but it might not come as a surprise to any of you that i have not kept an interest in producing art anymore.......i know, its a talent wasted but with times and life the way it is, i just cant put the effort in t he hobby like i once did. i had alot of years and made great friends though and im happy about that, but since then, ive taken to new avenues in life and career paths. im very much a worker now and enjoy living a rather adult life haha. but i came back to this page to see how some of you may be doing, or if anyone would even notice a chirp from me after two years. but aside from that, its nice to say hello.

Im thinking about making a comeback after taking a long year to get some priorities straight. ive got alot of dst piled up on my talent left behind but id hope that id have the support and interest i used to have when i was sharing my art with you all.

This means for the time being i am not comfortable accepting commissions or trades/requests as i have not even half assed drawn this whole time. im afraid of my Tablet and have to slowly rebuild my real media stockpile since i have either thrown away, lost or given away my supplies.

its gonna be a long hard road obtaining the items id need to really begin to re apply myself full time to art again but theres always been hope that id begin again with this adventure within the community, the biggest clue to that was ive NEVER lost or thrown out ANY of my previous art and digital submissions. they've never been hidden in a closet...in fact, they have always been somewhere in the house stacked in plain view in a corner, on a desk, or on a table.

Much like the bottle staring at the recovering alcoholic, my art has always been a constant reminder that there was a talent i had never really lost, but there was a point where i had let it consume me a bit more than i should have, and its gotten me a few bad reviews, and cost me a couple followers. For that i can do nothing more than just learn from it and prevent it from being more than a hobby.

Once it became a source of income for me is when things got strained. i loved the interests, the fact that what i did for my own selfless enjoyment and entertainment for the ones who saw a great potential and admiration my hard work. But as it became a "Job" i lost that glow and fulfillment it once had given me. I felt like the line cook at a fast food restaurant during a lunch rush with an understaffed crew. The demand for what i had promised became more of a hostility, i was failing at my job and was poor at providing a great experience. i felt like i had let alot of you down and for that i dont ever think i could repeat the opportunity.

I found myself drawing personal art when there was paid commissions waiting...but when i would set attention to the owed art, it became such a chore because deep down inside it wasint what i signed up for....All of you found your ways to my page because you liked what you have seen, not because i had a for sale sign on my talent. most of you had shared an appreciation for my personality, and that unlike alot of others, i actually made strenuous attempts at communicating with EVERY watcher on my account. the social networking, and friendships made is what kept me going and i wanted nothing more than that.

I had really lost what it all meant to me. but life hasint been all that easy outside of art. having a second child, moving to indiana, moving back to az for half a year, serious medical complications that lead to a coma and extended hospitalizations, moving back to indiana.....it was a very difficult time for myself and family. but i cant help but feel that my art is what had held my head up for the last 7 years and i am ready to open that door again.

I just wanted to share this with you all and hope that 2014 will be the year things begin again for me and sharing my talents.

I do still have a facebook, and tend to frequent that most, so if you would like to, im always looking for more people to talk with and share stuff with. feel free to send me a request.

but to add to the suspence, they will be announced once they are uploaded :)

as title says, im bored and have tonight and tomorrow off work. whos interested? ill randomly select and post up the lucky gals either tonight or tomorrow. fre art has never been soo easy!

 ambersnake Thankyou :D

moved to  ambersnake please divert all +watch's there

Myself and the Lovely Fiance will be a collab Project from now on,
so we would Welcome you all who are current watchers to Watch our new
User page  ambersnake time has gone by without an update on this
account so what better than a fresh new start.



If i have still yet to produce owed art for anyone,
please Note a ref sheet and Brief description to the new account
and we will be prompt to get it to you. my most sincerest apology's.

obviously you were SOMEONE i know .....or just didint want to get into too much trouble...

heres why:

1. You failed to take my 170 dollar CB Radio

2. You failed to take my stereo

2. You failed to open my trunk and score my Amplifier

4. You failed to take the home stereos from my back seat

5. you failed to Kill my battery from failing to properly shut my doors....

6. you failed to Steal more than a 10 dollar Sony walkman CD player with Burned Dubstep CD....

And just so you know how devistating your jack was.....

I proceeded to wash and Wax my car....:D

ill announce it when i do. fresh start

yea...i would bang a hot chick about now...

Im so excited. Sasha is about a month along. we call it our speck right now, but we have another appointment with her OB in the morning. this means alot of changes, but we are willing to give up what we have too.

My ink pens didint have a shelf life.........

and i thought i was in the drawing zone while jamming to my mix station of Supertramp, Steeley Dan, Gerry Rafferty and Firefall. :( Sad kaz

but its kinda.....not all here anymore. mabey i just need a big open window, a desk, my own seperate cave for arting in. *shrugs*

Anyways, ill be more active on here just as a heads up for you all.

now to wait for the Board Interview! :D

Yep. dont think ive been a gohst for no reason. ive actually got alot of stuff done lately but the sad honest reality is, i dont have a scanner :( but fear not! i do plan on hijacking someones real soon. just thought id let you all know.

Geting settled in my Girlfriends place was tough at first. but not in the sence of not having our own space, privacy, or all that jazz. not at all! just things have been tight planing our social and work lives around going out and visiting family and rips up to show low and apache lake. now that we FINALLY found some good down time we have been able to enjoy eachother alittle more. today was Sashas 22nd birthday and we ate out at olive garden.

With all this change out of the way though, this opens up a whole new time frame for art again. ill be home alot, working out, studying for the Border patrol exam this month and catching up on the god oonly knows how old art trades and such i owe. not to mention the car is 100% paid off and set to be fixed by the end of this week! im soo glad for that. sasha will have something that wond break down or get her tickets!! granted she isint tempted to floor it heheheh. any other questions just comment or note me. im of to bed. nice to be back

ive been curious for some time now

things sill suck pretty bad but im hoping that it will take off

brakes are fine....but my rear right tire is showing the steel belting.....snd go figure, its the only tire on the car that isint under warranty...fml

As most of you may know i have been very in and out with art lately, and trades have not been spared from this monster ive grown to call, loss of focus. alot of this happens because of a Bi-annual Relapse into depression that ive been battling since i took myself off medication for personal reasons. not that my mental health is any excuse, but i have noticed in the past that clients ceased to care and would rather the final outcome of my hard practiced talent on a piece of paper, then the better health of myself. with that said, if i owe you a trade still, i still know who you are so no need to jump out and say "ME ME ME" ill let you know as soon as its done.

Another fact most of you may know is that i had been gone in California for a while and recently moved back to tucson....well, theres an almost certain Possability that i will be returning to Oceanside CA. next month. some of you will call this good news, and some will find this very sad. I loved tucson. its been my home for 20 years, and in those years, ive faught so many battles. mentally, Socially, financially, and romantically. But this is where it starts again. but this time, things can for once become better. better atmosphere, Better financial possabilities, better motivation, better connections to friends and family. but most importantly, a better connection with someone very close to my heart. Not a day goes by that im not missing Her. ill find myself waking up at odd hours and i could swear i was still in San Diego and become thrilled with short lived excitement. so yes, California is where im headed again. but this time, Tucson will be just a place to visit.

The problem is....


The problem is at this point, The car needs new brake pads, an oil change and oil filter. all of which i can do myself, but financially....impossible. Even if i were to get every thing i needed to secure the move, id still be stuck with a car that wouldint be in ready condition. and the last thing i want to do is take the car as is and risk being stranded with no phone. so im going to have to pull some strings NOW if i want to get back.

At this point, i REFUSE to wait until september... theres nothing here for me and jobs out there i can start looking at. whatever i need to do, it will be worth the rush and struggle. if not, only for myself and another.