I think it would be in my best interest to start keeping a public diary to let out how I feel and stop holding everything in. Maybe it will help this feeling of isolation that I can't get away from go away. I am Joby and my mind has been crashing. Conflicting information from people I trust is starting to , in a sense, corrupt my cognitive processes. So maybe this will help even though there is a high chance all that will happen is me receiving ridicule from other and insults that may make things worst.