Okay, so I don't really post here often, almost all my shit is over on twitter. But as some people know I have been posting clips of my twitch stream to Tiktok just for funzies and whatever.. I truely don't really care about tiktok or anything, its just a way to get my info out there.. but I will probably be mostly uploading twitch stream clips on twitch of course, and my youtube channel. So if people wanna see that stuff, well that's where you can go to see it!

Anyways, that's it.. nothing much.. getting ready to go to further confusion. ^_^

twitch.tv/Khandor
https://www.youtube.com/@Khandor

So.. now that I've got the protogen avatar it into vmm I've been trying to stream more at twitch.tv/khandor. I have it auto posting to twitter too which is nice.

I'm trying to hit affiliate which is frustrating. Lol. You need 50 followers, which I'm at.. but the analytics say 49. Apparently it takes 48 hours to sync up.. which is just dumb but whatever..

I've been trying to figure out a schedule, but with work it's hard. I'm not doing it to make money or nothing, I just enjoy playing games for people really. I've always wanted to do stuff in regards to video.. which is evident on my old YouTube channel where I used to make cringey ass videos. Lol.. but we will see how this goes.. I may upload my streams to YouTube.. it's just hard to find time to sit back and highlight stuff in my videos due to time constraints.

Whelp, BLFC ended, was a blast, and now tomorrow morning I'm leaving with family to fly out to Ireland from the west coast of the united states. I'll be out there until July 1st. Then I'll be home for like.. 2 or 3 days and then on july 4th I gotta drive out to a psychologist conference in vegas for a week. wheee

It's sad to see people who think they need to make adjustments or changes to meet the requirements of 'species rules.' it's complete bullshit that people think they have any right to tell people what's okay and not okay in terms of their design, and then to fit into a community or group they need to alter their design to be 'official.' It's arbitrary bullshit.. I've worked quite hard in the protogen community to fight against a lot of this nonsense to make peoples lives easier and to allow creators the freedom to see their oc's in their way, not through some dumbass paywall or other bullshit. Closed and regulated species are a laughable concept and should be fully eradicated from the fandom. I post off and on in twitter using the tag #freethegens as not only a sign for artists and furries to stand up for their creations, but to let everyone know, this shit is not blocked by copyright, respect or another dumbass reason. Your oc is your oc.. no one has the right to take that from you. Although the tag is #freethegens, it applies to any and all closed/regulated species, protogen, primagen, and all others..

and if people honestly think that the zor discord, or the admins running the protogen community care about the community, its time to wake up. they really don't... there's more than enough information to prove that fact.. It's all simple exploitation for monetary gain at the end of the day.. tonight alone I've just seen so many really neat protogen designs completely minimalized to meet their standards.. oh but if you want to use YOUR creation.. it's a 300+ rare auction you gotta win for the privilage of -maybe- having your design accepted.. get lost.. there are way more people out there who will love your OC as an unofficial and give ya the credit you -deserve-.

There is no excuse for this, I have run the concepts through multiple levels of scrutiny and in the end it is all illogical and flawed... closed/regulated species are an excuse to exploit the communities, typically for monetary gain.. I've fought tooth and nail for many people in the fandom to protect their right to design their own characters the way they want, and I don't plan on backing down now

So this year has just been ass. Lol. It sucked.. work sucks, family sucks.

It all just sucks, but Blfc was amazing holy shit. Ifc was great too. Got to go to vegas twice with some good friends and had a blast as well. So there is some good at least.. met some neat new people in the sergal community too which has been fun... the harassment of unofficial protogens has died down as well so i havent had to go argue with people on the idea.. so thats nice. Got some sexy new kickstarter board games that are just.. awesome.

Finally got to upload some more art ive had sitting around.. got gifted an awesome telegram sticker by araclast as well! Which im running out of room for stickers. I already got two packs on telegram and the first one is almost full..

Furality was just.. the best. I loved it. Every damn minute.. i enjoy being a proto in vrchat and neos.. but ive also learned there are just some communities i dont meld with.. idk i guess my expectations for interactions with others is not as interesting as some want.. but oh well.. ive always kinda been a "outside the loop watching in" kind...

started a discord to hang out with which has been pretty nice for socialization and streaming.. on twitter now too. Its still a shithole.. but I do it to help the unofficial protogen community when i can.

I still got Dyne.. and thats always great.. idk i wish i could expand my social circle a bit.. but i think most people in the fandom just wanna sex or whatever.. which is fine. But.. i prefer more intellectual based interactions i guess. I get bored of people who just wanna fool around all the time.

But it is funny to see how significant a change things have been in the past 9 years. Been a total revamp of what i used to do. For the better of course. Theres lots more I can add but.. idk. Lol i dont really use fa as a journal anymore. Hell i dont journal period. Too much happens too quickly. Most of my interactions are telegram/discord. But yea..

Some great games came out this year too. I just hope next year will be better workwise. Cuz the stress is driving me nuts!

Rollin out to blfc.. still 4 hours away atm. But yea kinda nice to be hitting up blfc again. Sucks theres a bunch of people who cant/wont go that I know but ah well. I get to be with dyne and a few friebds and tbh thats all that really matters.

So, let it be known, I do NOT take kindly with being told what to do. Harassing me over a ych auction slot is the quickest way to have yer head stomped in and such actions will not be tolerated now nor ever.

If people honestly think they can pm me and tell me what i can or can not do in regards to a ych bid they are clearly the biggest fool on the planet.

Essentially what occurred is the artist of a ych opened a slot, i bid on it fair and square. Then i get threatening notes from someone who wanted the slot but apparently couldn't afford it or some shit. But the artist and myself have both blocked this person for their bullshit. First time I have EVER had to block someone on FA, and ive been here for decades.

Yea yer better off fighting God than you are taking me on. If the artist stated I got it then I got it. Fuck off. Also if the artist continues to be harassed then we will escalate this problem tenfold.

Absolutely uncultured... people think they got some big balls or somethin.

Wooo two years since the last post. So yea, doing gencon 2019. super stoked. ^_^

Woo! Gonna be flyin off to Indiana to go to Gencon in a few hours!

I GOT A TICKET!

WOOOOO GOIN TO BLIZZCON!

Sucks. Even now I wish I was still at blfc. Ha. There were more people i wanted to meet and even more people i wished I could hang out with more. Though one thing I realized is how out of touch I am with my furry side.. see.. for my entire life ive lived in a repressed household. Very religious, anti-everythibg house. So i have to repress all furry and bisexual feelings.

So its a bit jarring for me at a con as I have trouble adjusting. Dont get me wrong though, I love it. But i feel socially awkward when meeting people from the fandom as my brain is reciting what my parents would say and it takes a lot of willpower to make it shut the fuck up.

This also tells me that I gotta get involved with the furry community more too.. just not sure how because of my living conditions.. honestly tho I think my best bet.. is to get the hell out of this depressed household.. I'm getting close tho.. 18k saved up. One day it will come.

Well im bummed. I gotta go back to reality. :( oh well, had fun tho!

Gonna be flyin out to BLFC tomorrow! I'm excited!

Woo finally the Biggest Little Furcon registration went live. Now i got my hotel and registration set uo so Ill be going to blfc in may/june.

New high desert furs furmeet goin on this weekend. Info is at http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7846979/

Woo high desert furs is up and running again.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7844180/

Tabletop Gaming Night at Comic Cult HD in Hesperia. Friday Sept 23rd from 6pm to 9pm.

https://www.facebook.com/events/977268715716875/

Damn the con hasnt even officially started and Im having a blast. Hanging out with some awesome people, eating good food and overall having fun. Can't wait for tomorrow.

Whelp, I totally forgot to update this for the past YEAR. >.<

Honestly I post more stuff on my facebook nowadays. XD

Anyways, since the last post I did get a temp job as a psych which was awesome. Unfortunately the contract ends in a month. But It opened up a lot for me lately. I've been swamped with work and playing 40k on the weekends, plus painting and such.

Anyways, as for Califur, I WILL be going, in fact I have a hotel room set up for thursday to monday. I'll be there with my mate and also with a good friend of mine, so it'll be awesome. Plus this year I will actually have a badge to wear that I made myself. I am trying hard to paint my models as I am going to try to bring wh40k renegade and overkill to the con for people to play. Right now the models are just primered so I'm painting like a fiend every night to get shit done by then. ha.

It'll be awesome though, I'm looking forward to it.

Yea, so. Finally got the interview of the lifetime, I thought it went great too.. it was the position I have wanted for over 8 years with the company that I've worked with for 12 years. And I got declined. so.. yea.. just feels like I'm stuck in a rut. over and over and over again. and now because i switched jobs to try and make my resume look better I'm currently almost completely broke to boot. so yea. good times.

So, I am finally back in action, no longer working as a paraeducator but as a substitute.. so I'll be making a little bit more money than before.. but even better is that the application for the job of my dreams went out last night and I really really hope I can get it.. if I do, then everything will change for me.

This made me laugh. Oh yea, if you haven't seen jurassic world, then there are spoilers in the song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3m7-da8Q2Y

For those who don't know, the Humble bundle is a pay what you want weekly charity site that discounts bundles of games for PC and other such areas. Often times their bundles are very much worth the cost. I felt that I should advertise this one in particular because of the content within it.

The basic bundle, which you can pay whatever amount you want, will get you:

Outland - Special Edition
Fallen Enchantress: Legendary Heroes
Mercenary Kings

The average bundle which includes all the previous games plus these you just have to pay at least $4.73 (currently, prices changes as more people buy the bundle). You also get:

Endless Space - Emperor Edition
The Stanley Parable
The Incredible Adventures of Van Helsing II
and more games that haven't been added yet.

For the special game, if you pay 18 dollars you get all the games listed and you also get:

Space Engineers.

You also get all the soundtracks with the games if you're into that sort of thing.

Now normally I don't advertise such things like this, but humble bundle is such a damn nice site to get great games (mostly indie, but sometimes higher end games come through as well) at really good prices. I know there's a lot of people who need to game on a budget and this is probably the best way to do it.

I actually went ahead and priced all the games as of RIGHT NOW on steam and if you were to buy all of them it would cost you at least 135 dollars. So it's a hell of a deal and I can say that pretty much all the games offered are absolutely great. The site values them all at 171 dollars, but my price didn't include the soundtracks you get nor the discount coupon you get for medieval engineers as well.

The site for this bundle is at https://www.humblebundle.com/

Yea so, I've actually been back since thursday, the educational conference wasn't too bad. the hotel was badass, but the whole time I was just thinking, 'yea this would be better suited for a furcon' but god damn that hotel was expensive, but it had a nice setup. But now I'm home and back to being bored out of my mind. XD

RIP Satoru Iwata. Head of nintendo just passed away.