So yes, I've been really busy lately so I haven't gotten time to visit here much lately. I'm very sorry if I have missed something important from any of you.
Besides being busy, I also haven't visited here in FA much lately because I haven't got any new pictures done. Nothing at all. I do have been both drawing and painting but I haven't got anything done since I'm such an horrible artist and even though I take a long time to finish anything all my works end up bad, especially recently and these are good examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8969642/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8896018/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8751225/
But anyway, I'm back now and hopefully getting something done and uploaded now and hopefully gotten them look better now. I wonder though did anyone even notice me being gone...

So, I was in a better mood today and managed to think positively, especially since I've managed to get some new ideas for new pictures and comics and for finally gotting a new job that is starting soon.


...


But then, at the end for the day I got so absolutely fucking depressed and pissed off because of everything. I hate myself and my life.

Once again, my mood changed all of sudden from good to really bad.

At first just a small advertisement. Milady  shadowmeere is having an art contest and anyone can join it. More information on her journal http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:28580198

And then here's also a meme I stole from her >w<

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
I dont have a closet

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
No. I haven't been in a hotel for 5 years

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Tucked

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No

5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
I don't understand

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
That has happened few times

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
A bear

8: Do you have freckles?
No

9: Do you always smile for pictures?
Yes

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
What's a peeve?

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
No

14: Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?
No

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
No

16: How many people have you slept with this week?
No one. I live alone and I don't have anyone

17: What size is your bed?
For 2 people

18: What is your Song of the week?
Hmmm, I think it would be "When Two World Collide" by my favorite band Iron Maiden http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BviujRBXXY4

19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
I don't care

20: Do you still watch cartoons?
Yes :o

21: What’s your least favourite movie?
I don't have any specific one in mind. But I really dislike dramas, romantic movies and especially MODERN FINNISH MOVIES.

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
In a safe XX3

23: What do you drink with dinner?
Milk, juice or soda. But usually milk

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Nothing

25: What is your favourite food?
PASTAAAAAA

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Lion King 1, Terminator 1 and 2, Star Wars saga, Back to the Future trilogy, Robocop 1, Alien-movies, for example

28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
No

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
No and I'm too fat and ugly for such anyway X3

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
When I was 10-years-old, 12-years ago.

31: Can you change the oil on a car?
No, but I can if someone tells me how

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
No. I rarely drive and when I do I drive too slow

33: Ever ran out of gas?
No

34: Favourite kind of sandwich?
Normal bread with ham, cheese, normal cucumber and salad leaves. SANDVICH MAKES ME STROOOONG!!!!!!

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Cereals

36: What is your usual bedtime?
1 am or 4 am

37: Are you lazy?
Yes X3. We all male lions are X3

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
We don't celebrate Halloween in that way

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
I don't know

40: How many languages can you speak?
finnish, english, swedish

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Yes, to a finnish video/computer gaming magazine named Pelit

42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Legos

43: Are you stubborn?
Depends

44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
I don't care

45: Ever watch soap operas?
No. Or did you mean that opera-setting with soaps on it that Taomi made? http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4712866/ XD

46: Are you afraid of heights?
Yes, if I have to be close to a fence of a balcony or something

47: Do you sing in the car?
No

48: Do you sing in the shower?
No

49: Do you dance in the car?
There's no room for such

50: Ever used a gun?
Yes, a bb gun when I was 15

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
If you mean an expert, it was when I was 19, in the last year of high school

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
I don't like musicals

53: Is Christmas stressful?
They can

54: Ever eat a pierogi?
What's that?

55: Favourite type of fruit pie?
Apple pie :3

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Comic artist :3

57: Do you believe in ghosts?
I'm neutral about them, but I've always been interested in them. Have never seen one and that's why I can't believe completly yet

58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
No

59: Take a vitamin daily?
No

60: Wear slippers?
Not anymore

61: Wear a bath robe?
Yes after shower

62: What do you wear to bed?
T-shirt and shorts

63: First concert?
Concert of Metallica, in Helsinki in 2007. It was SO AWESOME.

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
We don't have those

65: Nike or Adidas?
None

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
I don't know

67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Peanuts

68: Ever heard of the group Tres Bien?
No

69: Ever taken dance lessons?
No

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
I doubt I will ever get married l3

71: Can you curl your tongue?
Yes

72: Ever won a spelling bee?
Never been in those

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
No

74: Own any record albums?
No, but I have a lot of cd's and old c-casettes

75: Own a record player?
No

76: Regularly burn incense?
No

77: Ever been in love?
Yes and then got hearbroken

78: Who would you like to see in concert?
Iron Maiden for the second time

79: What was the last concert you saw?
A tribute to John Williams concert

80: Hot tea or cold tea?
Cold tea. I can't drink any hot drinks

81: Tea or coffee?
None

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Sugar

83: Can you swim well?
Yes

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes

85: Are you patient?
No D:

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
Band

87: Ever won a contest?
No

88: Ever have plastic surgery?
No

89: Which are better black or green olives?
I don't like olives

90: Can you knit or crochet?
Used to but not anymore

91: Best room for a fireplace?
Hall

92: Do you want to get married?
I don't know. I can't even get a girlfriend

93: If married, how long have you been married?
I'm not married

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
No

96: Do you have kids?
No

97: Do you want kids?
Maybe not

98: What’s your favourite colour?
Red

99: Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes

Feel free to ask something more and do this meme yourself too. :)

Seriously, why almost no one is commenting or taking any attention on my works or want to talk with me in general? Why almost everyone are so rude towards me? I'm always working hard with every picture and I would like to get some comments or anything sometime. That way I also could get to chat a bit with someone.
Am I really that horrible artist? I am practecing hard all the time in order to get better but I guess it's no use then. Yes I am aware that my pictures are terrible and I'm really sorry I don't seem to be able to improve and do better no matter how much I practice and work hard. I can't seem to do anything right like the poses and anatomies or can make capes and cloaks and other stuff blow realisticly in the wind.

Or have I done something else wrong too to everyone? Can please someone tell me? I'm really sorry, whatever it is. I am really sorry I'm both a horrible person and a horrible artist.

I guess this journal is not getting any attention either since my pictures don't either...

So I finally got a new computer. Actually I already got it two weeks ago. It was about time to finally get a new one as my previous computer had been gone really slow and it was only about time when it was going to break down. After all I were using that one for 7 years.
It's a good thing this new computer is also very powerful and can run all the modern games. I for example tried the pc-version of Duke Nukem Forever and it runs perfectly and is in every way better than the Xbox 360 version that I've played before. For example whereas the loading times on Xbox 360 version took about 50-60 seconds, on pc they take only 1-3 seconds.
The game itself still isn't perfect and I've already played it enough. So I've now played more games like Diablo III, Witcher 1 and Team Fortress 2, which now doesn't lag much at all like it was all the time doing on that old computer.
But I'm not going to be just playing. I'm going to keep drawing too of course. :) I'm for example trying to finally proceed with my Karamador-comic that I've been working on for 5 years now.

That's all for now.

FUS RO DAH!

So yes, today it's my birthday and I'm turning 22 now.
Though it's not that happy birthday for me because I just found out that I again didn't get into any school for next autumn. :(

But what still really cheered me up were these great gifts:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8272668/ from milady  shadowmeere
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8254482/ from milord  holydrake
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/827...../#cid:57398033 from milady  squirrelette
Thank you very much ^^
And also thanks to all my other friends as well. I'm going to later make some kind of anniversary picture, thanking all of you my friends. :)

I took this meme from  Miku_Aaparo >:3

1) First list all your OC's by first name so we can see your list of all your wonderful OC's:

Sir Kiljaos, Zak, Anima, Taomi, Seenah, Raimei, Mechnater, Jen, Bodom, Mioss, Janica, Beauty, Dan, Riivaaja, Tog, Dragine, Wolfheart, Se-Po, Morgi, Tom, Deus, Frados, Seadog, Dark, Ragon, Celus, Big-Crusher, Big-Eye, Dr. Samuel "Hölmelö" Lizard, and some others I haven't shown yet.

2) Who is your favorite OC?
It's either Sir Kiljaos or Anima

3) Who is your least favorite?
Se-Po, she was created as just a joke

4) Who is your most developed?
Mechnater, concidering that I've developed him for 11 years now

5) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?
Either Anima, Jen, Janica, Beauty, Seenah or Mioss, or maybe all of them

6) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?
Males: Sir Kiljaos, Zak, Taomi, Raimei, Mechnater, Dan, Tog, Dragine, Morgi, Tom, Deus, Frados, Seadog, Dark, Ragon, Celus, Big-Crusher, Big-Eye, Dr. Samuel "Hölmelö" Lizard
Females: Anima, Seenah Jen, Mioss, Janica, Beauty, Riivaaja, Se-Po

7) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?
Since Anima is being really kind and caring princess, she'd help me and any others inside the building to get out from the building and would even risk her life to save others from there

8) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.
That I haven't gotten any comics telling about each main OC's main story done

9) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??
I bet that would be Anima since she's the most loving and caring of them all. Maybe she's currently too young to parent us all but she will be the queen of Doreador one day and then will really parent us all with her love

10) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?
Mechnater of course. He's a terrible cyberdemon who wants to kill us all. Isn't that plain obvious?

11) The eighth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?
Jen? Well she'll be a cyberwitch. So yes, she still would be a witch but a very futuristic kind of

12) Name the first OCs catch phrase! (if they don't have one just make one up)
"May the wind guide my path!", said by sir Kiljaos

13) Do all your OCs live together or are they separated?
They all live in the same planet and same time line, but in different parts of their world

14) Are there any pairings that are in your OC list? (they can't be with someone else's)
I have been planning some but there's nothing offical. Well there are some but I don't want to spoil these yet

15) Your seventh OC switched bodies with you for a day! How will they react at the end of the day?
Mechnater would be shocker for being in a good guy's body and now having all the powers he has. But then he would realize this as an good opportunity and do all kind of horrifying things, which will then be blamed on me D:

16) Your last OC just became a fifteen year old. What do they do?
Dr. Lizard would go back to school

17) Now randomly select a person on your OC list. Who was it?
Dan

18) That OC you just chose? Yeah they think they are superman (even if they are a girl) and are on the roof about to jump off.
He would do it. He's a hawk who can't fly and he has always dreamed about flying and that's why he does like jumping off high places as he always manages to land softly, or let a huge windstorm blow himself away

19) What are your OCs doing during this meme?
Sir Kiljaos is exploring dungeons on a quest, Zak is pirating, Anima is enjoying strong wind outside, Taomi is eating sandwich, Seenah is practecing sword fighting, Raimei is meditating, Mechnater is plotting something horrible, Jen is studying magic, Bodom is wandering in a forest, Mioss is trying to get her settlement out from a tornado's way, Janica is fixing her guns, Beauty is still at work in the bar, Dan is watching after his herd, Riivaaja is taking orders from Mechnater, Tog is with Anima, Dragine is flying around, the rest are sleeping

20) Would your second OC prefer the beach or the mountains?
Zak would prefer beach as it's the closest thing to water and the sea wind

21) Would your tenth OC battle a shark?
Mioss would, she's not totally helpless queen, she knows how to fight

22) Which OCs hate each other?
In the beginning of Taomi's story Taomi and Seenah hate each other, because Taomi's father Morgi killed Seenah's mother but Taomi doesn't believe this. Also Mioss is jealous of Anima and despises her. And everyone hates Mechnater, Riivaaja, Big-Crusher and Big-Eye because they are evil

23) Which OC did you create first? And last?
First of these was Kiljaos. Not in his modern form but in some form anyway. Latest of these is Dan

25) And if those two were fighting, who would win?
It would be really rough and interesting battle. Kiljaos is specialized in long swords and shields and Dan is specialized in revolvers, shotguns and rifles

26) Are your OCs fat or skinny?
They are between. But Big-Crusher is fat and Kiljaos is a bit chubby but still muscular

27) What are your first 2 OC's favorite foods?
Sir Kiljaos favors all kind of pastas and pizzas, Zak favors fish

28) If your listed OCs were in a fight to the death, who would emerge victorious?
Most of them are evenly matched, but in current situation Mechnater would won if the others won't team up against him

29) There's a zombie attack and your OCs are stranded. Who do they elect to be their leader?
Maybe Anima and Mioss since they have most experienced in leading

30) During said zombie attack, who's the first to die?
Beauty because she can't fight and if no one's going to save her D:

31) Tag three or more people!
I tag those who wants to be tagged

By the way, it seems I'm going to have a birthday after 2 weeks

Milady  shadowmeere has done some really awesome and beautiful art and I really recommend you to check out her gallery. :)
Her work most definetly is much better than mine. X3

Here are some examples of her works:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7079627/ (this one also features my fursona Sir Kiljaos)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7549726/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7633997/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7646008/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7743108/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7911824/

She also does comissions so if you're interested: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6987513/

Let me tell you how I'm feeling right now. I feel like crap. Nothing is fine in my life and maybe will never be. Everything is going so bad.

I've right now been feeling so stressed and depressed for many reasons. First of all I'm being so busy with my work and all the pictures I have to do. Oh yes, I have work for the whole summer so there is no time for me to rest much. And the drawing itself is not going fine at all. I still draw and paint like shit and I never get anything done in time as I'm so slow and always having problem with simple things like sketching and poses.
I've been trying to practice and do my best with drawing but still it feels like I'm not making much progress and no matter what and how well I'd draw my works will always get overlooked because there are much better artists there and who also are nicer people and to others I seem like I'd be a horrible and mean person, even though I really aren't like that.

Oh yes, it is also this time of the year when I also have to worry about getting a place to study or a new work for next autumn. It is possible I'm not getting anywhere this year either because I'm not intelligent and skillful enough for anything.

It's not making things any better that my computer has started working bad and doing anything with is so slow and nearly impossible and frustrating. It's only the matter of time when this thing breaks up completly.

I'm sorry about ranting how crappy my still is and all, but I just am feeling stressed and depressed and needed to tell about this to someone. I'm still not giving up with anything, but it's still not east to be optimistic about everything all the time. I'm also very sorry for all the delayed requests and other pictures I've promised to finish. I'll try to get them done as soon as possible.

By the way, it also seems I have a birthday in 26th day of this month. Getting old again.

I took this meme from  squirrelette >:3

~INCUBUS/SUCCUBUS~
[ ] You're Incredibly Lustful/Sexual.
[ ] Sex Is Almost Always On Your Mind.
[ ] You Could Make Someone Fall Completely In Love With You By Merely Kissing Them.
[ ] You're Not A Virgin.
[ ] You Burn Through Lovers Quickly.
[ ] You Can Make Love With Someone And Drop Them In The Same Breath.
[ ] If You Don't "Feed" Your Lust, You Go Insane.
[x] You Have Strong/Long Nails. (they do are strong and they always grow too fast)
[ ] You Could Get Nearly Anyone You Want.
Total: 1


~WEREWOLF~
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] You're incredibly physically strong and fast.
[ ] You Love The Moon. (but it is nice)
[x] You're Very Loyal.
[x] If You Love Someone, You'll Do Whatever You Possibly Can To Protect Them.
[x] You Would Go On A Devastated Rampage Should Your Loved Ones Be Harmed.
[x] You Like Dogs.
[ ] You're fairly Sturdy in stature.
[ ] You're Either A Good Leader Or A Solitary Person.
[x] You Have A Hard Time Controlling Yourself Half Of The Time.
Total: 6

~NEKO(Cat-Person)/WERECAT~
[x] You Like Cats.
[ ] You're lithe and agile.
[ ] You could fall off of anything and always land on your feet.
[ ] You Like Gymnastics.
[ ] You Love To Eat Seafood.
[x] You're Affectionate And Cozy.
[ ] You Like Yarn.
[ ] You Like Chasing Things.
[ ] You're An Excellent Hunter/Fighter.
Total: 2


~ZOMBIE~
[x] You're An Outcast.
[x] You Feel As If You're Not Truly Alive.
[ ] You'll Moan When You're Hurt Rather Than Scream Or Cry.
[ ] You Tend To Zone Out.
[x] You Don't Feel Very Smart.
[ ] You Like Worms.
[x] You Like Taking Things Slowly.
[ ] You Like Odd Foods.
[x] You Prefer To Suffer In Silence.
[x] You Don't Get Much Sleep.
Total: 6

~VAMPIRE~
[ ] You'd Rather Be Pale Than Tan.
[ ] You Like To Eat Or Drink Red Things.
[ ] You're Lustful/Sexual.
[ ] When You're Kissing Someone, You Tend To Bite Them.
[ ] You're Dark, Mysterious, And Seductive.
[x] You've Tasted Your Own Blood Before And Liked It.
[x] Being Out In The Sun Too Long Makes You Feel Weak. (I don't like hot weather)
[ ] You're graceful, lithe, and can appear threatening or dangerous to others.
[ ] You have incredible charm and can get people to do nearly anything.
[] You're More Active At Night.
Total: 2


~SPIRIT/GHOST~
[x] You're Invisible. (sometimes it feels like it)
[ ] You Have An Oddly Eerie Presence.
[ ] You Can Send Chills Down A Person's Spine Just By Looking At Them.
[x] You Have Messy Hair That Is Partially/Completely In Your Face.
[x] You're Incredibly Gentle.
[x] You're Very Shy Around Someone You Find Attractive.
[x] You Tend To Simply Disappear When No One's Looking
[ ] You Enjoy Scaring People.
[x] You Like The Indoors.
[x] You Are Deeply Connected To The Ones You Love No Matter What Happens.
Total: 7

~GHOUL~
[ ] You Will Eat Just About Anything.
[ ] You Like To Attack People Verbally Or Physically
[ ] You Are Thrilled If You Can Make Someone Bleed
[ ] You Wouldn't Care If You Hurt Someone As Long As You Can Get What You Want From Them.
[ ] You Like Stalking People.
[ ] You Find It Fun To Crawl Into Tight, Small, Cramped, Dirty Spaces.
[x] You Get Hungry Easily.
[ ] You Like Torture.
[ ] You live to hurt people.
[ ] You Like The Idea Of Being Insane.
Total: 1

~WITCH~
[ ] You're Into Wicca/Paganism.
[x] You Like Magical Objects.
[x] You Believe In Magic. (in a way)
[ ] You Perform Odd Rituals On A Daily Basis.
[ ] People Find You Intolerably Cruel.
[ ] You enjoy manipulating people.
[ ] You Feel Deeply In Touch With Nature And Hate Industrialization.
[x] You Love Black Cats/Ravens.
[ ] You Practice Voodoo
[ ] You Tend To Laugh Hysterically While Picking Up On Someone You Find Attractive.
Total: 3

~SHAPE-SHIFTER~
[x] You Have Different Personalities.
[ ] Your Style Could Change From Goth To Preppy In The Same second
[ ] You Have More Than One Lover.
[x] You're Unpredictable.
[x] You Would Change Yourself Entirely To Fit In.
[x] You Are Fond Of Many Different Things.
[ ] You Can Easily Get Out Of Trouble By Changing Your Demeanor.
[x] You often say one thing and mean another.
[x] You Like To Leave Your Clothes On The Floor After Taking Them Off. (my pants yes)
Total: 6


~DEMON~
[x] You Have A Very Bad Temper.
[ ] You're Usually Angry.
[ ] You Have To Make Other People Miserable With Every Breath That You Take.
[ ] You Worship Satan.
[ ] You like pentagrams.
[x] You love to mess with people's heads. (those who hurt me)
[ ] You Could Do Just About Anything Bad To Someone And Feel Proud.
[x] You Laugh When Other People Are Hurt. (only on some movies and games, especially if they deserved it)
[ ] Physically Harming Someone Turns You On.
[x] You Respond To An Insult By Viciously Attacking The Other Person. (at least I used to when I was younger)
Total: 4

~ANGEL~
[x] You're A Very Good Person.
[x] You Take Care With Everything You Do.
[x] You Can Be Extremely Serious.
[] You're Gentle And Kind To Even Your Worst Enemies.
[ ] You Cannot Hold A Grudge Against Anyone.
[x] You Would Gladly Endure Anything For The Sake Of The Ones You love
[x] You're A Virgin/Have Never Kissed Anyone Apart From Family.
[ ] People See You As Being Very Pure.
[x] You Are Obedient And Follow Rules Without Question.
[ ] You Love God.
Total: 6


~Fairy/ELF~
[ ] You Enchant People.
[ ] You Like Organic Things.
[ ] You're Almost Always Smiling.
[] You Love The World Around You.
[x] You Get Attached To Animals Easily.
[ ] You're A Walking-Talking Chick-Flick/Prince-Charming.
[] You Fall In Love Easily.
[ ] You Don't HATE anyone
[ ] You Have A Very Bright/Bubbly/Friendly Personality.
[x] You like long hair
Total 2

It seems that I'm a spirit/ghost XD

By the way I'm very excited about this weekend because it's forecasted there would be a huge windstorm this weekend over here.

Let me tell you what happened to me when I was in the city today. When I was just casually walking and minding my own business I suddenly came across some familiar faces from the times when I was working in the library last autumn. These people were the drunkards who were the same customers who had threatened me when I was working in the library. And of course they happened to recognized me as that retarded and ugly guy from the library and as being piss-ass drunks once again, started shouting and threatening at me when I was just passing by, just like how they did back in the library. Well, luckily nothing worse happened for now as I managed to just walk away from the situation, even though I would have wanted to shout back.

And seriously, social situations have ALWAYS been extremely difficult for me, that's why I take these such threatenings seriously were they really serious or not. The working days at the library have seriously traumatized me because of these such people, just like how my school days did too.

Overall, this experience really has made me angered and depressed. I CAN'T STAND HOW I'M GETTING EVERYONE HATE ME JUST EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING WRONG! BOTH IN REAL LIFE AN HERE ONLINE! SERIOUSLY, WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG? WHY ONLY BAD THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME? WHY NOTHING GOOD CAN EVER HAPPEN?

Really, nobody seem to really care about me and I have to be all alone all the damn time since everyone seem to hate me. I really can't stand my life and this loneliness...

Hello everyone. *capebows*

I'm sorry I haven't been that active over here recently. I've been focusing on doing other things but I'm now trying to be a bit more active again and get back to drawing stuff.

Oh yes, it seems the year has changed. Let's see what will happen during this year. I myself hope that I'll get a new and better job for this spring and for autumn will get into a new school. Hopefully you all are going to have a good year.


-Sir Kiljaos "Kiljunator", lion paladin of the wind

Hello everyone *capebows*.

First of all I wanted to inform that I'm planning to make a christmas picture featuring everyone of you who wants to be featured, just like what I did back in 2008 http://kiljunator.deviantart.com/ga.....t=120#/d1ry48j.
How to get featured in this christmas picture? Simply just put a comment over here or to this same journal in my page in Deviantart, or send me a note.
There's no limit for how many I can feature so feel free to comment if you want to get featured :). And by featuring I mean drawing either your fursona/alter-ego or anyone of your characters, or even your real-self if you want. If you want you can also suggest what your fursona or character etc. is doing in this picture (just standing still or eating cookies or opening presents, anything, but not porn-related) :)

I'm closing this opportunity in 11th day of next month so comment now if you're interested and what should I draw from you.

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By the way, I can't wait for tomorrow as then Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim will be finally released! :D


-Sir Kiljaos aka. Sir Kiljunator

The mighty squirrel wizard  squirrelette is making some free art http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2818363/
I'd suggest everyone to check it out :)

May the mighty winds be with you!

-Sir Kiljaos aka. Kiljunator

Hello everyone. *capebows*

Nothing special, just minded to tell some few updates in my life.

First of all I finally managed to get a job for myself. Only problem is that this job isn't very pleasing at all and I don't like it at all. But luckily it lasts only 2 months and at least I'm getting some income and experience from this all.

But unfortunately the job has made me busy again so that's why I haven't gotten much any new drawings done. But I still try to get more or less done always when I have time after work.


Oh yes and in my previous journal I told about changing my name. Now I want to update about this thing that I've decided to make my fursona's real name to be Kiljaos, but Kiljunator remains as a nickname. And I can be also called Kil, but I prefer that I'm NOT being called Kilju anymore. Kilju still remains as my username over here since it's impossible to change it. Of course I may create a new account but I'm lazy and unsure about doing that.

By the way last friday there was an awesome windstorm over here. It was really fun and refreshing :3

Hi everyone. Recently I've again been thinking about the thing about my names Kiljunator and Kilju. I have made clear that how this name is pronounced, but what I'm thinking about now is that if it sounds way too silly and stupid and if it's misleading since "Kilju" means moonshine but I don't drink alcohol at all. I'm still not going to create a new account, not yet at least. But I've been thinking about still changing the name of my fursona SirKiljunator Roachcape aka. Kilju. Here's some suggestions for the new name:

Kiljaos
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Kilnator
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Kil
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Kilj
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Ike
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Something else
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So which of these would be the best or should I keep myself as Kiljunator? I'd really appreciate your opinion so please leave a comment :).

In the other news, I'm sorry I haven't been very active lately. The reason to this is that I've been really sick this week and so couldn't been able to be at computer very much. But I'm feeling a bit better now.

Next tuesday I'm having a job interview. I hope it will go well and I'd get a job now.

I'm also hoping there will be windy and stormy days coming up over here now that the autumn is beginning over here (my favorite season). It's been a while from the last time and I've been really missing a really powerful wind storm. Meanwhile I'll be doing some more windy pictures :3.

Hello everyone.
How is everyone of you? I'm myself still trying to find a new school or find a job, hopefully I'll find something. Also thanks for everyone's support when I was feeling really down as I didn't get a school place for next autumn. I've decided to not give up, thanks to you all for your support. :3

I'm also trying to draw some more now, like more comics and also some more sexy pictures (especially ones containing windy weathers) xD

Today in 26th day of June it's my birthday again and I'm turning 21. I'm getting really old :XD:
It's just too bad my birthday always happens to be at the same time as the mid-summer day when everyone's being somewhere so I have to be all alone on my birthday.

Hello everyone.

First of all I want to apogolize I haven't posted any new pages for my comic Karamador (the one starring by Zak). I've been rather busy with all my school works and all the comics I'm making there. More pages of Karamador and also some other comics are coming in time, so no need to worry.

My school is ending next May and I'm trying to get into other school for the next autumn.

I'm right now really waiting for the next June, because then Duke Nukem Forever is FINALLY COMING! I've already been waiting for that game for 14-years and it's good it's finally coming in 10th of June :D

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Just for fun, here's one meme called "Right now meme". I took this from  Jake_Lioner83 again xD

In this meme I have to tell what's up with me right now.

1. Yourself
Chatting with people on msn

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend:
I don't have a girlfriend :(

3. Your hair?
Brown, really long and messy

4. Your mother:
Doing fine

5. Your Father:
Doing fine too, has phoned to me sometimes since he lives far away

6. Your Favorite Item:
my computer

7. Your dream last night:
I changed my surname again :XD:

8. Your Favorite Drink:
Freeway cola zero, milk, water

9. Your Dream Car:
Maybe a sport car

10. The Room You Are In:
My own pad (single room apartment)

11. Your Ex:
Fine as well

12. Your fear?
War, loneliness

13. Where you want to be in 10 years?
In a better apartment and have a good job

14. Who you hung out with last night?
My friends in MSN

15. What You're Not:
Muscular, perfect artist

16. Your Best Friend:
All my friends are my best friends

17. One of Your Wish List Items:
Duke Nukem Forever's Balls of steel- edition

19. The Last Thing You Did:
Took a shower

20. What You Are Wearing:
Boxers, socks, blue jeans, red t-shirt

21. Your Favorite Weather:
Cloudy and really windy weathers

22. Your Favorite Book:
Not sure

23. The Last Thing You ate:
An apple

24. Your Life:
Unsure and worried about the future and the money-situation

25. Your Mood:
Neutral

26. Your body:
I should loose weight

27. What are you thinking about right now:
Finishing some drawings

28. Your Crush:
No one

29. What are you doing at the moment:
Making this journal, chatting to people on msn, drawing pictures and listening to Iron Maiden's latest album Final Frontier (is surprisingly very good album. I hadn't liked that much the previous three albums.)

30. Your summer schedule:
Get Duke Nukem Forever and draw more comics

I took this one from  jake_lioner83 again >:3

Do you love anyone?
Not in that way

Nu-Metal or Hip-hop?
Nu-Metal

Guys or Girls?
Both

Do you like sea food?
Don't care

Winter or Summer?
Both

Which do you prefer-Blue, Brown, or Green eyes?
All of them

Wolf or Hawk?
Wolf

Baseball or Football?
Neither of them!

Are you athletic?
Not actually

Trying to Gain or Lose weight?
I'm trying to lose weitght. I'm a bit fat...

Purple or Yellow?
Purple

Sunrise or Sunset?
Sunset

Dom or Sub?
What?

High School or College?
High School

California or New York?
Neither of them

Are you a good drawer?
Not at all :(

Sweetheart or Sex Machine?
Sweetheart

Swimming or Weight Lifting?
Both

Personality or Body?
Personality

Dancing or Fighting
Both

Ice or Fire?
Fire

How tall are you?
179cm

What is your favorite color?
Blood red

Who do you love?
No one in that way

Favorite band?
Iron Maiden (and many many more too)

Favorite song?
"Opium" by Moonspell

Red car or Blue truck?
Red car maybe

Camping or Video Games?
Video Games

Beach or Movies?
Movies

What's the perfect date?
When I manage to get some positive attention

I took this from  Jake_Lioner83

Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OC's Quiz (your OC's name. Example: Kaiser's Quiz)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!

OC: Princess Anima

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Anima:"Hello! I'm Anima of the house of Doreador, the princess of the kingdom of Doreador. But you can call me just Anima."

2. Interesting...What's your current age?
Anima:"I'm currently 17, my birthday is in july."

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Anima:"I think they are apples and ice cream."

4. And your favorite drinks?
Anima:"All kind of limonade, milk."

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Anima:"Umm... Do I really have to tell?"*blushes*

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Anima:"M-maybe..."*blushes*

7. Classic question! What's your favourite color?
Anima:"Red. As you can see, the capes I wear are always red."

8. Who's your favorite author?
Anima:"I don't have favorites."

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Anima:"That my country would fall into war and chaos or get under attack by terrorists, monsters or tornadoes."

10. Who's your hero?
Anima:"There's so many of them, but all my closest and most loyal friends."

11. OK, who is your worst enemy?
Anima:"It's cyberdemon Mechnater..."

12. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Anima:"No one of them wouldn't go together!"

13. Interesting...What would you do if you met your creator?
Anima:"I would give him a good hug and a kiss, because he's rather lonely."

14. Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
Anima:"Well I hope I can get into a big adventure."

15. What's your worst nightmare?
Anima:"That something horrible would happen to my friends and people and I'd become even more lonely."

16. What's your lifelong dream?
Anima:"To see more of the world, bring peace and justice to the whole world, get married some day, and also face even stronger windstorms."x3

17. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Anima:"I'd be really happy."

18. OK, where's your favorite place to relax?
Anima:"My garden balcony in my quarters in the castle and very windy hills, cliffs and beachs. I just love when my fur, knee-lenght hair and red long silky cape get blown wildly in the wind, that really relaxes me."

19. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Anima:"Train fighting, drawing, playing videogames, doing quests and explore places when having chance, taking walks."

20. We're done! Now tag whoever the hell you want.
Anima:"Hey don't start cursing!"
Kilju:"Well anyone who wants can do this same thing."

I took this from  squirrelette

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Were in matricular exams

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't have any

3. How did you spend New Year's Eve?
Being at home

4. What countries did you visit?
None

5. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Money, friends and happiness

6. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
1th of June, because I graduated then

7. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduating

8. What was the best thing you bought?
S-model of Xbox 360

9. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, food, school

10. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Sick Bubblegum by Rob Zombie

11. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Draw

12. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being lazy

13. What was your favorite TV program?
None, there's only crap on TV

14. What was the best book you read?
I don't like reading anymore

15. What was your greatest musical discovery?
None

16. What was your favorite film of this year?
Maybe Prince of Persia- movie, I didn't see any better

17. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Nothing. Not many even remembered my birthday, which is understandable since I have so few friends

18. Who was the best new person you met?
I'm not sure

I just minded to inform you that right now I don't have very much motivation for drawing right now and so I'm going to take some break from drawing. So I won't be drawing that much now and just keep doodling at school (I'm right now in a academy studying making comics as I've told you before) and figure out better ways to draw.

But I'll be posting some drawings here to DA that I made last month and haven't uploaded yet. And even though I won't be going to draw anything big, I'm still going to make a christmas card like I've always done every year. But this card I'll mainly work at school so I won't get too stressed because of it.

Anyway, thanks to everyone for your support and merry christmas :) (I guess I can say that since it's december already)

Also my country's independence day is next monday.
Hyvää itsenäisyyspäivää kaikille! :)

-Kiljunator (I won't be using the name "Kilju" here much anymore to avoid misunderstandings in pronouncing it. It would be really helpful if there would be an option to change usernames here...)

Warning: some ranting ahead.


Hello there. I minded to do this journal to update you what's going on right now.

So it isn't going well at all. The main reason to this is that I'm all out of money because of the school where I am right now. I actually don't have even any money for food and I'm starving everyday. And because of that I don't have very much energy to do anything and haven't got very much any new good pictures done. And it's not making things any better that I lost my buscard and had to buy a new one, which costed a lot.

Normally just chatting to someone on msn after the school cheers me up and forget my hunger. But the problem is that for some reason no one seems to want to talk to me anymore. And if I start talking to someone, it seems that anyone's not interested to chat about anything with me or do RP and then logs off without saying anything. And there's no much social contact for me at school either since I haven't got any friends there, even though I have tried. And not many people are talking to me here in FA or DA either anymore.

Seriously, I don't understand what's going on? WHAT I HAVE DONE WRONG TO YOU ALL? WHY NO ONE WANTS TO TALK TO ME? WHY EVERYONE'S SO RUDE AND MEAN AT ME?? WHY I HAVE TO BE ALONE ALL THE TIME??
Well in that case maybe I really should commite suicide then...

Sorry again for this ranting and sounding like a whining EMO. But everything's really going that bad right now. And this lonelines especially is really unbareable.

I took this from  Squirrelette

[x] = You have blue/green eyes.
[ ] = You blush a lot.
[x] = You giggle.
[x] = You're quiet.
[x] = You say random silly things. (sometimes)
[ ] = You have a baby face.
[x] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[ ] = You don't wear halter tops or anything too showy.
[ ] = You're under 5 feet 6 inches tall.

Total: 5

Innocence:
[x] = You're a virgin.
[ ] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush.
[ = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[ ] = You sleep with a stuffed animal. (Sometimes I do.)
[x] = You like to cuddle.
[x] = You've never played the Nervous game.
[x] = You don't even know what the nervous game is.

Total: 4

Colors:
[ ] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[ ] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors.

Total: 0


Personality:
[x] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[x] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[ ] = You like happy upbeat music.
[ ] = You like "Cutesy" music.

Total: 2

What YOU think is cute:
[x] = You like small animals
[ ] = You like babies a lot.
[x] = Small/mini versions of things make you go "Awww <3"

Total: 2

Now multiply that by 4

13 x 4 = 52%