I'd like to pay my internet/cable/phone bill to keep up with commissions. I'd have to find a way to tack it all under one bill.

As for my house, I'm trying to sell some items but I found out quickly that my swords/axes/knives are not sell-able.

Paypal is son_darin[at]hotmail.com for those of you who have been wanting to help, and of course, I don't want to leave anyone stranded themselves as I hate doing that at all. It's what worries me the most when I need cash, ever. I need to keep up with my current commissions but I'll be willing to throw effort into drawing something up throughout November. I missed Halloween which I didn't want to yet I was hoping to finish a project I already have on the table, but stress had me keep away from it. As for anything else, if I can get in the help from here on rent, I'll do something extra nice for December. I will definitely need names and refs that given the case.

Now that I am in control of finances, I can safely say that once bills are done I wont have anything to stress about except food. Dad may hate it, but I can live on $60 for a whole month living on burger. I'm going to keep trying on my end to sell my XBox 360 and Wii.

I'm still trying to find solutions, so I've got an assist I could try. Other than that to my understanding they don't pay things like internet even though I'd really need it in order to be able to afford food for the month. chances are I'll drop out of contact after the 10'th. I know that several of you want to offer help in getting out of this situation, but my fear is that somehow dad will find a way to siphon that out as well. He's like that. As soon as he smells money coming he earmarks it to go out to whatever scam he has lined up before he can even touch it.

Art wise, I haven't been able to work on commissions lately due to the stress of this mess one guy caused by forwarding that huge sum. Because it was picked up within the hour it was sent (While I was passed out for the night), there's nothing I could do to reclaim the money. Also due to the alerts to his account, the bank is threatening to shut it down and never let him have another.

I would, but then again I'm stuck in the middle where I'd have been working if not for the fact that he does need constant supervision anyway for his medical problems. In short, no extra income than his own even though I tried countless methods to try and gain some form of compensation for having to watch over his dumb ass. All I got was the runaround from both the VA and Social Security.

So, current solutions are as follows. I'm planning on leaving dad with his brother since I no longer want anything to do with the rest of my immediate family. I have no idea where I'll go since most of my friends don't have room or live too far out. I may sell my Xbox 360 and Wii since I don't use them anyway (And they're brand new) as well as a few knives and swords to see if I could conjure the funds to reach wherever I need to go. Among the blades I have some of them I'm not sure I could even sell. Many of them are hand forged customs, some of which are worth quite a penny. I could try to sell them and reclaim my home, but there's no guarantee that they'd even budge much less get even half the price they're worth (which is typically how a business operates, pawn shops usually only dole a third of the total cost at the most).

Plus there's the fact that if I do this, I still have the problem of being right back in square one. A dad who siphons funds for some stupid get rich quick scheme in Nigeria that never works out. Frankly, I wonder if we could just nuke the country until it glows as a sea of glass. I'll continue looking through options.

Yes, my father sent over $2000 to Nigeria after I told him repeatedly not to, leaving me stranded and unable to pay bills. I'm getting evicted unless I can come up with the money for the rent, wont have internet after a couple days, will be out of contact. As much as I'd like to ask for help, that almost never works out except when friends get involved. In this case however, it's a little different. The amount is staggering considering it has been what my father arranged when we got here.

$967 ($10 increase every day I'm late) Rent
$200 internet (covers phone and cable)
$88 Insurance.

the only thing I paid successfully was the electric.

I'm gonna try one more thing in order to get this shit under control, but it means that I need to control the finances to make this work. I've managed to block his cards, block his name from having any access to multiple companies of which he could send money through (Western Union is his favorite, Moneygram, so on) and I'm fixing to consult the VA on this situation. Simply put, the old stupid fuck can't be trusted with money anymore.

What all of this means however is that in all likely I'll be cut off from the internet for a while. This also means I'll be cut off from art and given where my uncle lives, if I store my stuff there which I could, half of it will get stolen (no question, it will. They have some dumb fuck thieves hanging around in that area, and one of them badly burned themselves on one of my old batteries when they took it last year). Here's hoping this works out.

I'd also like to apologize to my newest watchers coming in on this stuff. It's just a bad time, and hopefully will clear up soon.

I've finished the prime Chaos Incorporated group for now, which will allow me to resume my normal postings for commissions and such as I complete them in sketch form. Since a lot of them are going to be color, expect them to be shuffled quite a bit as I continue. This will take time, as I plan on doing all sketches first, then the inks of those that were intended, and then the colors as follows. So far, the list as I recall:

 Artexplorer Sketch (Sketch in progress)
 VixenDefea Color (Sketch in progress)
 AxelRod21 Color (In Queue)
 Kudan7 Line Art x3 (x1 Sketch in progress)

I still have a few gifts for two friends who helped save my ass on the wait list.  damnevildog and  firefly8083.

I've been kind of footing a bill on my end, slowed down quite a bit due to the way my sleep has been getting in the way. Because I've already done this with two people, I'm going to try and just work on all commissions little by little in stages. Maybe, just maybe it'll reduce flack if any at all.

This allows me to establish framework for planned art that I can literally shove anyone's way and see if they want to make any changes to poses and so on. In all reality I've been kind of doing this for a long while anyway, but the fact that I'm making this standard now is a hell of a lot easier on me than merely guessing. Anyway, just kind of an update to let you guys know I haven't been forgetting anyone.

Just to elaborate because my previous journal was short, I appreciate those of you who actually took the time to jump in and save my ass on this whole thing.  damnevildog for one held a couple donation streams in which applied to help and I even had a few commissions come in that really saved my ass on the whole thing. I'll see what I can throw in on the side of these as well, granted I know I took quite a bit of time clearing out the Chaos group before I even post any of these.

Grand total I have is five commissions which is the current limit breaker for now (originally was three, because of how nasty surprises come at me) and this may take time to get them in progress. Regardless of this, I'll be dropping progress soon as to keep them updated. I already started on one so far, still chewing on the pose of the character. I will however work on something on the side for DeD since he has always helped out quite a bit.

One other person who almost slipped my mind is  firefly8083 who also pitched in a little bit to help. I get to do something nice for her as well.

 artexplorer Sketch (Beginning Phase)
 VixenDefea Full Color (Beginning Phase)
 AxelRod21 Full Color (Queue)
 kudan7 Line Art x3 (Queue)

I went to the bank and cleared this mess up. I have supplies now. Thank you.

Trent. >: |

Since I'm almost done with the Chaos Teem refs, I'm going to be able to start on the list of commissions I had taken. The fantastic thing about the most recent work is the fact that after Camara, Inako is no problem since I'm actually extremely used to drawing her out (Almost ten years of practice, I should by now). Once it's done, I get to resume my normal duties. During the meantime however, I'd like to throw my appreciation for you guys out there. You helped out immensely. I was disappointed really, especially in how every time you guys helped pull my ass out of the fire the bank would suck me right back in. I apologize since the money didn't go toward what I intended it to, which was food and supplies. Instead it went right into the back pocket of some fat fuck who gets off on multiple $35 charges.

Now I get to declare war on my bank and sling them across rooms until they fix it.

Wanting to pull in a few commissions to help pay for food. I blew a lot of money on my truck which I found out that it was once police issue built for off-road pursuit. How I know this is when I took it to the mechanic they identified that all of the components were police mods never removed. Oddly, this saved me a little cash, actually.

Still, all I'm doing is preparing for the future, so it didn't phase me much other than that. If there are any questions, which I'm sure there will be, I'll answer.

Typical sketch, $10-$15 based on detail content, $25 inks, $35-$40 colors based on content, which serves as a valid gauge. Prices are negotiable, let's be reasonable.

As always, note me details if you want to buy.

I'm pulling up references for one of my other Chaos Incorporated girls. Today's girl: Sara.

http://www.livestream.com/theslagpits

I made multiple changes to the Mara and Cara ref sheets. It's slight, I'll admit, but it does fix the Chaos Incorporated logo.

Additional Notes: I'm writing this because it has become a curiosity of mine. Ref sheets done in this style would be a lot cheaper than full out ref sheets that can span over $100. Because they take me roughly 8 hours to do the simple foxes, I could flesh one out for around $50. As is I'm trying to crunch these numbers even more.

Also, as some of you may have noticed, I've been bouncing back into operation. Some of the sketches that I have in my collection will disappear and be redone completely. There are a couple in particular that I didn't feel that I did well enough because the anatomy was by far wonky. First thing's first, I'm trying to keep the ref sheets of my Chaos Incorporated girls organized and together. If I do anything between now and the completion of this project, I'll simply hold onto it before I post it.

This means that if I do a full color commission and complete it before I get my ref sheet project for Chaos Incorporated done, I'll simply withhold the post from my personal page until it is completed. This does not mean however that I wont send the project to the commissioner for his/her approval/post on his/her page(s).

Don't take it as a certainty. I'm busy taking care of my house and then I'll figure out if I can stream or not. I may need a monster to do it, but I'm going to make an effort.

If so, I'm gonna be working on a reference sheet for another Chaos Incorporated team member, the mad doctor Mara aka Xarxes (Zar-Sees) Camoran. It's been a trip getting the kinks out on this one. She's not as easy to draw as Cara.

I keep getting phone calls early in the morning over an arrangement that I had made that my family managed to fuck up. I was paying a monthly sum to take care of a final outstanding debt which really is not much of a monthly debt. they're gonna keep calling until I can take care of it.

Down side, is that my bank is in the hole of $275 thanks to dad being completely stupid after I told him not to do it several times and yet he did it anyway (He loves getting scammed apparently).

The outstanding debt for each month is $5. that's it. $5 bucks a month to take care of a student loan my parents took out in my name that was ordinarily inconsequential. So yeah, anything I can do to snag $5 to give the people for another month so they'll leave me the fuck alone, I'm offering sketches again at $10 a pop, after I have finally settled on a method which I put to use starting the night that I finished my most recent drawing.

The old is being phased out as that was the reason I stopped selling sketches at $15 a pop because I didn't feel that they were adequate after a point. The new method allows me to skip inking if I so feel like it, but I'll still charge extra for any coloring work. Contemplating tone works, I may stick to the former $15 for that.

So, I'll let all of you decide on that and hopefully we can come to an arrangement. I'm heading back to sleep, so it may take a couple hours to respond and look alive.

Old Journal is old. I've been working on doing simpler ref sheets and decided how I want to do them now. Oddly enough the inspiration came from an older image I had done and out of it I've been working around these more easily. It's gonna suck due to the fact that I need to update Daemon's ref sheet, which is glaringly old.

Other notes.. while I've been able to identify one random invite for skype, I gotta admit. I don't add just anyone to my skype list without knowing them first. While I know one such invite came from FA because the name is blatantly obvious (which I'm thankful it's not a bot) another name I have no idea where the hell it came from.

Please, if you're gonna try to add me to skype, at least identify yourself and lemme get used to you first.

Wolf is now 33. Unlike many years before I actually had people come out of the wood work that I hardly ever talk to to wish me a happy birthday. I am actually very thankful of this. Even before I had only a very slim handful of friends who did so before and as always I have greatly appreciated the support. I've got a couple pieces to work on today and assuming all goes according to plan I'll be able to stream more often. Hopefully, today would be a good day even though I haven't been getting good rest. My sleep schedule has locked itself in at the worst possible times.

Also, I haven't said much of anything over the last few weeks because I've been kept rather sporadic and busy. New watchers to have come in, as I should have been saying all along, welcome aboard. I'm pretty sure it has everything to do with my art and not anything else, unless you just like the sound of my voice which creates a somewhat awkward situation.

I'm sure it isn't the politics because of the fact that I'm "One of those evil guys". I'm sure religion has nothing to do with it since I'm a man of faith, not religion. I could go on about it, but that's not the point. The point is, I'm in serious need to upgrade my sketches because I was just reminded last night about how bad my art needs work. Today I'm going to change everything.

I'm gonna go ahead and see what I can do to get started. There are basic rules, just be cool and reasonable. there shouldn't be any problems.

http://www.livestream.com/theslagpits

And then I'm 33.

I hate feeling old.

Edit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVO8sUrs-Pw

I honestly couldn't ask for better friends than the few people I talk to every day or every other day via Skype or otherwise. Most of them, I met here. It has been a long while since I've made myself known in this regard, but my thanks goes out nonetheless. As for my older friends, no I don't forget you guys at all. Where would I be right now without that? Fifteen years, has it been in at least one case? Feels like it. Damn, I should start marking calendars.

I have something big to look forward to soon enough, something that I hope works out for the better. I'll know for sure in a week. Today, I'm gonna sleep my ass off as I worked too hard at night until past 9 am in the morning. Have a good afternoon.

More or less, I've still been offering commissions in order to take care of some necessities for the remainder of this month. The current rate is simple enough, $10 for sketches $25 for inks and $40 for colors. Talking is all well and good, but as always at the end of the day all that matters is the note and the money sitting in my Paypal.

There is a reason I bring that up of course. Rather than just get into it, I'll leave this sit as a reminder that they're still open.

Edit: While I don't have a card direct through paypal I have arranged for it to be dropped into my bank account long ago, so it's a pretty decent workaround for those of you who may be concerned about that.

Yes, sketches have taken less time than they used to so I am going to try this out. $10 a sketch should suffice and the quality will be like as in http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11383582/ or better. It only makes for a fair example because it's still an unfinished sketch.

I gotta remember to kill streaming signs when I get done. D:

Taking the time to sort the mess in my entire house instead of doing anything else I'd regularly be doing. I'm preparing to come back to art fully, which means I'm going to start inking more often. This of course also includes a couple adult works I have done in the past, so be prepared.

I'm kinda tired of dealing with a Belkin/Cisco/Linksys remote device for laptops used by my computer. If it hadn't have been for a lightning storm blowing out every Netgear router/adapter that I had, I probably wouldn't even be in this fix. This generates a new problem. I want to be able to utilize the stability of a Netgear, without the exploding from lightning storms part.

This is why Sparky was dubbed Sparky in the first place. So far, every Netgear adaptor I've owned has been struck repeatedly by lightning. Bear in mind, that these adapters were wireless and were blown when the computer was simply not plugged in at all. NOT PLUGGED IN AT ALL.

It seems to be the hardest point to get across because people are idiots. they don't seem to think it's possible for lightning to flash through closed windows much less strike twice in the same place. This is why I do commissions anyway, to maintain tech whereas I normally wouldn't be able to do so. Lets face it. My family have been complete morons and blow money on crap no one needs. Dad included.

As for why I'm tired of the BCL systems, they're far inadequate and inferior to my computer's needs. I keep having to unplug the adapter to reset it which interferes with stable gameplay/streaming/whatever. If you don't have any trouble with Linksys/Belkin, then I'd really hate to see which Satan you sold your soul to in order for it to work properly. Just lining out the basics, that is the sum total of which I intend to work on correcting in the near future. Following up this upgrade, I'm going back to upgrade both Sparky and my current computer, which has thus far remained untouched by nature.

Speaking of Sparky, it was hit by lightning AGAIN. I had to change out a resistor. I'm glad I bought a computer repair kit early on last month.

No interest apparently. That's fine. I'm going into hiatus mode for a while, which means I'm not gonna give out or do any sketches until further notice. I have one left that I'm doing for a friend and that's it. As for all else, I wouldn't mind being contacted if anything comes up but as I see it I shouldn't count on it for a while. Seems ripe for a vacation.

Added Note: The vacation means no sketches. I'll just look through what I've got and continue inking and coloring to see if I can clean up my page a little bit.

Later.

I need to get in to do this for food reasons. It's nothing short of being able to supply myself to the end of the month, which should be relatively easy. If anyone is interested in art, we can discuss it in detail. I stick with the basics, $25 for inks, $40 for color, although it can be subject to change based on content. I don't mind haggling, but I do charge based on time and effort. Extra will be charged for backgrounds or multiple characters (or both) and it is based solely on complexity.

As a warning, please understand that I tend to take my time lately due to circumstances beyond my control. The hope is that I'll get done sooner than later. I would prefer not to have to owe someone work. As always, when I do my commissions, I'll likely post them in order of accomplishment to show progress and updates, such as sketch, then ink, then flat color (assuming full price for a color project has been paid with background which adds to cost), before the final project.

As is, I have to limit myself to a certain number to avoid overloading myself with work. Hopefully, an arrangement can be made.