https://toyhou.se/keiava/characters/folder:2694875

Long story short, after moving I sustained a back injury. I damaged a nerve in my back.
Outside of adopts, I haven't been able to work a single day since moving and I've been mostly bedridden in pain, barely able to move.

I've done what I can, but I've reached a dead-end. I might actually lose this new apartment I just got. I don't have near enough to pay my rent and I'm panicking.

https://ko-fi.com/keiava/goal?g=17
Also have a Ko-fi goal to help

Thank you any and all who shared or donated, I got approved for an apartment today and will be gone in 4 weeks

I'm so close to escaping, so thank you everyone!

1. Do not sell for more than what you bought the adopt for, unless extra art has been added (max price should be total price spent)
2. If received in a trade, they are not to be sold, even if extra art is added
---they may be traded for any value that the one trading allows
3. Be sure to inform me or the artist if you sell/trade the characters so that a proper tab can be kept to prevent confusion or art theft claims
4. If under a payment plan or doing an art trade, the full character rights will not be given until full payment is received
5. Be sure to check the artist ToS as well, seeing as theirs applies to the characters and adopts they make
6. You are free to do as you wish with the character as long as it follows the original artist ToS (such as change the name, backstory, or make edits within reasonable bounds)

Time and time again, scars open up, ripped and torn, bleeding away what life has brought.
Death, decay, pain and suffering.

Memories.

Nightmares of things past.
Suffering, my wings never truly heal.

The scars remain, haunting, laughing.

Happiness doesn't exist.
Smiles fade so quickly.

Tears fall.
Pain laces through the veins.

Flying has never been so hard.
Blackness.
Shadows.
Hate.
Lies.
What is love?

Why?
What have I done?

Darkness dances, glimpses of shadows.
Laughter, evil in sound.

It's mocking.
Sneering as the blood drips from my wings.

What's the point?
What is life?

Why am I here?
What have I done?
I live to make people laugh and smile.
I live for people's happiness.

Why?
Why must I suffer?
My past.
Why does it haunt?

Rip away everything.
Who needs to fly.

Bloody feathers litter the ground.
Falling.
Death.
Despair.
Pity.

Nobody cares about you.
Nobody loves you.
I've been told.
Over.
And.
Over.

It's ingrained in my mind.

People are only there because they pity you.
Ungrateful child.
You're better off dead.
Nobody wants you.

You'll never find love....

Learn to fly on broken wings.
My ass.
You learn to fly only to fall.
Watch as your wings fail.
As the past.
As the scars rip away at your wings.

You'll never fly again.
You'll never be happy.
You'll never find love.
You don't deserve to live.

It would be so easy to end it all.
Fall into the darkness.

Where is the light?
Why does nobody care?
All I see is laughter.
Sneers and smiles.

Someone help.
Somebody save me.
This living nightmare.
This haunting darkness.

Help.
Someone.
Anyone.

Why does nobody hear the screams?
I begged.
I pleaded.

I screamed as blood dripped.
Cuts.
Scars.
Pain.

I'm just a broken doll.
Just a play toy.

Something to be used.
Abused.
Broken.

To broken to ever be fixed.

Watch the blood pour down.
Eyes losing focus.
It's so easy.

The pain won't stop.
They don't care.
Nobody cares.

They watched.
They laughed.

I just want a family.
I just want to be loved.

I just want happiness.
I'm tired of being used.

Constantly falling.
Constantly screaming.

Yet.
Nobody helps.
Please.

Anyone?
I'm sorry....
What have I done wrong?
Why?

Darkness take me.