Hello! It's been almost five months since my last journal so figured it was time

Fun stuff first

So my furry art is still pretty sparse because I've been drawing an absolute ton of Dungeon Meshi art with my friends - in fact, I've just counted and I've drawn over one hundred images of one ship. And a fair bit of them are comics! I'm usually more of an OC artist, but occasionally I do get into these fanart phases, and this time since I'm drawing with a whole bunch of friends it's been really easy to stay obsessed

I still don't like to fill my gallery with humans though, especially not 100+ images worth, but I do have a few pieces I'm pretty proud of and might put up here anyway. Would anyone be bothered?

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Slightly harder stuff, mental health struggles below

While I feel pretty good creatively, my mental health is failing me unfortunately, and has been deteriorating gradually for the past four months or so. I owe my partner so much for picking up my slack and basically taking care of me while I can't eat or sleep

We had a little bit of a scare this month where my psychiatrist was considering hospitalisation to get my meds in order, but she decided my support system was more important so I don't have to go for right now. However my symptoms are worsening, my meds need fussing with really badly, and I need to get assigned a new psychiatrist because my one is leaving, so the stress of that isn't helping I imagine

Drawing is one of the only things keeping me on some kind of stability I think, and my connections with it to my friends

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And that's largely been my life for the past five months. Thanks for reading if you got this far!

How are things going with you? Comment with something that's happened with you recently, if you feel like it

Last journal was wrong

This is one of the worst instances of art block I've ever had

Art sometime, hopefully?

Journal title! More art when I can actually draw

Check out 's watcher raffle!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10823531/

False alarm! I tried it again today and it's working again for some reason, zombie tablet gets to live another day

I will still save up for a replacement because clearly it is on its last legs anyway

My tablet decided it was done existing today, unfortunately

I'm going to do my best to save up for a new one but it might be awhile, they're a little expensive and I don't make a lot of money. In the meantime I can draw on different tools but it might not look very good, or at least it might look very different

I'll see how much I can manage with what I have. Thanks for reading!

Bird noises

I just wanted to address having adult art on toyhou.se because I've gotten a few questions about it. Well some questions, and some not so nice comments on it to be honest. So to avoid future problems:

Sometimes I draw sexual adult art of my characters, I post it to my characters' galleries on toyhou.se, you might see it if you follow me there. I mark it properly so please make sure you have your filters up if this bothers you!

Most often the adult art is for characters I share with a specific friend, because they like to commission me for it. Sorry I won't take adult art requests/trades/commissions from people who aren't close friends generally

I still prefer to not be sent sexual content, especially without content warnings, and from people who I don't know very well

I don't post sexual adult art in my FA gallery or tumblr, that's just a personal preference

And last bit, I'm asexual, not a child or prude. It's not like I don't know what sex is, come on

Hello! I've had an emergency vet bill that's completely sapped my funds and I'm planning to make a few YCHs to try and recover a bit! Would really appreciate some input for what sort of scenes you'd be interested in

The ideas I had were cute couple pictures, petplay scenes, and generic solo poses in front of finished scenery? Also thought maybe some chibi ones that would be cheaper. Would anyone be interested in any of these?

Also would you prefer flat prices, or auction? (I don't like multislot YCHs so each one will be a one off)

Thanks for reading!

Title! Hope everyone has a good 2024 and if you're doing anything to celebrate you have a good time~

Found a bunch of forgotten OCs in my art files. Do these count as old or new characters if I use them again?

Just wanted to get that other journal off my main page, and now I've done so

Last year about this time I was put on an antipsychotic, and I noticed a few things almost immediately

1. Drawing became my absolute favourite thing to do, I started turning out a ton more art

2. The content of my art switched to being primarily kink related

3. I also started making way more new characters

4. I can no longer tolerate a lot of hobbies I used to like, such as watching movies, video games, reading, etc.

The way my new meds work is by blocking dopamine, which is both good and bad. The good news is, my psychotic symptoms have significantly reduced. The bad news is that I can't really get a dopamine fix from things anymore, and I have ADHD so I already have an issue with my dopamine receptors, so basically this medication is making my ADHD worse

The only things I can seem to enjoy anymore, apparently, are art and new OCs and kinky nonsense

And food, I really enjoy eating

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, except to basically say sorry for the shift in my art, and here's an explanation for why my focus is the way that it is. I can't get off of this medication, at least right now, so it's going to stay this way. Thanks for reading if you got here, take care

Changing Veil's name because my friend's OC also has the same name and it is getting confusing to have us both talking about them in the group chat at the same time

Mine is newer so I'm volunteering to be the one that changes! Their name is Moth now

Journal bump, so here's a random question!

What's the weirdest habit or food combination you like to eat/drink? Something that maybe makes your friends or family go '???'

I like paprika in egg nog, and chili oil in tea. Noticing a theme there actually

That is, in addition to my current ones, am going to un-retire Star. I'm attached to the ones I'm currently using but I do miss drawing him as well so I'll just have to have too many. To be honest I have several other designs that I draw as 'me' as well so I should probably just accept my multitudes

Anyway sorry for the indecisiveness with this!

Last year I did kinktober and that was really fun, but a little limiting in topic. So this year I'm going to try to do this OC-tober prompt list by bweird, which I like because it changes themes every week

Anyone doing any fun challenges this month? Inktobers and such?

is the winner!
Thank you everyone who entered, I'll try to do more soon so there will be more chances

Just getting rid of the last one

If you are reading this anyway, how are you?

I need some background servants/slaves for a Roach scene, would anyone want their character included? These will be small and SFW, any species, gender, age are fine, must be okay with your character being in a slave theme

Link your refs in a comment if interested!

If I get more than I need I'll use a random number generator to be fair

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50659012/

So I have these designs still up for sale, but rather than money I think I'd rather trade other characters or art for them. Would anyone be interested?

Helloo thank you for everyone who wished me health, I seem to have discovered some. Got asked if it was covid, it somehow was not, I took three tests and they were all negative. Whatever it was still wiped the floor with me though, can't remember the last time I was THAT sick

But I'm alive now, I think

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Also sad to say three of my RPs ended sort of abruptly, the other players wanted to stop or ghosted. So if anyone wants to know, there will probably be no more art of Lee/Highland, Angel/Ethan, and Dippy/Professor Jules

I don't usually announce when they're over, but Lee was my hyperfocus for a long time, and I was right in the middle of a comic about Dippy so this seemed relevant to share

Plus I know some people will be happy for me to draw things that aren't Lee, so, rejoice!

Thinking I'll take an RP break though, it's getting a little difficult having my artistic inspirations be tied to someone else, particularly when they end randomly. So I might break out some older characters or make some new stories to play with by myself

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And also we now resume Artfight-ing! Finally have the energy to draw things that aren't sketches, just in case anyone thought I was done. Shame I lost so much time but I'll try and get a few more done this year at least

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Thanks for reading!

Back at some point

Navigating the site is very slow but I want to draw for some more people! Leave me a link to your page and I might attack you

Extra points if you're on vampires because everyone I know is being furry trash on werewolves with me

Keep getting asked about this in various ways so!

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Are you going to draw things that aren't Mr. Highland and Lee again?
Yes, probably a lot once the story is done

When will that be?
I don't know

Why won't you stop drawing them?
I get direct feedback from my RP partner every time I draw something related to our story, and we're constantly developing new scenes, so it's very motivating

I'm following you for [things that aren't this]
Thanks! I'll probably draw those again eventually, if you want to wait! (I thrive on engagement too, so if you tell me what you want to see, or comment on relevant submissions, I'll probably be more motivated to draw more of that thing)

I find their story upsetting
You're meant to, it's an upsetting story! But if it's legitimately distressing please do unfollow me, I don't want to upset anyone

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If you're still here waiting for me to resume drawing other stuff, I appreciate it a lot, thank you! If not, thanks for sticking around this long, I appreciate that too

My contact info on my profile was getting a little too long so I'm moving it to a journal to link to instead

You can reach me through FA notes, or

Email: avoidcrowdraws[at]gmail.com

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All my various sites can now be found here - https://linktr.ee/avoidcrow