my dog Timber had his tumor open up in January and had to go in for surgery asap and then there wasn't enough skin to fully close up the wound. It was a Lot bigger then what it appeared to be and sense it was in the exact same area as his first one there just wasn't a lot of skin to work with, But he went through his surgery beautifully if he would have had more skin to work with he would have walked away just fine like the last time! He's such a boss for a 14 year old. So sense he had a giant hole left in his hip from where the tumor was he's been going to the vet daily for laser treatment to slowly close his wound back up, he's healing fantastically though and now he's down to every other day for his laser treatment so I've been getting a bit more free time, not completely, but I can sneak things in here and there now like this journal for example.
Any time I disappear if you want to find out what's up I stay active on instagram and if you want updates on Timber I keep everyone pretty updated on my instagram photo account.
https://linktr.ee/WolfPangolin
so yeah, just wanted to give a quick update sense I had time quick, I'll be back when Timber is healed up!

I'm alive, I have sinus infection, but I swear I am in fact alive.
My motivation to post consistently has been really dicey, I've been better with instagram and twitter, but anywhere else is really hard to stay motivated. I do instagram stories probably the most frequent of anything.
I am trying to fix that, but I just honestly can't promise anything, because right away I feel so burnt out and drained when trying to post, just feel like I'm throwing all my hard work into a black void haha.
Hopefully I can get more motivated about posting though sense I am slowly working out all the rough edges of what I need to, to do comics again. I don't want to ramble about what I have gotten done and still have to do to get started on actually working on stuff, but yeah. I've really missed doing comics so I'm pretty excited to be getting everything together. I'm still deciding a bunch of stuff though so I'm not real sure of when anything will be fully completed or anything I just wanted to mention that I am actually working on getting it all started.

soo yeah I'm just going to try and get stuff posted more often, but if you miss me and have instagram that's probably the most likely place to see me right now cause I don't know if I'm going to get my shit together or not haha.
I got the Halloween 13 drawings done for October so hopefully I'll stay motivated enough to post those not just on instagram. (there's been a few previews of them on my stories by the way) sense I really dropped the ball and didn't post any of the Julycanthropy drawings I did anywhere else other then Instagram and twitter yet.
I think that's all I really have to say in this update. I mean I could ramble on about stress and stuff, but no one wants to hear about that kind of crap when it's always the same problems that you can't seem to solve no matter how hard you try or even get punished for trying to hard haha.

Hope everyone else is doing alright and have a good day.

just a mini update my computer has been broken sense around November 22nd I think it happened a little before that but that's like when I know for a fact I knew it needed to be sent in and yada yada. but ye, a friend got me a laptop as an early Christmas present sense we don't know exactly when my computer will be fixed and I wont go into detail right now or probably not even later idk but I have had the worst string of bad luck lately just to name two things that happened after the computer breaking out of the Pile is I fell down the stairs and really messed up my back worse then it already was along with other injuries that are. ehh.. (I gotta do some doctoring but the weather has been preventing a lot of stuff) and Timber got eye infection that I didn't have spare money for so I had to use my internet bill money (which I think I have a solution for now, hopefully if it all works out.) I just might have to go January without internet mmaayybe February (ha happy birthday for me) but eh whatcha gonna do, Timber is top priority and his eye is doing a lot better he just got off his week of steroid eye drops and he seems to be doing really good so hopefully it's all good now and he doesn't need to go back due to like a blocked tear duct cause I can not afford it right now. I need stuff to just.. stop happening for awhile so I can get emergency money built back up please |3. but I digress I mainly wanted to write this for like a yes I'm alive, I didn't disappear, I'm still doing art just.. slowly at the moment and I'll have some stuff to upload when I get the laptop all set up and working with my scanner and stuff so thanks for waiting

really good news but a little hint of bad news
really good news : I'm a little nervous because I'm a cautious person and I'm not use to the generosity of strangers and I've had people do really cruel things in the past, but if it's all real a really amazing person pretty much solved my money problem or at the very least made it possible for me to be able to get my fridge and a good chunk of my bills so I don't have to turn my electricity and internet off which where my biggest concerns in the upcoming months, but with that money an the fridge taken care of where my electric bill wont be severely out of control I'll be able to handle everything and slowly get everything under control now and maybe have some peace and quiet for awhile which would be really nice I just really would like that, I wont lie I'm really tired and the thought of finally getting to mentally rest for awhile is so nice

little hint of bad news: the vet called today and they finally got the test results back for analyzing that tumor fully it Was cancerous but it was extremely mild, my mom is going over and getting him more pain meds sense I had to stay home and watch the little goober and I asked for a print out of the info so I'm hoping there not to busy and remember that, because I know my mom was pretty stressed out and I don't know if she'll remember to remind them, but the vet told me that I shouldn't have to worry to much like the kind that it is is mild enough that if it does come back it'll be in the same spot or appear as another growth and shouldn't attack any vital organs like his kidneys, liver, stomach etc. so he should be perfectly fine especially sense he's been so energetic and doing so well. An she said that getting it removed was the best thing I could have done and did probably save his life which made me feel a lot better, but it's still just a really bitter taste in my mouth sense my angel Sugar died of stomach cancer and to have Timber also have even mild cancer just seems like a mean cosmic joke. but uh like I said in the last journal updates about his recover an stuff in the future can be found here at WolfPangolinPictures on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/wolfpangolinpictures/

I have good news and bad news.

good news: Timber finally got to have his tumor surgery - he did wonderful the tumor ended up being a little over one pound (I know it's insane) but he's healing beautifully and he gets his stitches out on the 17th updates for him and pictures of him can be found on the instagram page WolfPangolinPictures on Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/wolfpangolinpictures/

bad news: The universe decided to hit me with as much bad luck as possible all at once. to long didn't read at the very bottom
my fridge is going to hell, wouldn't be the end of the world if it wasn't raising my electric bill that is normally around $23 a month in the summer to $110. plus my washer is taking longer and longer to wash clothes and not only do I try to avoid washing stuff as long as possible which let me point out when you barely have any clothes isn't easy to try an only do one load a month when you don't have enough clothes to last you a month it's a complete pain in the ass. (an before someone asks why not go to a laundry mat or w/e I'm not paying gas money to go to a lundry mat to get cockroaches and crabs thank you very much. which I'm not even sure how far you'd have to drive to get to one that's not infested with Something that isn't a private one for apartment residents only. so like $50-$80 in gas money every time to do laundry doesn't sound plesant to me.. at All... I'd wash them by hand if my wrists weren't so bad and my skin wasn't so weird, but I already have a rash I can't get rid of that I'm about ready to skin myself alive but I'm getting off topic.)
this was also water bill month which was $124. ontop of the $110 electric bill.. and I had just put down $1,000 in total for Timber's tumor surgery. plus my rent and internet bill and yada yada yada.... I only fucking make a little over $700 a month in total sense where going by month because of the bills. (I can already hear the, if you pay rent why not make the landlord pay for shit) because my uncle yes my uncle is my landlord buys used worthless crap to replace things and I get really sick of turning around and having it literally be Worse then the thing that was Dying or broken or it literally dying or breaking within a few months of getting it and it literally taking him months and or YEARS to fix things. I wish that was a joke but NO it literally took him THREE years to fix the knobs on my kitchen sink. I waited because I didn't give a fuck cause I used a pliers to turn it off and on cause I'm a savage and don't care and wanted to prove a point but it took THREE years and they don't even match he literally took three years then got the cheapest shittiest option that looks like crap (which personally I don't care about looks I was using fricking pliers and a knob is nicer then pliers) But for it taking three years you think he could have at least gotten matching ones. He does this shit for his own house to btw. He bought a hot water heater for his own house for $40 and it leaks like hell but OMG HE ONLY HAD TO PAY $40... but it leaks like fucking Hell... glad it's his house and not mine, but I feel bad for my aunt sense her bedroom is IN the basement aka right where that leaky fucking hot water heater is <_<... but at the same time she's been such a royal bitch lately I don't feel That bad about it.
an ontop of those bills I still have to pay to get Timber's stitches removed which they don't accept payments you Have to pay in full after the appointment. The vet got ripped off to many times so I get it, just royally sucks for low income people, but I completely get it.
I wont lie I don't have enough money for everything What So Ever. SO What I have to do is I have to turn my Electricity off for two months September and October and then turn them back on for November so the pets and pipes don't freeze and the internet will be off from September till I'm able to pay the bills up, buy a new fridge, probably a used washer sense you can usually find pretty much brand new washers around here for like really good prices cause people just like constantly buy new washers for some reason?.. like one a year or one every other year. (if your someone that does this can you explain this to me I would Love to know why like if it's just a I have the money so I do it thing or if there's a legit reason like inform me cause this confuses the Fuck out of me but I've always been super low income so it just boggles my brain)

note: I have had to live with no lights before, quite a bit as a kid actually. so yeah I am fully aware of things like Yeah I know the fridge wont work it doesn't barely work as it is right now. I am aware that means no hot water. I have a gas stove and already know how to light the top with a lighter cause the starter went out of it like two years ago and that's the only part of your gas stove that's actually electric other then the clock which seems to confuse the living shit out of people (like this is also how I keep my house warm when the fucking lights go out in the middle of god damn winter so we don't die like boiling a pot of water lets off some heat at least instead of NO heat. just wish the fucking oven worked but the oven hasn't worked in like.. fuck it didn't work when my mom still lived here so like 8 or 9 years? maybe more?) but I'm starting to ramble again so lest wrap it up like I Know how life is without lights. it's fucking miserable. I don't have any other options though.

TLDR: Turning my Electricity off for September and October and turning my internet off from September Until I have money to pay for a bunch of stuff because I have no other options.

I'm looking for more artists to follow cause I miss looking at more art, but here's the hard part like does anyone have suggestions of sfw artists? (gore is fine) like I have a really bad reaction to nsfw artwork so I tend to really avoid artists that draw nsfw stuff even if they don't do it to often sense it's very rare that I feel someone's art is worth the risk of me feeling like wanting to self harm and I don't like setting my account to sfw sense then I miss out on gore which I greatly like gore and blood so it's just way easier to just not watch accounts that may cause me mental harm
Soooo
if you know any pretty good artists that do sfw stuff or sfw an gore let me know! you can either leave a comment or note me which ever you find easier

this is just a quick update sense I normally do one at the beginning of the year for the "Plans for the year!!" but this time I couldn't really.. do that.. cause the plans are in a heaping mess, still kinda are, but are starting to take more shape so I feel I can do a mild ramble about stuff, but I'll do a better like master list of stuff later and all that.
Now to start things off you have probably noticed the multiple different drawing series starting to pop up like the Captured Beasts drawings and (I don't know what else I have uploaded only what I have drawn so I'm gonna just.. leave it there.. I just know the first drawing of that one is uploaded because I remember actually getting nice comments on that one which was Really nice.) but Yeah! we have a bunch of new series starting this year because I've been really enjoying hoping between different projects I have learned that my brain does a lot better if I actually jump between a lot of stuff so I don't get bored and as long as it's something I enjoy I don't leave it to die |D so a few of the series will be a little repetitive like a lot of them are wolf based stuff or monster based stuff, but honestly everyone can bite me if they don't like it at this point cause really I just care about my mental health at this point cause no matter what I draw I don't make money so might as well just do what I want if it has the same outcome sep I don't wanna blow my brains out as badly. bbuut moving on sense that got dark really quick, sorry about that but didn't really know how else to really.. eh.. oh well. Some of the Series for sure that are happening are
Captured Beasts (which you've gotten to see a drawing of so far)
Wicked Wolves - the prompt wolves series
Mindful Mayhem - cheap supplies gore series
Smilodon Monsters - literally just sabertooth tiger monsters
Liger Monsters - literally just ligers (which are when a lion and a tiger love each other very much and are also monsters) note: Smilodon Monsters and Liger Monsters are in the same sketchbook it's split 50/50 so it's 32 of each and this series will not start until Smilodon Monsters is completed
Werebeasts - like werewolves but with beasts, because we can
Beast Tamers - this one works like how the other 50/50 one works 32 drawings of the Werebeasts first and then this one starts up

but that's the ones I currently know for sure that I'm doing there's some ones I'm hoping to do like sea slug monsters and blind box toy drawings and some shit like that but it really comes down to getting my hands on the 8x8 sketchbooks cause each of these series are based on the amount of pages in there assigned sketchbook or in some cases half of a sketchbook with the 50/50 ones where I plan on doing 32 drawings sense there's 64 pages in each sketchbook. Or in the Wicked Wolves series case it's going to be two sketchbooks long sep I haven't got the 2nd sketchbook for that will worry about that when I'm done with the first one. or in the Mindful Mayhem series case that sketchbook is a completely different brand of sketchbook like it's a cheapo idk how many pages that thing has like 90 or something idk. I'm rambling at this point, moving on.

I'm hoping to get back into doing comics, but honestly I've lost a lot of my drive for doing R.I.P. currently like every time I try to work on it I just get really depressed and it puts me in a really bad headspace for weeks and the comic I'd like to work on which is Random I don't have the funds to get that one off the ground right now. I thought about maybe doing one of the short stories, which might be on the table later, but for right now I think I'm just gonna focus on my illustration stuff for awhile cause my comics bring me a lot of depression and just really intense feelings of being a failure for lacking a lot of the tools I need to do what I really want to do with them. Like they require so much thought and time and it's hard to ignore the reality around me which is what I need right now to just.. ignore everything and just not feel like a complete worthless waste of life. So I think I'm just going to stick with my other drawings for now and just keep the comics on hold as much as that also hurts cause I do really deeply miss doing comics, but I just can't figure out how to do them currently without a lot more equipment and funds.

I think that's everything I needed to cover at least for a quick update like work wise.
an I'm not going to talk about any irl stuff cause that always just comes across as me venting or whining and it just gets so annoying cause it's always bad like come on we all know it fucking sucks like my health is shit, my mental health is a fucking train wreck, where I live is garbage and is literally just shelter so I'm not homeless, and my family treats me like shit if they even remember I'm alive like who the fuck wants to hear about details about that shit like the only people that wanna hear that shit are people who wanna feel better about there own lives, people who wanna play the "my life is worse" game, or people who feed on other people's suffering. so like fuck that.

but yea. can't wait to get into all the series and stuff and if you have any questions about all the new series or art questions leave me a comment and I'll get back to you when I can u:

note: All the old series are continuing to like the Pokéwolves series and Monthly Monsters isn't going anywhere sep we really need more patrons for voting for the Monthly Monster series cause were down to two right now.. but eh. whatcha gonna do. -shrug-

also if you have an instagram or twitter make sure to follow there sense that's the fastest way to get artwork from me sense I always post to them first and I randomly post lil sneakpeaks to instagram sometimes via stories.

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I'm going to start getting stuff that I've been neglecting uploading ready to upload like anything that I got done between "Gene's Reference" aka the last thing I uploaded here and the drawing I posted of Den on instagram and twitter. I realized this would be the perfect time to catch up on uploads sense I'm not creating more art so it'd be good to get caught up in the mean time. (long story, will make a brief little what's going on at the bottom after I finish talking about art stuff first.)
But after I figure out how many things I have to actually upload from there I'll decide if I'm going to do one a day or three a day like I've usually done cause I don't want to upload to many at once to not spam people and I've found doing three or less is always a good amount.
It'll make sense on why when I get into the life things below, but I am currently not creating any artwork and I can't say when I'll start again. I have been feeling so stressed, depressed, and just my entire spirit feels crushed. So I just can't say when I'll start drawing again and even if I wanted to I can't draw right now due to needing a room divider to block the electric heater from hitting my desk which I wont be able to afford for many many months possibly not even until way into summer when it wouldn't even be necessary anymore at least not till next winter. Which again will make more sense below, which I'm going to start to get into now..

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life stuff.
where to even start.
I am just going to scratch on the surface with this I don't want to get into every little tiny thing sense this is going to be long as hell and there will be a lot of swearing, there's just such an overwhelming amount of stuff going on that it just seems beyond ridiculous at this point. It's just constant problems on top of problems on top of more problems on top of More problems On top of MORE problems... and it doesn't seem like it's ever going to stop and I'm so beyond overwhelmed that I can't even function anymore. I wont even go into the older problems we'll just start with the newest ones that happened in September going into October. Every September I go on a trip once a year to visit one of my best friends sense September is a very bad month for me I get extremely suicidal and especially after last year with the suicide attempt we all agreed I Really needed the trip so my friend footed the bill, because I'm worthless and broke as fuck and off I went. While my aunt the person supposed to take care of my pets and watch my house while I was gone thought it'd be a fabulous idea to let my uncle into my house and they proceeded to tear out my entire bathroom. Which don't get my wrong it did technically need it with the absolutely fuck ton of mold that was under the bathtub and in the walls, but they did everything Wrong. They knew they were going to do this before I left and never told me, never called me to tell me, never asked me what I wanted in the bathroom never even asked me what color I wanted it painted after they literally shredded it apart didn't even ask me what kind of shower I wanted put in. So they made this horrible monstrosity of a bathroom that cost probably three or four times what it would have if they would have talked to me and I bloody fucking hate it And because they did 90% of it themselves it's done Awfully and I have to turn around and spend a ton of money to fix almost everything... Some things are done so badly, but I can't even fix them and now have to live with just the most god awful shit. Example of one I can't fix. The floor is completely uneven to the point that walking on it makes you feel like your drunk because it's just squishy enough and so uneven that you lose your balance, But I can't fix it because they already glued the vinyl flooring and I can't afford to replace the vinyl so I'm screwed and have to deal with that god awful floor. The last thing I'll complain about the bathroom my aunt decided the best thing to do with ALL the things that where in my bathroom, my shampoo, toothbrush, eye drops, deodorant, electric razor, electric weight scale, band-aids, etc. etc. was to put it ALL in the fucking OPEN GARAGE where not only can wild animals get to that stuff but the weather was shit here the entire time I was gone and they started this literally the day after I left so all my stuff was outside for 16 days in cold wet weather... so all the electronics where completely screwed, everything that was a liquidy type thing had separated and turned goopy or just like really weird and just unusable like the eye drops had turned a weird yellowish and were now thick like a thinner syrup for example, like just pretty much almost everything was wrecked. So not only did I have a bathroom I now absolutely hated and had to fix a bunch of stuff they had completely screwed up I had to replace all my basic hygiene things which I still haven't been able to replace all of because I have had no god damn money to I literally only have like shampoo and deodorant pretty much I still have to try and get eye drops which for me is super important because of my eye problems and especially sense I was supposed to get my god damn lenses changed two years ago but i can't when stuff like this keeps coming up that drains all my damn money. An to end the rant on my family completely fucking me over my Aunt the one supposed to be caring for my pets and watching my house couldn't even call me and tell me my degu Benjamin had passed away THE DAY AFTER I LEFT meaning she had 15 days to tell me before I got home. 15. but no. she waits until I'm literally in the driveway of my house and Then tells me "oh yeah Benjamin died. sooo yeah. and we tore out your bathroom.." -.-; also last note not only did they do that to my bathroom my entire kitchen was completely destroyed somehow to but my aunt keeps claiming they never touched anything even though Everything was touched. Tons of things are broken or straight up missing. but she keeps blaming things being broken or Missing on my dog... How would Timber cause things to go missing for one and two if he was breaking things how would they only be broken wouldn't they be chewed up sense you know he's a fucking dog. I know I make jokes about him being a human two year old and my never growing up child that drives me insane an all but he doesn't fucking break things like a human and he sure as hell can't pick up the broken things and try to HIDE THEM. but I digress.
SO on top of that shit guess what else happens... the main heater decides to break. well with all the money just dropped on the bathroom guess who's all broke as hell? So we find out JUST the heater is going to be $1,900 not counting the installation fees and shit which is another like $200 to $300 depending on how many hours it takes him luckily he's actually really nice an that's really really cheap cause he'd be trying to get it done as quickly as possible cause he's aware of the situation an such and he's a really cool dude an he's the one I wanted fucking working for us on the heaters and shit in the very beginning cause guess fucking what... you pay a little more and holy shit they actually know what there doing and wont screw you over on a $3,000 heater that dies in a few years and never fully worked right from the very fucking beginning! (Fuck you Chris go to hell you cock sucking bastard.) but of course I got ignored through all that bullshit when that was all going on because I never know what I'm talking about and I'm stupid and always wrong :/ sep holy shit look what happened the heaters a piece of shit, Chris is a fucktard that ripped my uncle off, and I still get no damn apology for being right and now I gotta try and come up with the fucking $800 sum fucking amount that we don't have towards the new heater yet by the end of this month, but guess what That's More Then What I Make In A Fucking Month. An I still have to you know pay bills and all that fun adult bullshit we gotta do every month. So I don't know what the fuck to do at all I'm so stressed out about it I've been puking, getting bloody noses from my blood pressure spiking constantly, and just straight up passing out constantly, and it's getting to the point I can't even eat. food doesn't even taste right like it tastes like fucking chemicals, how skunk spray smells, and just idk like fucking gasoline or something like it's god awful with this nice lingering after taste of fucking iron that makes me drive heave so bad it's caused me to pull muscles. Best part if we don't get the new heater I have to return the electric heaters I've been borrowing sense I was told I can't keep them all winter, somehow come up with money to buy my own electric heaters so my pets and I don't die of hypothermia then somehow fucking afford the astronomical electric bills that'd cause. aka I wouldn't be able to and I'd run up high bills and they'd turn off my electricity meaning we'd then freeze to death or if by some miracle we'd make it to warm enough weather to not die I wouldn't have electricity for probably months. (Which for me who needs constant sound like music or just videos in general playing in the background or my auditory hallucinations go absolutely batshit because they just keep getting louder and louder the more quiet it is, is NOT okay.) an I do want to note during all of this I am also trying to rehome my two ferrets which the search is going god awful because literally all I want for them is to go to a decent home that realizes the care that ferrets need and apparently my area doesn't have that. ferrets do Not eat dog food and milk... and you can't have them for target practice because they are a beloved pet and no animal should just be a fucking throw away target for you, you sick fuck. like the more people I talk to about rehoming the ferrets the more I lose hope in humanity. I'd rather keep them sense a friend helps me pay for there food and such so the money isn't an issue for them, and just have them not played with As much as they should be. then go to a god awful home. I constantly hope my health improves and that I feel better so I can fully do stuff with them like I use to and not need help from.. guh.. my aunt cleaning there cage cause bending for prolonged periods especially while doing a task has been causing me to pass out.
I do want to note my aunt was not always a problem, she use to be beyond helpful and understanding and just all around wonderful but things started changing and are slowly getting worse and my mom and I fear she might be getting dementia and so does mine and my aunt's shared doctor but my aunt wont hear none of it or acknowledge any of it and says there's nothing wrong and where all being mean or lying and etc. etc. It's very upsetting.. So now someone I use to be able to go to for help or at least to talk to is now a constant cause of stress, panic, and anger. And worse I can't avoid her she's my ride everywhere sense we don't have public transport or anything like that and I don't have any friends and my mom lives 35/40 minutes away and just.. a ton of other stuff just I could go on and on but I'm so mentally drained...
what I'm getting at is life is downright awful right now and I see nothing getting better any time soon. I'm so violently in debt, my physical health is getting worse and worse, my mental health is getting beyond worse, and I just feel like I'm just sitting in a cage and watching everything around me burn and just waiting for me to be next. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm so sick of the constant problems because right when one thing is finally done and I think I can maybe Finally start taking a step forward something else even more awful happens. I'm so tired mentally, physically, and emotionally and most of me just wishes I would have died when I tried to kill myself last year. An no you don't have to worry about me killing myself I wont be attempting anything because even though I do not want to deal with any of this anymore and I don't want to be here, the fear of fucking up and failing the attempt again and ending up back in one of those mental health hospitals is enough to stop me sense that was one of the worst experiences of my life. That literally caused a lot of my problems to get violently worse and am still having nightmares about that place which I didn't need more god damn nightmares I have enough of those as is. An I can't stand people treating someone like a diseased dog just because there a little different or have something a lil wrong with there head like if your going to act like that get a different job fuckwad. best part my insurance wouldn't pay for that and there still trying to bill me the like hhuuggee bill for being in there and I'm just like suck my ass that place was god awful and they deserve Nothing. so yeah. that whole hellish experience is enough to stop me sense I'm so fucking worthless I'm pretty sure I could even fail at attempting to blow my brains out, not that I could even get my hands on a gun anyways. so yeah. Also I was in therapy, but my aunt wont make me anymore appointments sooo I guess I'm not in therapy now? I don't know what's going on with that anymore, but it wasn't helping anyways because my therapist was really really stupid. An any of the good therapists that are actually helpful aren't covered by my insurance and I can't afford to be paying an actual decent therapist or the gas money to go see them sense all the good ones are nowhere near here and it'd be like $50 per trip. but then again at the end of the day there's nothing they can Really help with sense my biggest problems are my hallucinations, depression, and money. I've already tried a ton of medications for both and I just can't try anymore the past experiences where so awful I literally immediately vomit if i attempt to swallow those types of pills now and go into fits of extreme panic because of terrified I'm going to have the same bad reaction and I just can't do that again.. and with money I am just so beyond fucked with money that it's not even funny and everything everyone suggests just shows there either beyond detached from reality due to how better off they are or are just completely stupid. (only counting people that know my full situation, cause people that don't know making suggestions is kind of a fool's errand sense it's like throwing darts at an invisible target) soo.. yup.. idk.
just really really tired.

so in short. life sucks. my health is extremely bad in every way and I'm beyond broke.
I'll state again that there'll be no art any time soon sep for the old art I haven't gotten around to upload once that's uploaded I have no idea when new art will start to be made again sense I have no urge to draw whatsoever anymore due to all of this and even if I did I can't draw right now due to needing a room divider to block the electric heater from hitting my desk so it doesn't destroy my markers by causing extreme temperature changes and making the pressure in the barrel change and making the markers leak out everywhere. (this happened to my very first pack of prismas and it was a god awful mess.) an I can't afford to get the divider and I probably wont be able to for months and months possibly way into summer.

I'm leaving my ko-fi and amazon wishlist links down below even though I always Hate doing this on journals like this because I feel like it's begging or asking for a hand out but with everything that's happened at this point I just.. my pride is even broken at this point and I don't care anymore sense it's up to the person if they want to help or not especially sense if your reading this an such your most likely a fan of my art and the amazon wishlist has the room divider in it and I can't draw without that during the cold months so if anyone wants to see art in the future when I feel like drawing again, which still could be for awhile even with the divider, it's there.

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between my mom being in the hospital with a tube in her lung, money issues, my own health, and just everything else going to hell I just haven't been able to really sit down and focus on uploading sense it takes longer to upload on these kinds of sites then it does instagram and twitter.
But when I get back from my trip that I take every year because I become a suicidal nutcase if I stay home to long during September because it's a agonizingly bad month for me which with everything going horribly wrong has not helped an my medications aren't taking the edge off honestly. But when I get back I am going to try and start uploading stuff to get caught back up. I'm leaving the 22nd and should be back October 8th an then will probably just like die for a few days because the airport destroys my mental state, but then I'll get on that uploading.

Yo Kiba here and this is just a general update going to cover a few things

Health, Projects, and Social Media/Websites.
there marked bold so you can skip around if you want


Health - to put it bluntly my health has been complete garbage both physically and mentally I'm doing a little better on a bunch of new medications that seem to be at least getting me to like a drop more functional? (sorta?) Also just had a CT scan done on Friday will be getting the results for that tomorrow on Monday still really stressed out about that, because either way it's bad news technically just different forms of it haha.. but we at least do have a back up plan if it comes back that there's nothing wrong within my head, I'm just not thrilled it involves like 32 shots of botox ranging from the side of my head, back of my head, down my neck, and dang shoulders. Also not thrilled that my clinic Just learned how to do that treatment like if I do end up needing that done I'll be one of there first victims for it and I'm just not thrilled, but I'm so desperate to get rid of the pressure in my head that I'm just like fine whatever at this point. When you take prescription headache medication twice a day an it only takes the edge off the pain your willing to try anything. Some days I still can't really do much of anything sep just exist like if I try to do to much of anything I start feeling dizzy or my vision starts going black and I feel like I'm going to pass out (and I have passed out in the past so I don't push it anymore) so I still take it easy a lot. it's annoying the hell out of me honestly, I'm bored constantly. I'm at least not sleeping constantly now, but at the same time that's almost worse, because now I'm bored all the time and can't do a dang thing without feeling like crap. I wont go into detail on this one but I am supposed to go in for a small surgery in June nothing major like it's still surgery and all surgery has risks and all, but it's a pretty simple easy one so should be in and out pretty easily and heal up pretty fast and just wont be able to lift anything heavy for quite awhile, but that's fine like I can still do videos without lifting anything heavy just might have to go back to the old lighting cause I wont be able to move lights around for awhile which isn't a big deal, pretty sure no one will mind a lil less light for a few weeks while I heal up.


Projects - during May I am going to do one video a week (or more if I get them done just one a week for sure for the schedule), but in June that might be a lil here and there due to having surgery not giving out many details except that it's just a small surgery so it shouldn't be a big deal like I should be home soon after and if I'm feeling up to it I may still be able to do videos I just wont be able to do the extra lighting that I've been doing lately cause I wont be able to haul on lights with not being able to lift heavy objects I'll just have to stick to the one light like I use to which is technically plenty an shouldn't really effect the video quality all that much, but then should be back to one a week in July no problem if everything goes right.
I also have a plan to possible get a setup to start doing other drawings again to meaning doing comics again. Not during June cause I wont be able to pull and tug around on a table and art board after surgery of course, but yeah before and after that if my idea works I might be able to do comics again sense I currently have no real workspace for the adjustable drawing board. I'm not thrilled at the idea of having to put up the work station each time I want to work, but I can't come up with any other solution with my limited space and I just miss doing comics to much so I have to give this a shot, I got one more idea after this, but that idea will have to wait a long while cause it'll require saving cause it'll cost a real large chunk sadly. I just want to draw comics again, it's so frustrating I'm trying not to vent so I wont go into the whole I hate my house I hate having no space and no money bullshit but just.. guh.. I just. especially with how bad my health has been and how I just feel so close to death all the time I just want to sit and create and relax and forget how awful I feel and just forget about reality for awhile.. I just wish I could actually relax while drawing on a flat surface like the recording space and that it didn't hurt my wrist like all hell so I can't relax or space out it's just sheering pain from hell, like it works fine for the videos sense it doesn't matter if I'm relaxed for those, but for my relaxing, spacing out, and just like "zen brain" time whatever you want to call it I need my drawing board that I can adjust the angle so my wrist doesn't feel like it's being attacked by violent heated razors and needles. I'll stop rambling. I'm just really frustrated and I'm really hoping my table idea works, because if it doesn't I don't want to have to save up money for the other idea because it's going to take months and months way into next year which just crushes my soul because I'm already so mentally drained from having no escape no mental outlet that I just feel like a rotting husk.


Social Media/Websites - lastly I am going to start working on posting all the stuff I haven't posted this goes for on instagram, twitter, here on furaffinity, deviantart, and weasyl. Those are the only places I've decided to be active at this time (other then youtube but I'm already active there so can't be more active when your already active Ha.) but yeah. So look forward to some artwork everyday for awhile
there are 15 things that need to be posted to instagram and twitter and there are 28 things that need to be posted on here, dA, and Weasyl
that number may change depending on if I get some youtube videos or other artwork done an such

Yo, Kiba here and I haven't wrote a journal in ages x_x;
I'm writing this quick to say I'm really sorry I don't actively upload things like I use to idk why it's been so hard for me to get motivated to upload on websites like deviantart, furaffinity, weasyl, and sofurry. I am very active on twitter and instagram though so if you miss seeing artwork more those are where you wanna find me.
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Wolfpangolin
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kibawolfpangolin/
I have been really getting into doing drawing videos on youtube by the way and I have a lot of fun drawing projects planned for 2019! so if your interested in that
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/user/KibaTh.....f?feature=mhee
I promise the videos will get better in quality over time I have to save up money to build a better computer that can actually handle doing editing and other things that I need it to and I need to save up for a decent camera cause currently all my video and editing is done fully on an ipad -.-;; (I do plan on doing some animated videos when I do get that new computer though~ )

I am not going to stop uploading on dA,FA, and Weasyl though I still enjoy them (on the fence about sofurry though. might stop uploading there..)
but about dA, FA, and Weasyl I will still be uploading it just might continue to be in bursts like where I post nothing then just post like 10 things in one go, like I'm sorry I can seem to keep up with doing it on a more normal basis like I do twitter and instagram. If you don't mind the burst uploading keep watching me on any site you want to though <3 I'm just sorry it has to be bursts for right now

an lastly I wanted to mention I will be making updates to my patreon tiers starting January 1st with cheaper rewards and better rewards! which I'm really excited about especially for the monthly monster vote where as long as you pay $1 a month you get to vote on what animal I turn into the monthly monster video!
I will be redoing all the reward tiers probably December 31st so if your interested check it out on January 1st!
just for a $1 you get to see things like quick doodles, sketches, a page of the random sketches sketchbook, and participate in all polls (like the monthly monster poll!)
an the higher the tier the better the rewards get so hope you check them out :3
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/KibaWolfPangolin

if you don't want to become a patron, but want to help support me here are links for
Ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/A1263MCC
Amazon Wishlist: http://a.co/iWaVYKf

I think that's all the updates I have for now, so thanks for reading :3 have a great day

This is the Comic Page Schedule for when the comic pages go public and are free for everyone to view
interested in becoming a wolf or demonic patron so you can see comic pages a week before they go public, or just interested in helping me out? check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/KibaWolfPangolin every single dollar helps me out a lot, so please consider becoming a patron if you have the extra money and like my work <3
if you want to help me out and support me work, but don't want to become a patron I also accept donations on Ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/A1263MCC

Patron Schedule: http://fav.me/dbxtlxv

January
5th = N/A (see comics a week ahead of time, become a Wolf or Demonic Patron)
12th = R.I.P. (1)
19th = Demonically Demented (1)
26th = Sensenmänner Fiend (1)
February
2nd = Random (1)
9th = R.I.P. (2)
16th = Random (2)
23rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (2)
March
2nd = Demonically Demented (2)
9th = R.I.P. (3)
16th = Sensenmänner Fiend (3)
23rd = Random (3)
30th = Sensenmänner Fiend (4)
April
6th = Demonically Demented (3)
13th = R.I.P. (4)
20th = Vending Machine Thoughts (1)
27th = Sensenmänner Fiend (5)
May
4th = Demonically Demented (4)
11th = Sensenmänner Fiend (6)
18th = R.I.P. (5)
25th = Sensenmänner Fiend (7)
June
1st = Demonically Demented (5)
8th = R.I.P. (6)
15th = Sensenmänner Fiend (8)
22nd = Demonically Demented (6)
29th = Sensenmänner Fiend (9)
July
6th = Random (8)
13th = Sensenmänner Fiend (10)
20th = R.I.P. (7)
27th = Sensenmänner Fiend (11)
August
3rd = Demonically Demented (7)
10th = R.I.P. (8)
17th = Sensenmänner Fiend (12)
24th = Demonically Demented (8)
31st = Sensenmänner Fiend (13)
September
7th = Random (5)
14th = Vending machine Thoughts (2)
21st = Random (6)
28th = Sensenmänner Fiend (14)
October
5th = Demonically Demented (9)
12th = Sensenmänner Fiend (15)
19th = R.I.P. (9)
26th = Sensenmänner Fiend (16)
November
2nd = Random (7)
9th = Demonically Demented (10)
16th = Sensenmänner Fiend (17)
23rd = Random (8)
30th = Sensenmänner Fiend (18)
December
7th = Random (9)
14th = Sensenmänner Fiend (19)
21st = R.I.P. 9 (10)
28th = Sensenmänner Fiend (20)

okay a friend and I where talking and they gave me this challenge and I loved it so I'm gonna share it

pick 20 things you'd like for Christmas, but you can't look anything up online or try to get any ideas off of something you just have to sit and come up with stuff all on your own. An if it's something that relates to another item you have to list it as one item like you can't just give a list of videos and books that you want that'd count as one item just multiple of that item. An no pet items the gifts have to be for You.

so here's my list
1. 4 cool t-shirts
2. 2 pairs of jeans
3. socks, normal white socks
4. an index card storage box
5. an adjustable angle ruler
6. a nintendo switch (the one with one handle blue one handle red) with two games preferably Super Mario Odyssey and The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
7. a berserk landyard
8. kinetic sand
9. an electric blanket
10. a bedside table
11. a realistic carp fish pencil case
12. a model where it's a dog but like have of it is muscles, organs, and bones like one of those anatomy model things, but it has to be a german shepherd
13. legos
14. octopus ice cube tray
15. magnetic letters so I can spell swear words on my fridge
16. a maneki neko figurine
17. a metal slinky
18. faber-castell gel crayons
19. a nerf gun
20. comic/manga books preferable Fables or Berserk to grow my collection

I don't know how I feel that a good portion of my list turned out to be kid stuff, but then I'm not to embarrassed that I'm pretty childish at times
oh an I did actively try to Not go for to many art supply things.

so yeah if you decide to do this little challenge I'd love to see it, it's pretty entertaining XD

note: I technically already got three gifts I really wanted for xmas which was a Zodd (from Berserk) hat and something to set my markers on which I got a storage stand that works perfect and I got an ipad! haven't got to use the ipad yet cause gotta set up wifi tomorrow, but really excited about that, never thought I'd end up with an ipad I honestly was just aiming for a cheap piece of crap i could at least watch youtube on XD

I managed to get the scanner and chair :3 got the scanner in the mail today and the chair will be here on Thursday
If you where planning on helping, but the "goal" was reached like super quick (aka only two people actually donated and the third was like give me what you got so far I'll buy the fucking things) you can still donate if you wanna help me out http://ko-fi.com/A1263MCC cause there's other things I need really bad like flea pills for my dog, the extension for the ferret's cage, clothes, food, I'd really like this one sketchbook I saw because it'd be perfect for practicing backgrounds because it's short and long. Honestly would love donations with next month being a water bill month that bill KILLS my money, so I can always use donations, but I'm just beyond happy to have a scanner so I can get back to uploading artwork and when the chair gets here I can actually sit down and work properly instead of in like 5 minute bursts..

gonna start getting comics drawn and get my patreon set up properly with all the tiers I want to offer and where just back in the game here like I can get to this stuff now.

note: yes I still am feeling pretty sick and still in a lot of pain, but I can get plenty of drawing done and rest cause I just really need to get back to work here like not drawing and stuff is driving me insane.

okay my pride has finally died from being constantly uncomfortable and unable to post artwork. I only have two real enjoyments in life anymore and the main one is drawing and uploading it. So I really need the scanner and I really need the chair, because I have no comfortable place to sit in my house. I literally only have the current chair I'm sitting in which hurts my back, hips, and knees to the point where I have to constantly stand up and walk around. (An with my current medical issue that the doctor can't figure out what's wrong on why all my guts hurt like it feels like I swallowed steel wool and razor blades and I feel like I'm going to throw up constantly, I'd like to at least have somewhere comfy to sit in my own home.)

I can admit I don't have a great life, I'm a very miserable person, I have very little money and constantly struggle, but I usually try my best to do things on my own I don't like asking for help it hurts me mentally and emotionally and makes me feel even more worthless then I normally feel, but I can't go the several months it'll take for me to save up for the scanner and chair. I just need my distraction from life back I don't do therapy I can't afford video games all I've ever done to help myself to keep myself calm, sane, and somewhat stable is draw and I just want to be comfy doing it and post it when I'm done.

the goal is $350 so if you feel like helping me out http://ko-fi.com/A1263MCC please donate. I know it doesn't seem like a big deal, but it is to me. Being comfy and posting artwork is so important to me.

warning: this update gets very ranty due to everything going to shit lately.

Finally could start working on comic pages! Don't have a good enough set up now :/...
things I need before I can work properly
- scanner (most important sense can't upload without a scanner an mine died.) <--- this is also the reason there wont be any New artwork only the few old drawings that I still haven't got around to uploading.
- a fan (I need better air flow cause the prismacolor marker fumes get to me pretty badly and extremely bad now that it's getting cold out so I can't have the door open at all for the lil bit of air flow that was giving.)
- an extension cord (for the fan so I can put it where it needs to be.)
- a chair (my current one kills my back and slowly sinks so it kills my knees. I can't sit in it for extended periods at all and sadly it's the only place to sit in my house other then my bed upstairs :/ )

on top of those things I also have to save up to replace the carpet in this room with vinyl flooring. I tried my hardest to clean this carpet and it's just not cleaning. It's around 30 years old and just it's become so disgusting and it has a constant smell that I just don't even want to be in this room anymore.

And I've been having to spend a bunch of gas money to go to the doctor a lot due to being in intense pain and feeling sick constantly, I've had several blood tests, several other tests, and two body scans and they still have no idea why I am in so much pain that I can barely function, feeling like I'm going to throw up constantly, and had some internal bleeding there for a while (which thankfully has seemed to calm down now, was terrified I'd end up hospitalized over it which was just no. just absolutely no.)

I'm also really bummed out, about all this stuff I need, because I was really really hoping to finally get myself an electric blanket this year for myself for xmas or something, because the heater doesn't get heat to my bedroom worth a damn and I have a hard time keeping my feet warm anyways.. But that's completely not an option now with everything else..

I'm honestly feeling very depressed over all of this it's like every time I finally get everything worked out ten more things go wrong. It's really discouraging and killed my motivation sense it could be months before I get everything I need.
For example November I wont have any extra, because it's a water bill month and that just kicks me right in the ass, then December I should have some extra probably around $60 unless someone throws a fit about needing an xmas gift then less. then January I'll have a good $60-$70 extra so I could possibly get the scanner depending on how much I could save in December. then Feb is another water bill month (happy birthday to meee~ I have no moneyyy~) then March depending on if I can have the heater turned down to save on bills might be able to wiggle $80 cause then I can get a chair! then possibly in April could get the fan and cord.. So it might be April.. unless other shit comes up between those months to eat that extra and somehow also need to save money back through all that for the flooring..

so in short, I'm royally fucked, extremely sick, and horribly depressed.

an because what's a whiney bitch rant fest without begging for money.

if you got like a little extra and would like to help out http://ko-fi.com/A1263MCC like one coffee is a $3 donation an it goes right into paypal and even that little donation would be amazingly helpful, because that's $3 I didn't have an you'd be amazed at how much a little help can go a long way.

also sense where advertising stuff I did make a patreon https://www.patreon.com/KibaWolfPangolin which is pretty useless right now, but will eventually be really awesome. When I get going on comics eventually there'll be tier rewards with the options to see comic previews, seeing artwork a day ahead of everyone else, and even seeing comic pages a week before they go public. When those tiers become available I'll be doing an advertisement journal and some advertisement artwork an such. I was gonna get at least a banner drawn, but my scanner died and it got cold before I got to it :/

If you don't watch me on twitter you might not know, https://twitter.com/Wolfpangolin/st.....19489676283905 I got my large 200 pack of prismacolor brush tip markers! meaning once I start feeling better I can start working on comics fully an I think I've decided I'm going to switch all comics to full color instead of having some in color some in grayscale. I'm not 100% on that sense I do enjoy grayscale comics, but I am leaning more towards color then grayscale.
Now the only thing I need to do is get feeling better and get my confidence back. I am not going to try all that hard sense this is September an for me September is the hardest month of the year for me an I'll be going on vacation at the end of the month to get out of here for the day that I can't handle like I did last year sense it helped so much. In the mean time I'm going to mess around with my markers to get some practice in, build up my confidence with them, and get my work flow ironed out before hitting comic pages sense my set up is a little fucked with my limited space.
Once I get my confidence up and start working on comic pages I'm going to work on redrawing the Sen comic, Random, R.I.P., Demonically Demented, and Ultimately Unorthodox. So it still might be a wait for new pages of any of them, but I hope it's worth the wait for the jump in quality. (Throw me a comment on which comic would you like me to redraw first, I'm not quite sure an would like the input, I'm thinking Ultimately Unorthodox sense it has the least pages so I can mark it off the list so I can say "I got one comic redrawn" to help boost my confidence and make me feel more motivated, but I'd still like to hear other opinions.)

tl;dr = I got markers, I'm going to do some random art (probably character art) for practice, all comics are getting redrawn, new comics will start up again as soon as I get everything redrawn thanks for waiting.

have a great day~

I have a page of Demonically Demented to post on 28th and then after that all comics are on hiatus.

I've been increasingly depressed with my art lately especially my comics and other things in my life an I just need a break. I can barely keep myself awake anymore little loan trying to force myself to draw something that I feel no one cares about except me. an if I'm just drawing for me then I'm not going to force myself to do scheduled updates. I literally just wanna fuck around in a sketchbook where I don't have to care about how it looks, how long it takes me to finish, etc. So I'm just. I'm done for awhile.


If I start feeling better I might start drawing R.I.P. and Demonically Demented, but the Sen comic, Random, and Ultimately Unorthodox are all fully on hiatus until I get the markers I need to draw them correctly cause I can't stand working on them when I can't do what I want. I just can't put the effort into them knowing they wont look how I want them to.

I have some drawings that I keep procrastinating uploading so I'll try to get around to that so there will be that for a bit at least think I got like 12 or 13 to upload something like that so I'll try to get like one up a week or something.

so yeah hiatus an all that, have a great day I'm going back to sleep till I have to go help my aunt cause she still needs help doing house chores sense she had a triple bypass surgery, she's recovering really good, but still needs a little help with stuff.

changes will be happening, just some sooner then others.
any time ranges given are subject to change sense I wont promise anything until I have the supplies in hand, but these are the future plans even if it takes longer to achieve then I am hoping.

I am going to start using prismacolor markers.
R.I.P. = Neutral grays
Demonically Demented = cool grays
Ultimately Unorthodox = warm grays
Random = full color
Sen = full color

I currently only have a pack of neutral gray markers, but no proper paper to use with them so as soon as I get the proper paper R.I.P. will be switching over hopefully in May or in June at the very latest July, I know this one for sure. I plan on getting a pack of cool grays soon so DD will also be switching over soonish hopefully the same time range as R.I.P., but it might be pushed to August or September I'm not sure.

I will hopefully be able to afford to get a huge pack of prismacolor markers at the end of the year or the beginning of next year so whenever I obtain the markers I will be switching the comics over. Time range could be anywhere from November 2017 to March 2018.. But it will happen eventually.

I plan on redrawing all of the comic pages I currently have done (the old ones will be left up just will be re-titled to old so No there not going anywhere.), but the redraws will not count as updates so I will redraw pages after I have new pages done for updates so don't worry everything will continue as usual an you'll have new content to read, Except the Sen comic might go on hiatus so I can do some changes, no story changes or anything just take a bit to redesign some background things. I would really like to redesign the house at least, because I did not do good job at planning the layout well at all. Don't worry though I would never let it go on hiatus for very long. An Remember you don't have to worry about this hiatus till probably early next year.

also I'm really sure that even with the added work level of coloring that I can keep up my current one comic page every Friday schedule so don't worry about getting less to read just because the quality is gonna get better ;3

I hope everyone is excited about the changes coming in the future an that everyone enjoys the jump in quality when I manage to get the supplies, thanks everyone for reading.

January
6th = Sensenmänner Fiend (31)
13th = Random (31)
20th = Sensenmänner Fiend (32)
27th = Rampant Insanity Please (46)

February
3rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (33)
10th = Rampant Insanity Please (47)
17th = Random (32)
24th = Demonically Demented (16)

March
3rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (34)
10th = Random (33)
17th = Demonically Demented (17)
24th = Sensenmänner Fiend (35)
31st = Ultimately Unorthodox (4)

April
7th = Sensenmänner Fiend (36)
14th = Random (34)
21st = Sensenmänner Fiend (37)
28th = Rampant Insanity Please (48)

May
5th = Sensenmänner Fiend (38)
12th = Random (35)
19th = Rampant Insanity Please (49)
26th = Demonically Demented (18)

June
2nd = Sensenmänner Fiend (39)
9th = Random (36)
16th = Rampant Insanity Please (50)
23rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (40)
30th = Demonically Demented (19)

July
7th = Sensenmänner Fiend (41)
14th = Random (37)
21st = Rampant Insanity Please (51)
28th = Demonically Demented (20)

August
4th = Sensenmänner Fiend (42)
11th = Random (38)
18th = Sensenmänner Fiend (43)
25th = Demonically Demented (21)

September
1st = Sensenmänner Fiend (44)
8th = Rampant Insanity Please (52)
15th = Ultimately Unorthodox (5)
22nd = Sensenmänner Fiend (45)
29th = Demonically Demented (22)

October
6th = Sensenmänner Fiend (46)
13th = Random (39)
20th = Sensenmänner Fiend (47)
27th = Rampant Insanity Please (53)

November
3rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (48)
10th = Demonically Demented (23)
17th = Rampant Insanity Please (54)
24th = Demonically Demented (24)

December
1st = Sensenmänner Fiend (49)
8th = Random (40)
15th = Rampant Insanity Please (55)
22nd = Sensenmänner Fiend (50)
29th = Demonically Demented (25)

To end the year off, I want to just ramble a little bit explain what I’m hoping to achieve for next year and all that and then tomorrow I’ll post the comic page schedule for 2017.

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Short version: 2017 = the year of improvement. Prepare yourself for more artwork.

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Sense now I have a working computer and can properly look up references so I can practice and see how things actually look instead of going by memory I plan on practicing. Mostly clothing and backgrounds, but also certain species types that I struggle with or can’t draw to save my life (like humans!)

My goal is to make this the year of improvement. Not just with skill level, but with mind set and equipment. I want to start saving up to replace things. A great example of something that needs to be replaced is my art table. It wobbles horribly and causes me wrist pains from it wobbling so bad and when erasing I’m always terrified of tipping it over and I am sick of it getting accidentally tipped over by clumsy visitors, because this has destroyed several things an electric sharpener falling victim, many many mmaannyyy pencils, which I cannot afford to be replacing. I also want a new floor lamp to reduce eye strain, because I’ve been getting horrible eye strain and migraines just from poor lighting.

I know most people it doesn’t seem like all that much of a goal just a table and a floor lamp, but I don’t get a lot of money so it takes me months to save for something that someone else could just go out and get easily. For what I want it’s going to be $179.99 for the desk and $89.99 for the floor lamp. That’s $269.98 not counting shipping. It’s going to take a long while. It’s probably not even possible to save during winter sense my gas bill (gas heating) has gone up A lot due to my roof not getting fixed in time for winter so most of my heat is escaping. An I still need to work off payment for my new computer. Enough on money though I could ramble and bitch about money for hours, I think most adults with little money can bitch about it forever though.

Oh one of the main things I want to work on learning is how to draw snowy landscapes, because I have a short story I’ve been wanting to do for years, but even if I learn how to draw them to an acceptable level for myself the short comic itself may have to wait it’s very special to me, because it’s Ula Zangrow related, and I want to make sure I have some good quality grayscale markers to do it how I want to. Also, yes Ula Zangrow isn’t dead <=_=> it will always be alive. I honestly stopped the planned start for the Ula Zangrow comic, because I wanted to start it with this specific short story that badly. I still really want to stick to my original plan of waiting till the Sen comic is past 100 pages to start the Ula Zangrow one, but judging how much work I proved to myself I can get done I may say fuck it and do whatever I want. Also, Ula Zangrow will never be one with planned update times, because of how much work will go into the pages I’m not holding myself to a schedule for those, sense some of the stories will be in full color which will take ages.

To many ideas not enough time, there will be more short comics this year I plan on trying to get to a few projects that I’ve wanted to do for a long time.

I’ve also been working on some random character art, because I felt like it. I already got five finished and 4 inked just need color which I am going to start uploading one every Tuesday. I’m going to work on not bulk uploading except for really short comics like 8 pages and less can get uploaded at once, but random character art is not getting uploaded all at once.

Another goal is I’m going to try and focus on doing more art of my female characters, I feel really bad on how much I tend to neglect them, just because there slightly more difficult for me to draw.

I think that’s everything. If you’re still reading I hope you have a great day and I’ll see you in 2017 my friend.

it wasn't supposed to come till January, but here it is!
going to take a bit to get use to everything especially the keyboard. it's different then my old one so I keep messing up more then normal.

so yes! faster computer :D

only downside is I don't know where the disc to install my scanner is so.. can't scan anything right now unless I scan it on the old computer and transfer it over with a flash drive... which honestly I'll probably do for awhile I got nothing better to do, but I'm already thinking of ways to fix that problem.

so yep! just a little update :3

I can't think of a short comic to do about myself (why'd that one win the poll?) that isn't depressing as fuck so going to ask for questions instead so I have more time to think on that. Also I've been wanting to do more of these anyways.
so same rules as always for quick questions
1. keep it clean.
2. no "I ask all your characters" questions cause I have to many characters for that.
3. you can ask the same question to multiple characters though, but I'd like to keep it under 5.
4. if you just ask a question like "favorite -blank-?" I am assuming your asking me and not a character.
5. If you have multiple questions please ask one question per comment so I can do one page per question.

one new rule though
6. I will not answer questions that cause spoilers for comics.

so please leave a question for me or one of my characters :3

Quick Question Pages So Far: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....uick-Questions

I realized it's not fair that I usually only ask my dA watchers sense dA has a poll feature, so to be more fair to all my watchers on every site even if it's only a few votes every watchers' opinion matters I decided to do a straw poll :3
so go ahead and vote on what the next short comic should be http://www.strawpoll.me/11688711

not really year goals this time more of a schedule for the comic uploads so everyone can keep track of when the comic they like is going to have a new page up and ready to read.
Only thing that might not go by the schedule as strict is Ultimately Unorthodox, because I'd like to get more pages of it done then what is listed, but that's only if I can get really far ahead on everything.

there will be
20 Sen comic pages http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....enmanner-Fiend
10 R.I.P. comic pages http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....Isanity-Please
10 Random comic pages http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....r/21293/Random
10 Demonically Demented comic pages http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....cally-Demented
3 Ultimately Unorthodox comic pages (hopefully more if I can get far enough ahead to feel safe doing extras) http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....ely-Unorthodox
so that means at least 53 comic pages for 2016

January
1st = Sensenmänner Fiend (11)
8th = Random (21)
15th = Demonically Demented (6)
22nd = Rampant Insanity Please (36)
29th = Random (22)
February
5th = Sensenmänner Fiend (12)
12th = Random (23)
19th = Demonically Demented (7)
25th = Sensenmänner Fiend (13)
March
4th = Sensenmänner Fiend (14)
11th = Rampant Insanity Please (37)
18th = Sensenmänner Fiend (15)
25th = Demonically Demented (8)
April
1st = Sensenmänner Fiend (16)
8th = Demonically Demented (9)
15th = Ultimately Unorthodox (1)
22nd = Demonically Demented (10)
29th = Random (24)
May
6th = Sensenmänner Fiend (17)
13th = Rampant Insanity Please (38)
20th = Random (25)
27th = Sensenmänner Fiend (18)
June
3rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (19)
10th = Rampant Insanity Please (39)
17th = Random (26)
24th = Sensenmänner Fiend (20)
July
1st = Sensenmänner Fiend (21)
8th = Random (27)
15th = Rampant Insanity Please (40)
22nd = Demonically Demented (11)
29th = Sensenmänner Fiend (22)
August
3rd = Sensenmänner Fiend (23)
12th = Ultimately Unorthodox (2)
19th = Rampant Insanity Please (41)
26th = Sensenmänner Fiend (24)
September
2nd = Sensenmänner Fiend (25)
9th = Random (28)
16th = Rampant Insanity Please (42)
23rd = Demonically Demented (12)
30th = Sensenmänner Fiend (26)
October
7th = Sensenmänner Fiend (27)
14th = Rampant Insanity Please (43)
21st = Random (29)
28th = Demonically Demented (13)
November
4th = Sensenmänner Fiend (28)
11th = Rampant Insanity Please (44)
18th = Demonically Demented (14)
25th = Sensenmänner Fiend (29)
December
2nd = Sensenmänner Fiend (30)
9th = Ultimately Unorthodox (3)
16th = Demonically Demented (15)
23rd = Rampant Insanity Please (45)
30th = Random (30)