I am sad to say. There are things going on in my life. Things that may mean I may never be around again. So I am giving my most dear character Ashes the charmeleon to my best friend.
~Arcanina http://www.furaffinity.net/user/Arcanina

But this is a big if though. If I don't return. On 6-10-9 is a critical moment in my life. It a small possible moment to be fatal if worst come to worse. And if that worse happens. I am allowing my friend to adopt my most attach charmeleon name Ashes to him.

If things go well, the I won't need to give up my loving char to no one! And will bring him back.

If things don't go well. My friend http://www.furaffinity.net/user/Arcanina will tell what happen if I don't make it through.

So my switch been collecting dust for a good while. Beat some fun games Like the new Mario and Zelda game. Play a few main title games as well. My next game will be the new Kirby game. I hear this one is rather good. Very good in fact. At least some friends would say. But boy, the one game I want most and hope is not a port is Super smash bros. A wonderful platform fighter game I played smash bros since 64. Best time! Smash Melee was great. But sadly people made it too technical and use games flaws and glitches to win. I hated the competitive side of it. But I too learn those tricks myself of L cancel and wave dashes. A okay game not the best. Sorry. I hope Melee fans will move on. It's too out of date. But if we get a HD remaster version of it. I am in! Perhaps throw in a few fighter that should of been in Melee but was cut since the game needed to be release already.

Brawl on the other hand....my gosh I love story mode. It was not the perfect story mode of all time but my gosh! Seeing all of Nintendo stars working together and fighting one another. The way they meet and react. How all the Universes are all one in the same! A crossover we always wanted. Vs mode and game-play was not the best. A tad slow where it did feel slightly floaty when the fighters drop back down to the ground. But my gosh those tripping animation! You could press neutral A and still trip!! Vs was meh! But hey! Story did not make much sense but it was fun seeing the fighters reactions and expression. I say it's 8 out of 10.

Smash bros Wii U/3ds. Close to perfection!!!! Story mode would of made it 100% perfection and made more sense without feeling so lost on what hell is going on and why it is going on. I want too see some voice acting here. Link is the only that needs to not talk. And it can pulled off just fine while other talk to him while he just need to grunt, nod and shake his head with a little bit hand motions.

Smash bros Switch. Many say it's really Smash bros wii U. And I don't mind this. I hope the game could at least balance out some of the fighters and the moves sets as well.

What I want in smash? I will myself the limit one fighter I want MOST. A purple dragon with a lot of spunk. Thats right! And I mean Legend Spyro or even classic Spyro. I like skylander Spyro but I will admit it's not my fave version of him. I like to see less humanoid fighter who stand on two legs. I want fighter who are able to walk on four legs more. He ain't nintendo I know, But don't forget he is Iconic in his own right and most beloved dragon in the gaming world and happen to have many games on Nintendo. Very impressive history with Nintendo at this point. If they can let Cloud in why not my best good boy Spyro? He makes more sense the Cloud thats for sure!

2nd I want A full ON not lazy ass fighter CREATOR mode! No more of this Mii stuff. I want to be able to play story mode if there will be a story mode as my own fighter, me who can play as the main person in the story mode to help fight by Mario and Links side to help restore the Smash bros universe at the brink of destruction from a new threat and evil.

The fighter creation should allow us to select many kinds of models. Like if I want my fighter to look like he belong in the Mario world but is not from the mario world but short like Mario why not? It should allow it and let me select that model. Or if I want my fighter model to look more human and tall normal like Link it should. It should involve many ideaS from Perhaps Starfoxe race to Kirby'S race. Things like that. And we are able to allow our fighter to be a brawler type. Projectile type or sword type and lot other types that would be fun to have. Or a balance of the three. If they truly want to stop folks from hacking the game then they should allow us to have a huge advantage of able to make our fighter to look fully legit like any game fighter we want or close to it.

Able to edit our fighters when we wish and win new gear and outfits for them. Nintendo needs to go full out on this!! Just think of the almost endless possibilities they could do? Allow us to fight other players with our own personas in a mode where the best fight it out. Then there should be a mode with the normal fighters yes. Anyway, I can't wait for smash Switch.

Feel free to tell me what you guys want to see in smash bros. Fighter you want. Modes and many things that Nintendo should add. Also lets prey this is not a port with added new fighters. It's been over 4 years now. And it would only be tradition for switch to have it's own smash game that is not a port. As it should be. Am I right? But I don't mind them taking many thing from smash 4. Like many of the things in smash 4 would be perfect to use. But if this turns out to be a port. It better have a shit ton more modes! And mainly story mode is a must. I want more solo modes things to do that will keep me busy weeks and weeks. I also think It would make sense as a port though. I am damn sure people will miss the many fighters who won't make it back in smash five like Pac-man. Ryu, Megaman, Sonic and Cloud who are all 3rd party and is most likely not make it back unless the companies of who own those figthers wants them in because hello? Its a win a win for both parties here right? Seeing them not making it back to smash would suck for many even me. Though I will admit I was never into playing the guess fighters all that. I can't play Cloud with some fucker telling me he is broken as fuck and it's only won of how op he is. My gosh I can't play him for fun without people getting all pissy about it. Now if it was Spyro who makes it in as guest and becomes too OP? I won't fucking care. I will main him and use him no matter what people say....holy hell I will main him as much as I main Charizard! Also I hope they keep my Zard as a fighter on his own. Too Iconic to not have in. Also he is pretty much 2nd in command as pokemons mascots. Slightly under Pikachu. But thats my wishes.

Honestly. Finding a teacher to help you master how to draw can cost so much! I really need a teacher for this. I am sure there is online stuff like that where a art teacher will teach you all you need to know. I want to do art myself. I really want to draw like all of you guys. But I am so horrible at drawing. But yet I do enjoy it. I want to make art and do commission like Starit. His art style is really the style I want to get myself to yet I am tooooo far from getting to his level. With all the slack he been doing for me of allowing me to pay when I can is making me upset. He is a friend, and I don't want to abuse that friendship. It made me think. It's time I start doing drawing on my own so I could make gift art for him one day.. But again I suck at drawing. Very very bad at it. I will start off by doing my own art. Then when I feel I can. I may take request later for friends. But to all you season artist. Any tips and site I can use to help me get started of how to draw. The best devices to do art on? And I was hoping a friend who is is an artist could work with me along the way. Show my art to them and tell me how to improve it. I want that, and I want a friend to be honest in what I need to do. And tell how good and bad I am doing.

But yeah, I really hope to learn. Drawing use to be my passion. Not sure how I lost that. But I guess it started when I my drawing did not seem to be getting any better and life gets in the way and I needed a job to put a roof over my head. I won't lie, I want to do commissions one day to make some side cash when I am at home and not working. But the real reason I want to make side money for doing art is to buy better stuff so I can draw and improve. I don't even know how to start. What is the best way to start off when doing digital art? Kind of like Startit. I love his style. So good and yet simple. But even though it look simple. It is really not that simple. So...yeah. Help?

There is a lot of changes I am doing with myself. So many things I regret too. I been hit with so many forms of depression. And hate feeling so down and out. I really need help here. Anyone know any good ways to deal with depression? I been trying to keep myself busy with work, games and whatnot. It helps only so much after that...I just feel out of it. The motivation to RP on f-list or chat on discord is making me feel more and more unstable. So many friends who claim to be friends with me don't really show it. Yeah sure, I am not the only one here who got problems. But what I hate is when I give so much. It don't seem to show others that all I dp don't mean a thing. I know I can't buy peoples friendship. Thats not my intention. It never was. But damn me to heck if I am going to stand around and be ignored. You know who you are to. I ain't some 3rd rate friend. There is no this friends means more then this friends crap. No I am not going to be one of those friends you see lesser then others friends. I want to be friends with folks that see all friends as friends and love them all the same.

I always hated that with folks online where you are only just a side or 2nd or even a 3rd rate friend when your first rate friends are not around. I refuse to see friends in that way myself. I love all my friends all the same way. Thats how friends work right? And not by who is more valuable then other right? This is how friends should be with each other. And it's been that way for me of how I see all friends. I love them equally.

I always been feeling alone at times. To be honest...I really want someone in my life now. But living in Hawaii and all makes it hard to find folks. I always hated long distant relationships and I don't mean to push away folks who wanted to be with me in a long distance relationship. I did that one and I never want to do it again....and I was hurt badly to by it. I want to touch, see and hold said person in my arms. But....living in hawaii makes that hard to find anyone in their 20's to be with. Ah well...

A small update of this. I wrote this feeling so....depress I did not realize all the mistakes I made.

All I know is I need help....should I talk to my Doctor about my depression? But before I do....anyone know any good way to deal with it? People who also suffer from depression?

I feel like I done so much to make others happy. But in the end, doing so, people expect more out of it. I like making friends happy when I can. But there comes a time I can't always do so. I feel at times use, abuse of my kindness. I just can't see why my so called friends think I don't do enough. When I am down and out they could care less. I am tired of it. I do my best to make them feel better. But in the end it's not enough. At times I feel like a low class side friend when they don't have any of the main people hang with. But when those people are about. I am left in the dark while they have a good time with those friends.

I don't know what to do anymore at times. But oh well. I just need to keep busy and finds new ways to keep myself happy for me. I like to think for others a lot. But I think it's time I stop thinking for others and worry about me. What I want now.

Sorry if I sound like I am whining but meh. I'll feel better sooner or later.

I am really needing help here. Do anyone perhaps know anyone who makes music? I want to get a theme song for two of my OC. My black Charmeleon Leeroy and my OC dragon Kamaka. Anyone know anyone? And is open?

I need to keep up with AF and stuff. Lets hope one day I can start my art and even do commission for people one. Sadly I can care less about the money. I like making friends and others happy. So until I get enough training with art and feel it's worthy to be online. I'll be sure to update!