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Posted 4 months agomooo
i'm bored and need enrichment give me your most random facts xD
only if you want I just wanted to put something here while i try to brain storm a new icon or something cause brain isn't working.
i'm bored and need enrichment give me your most random facts xD
only if you want I just wanted to put something here while i try to brain storm a new icon or something cause brain isn't working.
artfight 2025
Posted a year agohttps://artfight.net/~kestral
i've joined I'd do the fancy card thing but i've lost access to the files i needed to make it
goal this year is to at least do 2-3 depending on motivation
i've joined I'd do the fancy card thing but i've lost access to the files i needed to make it
goal this year is to at least do 2-3 depending on motivation
hey look a journal out of the year
Posted a year agoi am not dead, my art motivation is slowly coming back and i have several sketchs i'm working on.... its just.. finishing it XD and uploading.
.....3 years later a journal
Posted 2 years agoartfight!
Posted 5 years agohttps://artfight.net/~kestral I'm gonna do my best to actually participate more than i did last year which was abysmal XD but ooooo i like the theme this year too
hmm
Posted 5 years agogonna be 35 next friday and i'm just like... nothing's changed really lol --shrug--
life is literally:
work
home:
sleep eat try to finish a drawing for once and go to bed.
or its come home pass out on couch eat and then go to bed.
life is literally:
work
home:
sleep eat try to finish a drawing for once and go to bed.
or its come home pass out on couch eat and then go to bed.
wooo what a year so far.
Posted 5 years agoand it sucks.
work is nuts, we have new policy changes almost every week, last week we had FOUR in three days oh god that sucked.
Worse is we had a couple CNA's that are basically going 'this is stupid we don't need to do this' and doesn't do it. and guess what. they're getting sent home for non-compliance as a first and only warning. They're behaving right now but its freaking stupid of them to just go and do that cause its OUR job to keep the people we work for safe uuuugghh.
We also had a co-worker in my department basically continuously call out sick for the past 3 weeks and 'quarantined' herself -in quotes because while she claimed to be too sick to be out of bed the same day she was seen, and video taped going to stores and well.. being NOT sick. She was finally given an ultimatum after dodging both the supervisor and director of nursing's calls that they were accepting the fact that she self terminated if they don't hear from her that day. ten minutes later she called and was told that she is working today and tomorrow and if she doesn't show up or somehow gets another note saying she 'too sick to work' she's done for.
for why they didn't just fire her, we just changed hands and the new managers weren't planning on hiring anyone if we ended up firing her and wanted to give her a chance, never mind she is a waste of space and resources.
and that is basically been my life. I'm actually drawing just trying to finish stuff I started lol.
work is nuts, we have new policy changes almost every week, last week we had FOUR in three days oh god that sucked.
Worse is we had a couple CNA's that are basically going 'this is stupid we don't need to do this' and doesn't do it. and guess what. they're getting sent home for non-compliance as a first and only warning. They're behaving right now but its freaking stupid of them to just go and do that cause its OUR job to keep the people we work for safe uuuugghh.
We also had a co-worker in my department basically continuously call out sick for the past 3 weeks and 'quarantined' herself -in quotes because while she claimed to be too sick to be out of bed the same day she was seen, and video taped going to stores and well.. being NOT sick. She was finally given an ultimatum after dodging both the supervisor and director of nursing's calls that they were accepting the fact that she self terminated if they don't hear from her that day. ten minutes later she called and was told that she is working today and tomorrow and if she doesn't show up or somehow gets another note saying she 'too sick to work' she's done for.
for why they didn't just fire her, we just changed hands and the new managers weren't planning on hiring anyone if we ended up firing her and wanted to give her a chance, never mind she is a waste of space and resources.
and that is basically been my life. I'm actually drawing just trying to finish stuff I started lol.
first day of 2020..
Posted 6 years agoand i spent most of it sleeping cause I woke up sick as fuck.
ugh.
ugh.
not gonna make a image submission lol
Posted 6 years agoi don't have the energy for it.
but
2010
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/3317684/ was still getting used to doing anything with the computer, this was a sketch that was colored in either Sai or some version of photoshop.
2019
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34428097/
literally the only thing i've really worked on in the past couple months.
but
2010
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/3317684/ was still getting used to doing anything with the computer, this was a sketch that was colored in either Sai or some version of photoshop.
2019
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34428097/
literally the only thing i've really worked on in the past couple months.
2019?
Posted 6 years agoart wise: failure. barely drew anything i have something i keep working on and working on cause I'm trying something new but .... i can barely stay motivated anymore to do anything.
most days I come home from work and I just want to sit on the couch until I just nod off and then wake up hours later to eat something and go to bed. sometimes i'll sit at the computer and play something for maybe half an hour cause that's about as long as it keeps my attention.
social life: what is that? i work i go home. that is my routine. sometimes I'll go see a movie with my sister when she isn't at her boyfriend's house or working.
mostly talk to people in the discord group i'm in but i'm just an outsider to them that was invited from a gaming server cause I guess they enjoy my company. but majority of them are on a diff timezone that when they're active i'm asleep XD -shrug-
most days I come home from work and I just want to sit on the couch until I just nod off and then wake up hours later to eat something and go to bed. sometimes i'll sit at the computer and play something for maybe half an hour cause that's about as long as it keeps my attention.
social life: what is that? i work i go home. that is my routine. sometimes I'll go see a movie with my sister when she isn't at her boyfriend's house or working.
mostly talk to people in the discord group i'm in but i'm just an outsider to them that was invited from a gaming server cause I guess they enjoy my company. but majority of them are on a diff timezone that when they're active i'm asleep XD -shrug-
artfight
Posted 6 years agohttps://artfight.net/~kestral
i'm going to try and use this to up my art production XD...
here's hoping it works
i'm going to try and use this to up my art production XD...
here's hoping it works
thoughts on something, ad state of the cats
Posted 6 years agoSalem is still is pesky butt xD
we got a new kitten his name is Goose! he's a cute little orange boy that showed up at a co-worker's house and i took him home. monday he goes in for final shots and to be desexed.
Biggest issue is our now oldest Miss, we took Miss to the vet today for a shave down and complete bloodwork.
she's in early stage kidney failure, not happy with it. but it does explain some of the issues she's been having. we are putting her on the diet the vet suggests and hope in 3months there is improvement, and she's to go back in to see what her kidneys are doing and we'll be discussing whats going to be best for her.
also kind of really want to officially open up commissions again, try to get back into drawing, but ...I'm not drawing enough for commissions.
I was thinking of just going for that shiny thing see what happens.
or..idk offer headshots or something thats easy.
idk
i'm just so freaking exhausted all the time so i probably won't bother..
we got a new kitten his name is Goose! he's a cute little orange boy that showed up at a co-worker's house and i took him home. monday he goes in for final shots and to be desexed.
Biggest issue is our now oldest Miss, we took Miss to the vet today for a shave down and complete bloodwork.
she's in early stage kidney failure, not happy with it. but it does explain some of the issues she's been having. we are putting her on the diet the vet suggests and hope in 3months there is improvement, and she's to go back in to see what her kidneys are doing and we'll be discussing whats going to be best for her.
also kind of really want to officially open up commissions again, try to get back into drawing, but ...I'm not drawing enough for commissions.
I was thinking of just going for that shiny thing see what happens.
or..idk offer headshots or something thats easy.
idk
i'm just so freaking exhausted all the time so i probably won't bother..
state of the Kes
Posted 6 years agostanding by as usual.
art is still barely existent i still draw but I think part of it is that ...I can't get used to Clip Studio and that I can't change up the freaking keys to work with my left handed-ness and it makes me not want to draw.
I lost the ability to use Sai completely cause while I BOUGHT it on the old computer it won't transfer to this computer, and the email I had with the license stuff in it went missing and Sai's company no longer lists my email as one that bought the program. and I don't have enough extra funds to purchase Sai/Sai2 again.
Photoshop is also defunct since Windows10 won't run the pirated copy. -shrug-
Also pretty sure the anxiety of the security of my job is not doing any wonders for my mindset.
found out that depending on what the county decides I will most likely loose the job I've had for the past ten years.
I work in a nursing home for those who don't remember/know.
government sucks.
several are shutting down each week
we're holding out for now
might at least have a year before shut down.
art is still barely existent i still draw but I think part of it is that ...I can't get used to Clip Studio and that I can't change up the freaking keys to work with my left handed-ness and it makes me not want to draw.
I lost the ability to use Sai completely cause while I BOUGHT it on the old computer it won't transfer to this computer, and the email I had with the license stuff in it went missing and Sai's company no longer lists my email as one that bought the program. and I don't have enough extra funds to purchase Sai/Sai2 again.
Photoshop is also defunct since Windows10 won't run the pirated copy. -shrug-
Also pretty sure the anxiety of the security of my job is not doing any wonders for my mindset.
found out that depending on what the county decides I will most likely loose the job I've had for the past ten years.
I work in a nursing home for those who don't remember/know.
government sucks.
several are shutting down each week
we're holding out for now
might at least have a year before shut down.
shiny?
Posted 6 years agoffft
...i don't think i'm going to enable them...
i don't create enough content to earn any tips.
and i'm not relevant enough pfft XD
...i don't think i'm going to enable them...
i don't create enough content to earn any tips.
and i'm not relevant enough pfft XD
....huge is huge
Posted 6 years agosooo tax time came and refund came in.
I now have a new computer
...i now know what it is to have a properly working tablet so art might be more enjoyable for me.
now i just need to figure out how to get Sai back XD I think I might just get Sai2 and see if that works.
I now have a new computer
...i now know what it is to have a properly working tablet so art might be more enjoyable for me.
now i just need to figure out how to get Sai back XD I think I might just get Sai2 and see if that works.
2018 in review?
Posted 7 years agoconsidering that the majority of the art I drew and actually uploaded barely fills the first page of my gallery for this year.
Its abysmal art wise.
part of it is no motivation
part of it is the fact that I can't fully get through even a sketch with out the wacom driver going 'nope' and suddenly loose pressure or even work.
hell I have graphic driver issues with black screens happening randomly now because my graphic driver is so out of date and I can't update because the fucking driver downloads and then goes 'COMPUTER IS TO OLD CANCELING DOWNLOAD'
for record: this machine is stuck on windows 7 32 bit, no I CAN'T go to 8 or 10 or even go to 64bit the motherboard is just to old.
life wise?
social life is non-existent, barely have any friends anymore that want anything to really do with me. yea a text here and there but... that's it.
sold the van because it was becoming too much to repair bought a smaller car that apparently isn't any better I think I might have bad luck with vehicles.
was hoping that a better car would help me try to save up for a better computer at least.... but we'll see what happens.
one of the lowest part of my year was having to put my cat Ember down at the beginning of the year due to congestive heart failure and an upper respiratory infection that would not go away no matter what we did for her. I still miss her to this day.
highlight of my year was DCC'18 meeting Jim Davis and others.
....barely watch any new shows so behind on everything.
my life is work, come home, crash on the couch, sleep for 1 to 5 hours wake up dick around on the computer and then go to bed to repeat the next day.
what do I want for 2019?
a new computer
motivation for life/drawing whatever.
i don't even care anymore
Its abysmal art wise.
part of it is no motivation
part of it is the fact that I can't fully get through even a sketch with out the wacom driver going 'nope' and suddenly loose pressure or even work.
hell I have graphic driver issues with black screens happening randomly now because my graphic driver is so out of date and I can't update because the fucking driver downloads and then goes 'COMPUTER IS TO OLD CANCELING DOWNLOAD'
for record: this machine is stuck on windows 7 32 bit, no I CAN'T go to 8 or 10 or even go to 64bit the motherboard is just to old.
life wise?
social life is non-existent, barely have any friends anymore that want anything to really do with me. yea a text here and there but... that's it.
sold the van because it was becoming too much to repair bought a smaller car that apparently isn't any better I think I might have bad luck with vehicles.
was hoping that a better car would help me try to save up for a better computer at least.... but we'll see what happens.
one of the lowest part of my year was having to put my cat Ember down at the beginning of the year due to congestive heart failure and an upper respiratory infection that would not go away no matter what we did for her. I still miss her to this day.
highlight of my year was DCC'18 meeting Jim Davis and others.
....barely watch any new shows so behind on everything.
my life is work, come home, crash on the couch, sleep for 1 to 5 hours wake up dick around on the computer and then go to bed to repeat the next day.
what do I want for 2019?
a new computer
motivation for life/drawing whatever.
i don't even care anymore
..happy holiday..
Posted 7 years agoyeahh..
happy holidays
happy holidays
BWAHAHAHHA
Posted 7 years agodisregard. the fucker was unplugged some how.
x.x
Posted 7 years ago.
just need to blugh
Posted 7 years ago...had long emotional as shit post I was gonna make.
decided that no one really cares so I'm not.
decided that no one really cares so I'm not.
that moment when..
Posted 7 years agoyou're working on an older picture..
AND REALIZE THE DAMN FACE IS CROOKED CAUSE YOU UPDATED FACIAL MARKINGS
AND REALIZE THE DAMN FACE IS CROOKED CAUSE YOU UPDATED FACIAL MARKINGS
.
Posted 7 years agoi give up
...beep...please leave a message at the sound of the tone...
Posted 7 years agonothing to see here
DCC '18 was fun
Posted 7 years agoI only went yesterday and had fun. didn't get much pictures of cosplayers cause we were more interested in wandering around and seeing stuff and hitting up a couple panels.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BkGwgYNnkTT/ got to get a picture with Jim Davis! he apparently NEVER does conventions so this was a wild opportunity to get to meet him. He's a very nice man, and he was happy to see the plush I had in my hands in such good condition. apparently its one of the original plush designs before they started making the eyes in one piece. I also had a lot of people asking what booth I bought my plush from, sorry kids... I brought it from home after I bought it at an antique store.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BkIOrqaH5hw/ here's a set with the cosplayers I did get pictures of, there were more furries there but after the rude looks my sister and I got the first time I simply said hello it was like...'yeah I'm not gonna get photos with them.' there were a bunch more there but they were either resting, or on their way somewhere, and I didn't wanna bug them. Don't know who the youngster in the partial is, she was having a great time and I kind of crack up at the fact her brother's just.. plopped down.
funny parts of con? umm Val Kilmer peeking out at people in the autograph den, he was waving at people and trying to get people from the Jim Davis line over to see him, his line was depressingly small, hes one of those actors that appeal to even the non nerds. There was a family done up as the Incredibles including a just started crawling Jack Jack, and he kind of zeroed in on my tail again but he didn't get very far LOL but it kept him occupied while the mom fixed a bit of a costume malfuntion on the older kid and I don't mind entertaining a kid for a couple minutes.
my sister and i ended up giving an interview and so that was a bit aauuh moment lol cause they kind of ambushed us.
John Barrowman was also wandering around con space again, and no one spotted him :P I kind of wish we stayed for his event, but we ended up being done with everything around five pm and ended up just heading out
http://www.love-and-hisses.com/ I also apparently have the Whimsical Whiskers logo tattoo'd on my back. we walked by their booth and my sister thought they were the Kitlings who were were wondering where they were. And Sis spotted the sign and then realized why it looked familiar we've never heard of them before yesterday I ended up buying a pair of wings for my Purrmaid
we also got some new tentacle kitties I got the Blucifer DCC Exclusive while my sister got the Cotton Candy one.
over all my sister and I had a really great time, I kind of wish I was more social and ...actively talking to people sometimes because cons are where 'more the merrier' is so much true, but alas i live in bum fuck kansas and there really isn't many if any like minded people here -.0 x3. that and I tend to self sabotage once I get to comfortable talking to people and create a reason to just... not.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BkGwgYNnkTT/ got to get a picture with Jim Davis! he apparently NEVER does conventions so this was a wild opportunity to get to meet him. He's a very nice man, and he was happy to see the plush I had in my hands in such good condition. apparently its one of the original plush designs before they started making the eyes in one piece. I also had a lot of people asking what booth I bought my plush from, sorry kids... I brought it from home after I bought it at an antique store.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BkIOrqaH5hw/ here's a set with the cosplayers I did get pictures of, there were more furries there but after the rude looks my sister and I got the first time I simply said hello it was like...'yeah I'm not gonna get photos with them.' there were a bunch more there but they were either resting, or on their way somewhere, and I didn't wanna bug them. Don't know who the youngster in the partial is, she was having a great time and I kind of crack up at the fact her brother's just.. plopped down.
funny parts of con? umm Val Kilmer peeking out at people in the autograph den, he was waving at people and trying to get people from the Jim Davis line over to see him, his line was depressingly small, hes one of those actors that appeal to even the non nerds. There was a family done up as the Incredibles including a just started crawling Jack Jack, and he kind of zeroed in on my tail again but he didn't get very far LOL but it kept him occupied while the mom fixed a bit of a costume malfuntion on the older kid and I don't mind entertaining a kid for a couple minutes.
my sister and i ended up giving an interview and so that was a bit aauuh moment lol cause they kind of ambushed us.
John Barrowman was also wandering around con space again, and no one spotted him :P I kind of wish we stayed for his event, but we ended up being done with everything around five pm and ended up just heading out
http://www.love-and-hisses.com/ I also apparently have the Whimsical Whiskers logo tattoo'd on my back. we walked by their booth and my sister thought they were the Kitlings who were were wondering where they were. And Sis spotted the sign and then realized why it looked familiar we've never heard of them before yesterday I ended up buying a pair of wings for my Purrmaid
we also got some new tentacle kitties I got the Blucifer DCC Exclusive while my sister got the Cotton Candy one.
over all my sister and I had a really great time, I kind of wish I was more social and ...actively talking to people sometimes because cons are where 'more the merrier' is so much true, but alas i live in bum fuck kansas and there really isn't many if any like minded people here -.0 x3. that and I tend to self sabotage once I get to comfortable talking to people and create a reason to just... not.
oowww
Posted 7 years agoso ...had surgery on my right wrist -not my drawing one- and oh god i can't bend the wrist at all and this is taking so long to type out and what really sucks is pain meds are not helping at all.
don't mind me i needed to whine a bit
don't mind me i needed to whine a bit
