YAY FOR CAPSLOCK! YES, IT IS TRUE, I HAVE FINALLY GONE AHEAD AND MOVED TO A NEW, MORE UP-TO-DATE ACCOUNT! PLEASE CONTINUE TO +WATCH ME OVER THERE! <3 I APPRECIATE ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OVER THE YEARS, BUT I NEEDED A FRESH SPACE FOR MY ART AND FOR ME TO EXPRESS MYSELF AS I CONTINUE ON MY PATH OF SELF-DISCOVERY. THIS ACCOUNT WILL REMAIN ENABLED FOR ACCESS TO MY GALLERY AND SUCH, BUT ALL NEW ARTWORK AND INFORMATION WILL GO UP ON THE MY NEW ACCOUNT FROM NOW ON. I'LL SEE YA ON THE OTHER SIDE, EVERYONE! THANKS FOR YOUR UNDERSTANDING. :)

GO HERE FOR MY NEW ACCOUNT:  hippiegryph https://www.furaffinity.net/user/hippiegryph/

In case you haven't noticed, there's artwork and junk being posted AT LAST! XD Keep an eye out, there's more where that came from! :DDD

Goods news everyone! My near year-and-a-half-long scarcity and infuriatingly stubborn artists block spell seems to be at an end at last. :) That being said, I wanted to give a heads up to all of my followers: While I am not moving accounts (yet?), my profile and gallery will be undergoing quite a drastic overhaul to reflect my recent personal growth and life changes. This has been a long time coming/constant work in progress. Please pardon the mess while I work on my page and gallery. As always, I appreciate your continued support. Best wishes to you all. <333

Just clearing out my previous journal. I'll have a legit update soon. Been pretty busy as of late. :P Thank you all for the continued support as always. <3

In 10 days time (from the day I am posting this, the 15th), I will officially turn 24 years old. This year is probably the first birthday I'm not really all that excited/thrilled about. I don't have much in the ways of plans for celebrating it. I'm honestly kinda depressed about it. X3 I'm just trying to keep it small and simple. Regardless hopefully the day itself won't suck. In case I don't get around to saying in the day of, I figured I'd just go ahead and wish myself an early Happy Birthday here anyways. So, yeah, yay, happy birthday to me! XP Another year older... and quite frankly, I couldn't care less. v.v

So, after many months of creativity constipation, I'm FINALLY writing a new story! :D That, and I think later today/this week I will finally be able to get to work on some backlogged art stuff too! That means good news for you all lol! ;D When I get three chapters done with this story, I will share up to that point so far. But expect to see some new drawn arts very soooooon! <3 It feels SO good to feel my creative muse actually GOING somewhere and flowing free again. ^^ I've had tons of inspiration, just couldn't make anything come of it. Hehe. Good things to come! Keep an eye out! :D

What I said in my previous journal still MOSTLY applies, I just wanted to make a correction that Furry Network will now be my primary and FA is my secondary. Sorry for the confusion! <3 PLEASE JOIN UP AND FIND ME OVER ON FURRY NETWORK! Especially if you want more recent activity. Thank you! <3

FN: https://beta.furrynetwork.com/westy/

P.s. As soon as the Import tool is back online, I will be importing my FA stuff over to Furry Network so that everything up to this point is available over there too. ;)

I lieu of recent events I have created an account over on Furry Network. NO, I am not leaving FA, but I do want to keep my options open and still make sure that any of you, my watchers, can still keep in touch, and find me in the case that FA is down. I have a Weasyl as well, but don't use it as often. My FN will be my backup account, my secondary. I just wanted to make sure you all were aware. Feel free to follow me over there. :) I appreciate your continued support. Hopefully I'll have some new art things soon. <3

FurryNetwork: https://beta.furrynetwork.com/westy/
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com/~westy

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! I dunno about you, but I am SOOOO over 2015, lol. Definitely looking forward to 2016. :) I won't be on tonight at midnight to post this, so I'm doing it now. ^^ Hope everyone has a safe night and I send best wishes for the new year to all. :D Here's to 2016, let it not suck massive, crusty, floppy, donkey dick (unless you like that sort of thing of course)! Cheers, all!

Whatever you celebrate, I wish you all a wonderful holiday. :) Me, I'm all ready for Christmas. Got my shopping done, gifts wrapped, tree up and decorated, lights strung, and have been enjoying blasting Christmas music every now and then as well. XD I love Winter and Christmastime. It's just such a different time of year compared to the almost never changing nature of the rest of the seasons around here. And me being a person who loves to give, this is definitely my time of year where I get to shine, finding unique, meaningful and heartfelt gifts for everyone I love. ^^ I don't care so much about getting presents myself so much as it's all about giving them to others. I am looking forward to spending my holiday with good friends and family and sharing in the warmth and joy and memories of the season. <3

It's once again my favorite day of the year! ^^ Even though I'm sick with the flu this time(boo) and won't be able to celebrate like I normally do, I am determined to make the best of today. I hope everyone has an awesome Halloween! I may or may not have a belated art thing in celebration this year. It'll all depend on how I'm feeling. In the meantime though... <_< *Eats all the candy.* Hehehehehe!!! >:D *So spoopy.*

It's late and I'm bored. :P

A – Age: I'm 23!

B – Biggest fear: I have a lot of irrational fears, the biggest of which would probably be losing everyone that I love and having my life ruled by pain and not being able to live a decent quality of life because of it. Other things I fear include bees/wasps, uncontained fire, & being bitten by rodents.

C – Current time: 1:21am

D – Drink you last had/are having: Mmm, milk!

E – Easiest person to talk to: My mate, for sure. :)

F – Favorite song: At the moment it's Fall Underneath (Kilter Remix) by Snakadaktal.

G – Ghosts, are they real?: Definitely. I believe in the spirits and energies of the dead as well as the living.

H – Heritage: Polish, English and some Irish.

I – In love with: and <3

J – Jealous of: People who don't have constant financial and/or health struggles. :/

K – Killed someone?: Never in real life. Maybe once or twice in my thoughts though.

L – Last time you cried?: Maybe a week ago? I was in a lot of pain. :(

M – Middle name: Rae. ^^

N – Number of siblings: 0. I am an only child.

O – One wish: To be happy and for those I love and care about to be happy as well, whatever that entails. :) It's pretty much my one perpetual goal in life.

P – Person who you last called: Technically I didn't call a person, I reached an automated line for my pharmacy, lol. But I think it was my mom who I spoke with last on the phone.

Q – Question you’re always asked: How can you not like that? (In regards to my picky eating habits. I'm a "supertaster" so lots of foods are overpoweringly flavorful to me. I don't require much in the ways of seasonings and added flavors. I also have issues with food textures. :P)

R – Reason(s) to smile: I have many reasons to smile. I tend to enjoy the little things in life. The stuff most people may overlook can bring the biggest grin to my face. Despite the current struggles I'm going through, I smile because I have two wonderful mates, a roof over my head, food on my table, mostly stable health and a wonderful support network of family and friends. <3

S – Song last sang: Hollow Moon (Bad Wolf) by AWOLNATION

T – Time you woke up: 10:00am

U – Underwear color: Purple! :D

V – Vacation destination: Ireland, hands down. 8D

W – Worst habit: It's a tie between twirling my hair and biting the inside of my cheek/lips. XP

X – X-rays you’ve had: I have had SO many done. Dental, chest, abdominal, back, foot, arm, toe, and I've most recently had a CT scan done on my head too.

Y – Your favorite food: JIF Reduced Fat Peanut Butter. XD I used to keep an entire jar of it by my bed as a kid.

Z – Zodiac sign: Leo/Monkey. I rarely ever actually fit into the "stereotypes" of my signs though.

It's once again Halloween time! Yays! I'm getting into the spoopy/creppy spirit. Hehehehe! I hope to have some Halloween-y artstuffs to share soon. :3 Been working on decorating the house first. If I don't manage any drawn art, I will at least have photos of my jack-o-lantern carving for this year at some point. :) Keep an eye out!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! ^_^ I'm 23! Yaaaaay! XD

Warning: TL;DR

It's been a while since I've truly updated my journal. It's about time I give a bit of an update for those of you who watch me and actually still read my journals, heh. >_>

First off, things have been extremely rough lately when it comes to my health. I'm still in this ongoing struggle to find the cause for my constant pain and crippling "nerve attacks". As of this moment, after much testing, I have been diagnosed with an Autonomic Nerve Disorder (this nervous system controls my heart rate, blood pressure, digestive functions and temperature regulation etc ) and Progressive, Idiopathic Polynueropathy (meaning my peripheral nerves are damaged and/or malfunctioning which causes me great pain with the smallest of touches sometimes). I start a new blood pressure medication this week (atop my already prescribed meds for pain and muscle spasms) to hopefully help my body regulate itself better and help not only reduce my fatigue caused by poor circulation and sleep, but also to over time get my pain better under control. I will be continuing with my ongoing massage therapy as well as moving forward with procuring my MMJ card to help me get through my worst days. For now I am in "let's see what happens" mode in my treatment. In a few months time, I will re-evaluate if more aggressive testing/treatment needs to be done to pursue a potential cause and hopefully, a cure, for my medical issues.

My body is pretty much 'stuck' in a "fight or flight" state these days during all of this, so my anxiety and stress is ridiculously high which doesn't help the medical matters in any way. Recent blood tests have returned showing my cortisol (stress hormone) levels are TWICE what the normal levels should be and although I've not been officially diagnosed with Cushing's disease, it is something that I am working with my doctors to try and get a handle on. Less stress will mean feeling less like a literal sack of shit every other day.

On other RL fronts, my husband and I just recently had to say goodbye to his childhood dog, Mya. She was a Pomeranian Miniature Poodle mix, going on 16 years old and her health had deteriorated to the point that her quality of life wasn't so "quality" anymore. As of last week Wednesday, Mya crossed the rainbow bridge and has left our household quite a bit quieter and more empty. v.v R.I.P. girl, we will miss you dearly. </3 I will be attempting to look into getting a commission as a memorial piece in her honor for my husband soon...

Along with losing a beloved friend, I have been struggling with finding my creative muse again. Being tired and in pain all the time, plus emotionally riding a roller coaster almost every day as of late has put any drive for writing, drawing, craft making etc at an all time low. This saddens me greatly and I am hoping for a break soon that will help bring some positivity and creativity back into my world. Despite things being rather down and depressing, I still am keeping on keeping on. Even if it is slowly, I am still keeping my head up and eyes open and moving forward, making progress where I can despite it all.

Lastly, despite my desire to be there this year, it looks like funds just aren't going to allow for me to go to Arizona Fur Con yet again. Money is too tight for me right now and there's just too much RL drama and uncertainty going on that I need to be focusing on trying to save up any money I get for the "just in case" scenarios that have been notoriously abundant lately. Sorry to any of you who were expecting to see me there. :(

If you've read through this post this far, I thank you for your perseverance for I know this is not exactly a happy journal. In hopes to end this on a high note, in just three days time I will be celebrating my 23rd birthday. Something good in this stormy sea that is my life lately. Another year older, and hopefully with this new year will come more wisdom, positive relations, good fortune and happiness. <3 Happy (early) Birthday to me!

Yay! I've finally posted up some new arts after not doing so for like...ever. XD Keep an eye out for more coming soon! May even open for a few commission slots in the near future too. Just gonna play it by ear. ^^ It feels great to be all artsy again. :D I hope you all enjoy what you're seeing. <3

Only problem is...I wanna do more crafting than actual arting (drawing). XD Second problem is affording the various materials and supplies I would need to make some of my recent craft ideas possible. I am glad my creative muse is coming back, though. Hopefully soon I'll be able to release that energy and make something awesome and share-worthy! Wish me luck! <3

It's been a long time coming that Jade became my primary "fursona". She's been a long established and important character for me, but it just wasn't the right time, until now it seems, that she could fully step forward. I've always had a deep connection with her, but it's only been recently that I've been able to truly realize just how deep. As I've continued my journey of self discovery, trust in others, and finding security and confidence in myself, more and more has Jade been the single entity I identify with most. Espreiana, although still very special to me, I knew from the beginning was only temporary. She was me during my transitioning phase in life, where I was still learning myself, finding myself. Jade is me now, with my new found resolves, strengths, passions, confidence and security in my life. I look forward to continuing to get to know Jade as I get to know myself and excitedly await the new doors, new possibilities that I can feel lie ahead as she and I unite.

I hope to soon be able to not only create more of my own, but commission some more solid pieces of artwork for her. Right now, real life is busy and a bit scary still, hence the lack of art, but I can feel that soon things will fall into place and all will be well. Keep your fingers crossed that I'l be able to art again soon. I appreciate all your patience and understanding... It means the world to me. <3

P.s. If anyone is wondering what Jade looks like, here's the one good bit of art I have for her at this time: Jade Ref This reference was from when I used Jade as an RP character on 'Souls, but believe me when I say, she is FAR more than a simple story character. Her appearance in the RP however, still reflects her accurately as my 'sona.

This is the most simple way to explain everything going on with this new alliance between IMVU and FA that I've seen so far, anyone who is having concerns etc about this, PLEASE read this before you jump to conclusions or "abandon ship" in any way. This is NOT what everyone is drama-mongering about. It's literally a way for FA to gain access to better technology and what not to continue helping make improvements to the site!

https://www.dropbox.com/s/bt8ugw5a1.....large.png?dl=0

You all can stop crapping your pants now and calm yo tits. This is not the end of the fucking world. XD

I'm sick of trying to fight with this one to make it work right on Windows 8. Fuck it. I'm done. I need to get a new one. Serves me right for getting a cheap knock off brand. I've never had any issues with legit name brand tablets. Back to Wacom I go. *Sighs.* That is, when I have the money... :/ Art is on hold indefinitely guys. I'm super sorry for the lack of true activity around here. v.v

This time I mean it! XD Keep your eyes out for new arts coming soon! 8D I can feel the muse itch starting to get at me, so soon I hope to be able to present some new artwork after so long being art blocked. ^^ Thanks for the continued support eveyone! It means a lot! <3

I don't really know how many people actually pay attention to my journals, but I'm doing what I can right now to signal boost a friend of mine who is going through tough times and may soon face crisis if they can't get some funds together. v.v is open for commissions and needs all the help they can get! Please, if you can, go throw money their way and get pretties in return! Here is a journal where you can get an idea of their situation: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6443348/ I know plenty of us out there have likely faced similar struggles at some point in time. Anything you can spare to help out is greatly appreciated! If you can, please also continue to signal boost for them as well, even if you can't spare any money at this time. Thank you everyone. <3

Uuuuugh! So, even though my muse for art and creative things is flowing better again, I now am faced with a new road block in the form of my current (still "new", even) tablet being incompatible with my new laptop due the fact it's running on Windows 8. :/ In order to do ANY drawing with my tablet, I have to pull out my old, busted up laptop and fight with it there and it's really just an extra hassle that is super off-putting when all I want to do is just sit down, plug in my tablet and start to draw. With my current tablet and this new laptop, if the tablet is plugged in, my keyboard will no longer work. This wouldn't be an issue except for that fact I don't JUST draw when it's art-time, I'm usually IMing people or on FB and things at the same time, so I can't have my keyboard being useless while I'm arting. ><

Is there anyone out there who may have a solution to this issue? Or could perhaps recommend me a new tablet (one that's not gonna cost me an arm and a leg, but is decent) to try out? Overall, I'm okay with using Windows 8, but this one specific issue is seriously driving me nuts. Any help is appreciated... <3

A little late, but never the less, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I think 2015 is gonna be a great year, it's already looking pretty hopeful for me. :) Hope everyone had an awesome New Year's Eve. Wooooo! ^^

P.s. There should be some new art coming soon! <3

^That. Just that. :P

*Will post a real Journal later.*