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Posted 4 years agoSupport me on Twitter to grow absolutely huge~<3
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Anyone knows a good source for growth/shrink sound effect...
Posted 4 years agoI am very sure I am not the first one searching for a collection of these x3~
Anybody can throw me a hint?
Anybody can throw me a hint?
A decade of lizard - Or how I started living again
Posted 5 years agoDecade over, usually nothing special. But I decided to write my little story down of how the fandom changed my life. Because I firmly believe that the furry fandom is the sole reason why I am still alive today.
Also because it fits very much that I was first exposed to the furry fandom 10 years ago in one way or another.
Before 2010:
I am very branded by my younger years as all throughout my school time (class 5 till 12, German education system is odd! ) I was an outcast and very much so... bullied into the ground. After school and job training there wasn't anything left of me other than a husk. A husk that tried to pretend everything was alright for my parents as they already suffered from losing my younger sister from dying in her sleep.
I pretty much cut contact to every person I knew at my school as they all helped in traumatizing me. So I still suffer today from various mental issues ranging from depression, social anxiety, scared of relationships and an abnormal amount of self hatred. Even today I can't look into the mirror without hating absolutely every aspect of my appearance. At my lowest points I had 2 suicide attempts which I survived and then later explained as accidents in shame.
So when entering University I pretty much only did to get away from my hometown and try to find something to do with my life.
2010: University
First time living at a dorm away from family, when not at university for courses, I was locked into my room and spent it at the internet as my only place to socialize. Though at that time I was way too shy to get out of the safety from anonymity.
As stupid as it sounds, my first contact with furries was at “writing.com” writing very very shitty giantess / macro interactive chapters for 1-2 years till I got a mail from someone who became later my friend. Pretty much the first time for me to talk with another person about my strange tastes without feeling persecuted. They even lured me out to do my first growth and macro related roleplays.
2011: Met the first person from Online IRL
During my university I was also registered at a forum of a gaming web-page for a game... Shitposting behind an anonymous profile their and just having fun with others. At least till the person next to me in the computer lab saw at what web-page I was and started up a conversation that they also are registered there and play the game.
Ouch... I was so fucking scared at that very moment. Because I had a very irrational fear of people finding out who I am and that I am 'fat' IRL. Because I connected that very hard with being bullied during my school days. It turned out as not being that bad as we kinda became friends and supported each other during the university times. Pretty much my only friend I had during studying, which was kinda odd. But pretty much lost contact after graduating as I am super bad at keeping in touch with people.
-
On further note at that year I first registered at F-list and Furaffinity and started to develop my characters and roleplayed. Even more so started to get art and meeting my first friends in the fandom.
2012: Bachelor of Engineering
After 3 years of studying I finally graduated. I was pretty average with a... somewhere between an A and a B as in Germany there are different sorts of grades. I wasn't really bullied at university, but my lack of social skills pretty much prevented me from forming meaningful bonds. I pretty much just went from start to finish with as little human interaction as possible, retreating back to the internet as soon as possible as it was my only way at the time to socialize.
2013: Start working as an Engineer
I was maybe job hunting for 2 months until I got a position as an engineer at an office about a 2 hour drive away from home and my university. I didn't really care as being away from home to isolate myself furthermore from everything that reminded me of the past. In retrospect it was not a bright idea as it turned out that one of my bosses there was a real sociopath who at times made my life hell.
2014-2015: Working, gathering experience, further retreating into my husk
I can't tell anything special about these years as I further and further started to drift away from life. I just existed and was slowly, but steadily eating myself into an early grave. At my worst time I was at 370 pounds and I just did not care. I hated myself so much that I was not giving a fuck if I would someday just die from obesity. I had no much will to change anything about myself. I overcompensated my lack of self worth by showering the little friends I had with gifts and just ordering art behind their back with their characters as a surprise. I still suffered from depression which moved in a pendulum motion. At some days I was okay and happy... while at others I suffered really heavily. Starting destroying stuff in my home and even self harming. I wasn't really suicidal anymore, but rather didn't care for my future. Socially isolating myself further and further while wearing a mask at work that pretended to be a normal human being.
2016: Eurofurence 22, First Furry convention
After hearing from a friend from their convention experience, I kinda decided I should try that as well. Asked them if they would take me along next time in order for me to not entirely alone their as I had no idea what was waiting for me there.
Pretty much my first vacation I spent outside from my home, traveling to Berlin via train and being a nervous wreck the first day at the convention. I really had no idea how to deal with this and was just curling up all shivering and sweating on a couch till my friend could pick me up. It was very surreal for me and it took a long long while for me to slowly open up and experiencing a bit more of the convention.
I met another friend there I knew a little bit from talking online and was almost too scared to approach them as my mind was flooded with the thoughts “I am just a bother, they will hate me, better not try than being rejected”
But it turned out to be the right move to meet them! I pretty much winged them the whole remaining convention as they knew a lot better how to navigated a convention than me. This way I managed to meet even more people. Attend my first macro meet and vore meet. Trying to come out of my shell a bit more. Being utterly stunned that nobody was hating me and just accepting me for the way I was. Very unfamiliar experiences for me. People just accepted that I am a giant lizard, which opened up something inside me that I thought was long dead and rotten.
Towards the end of the convention I briefly saw the fursuit of my future maker! I was way too scared and shy to approached but I remember that I absolutely loved the fursuit.... yeah... it might have been the padded hips! Very wide feminine hips on a fursuit... I immediately loved that concept. Pretty much what sparked a few months later after the con for me to start changing my life forever.
Starting to work out and stop eating trash. Pretty much making an 180 with my life.
2017: Started to loosing weight
A lot of changes happened in the years afterward. I registered at the local gym and am going there regularly ever since. Eating nearly vegetarian and healthy whenever I can. Pretty much working towards getting a body shape to have a fursuit like the one I saw.
I searched the whole internet and with the help of YouTube, figured out who was the person owning and making the fursuit, getting very committed to commission her for one when she opened up her fursuit business.
Also from that point onwards I accepted Lilith as my sona, before that she was merely a character I owned. She pretty much embodies everything I want to be. Big, strong and confident. Being powerful enough to help out all of her friends in need.
2018: Got my fursuit
I failed to meet my weight goals though, but still opted to get a partial fursuit to explore the suiting.
Eurofurence became my convention therefore which I visit every year now. Learning more friends know there with each visit.
I am still combating my demons from the past. They got severely weakened though with the help of my friends, but to this day I am still suffering.
2019: First time in the US for MFF
The current year. Lot of stuff happened from my work life becoming much more stable.
Yet I still suffered from really bad depressive episodes. So much that a friend convinced me to tell my sister and doctor about it. I took my first steps towards self improvement by going to a psychotherapist now, getting the counseling I need. Even after half a year of therapy I still feel there is a long way ahead of me to overcome all of the things broken and wrong inside me.
I traveled for the first time to the US and met my friends there I know now for almost a decade. It was the most positive experience in my life. The last days of the convention I barely noticed my self hated and my issues with appearance and gender. Friends truly can help to heal a broken soul.
2020: Onwards
I don't know what will await me, but I know that with the help of my friends I can make it. I very much feel that I wasted at least 5 years of my life by socially isolating myself. To this day I was in no relationship due to me being scared irrationally of rejection. Maybe someday I can reach a state to reach out to somebody, but that is still in the future.
For now I am just glad that I found at least some fertile ground to repair and regrow my soul... wow that sounded really bad! Well I pretty much poured forth my decade of shit I went through. Mostly venting and therapeutic!
Also because it fits very much that I was first exposed to the furry fandom 10 years ago in one way or another.
Before 2010:
I am very branded by my younger years as all throughout my school time (class 5 till 12, German education system is odd! ) I was an outcast and very much so... bullied into the ground. After school and job training there wasn't anything left of me other than a husk. A husk that tried to pretend everything was alright for my parents as they already suffered from losing my younger sister from dying in her sleep.
I pretty much cut contact to every person I knew at my school as they all helped in traumatizing me. So I still suffer today from various mental issues ranging from depression, social anxiety, scared of relationships and an abnormal amount of self hatred. Even today I can't look into the mirror without hating absolutely every aspect of my appearance. At my lowest points I had 2 suicide attempts which I survived and then later explained as accidents in shame.
So when entering University I pretty much only did to get away from my hometown and try to find something to do with my life.
2010: University
First time living at a dorm away from family, when not at university for courses, I was locked into my room and spent it at the internet as my only place to socialize. Though at that time I was way too shy to get out of the safety from anonymity.
As stupid as it sounds, my first contact with furries was at “writing.com” writing very very shitty giantess / macro interactive chapters for 1-2 years till I got a mail from someone who became later my friend. Pretty much the first time for me to talk with another person about my strange tastes without feeling persecuted. They even lured me out to do my first growth and macro related roleplays.
2011: Met the first person from Online IRL
During my university I was also registered at a forum of a gaming web-page for a game... Shitposting behind an anonymous profile their and just having fun with others. At least till the person next to me in the computer lab saw at what web-page I was and started up a conversation that they also are registered there and play the game.
Ouch... I was so fucking scared at that very moment. Because I had a very irrational fear of people finding out who I am and that I am 'fat' IRL. Because I connected that very hard with being bullied during my school days. It turned out as not being that bad as we kinda became friends and supported each other during the university times. Pretty much my only friend I had during studying, which was kinda odd. But pretty much lost contact after graduating as I am super bad at keeping in touch with people.
-
On further note at that year I first registered at F-list and Furaffinity and started to develop my characters and roleplayed. Even more so started to get art and meeting my first friends in the fandom.
2012: Bachelor of Engineering
After 3 years of studying I finally graduated. I was pretty average with a... somewhere between an A and a B as in Germany there are different sorts of grades. I wasn't really bullied at university, but my lack of social skills pretty much prevented me from forming meaningful bonds. I pretty much just went from start to finish with as little human interaction as possible, retreating back to the internet as soon as possible as it was my only way at the time to socialize.
2013: Start working as an Engineer
I was maybe job hunting for 2 months until I got a position as an engineer at an office about a 2 hour drive away from home and my university. I didn't really care as being away from home to isolate myself furthermore from everything that reminded me of the past. In retrospect it was not a bright idea as it turned out that one of my bosses there was a real sociopath who at times made my life hell.
2014-2015: Working, gathering experience, further retreating into my husk
I can't tell anything special about these years as I further and further started to drift away from life. I just existed and was slowly, but steadily eating myself into an early grave. At my worst time I was at 370 pounds and I just did not care. I hated myself so much that I was not giving a fuck if I would someday just die from obesity. I had no much will to change anything about myself. I overcompensated my lack of self worth by showering the little friends I had with gifts and just ordering art behind their back with their characters as a surprise. I still suffered from depression which moved in a pendulum motion. At some days I was okay and happy... while at others I suffered really heavily. Starting destroying stuff in my home and even self harming. I wasn't really suicidal anymore, but rather didn't care for my future. Socially isolating myself further and further while wearing a mask at work that pretended to be a normal human being.
2016: Eurofurence 22, First Furry convention
After hearing from a friend from their convention experience, I kinda decided I should try that as well. Asked them if they would take me along next time in order for me to not entirely alone their as I had no idea what was waiting for me there.
Pretty much my first vacation I spent outside from my home, traveling to Berlin via train and being a nervous wreck the first day at the convention. I really had no idea how to deal with this and was just curling up all shivering and sweating on a couch till my friend could pick me up. It was very surreal for me and it took a long long while for me to slowly open up and experiencing a bit more of the convention.
I met another friend there I knew a little bit from talking online and was almost too scared to approach them as my mind was flooded with the thoughts “I am just a bother, they will hate me, better not try than being rejected”
But it turned out to be the right move to meet them! I pretty much winged them the whole remaining convention as they knew a lot better how to navigated a convention than me. This way I managed to meet even more people. Attend my first macro meet and vore meet. Trying to come out of my shell a bit more. Being utterly stunned that nobody was hating me and just accepting me for the way I was. Very unfamiliar experiences for me. People just accepted that I am a giant lizard, which opened up something inside me that I thought was long dead and rotten.
Towards the end of the convention I briefly saw the fursuit of my future maker! I was way too scared and shy to approached but I remember that I absolutely loved the fursuit.... yeah... it might have been the padded hips! Very wide feminine hips on a fursuit... I immediately loved that concept. Pretty much what sparked a few months later after the con for me to start changing my life forever.
Starting to work out and stop eating trash. Pretty much making an 180 with my life.
2017: Started to loosing weight
A lot of changes happened in the years afterward. I registered at the local gym and am going there regularly ever since. Eating nearly vegetarian and healthy whenever I can. Pretty much working towards getting a body shape to have a fursuit like the one I saw.
I searched the whole internet and with the help of YouTube, figured out who was the person owning and making the fursuit, getting very committed to commission her for one when she opened up her fursuit business.
Also from that point onwards I accepted Lilith as my sona, before that she was merely a character I owned. She pretty much embodies everything I want to be. Big, strong and confident. Being powerful enough to help out all of her friends in need.
2018: Got my fursuit
I failed to meet my weight goals though, but still opted to get a partial fursuit to explore the suiting.
Eurofurence became my convention therefore which I visit every year now. Learning more friends know there with each visit.
I am still combating my demons from the past. They got severely weakened though with the help of my friends, but to this day I am still suffering.
2019: First time in the US for MFF
The current year. Lot of stuff happened from my work life becoming much more stable.
Yet I still suffered from really bad depressive episodes. So much that a friend convinced me to tell my sister and doctor about it. I took my first steps towards self improvement by going to a psychotherapist now, getting the counseling I need. Even after half a year of therapy I still feel there is a long way ahead of me to overcome all of the things broken and wrong inside me.
I traveled for the first time to the US and met my friends there I know now for almost a decade. It was the most positive experience in my life. The last days of the convention I barely noticed my self hated and my issues with appearance and gender. Friends truly can help to heal a broken soul.
2020: Onwards
I don't know what will await me, but I know that with the help of my friends I can make it. I very much feel that I wasted at least 5 years of my life by socially isolating myself. To this day I was in no relationship due to me being scared irrationally of rejection. Maybe someday I can reach a state to reach out to somebody, but that is still in the future.
For now I am just glad that I found at least some fertile ground to repair and regrow my soul... wow that sounded really bad! Well I pretty much poured forth my decade of shit I went through. Mostly venting and therapeutic!
MFF 2019 Con Report - How to lizard at a convention..
Posted 5 years agoHo boy D:!
It's that time of the year again when the lizard decides to go on an adventure... AND AN ADVENTURE IT WAS!
So many new things from booking flights and handling Airports and trying to navigate in a foreign country.
Never been to the US but definatly wanted to go there... even more as I get to meet my closest friends I know since my earlierest time in the fandom.
Was quite the travel @3@
Starting at wednesday morning to drive to a parking service, which took me then with a shuttle to the airport.
Followed by Airport shenanigans of Lizard learning how to get to places D:!
Getting my flight to Coppenhagen then and having my 20$ worst ever Denmark Pizza... Tweeting about Smörebrod stuff (WHICH IS AN IMPORTANT PLOT DETAIL)
Cause
did some detective work and concluded from my tweets, that we are on the same flight. Snooping out my seat and suddenly surprising me! Was a nice surprise as I met them at Eurofurence years back, which was really fun as well~
Making my way to the loews and being really really high energy! Excited to meet all my friends and stuff.
Just then the bomb hit.
All the cool macro furries that were already there have been assembled at the Hyatt bar and having fun. Followed by my self esteem hitting rock bottom and my social anxiety kicking in full gear. All I could think at that moment was how ugly and undeserving of friends I am and that they will probably be much happier without me. So I just spent the entire night in bed crying pretty much.
Was nice though that
and 
tried to invite me over, but after hearing who else was all there, my esteem dropped even more! I didn't felt worthy at all to be with so many people I consider so much freaking cooler than myself. So my first night was pretty much just recovering from that blow to my mental breakdown. Was alone also cause my roommate hasn't made it to the hotel yet and would come a day later than me.
Next day was slow start with me just getting myself ready and just wandering early at the morning across the whole hotel and convention area, getting myself familiar with everything. Pretty much just 2 hours of me walking all across the place and being alone, checking social media and messengers who else was around. After some chatting I finally met up with
who was so nice to warm me up a bit. Took me up to his room to meet a few others. Also finding out that one of them was 
which I had been talking before. I was still pretty stiff and awkward at that time so didn't do much other than being shy and reserved.
Then found out that
was lost somewhere on a table! Likely being Shrunk by 
Figured out I can meet her too! Having awkward search while not knowing how she looks like x3~ but we figured that out~ as she is even more adorable in person than being a tiny racoon~ got to hang out with them and meet even more people. Finally starting to not feel like utter garbage and having some fun!
Tagging along to some macro/micro furry nomfest at the Hofbräuhaus and probably meeting even more people that I forgot now @3@ But I certainly remember
who is probably one of the nicest and jolliest person I met so far... and very deserving on getting stomped on!
Later that day I got to hang out with June, Matty and
to watch some cartoons ,w, which was also very nice!
Then I finally got to greet my roommate!
who was a real sweetheart to me ,w, taking care of me lots when I was struggling with myself and handling me while in fursuit. Got to enjoy LineCon with them and meeting even more peeps! I wanted to get registered as soon as possible so I can use my time better to fursuit!
Probably shouldn't go into all the details or else this Journal will be ENDLESS....
Here a quick rundown of the events happening D:
Picking up our badges from
together with 
and friends!
Having Breakfast at Dennies and bumping into
and friends!
Storming the Artist Alley and meeting all the great artists I didn't even knew where there ... my wallet melted x3
Got some commission from Mabo,
, 
, 
, 
, 
... and won a raffle to get a sketch by 
... with people already being envious about that x3... so my wallet is offically dead at this point!
Got myself a new bandana cause my old one was almost a gang signifier x3 so now I am wearing godzilla instead.
Having Chicago Deep Dish Pizza party with Torres!
Macro meet shenanigans where I met FAR TOO MANY PEOPLE TO LIST @3@
Fat Fur meeting afterwards at the Consuite along with all the free food x3
Fursuiting a lot with friends and being a total snuggle pest
Watching a movie "Promare" with a lot of friends ,3, thanks to
for organizing all of it
Having a Pizza Smash bros party minus the smash hosted by
and 
while being in fursuit! Derping all around
Being Stuck at the Hyatt in the middle of the night cause I was at the FURTHEST AWAY HOTEL and didn't want to walk back alone.
Had a bad expierence earlier by walking in the dark towards the convention and people just Honking and yelling things at me from their car.
But Ian and
both helped me by getting me a taxi back ;w; was super nice of them!
Breakfast buffet with
and 
both of which are super sweet~<3
Photoshoot with
and Ian to get some good macro fursuit liz pictures~<3
Shocking
that we met before during on F-chat
Generally hanging out with all the people and then
being a sweety and driving me to my hotel also in the middle of the night... did suck hard that I was located at one of the hotels which weren't connected via skybridges.
Was nice meeting old friends and new friends!
(WHO I REALLY SHOULD HAVE JUST DRAGGED ALONG!!!) thesammon freebird11 RaddaRaem Cheeki BOTH SNAKES ~<3 Pliskin Atimist photonman2 (who kept giving me candy!) starforge Kyo_Mizuki zorais drayvongoff Kerneldecoy Perenthis ... hek there were just too many to list and I probably forgot important ones too xwx!!! SO SORRY IF YOU ARE NOT LISTED AAAAHHHH!!!
Last day was quite the emotional rollercoaster!
Seeing off my roommate and receiving a gift from them ;W; which was super sweet!
Visiting Ruth, Zori and bigvixie before they all had to depart.
Spending the rest of the afternoon with Vixie and Stormy trying not to cry. Giving plenty of comfort hugs and lots of cuddles.
Was definatly one of the hardest moments to depart from the Hyatt.
STAWP! AAAAAAAAH ;W; during the last few days of the con I wasn't even thinking about how much I usually hate myself, was just having so much fun with friends. Hope I can return soon again and HEK AND SORRY I CANNOT LINK EVERYONE HERE; JUST TOO FREAKIN MANY AAAAAAAAAAhhhhhh
It's that time of the year again when the lizard decides to go on an adventure... AND AN ADVENTURE IT WAS!
So many new things from booking flights and handling Airports and trying to navigate in a foreign country.
Never been to the US but definatly wanted to go there... even more as I get to meet my closest friends I know since my earlierest time in the fandom.
Was quite the travel @3@
Starting at wednesday morning to drive to a parking service, which took me then with a shuttle to the airport.
Followed by Airport shenanigans of Lizard learning how to get to places D:!
Getting my flight to Coppenhagen then and having my 20$ worst ever Denmark Pizza... Tweeting about Smörebrod stuff (WHICH IS AN IMPORTANT PLOT DETAIL)
Cause
did some detective work and concluded from my tweets, that we are on the same flight. Snooping out my seat and suddenly surprising me! Was a nice surprise as I met them at Eurofurence years back, which was really fun as well~Making my way to the loews and being really really high energy! Excited to meet all my friends and stuff.
Just then the bomb hit.
All the cool macro furries that were already there have been assembled at the Hyatt bar and having fun. Followed by my self esteem hitting rock bottom and my social anxiety kicking in full gear. All I could think at that moment was how ugly and undeserving of friends I am and that they will probably be much happier without me. So I just spent the entire night in bed crying pretty much.
Was nice though that
and 
tried to invite me over, but after hearing who else was all there, my esteem dropped even more! I didn't felt worthy at all to be with so many people I consider so much freaking cooler than myself. So my first night was pretty much just recovering from that blow to my mental breakdown. Was alone also cause my roommate hasn't made it to the hotel yet and would come a day later than me.Next day was slow start with me just getting myself ready and just wandering early at the morning across the whole hotel and convention area, getting myself familiar with everything. Pretty much just 2 hours of me walking all across the place and being alone, checking social media and messengers who else was around. After some chatting I finally met up with
who was so nice to warm me up a bit. Took me up to his room to meet a few others. Also finding out that one of them was 
which I had been talking before. I was still pretty stiff and awkward at that time so didn't do much other than being shy and reserved.Then found out that
was lost somewhere on a table! Likely being Shrunk by 
Figured out I can meet her too! Having awkward search while not knowing how she looks like x3~ but we figured that out~ as she is even more adorable in person than being a tiny racoon~ got to hang out with them and meet even more people. Finally starting to not feel like utter garbage and having some fun!
Tagging along to some macro/micro furry nomfest at the Hofbräuhaus and probably meeting even more people that I forgot now @3@ But I certainly remember
who is probably one of the nicest and jolliest person I met so far... and very deserving on getting stomped on!Later that day I got to hang out with June, Matty and
to watch some cartoons ,w, which was also very nice!Then I finally got to greet my roommate!
who was a real sweetheart to me ,w, taking care of me lots when I was struggling with myself and handling me while in fursuit. Got to enjoy LineCon with them and meeting even more peeps! I wanted to get registered as soon as possible so I can use my time better to fursuit!Probably shouldn't go into all the details or else this Journal will be ENDLESS....
Here a quick rundown of the events happening D:
Picking up our badges from
together with 
and friends!Having Breakfast at Dennies and bumping into
and friends!Storming the Artist Alley and meeting all the great artists I didn't even knew where there ... my wallet melted x3
Got some commission from Mabo,
, 
, 
, 
, 
... and won a raffle to get a sketch by 
... with people already being envious about that x3... so my wallet is offically dead at this point!Got myself a new bandana cause my old one was almost a gang signifier x3 so now I am wearing godzilla instead.
Having Chicago Deep Dish Pizza party with Torres!
Macro meet shenanigans where I met FAR TOO MANY PEOPLE TO LIST @3@
Fat Fur meeting afterwards at the Consuite along with all the free food x3
Fursuiting a lot with friends and being a total snuggle pest
Watching a movie "Promare" with a lot of friends ,3, thanks to
for organizing all of itHaving a Pizza Smash bros party minus the smash hosted by
and 
while being in fursuit! Derping all aroundBeing Stuck at the Hyatt in the middle of the night cause I was at the FURTHEST AWAY HOTEL and didn't want to walk back alone.
Had a bad expierence earlier by walking in the dark towards the convention and people just Honking and yelling things at me from their car.
But Ian and
both helped me by getting me a taxi back ;w; was super nice of them!Breakfast buffet with
and 
both of which are super sweet~<3Photoshoot with
and Ian to get some good macro fursuit liz pictures~<3Shocking
that we met before during on F-chatGenerally hanging out with all the people and then
being a sweety and driving me to my hotel also in the middle of the night... did suck hard that I was located at one of the hotels which weren't connected via skybridges.Was nice meeting old friends and new friends!
(WHO I REALLY SHOULD HAVE JUST DRAGGED ALONG!!!) thesammon freebird11 RaddaRaem Cheeki BOTH SNAKES ~<3 Pliskin Atimist photonman2 (who kept giving me candy!) starforge Kyo_Mizuki zorais drayvongoff Kerneldecoy Perenthis ... hek there were just too many to list and I probably forgot important ones too xwx!!! SO SORRY IF YOU ARE NOT LISTED AAAAHHHH!!!Last day was quite the emotional rollercoaster!
Seeing off my roommate and receiving a gift from them ;W; which was super sweet!
Visiting Ruth, Zori and bigvixie before they all had to depart.
Spending the rest of the afternoon with Vixie and Stormy trying not to cry. Giving plenty of comfort hugs and lots of cuddles.
Was definatly one of the hardest moments to depart from the Hyatt.
STAWP! AAAAAAAAH ;W; during the last few days of the con I wasn't even thinking about how much I usually hate myself, was just having so much fun with friends. Hope I can return soon again and HEK AND SORRY I CANNOT LINK EVERYONE HERE; JUST TOO FREAKIN MANY AAAAAAAAAAhhhhhh
MFF 2019 MEME THING OMG!!!
Posted 6 years agoQ: Where are you staying?
A: Loews Chicago O'Hare Hotel
Q: Means of transportation?
A: Home => Car to Parkinglot => Shuttle to Airport => Plane to copenhagen => Plan to Chicago => Shuttle to Hotel x3x!
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Am staying with alterationartist
Q: What is your gender?
A: Lizardqueen!
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Forever alone hermit!
Q: How old are you?
A: 32... uffff...
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Fursuiting around probably!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: @3@ whoever wants me to be around! Prolly hide behind whitedragon and alterationartist
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my partial~
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: You are playing with fire!
Q: Can I touch you?
A: If it's hugs! Or else I bite~
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Hugs are always good~
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I don't sell anything, so probably not!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I rawr a lot! But steal all the friends for snuggles
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: @3@ will see... EF next year
Q: Attending any events?
A: NO IDEA!!! WILL BE SPONTANIOUS
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Look up!
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: No plans, will decided spontaniously
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: ... Giant lizard
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
A: Loews Chicago O'Hare Hotel
Q: Means of transportation?
A: Home => Car to Parkinglot => Shuttle to Airport => Plane to copenhagen => Plan to Chicago => Shuttle to Hotel x3x!
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Am staying with
alterationartistQ: What is your gender?
A: Lizardqueen!
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Forever alone hermit!
Q: How old are you?
A: 32... uffff...
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Fursuiting around probably!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: @3@ whoever wants me to be around! Prolly hide behind
whitedragon and alterationartistQ: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my partial~
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: You are playing with fire!
Q: Can I touch you?
A: If it's hugs! Or else I bite~
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Hugs are always good~
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I don't sell anything, so probably not!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I rawr a lot! But steal all the friends for snuggles
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: @3@ will see... EF next year
Q: Attending any events?
A: NO IDEA!!! WILL BE SPONTANIOUS
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Look up!
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: No plans, will decided spontaniously
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: ... Giant lizard
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
EF 25 meme ... ALMOST ALL STAYED THE SAME!
Posted 6 years agoQ: Where are you staying?
A: A lizard got adopted and is able to stay at the Estrel hotel itself!
Q: Means of transportation?
A: This year I arrive by car, gonna be a 7 hour drive.
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Adopted by
itchigo-icetalons
Q: What is your gender?
A: Lizardqueen!
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Forever alone hermit!
Q: How old are you?
A: 32... uffff...
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Fursuiting around probably!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: Being an emotional support lizard for
forgeworks 
bennythedarkdragon 
artherion 
draxi 
switchmegawolf 
redblackdragon 
TomTheDragon87 
harokulongtail 
forceswerwolf 
gekk0 itchigo-icetalons 
schatti
I PROBABLY FORGOT HALF OF THE PEOPLE I LIKE TO MEET!!!!
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my partial~ https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....49258264711175
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: You are playing with fire!
Q: Can I touch you?
A: If it's hugs! Or else I bite~
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Hugs are always good~
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I don't sell anything, so probably not!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I rawr a lot! But steal all the friends for snuggles
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: Planning currently for MFF
Q: Attending any events?
A: Fursuit parade!... wait that got cancelled... Also Pawpetshow... Macro meet... Vore meet... probably a few panels!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Look up!
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: No plans, will decided spontaniously
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: ... Giant lizard
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
A: A lizard got adopted and is able to stay at the Estrel hotel itself!
Q: Means of transportation?
A: This year I arrive by car, gonna be a 7 hour drive.
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Adopted by
itchigo-icetalonsQ: What is your gender?
A: Lizardqueen!
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Forever alone hermit!
Q: How old are you?
A: 32... uffff...
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Fursuiting around probably!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: Being an emotional support lizard for
forgeworks 
bennythedarkdragon 
artherion 
draxi 
switchmegawolf 
redblackdragon 
TomTheDragon87 
harokulongtail 
forceswerwolf 
gekk0 itchigo-icetalons 
schattiI PROBABLY FORGOT HALF OF THE PEOPLE I LIKE TO MEET!!!!
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my partial~ https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....49258264711175
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: You are playing with fire!
Q: Can I touch you?
A: If it's hugs! Or else I bite~
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: Hugs are always good~
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I don't sell anything, so probably not!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I rawr a lot! But steal all the friends for snuggles
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: Planning currently for MFF
Q: Attending any events?
A: Fursuit parade!... wait that got cancelled... Also Pawpetshow... Macro meet... Vore meet... probably a few panels!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Look up!
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: No plans, will decided spontaniously
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: ... Giant lizard
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
MFF this year anyone?
Posted 6 years agoo: Still trying to assess who else is going?
I plan to book hotel soonish before registration horror starts!
I plan to book hotel soonish before registration horror starts!
Eurofurence 25 - Anybody still looking for a lizard roommate
Posted 6 years agoHeya!
D:
I will be at Eurofurence 25 this year!
https://www.eurofurence.org/EF25/
But I didn't get a room at the main hotel.
For now I have a emergency room at a nearby hotel <w<
But still would be cool if somebody who has a room there is still looking for someone to room with D:!
I am pretty friendly and easy to deal with!
I only use the room to sleep and store my fursuit!
If you got a room or know somebody ;w; just spread the message!
D:
I will be at Eurofurence 25 this year!
https://www.eurofurence.org/EF25/
But I didn't get a room at the main hotel.
For now I have a emergency room at a nearby hotel <w<
But still would be cool if somebody who has a room there is still looking for someone to room with D:!
I am pretty friendly and easy to deal with!
I only use the room to sleep and store my fursuit!
If you got a room or know somebody ;w; just spread the message!
I am not good at words!
Posted 6 years agoMurry Grimas!
This years wishlist meme!
Posted 6 years agoSince everyone is doing it~ so am I!
I wish to hug all my friends super tight and drown them in Lizardsmooches~<3
...
that was it!
Thanks for reading ~<3
I wish to hug all my friends super tight and drown them in Lizardsmooches~<3
...
that was it!
Thanks for reading ~<3
Eurofurence 24 meme!
Posted 7 years agoQ: Where are you staying?
A: Luckily the third year in a row directly at the Estrel Hotel c: Makes things a lot easier to test out my new fursuit
Q: Means of transportation?
A: By train! After seeing how huge the partial fursuit is… I regret that I didn‘t arrange for arriving with my car!
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Originally I planned to room with
renaayama , but he had to cancel D: Now I am rooming with 
darkwargreymon
Q: What is your gender?
A: ... does Hermaphrodite still count :o~?
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Still alone... should stop eating all my friends x3~
Q: How old are you?
A: 31... <w< am I grewmane yet?
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German, English and RAWRish c:
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Hopefully suiting! Visiting panels and meets... teasing friends!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: ... I seriously don't have a core group to retreat to this year... so I am really worried to be lonely most of the time =3=
But I will happily meet up with bennythedarkdragon 
ap-dc artherion draxi switchmegawolf 
geltydrake redblackdragon TomTheDragon87 harokulongtail forceswerwolf gekk0 
SpetsnazFox itchigo-icetalons
I PROBABLY FORGOT HALF OF THE PEOPLE I LIKE TO MEET!!!!
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my new partial~ https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....49258264711175
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: Careful to not end up under my huge paws then x3~
Q: Can I touch you?
A: Only above the beltline! And ask first >:3
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: If I know you and we both comfy! I will see how it works out in suit how comfy I am with hugging people c:
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: Sure! But I will still stomp you ;3~
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I certainly am! I stomp my victims quick and painless!
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: Currently only EF! I might look into going to East as well now
Q: Attending any events?
A: Fursuit parade! Also Pawpetshow... Macro meet... Vore meet... probably a few panels!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Purple hair again... just this year it's a darker purple x3 Hair dye will never be perfect...
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: @w@ This year I might look into getting a piece from
vader-san !
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: Stomping paws... snapping jaws.. excessive Rawrs....
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
A: Luckily the third year in a row directly at the Estrel Hotel c: Makes things a lot easier to test out my new fursuit
Q: Means of transportation?
A: By train! After seeing how huge the partial fursuit is… I regret that I didn‘t arrange for arriving with my car!
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Originally I planned to room with
renaayama , but he had to cancel D: Now I am rooming with 
darkwargreymonQ: What is your gender?
A: ... does Hermaphrodite still count :o~?
Q: Relationship Status:
A: Still alone... should stop eating all my friends x3~
Q: How old are you?
A: 31... <w< am I grewmane yet?
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German, English and RAWRish c:
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Hopefully suiting! Visiting panels and meets... teasing friends!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: ... I seriously don't have a core group to retreat to this year... so I am really worried to be lonely most of the time =3=
But I will happily meet up with
bennythedarkdragon 
ap-dc artherion draxi switchmegawolf 
geltydrake redblackdragon TomTheDragon87 harokulongtail forceswerwolf gekk0 
SpetsnazFox itchigo-icetalons I PROBABLY FORGOT HALF OF THE PEOPLE I LIKE TO MEET!!!!
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: I bring along my new partial~ https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....49258264711175
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: Careful to not end up under my huge paws then x3~
Q: Can I touch you?
A: Only above the beltline! And ask first >:3
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: I dunno if you can! You need to be really really loud so I can hear you up here! But I gladly have a chat c:
Q: Can I hug you?
A: If I know you and we both comfy! I will see how it works out in suit how comfy I am with hugging people c:
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: When I wear my suit.. certainly!
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: Yes please~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I drink a bit of alcohol! No hard liquirs, but I do enjoy cocktails and stuff
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: Sure! But I will still stomp you ;3~
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: I decide on a case by case basis x3~
Q: Can we hang out?
A: Sure! I will be around c:
Q: Are you nice?
A: I certainly am! I stomp my victims quick and painless!
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: Currently only EF! I might look into going to East as well now
Q: Attending any events?
A: Fursuit parade! Also Pawpetshow... Macro meet... Vore meet... probably a few panels!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: Purple hair again... just this year it's a darker purple x3 Hair dye will never be perfect...
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: I always look into having dinner with a group of friends! It's the best kind of dinner
Q: Are you buying art?
A: @w@ This year I might look into getting a piece from
vader-san !Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: Stomping paws... snapping jaws.. excessive Rawrs....
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: Twitter and Telegramm? x3
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: I might not fit inside a regular room!
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: All the rawring is exhausting x3~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I am terrrrrriiibbble at remembering people D: I AM SORRY!!!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: I will be mostly outside my room at the con!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: Is it about your stomped hometown... LOOK I AM SORRY... wait I am not...
Thanks for all the birthday wishes <3
Posted 7 years agoThey mean a lot to me as it shows some people and friends still care ,w,
Even though I am bad at this whole socializing thing!
Even though I am bad at this whole socializing thing!
April's fool
Posted 7 years agoJust in case it went over some people's head x3....
ofc I didn't change my colors to a simple inversion...
ofc I didn't change my colors to a simple inversion...
IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE!!! ... new colors of my Sona!
Posted 7 years agoI just want to make it clear o:!
I decided to change the main colors of my Sona: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26866471/
<w< still want to hear your all feedback! PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
Be honest please!
I decided to change the main colors of my Sona: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26866471/
<w< still want to hear your all feedback! PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
Be honest please!
Help a kitty... well... D: stuff!!! GO READ AND SPREAD!
Posted 7 years agoEurofurence 24 - WILL BE THERE! Who plans on going to?
Posted 7 years agoSIMPLE QUESTION!
I will be there from Monday till sunday... possibly even till monday.
c: If everything is going according to plan I will even be able to fursuit now!
I will be there from Monday till sunday... possibly even till monday.
c: If everything is going according to plan I will even be able to fursuit now!
I AM SORRY!!!... The lizard who ruined christmas... again!!!
Posted 7 years agoShould have been a nice and sweet christmas time with happiness and good feelings all around. The sweetest candy and greatest gifts for everyone. Hanging out with your closest friends and relaxing from a hard year of work...
BUT NOOOOO!!!!
THAT GIANT GREEDY LIZARD HAD TO SHOW UP!
BURSTING INTO YOUR HOME
DRINKING ALL THE EGGNOG
DEVOURING ALL THE FOOD
HIPBUMPING YOU INTO THE CHRISTMAS TREE
STEALING YOUR PRESENTS
SUCKING SANTA THROUGH THE CHIMNEY INTO HER BELLY
PRESSING YOU AGAINST THE WALL WITH HER GROWING BOOBS
... WELL GROWING ALL OVER AND EXPLODING OUT OF YOUR HOUSE
GULPING DOWN ALL YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS AND NEIGHBOURS
ROMPING THROUGH DOWNTOWN
CRUSHING YOUR CITY UNDER HER BUTT
JUST COVERING THE ENTIRE PLANET WITH HER CREAMY WHITE
AND CRUSHING FINALLY ALL OF THE PLANET BETWEEN HER TOES
... that's why you can't have nice things...
MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR WHAT'S LEFT!!!!
~<3
BUT NOOOOO!!!!
THAT GIANT GREEDY LIZARD HAD TO SHOW UP!
BURSTING INTO YOUR HOME
DRINKING ALL THE EGGNOG
DEVOURING ALL THE FOOD
HIPBUMPING YOU INTO THE CHRISTMAS TREE
STEALING YOUR PRESENTS
SUCKING SANTA THROUGH THE CHIMNEY INTO HER BELLY
PRESSING YOU AGAINST THE WALL WITH HER GROWING BOOBS
... WELL GROWING ALL OVER AND EXPLODING OUT OF YOUR HOUSE
GULPING DOWN ALL YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS AND NEIGHBOURS
ROMPING THROUGH DOWNTOWN
CRUSHING YOUR CITY UNDER HER BUTT
JUST COVERING THE ENTIRE PLANET WITH HER CREAMY WHITE
AND CRUSHING FINALLY ALL OF THE PLANET BETWEEN HER TOES
... that's why you can't have nice things...
MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR WHAT'S LEFT!!!!
~<3
Leaper wishlist
Posted 7 years ago- All the hugs from my dear friends ;w;
- That all my friends have a good time now and be happy
- One or two more realities for snacking...
... but seriously... luff you all <3
- That all my friends have a good time now and be happy
- One or two more realities for snacking...
... but seriously... luff you all <3
Story delay =3= cause I am bad at this!
Posted 8 years agoHeya
just an update on my headhunt story <w> I didn't manage to complete the first draft over the weekend... I try to finish it over the course of the week till next weekend instead. I know nobody cares about my self imposed deadlines... but I still feel bad about it and it stresses me out.
But I can update you on the characters I picked for each role so far:
Rare pet #1: Natsudra Whitedragon
Rare pet #2: Navassa
Tome
Decadent Ruler: Muddy
muddyness
Chief of Guards: David
Iconmaster
Naive Hero:
Skunkhase
<w< >w> I noticed upon starting to write that both Muddy and Iconmaster are called "David"
.... SO I DECIDED TO CALL MUDDY JUST MUDDY IN THE STORY... TO AVOID CONFUSION!!!
I am terrible at this.
just an update on my headhunt story <w> I didn't manage to complete the first draft over the weekend... I try to finish it over the course of the week till next weekend instead. I know nobody cares about my self imposed deadlines... but I still feel bad about it and it stresses me out.
But I can update you on the characters I picked for each role so far:
Rare pet #1: Natsudra
WhitedragonRare pet #2: Navassa
TomeDecadent Ruler: Muddy
muddynessChief of Guards: David
IconmasterNaive Hero:
Skunkhase<w< >w> I noticed upon starting to write that both Muddy and Iconmaster are called "David"
.... SO I DECIDED TO CALL MUDDY JUST MUDDY IN THE STORY... TO AVOID CONFUSION!!!
I am terrible at this.
HEADHUNT! Need 4 more characters for an upcoming story o3o!
Posted 8 years agoHiya!
I am quite happy with how the last story turned out and want to fiddle a bit more next weekend with another one c:
This story will feature this golden snake!: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16743019/
Belongs to a good friend whitedragon
Included themes would be:
Role reversal
Vore (unwilling)
Rapid digestion
Some growth!
Weight gain
Betrayal!!!
Pets/slaves
Here are the headhuntslots!
#1: The decadent Ruler
Character must be fitting to be some kind of ruler!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#2: Pet 1 - Rare species / possibly gemstone/rare metal themed?
Character must be a species which is prestigious and people of status would wish to own it!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#3: Pet 2 - Rare species / possibly gemstone/rare metal themed?
Character must be a species which is prestigious and people of status would wish to own it!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#4: Naive 'Hero'
Character must be of good intentions and likes to do the 'RIGHT' thing :D the Hero/protagonist of a normal story
Also Owner must be okay with Romantic feelings gone wrong and becoming Prey/digestied.
<w< Visual refs of characters would be highly prefered D: I can write much better when having those!
Deadline for Character selection: Friday Midnight
Deadline for First draft: Sunday evening
Deadline for publishing: Monday midnight ( CAUSE PROOFREADING! )
I am quite happy with how the last story turned out and want to fiddle a bit more next weekend with another one c:
This story will feature this golden snake!: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16743019/
Belongs to a good friend
whitedragonIncluded themes would be:
Role reversal
Vore (unwilling)
Rapid digestion
Some growth!
Weight gain
Betrayal!!!
Pets/slaves
Here are the headhuntslots!
#1: The decadent Ruler
Character must be fitting to be some kind of ruler!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#2: Pet 1 - Rare species / possibly gemstone/rare metal themed?
Character must be a species which is prestigious and people of status would wish to own it!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#3: Pet 2 - Rare species / possibly gemstone/rare metal themed?
Character must be a species which is prestigious and people of status would wish to own it!
Also Owner must be okay with becoming Prey/digested.
#4: Naive 'Hero'
Character must be of good intentions and likes to do the 'RIGHT' thing :D the Hero/protagonist of a normal story
Also Owner must be okay with Romantic feelings gone wrong and becoming Prey/digestied.
<w< Visual refs of characters would be highly prefered D: I can write much better when having those!
Deadline for Character selection: Friday Midnight
Deadline for First draft: Sunday evening
Deadline for publishing: Monday midnight ( CAUSE PROOFREADING! )
Story deadline - missed!
Posted 8 years agox3x
I don't want to throw it out there without having it proof read at least by one person... I finished it early afternoon, but it just takes time till others get to make their work on it...
I hope I can publish it tomorrow though... still thanks to everyone who applied <3
I don't want to throw it out there without having it proof read at least by one person... I finished it early afternoon, but it just takes time till others get to make their work on it...
I hope I can publish it tomorrow though... still thanks to everyone who applied <3
HEADHUNT! Your chance to be in a Story for free!
Posted 8 years agoHeya!
Just announcing it publically to force myself even deeper into this commitment x3~
I want to get a shortstory done and published till sunday midnight and I still need another character to be my 'opponment'
What I want:
- A deity/goddess/omni/reallyfrikkinpowerfulstuff
- Preferably with visual reference!
- I highly prefer if said character is often portrait as big, powerful and dom
- Your consent that I am allowed to outgrow them and come out of it on top!
- Everything that may include that can be negotiated, depending on your likes.
https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....48686683648001
Since I want to start on it rather soon! I beg you to voice your interrest quickly D:! The less delay the better~
Just announcing it publically to force myself even deeper into this commitment x3~
I want to get a shortstory done and published till sunday midnight and I still need another character to be my 'opponment'
What I want:
- A deity/goddess/omni/reallyfrikkinpowerfulstuff
- Preferably with visual reference!
- I highly prefer if said character is often portrait as big, powerful and dom
- Your consent that I am allowed to outgrow them and come out of it on top!
- Everything that may include that can be negotiated, depending on your likes.
https://twitter.com/Honeypotbutt/st.....48686683648001
Since I want to start on it rather soon! I beg you to voice your interrest quickly D:! The less delay the better~
#finished Laden - Eurofurence 23
Posted 8 years agoJust spilling out a few words of another amazing Convention year~
First of all... I BLAME ALL ON for corrupting me. He helped me lots to find the convidence to go to a convention to expierence all of that. While I was just meeting a handful of people last year... I pretty much tried to meet as many people possibly this year D:
My convention war story starts at tuesday x3... where apparantly everyone who arrived early already had a blast there D:!!! I didn't realize so many of my friends arrive a day earlier and hang out at the hotel and Berlin. So the Con Jealousy already began there.
Then the longest 48 hours began x3 I had to catch a train on midnight and I planned to catch some sleep before that <.< but couldn't! So I was already a full day awake as I ventured to Berlin. I at least thought I could sleep on the train, but they were all crowded like all hell. And a little widdle girl slept on my reserved seat... there was no way I could enforce my seat without being an asshole about it x3 ... so spent the whole ride on the floor.
My plan was not to go to the hotel right away, but to pick up my best friend whitedragon from the airport... which I know already waaaaaaay too long D: and who helped me through so many lows in my life... really exciting! Waiting at the gate and watch the people come out <w< and I still had no clue what he even looks like >w>... so I started to rate the people coming out from 1 to 10 of how likely they are to be Ruth based on the details I picked up over the years. In the end it was him who found me D: cause of purple hair! <w< >w> I was like... seriously! YOU LOOK NOTHING LIKE YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME YOU ARE LOOKING!!!
But still... first hug of the day c: by no means the last one!!!
Then finally going to the hotel ~ <3
I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN HOW AWESOME THE TIME WAAAAAAS So much stuff we did~
Meeting all the friends and awesome people~ <3
who was as lively as always c: +1 in shinybadge and artist Alley salesmanship
who was often busy with charity D:! But still was a blast to hang out with ~<3 and we saw him scoot back and forth between con ops and the booth so often ;w; always so stressed... poor lil itchi! Give him more huuuugs next year~
who was like the chillest dragon ever for his first con B3... also who brought so much belgium beer along x3~ and that roomparty never came together!!! DAMN!!
Who I really wished I could have hugged more! D: But there was sooooo much stuuuuffffff =3= and I thought I pissed him off at one time which made me really anxious for a while.
who was super adorable and sweet as always ~<3 + got his suit right before the con, which was the cutest thing you could ever see ~ best tailmaw ever~
I met briefly c: hanging out at the open stage while waiting inbetween panels <3 super sweet fin!
Who is really amazing at people x3~ He really knows how to bring like minded people together and is always approachable and nice~
Also met a friend of Ruth o3o! "Stormydragon/serylis" who also was a very amazing person~<3 who put up with me the whole time~
ALSO RAN INTO SQUIRRELNOMZ
shortly c: good hugs~ good nomz~ <3
At the macro meet I got to meet all the other cool people B3
draxi + 
Thaz Were just as dorky as I imagined~ but in an awesome way c:
corvidius who was as expected a feathered nerd B3 but also cool!
I met briefly before the macro meet~ was awesome to see him still kicking in his suit ~
Also!!!! ap-dc x3~ words can't even explain how much energy and positivity he radiated! He and 
luckywesel (who I unfortunately failed to meet in person Dx!!!) made an amazing meet with all the great things! Snacks and drinks and free give aways for everyone x3~ they even set up a Gamecube with Godzilla - Destroy all monsters melee~ a game I played so much as I was younger <3 and of course lots of playtoys for the suiters and the photographers c:
Also meet
Tyrix :3 a fellow giant hermaphrodite x3 despite our inital clash at the macro chat about being the biggest, Yumi still turned out to be super bubbly, happy and nice c: With someone so awesome, I don't mind sharing some universes for a snack with x3~
... ALSO protecting Yumi c:!
;3; ufff! I met so many! SORRY TO ANYBODY WHICH NAME I FORGOT! YOU ARE ALL STILL AMAZING!
Voremeet was a bit more crowded this year o3o and despite all the problems that came up due to delays of the Pawpetshow, it was still fun to hang out at~
Met up with all the sweet friends from last year and also new ones~
and who are both super dorky and a perfect match for each other~ they always pour so much effort into keeping the vore community together c: and it shows!
I gonna be here all day at this point ;3;! gonna list all the awesome peeps!
mousey... I MEAN 
Ekuya... 
boop! 
... PROLLY A TON MORE D:!!! ,w, there were just too many to list em all!
I could probably go on and on and on ;3; just so much happend~
Awesome panels! or just chilling at the open stage and listening to furoke with friends, having nomz with more friends! Hanging out in the artist lounge and just enjoying the time... also attended the opening and closing ceremony (which was really short cause they were behind shedule)
Also Kage's story hour and the pawpetshow ~<3 which was really fun~
ALSO!!! THE MOST EMBARASING MOMENT OF MY LIFE! xD me and commissioning royalty
... hey do you draw hyper? and macro..... and herms!!!??? ... yeah sure! XD omg... my heart was pounding when my fennec friend was asking that... BUT SHE WAS SO FRIENDLY AND CHILL ABOUT IT x3~ omg! She usually does the most adorable and sexy art X3~ AND NOW THIS! XD
And I had a lot of phases when my anxiety and self esteem dropped to dangerously low levels... when I was too shy to approach people when I just should have! I likely missed out on a few occassions were I could have make even more amazing memories, but I didn't... it's still something that I have to fix with myself. Also I was all the time way to afraid to ask a fursuiter for a photo or an artist to sign my conbook <w> because then my mind just keeps yelling at me that I am not deserving of that and that I probably will just be a bother for them... deep within I know that isn't true... but it's so hard to silence this voice... I will try better! I will work hard to improve ~<3 thanks to everyone who helped me.
Looking so forward to next year <3 will venture on with my diet and training to loose even more weight so I can get the fursuit of my dreams~ and really really hope I get to hug everyone next year in it~<3 you are the people who make living on this planet worthwhile ~<3 you are all amazing people ~<3 GOSH I CAN'T STOP IT! I LOVE YOU ALL <3
You finally made me fall in love with being alive after almost 3 decades of darkness~ <3
First of all... I BLAME ALL ON
for corrupting me. He helped me lots to find the convidence to go to a convention to expierence all of that. While I was just meeting a handful of people last year... I pretty much tried to meet as many people possibly this year D:My convention war story starts at tuesday x3... where apparantly everyone who arrived early already had a blast there D:!!! I didn't realize so many of my friends arrive a day earlier and hang out at the hotel and Berlin. So the Con Jealousy already began there.
Then the longest 48 hours began x3 I had to catch a train on midnight and I planned to catch some sleep before that <.< but couldn't! So I was already a full day awake as I ventured to Berlin. I at least thought I could sleep on the train, but they were all crowded like all hell. And a little widdle girl slept on my reserved seat... there was no way I could enforce my seat without being an asshole about it x3 ... so spent the whole ride on the floor.
My plan was not to go to the hotel right away, but to pick up my best friend
whitedragon from the airport... which I know already waaaaaaay too long D: and who helped me through so many lows in my life... really exciting! Waiting at the gate and watch the people come out <w< and I still had no clue what he even looks like >w>... so I started to rate the people coming out from 1 to 10 of how likely they are to be Ruth based on the details I picked up over the years. In the end it was him who found me D: cause of purple hair! <w< >w> I was like... seriously! YOU LOOK NOTHING LIKE YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME YOU ARE LOOKING!!!But still... first hug of the day c: by no means the last one!!!
Then finally going to the hotel ~ <3
I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN HOW AWESOME THE TIME WAAAAAAS So much stuff we did~
Meeting all the friends and awesome people~ <3
who was as lively as always c: +1 in shinybadge and artist Alley salesmanship who was often busy with charity D:! But still was a blast to hang out with ~<3 and we saw him scoot back and forth between con ops and the booth so often ;w; always so stressed... poor lil itchi! Give him more huuuugs next year~ who was like the chillest dragon ever for his first con B3... also who brought so much belgium beer along x3~ and that roomparty never came together!!! DAMN!! Who I really wished I could have hugged more! D: But there was sooooo much stuuuuffffff =3= and I thought I pissed him off at one time which made me really anxious for a while.
who was super adorable and sweet as always ~<3 + got his suit right before the con, which was the cutest thing you could ever see ~ best tailmaw ever~
I met briefly c: hanging out at the open stage while waiting inbetween panels <3 super sweet fin! Who is really amazing at people x3~ He really knows how to bring like minded people together and is always approachable and nice~Also met a friend of Ruth o3o! "Stormydragon/serylis" who also was a very amazing person~<3 who put up with me the whole time~
ALSO RAN INTO SQUIRRELNOMZ
shortly c: good hugs~ good nomz~ <3At the macro meet I got to meet all the other cool people B3
draxi + 
Thaz Were just as dorky as I imagined~ but in an awesome way c:
corvidius who was as expected a feathered nerd B3 but also cool!
I met briefly before the macro meet~ was awesome to see him still kicking in his suit ~Also!!!!
ap-dc x3~ words can't even explain how much energy and positivity he radiated! He and 
luckywesel (who I unfortunately failed to meet in person Dx!!!) made an amazing meet with all the great things! Snacks and drinks and free give aways for everyone x3~ they even set up a Gamecube with Godzilla - Destroy all monsters melee~ a game I played so much as I was younger <3 and of course lots of playtoys for the suiters and the photographers c:Also meet
Tyrix :3 a fellow giant hermaphrodite x3 despite our inital clash at the macro chat about being the biggest, Yumi still turned out to be super bubbly, happy and nice c: With someone so awesome, I don't mind sharing some universes for a snack with x3~... ALSO
protecting Yumi c:!;3; ufff! I met so many! SORRY TO ANYBODY WHICH NAME I FORGOT! YOU ARE ALL STILL AMAZING!
Voremeet was a bit more crowded this year o3o and despite all the problems that came up due to delays of the Pawpetshow, it was still fun to hang out at~
Met up with all the sweet friends from last year and also new ones~
and who are both super dorky and a perfect match for each other~ they always pour so much effort into keeping the vore community together c: and it shows!I gonna be here all day at this point ;3;! gonna list all the awesome peeps!
mousey... I MEAN 
Ekuya... 
boop! 
... PROLLY A TON MORE D:!!! ,w, there were just too many to list em all!I could probably go on and on and on ;3; just so much happend~
Awesome panels! or just chilling at the open stage and listening to furoke with friends, having nomz with more friends! Hanging out in the artist lounge and just enjoying the time... also attended the opening and closing ceremony (which was really short cause they were behind shedule)
Also Kage's story hour and the pawpetshow ~<3 which was really fun~
ALSO!!! THE MOST EMBARASING MOMENT OF MY LIFE! xD me and
commissioning royalty ... hey do you draw hyper? and macro..... and herms!!!??? ... yeah sure! XD omg... my heart was pounding when my fennec friend was asking that... BUT SHE WAS SO FRIENDLY AND CHILL ABOUT IT x3~ omg! She usually does the most adorable and sexy art X3~ AND NOW THIS! XD
And I had a lot of phases when my anxiety and self esteem dropped to dangerously low levels... when I was too shy to approach people when I just should have! I likely missed out on a few occassions were I could have make even more amazing memories, but I didn't... it's still something that I have to fix with myself. Also I was all the time way to afraid to ask a fursuiter for a photo or an artist to sign my conbook <w> because then my mind just keeps yelling at me that I am not deserving of that and that I probably will just be a bother for them... deep within I know that isn't true... but it's so hard to silence this voice... I will try better! I will work hard to improve ~<3 thanks to everyone who helped me.
Looking so forward to next year <3 will venture on with my diet and training to loose even more weight so I can get the fursuit of my dreams~ and really really hope I get to hug everyone next year in it~<3 you are the people who make living on this planet worthwhile ~<3 you are all amazing people ~<3 GOSH I CAN'T STOP IT! I LOVE YOU ALL <3
You finally made me fall in love with being alive after almost 3 decades of darkness~ <3
Eurofurence 23 - Furry convention meme!
Posted 8 years agoQ: Where are you staying?
A: Directly at the Estrel Hotel! :3~
Q: Means of transportation?
A: Starting my journey at midnight tuesday and travelling by train to arrive at wednesday >:3~
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Me and the nerd! whitedragon
Q: What is your gender?
A: ... does Hermaphrodite count :o~?
Q: Relationship Status:
A: FOREVER ALONE!!!
Q: How old are you?
A: 30
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English c: probably will end up speaking English most of the time.
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Hanging out with friends~ Attending panels~ VORE MEET!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: I am looking forward to so many people @w@
whitedragon pilli10 artherion redblackdragon itchigo-icetalons soulblade7 Bennythedarkdragon AND SO MANY VORE PEEPS!
Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: None yet ;w; I hope I have one next year!
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: I am a horrible dancer <w> and I probably won't be much on the dancefloor x3
Q: Can I touch you?
A: D: I NEED AN ADULT!!! <w< ...
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: :o~ do you even want to? x3~
Q: Can I hug you?
A: IF I KNOW WHO YOU ARE X3~ no random hugs!
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: D: Photos of my terrible face? x3~
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: :o~ I can have drinks? Well I will mostly give my friends drinks x3~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I rarely drink c: but EF is okay for alcohol! But no smoking!
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I BULLY YOU OUT OF LUNCH MONEY THEN IN RETURN!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: Friends only so far c: maybe learn each other know better first?
Q: Can we hang out?
A: If you get along with my friends as well! SURE!
Q: Are you nice?
A: NO! I AM EVIL!
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: No D:! I dun know any other where my friends go to!
Q: Attending any events?
A: Vore meet definatly~ Macro Meet too~ o3o!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: ... purple hair..
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: :o~ I am pred though!
Q: Are you buying art?
A: I promised to do a lot of collabs there ~<3
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: I am still not sure how much more 'not shy' I am now x3~ definatly better than last year~ will do my best to be good company~
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: :3~ Compliment of how big and strong I am... XD
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: :o I... fit into rooms?
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: I just need more booze and coffee~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I AM TERRIBLE AT NAMES! D: Nicknames work better!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: We have a door sign! XD have fun searching the whole hotel!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: YOU MAY TRY YOUR LUCK!
A: Directly at the Estrel Hotel! :3~
Q: Means of transportation?
A: Starting my journey at midnight tuesday and travelling by train to arrive at wednesday >:3~
Q: Sharing a room with:
A: Me and the nerd!
whitedragonQ: What is your gender?
A: ... does Hermaphrodite count :o~?
Q: Relationship Status:
A: FOREVER ALONE!!!
Q: How old are you?
A: 30
Q: How tall are you?
A: 1.80 meters tall
Q: Which languages do you speak?
A: German and English c: probably will end up speaking English most of the time.
Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day?
A: Hanging out with friends~ Attending panels~ VORE MEET!
Q: Who will you be with?
A: I am looking forward to so many people @w@
whitedragon pilli10 artherion redblackdragon itchigo-icetalons soulblade7 Bennythedarkdragon AND SO MANY VORE PEEPS!Q: What suit(s) will you have?
A: None yet ;w; I hope I have one next year!
Q: Can I dance with you?
A: I am a horrible dancer <w> and I probably won't be much on the dancefloor x3
Q: Can I touch you?
A: D: I NEED AN ADULT!!! <w< ...
Q: Can I talk to you?
A: :o~ do you even want to? x3~
Q: Can I hug you?
A: IF I KNOW WHO YOU ARE X3~ no random hugs!
Q: Can I take photos of you/with you?
A: D: Photos of my terrible face? x3~
Q: Can I buy you lots of drinks?
A: :o~ I can have drinks? Well I will mostly give my friends drinks x3~
Q: Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
A: I rarely drink c: but EF is okay for alcohol! But no smoking!
Q: Can I give you lots of money?
A: I BULLY YOU OUT OF LUNCH MONEY THEN IN RETURN!
Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: Friends only so far c: maybe learn each other know better first?
Q: Can we hang out?
A: If you get along with my friends as well! SURE!
Q: Are you nice?
A: NO! I AM EVIL!
Q: Other cons you may go to?
A: No D:! I dun know any other where my friends go to!
Q: Attending any events?
A: Vore meet definatly~ Macro Meet too~ o3o!
Q: How can I find you at the con?
A: ... purple hair..
Q: Can we go out for a dinner?
A: :o~ I am pred though!
Q: Are you buying art?
A: I promised to do a lot of collabs there ~<3
Q: What do I have to watch out for, when I am meeting you?
A: I am still not sure how much more 'not shy' I am now x3~ definatly better than last year~ will do my best to be good company~
Q: What is the best way to contact you?
A: :3~ Compliment of how big and strong I am... XD
Q: May I kidnap you to my room?
A: :o I... fit into rooms?
Q: You look pretty tired, are you ok?
A: I just need more booze and coffee~
Q: Last time/last con/last meet/last chat we talked so much and now you forgot my name? Why???
A: I AM TERRIBLE AT NAMES! D: Nicknames work better!
Q: Will you tell me your room number and can I surprise visit you?
A: We have a door sign! XD have fun searching the whole hotel!
Q: I have a personal question for the convention. May I ask you that?
A: YOU MAY TRY YOUR LUCK!
I just want to say good bye....
Posted 8 years agoTo everyone leaving this site as every year on 1st april!
O: wait.. YOU still here? How many farewells do we need D:
O: wait.. YOU still here? How many farewells do we need D:
