Okay this is kind of a long shot but I got banned from r/schizophrenia for 'asking for medical advice' so

Can anyone who has or is familiar with schizophrenia/psychosis offer me lifestyle advice, or recommend me a community/forum/discord/something where I can talk to others who might be having some of the problems I'm having?

I'm really struggling and while I think psychiatry and therapy can/will help and I'm working towards those as well, I would really like to get some perspective from peers

The topic I am specifically struggling with is emotional blunting via medications

Hello, sorry, basically just here to say arts are a little delayed because I had a breakthrough on one of my Dungeon Meshi fanfics and have basically transformed into the concept of the written word

I can't stop, I've written about 15,000 words in a week

If you are, for whatever reason, interested in the unhinged, self indulgent nonsense I am writing, here's a link

Please mind the content warning tags, and I hope to be back to art shortly, thanks for your patience!

I apologise that I wasn't able to do more artfight attacks

I really wanted to do more but this month ended up being super hectic and when I wasn't busy I was ill. I just haven't had the energy or time to draw as much as I would've liked

Truly sorry I couldn't do more revenges, I hope I can get everyone back next year

Title!

Thought it might be fun to have a furry friendly server to hang out in, but on a slightly smaller scale than the FA one or Art Fight which are so popular it's a little overwhelming I think. Come doodle with me and share pictures of your pets or tell me what you're having for lunch. I'll draw some goofy emotes and stickers later

Am not the best at discord still but I figure what I can do is probably fine for just a few of us?

Oh, but please be 18+! Sorry, adults only

Join if you like~

Here's a list of tags that I've been suggested or asked to use, and will be used and have been added to all existing submissions
(currently in process of adding OC and non-cw tags to submissions as of 6/30/2025, please pardon my dust)

cw tags:
- domsub
- slavery
- abuse
- amputation
- gore
- mlp
- humanoid
- chain_thing
- self_harm

Personal OC tags:
I will now be adding avoidcrow[character] as a tag to all submissions featuring OCs of mine, so if there's anyone you don't want to see, you can block them

Other tags:
Other tags will be used as relevant (gender, species/race, theme, etc.) in order to reach the minimum three keywords but I will not be reliably using the same ones in these cases, so please ask if you need something specific for blocking - feel free to ask here or note me for privacy

If you notice I've forgotten a tag on a submission, please let me know

There's been a lot of scams lately, particularly through discord, so just as a heads up I do not take commissions anywhere but by furaffinity note through this account, my base adopts account , or by email (avoidcrowdraws at gmail)

If you are in contact with someone claiming to be me and you want to double check, please note me here any time, happy to confirm

Be safe!

Mostly just a journal bump

Anyone doing anything fun for pride? I'm looking at a few local events (a vigil and a picnic) that look like they'll be nice

I've gotten some questions about my aromanticism and I've technically addressed these before but it's been a while so thought I'd talk about it again more publicly

The gist of what people ask is 'how are you aromantic, you're dating people'

So my experience with romance is just a bit different, and it's more obvious from inside a relationship with me than the outside. I don't feel the same degrees of passionate romance as other people, I have no innate drive for romantic behaviours, I don't pursue. Media style romance is an alien concept to me. And to me the main 'proof' of my aromanticism is that the way I feel and behave can make my partners feel unloved, or at least that I don't love them as much as they love me

Specifically wording this though that 'I have no drive for it' and not that 'I am incapable of it'. Just like asexuals are capable of having and enjoying sex, I'm capable of romantic behaviours. It doesn't come naturally to me, but I'm learning that there's certain ones that I do like participating in (cuddling, for example, is very nice) but sometimes if I'm not reminded that people want to cuddle I just... won't. I have to go out of my way to remind myself to do things that my partners view as romantic

I care about my partners a lot, so I do want to do things that make them feel loved in the language they speak

So then the responses I get to all that are one of two things

'are you maybe demi-romantic?' Sure you can call me demi-romantic if that feels more accurate to you, I don't really care that much. It's still under the aromantic umbrella, besides. I assign myself a label so that I can easily explain to people I'm with that I might not behave how they're expecting me to

and then there's

'are you maybe just autistic?' I don't know

Probably

Hello!

One of my partners is long distance and they're coming to stay with us for a few days. I don't know how much art I'll be able to get done while they're here so there might be a delay from the usual deluge

but speaking of which, I'm really nervous and I'm coping by drawing so there's bound to be a bunch of nonsense leading up until then

Which is really just a long winded explanation for why I'm probably going to make more OCs

oops

Hello! How are things?

I've been playing Blue Prince nonstop with my partners, clever game

I've also drawn about a thousand things, the servers are not ready for me

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60518527/

Please check it out if you can!

Just wanted to say here also, I'm adjusting psych meds and I'm a little all over the place. Pardon my dust!

Thanks!

I want to draw someone else's OCs, so let's do a quick raffle!

Comment with your reference and tell me a little about your character. Will be done in a wing-it sort of way so I can't guarantee anything. Any species, any gender though!

Entry period ends when I feel like it, so the sooner you comment the more likely you'll get picked

Okay I've drawn the name, I'll share when I'm finished!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11054944/

Check it out!

Hello I'm back!

The harddrive corrupted but it has been rebuilt and I am ready to rejoin the land of arting. No one look at me I am going to draw so much chilaios it's going to be embarrassing

I mean more than usual

Hello my computer has tragically passed away so being unhinged will have to wait

I'm trying to see if it can be repaired but in the meantime I probably won't be posting as much art

Hoping to try some rubbish mobile doodles at least, or maybe even traditional art?

We'll see!

Here's a list of tags that I've been suggested or asked to use, and will put on all future submissions! I am also currently in the process of adding these tags to older submissions, but please be aware this is NOT complete yet OKAY I think I've gotten all of the currently listed tags, please let me know if I've missed anything

If you have something you would like me to tag, feel free to ask here or note me for privacy

If you notice I've forgotten a tag on a submission, please let me know!

cw tags:
- domsub
- slavery
- abuse
- amputation
- gore
- mlp
- humanoid

I haven't been using FA tags at all, but are there any tags you'd like me to start using so you can block?

You can also note me if you want it to be private

My toyhouse has been a mess but I'm finally just about through getting it all organised again! I think I need to go through and put a few characters in different folders, but that can wait

I want to draw more of my OCs but it's always so hard picking what to do. I think I'm going to try to go back to a thing I was doing a few years ago where I just randomise which one I draw next

Mostly just wanted to say the plan part aloud somewhere so I have a little pressure to actually do it

About time to bump that journal anyway

Hi. Obviously I've gotten into animating suddenly. Dunno what this is about but I'm having fun. Hope I'm not annoying anyone

Content warning, discussions about sex and personal sexuality

Have just been thinking about how much my approach to sex has changed in the past year, completely due to to my friends

I'm asexual, and have been severely sex repulsed for most of my life. I'm in a non-sexual relationship and even looking at depictions and conversations about sex have been difficult for me at best, along with the difficulties that come with being an asexual man in a world where men are expected to be hypersexual. I had just kind of accepted that my relationship with sex was always going to be a little contentious, and any sexual content in my life was going to lowkey trigger me

If you've seen me draw porn before this, it's always been a little hard for me. The best way I can describe it is dissociative. That's part of the reason I tended not to post it to my galleries, because I didn't want it sneaking up on me

I really love to write with my friends, though, and one particular story ended up with me playing a promiscuous character for the first time. This was a really important story for me, written with one of my best friends who I trust, and we developed the characters and world so well that also for the first time, I felt safe depicting (fairly softcore) adult content of this character

After that, sex crept into a few of my other stories with my friends, who were all super supportive and patient with me, and I got to appreciate having a new layer of characterisation to explore. It wasn't super erotic or anything, but I felt safe exploring it with them

And then I joined the Dungeon Meshi fandom scene, and I met my freaks

Honestly it was a little jarring at first because the server was so completely and entirely adult focused. Uncensored porn and sex discussions everywhere, I'd never been in an environment like that before, but they were so friendly and welcoming that I tried to push past my initial discomfort with it

Pretty soon it wasn't just a place to chat, I started really liking them. I wanted to be part of the experience with them, I wanted to make things that made them react like the rest of the art they were drawing and sharing. I started drawing porn. I got tons of positive feedback. Looking at my own adult art slowly stopped making my brain react like it was being attacked. Then it expanded to art by my friends

'Oh, this is exposure therapy,' I realised eventually, but it took me this long like a moron

Finally, I was writing and talking about sex with my partner of ten years for the first time

It's about five months since I met my freaks, and my life has completely changed. I still don't want to have sex, and probably never will, but an aspect of creativity has been opened to me. It's fixed a struggle I thought was going to be with me my entire life, I have a new outlook on my own art, and it's given me a bunch of new friends that are super important to me

It's not perfect, I still have a way to go before I'm entirely comfortable with sex and sexuality, but I'm really proud of the progress I've made, even if it wasn't intentional

I love my friends. Thanks for being a bunch of horny weirdos

Want to bump the kind of aggressive journal off my page

Tell me something that's going on with you?

Hello! This has happened a few times recently so

If you want to buy one of my OCs I don't mind being asked but

1. You have to be okay with me saying no
2. You need to not tell me I'm wasting the character because I'm not drawing them currently

I write, I draw, I roleplay, I might be using a character in a way that you can't see. And if I'm not? It's not anyone's business but mine. Yes I hoard characters. They are digital creations that I have made or paid for, it's not hurting anyone to have them gather dust, and it's up to me to decide how I use them and if they should be rehomed

Again, you can ask, just respect my boundaries here please

Sorry to be a little aggressive about it but I'm tired of having this conversation

I have overwhelmed myself with the amount of things I am making myself do right now

and I are writing fanfics that are basically novels, I've got my own fanfics going too, I've got a drawn AU, I'm drawing nonstop fanart, and I also have a four character poly story I need to draw for, I've got kinktober lined up, characters with that I'd like to do more with, and I've just made three new OCs yesterday

I think I need to calm down a little

I want to doodle other people's OCs!

Drop your references and tell me a little about your character/what you might like them doing and I might draw them

Any species or gender fine