And im not gonna give up.
im stronger then I pit my self to be.
ans I know what I want
and I know what I cant have
my life isnt exactly where I want it right now
but that dosent mean it won't be there one day

I just gotta put it on that track


Im working on getting my laptop charger

Im working on getting my kidneys back in shape

XD
I wanna see what certain ocs kids would look like

You pic a random oc
and I pick a random oc
and ill make their pretend child c:

Drugs.
I will say ive had my past with them
but I dont bother with them any more
for my own sake and the sake of the children in my life who depend on me.
And i wont judge those who do.
Ill pled my comment on it but I won't chew you out.
its just
I don't like it when drugs are used in front of those child I mentioned.
Recently my friend had came over and well
they had brought a "weed brownie"
and it was laced with another sort of drug?
I be live acid or something
(Lacing like adding another drug to the weed brownie, instead of just weed)
And well my friend starting tripping. A badddd trip
and well
Saying saying how tiny people were taking picture in her mouth which she was just hallucinating
And i had no clue u ntill the ambulance had came and helped after I called them.
and being the friend I am.
I had to go with her
but
im not like never going to forgive her
its just
this happened while the children were with me
ans myself. And that dumb ass
And one they didnt know what was going
two some of them are under 8
and im trying to figure out what was wrong and shit
while managing my little ones I had with me.
so you can guess how stressed ans scared I had to be.

This reason why I do not smoke or anything with weed or any other drug!
You can do them in front of me.
but not while im trying to be a responsible adult to the children in my life.

I couldn't leave if I tried
I love you all so much
and I realised ill be ok in the end
and that shouldn't stop me
from enjoying my art work and posting
and I juat love you all
even if we dont speak much
and you need a positive talk you can message me
im just so
distant eue
hurrhurr....
but this is where I feel safe....
and huggless everyone-

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I promise that
but guys right now I feel I need to think stuff over
and I won't really be on much
I need to be by myself...or im going to go insane
or even more then I am (h urrhurr)
Dont get me wrong I love you all
so much. ..
but this kittens has had enough...
im tired and..bleh....

If you really must contact me drop a note or a friendly hi

But aa for art and stuff .not really

Im not ok
But that dosent mean ill never be ok again.
Just not now
But another day yes..

And I do I do love you all....I mean it

-love kitten

My lovies
well im here to update you guys

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Life will have itsups and downs
Even a blind person know disappointments come and go
well
my dad and I have been going threw some hard times gettig over certain things
and me and my mother are on ok terms
my computer charger broke thanks to a certain lil mister
my close friend moved back in next door to me
and I love her a bunch
her and her daughter mean the world to me


Id do any thing for her (....I guess even perice my nipples ......e_________e asfkgllfkskakaka im abit scared....but she said we could get our tounge periced together so ya know shes my ride or die)


Speaking of per icings

kitten will be updated

shell look more like me more

it is a new year

I still need improvement on my art


ok so back to the whole nipple thing.

Stop reading if you dont wanna know

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Was talking about pericings with my friend and she brought up something
on how she wanted to one mor wild crazy thing with me
since shes already a mother now
and Ive been there for her for a lot of things
and so she knows I enjoy pericings
and she told she wanted to get something done with me
so im like well of course
and what not

so the pericing she wants is her nipple

not one
but both

and its not that im scarred of the pain
its like...shes a mom and one day we might both come to our senses and be like oh fuck it im taking out my pericings



orthefactmychildwouldripitout

but we will see how things go

well

for those who fucking care to read my dipshit journals |D

===relationship statuses of my own ocs and what no? -slap-===========================
Kitten
Well kittens married but its all opened
but its complicted
kitten will always love dashie Q_Q

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tia holy shit i havet drawn her in a shit ton of time lol
but tia yeah shes got ...people

---

Tiana :3 my lemur girl~

uhmm i belive she is still married or inslaved..8'D

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pinky is in a relationship with her brother. dont judge me....

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Tyler who i dont draw much is apprently married now 8'DDD

and uhm wait


Valentino is taken

Trent is taken

and uhm well

i guess the poin of this journal is that



i might start pairing up my own ocs Q_Q becus ya know
im slowly giving up hope on their love lives
and junk so.....mostly what im saying is
if theres an oc of mine youd like paired up with yours
then dont be scared to discus the situation to me |D












-crys on floor-

Kitten: -humps my face- tea baggy ouo

1: akimomo doing...whatever she does when she's bored?

2 : Marrek and kinneh watching a movie!
(wait wtf the fuck didh e call kitten kidney? or xD idk )

3: AINBOWS AND KITTENS

i will reopen them when im done |D

Since fa was all bleh
Ill post the pica of kitten I drew
And others

they all got deleted

so if you wanna add me
just add

kittylinn sigh v.v

Is today
And I'm happy
Very happy

October 15
Urgh
Noooo
._.
It'll just be another day ill regert.....
-goes in corner to sleep-

im now back where I belong~

Art tradez
Rqs
And all are open

Bondage<3
Pet play
Daddy/daugher
School
Doctor like sex play
Anal(dont judge me guies)
Honestly idk i like vaginal
But you know anals nice too
Hah
Someonr had asked me what thins get me arroused


Whispering(yes)
Licking
Tickling
Belly tubs
Spankings

Urgh

I feel like a sex freak xD

I love booties

Im an ass gall.
I like tits

But assea my lasses

<3

Alittle bootie never hurt no one

I hope

Lol.

Right now...
Thinga have gotten really stressfull and im hurting very much
And i dont waant to relasp
Im noy stable right now i can barely spell right


I dont even know how i feel or what to feel...
.on the inside im broken

But you know ima be strong

Even if it kills me..

I feel my heart breaking into peices right now

But my eyes are gettin puffy from crying
my head hurts


I feel so weak


Theres nothing i can do

If time is willing to heal my wounds....

It feels great to be on a new account



Might open rqs and art trades soon