I had some good moment there week but bad ones happen more just left me big shade of my former stag self ...just all bullshit happen kind just made me emotionally a more a mess than my per normal self.... put these way even a friend or even total stranger I just fade in back in conor than just stay in moping messing that hides there.
I'll just put face of I'm ok and just sleep it away.. just keep from feeling it.
even as I type i'm in new bento feral deer av I got these week was happy moment I just sit on my butt just watch folks dance in club.

Futret - (More Than) Deer To Me (Renard's LAST USE OF THIS ACAPELLA Remix) lyrics

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As we skip through the field
It's a wonderful feeling
And the air on your antlers
Makes your wounds feel like healing
But the abuse still goes
For bucks who don't like the does
Is it so wrong to find
A stag so appealing?

But while we're caught in the headlights
Of oppression and hate
I count myself lucky
That I've got my hooven date

'Cause I'm I'm glad you're here for me
'Cause you're more than deer to me
So I'll hold you tight
No, don't be scared
There's nothing more divine
Than the love of two cervine
And we'll make it through I swear

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
By now, you should've somehow realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

As we skip through the field
It's a wonderful feeling
And the air on your antlers
Makes your wounds feel like healing
But the abuse still goes
For bucks who don't like the does
Is it so wrong to find
A stag so appealing?

But while we're caught in the headlights
Of oppression and hate
I count myself lucky
That I've got my hooven date

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
(2X)

'Cause I'm I'm glad you're here for me
'Cause you're more than deer to me
So I'll hold you tight
No, don't be scared
There's nothing more divine
Than the love of two cervine
And we'll make it through I swear

But I feel so much luck
That I have the love of one buck
But I'm glad you're with me
My beautiful stag

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really good song part few other deer related song cd of songs thank to friend found.

i grow up in 90's to now.. first time i really felt out of date when had car not turn over last week at parking lot for wallmart marketplace.. i was with my dad he told me go get something to eat both us from wendy's he gave me cash than i walk to fastfood place not very far from car while my dad waited in car.. i after payed for food i was going get ice for my dad's unsweetened tea the change drink area from behind counter for making orders to side with two funky looking machines had use touch screen to get stuff but i couldn't find where get ice for drinks.. I haven't been to fast food place in very long time my self.. frist time it made me felt so out pace with time when i normally can figure something out.

I'm practical type of tiger comes to my tech.

start playing guild wars 2 again with download free ver got charr to lvl 38

Saturday was 130th b-day for Tampa.

Lyrics.
EACH AND EVERY DAY
HIDING FROM THE SUNSHINE
WANDERING IN THE SHADE
NOT TOO OLD, NOT TOO YOUNG

EVERY NIGHT AGAIN
DANCING WITH THE MOONLIGHT
SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY
I CAN HEAR YOUR CALL…

UH UH UH
(I’m) OUT OF MY HEAD
OF MY HEART AND MY MIND
CAUSE YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CAN’T HIDE
I’M GONNA MAKE YOU MINE

OUT OF MY HEAD
OF MY HEART AND MY MIND
CAUSE I CAN FEEL HOW YOUR FLESH NOW
IS CRYING OUT FOR MORE…

AIN’T NO FAIRY TALE
WHAT I SEE IN YOUR EYES
AWAITING YOUR MISTAKE
NOT TOO CLOSE, NOT TOO FAR

SNEAKING IN THE PAIN
EVERY TRUTH BECOMES LIE
I WON’T TRUST MYSELF
ONCE I HEAR YOUR CALL…

Well last week had 90+ plus temps these kind not normal during spring for my state and it tend be be rainier... gotten some days of ran.
Just weather being unstable .

Well Ringling brothers circus is closeing after 146 years, been lot talk about it on local news in my area due not far from Palmetto.

between heat and her lately.... push me over some days make stay up to ungodly hours than sleep most of day away.. due her wanting food during wee hours of day..... She never eats all her food some days... than she call me take it away not even 5sec after i sit down to eat my own dinner....
I can be tiger at times,a bear if can't take it anymore than just goes down being deer again just wants to hide and be left alone not push in doing so much exter than need to be done and given grief for just wanting have some fun away from reality.
my life been fucked up and seem never to be clam moment....if i do it gets taken away,ruined, blow away by dust.... as my own happiness just seem turn in just bleak outlook due getting slap in face by crap and my heart getting shatter so many time just gotten to point it's dust and just numbed out look on my own love life of not trying,just ignoring signs i have interest have in person than just shrug it off and just act like it nothing.... that just how i been living to just save my self the hurt...memory and picking up pieces of my once shatter heart...
The world has no room for caring or loving some times for it seem for all times i tried and only have it snatched from me again and again.....
I'm slowing just becoming bitter to seeing love others have found... I only had one relationship started from online to rl..... lasted 3 year.... he passed away from heart attack..... i still feel guilty could been my fault .... i know should say not my fault it was his time..... thought still corss my mind.
He was one person i toke leap of faith with when told him he can move in with me.
I haven't felt that way in long while, just because all my mateships tend end up with same thing said"it's not me and it's them."
Sorry didn't live up to exceptions... i told them i have some some issues from all break ups.
sorry for these vent.. just build up for all stress my mom put me thought on daily basics.

I'm 37 today.

b-day in 1 day now.

Well my calf day is in 21 days.

omg there bring backs some old nick shows back as mad for tv movies!

Well been in in 80's to 90's before rain we had about 3 days ago i think if got right day frame in mind.. now gotten cold here in middle of spring.
These durr really confused about weather now but at lest i'm no longer suffering sinus hell now thanks to rain.
sorry been kind of deer hermit lately just when sinus fucks me i tend be not best to be around.

i been fan of NCS the releasing music free with no copyright bull shit!
NCS is NoCopyrightSounds
here few links of great music from them!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_ojhcx-wrk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHoqD47gQG8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4h-JW22YhM
there music library keep growing each day from new and up in coming djs!

Well had microwave died on me last week, phone got mess up missed call for new washing machine and did call them we got anther chance get delivered to house in march.

Most tend call me Moose than deer some times, but tell ya truth i been bit unsure saying cross between moose and reindeer but now i'm sure for real now I'm Moose.
I was called " Moose" when i was kid by my mom mainly because i was pretty wide framed person and tall just bit klutz lot of time like a Moose and makes tad more funny i was small baby.
Like Moose i tend fade out sight but when i make my self be known kind scare people with out meaning to.

if you like bear furs go on steam look up Witanlore: Dreamtime , it's bear rpg looks good.

Well my x-mas plan go see my niece is gone up in flame and along with my dad's relatives found out Wednesday,This year keep getting worse to bitter end for me.

Well got new used pc to replace my old pc that died about 2 months ago.It's AMD A8-5500 Trinity Quad-Core 3.2GHz system with 4 gig ddr 3 and using my video card form my old pc, used system damm thing runs fast.
leg keeps getting better and better.

Had problem with my right leg for while than got to point can't walk on it due to pain, it was't bad at first but more worse when helping my mom..she kind push it with more and more exter things for me to do...than all that stressed my to point can't put weight on it.
So been off my hoofs for two weeks so far starting walk on it now, slowly gettjng better now.If my mom doesn't push it again.
Other problem happen during this is my pc lcd screeen crap on me and died when was in middle trying caughg up on thing's but more behind now..going have to borrow my mom screen till get replacement my mom kind quit using her pc.
I been stuck useing my tablet for web with screen problem,

This year been one big up and and down cycles with all crazy stuff some times happens.
Though all this i always have this peaceful place in back of my mind seems never go away it's woods tend be always green but some times goes winter like when i'm unsure or just questioning my self that when i tend get visited by Huge pure white caribou with some string hanging from there antlers with little objects he tend nudge me deep in to woods to very center of this world is huge tree with very wide and huge opening with very frighten little caribou shivering in trees hollowed hole. strange thing is tree half winter and still green as heat of green trying fight back cold unknown of snow.The big caribou nudges me again go comforted little caribou so i do as lay down with him find cover in tree than pull over us as slowly fall asleep.Seem like day past when i woke to find little caribou is gone but standing at tree opening is same color caribou as little there all grown up and huge just smile at me as take me sec to see woods all green again,i get out of tree hole than follow big caribou back where i started as see him leave a fog appears as to hide him from being seeing path he takes.
The not first time this happen this been going on for while with each dought i have i mess up that happy place so i been trying not hard some times when i question my self so much.....
Caribou one creature trys save from my my own cold and icy fate in lonely world of my own thoughts.
I'm a hoofer with so many reasons say i'm not this and that i guess self defeating when i do this to my self.
I need quit doing this to my self ever time see something i like than go in questioning my self to point throw out my self than cold takes over me badly.
Who i'm is something i tend change ever time i been hurt,stressed,lonely.... I have quit that now in big way now of never be happy with my self.
i'm caribou that hide so much my antlers are pale along with rest myself....I hate my self for hiding so much just only way i know how coup with with emotionally pain.
i have so many emotionally scars from my school days, my own aunt and just crapie love life.. some have fade over time but some never totally go away tell something good happen.
my heart is my compass in this world and it so broken now i can barely use it or even say i'm in love..
I have been trying caribou comes to trials of love.
Some good news i gotten in legion beta for wow.

woot i'm 36 now,lol getting closer to my 40's slowly.