shy ;-;

Feathers? - Yus

Pyrophilia (Fire Play)? - Only with wax

Food Play? - Strawberries i suppose *shrugs*

Fuck Machines/Robots? - Why not

Furry/Fur Fetishism? - It obvious yet? ;P

Gangbangs? - Interesting

Genital Worship? - lol... the cross goes where? ;P

Guns (Gun Play, Worship)? - Neh

Hair Pulling? - To an extent

Handcuffs/Shackles? - Yush

Harnesses? - Sure

High Heels/Stilettos? - NO

Humiliation? - Wasn't that already said?

Infantilism (Pacifiers/Bottles, etc.)? - NO

Kidnapping Play? - Meh

Klismaphilia (Douching/Enema)? - NO

Knives (Razors, Swords, other blades)? - Sure

Lace/Lingerie? - Hehe yus

Latex? - Maybe

Leather? - It smells nice ^___^

Making Home "Movies"? - Sure

Masks (Erotic/Gas Masks, etc.)? - YUS

Masochism? - YUS

Massage? - YUS

Master/Slave? - Sure

Masturbation (Mutual or Forced)? - Sure

Medical Scenes/Equipment? - Maybe

Menstruation (Sex During, Eating, etc.)? - Maybe

Murder Fetishism? - Naw

Military Fetish/Uniforms? - Meh

Milk Fetishism/Lactation? - MOOO = NO

Necrophilia (Death, Corpses)? - NO

Nipples? - Yush

Oral Fixations? - Sure

Oral Sex? - Better get me a numb spray

Pain (Giving/Receiving)? - Yus

Piercings? - Not giving them or taking them

Pinching? - Meh

Play Piercing/Needle Play? - Meh

Plushophilia (Stuffed animals, Plushies)? - They don't has a penis o-o

Podophilia (Foot Fetish)? - I have a fear of feet... but they can massage mine n' whatnot as much as they want :D

Power Exchange? - Sure

Pregnancy Fetishism? - Nah...

Punishment? - Sure

The Rack/Medieval Devices? - Yus

Raptophilia (Sexual arousal from being raped)? - This was already said damnit o-o

Religious (Nunplay, Priestplay)? - Naw

Retifism (Shoes or Boots)? - NO

Rimming? - Yus

Role Playing? - Meh

Rubber? - Sure

Sadism? - YUS

Scent? - As long as it's good

Sensory Deprivation? - Why not

Smoking Fetishism? - Neh

Spanking/Paddling? - Sure

Statuephilia (Mannequins, Dolls, etc.)? - Creepy...no

Stockings/Fishnets/Pantyhose? - They're a bitch to get on n' off

Talking Dirty/Verbal Humiliation/Abuse? - Sure

Tickling? - It hurts so bad ;-; lol

Tongue Fetish? - Meh

Toys (Buttplugs, Vibrators, etc.)? - Sure

Transvestism? - Naw

Urolagnia (Water Sports/Urine)? - Nah

Violence/Physical Injury? - Sure

Voyeurism? - *shrugs*

Wrestling/Fighting? - Sure

Zombies/Gore? - NO

idk. Figured that would be the general uhmm... "outcry" as to why it's taking me so long to do shit. But... yeah. what can ya do.

SO!! WHAT THE HELL AM I CURRENTLY WORKING ON YOU ASK?!?! THAT'S RIGHT!! FUCKIN' COMMISSIONS YEAH! ((...well... one to be precise. He said he wouldn't accept it without paying for it in some sort of way.... so... hopefully I'll be getting ears and/or a tail... or something... idk)).

But yeah. If anyone offers me something in return, of COURSE I'm gonna wanna finish their stuff first. It's only natural :P ...plus I'm a greedy bitch :3

Much love

So my stepsis got me my tattoo early this morning and it turned out FANTASTICALLY! I'm pretty damn sure it's not gonna be my last tattoo ever :3 I promise I'll take pics of it soon.

After that I went out to lunch with my mom to a place called Brio. It's so damn gooooddd... It's an Italian restaurant... so it totally made my day. Afterwards we watched the kids play in the water fountain shooting thingthing... they kept slipping and falling and stuff and it was funny OuO

On another note, I'm single once again. I see things differently and deserve something better. I don't need something like him in my life. Mom calls it a "poison" type of person; one that does nothing but bring you down all the time.

I've got high-hopes for the rest of this year. I don't think I've ever felt this accomplished in my entire life.

Here's to flipping over a new leaf! Cheers!

Mmmmkay so I'm getting my tattoo on Saturday ((mah bday)) and I was wondering if you, the viewer/audience/faithfulawesomepersonthing, could help me choose a design I've created!

You can find them here --> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2494597
And here --> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2494587/

Maybe if I can get money orders I could start commissioning tattoos. I really wanna start saving up for a partial =\

So that is all for now ^_^ Much