Well i thought i needed a new journal. not that i have much

TLDR: I got Diabetes, I got some new friends, I got a haircut, and most importanly i got a BF <3

So much have happened im my life.

Where to begin.
I got diabetes. which is a major problem because i also suffer from skitzofrenia
my skitzo tells me to "do what you want" while Diabetes yells "CONTROL EEEEEEVERYTHING"
its really a hassel. i don't recoment it to others ^^
but that being said, i get better at handling it everyday. but being a impatient guy i dont feel it goes fast enough.

i started a new school 1½ year ago and while it didnt help me much education wise i met a new friend. he is the sweetest guy ever, and he really broke his own boundry to reach out to me. He asked if he could join one of my RP groups because he had watched Critical Role online and thought it was way cool. So i started up a group with 5 peeps who mostly didnt knew each other. there has been ups and downs in the group but it still countinues. some joined and some lefts. But i got two new really good friends from it.

well.. I got a haircut, which my BF didnt like ^^ i think its pretty swell not having to deal with long hair for the time being. i love to feel the wind in it ^^

thats brings me to my honeybun ^^
I reasontly got meself a BF. He is here on FA too and will prolly be the first to read it.
He is the sweetest little guy, though he is taller than me ^^ it just evolved naturally. I got him as a pet from a friend who doesnt live in denmark for the time being.
We have always talked about many things and got really close, but when i had really strong feelings for him well it kinda wasnt the time for it. so life went on. he kept being annoyed and blabbering about how he felt he wasted every weekend. thats where he kinda got me. not as a BF mind you. I just helped him get alittle more organeised.
I think that was the step down the road to us being a thing. It only took a couple of years ^^

Its super Scary stuff getting a BF went last time was over 13-14 years ago.. and that was a school fling.
But. He makes me happy.

Im really not sure i should post this but it helped me getting some words on it. im thinking i wanna try getting some more story writing or maybe poeming, but i dont wanna promise anything.

Well stay awesome out there. ^^
See ya

Hey.... tjeck out :iconInuyashaWolf latest journal about portal 1.... she is trading it away so if you want then tjeck it out and offer her somthing

-- http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2258461/

Well... a friend of mine showed me this game and i would like to share it with people

http://www.weebls-stuff.com/games/T.....er+of+Stories/

It's a point and click game and i really liked it... very cute storie and a nice idea for a game

Tumps up from me :D

Yo....

Long time since i last posted somthing... havn't made anything since last... well alittle lie but i only made somthing for fun other place and can remember them when i come home....

But... Life goes on... im Daily on FA, but i don't have inspirations to do anything... was writhing a story but can get to work on it, cause of my Depression... and the though of it being a bad story is pressing too...

But.. life goes on... Im acturly doing okay and i have nearly no regrets of how im living... well thats a lie too
I'm sad the most of the time, and i don't know why.... that is the most frutrated thing ever... to be sad of no reason.... and... i hope... i sincirly hope my friends don't dump be, cause im a pain in the ass to talk with, when im "emo" or depressed

But,... life goes on...

maybe i should a write poem about it... yeah.. I'll do that

Knight/Martin

1. Your Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Film:

5. Favorite Song or Album:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Do we know each other outside of FA?

10. What's your philosophy on life?

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favorite memory of us?

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you?

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Which country is your spiritual home?

19. What is your big weakness?

20. Do you think I'm a good person?

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?

22. Describe your accent:

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Trousers or skirts?

26. Cigarettes or alcohol?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

Yay.... new avatar thingy...

My super awsome avatar can be seen in full size at  ninja-wolfy

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3557945 link directly to it

it was an idea i dissuced with her, and she found it funny, then i asked her to draw it..

well... thats that for now.... say if you need som poems :P


Knighthood

I don't know how many people who sees this or if they care....

But i suck.... sucky like suck...
I the worst person on the earth and that includes Hitler, stalin, saddam and osama...
All my friends are like... "No you are a good person, we all love you".... but they don't know me.... no one does.... not even i there peeked inside myself.... cause i know what i'll find... or belive to find...

But... still... people are like "all have some skeleton in the closet, why should you be different?" but mine matters to me... i fear them.... i fear that you will reject me cause of them... so i locked it all away in a little box, and dumped deep inside myself...

That is why i fear sleeping with other people... what if they learn my secrets and tell other people and then all will hate me....


Donno why i wrote this... just needed to get it out....l

Knight/Martin

Well i stumbel apon a so calld meme... and il'l try to fill it out.... i shamelessly stole it from Zophia


*Are you a furry?
Yes and no... im pretty new to this concept, but im very intriged

*If you have a Spouse/SO - Is he/she a furry too?
None... im singel :P

*How long have you been in the community?
well... been lurking in on my friends gallery for some time but joined for 2-3 weeks ago for real

*How did you find furry?
My two friends kinda made me into furry... donno how they did it.. or.. they showed me this fantastic world, which im now part of

*What's your reason for furry (what interested you to get into the community)?
I kinda not not... i like fiction better than realisme iguees... anything is possibel in a fantasy... real life is so over rated

*What's Furry to you?
well.. mostly art and stories.. im really not(yet) into fursuiting... I think they look abit silly in those things

*If someone found out you're a furry and asked you about it how would you respond?
I think i would show him a computer and say "Wiki it" else i would try to explain as good as i could what it meant

*What are your favorite aspects of our community?
well... anything is possibel... people don't "Ewh are you into that" they are more like.. "Hey good idea!"

*Do you use any furry terms? (i.e. yiff, paws, murr?)
well.. not much ... yet

*What do you wish furry was NOT associated with?
Well i don't really know yet...

*How strongly do you feel about someone bashing the community as a whole?
Never generylise... I hate when people do that.... i am in the middel og 3-4 subcultures and know what people say about them... and i hate when say "Nerd!" or "Fucking Roleplayer" i really hate that... just because you are into something dosn't people have the right to label you...

*How strongly do you feel about anyone bashing you yourself for your interest based on the media's aspect of what furry is?
like the previos answer

*We all know furries have a lot of sexual aspects in this fandom, What's your opinion on it?
well... im a virgin... wohh... big surprice...and stombling around to find my place in life... so... i offen look at FA for Fapping material .. hehe you can always find somthing new here

Personal

*What is/are your fursona(s)?
well... havn't got a "real" one right now..

*Do you have any fetishes that pertain to the fandom?
nope.. nothing is confinded to Furry only

*If you could magically morph into your fursona would you?
If i got one i thing yeah... Real life is so over rated

*Do you believe you have a spirit animal?
well... anything is possibel

*What other fanbases/groups are you a part of?
well a local Anime club.... and that was that...

*Anthro/Feral, Therian or Kemonomimi (Not a furry, just a human with animal ears and a tail)?
I have no idea what you are talking about

*Are you a fursuiter?
If yes, how many do you own?
If No, do you ever plan on being a suiter?
nope... and i don't have a plan about doing it... right now i think it's kinda silly.. can't smiling when i see a fursuiter(mainly on FA in pictures)

*How many of your friends are furry?
well... 4 i know of.... and all four are in here...

*How many pets do you own, if any?
well... my family have a cat i call mine... and my hamster died some 3 months ago

*Aside from furry what other interests do you have?
Books, mainly sci fi and fantasy. Roleplaying.

*Are you confident enough in yourself to say that you're a fur, no matter what the media says?
well.. yeah i think

Meatups

*Do you attend any cons?
If no, would you attend any cons?
If yes, which cons have you been to?
Well... no money.. in thight bugeet right now so no.. but maybe som day i would like to try

*Do you go to local meetups (bowling, public outings...etc)?
nope... havn't found any

*Have you ever attended a furry party?
-If no, would you attend one?
no.. not yet.. and well..donno...

Online

*Have you ever met up with a fur you talked to online?
no.. but i woulden't mind doing it

*What furry websites do you attend?
only here

*What non furry websites do you frequent?
hmm... my varios webcomics( QC mostly), kongregate,

And last, but not least
*Has the fandom done anything for you that you're thankful for? Has it taught you anything or brought you anything you treasure greatly?
well... no i hasn't... but i hope i'll get some new good friends in here...