***Dear  aurathewolf:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but the rainbow hedgehogs want to destroy you. I think I realized it when I saw the purple monkey in your apartment and I saw you pull the clothes off my salt beef bucket. I'm sure you're shamed enough to understand the middle east is planning their revenge on you. I'm returning your love letters to me but keeping your virginity as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about the moose poaching and I'm off to lead a new life as a lemon.

Go milk a cow,

~Kit



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1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - The rainbow hedgehogs want to destroy you
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - I'm joining the Convent
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
October - Last year when you peed your pants
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Seafood - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey - The Catholic Priest
Brown - The Montreal Canadiens' goalie
Purple - my corned beef hash
Red - My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink - You are "My Little Pony" collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat - shamed
House- Sterile

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we're related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your balls

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Get sick when I think of your feet
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorities that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Love your sweet, sweet ass
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven't showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I love Oprah
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war.
Snapple/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked out
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I'm off to lead a new life as a lemon
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don't hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Best of luck on the sex change
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - I love Oprah
Italy - Please, don't lick my inner thighs anymore
Russia - you're new world emperor

A year ago, I was in a completely different place in my life. In so many ways, a lot better, in so many ways a lot worse.

This year (in no particular order):

I got kicked out of my family's house
I was depressed and near-suicidal for a while
I started living by myself and paying rent
I lost about $7,500 to $9,000 in savings to living expenses
I learned how to bike in all sorts of weather and conditions and lots and lots of miles
A three-year long relationship ended...sorta.
I started gaming a lot more
I ran my first con games
I got fired from two jobs after less than 2 weeks and have stuck with a third.
I have had constant questions about my self-worth
I have learned how to bake pretty awesomely
I have binged watched Babylon 5, Adventure Time, and My Little Pony FIM
I got my learners permit and started learning how to drive
I tried to get myself to write more with limited success
I lost my Nintendo DS and a bunch of games

So here I am, messed up in a lot of new ways, and less messed up in a lot of old ways.
Hopefully 2012 will be more unambiguously positive.

A year ago, I was in a completely different place in my life. In so many ways, a lot better, in so many ways a lot worse.

This year (in no particular order):

I got kicked out of my family's house
I was depressed and near-suicidal for a while
I started living by myself and paying rent
I lost about $7,500 to $9,000 in savings to living expenses
I learned how to bike in all sorts of weather and conditions and lots and lots of miles
A three-year long relationship ended...sorta.
I started gaming a lot more
I ran my first con games
I got fired from two jobs after less than 2 weeks and have stuck with a third.
I have had constant questions about my self-worth
I have learned how to bake pretty awesomely
I have binged watched Babylon 5, Adventure Time, and My Little Pony FIM
I got my learners permit and started learning how to drive
I tried to get myself to write more with limited success
I lost my Nintendo DS and a bunch of games

So here I am, messed up in a lot of new ways, and less messed up in a lot of old ways.
Hopefully 2012 will be more unambiguously positive.

A year ago, I was in a completely different place in my life. In so many ways, a lot better, in so many ways a lot worse.

This year (in no particular order):

I got kicked out of my family's house
I was depressed and near-suicidal for a while
I started living by myself and paying rent
I lost about $7,500 to $9,000 in savings to living expenses
I learned how to bike in all sorts of weather and conditions and lots and lots of miles
A three-year long relationship ended...sorta.
I started gaming a lot more
I ran my first con games
I got fired from two jobs after less than 2 weeks and have stuck with a third.
I have had constant questions about my self-worth
I have learned how to bake pretty awesomely
I have binged watched Babylon 5, Adventure Time, and My Little Pony FIM
I got my learners permit and started learning how to drive
I tried to get myself to write more with limited success
I lost my Nintendo DS and a bunch of games

So here I am, messed up in a lot of new ways, and less messed up in a lot of old ways.
Hopefully 2012 will be more unambiguously positive.

Sex:

Birth Sex: Male
Current Physical Sex: Male
Identified Sex: Don't care
Ideal Sex: I'd like to be able to switch at will.

(Birth Sex: What you were born as. Male, female, intersex)
(Current Physical Sex: What sex you are now.)
(Identified Sex: What sex you'd like others to see you as, all things being the same)
(Ideal Sex: If you could choose what sex you'd be, which would you choose?)

Gender:

Primary Gender: Other
Masculine? A bit
Feminine? A bit
Preferred pronoun: Any, though most people use the 'he' set.

(Primary Gender: What gender you identify as)
(Masculine? : Are you masculine?)
(Feminine? : Are you feminine?)
(Preferred pronoun: What pronouns do you like people to use for you?)

Attractions and stuff:

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual
Romantic Orientation: Aromantic
Polyamory? Open to either monoamory or closed/restricted polyamory. There have to be clear rules.
Notable fetishes: Transformation
Other fetishes: Furry, omorashi, megane

(Sexual Orientation: Who do you want to have sex with?)
(Romantic Orientation: Who do you want to have a romantic relationship with?)
(Polyamory?: Are you okay with multiple sexual/romantic relationships?)
(Notable fetishes: Main fetishes)
(Other fetishes: Fetishes you have, but not as strong as the notable fetishes.)

If anyone else comes up with something, please PM me at kitsuneofdoom (furaffinity) or e-mail me at vegetariancannibal[at]gmail.com . Feel free to use, after all, it is a meme.

ANIME NERD

[x] You watch anime.
[x] You read manga.
[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes.
[ ] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise.
[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before.
[x] You have cosplayed.
[x] You have done so in public.
[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.
[ ] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.
[ ] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.
[ ] You enjoy drawing anime
[ ] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.
[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled (mahn-gah, but I'm counting it nonetheless)

ANIME/MANGA POINTS: 8/14

ART NERD

[x] You like art.
[ ] You actually consider yourself an artist. (Musical artist notwithstanding)
[ ] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.
[ ] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before.
[ ] You give people your drawings as gifts.
[ ] People actually ask for your drawings.
[ ] You are known as 'the art person' at your school.
[ ] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. Or whatever.
[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.
[ ] You have considered a career as an artist.
[x] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.
[ ] You have a favorite artist.
[ ] Your drawings have been framed.
[ ] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

ART NERD POINTS: 2/14

MUSICAL NERD

[x] You play a musical instrument.
[x] You play more than one instrument.
[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument(s).
[x] You've given your instrument a name.
[x] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.
[x] You are known by what you play.
[x] You listen to classical music.
[x] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period.
[x] You have a favorite composer.
[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class.
[x] You write music.
[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music
[x] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.
[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.

MUSICAL NERD POINTS: 12/14

VIDEO GAME NERD

[x] You play video games.
[x] You own more than 4 different video game systems.
[x] You've had debates over which system is the greatest.
[ ] You play video games every day.
[x] You have played a video game for over 10 hours.
[x] You have songs from your favorite video games on your MP3
[x] You love to talk about video games.
[ ] People know you as the 'gamer' person.
[ ] You spend more time on video games than you do hanging out with friends.
[ ] Your gaming system is in your room.
[x] You have preferences when it comes to what company your game came from.
[ ] You've had debates over which company is the best.
[ ] You keep playing a game until you beat it.
[ ] It makes you angry when you found out somebody looked up cheat codes on the internet to beat their game.

VIDEO GAME NERD POINTS: 7/14

COMPUTER NERD

[x] You use the computer every day.
[x] You have an account/username on some sort of social website.
[ ] You go into random internet chatrooms.
[x] You spend at least 2 hours a day on the computer.
[x] You use computer faces; : D XD XP D: ^_^ >.> and etc.
[x] It is hard to go a day without using the computer.
[x] You spend time in online forums.
[ ] In the forum/chatroom you use, you are known there by everyone else.
[x] You have friends you have only met online.
[ ] You have/have had a girlfriend/boyfriend you have only met online.
[x] You have actually met an online friend in person.
[x] U cn ezly rd 'txttlk.' (but it still makes me cringe)
[x] You have said 'lol' or 'omg' in speech that is not online.
[x] You can type really, really fast.

Computer Nerd Points: 11/14

I am fail at actually doing things. So, I have decided to change my tack, and do something different.

So, I'm going to focus on worldbuilding, and writerly craft. The goal is to have one of the following done on a daily basis, starting Friday, May 27th, though there might be one (probably shorter) entry for the 26th:

First Rough Draft of a Short Story of at least 1,000 words (probably to increase later) based on one of the following:
1) The novel series world I have mapped out, to include possibly relevant spoiler information based on the plans. Since things might change, some of these spoilers will be red herrings, but I'll try and warn you all.
2) The video game series I am thinking of making.
3) A fanfic or original story

or
A chapter of my novel, first rough draft

or
An incremental draft or perhaps even final copy of one of the works previously featured as a first rough draft.

For the purposes of this exercise, a "Day" ends "Before 6:00 AM the following day", so if I post a short story at 4:30 AM today, it will be "For" the 26th, not the 27th.

Thoughts, compliments, and criticism are welcome and encouraged.

Wish me luck!

Stolen from a friend's dA:

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Kit, Barry, Ukulele Guy
- Eye Color: Greenish Brown
- Hair Style/Color: Medium length curly brown
- Height: Compact. Fits in small places.
- Clothing style: Jeans or trousers, t-shirt with optional flannel or casual shirt, grey, black or blue hoodie.
- Best physical feature: You tell me

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Letting my friends down, not being able to be economically stable, others.
- Your guilty pleasure: For me to know, and you to know if I tell you.
- Your biggest pet peeve: People acting like society thinks they should.
- Your ambitions for the future: To be a mad genetic engineer.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: I am tired.
- What you think about most: Doctor Who, maybe? Depends on the day.
- What you think about before bed: I am also tired.
- You think your best quality is: My loyalty, I hope.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Medjool dates, preferably in groups.
- To be loved or respected: Loved.
-Beauty or brains: Brains, duh.
- Dogs or cats: Cuttlefish! Also cats.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: Rarely.
- Believe in yourself: Sometimes.
- Believe in love: Yes, but maybe not in the way you mean it.
- Want someone: for what?

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Yep
- Done drugs: Do alcohol and caffeine count? The first one is done in moderation...the second? Uh...no comment.
- Changed who you were to fit in: I think I might change how I act to fit in, but not who I am.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Purple.
- Favorite animal: Cuttlefish.
- Favorite movie: TOO MANY
- Favorite game: HOW CAN I PICK JUST ONE.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: July 8th, same as all the other ones.
- Age you lost your virginity: 18
- Does age matter: Not until you're over 1000. Then you just lie and say you're 900 all the time.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: MEGANERD
- Best eye color: Amber
- Best hair color: Long. Long is a color.
- Best thing to do with a partner: Stuff! Video games! Strip Video Games!

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: a lot of people and things.
- I feel: headachey.
- I hide: my sexuality, apparently. No one ever knows I'm bi.
- I miss: the hoop in basketball, like all the time. I have no aim.
- I wish: I had a job.

I know nobody reads these, but I'm announcing it here anyway! Your loss if you don't read it!

So, I've had a novel idea kicking around for a while, and now that I'm without a permanent home or job and somewhat depressed, I figure, I might as well put it out there! Here's the deal.

1) Everything is copyright me. I'm officially okay with people redistributing it, because, hey, I'm putting it out on FA and probably dA for a reason, but I'd rather people get it from my site so I'm not like "Hey, almost nobody reads this "

2) This is going to be rough. The chapters will be shorter than I intend them to be, the concepts may be rushed, there might be errors of the continuity or spelling variety. Feel free to point them out to me, that's great. Honest opinions are greatly appreciated, don't go around saying it's great when it's actually not. Etc. I'm gonna try and expand and pull the ideas together and edit and edit and edit and make a big book out of it, but you guys get the living rough draft.

3) This will be released under what I call the fandom license, something that I would like to expand upon and really post sometime, but generally, you know what it means. Making fanworks is officially okay. Fan drawings and stories and poems and music (though I call dibs on the music) are all great and encouraged. Don't go selling things like it's yours, it isn't. Put them up for free and I enjoy and encourage it.

4) Since this came up before MEGARA IS NOT A SQUIRREL SHE IS HUMAN. Most of the characters in the beginning are human. It's not really a furry story persay as much as it is a story with furry interest, but by the second book certainly there will be enough to satisfy everyone.

5) My plan is to have a variable schedule that works like this. I will start the monday after I get 5 chapters written, ideally the 17th. Probably not this Monday. I also may break this and start on Wednesday or Friday because I want to. I'm Chatoic. I'm unpredictable like that. General idea is that I will have a buffer. If there are 5+ chapters in the buffer, I will post three a week, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. If there are 3-5, I will post twice weekly, at Monday and Friday, and if there are only 1 or 2 chapters in the buffer, only on Friday. They will likely be short, somewhere around 1000-2000 words, intended to be expanded later. The first book is 30 chapters long, though some might undergo mitosis and split into two or more chapters. If there are 30 chapters and I can keep to 3 chapters a week, I'll be done at the end of March. This will be a continuing series, so I might take a break (or maybe not) and then work on the next one.

7...no....6) I hope everyone likes it!

I might post a bonus preview chapter (that I have already written) sometime, probably on a Monday, Wednesday, or Friday.

I am currently renting a spare room from a friend's father. I don't intend to keep it very long, and hope to get some sort of more permanent place to rent.

It's been a bit of a rough week/year so far.

I don't mean to whine, and I don't mean to complain, especially because I have friends who are willing to help and one very very special friend who probably keeps me sane.

At the moment, I'm trying to take care of my problems, but honestly, I'm probably more concerned about something else...something which may be beyond my depth, but I want so much to help with.

Stolen from  aurathewolf

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Depends. Stomach, most likely.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Grey fleece-lined hoodie, I love you.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes.

4. Do you plan outfits?
Rarely.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Headachey, and a bit bored, it's like I want to study so I don't play games but I don't study either.

6. What's the closest thing to you that is red?
Dry erase marker.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
Bleh, having a hard time remembering the order.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
I don't think so. Met a few people yesterday.

9. What are you craving right now?
Chocolate. I might get some.

10. Do you floss?
Yes, but less than I should. Sorry.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Cabbage balls?

12. Are you emotional?
Quite a bit.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Maybe?

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Mostly lick, sometimes bite.

15. Do you like your hair?
A bit. I'd rather it be other ways. People keep pressuring me to cut it, but one of those "other ways" is not short-cropped.

16. Do you like yourself?
Not as much as I should.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
It could be funny. If he pays I would. Can't beat a free lunch.

18. What are you listening to right now?
People talking at the forum.

19. Are your parents strict?
In weird places, in weird ways, which is annoying

20. Would you go sky diving?
No.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yes.

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
The Mythbusters, Voltaire if he counts.

23. Do you rent movies often?
No.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Nathalie's nails.

25. How many countries have you visited?
One. Bahamas.

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I've made regular phone calls in pranky ways, using silly voices. It went badly.

27. Ever been on a train?
Many times.

28. Brown or white eggs?
They're different?

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes.

30. Do you use chap stick?
No.

31. Do you own a gun?
No. But I want to make a crossbow.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yes.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Probably hanging with Will and Dave, or going home on the train.

34. Are you too forgiving?
Quite possibly.

35. Ever been in love?
Yes.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Probably just the normal sitting around not much. I don't know her schedule.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
Yeah, they're alright.

38. Last time you cried?
I think earlier today.

39. What was the last question you asked?
Dunno.

40. Favorite time of the year?
Fall, probably October.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
No.

42. Are you sarcastic?
Who, me?

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
No.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
Yes

45. Favorite color?
Fluctuates.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

47. Is your hair curly?
Quite.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Uh. Dunno.

49. Do looks matter?
Not as much as to most people, but a bit.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
They could, y'know, just ask. I'd probably be cool with it and then it wouldn't be cheating.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
$20/90 Days. Nope.

52. Do you like your life right now?
FML, but it's getting better.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Sometimes.

54. Can you handle the truth?
Most of the time, I try.

55. Do you have good vision?
20/20 with my glasses. Awful without.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yeah, probably.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
More often than I'd like to.

58. The last person you held hands with?
 aurathewolf

59. What are you wearing?
T-shirt. Jeans.

60.What is your favorite animal?
Tyranids.
No, but really:
Cats, foxes, cuttlefish.

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
The Land of Imagination.

62. Can you hula hoop?
Kinda.

63. Do you have a job?
Need one.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Bagel and muffin.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
A few times.

No, actually, not. I'm just sort of intellectually curious about this matter, and want to make an informed, sensible decision about my conduct on this website.

In short, I feel like there are two people that read this journal. The first one is me, and the second one is almost constantly in communication with me over other channels.

And I don't want to go into the whys and hows of that, I probably don't get enough people interested, almost no one watches me, etc. That's fine. I'm not being an attention whore, I'm not unhappy with a low readership. But I have seen that there has only ever been one person commenting on these journals. If no one besides the two people I mentioned read these journals, there's really no point, just logically speaking, writing them.

SO I AM LAVING FURAFNITY FOREVAR

err...no, I'm not. Let's try this again.

Unless I get some comments saying that people read these journals, I'm probably going to stop writing them because they are pretty much an exercise in futility. And I will stop writing them FOREV...nah, I will stop writing them until there is someone who will actually derive benefit from them. And, to be perfectly honest, I won't be emotionally affected either way, I just want to know if there's a point in writing these journals.

That is all.

I've had a pretty awful day, and it's only 11.

Today I had a midterm in Biomechanics. I haven't been doing very well in Biomechanics the whole time, but it really just hit me today. First there was the test. I was annoyed because some people just kept doing the test like 5 minutes after I had. Time was called like 15 minutes earlier, and it kinda seemed like they were really gonna collect it soon. I hate this class. Secondly, one of my classmates told me I should have taken a class that I like with a teacher that I like that I didn't know about instead of this class which I hate with the teacher that I hate that I did know about. Not helpful. Then there was the knowledge that of all the classes I could take next semester to fill this requirement, there's one I haven't taken and it requires the class I'm taking now. Then there was realizing how my family will react to this, me possibly not graduating, they've already been down my neck about my future and my plans.

I was biking to the Union. It's rainy out and there was a lot of water on the ground. I was thinking a million miles a minute on how screwed I was and how hard it's gonna be explaining all this to my family. And I just accelerated. Straight ahead. I wanted to crash into the concrete Union and snap my neck and die.

And then, then I thought of  aurathewolf. And I knew I had to live. I knew I couldn't cause her that level of pain, I just couldn't. I knew she was going to have hard times in the future and I knew I'd have to be there for her. And most of all, the most important thing, is that I knew that she makes me want to live. So I stopped pedaling and turned a bit and eased on to the brakes.

And it probably wouldn't have worked anyway. Worst case, I probably would have ended up in the hospital. Best case, I probably would have ended up a bit dazed, maybe with my bike wrecked. But that doesn't matter, what matters is that I wanted to.

And then, I didn't. Afterwards, all the reasons, all the things I wanted to do flooded back into my brain. All the friends who would be hurt, all the people who might really need me in the future. All my goals, all my ambitions, all my dreams.

But the only thing that made that connection in time, the thing that stopped me, the thing that made me care again, that was her. I feel like, this time anyway, none of the other stuff would have crossed my brain in time.

So, if I hadn't already, I owe her my life, and if I had, I owe her it one more time over.

And I'm glad for my resiliency and the fact that five minutes later I was joking about it. I'm glad for the people I offloaded to at the forum, and I'm glad that my mood has mostly returned to normal. I recognize it could spike downwards pretty much at any point. But at least now, I'm okay.

I think.

Glad I have the psychologist this evening.

Because  aurathewolf did it.

Section 1: Basic Information

Gender: Biologically male, mentally, none probably
Hair color: Brown
Eye color: Greenish Brown
Height: Short
Approximate weight: Overweight, technically obese
Location: NY
Age: 22
Birthday: July 8th
Birthplace: Philadelphia
Scars: Two on my left hand, one on my head.
Astrological sign: Cancer
Dominant hand: Right
Religion: Nominally Jewish, Actually whatever I feel like at the time.
Dominant brain: I never know, they probably switch.
Major/career: Genetics, I hope. Maybe some sort of crazy multi-instrumentalist novelist knitting mad geneticist.
Race (Mongoloid, Caucasian, or Negroid): Caucasian as hell
Relationship status: Taken
Glasses: And glad!
Braces: No.
Piercings: No


Section 2: Preferences

Favorite color: Purple
Favorite letter: Q. It's odd.
Favorite ice cream flavor: Green tea, sometimes fried.
Favorite food: Baklava, Pomegranite
Favorite drink: Tea
Favorite "drug": Video games, Caffiene
Favorite number: 9
Favorite sport: Badminton. Unless video games is a sport.
Favorite subject: Music
Favorite month: Janurary
Favorite song: Journey of the Sorcerer, Goodbye Blue Sky, Kathy's Song
Favorite book: Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy (and the sequels)
Favorite movie: Princess Mononoke.
Favorite season: Spring
Favorite TV show: Doctor Who!!!
Favorite cartoon character: The Doctor appeared in some animated stuff...Okay, to be fair, Spike Spiegel.
Favorite series: Phoenix Wright!
Favorite word: It wasn't Brobdingnagian until I read Aura's meme.
Favorite argument: Proving the other person is a hypocrite
Favorite paradox/oxymoron: You know Jo, I sometimes think that military intelligence is a contradiction in terms.

Section 3: Serious Issues
What are your views on...

1. Liberalism?
Yes.

2. The existence of God?
I want to say yes, but I don't believe in saying it as a matter of fact.

3. Jesus Christ?
"Vell, Jesus's just zis guy, you know?"

4. Abortion?
Very pro-choice. I don't really like it, but it's better than most of the alternatives, at least the ones possible without a time machine. Still best to try and make it not necessary.

5. Global warming?
I wish it were more glaringly obvious so more people would believe it. Also, call it climate change.

6. Humanity?
If we don't kill ourselves, we'll be around forever.

7. Vegetarianism?
I am a vegetarian. I think it's better for me. I will gladly explain my reasons why I think it's better, if asked. It's a choice, and I find all choices valid. Don't wave meat in my face and I won't challenge your choice. However, I strongly support proper labeling and get annoyed when companies "hide" meat products in otherwise vegetarian dishes for almost no reason.

8. Animal abuse?
Despicable.

9. Capital punishment?
We haven't the right.

10. Evolution?
This is a question?

11. Extraterrestrial beings?
It's a big universe. It has to be out there somewhere. If you're asking if they've visited Earth, then probably not.

12. Heaven?
*Shrug*

13. Hell?
*Shrug*

14. Purgatory?
*Shrug*

15. Ghosts?
Possibly.

16. Serial Killers?
They kill people.

17. Marriage?
For some people, there's a point. For me, not really. If I ever get married, it'd be for other people, most likely. I know how my mate feels about me and that's what matters.

18. Smoking?
Tobacco: WHYYYYYY
Pot: Yeah, I can kinda see why, but why can't we make brownies sometimes?

19. Drinking?
Moderation is the word. I feel like it's healthy to drink a bit, but having a good attitude is important. Grilled Pepper Jack Cheese makes a really good companion to Dunkelweisen.

20. Child abuse?
Despicable.



Section 4: Romantic Preferences (No Survey Would Be Complete Without It)

Gender: Don't have to have one.
Eye color: Don't care much, but Amber.
Hair color: Don't care much, but Red.
Height: Don't care.
Weight: Don't care.
Age: Mine +/- 3 years. More in special cases.
Religion: I wouldn't want someone too religious, unless their religion is really cool
Scars: Don't care.
Glasses: Yes!!!
Braces: Don't care.
Piercings: Don't care.
Tattoos: Don't care.
Career: It'd be nice.
Marriage (y/n): Don't care.
Wedding colors: I'd wear pink. And a rainbow knit tie. Fuck everyone else, it'd be my wedding.
Wedding size: 7 people.
Number of children: 14.2 million genetically enhanced clones
Together Forever? Sure.


Section 5: The "Test" with No Wrong Answers

1. If you could change your name, to what would you change it, if anything, and why?
I actually am getting more annoyed with my name. I like Kit.

2. If any amount of any sort of fame was available to you, what would you choose and why?
I’d like to one day be good enough to be semi-famous for my music, or writing.

3. List the first five quotes which come to mind - no repeats!

"A new body at last!"

"I am the Master!"

"It is the end, but the moment has been prepared for"

"I am the Doctor, or at least I will be, if this regeneration works out"

"Would you like a Jellybaby?"

4. What kind of fan club would you like to have or do you have?
Doctor Who

5. If you had everything you needed delivered daily, what would it be?
Everything! Including food, and water, and internet, and MALTED MILK.

6. If you were told you must join the army (or navy or marines), but could choose any position you liked, how would you react?
Technician. MAKE ME A TECHNICIAN. Not on the front lines.

7. If you are a member of a fan club, or multiple fan clubs, describe it, or them, and your role.
I run a Doctor Who club in VDex.

8. If you were assured of all your daily needs, what kind of job would you want, if any, and how would you spend your paycheck?
I'd love to be a mad scientist. I'd spend it on making  aurathewolf a pipe organ. After I've done that I'll buy tons of instruments.

9. If you could choose any sort of environment in which to live, what would you pick and why?
I'd live in the middle of the woods with Broadband.

10. If you had to wear the same outer layer of clothing every day, what would it be?
A hoodie and scarf.

11. If you received a fifty dollar check in the mail, guaranteed, every day, what would you do with it?
I think it might be just enough to get my own place. Then I'd get a job or busk or sell knit bags for food.

12. What would you do if you knew you would die in 5 days?
Cuddle with Aura for 5 days straight.

13. What is the most important goal in your life?
I dunno. Maybe this is my problem.

14. How would you prefer, ideally speaking, to die?
Something quick but predictable, and also, ideally, awesome.

15. Do you have any strong feelings about how you will or will not die?
I think I'll die of getting tired of living. Not suicide, but my body will probably just wear out someday.

16. Do you find talk of death creepy?
Sometimes, but I do it anyway.

17. If you could learn everything about any subject tomorrow, what subject would you choose and how much would you be willing to sacrifice for the knowledge?
How do you learn everything about something?

18. What role do you think fate plays in your life?
Fate plays tricks on me. Sometimes they are nice tricks.

19. How important do you think you are, not just to yourself but to your circles and the world?
I know I'm important to one person, and I suspect I am pretty important to quite a few more. The first one, that is enough.

20. What really brings you joy?
Aura, Doctor Who, Music.



Section 6: Your Parents

Father's name: Josh
Occupation: Wish he had one.
Eye color: Brown?
Hair color: Brown
Height: Short
Weight: Heavy
Age: 61
Religion: Jewish
Other distinguishing features: He doesn't look 61.

Mother's name: Susan
Occupation: Used to be a librarian. Now she is an activities coordinator for developmentally disabled seniors.
Eye color: Brown?
Hair color: White.
Height: Short
Weight: A bit overweight but not at all bad.
Age: 58
Religion: Jewish
Other distinguishing features: She looked her age when she was like 50. Then she started dying her hair and looked younger. Now she's stopped dying her hair and still looks younger. It's magic.

Section 7: More Random Questions

1. What is your motto? Why?
Be good to your friends. Friendship is the most important bond ever.

2. What is your cell phone ring tone? Why?
Default. Mine can't take custom ones.

3. Would you consider priesthood or the religious life (monk or nun)?
Hahahahaha no.

4. Do you have a nickname or nicknames? What is it or are they?
Kit

5. What do you fear?
A loooot.

6. What do you consider your weakness?
My lack of self esteem.

7. What do you consider one of your strengths?
Intelligence.

8. What mythological creature do you wish was real?
Kitsune.

9. What would you do tomorrow if you knew you could not fail?
I'd try and get everything done, but if I had to pick I'd write some awesome music.

10. Would you ask someone out if you liked them or would you wait and try to find out if it's mutual first?
I'd ask first.

11. Do you like sleep?
What? Huh? Sorry, I was sleeping.

12. What is your opinion on acronyms and abbreviations?
Useful, but annoying when overused.

13. Do you think math is important? How important?
Math is really important, but nothing above Arithmetic and basic geometrical reasoning is important for most people.

14. Do you have a dream home? If so, please describe.
A giant underground warren in the middle of the forest with high speed internet, and a really fast pneumatic tube to New York City. Also tons of instruments and a pipe organ. And all the stuff that Aura wants. And one Aura.

15. Can you solve the mysteries of the universe?
FOR SCIENCE!

16. Would you rather freeze to death in summer or burn to death in winter?
Ice Cube.

17. How many roads must a man walk down before they call him a man?
42.

18. What's the most random thing you can think of right now?
Me, I'm pretty random.

19. Do you like waffles?
Okay, you're pretty random too.

20. What do you do frequently that you consider a colossal waste of time?
Oh god the Internet. CRACKED.COM STOP TAKING OVER MY LIFE YOU ARE AWESOME.

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

I actually took that big break intentionally so I wouldn't get ahead of  aurathewolf.

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

@.@

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- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

1. Transformation (woo)

2. Snarkiness

3. Glasses

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

1. Makeup

2. Scat

3. Intolerance (Excepting lactose)

4. I dunno

Today is November 20th. It is Transgender Day of Remembrance.

Today I call special attention to the deaths of Amanda González-Andujar and Stacy Blahnik Lee, both killed within the past year.

Hate lives on, and this is wrong. When Transgender day of Remembrance rolls around, I get a fire in my eyes, something that burns within me, that tells me that the attitude towards transsexuals and transgendered people, the thought that their lives are not worth as much, is just horribly wrong. There are a lot of wrong things in this world, and I'm not going to say that this is more important, just that this is one of them.

I may be somewhat of a hippy, but we don't all have to preach peace and love and hold hands and sings songs together. We don't need to love everyone and do our best to be the nicest people we can be. What we have to do, as a world, is stop using our hands to hit each other, stop our voices from calling out hatred, we need to just exist together. Is that so much? Apparently. We need to stop feeling like killing someone else for who they are is somehow right or justifiable. Is that so hard? Probably.

It makes me sick.

Once again, I am thrust into the magical world of copyright law, as a close friend of mine is being threatened by Sony Music International Japan, and Youtube is telling her to delete all videos with infringing content.

Technically, maybe about 70% to 90% of her videos do, technically have infringing content.
So does the entirety of Fanfiction.net.
Everytime you draw a character that's not an original character of yours, and you don't have explicit or implicit permission to draw, that's copyright infringement.

I drew a horrible picture of Suezo on my furaffinity page. Technically, that's copyright infringement against Tecmo. Please don't report me guys, I don't want to get sued.

My point is, copyright infringement is, most of the time, common, and, to infringe a probably copyrighted phrase, "Mostly Harmless".

Before the internet, people still infringed copyrights. People made mix tapes and drew fan drawings of their favorite characters and made horrible Kirk/Spock slashfics. Now that we have the internet, we can infringe copyrights in creative and new ways, make cool new things.
And thanks to the internet we can be shut down and ruined in more ways than we ever imagined.

In the end, I firmly believe that content should be separated by the law into one of two categories, and by the content creators into another two. The first two are new creative works versus direct copying. Direct copying is worse than creating a new synthesized work, and these should not be lumped into the same legal category. As well, the content creators should separate positive copying (an awesome clip from a TV show might advertise the TV show for free) versus negative copying (a complete episode would reduce DVD sales and advertisement figures).

In this specific case, it's more complex. The infringement was noted by Sony Music Japan for a piece of incidental music in a TV show clip.

I feel it's entirely stupid, and that deleting accounts for repeated infringement is dumb as well. If there's a lot of infringement going on, maybe that person should be barred from uploading without prior screening. But deletion is extreme.

That was my rant.

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

Aura

David

Mom

Jill

Willsef

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

1- Stopped doing research for a while.

2- Overloaded on courses during my first 2.5 years

3- Underloaded on courses following that

4- Been kind of a jerk in high school

5- STARCRAAAAAAAAFT

6- Lost my 5th grade writing notebook

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

1- "Why have I not gotten <<Thing>> done yet?"

2- "Despite that I've screwed a lot of things up in my life, I'm really glad I have good and caring friends"

3- "Doctor Who is awesome"

4- "I have the best girlfriend ever...ever!"

5- "Why do bad things happen to my friends?"

6- "I need to learn how to stop being so sleepy."

7- "Why can't my family ever leave me alone?"

- Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
- Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
- Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
- Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
- Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
- Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
- Day Seven: Four turn offs.
- Day Eight: Three turn ons.
- Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
- Day Ten: One confession.

1- Be compassionate

2- Be trustworthy

3- Be accepting

4- Be nerdy

5- Be funny

6- Be serious

7- Be understanding

8- Be yourself