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once again another year comes and goes. met a few friends lost alot. another year of being alone. resolutions are just words. whats mine this year? what is it every year? to find someone i can be happy with. but it just seems never to happen. seems no matter what i do. change my attitude. look. how i am. nothing ever works. so i guess what will happen will happen. i am so tired of being lonely.

there are times when people need to talk. when others need to listen. there are times when there is nothing more important in the world then just a kind ear to take in your frustrations. some people that can know you better then your issues your dealing with. some that actually do care instead of a nod of the head and like "i dont really care what your dealing with. its none of my business" just a simple ear can keep you sane. there are some people who cannot be replaced in such things. those who you gain a connection that you can just explain anything to instead of feeling like you are alone even if they are there for you. many times in many days. its getting harder and harder not to just scream out and punch something. just built up frustration and no way to let it out otherwise...

here i am working working working hard on getting the gold skin for my combat knife in call of duty black ops. just scored yet yesterday and so happy. not easy running around with no weapons and only the knife. because doing so i been accused of cheating and hacking because i only use that now. well this morning i found something out and actually researched it. after you get all the skins for your gun or weapons. there is a hidden skin. oh yes a hidden one. after the gold skin there actually is a diamond skin. gold covered with bling bling. the ultimate sign of "geeze i have no life" so gonna be working on getting that for my knife. found out you need to get all the skins for the special weapons aka the cross bow and the ballistic knife to score the diamond for the combat knife.
care to add me? psn name kilan when you add leave a message of who you are and where you know me from or it may get deleted by accident.

i dunno why i do what i do. making jewelry. not like i will sell it. i mean would be nice to start making a small income to help out. but can only go so far. i dont have friends. those that do call me a friend are looking to see what they can get from me. if not then lately it just really feels that way. i am not sure what to do anymore. i wanna do something but i dont know what. no one seems to really have any kind of advice. most i get is "quit whining" well i am sorry if i feel depressed sometimes.

people say they care. people say they understand. but most just like to lie into your face. things will be alright. we can be friends. my ass. i am tired of being lied to. i am tired of always feeling like i dont matter. but its true. hardly matters to anyone or anything. i dont even know why i am bothering with this journal. no one cares. just another random rant from someone less known much less cared about.

real friends dont judge you. if they do its best done behind your back and not in your face. real friends dont judge or gauge friendship on how much you do or dont do for them. how much you get them. how much your able to actually see them face to face. real friends care for you weather or not your up or down. are there for you. even if they arent you know you can depend on friendship to get you through hardships. its hard to find true friends anymore without them wanting something in return for their time.

there are many things in life i dont know and yet to understand. most of all why i am pushing 30 and still alone. i am a good person. i enjoy simple things in life. so where does it all go wrong? perhaps my personality? i am a loveable foxie. perhaps too loveable not to let some things go when they shoudla been long ago. the heart desires what reality wont let it have. this lesson i have learned the hard way 9 years the hard way... hope can only get you so far. but entities make the final choice. as in life. it takes two to make things happen. its hard to make things work with only one hand trying to mix the batter of a good recipe. one cant help but feel down especially when the heart cries out in pain as it cannot fill the hole it in itself created