Wanna know what bothers me, the world around me due to America being a shitshow, which is the people's damn fault we gotta deal with a felon running shit and starting shit, the fact that any artist or person can get away with being an ass or whatever thats bad due to fame and art which i've seen it with jigglyjuggle, seen it with kircai, seen it with many others in different parts of the internet who i won't list due to how long it takes to, then anyone who calls out their behaviors just get backlash instead, my ass can't fulfill the goals i once had the energy to try and attempt, the fact many i've once been friends with has stabbed me in my back and either were assholes, pedophilic, or whatever without me knowing they were until later on which of course i blocked them upon finding out, or claimed i am a pedo, zoophile, or doxxer even though they should know damn well i'm not based on our long interactions, etc etc etc, everything is so fucking bullshit in both the world and internet

When i was 17, my past self wanted to try to draw so that he'd be able to draw stuff for unknown reasons, probably just to draw or something, its unfortunate that i strayed from the goal, arts that were suppose to be attempted to draw haven't been attempted due to losing the feeling of wanting to try, and with negativity in the air of my time on the internet, really further fuels the feeling of not wanting to do it, i have my own self to blame for that, but other things that weren't my fault also play a factor as well, why my 20 year old ass hasn't tried drawing anything, both this journal and the other tells.

Negativity is one hell of a demotivator ain't it, the drama regarding my name, a lot of it being my fault, how can i try to be an artist or 3d modeler with a very bad reputation, heres the thing, i can't, once something bad is done, it is set in stone to be part of your life's story, while what i did was not illegal or anything, its still bad to chase after those who you've burned bridges with, if they don't wanna see you, such should be respected, one must never try to change their ways in the hopes of getting a applause from someone who wants nothing to do with you and will never see it happen, no amount of improvement can truly change how many view you, dwelling on it all doesn't help either, all that must be done is to acknowledge what had already been done, and move on, well excluding pedos and etc obviously, those who condone illegal acts don't get a right to try to improve and move on.

June 23 has arrived, i am now 20

I'm now 19... So whats next?

So far this year has been dark, certain people i have added on discord either unadd people and disappeared without giving a reason, or has tried to put a end to their life... I despise how each new year something dark happens...

So far this year has been dark, certain people i have added on discord either unadd people and disappeared without giving a reason, or has tried to put a end to their life... I despise how each new year something dark happens...

It bothers me that people still support jigglyjuggle, the person is a asshole and a racist, the link to the person i'm talking about is this https://www.furaffinity.net/user/jigglyjuggle/

It bothers me that people still support jigglyjuggle, the person is a asshole and a racist, the link to the person i'm talking about is this https://www.furaffinity.net/user/jigglyjuggle/

June 23 has come, and i ascended by one age

I had to make a unnecessary change to my discord account by changing the Keys623#9311 to something else, its now ssbkeys623, if you know what the ssb stands for, nice, but if you don't, whatever

I don't usually make journals for this but here we are i guess https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10571712/

If i keep getting blamed for stuff, why the hell do i still even exist, why have i not disappeared yet!?

June, the month i was born on, i'm not excited for my birthday thats on June 23

I have aome weird interests since i am mostly interested in art involving paws, macros, and or even diapers.

Despite those being what i'm mostly interested in i'll still watch people regardless of if they post normal art or art unrelated to the 3 things, its only cp and other bad stuff i have a problem with.

I swear, some/few people i watch are moving to Inkbunny, i have a issue with that site cause it festers with art involving cubs/children in sexual scenarios, which is cp, even though i can prevent cp from showing up when i search stuff, i refuse to be called a pedo for moving to a site that allows cp, no seriously, theres people who will call you a pedo for making a account there

I will update my contact info and make my Twitter visible

My main concern is getting banned cause of the art that i'm using as my avatar, and if they are banning pokemon stuff, that will be troublesome if it came to drawing my sylveon oc

I have no idea on what to draw after improving my drawing skills, i've been mostly thinking about playing videogames

We don't question my drawing skills, i know its bad but it will eventually be worked on ok?

Two drawings i did for seven71987 are gonna be uploaded, only issue is that they don't look great due to my drawing skills... Due to being bad at anatomy and stuff, things are gonna look weird

Never send a note to someone and block them just because they don't draw what you're into

The bunny isn't my only oc, there are 2 other ones, though they can only be seen on Twitter since i haven't attempted to draw them and the arts of them are made by different artists on Twitter

I've heard that when the new FA rules came, bad people got banned as well as some people who didn't do anything bad, whats going on here and will it affect my sfw only drawings if i were to make more drawings besides the only one that was posted here in 2022 cause i didn't feel like drawing more stuff?

Its December 25, you know what time it is, Merry Christmas