yesterday my toilet broke thank god the maintenance man was able to find the parts, thought it was just the handle, noooo flusher and bulb were going too.
then i wake up this morning to the email from PayPal that someone attached an email to my account,went to go see whats happening and boom there's no account attached to my email. one frantic call and two very very helpful employees and three hours later, the intruder is off my account but something's being stupid and I can't log in to PayPal at the moment they think it has to do with Avast so I am gonna go talk with them. I'm also to try logging in tomorrow to see if it works if not I have to call back and get my account shut down so I can open up a new one yay -.-.
also got email saying i need to work on the Work Learning course, open it up and there's five hours worth of classes uuuughh. i'm doing a little bit at a time that's just annoying.
good thing?I finally have a headset that will work with my computer so I might be up for some streaming or something and see if that helps keep me drawing i know some artists stream just to make sure they keep on it.

also ... i think i need a discord group to join again that actually seemed to help my art block before I went and sabotaged myself XD

my birthday gonna be 33
gonna do what i usually do.
work
come home and sleep cause there's no reason to be conscious

had an idle thought earlier this week, i have enough ram now i should update my win7 to 64bit but first made sure to do research.
you know, like making sure the system itself can do 64bit nope its rated at x84 which means I'm stuck in 32bit mode for the rest of the life of this computer until I can afford a new one. maybe next tax time in case you know my car doesn't go fuck you again or some other financial bull shit happens XD

just....WHAT

DO NOT COMMENT WITH SPOILERS YOU ARE NOT TOM HOLLAND AND DON'T GET A 'AWE YOU'RE ADORABLE' PASS.

just...a ugh kind of day.

had an AMAZING morning at work, until around 9am where as soon as I got up from cleaning a toilet my side twanged. Thought nothing of it, its done this before and usually the ache goes away after walking around for a bit.
not this time, pain went up more and more as I moved around and got to the point where I was basically forced to sit get a nurse to check me out, call the DoN and my supervisor cause I apparently somehow pulled something while standing up from cleaning a freaking toilet. lol my life. but pain and pain sucks they gave me some strong pain meds and we called in our other person to come finish up as I was going home. there was no way I was finishing today up. was told that i'll need to see the work comp person on monday, and if pain gets really really bad to go to the ER. I basically decided that hot showers and baths were the best thing today and I'm feeling a little better so yay?

other suck, pretty sure that nice little car i found for mom was a fucking scam so there's that. I'm gonna just... stop helping people everything I talk or touch turn to shit. I'm prolly gonna get rid of my chat clients since I don't talk to anyone anyways...I don't actually talk to anyone anymore that isn't family or me yelling at my cat to shut up cause no matter how much attention I give him he will wail at the door for hours on end.


..i am grumpy

not much to see here, just... getting the depressing journal off my front page. still miss her and at times i keep thinking i'm gonna see her meow at me demanding chips.

flipside: Miss who is usually not a very social cat, has started coming out of her shell demanding pets treats and other shenanigans like stealing one of my doughnut holes and then running around like her tail was on fire.
Salem is salem not much has changed for him lol he's gotten a bit more clingier.

art news
thought about opening up for experimental would be head shot only but I'm still not at a place where i'm happy with art production.
I'm at a place where I sit down open up the program start working on something and then I just.. loose interest in it close with out saving and go do something else. Same thing with traditional, i start sketching and then i just loose interest.

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/DUkMPAMU8AAu5e6.jpg

I had to make the hard decision of letting Ember go today.

I haven't really made mention of it anywhere other than a few chat rooms that i occupy since I don't do life upates anywhere cause a lot of people just don't care.
But Ember had Congestive Heart Failure, she was diagnosed with it a couple of weeks ago, we had her on medication and it helped fora little. but the past week she just got worse, she was choking while eating, she couldn't breathe right and last night I think was when she started turning for the worse she was choking on her saliva/mucus and miserable. So my sister and I talked and we agreed it was time... doesn't mean that it was easy for us.


She was my heart cat, I had her with me since she was born, she chose me there was no way she'd go to another person, and when I moved out and couldn't take her with me she apparently was so depressed that she didn't go into heat -she wasn't fixed at this point- I was able to get my own place out here and bring her out and she bounced back and I will miss her chip thieving ways and all her other little quirks. she was my one constant for a long time. and then when I brought home Miss and then later on Salem, she welcomed them as well as she would anyone with a hiss and then a cold shoulder for a while. She hated strangers but those that she did like she would sit on them and not let them up.

hopefully more art. but I highly doubt it. maybe it happens maybe it doesn't.

hell maybe i'll just delete everything and call it good. wouldn't make much of a difference

the power supply came in and with a lot if hilarious moments and discord chatting with Pat finding out what the heck I did wrong .. like putting the wrong plug in the cpu plug -.p XD but it liiivves

writing this from my sister's laptop which is slow as hell.
but heads up my desktop is dead the power won't turn on. there's no light no sound i tried a new power supply that my sisters boyfriend gave me to try and see if it was in fact my power supply no dice. but yeah don't expec much from me unless i get a miracle and the beast comes back to life or if i somehow get enough money to buy a new computer.




also how the hell do you guys write on laptops this thing i so slow and annoying

so after a failed attempt at a power supply swap -other was too small/old and not strong enough anyways- and not touching the fucker after putting the original power supply back in... my computer turned itself back ON.



what the heeellll


but I am possibly going to be opening up commissions shortly to try and save up for a computer cause this .... this isn't a good sign and I'm hoping it might last me till tax time and hopefully my car doesn't pull the same shit.



Computer is still dead so yeah

nothing to see here folks.

kind of doing it most if it will be posted to my Instagram unless I do something digitall
https://www.instagram.com/kestralkitsune/

ppbbbtt

...so long story short, last week one of the games I play had a massive graphics bug that basically broke my graphics card. just updating the graphics card didn't help, it turned out that in order to fix the issue I had to do a clean install of Windows. not a problem right? wrong, I'm on Windows 7. Apparently Microsoft decided to break the freaking update servers so they can try and force people into getting windows 10. I CANT get 10, I literally will have to buy a new computer or motherboard for this one in order to update.

now why can't I do digital? THIS => api-ms-win-crt-runtime-l1-1-0-dll-is-missing-error I get every time I tried to install my Wacom Driver.
So I go look it up, and I try to download the proper files/drivers/updates. I get a "This update is not compatible" or not available blah blah blah.
so my tablet is just a fancy paper weight right now until I get this figured out and fixed. I'm and probably do some traditional stuff, not that anyone will be able to see since the scanner is also giving the THE SAME FREAKING ERROR.

Also apparently Wacom also stopped supporting the windows 7 distribution is another reason that popped up in my research.



gave me a link that fixed the dumb issue I was having -happy wiggle dance-

about your fursona/character?

mine I think was someone complaining about her hair color, its red with black tips. not original and not going to change, the only thing that changes is if its short or long -shrug- do you know how many people have that hair color for their toons?? A LOT.

funniest one was being accused of trying to steal someone's character design? and the said design, didn't look anything like mine -shrug- told the person and we had a laugh.

when did i break 200 on watchers?



hell why are so many watching me?

my art style is lame
i barely update
i don't talk to anyone
i really don't have friends cause everyone i do talk to have their own lives lol busy people are b ussyyyyy

but hey? I made 208 people want to watch me? -victory shrug-


kind of feel like i should do something for it?

monday was my 32nd birthday.


woo -wave tiny flag-

worked it came home and did nothing which was to be expected-shrug-

I think I'm going through WoW withdrawal even though I willingly stopped playing due to the fact that I can't afford it atm, and that my computer is outdated enough that I really need to update this thing if i want to play the new expansion. -shrug-

AUUUGHH basically for the past couple days my routine as I attempt to draw something goes: open up program, notice tablet not working, do the services trick, it works for ten seconds get 'wacom desktop has stopped working' or my favorite 'tablet driver not found.' -throws pen across room-..-save pen from cat-

its not like i have anything oh like a commssion that is over due that i need to finish tablet, just keep fucking up -rages-

was streaming and realize that obs had a five minute delay when i checked the status of the stream on the site it was being stupid behind and laggy... sigh.

AKA: My car is one giant tease. It died about 2 weeks ago and today the sister wanted to show her boyfriend what sound it was making to verify what we thought was the issue: Either the Alternator or the Starter, I've been leaning towards Alternator.

she goes and turns it over, and the fucker STARTS. she decides to take it around the block and see how long it lasts. She then parks it turns it off goes to turn it on and DEAD again. The boyfriend says its def the alternator, the battery must have leached enough acid to charge it up while sitting that it had a short enough go time. but yeah,....

been trying to save enough money to pay the 800 something hospital bill I still owe, the 300 other hospital bill I owe.

I really did not need the van doing this on me, plus I've been relying on my sister to take me to work since we work in the same building even if i have to go in earlier than needed be.

I am seriously amused by it going Zombie mode on us for a little while though.

oh and btw I'm pretty sure the van is gearing up for a more finite finish than just the alternator going out its been trying to die for a while and we no longer take it out of town due to issues popping up on it XD



and before anyone says it: I cannot afford a new vehicle, not even a used one, or buying one from owner. I do not have the finances right now bills come first after rent and food its only the fact we would go nuts that I even keep paying for net and cable.

hope yours are good.


we have a thunderstorm -snort-

cleared out my watch list a bit, mostly went for the inactive accounts or those that haven't uploaded in ages.

note me with your reference and demand art from me.
answer will be no. always will be. I do not do requests I've done it a few times and have always been burned by doing so.

just.. no. requests are not open they will not open. only time I will do requests if if I post a journal for it.