Hey guys, so I decided opening my commissions because I'm out of money and need to earn some to fun my research in our school. Please help me. Sharing this would be greatly appreciated. Thank you! ;w;

Commission info:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25269300/

Heya guys, this may look sudden but I need your help. I'm probably out of money because I have to fund our research/thesis for school and there'll be more costs to be spent later one. Anyway, I'll be trying to take up commissions for icons probably by tomorrow when I can establish a proper commission board. I just need to plan it out carefully. if you are able to commission me. Thank you very much, it'll be put to good use! Anyway, tune in tomorrow when I can do this thing TwT

I should start making my fursona, huh?

I don't know though, even after 3 years, I'm still not that inclined to be in the furry community.

So I have been getting these unexplained feelings for a girl for about 5 years now. I'm not sure with my own feelings, but something with me when I'm around her. Basically, I went to her awhile ago, and then I suddenly became anxious, nervous enough to completely stutter my voice. Next thing I knew, I said " Would like to go on a date with me." That's when I knew, I've gone completely insane, I felt embarrassed. Mind you, I've never experienced a date before, let alone, ask a girl out. So I panicked!

She eventually said "Hmmm, I'm okay with that. But I don't want to have it as a romantic one. Let's just say that it would be just us talking about ourselves to know more about each other." I've gotten mixed feelings from that response until now, not knowing what to feel or expect because I can't grasp what's happening in that moment.

To tell a little about her, she's religious person. Like, she's devoted to her religion and she wants to obey the rules of her parents ( Like church first, no lovey-dovey stuff). She instead wants to guide me to a spiritual path. Now, Honestly speaking, I'm a Roman Catholic. I still have some belief in a God but I'm not that religious, I'm actually Agnostic. Aaaand she wants me to be guided by her words of God. I'm at lost. I don't know what I've got myself into. Though, to put it bluntly, I want to be in a relationship with her. A relationship with no one to judge who we are. A relationship where I can share my sad moments, problems, etc.

HELP! WHAT SHOULD YOU DO?! XD

I'm starting to feel lonely both in the real world and in the internet. It's like I'm always talking to myself...

Yes, you read the title right! I am probably going to make a short comic *cheers alone*! Well, I'll try to do one sooner or later after the Undertale fan art, that I am doing right at the moment, would be finished.

I don't know what the short comic would be about yet... but yeah, it would be my starters. The reason why I'm trying to do this is 'cause I want viewers, to not just see my poor and boring art. Now, I want them to see more crappy things for me, hahaha. Jokes aside, I truly always wanted to do one, something that would be cringy to look back for years to come. Though, it would be practice for me to also improve myself not only my art style, but also story-wise.

Thanks for at least caring and reading this, I hope so~ <3 XD

Sometimes, I would wish that I wasn't living in this country anymore. So many stupid people I've encountered and it frustrates me. And oh god, as soon as the death penalty here becomes legal, please let me leave this country, for now. I' m too scared. XD

Hey guys! Big news, I'm finally trying to start my tumblr and twitter page. Though, I'd think only a few would follow me there. But I don't care XD( I'm a liar, of course I want many to follow and appreciate my art.)! I would still post stuff there more often there, than here though, so if you want to see some extra art ( if you care, that is) from me. Then these are the websites, I'll be posting my other stuff:

Twitter
https://twitter.com/Kemmuono

Tumblr
http://kemmuono.tumblr.com/

I always see artists improving themselves and doing stuff their best at. I feel like I'm not exerting enough effort in doing so myself, because I always feel like a sloth not trying to do anything to better myself. It was always talk and not action XD.

Truthfully, I've been watching, uhm I mean, lurking around the internet observing the artworks of kemono artists, and I've been trying to do a similar style to kemono, but I still fail ( T w T ). Oh I wish I have artistic skills like them, hahaha.

It's a little difficult for me draw actually... mainly because I have hands that shake involuntarily. Like god, these hand tremors keeps getting worse as I get older. The reason for the shaking is unknown though, I still don't remember when this thing started.

Hey, there guys (well, those who care reading this)! I'm not dead yet, Hoooraah! I've just been so focused IRL. It's kind of difficult to explain 'cause I know, you don't even know me that much. The thing is, I took much of my time in doing big projects, test, homework and other school-related stuff, this past few weeks. I had to stop drawing for a while because I wanted to make up for my mistakes on my previous semesters. Fortunately, my average grade went up and I'm so very contented with it even I didn't pass with flying colors.
Honestly, I had my free times to do some sketches or some digital art but I just wasn't ready of such commitment and I felt scared and nervous to do so, I don't know why. Instead, I've been trying to relax a bit after the heavy requirements of the school. Another thing is, I've been letting out my stress through games such as League Of Legends and some Dota 2 to take my mind off of the stress-inducing requirements. Hahaha, I feel sorry for the ones I get teamed up with me, but if you just feed my game, you'll be getting some trashtalk from me. I know... I feel guilty sometimes, 'cause I'm a piece of shit. >.<
I feel like, I owe a big apology to some people I made promises to. Again, I'm not the right person to be trusted with such responsibility because you'll just end up disappointed with me. Although, I try to pull through to compensate with my shortcomings.
Anyway, summer vacation has just started for me and this time, I guess, I'll try to finish what I wanted to finish a long time ago. Bad news still though, the USB connector my graphics tablet have been missing for weeks now and I'm literally crying because I can't ever find it. Hopefully, something good will come out for me, I just hope so. :<

Oh my god, good new guys, well for my part at least ^^;. I can't believe that I'm not much of a failure in the previous semester. I thought that my overall grade would definitely lower, but it didn't O.O... I just knew this know because yesterday was the submission of our report cards. Well, of course, I am far from going to the honors list, but I'm sure as hell still glad that my performance improved, despite my previous tests being a disappointment.

Uuuhh, I just want to write this here because I'm just to relieved to see my grade not plummeting to the ground. Now, I just need a little rest for a while and then continue on in the next and last quarter for this school year. Then after that, it's summer time again! Wooohooo! ^^ :D

Hey guys! I'm just going to say sorry for being an inactive user almost like always ^^;(again). I guess, some of you are used of me being inactive for long periods of time, although my excuse was always because I am so much busy IRL and it's true. The fact that I was to join a contest ( Movie Animation using Adobe Flash(note: I lost XD)) and had to go away from school for a couple of days means I had to catch up all of the lessons and tests I missed during that time. It's kind of a burden @.@... Anyway, I won't have anything ready to upload for a while since I'm preparing myself for our Exams :<.

Well, there's this girl I like in school and I just wish I could go out with her this upcoming Valentine's day. I fear that when I ask her about it, I'll immediately get rejected. This certain girl actually became one of my closest friend like 3 years ago ( on our first year in our school), but we don't usually talk that much anymore since after that first school year, we were separated into different sections. How will I make this a successful one? I really don't know because this would be my first time doing it if ever I would try it.


Oh and I don't know what you call this is english, but in our language it's called "torpe." Hmmm, I think it could be said as someone who is scared or shy to confess or show his/her feelings towards the one they like. I think I got it right? I don't know... TTwTT

What shall I do? ;w;

Sooo, I'm just going to leave it here. The reason why I wanted to make this journal is to cover up most of my inactivity. Well you see, it's still school season here and I really have to prioritize my life as a student. Ya know... Look out for my performance and grade. Although, for some reason, I feel like this is kind of unhealthy for me. I worry too much about my grades, I worry too much about my studies as I procrastinate too often, and I feared that if this continue on, I might get kicked out of school. I might disappoint my parents... I don't want them to worry about me.

This accumulated to stress and it made me fail on my tests more. I think I need to relax and take my time from studying. Though I can't, every weekday at least one subject has a homework that needs to be passed, or a test to take. Am I stressing too much? Am I too worried about it? What should I do? Will I be okay? T^T

~OMG, I'm still at high school and I'm already stressing out. What if College comes? @.@
~ Oh so help me god, I need to get high scores on like three exams for the following week X.X ... TT_TT

If you may notice from the title, well yep. As I submit this journal our Christmas here has already finished. I am very glad that I got gifts from people and it just warms me up (too cheesy XD). Anyway, to those who are still going to have their christmas, well you know what's going to be next...

From the bottom of my heart , I WISH YOU ALL A JOYFUL HOLIDAY! WHATEVER YOU"RE DOING NOW, BE HAPPY! :D

I hate updating journals, it's just frustrating to express things(Not give with that and plus, I'm a pretty busy nowadays), but for the sake of it, I'll do it(Short one though).

I'll just say this for most of the months going to pass by, I'll be a lot busy now. Don't know when I'll have some rest and free time to draw but I'll try to. Soooo, sorry in advance if I update or submit my art pieces at a slow pace. I hope you bare with me. :3 :D

Sad news for me, I misplaced my graphics tablet somewhere. I don't know where it is but I got to find it. @.@
So I think, I'm going to struggle with the mouse again XD. But I don't know if I'm going to cut back on doing art first 'cause I have school and It's been a pain to study lately. My grades weren't pretty to look at and I have to give extra effort on it. An addition would be that I have this hand tremors thingy. My hands keep on shaking involuntarily such that I can't control it, so when I use my hands on something my hands tend to tremble and it causes me lack of ability to do stuff, like drawing a straight line or some writing.

Yeah, I hope so that I could submit some art frequently but I'm still having the feeling of laziness and lack of confidence to do so. I'm too tired, I just want to rest XD. I hope soon enough. :D

Ending it with a happy note, at least my birthday is near and I can get my driver's license after. X3

School has started and I think I won't be going to be active that very often. I promised myself that I should focus on my studies so, yeah... for me, it is kind of sad because I'll probably won't make and submit my art that very often.
Although, I am still going to submit some art in my free time. I'll try my best guys. :>

~Wish me luck! :D

Apparently, my parents don't want me to rest for like a day on my desk with my laptop. The damn Gallstones keep getting in my way. Because of that, I had to be operated this weekend. I am also getting my Gallbladder removed. That means, I'll be inactive and possibly won't post any art during the time being.

>.<"

Please forgive me of my lack of updates. I'm also sorry for not telling you guys anything what's been happening to me lately. It's cause I'm still sorting out things outside, In Real Life... To get it all clear, I'm attending an Internship because our school required us to experience such a thing to be able to be ready or to help us know where we like to be for college. It's a pretty tedious job, especially it being a PHYSICS subject internship.

So now, I think my only free time activity here would be on the weekends.

~Hope it's okay. >:3

You might be wondering, "what the hell is this person talking about." Well Mister, I have been actually away for about... I think 2 years. Looking from my previous journal, I said that I "may" not be using this account anymore. I'm sorry, that I was away for a long time. I have been inactive because serious contemplating happened when I wasn't. Though, you may look at my dA account that I was much active there than here is because, In here, I felt kinda uncomfortable. It's not that the site is bad but it is just me. It felt like I was doing something bad that I can not stand but I still am doing it. This may be because I don't accept myself as a furry artist but a person who likes to furry characters because that's the only thing that my skills can achieve.

Enough, with the emotional crap, I need to say something to explain what I wanted to say. My will to log in this account again came from me being bored at the moment and I felt like I was missing on something. I noticed that the reason why I didn't want to log in back because I haven't experienced any(let's say "enough") of the good side of this community and I'm hoping to get a new fresh start on this account even though... No ones pretty much noticing me(let's be honest here -__-").
But that aside, I'm looking forward to meeting new people and sharing my artwork as much as I can. Still, I'm not that very active.

Why not introduce ourselves huh? Let's be friends, I want to be more approachable this time. :D

I really don't have time for this account anymore so I only go to DA now.