For those that know me, they know I'm a kind, caring, considerate, and almost always calm person. Just trust me when I say that. Because I'm about to throw all of that out the window. Apologies in advance for language.

WHAT IN THE FLYING F*** IS THIS $H!T?! I try to give this site a new slate. A second chance. But then I logged on today. Went through my inbox and unwatched several people for the mature content that flowed through. I was tolerant of it...UNTIL, I saw one of those stupid 'Your character here' auctions. You want to know what it was for? It was a picture where your character could...I don't even want to say it. You get to do something M-rated to the cute mascot of the latest Animal Crossing game New Leaf, both the game and character which I love greatly and have lots of fun running my town. But to see that come through not only makes me sick to my stomach and ashamed to even be associated with this f***ing site.

So I'm done. That's it. End of story, end of discussion, and end of me trying to make things work with certain artists on this site. I'm shutting down doors and I'm done.

So in summary: f*** this site, f**k the perverts out there, f*ck anyone who does 'ych' auctions with official characters and profits off them (pretty damn sure that's illegal), and FUCK anyone and everyone who engages in drawing, viewing, writing, and anything else that has to do with the dark spawn of the internet that is Rule 34. And don't ANYONE try to talk to me like that's a good thing or defend all those sick freaks because I am NOT in the mood. They ruin characters, ruin childhoods, put dark spots on the community, and are a blight on whatever fanbase they're a part of.

Ok, it's 1 AM in the morning. I'm tired. I need to use the bathroom. But I quite frankly don't give a darn at this point. I need to get this off of my chest. First let me start off by saying to those of you out there I speak with on a regular basis, those that watch me and have done nothing against me, or anything else along those lines, the following is NOT addressed to you by any means.

I'm finding it harder and harder to WANT to come onto this site anymore. I don't know if it's because I've just been lazy because I'm outta college for the summer, but one thing I am damn sure about, I'm sick of what I'm finding in my submissions inbox anymore. I tend to watch artists that interest me, have styles I like, characters they own I like, or they're my friends. But for whatever reason, I've just been disgusted by what's flowed inside and further dirtied my already non-virgin eyeballs. I'm seeing so much that's just tasteless mature art, stuff that makes me immediately look away, or in today's case, paired two flippin' characters who just had their moment in the spotlight yesterday at E3, and put them STRAIGHT into an 18+ situation. What the actual frack?

This is just one of the many reasons I'm finding it difficult to come onto here, and I don't know what to do. Do I just keep comming and delete that stuff on-sight? Or do I start fresh and only follow a select few out of my circle of friends, repost everything, and fetch some brain bleech to wipe away the images from my head? I'm just fed up is all. I know it's bad to say that the community itself is bad from just the few sour apples or even seeds from those apples that I've seen, but some things just go too far. And by going that far, I've been pushed passed my line of comfort and just want to smack these people over the head with something that'll give them a headache without brain damage.

*Sighs* Sorry if anyone took offense, don't know why you would, but sorry just in case. This has just been boiling for a while now and the last three times I've come on here, in about a week and a half period, I've gone into a rage over it and just been overall unhappy. So I'm just asking myself, "Why bother coming back if all I'm going to do is get pissed off?"

Simple really. The gems that I've found among the garbage. Some close friends, one who I can call the brother I wish I had, and their company and friendship. Some I haven't talked to in months, and I'm sorry for that...my brain just operates in mysterious ways. I keep thinking that they'll think I'm a jerk or something for not talking for so long. Or that they'll be busy and I'll be interrupting something. It's just how I think. This is specifically directed at a certain hybrid I've known and consider family, and I hope he reads this and can forgive a foolish mouse. Hopefully you'll know who you are.

Ok, I think I've got everything covered here. Rant over. Thank you if you bothered to read this and a double thank you if you're willing to comment and support, debate, or whatever with someone like me. Hope you all have wonderful days.

That's pretty much what I'd use to describe the last month and a half or so. I've had about half a dozen problems, medical and car-related, in that time period. First there was the surgery I underwent to finish up a wound that wasn't going away from another surgery, which put me out've commission for a few days in school due to being unable to drive. Immediately following was a skin infection, making me miss two more days and hurting like hell to sit.

Following this issue, about two weeks ago, we found a leak in the trunk of my car that flooded the spare tire compartment and rusted a jack and couple of tire rods. Now, that and the surgery are going well. We've found the issue, so no problem right? F no. Last week I discovered some bump on the back of my leg. No clue what it is but it keeps releasing fluids and hurts to sit on. And in the process of handling that, turns out I was allergic to one of the antibiotics I took to get rid of it and now have a hives outbreak on my skin, which itches like crazy, hinders my movements because it's on the inside of my arms where they bend, and has even spread down my back, belly, legs, and got my feet. Now my face is puffing up and it's irritating as hell.

Can somebody PLEASE tell me when I broke a mirror or spilled salt or any other bad luck omen? This is getting ridiculous. I keep missing school for this crap and feel worse and worse about it because I feel I'm leaving a bad impression to my professors. On top of ALL of that, I have backed up work that needs doing. Journal responses I never bothered doing I need to finish, I need to write a 1000 word essay on a book I still need to finish, I have a final project involving making a tri-fold brochure for graphic design, and then there's three final tests I'm going to need to study for. This is why I haven't been on as much because the damn semester is finally coming to a close and I'm rushing around trying to get all this crap done while visiting doctors and taking medicine to get me into working condition.

Am I ever going to be 100% healthy again? Who knows. All I know is that this has got to stop. Only thing left for me to contract is AIDs or the plague. Well if you bothered reading all of this thank you and if you didn't then just don't bother.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4508309/

Go visit that link. A friend is in need and since I'm not sure whether or not I can get a commission, I thought I'd at least advertise for her.  taijeythecat is a wonderful artist with good prices and a cute, cartoony style that if you look through her gallery will surely make you laugh. So go and take a look, and even if you can't buy, spread the word.

I have none. Right now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I try to write, but I just can't get passionate about it and really get through a story. I try to write poems and they just feel flat and awkward. And in the art department, only thing I've done in a month if not more, is just a bust of a new character's head.

This is why I haven't posted anything (that I've done) in ages. It's extremely frustrating to me, especially since I'm unsure of what my grades will turn out to be in college this semester. I'm still scared that I'm going to screw up in a way and get bad grades. I just can't find a cure for my procrastination.

*Sighs* I'm just a little stressed at the moment. I try and relax with video games and that just kills time even more and prevents me from doing what I need to do for class. And that in turn makes me worry even more about what I'm forgetting to do or doing poorly. I could really just use a pause button for life and resume once I've sorted everything out. But until then, take care everyone.

Ok, could someone please tell me what God/deity/otherworldly being that I angered? First week of new semester (2 weeks ago) start off with a fantastic start, which is to say I got the flu and missed the first class of EVERY class. Then from there, I go by just fine, still was coughing here and there, only to go to the doctors on Thursday and find that my wind pipe is infected and I need to take this terrible medicine to get better. That has made progress, but hasn't been fully resolved yet despite taking the medicines for 5 days straight. And just now, my freaking car decides that it wants to have yet ANOTHER problem! Last semester some stupid computer in the car malfunctioned or something and the car wouldn't start at all. Then right at the end of the semester, my brakes thought it'd be funny to just die on me while I'm still on the road! Luckily I pulled over, but now, despite driving perfectly fine last week and just one day prior, my car starts up, then proceeds to die and the battery light comes on.

I'm going to start yanking my hair out at this point. This is just getting ridiculous with this string of bad luck. It's infuriating for me because I look like an ass, or at least I feel that way, about missing two classes and having to tell my professor I'm going to miss another. This is the first time I've had her and it reflects poorly on me. It makes me look like I'm a ditcher or something, and if I were the teacher I know I'd be a bit suspicious and/or annoyed. *Sighs* I don't know what to do anymore. All of this stress from college, my car, daily life in general...it's enough to make me want to crawl into bed and just stay there for the rest of my life. But I'm not even safe there. I had a nightmare last night about a clown serial killer!

I'm sorry if this little rant got on anyone's nerves, but sometimes you just need to let it all out. And I've got plenty of steam to let off. But for now, that's all...I'm going to try and calm down from this in the hopes that my mind doesn't snap and I wind up thinking I'm a fish.

Also, so as to not completely take this off my page, don't forget  taijeythecat still needs help, so go here --> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4180647/ to lend her a helping paw.

That's all for now. Hope you all out there have a much nicer day than me.

 taijeythecat is planning a trip and has been going through a rough patch lately, so I want to try and help her get the word out. Her commissions are cheap and she's a great artist, so be sure to check out her commissions list here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4180647/ . She's even running specials for the month of February, so if you're looking for a gift idea for that special someone or a good friend maybe a picture will do the trick.

The boy you punched in the hall today has committed suicide a few minutes ago. That girl you called a slut in class today, she's a virgin. The boy you called lame, he has to work every night to support his family. That girl you pushed down the other day, is already being abused at home. You think you know them. Guess what, YOU DON'T!

Re-post if you are against bullying. I bet 99% of you won't , re-post this if you're that 1% with a heart.

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Got this from  taijeythecat and as a victim of bullying myself, I thought I'd share it and spread the news/awareness. It's wrong and has to stop one way or another. It's wrong, damages an important part of someone's life, and can do untold damage down the line. I know, I took psychology 101, and it said that at certain stages of brain development a traumatic event, like bullying, can lead to unhealthy behavioral patterns and other issues. I'm not really religious, but the 'Do unto others' rule comes to mind here. If all the bullies out there could just feel an ounce of what their tormentees go through then it'd show them what they're doing. Sorry if I ranted here, but this issue always gets under my skin.

To one and all! And Happy Holidays to those of you out there that have other beliefs so ah don't offend ya. And to any atheists readin' this, well ah hope ya have a nice day then.

Ah've got until the 17th of January until mah classes resume, so ah'll try an' get some work finished before then. Take care everyone in the mean time

First off, Happy Thanksgiving y'all. Even those that don't celebrate it. Even if you don't slay a legion of turkeys for food you can still give thanks for what you have in life. Ah'd write a poem about it, but school work and recent events have put me off from writin' one.

Now y'all might be wonderin' what exactly happened...Well ah got hit by a blindsider. Turns out mah uncle came down with a case of pneumonia. And when ah heard mah mom talkin' to mah dad on the phone she sounded like she was tryin' to calm him down, so ah'm not exactly in high spirits about what's to come...Ah'll update y'all with details as they come. But don't let me rain on your parades. Everyone out there have a happy holidays and ah'll put on a happy face for the evenin'.

So mah family's just fine up in the northern states and thank heavens fer that. But Sandy's reach even got here. Some of us up in the mountains got some snow and mah power cut out late last night, but thankfully it came back on. Only issue is this puts me behind for a couple things ah wanted to do fer Halloween, but ah'll steamroll them and get 'em up before y'all know it! Stay tuned and to those affected by Sandy mah prayers go out to ya.

Yeah, turns out some big bitch is threatenin' mah family up in Pennsylvania. Ah of course am talkin' about the latest tropical storm Sandy. As if hittin' Florida wasn't enough, she's makin' her way up to hit from Delaware up to New York. Ah'm a little worried about 'em, but thankfully they ain't close to no major bodies of water to flood 'em.

Still, just seems to me like Mother Nature's havin' her own time of the month with these storms lately. Mah best wishes go out to those in that area of the great states and ah hope no one gets hurt. So if y'all don't see me fer a while it's either storm related or ah'm busy tryin' to get in touch with mah family.