Day 12: A song from a band you hate-
The Beatles- 'Help'
I swear this is going to get all the Beatlebutts out to lynch me :P

Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure-
My Little Pony (Rarity)- 'Art of the dress'
In fact, this goes for all of the new MLP songs. They remind me of the old days when Disney included songs as main parts of their animated films, but yeah, I've been bitten by the MLP bug :P

Day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love-
because I'm a sappy romantic at heart and this makes me tear up. *weeps because of the song's beauty*
Celine Dion- 'My Heart Will Go On'

Day 15: A song that describes you-
I hate this question, as so many songs describe some aspect of me, so here you go :P
My Little Pony (Pinkie Pie)- 'Cupcakes song'

Day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate-
Ugh, I hate it when my stepbrother would overplay songs that I liked even marginally
50 Cent- 'In Da Club'

Day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio-
Slipknot- 'Snuff'

Day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio-
Combichrist- 'All Pain is Gone'
This would be a goddamn awesome song to hear over the radio.

Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone - Red Hot Chili Peppers- 'By the Way'

Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere -
Owl City- 'Fireflies'

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event -
Combichrist- 'Deathbed' Reminds me of the Combichrist concert I went to because the place went fucking mad when they played this!

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to -
E Nomine- 'Mitternacht' The first song that really made me look up all the lyrics because I wanted to go along with it, event the Latin chorus!

Day 09 - A song that you can dance to -
Negative Format- 'Color Depth'

Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep -
Jonn Serrie- Century Seasons (My favorite ambient song to sleep to)

Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Funker Vogt- 'City of Darkness'

WOW, so I stumbled across some instrumental covers of VNV Nation's songs that have been redone in a symphonic metal style, and unlike many fan covers you find, they are amazing!

Beloved- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4IYH5_GSQs

Illusion- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muTfqvgrJkg

Perpetual- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLPdoPTSWu0

Dark Angel- [url]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzvxlbr87qI[/url


=D

All song titles are links as well!!!

Day 2- Your Least Favorite Song
Aqua- 'Barbie Girl'

Day 3- A Song that makes you happy
VNV Nation- 'Beloved'

Day 4- A song that makes you sad
Note: This one's a complicated choice... the message is positive and the music is beautiful, yet I can't help but tear up with that odd sad, yet not sad, emotion whenever I hear it.
VNV Nation- 'Illusion'

Heimataerde- "Dark Dance"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EaLQ_RZntRQ

mixing bagpipes and electric guitar with Industrial music? It's a win in my book for this medieval themed band! =D

1. Is there anyone on your watch list you would ever consider having sex with?
Oh, certainly

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Preferably in the morning and night

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Whichever side I end up on.

4. Do you masturbate?
Often

5. How often? Lately?
About once or twice every day. If I'm particularly horny one day and my gf's not in town, it can go up to five or six.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
I did for pennies. I have very sex positive friends. :P

7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
Showers

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
It's on my to do list

9. Do you watch/read pornography?
Yes, though well-written porn is certainly my favorite.

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
it totally depends on my mood, but I enjoy aggressive a tad more.

11. Do you love someone on your watch list?
Perhaps

12. Do you know all the people on your watch list?
Most of the people I don't.

13. Would you choose love or money?
Love. I can earn money on my own.

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
Biting, restraining, spanking

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
Nope

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
The bedroom?

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
Nowhere yet. I've had a friend who's had sex in the back corner of a Circle K, though. :P

18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
By my mother, unfortunately. >.>

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nope

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
not yet?

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
I'm just a couple months shy of 21 :P

22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
Not yet?

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Oh Yes

24. What's your sexuality?
Bisexual. While I prefer females more romantically, I love guys when it comes to sex though not just as much as women. On the Kinsey scale I'm about a 2.5

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
Not yet :P

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
Not yet :P

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
McDonalds would be a strange place to have sex :P

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Yup!

29. Bought something from an adult store?
Yes I have. My girlfriend's allergic to certain lubes, latex and polyurethane condoms, so I need to go to them to get the right kinds of condoms and lubes.

30. Do you own any sex toys?
Nope

31. If yes, how many and what are they?
N/A

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Nope

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
No, thank god.

34. Have you ever had phone sex?
I tried it once, but it's just not the same

35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
many a time :P

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse?
there's a reason there's 'sex' in oral sex

37. What's your favorite sexual position?
Reverse cowgirl. It gets me off and gets her off in the best way.

38. What's your favorite sex act?
If it's sex, I'm not all that picky

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
Not yet, but we're considering a threesome with a friend of ours that we know has been wanting to get into her pants. :P

40. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
We'll see I suppose!

1.Do you sleep naked?
Almost every night. if I'm too tired I'll just crash with most of my clothes on.

2. Do you sleep with socks on?
Nope

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
Sometimes I would like to sleep alone, but mostly I prefer a warm body to cuddle with.

4. Do you enjoy drama?
No, I despise drama

5. Are you a manly man?
In the traditional sense, no.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
My girlfriend

7. Small or large package?
Average

8. Are you short?
Maybe? I'm about 5'8"

9. Do you like somebody?
many people

10.Does your Facebook password have to do with a girl?
Not at all. Those tend to be terrible passwords

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
Yes

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
I can be at times.

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
No, but I would like to one day.

14. Are you double jointed?
Sadly not

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
On the floor of my friend's house.

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Yup

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
Most likely, but I don't pay attention.

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
Yes, especially if there's something else there with the same first name

19. How many girls will read this just because it says "Boy Confessions"?
Certainly not as much as the guys read the female counterpart, I'm sure.

[ ] I wear make up.
[ ] I have cried in a movie theater.
[ ] I can brush my teeth without opening my mouth.
[X ] I get jealous.
[ X] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ] JUDE LAW FAG
[X] I love to laugh.
[ X] I like death/grind/black metal.
[x ] I like rap. (some rap, certainly not most of it)
[X] I like techno.
[X ] I like country.
[ ] I carry a purse.
[ X] I'd be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[ X] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[ ] Girls are confusing.
[X] I've been called a bad influence
[X ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.


Come on fellas, be truthful!

1. What color is your underwear?
Black and gray

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired girls?
Honestly, hair doesn't factor in for me.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a girl?
Somewhat

4. What's one thing a girl can do to make you like them?
Be who they really are, no bs. don't play mind games. I don't like beating around the bush unless we're both doing it for fun

5. Do you have a best friend?
Yes

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Hells No.

8. Do you like your life?
I'm quite content with it

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a girlfriend from you?
No.

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
yes

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
I would have said yes about a year ago. I just tend to get along better with women than men (boys, count yourselves lucky. ;) ). However, since joining a fraternity, I've gained dozens of male friends.

14. Have you ever slapped anybody in the face?
No

15. What are your biggest fears?
Drowning

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
No

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Oh yes

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater?"
In some cases. It depends on the person in question.

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Absolutely. Today I have a good feeling!

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Nope

21. Are you currently missing someone?
Yes


THIS GIRL OR THAT GIRL? PICK ONE:

Cowgirl or Gangster?
Both can be sexy

Preppy or Punk?Punk.
Punk. Preppy's nice to look at, but punk chicks have some moxy.

Face or Body?
Neither. Personality matters most. Looks are only the gateway into knowing a girl.

Good cook or take you out a lot?
Love a good homecooked meal

Sweet or sexy?
Both, but sweet matters just a tad bit more

Armani or Abercrombie?
I hate overly expensive brands

Contacts or glasses?
doesn't really matter.

Today is a sad day for me. I just learned that the author of the Redwalls series of books died a couple days ago. Brian Jacques was the one who both made me interested in the idea of anthropomorphic animals and the notion of writing stories that contain them as characters. Though the stories have not been difficult reads for me in years, I still enjoy reading them and its a little bit of a downer that he's passed away. I can't say I wasn't expecting it, but it's still a disappointing discovery. At least for me, it's as saddening as it was when I learned George Carlen died.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-englan.....yside-12380763

Don't put personal information on the internet through systems like private messaging systems. And to all the people deleting their notes: I do hope you realize that these notes are most likely still backed up in the servers, they're just behind the line of visibility now.

I have my own opinion on the issues and honestly I know nobody really cares what it is based off of my own lack of caring for others' opinions on the whole topic. It's just drama, and I honestly don't care for it.

Yesterday into today:

4:00AM-12:00PM: Work

12:15PM-2:30PM: Homework at home, take a shower, check messages, etc.

2:35PM-2:45PM: Picked up pledge brother who lives near by

2:45PM-3:30PM: Drive to ASU Tempe campus.

3:45PM-4:30PM: Homework

4:30PM-6:00PM: Interview with a fraternity brother

6:00PM-7:20PM: Homework

7:30PM-10:30PM: Pledge Class

10:30PM-12:00AM: Spend time at Fraternity brother's house

12:15AM-12:45AM: Drive back home and drop off pledge brother.

1:00AM-7:00AM: Sleep

7:00-9:00: Homework

From here I go on, sooo yeah. >.>

Yup, after some research into the fraternity, I've decided to pledge for one. The Sigma Phi Betas are a gay/bi fraternity that is generally known on campus as a geek fraternity whose brothers are reputable for having high GPAs (3.0 and above). Yesterday I had my interview and I passed so I'm now officially a pledge!

This a great opportunity for me to network and have connections throughout the nation. It may come in handy in terms of finding a job outside of the state (there's a few states in the US I have my eye, particularly the northeastern ones). Sooo yeah, I'll be suuuuper busy with pledging for 6 weeks and 6 classes. But it's a challenge and though I may stress over it, I do love a good challenge.

NOTE: IF YOU HAVE TROUBLE UNDERSTANDING SATIRE, THIS IS NOT A BAND FOR YOU.

The band that has left a large and both famous and infamous legacy (the infamy mostly due to misinterpretation of the band's purpose due to their satirical aesthetics), including influencing bands such as Rammstein, is one that I haven't been able to get into until as recently as a year ago. Their music is simple on an instrumental level, but their messages are what draws me to them most. Plus, I love satire and that's what this band is all about. :P Personally, I think their live performances are better than the studio recordings, so here's a few samples:

There's one genre that I don't readily say I enjoy and that's Psychedelic Trance (Psytrance for short). Now granted, I'm not balls to the wall a hardcore fan of it. Honestly I'm very picky about it. Mostly though, I enjoy the bands that blend Psytrance and metal. My first taste of this dynamic mix was with Infected Mushroom. But recently I've come to find out about these guys:



Now SUN Project is way more straight-laced on the Psytrance side of things than IM, but in many ways they pull off the mix of shredding guitars and Psytrance better than IM. Part of it may be because they were a rock band before converting to Psytrance, but either way their guitars fit in way better in the overall mix of their tracks. Now, I have only ever bought one Psytrance album (Infected Mushroom's "Vicious Delicious") and that's because I honestly don't feel most Psytrance is worth the money. However, I think I can safely say I'll be picking up a few of SUN Project's albums. They totally top Infected Mushroom in the guitars department. <3

You’ve signed so many petitions to recall governors you can’t remember the name of the incumbent.

You notice your car overheating before you drive it.

You no longer associate bridges or rivers with water.

You know a swamp cooler is not a happy hour drink.

You can hear the weather forecast of 115 degrees without flinching.

You can be in the snow, then drive for an hour…and it will be over 100 degrees.

You discover, in July it only takes two fingers to drive your car, because your steering wheel is so hot.

You can make sun tea instantly.

You run your a/c in the middle of winter so you can use your fireplace.

The best parking is determined by shade…..not distance.

You realize that “Valley Fever” isn’t a disco dance.

Hotter water comes from the cold water tap than the hot one.

It’s noon in July, kids are on summer vacation and yet all the streets are totally empty of both cars and people.

You actually burn your hand opening the car door.

Sunscreen is sold year round, kept right at the checkout counter.

You put on fresh sunscreen just to go check the mail box.

Some fools will market mini-misters for joggers and some other fools will actually buy them. Worse…..some fools actually try to jog.

You know hot air balloons can’t rise because the air temperature is hotter than the air inside the balloon.

No one would dream of putting vinyl inside a car.

You see two trees fighting over a dog.

You can say “Hohokam” and people don’t think you’re laughing funny

You see more irrigation water on the street than there is in the Salt River

You have to go to a fake beach for some fake waves

You can pronounce”Saguaro”, “Tempe”, “San Xavier”, “Canyon de Chelly”, “Mogollon Rim”, and “Cholla”

You can understand the reason for a town named “Why”

You can fry an egg on the hood of a car IN THE MORNING!

You hear people say “but it’s a DRY heat!”

You buy salsa by the gallon.

Your Christmas decorations include sand and paper bags.

You think a red light is merely a suggestion.

All of your out-of-state friends start to visit after October but clear out come the end of April.

You think someone driving wearing oven mitts is clever.

Most of the restaurants in town have the first name “El” or “Los.”

You think 60 tons of crushed red rock makes a beautiful yard.

Your house is made of stucco and has a red clay tile roof.

Vehicles with open windows have the right-of-way in the summer.

Most homes have more firearms than people.

Kids will ask, “What’s a mosquito?”

People who have black cars or black upholstery in their car are automatically assumed to be from out of-state or nuts.

You know better than to get into a car with leather seats if you’re wearing shorts.

If you haven’t worked for Motorola at some time, you must be a newcomer.

You can finish a Big Gulp in 10 minutes and go back for seconds.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Arizona.

Lol, this was fun.

Much like the uber sexy bassline hook that kicks in at 22 seconds in this song:



I got the album it's from "Urban Audio Warfare" a few days ago and the bassline alone makes this song my favorite. Plus, the vocals are pretty good in that in that they're not heavily distorted and sound more like they've had a layer of sandpaper added for texture. This is definitely a good piece of modern EBM ('Electronic Body Music' for you non-Industrial fans). <3

The best sleep I ever get is when I'm listening to Ambient music without any beat. for this, I play this station on my laptop next to my bedside table: http://www.bluemars.org/cryosleep.php

Today I woke to something I don't hear often: a sax playing over the soundscapes of the song (it was "Century Seasons" by Jonn Serrie). What a wonderful thing to wake up to.

It's just so calming to me to be listening to calm and beautiful soundscapes that take hold of my mind and seems to help me achieve a deeper sleep. That being said, i try not to play it when I have work early in the morning as I tend to oversleep whenever I have it playing. Still, when that is not the case, Ambient music from that Blue Mars station makes the perfect lullaby.

Yeah... on a bit of a Leaether Strip (yup, it's spelled right) kick. ^_^; I like his stuff, both old and new, whether it's something more danceable and fun:



Emotional and heartfelt:



or dark:



Plus he's the Industrial scene's premier gay man. How can you say no to that? :-P

for the first time in a long time during the day. To celebrate I'll be playing the Silent Hill 2 and 3 OSTs. They make for great listening as they tend, for the most part, to give sound to the beautiful gray monotony of a rainy afternoon. :)

This does make me curious what kind of music people listen to for different types of weather though.

Wow, so I just found out about these guys. I've heard a few songs from their new album "Memoria" and they're really good at combining modern EBM with Trance. The songs I've heard have a great combination of atmosphere, emotion, the rhythm of EBM, and all the good stuff that comes with Trance. Personally, so far this one's my favorite (Listen at 720 for the best quality!):



Seriously, I'm sooo considering picking up this album (though I'm willing to wait for an international release as it's only currently been released in Europe) and I'm very picky with the music I buy!

Thanks to good old VampireFreaks: http://vampirefreaks.com/combichrist

I didn't like it very much at first in the first listen, but upon multiple listens I think this is an interesting step in the evolution of CC's song structure. This is the first single off of their upcoming album "Making Monsters".

"Never Surrender" LYRICS (yes, I took the time to get them down :P)

Self-medicating
Craving punishment
Blaming myself for a world on fire

No more shame
No more pain
No more... (arise from the ashes!)

I will suffer
I will burn
Let hate prevail
Enslave my soul
But I'll never surrender

Silent words from a bleeding mouth
Swallows pride with a swollen tongue
Everything is nothing
Life in a shallow grave

Too ashamed to feel joy
Life collecting dust

No more shame
No more pain
No more... (arise from the ashes!)

I will suffer
I will burn
Let hate prevail
Enslave my soul
But I'll never surrender
(Never surrender!)

Mental cancer hijacks your brain
Denying the reality you created for yourself
Arise from the ashes... (arise from the ashes!)

I will suffer
I will burn
Let hate prevail
Enslave my soul
But I'll never surrender
(Never surrender!)

Me ships been commandeered and I've chosen the life of a scurvy searat! So, I may as well be introducin' ye to me crew! :P

 pirates

Just wanted to bump that depressing journal down a tad. Good news though: Eden Synthetic Corps' new album "Eight Thousand Square Feet" has landed in the COP International webstore and I ordered it just an hour ago! Can't wait to get my hands on that lovely digipak with it's comic book-styled artwork and of course, the lyrics. Since ESC's main website has been down of a couple months and they don't post much of anything on their Myspace account, the lyrics are a big thing that I want. Anywho, I also ordered their first album "Matte" because... well, I don't have it so why not? :P I ordered FGFC820's first album "Urban Audio Warfare" while I was at it. I have their second album "Law and Ordnance" and I love it so I figured I might as well pick up one of their earlier works. Personally, I prefer the less processed vocals of the lead vocalist from the second album, but I've never been deterred by distorted vocals like there are in the first album.

For a taste from FGFC820's second album:



And from the first album (Note that the patriotism implied by the title of the song is satirical in the context of the song):

Got news today at work that one of my coworkers lost her baby. The infant girl's been sick for the last month but apparently today she finally succumbed to illness. I've seen the little girl before when she was in good health and I knew her mother well. It's sad to hear that such a young life has come to end so prematurely. I can't even imagine what my coworker is going through right now.

Another band that I'm sad to have seen go. I've known that they were broken up for a couple years now, so it's not a surprise anymore. I've startled listening to their albums again though, and I'm missing them all over again. Such talent, artistry, and beauty... they were the band that got me into Trip-Hop in the first place when my musical tastes were branching out from Industrial music. It's a shame, really, that they decided to split shortly after their great last album "Innerside" was released. If you've never heard of them, here's a taste of a couple songs of theirs.

The one that got me interested in them:



and another great piece from them:

I'm not a fan of MMA for the same reason I don't like Boxing (watching two guys beat each other up? I might as well watch two of my friends go at it.), BUT I made an exception last night because I learned for the first time that former WWE Superstar Brock Lesnar was the UFC Heavyweight title. Now, when I first found out he went into MMA he had just won his first match by submission. I've been a fan of his since his WWE days, and I wanted to start keeping tabs on him again. Well, 4 wins and 1 loss later he went face to face with the vicious and brutal Shane Carwin last night and though it looked like he wouldn't survive the 1st round after a long flurry of brutal strikes to the head, he came out on top in the 2nd with a triangle choke for the submission! Now what's also crazy is that this was Carwin's first loss after 12 straight wins by KO in the first round (this was his first match to ever make it past the first round), a streak Lesnar broke with a submission! Truly an impressive feat worthy of the undisputed Heavyweight champion.