Second place
Posted 11 years agoOh my god! Somehow the deluded souls that judged the writing competition at Rainfurrest decided that I won second place in the writing competition. I would never have expected to come in quite so high. I figured at best to come in above those that didn't finish. ;)
The entire story was an attempt to prove to myself that I could write, and finish up a story. Even more so, that I could submit it for consideration. Apparently I should be doing so more often.
As it was, Rainfurrest was a fun con to attend. I met people that I wanted to meet, got a ton of street passes on my DS and I left a great many tags scattered about on the tables. Maybe people will log them, or maybe not but at least people found them interesting enough to pick them up. I have already started roughing out my design for next year, and look forward to getting someone to make it look good in the near future.
Maybe next year I will drag along my cavalier, and force myself to be more social via the careful application of dog cuteness. :)
The entire story was an attempt to prove to myself that I could write, and finish up a story. Even more so, that I could submit it for consideration. Apparently I should be doing so more often.
As it was, Rainfurrest was a fun con to attend. I met people that I wanted to meet, got a ton of street passes on my DS and I left a great many tags scattered about on the tables. Maybe people will log them, or maybe not but at least people found them interesting enough to pick them up. I have already started roughing out my design for next year, and look forward to getting someone to make it look good in the near future.
Maybe next year I will drag along my cavalier, and force myself to be more social via the careful application of dog cuteness. :)
2013 can Suck my....
Posted 12 years agoMan what a year this one has been. I can hardly wait for it to end at the present rate.
What started with joy and hope has led me down to the point of depression and angst, so hopefully the new year can shed some much needed light back on the family.
My dad started acting oddly in February, and by August we had lost him. A stage four astrocytoma, or the nastiest brain cancer you can get. I had resigned myself to loosing him eventually since he had a bad heart, but for it to happen so suddenly was a major shock to the system. So much so that I decided to take a buyout offer at work and try something new.
Note to self: Do not quit a good job right before your favorite tiny house comes on the market. Grump. Also grump - I am lazy personally, which means I tend to nest in my house and do nothing if I am not working. I am not working, so I am doing nothing and put back on nearly fourty pounds.
Also on the job front - shortly before my dad passed, we found out that my mom's place of work was being shut down. So she is now jobless as well. (yay).
My dad did manage to live long enough to meet one of his grandsons. Robbie was born in July, and wound up back in Childrens hospital within a month. It seems since his mom was not well at the time a herpes flare affected him, and he wound up with brain swelling. We hoped it did not cause much damage....
Till this month, when shortly before he was due to fly with his mom back to Ontario, he started having seizures.
There is nothing showing on any scans, so it is medicine and hope that will see us through.
Live can be depressing at times.
I am happy that I have two new nephews to play with, and generally things are alright. But thank god for antidepressants. (eyes the darkness).
Venting off.
Now where are those want adds.
What started with joy and hope has led me down to the point of depression and angst, so hopefully the new year can shed some much needed light back on the family.
My dad started acting oddly in February, and by August we had lost him. A stage four astrocytoma, or the nastiest brain cancer you can get. I had resigned myself to loosing him eventually since he had a bad heart, but for it to happen so suddenly was a major shock to the system. So much so that I decided to take a buyout offer at work and try something new.
Note to self: Do not quit a good job right before your favorite tiny house comes on the market. Grump. Also grump - I am lazy personally, which means I tend to nest in my house and do nothing if I am not working. I am not working, so I am doing nothing and put back on nearly fourty pounds.
Also on the job front - shortly before my dad passed, we found out that my mom's place of work was being shut down. So she is now jobless as well. (yay).
My dad did manage to live long enough to meet one of his grandsons. Robbie was born in July, and wound up back in Childrens hospital within a month. It seems since his mom was not well at the time a herpes flare affected him, and he wound up with brain swelling. We hoped it did not cause much damage....
Till this month, when shortly before he was due to fly with his mom back to Ontario, he started having seizures.
There is nothing showing on any scans, so it is medicine and hope that will see us through.
Live can be depressing at times.
I am happy that I have two new nephews to play with, and generally things are alright. But thank god for antidepressants. (eyes the darkness).
Venting off.
Now where are those want adds.
Poofy Bottems
Posted 12 years agoI will be among the first to admit that I have some love for the cub furs out there. The art is so cute, and I have a few cubby tendencies myself (such as never being able to break a long standing thumb sucking habit). But as much as I'd like a piece of cub art. it comes with the problem. I just don't get the love for the diapers.
I think it comes from the fact that I was a cloth kid. I was born in the late seventies and the parents didn't have the cash for disposables, plus cloth was still pretty much a standard then. My siblings were also cloth diapered, but my sis has whole heartedly accepted disposables for her kids. Myself I will never have kids (ah the joys of being asexual) but I\d cloth diaper myself.
Now how in the hell do you do that on a cub image?
I can't even get an image of me sucking my cubby thumb as I have wings! Ah, what a pain.
Maybe I should go for the modern take on the diaper and get a seamsgeeky styled one. (who are having a kickstarter right now and the video is really geeky).
Ah well, just a few idle vents from a fan who can't fan. :)
I think it comes from the fact that I was a cloth kid. I was born in the late seventies and the parents didn't have the cash for disposables, plus cloth was still pretty much a standard then. My siblings were also cloth diapered, but my sis has whole heartedly accepted disposables for her kids. Myself I will never have kids (ah the joys of being asexual) but I\d cloth diaper myself.
Now how in the hell do you do that on a cub image?
I can't even get an image of me sucking my cubby thumb as I have wings! Ah, what a pain.
Maybe I should go for the modern take on the diaper and get a seamsgeeky styled one. (who are having a kickstarter right now and the video is really geeky).
Ah well, just a few idle vents from a fan who can't fan. :)
Meh
Posted 12 years agoFighting the nasty black rain cloud of depression right now, so I have little I want to do except eat and sleep. This is what happens when a bad Koakai is stupid and does not take his meds. Of course I want to wean myself off them, but with the way life has been in the past bit... meh. Not likely to happen.
Loosing my dad. Not working. Gaining weight again because I am not doing those 15000 steps a day I was doing as a part of work.
Cuddling my nephews and knowing that I will never have kids. :(
It all just adds up for a sad little raven, who is even writing this knowing that no one here really gives a big shit either, but it helps to just vent once in a while.
On dear god, I am -not- looking forward to the next couple of months. As a seasonal affective disorder sufferer, this is not going to be a pleasant winter.
Meh.
If anyone needs me I shall be curled up in my bed sucking my thumb. (never ever could break that habit)
Loosing my dad. Not working. Gaining weight again because I am not doing those 15000 steps a day I was doing as a part of work.
Cuddling my nephews and knowing that I will never have kids. :(
It all just adds up for a sad little raven, who is even writing this knowing that no one here really gives a big shit either, but it helps to just vent once in a while.
On dear god, I am -not- looking forward to the next couple of months. As a seasonal affective disorder sufferer, this is not going to be a pleasant winter.
Meh.
If anyone needs me I shall be curled up in my bed sucking my thumb. (never ever could break that habit)
Cyberpunk
Posted 12 years agoOr otherwise, the next theme of Rainfurrest 2014. I am not too sure how to work this into something I am planning on commissioning.
I used to be heavy into pathtags, a kind of mini challenge coin that are really fun to collect and trade. I have a whole wack of really cool ones, and was toying with the idea of making one to scatter and or give away at cons. (Hey, a chain of those would make a great way to have people stop me to talk, otherwise I might fly away like the bird I am).
Also SHINY!
Uh-hrum.
Anyways I never had one made for 2013, but now that I know the theme is cyberpunk, I need to start thinking of something to do for 2014.
Maybe a raven with cybernetic quill claws?
I do not know. All I know is that I need to fit it onto something quite small in the end. :)
A couple of my old tags:
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=7090
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=7248
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=6226
I used to be heavy into pathtags, a kind of mini challenge coin that are really fun to collect and trade. I have a whole wack of really cool ones, and was toying with the idea of making one to scatter and or give away at cons. (Hey, a chain of those would make a great way to have people stop me to talk, otherwise I might fly away like the bird I am).
Also SHINY!
Uh-hrum.
Anyways I never had one made for 2013, but now that I know the theme is cyberpunk, I need to start thinking of something to do for 2014.
Maybe a raven with cybernetic quill claws?
I do not know. All I know is that I need to fit it onto something quite small in the end. :)
A couple of my old tags:
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=7090
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=7248
http://www.pathtags.com/community/p.....le.php?id=6226
Has it been six months?
Posted 12 years agoI realized that I have not posted a journal in six months on this site, so I suppose it is time for an update.
Where to start....
We finally did get surgery on that tumor of dads, only to find out that it was the nastiness form of brain cancer that a fellow can get. He lived to see the birth of his first grandson, named Robert in his honour. However he did not get to see the second born as we lost my dad just shy of two months ago. It is still hard to think of, and despite my being at rainfurrest, there are things even here that are setting me off. There is a shuttle that goes to the airport here from the last big trip we all did to Maui. A bit sad to see it passing by this hotel on the way to the airport.
Rainfurrest could not come at a better time though. I am here the weekend after we spread my dads ashes, plus those of my grandparents. We went to vancouver island and scattered them on the shore and off butler point, places we fished as a family every summer.
Related to this: I am unemployed now. My job offered me far too much money to quit, and given the ups and downs in life with my dad I decided life was too short to keep doing something I did not enjoy. After this weekend I will be trying to suck up to a local AC/refrigeration place hoping to intern/job shadow their guys. Experience never hurt.
So life takes changes. But at least I have two new nephews to dote upon.
Where to start....
We finally did get surgery on that tumor of dads, only to find out that it was the nastiness form of brain cancer that a fellow can get. He lived to see the birth of his first grandson, named Robert in his honour. However he did not get to see the second born as we lost my dad just shy of two months ago. It is still hard to think of, and despite my being at rainfurrest, there are things even here that are setting me off. There is a shuttle that goes to the airport here from the last big trip we all did to Maui. A bit sad to see it passing by this hotel on the way to the airport.
Rainfurrest could not come at a better time though. I am here the weekend after we spread my dads ashes, plus those of my grandparents. We went to vancouver island and scattered them on the shore and off butler point, places we fished as a family every summer.
Related to this: I am unemployed now. My job offered me far too much money to quit, and given the ups and downs in life with my dad I decided life was too short to keep doing something I did not enjoy. After this weekend I will be trying to suck up to a local AC/refrigeration place hoping to intern/job shadow their guys. Experience never hurt.
So life takes changes. But at least I have two new nephews to dote upon.
Depression is a bitch
Posted 12 years agoI do suffer from this evil imbalance of brain chemicals, and despite my medication to keep me from cycling from lows to highs, it is hitting me pretty hard this month. I bailed on VancouFur after only a few hours, ignoring my desire to see the panels, and not doing my volunteer shifts. Of course, this destroys my chance to get to know the local community.
The main reason for this depression? My dad has a brain tumor. Surgery was scheduled for yesterday, and despite making it all the way down to the waiting area, it was cancelled at the last moment. My dad also has a heart conidtion, so they wanted to have more specalists around, and with all the trauma cases coming in they just did not have the team. So I spent 24 hours awake, and had to high of the surgery finally going to happen, only to crash at the 11th hour. I was almost ready to start breaking things. Now all I can do is sit here at home and feel impotent while waiting to hear if we get another date. His doctor has no surgery time for nearly two weeks however.....
\May you live in interesting times is a horrid curse.
The main reason for this depression? My dad has a brain tumor. Surgery was scheduled for yesterday, and despite making it all the way down to the waiting area, it was cancelled at the last moment. My dad also has a heart conidtion, so they wanted to have more specalists around, and with all the trauma cases coming in they just did not have the team. So I spent 24 hours awake, and had to high of the surgery finally going to happen, only to crash at the 11th hour. I was almost ready to start breaking things. Now all I can do is sit here at home and feel impotent while waiting to hear if we get another date. His doctor has no surgery time for nearly two weeks however.....
\May you live in interesting times is a horrid curse.
Maximillion
Posted 13 years agoWell I have a new resident to my household today. A new black and white kitten named Max by my nieces. A present from them for Christmas, he has been secretly terrorizing my sisters place for a week now, nibbling on toes and playing with their dogs. When I sat down on the couch I was presented with my surprise, a kitty carrier with the fellow sitting inside.
I had been toying with the idea of rescuing another cat, so to receive a kitten from the makes me a happy raven, even if I must worry about being chased now. I suppose an anthro picture is in my future of my dog and new cat together.
:)
I had been toying with the idea of rescuing another cat, so to receive a kitten from the makes me a happy raven, even if I must worry about being chased now. I suppose an anthro picture is in my future of my dog and new cat together.
:)
Bleh.
Posted 13 years agoI am getting irritated at toner today and for the past few days. I finally managed to get my hands on some Ferric Nitrate earlier in the month, so that I can etch sterling silver. Alas. this method I have learned for transferring toner as a resist for the acid keeps foiling me! Perhaps my magazine paper that I am using is the wrong stuff, but I keep getting partial transfer, so it just boggles my mind. If I keep cleaning this silver I have, sooner of later I am going to wear a hole right through it, making it useless for etching in the first place.
I might be having problems with the thickness of the lines I am trying to transfer. Right now I am trying to use lineart from
tavimunk since he puts up a bunch of it as free colour it but give credit art. But by the time I shrink it down to a size that can fit on the silver I have, the lines might be too thin to transfer.
This seems unlikely as I am getting partial transfer of those lines, so I just can not see this as the problem. So maybe it is the heat source. True it is a cheap walmart iron I am using, but there is no bow to the bottom, I do it on a surface that will reflect the heat, and yet, still nothing. I swear I am going to break out the damn heat bricks if this keeps up and try the next one on that.
There is another more tried and true method for this, but I can not find transparency sheets for the life of me in any of the stores around here. Even staples does not have them, which only goes to show that computer projectors have taken over completely. I suppose I will have to order a box, but at a buck a sheet I am warry. Perhaps I can set up a file of a bunch of things to etch and get them all printed at once at staples, but this is a route I am just not taking right now.
All I want is for this magazine method to work, since I have plenty of old magazines around that I can rip pages out of to print on.
Maybe I should switch from silver to copper or brass for now, but then I have to go out and buy ferric cloride. And I would still have the issues of the transfer not working. All I want is for this dang thing to work. I have my enamels. I can make it look cool. But I need to have the etched cavities for this to work.
Ah art drama, and me not even a real artist.
I might be having problems with the thickness of the lines I am trying to transfer. Right now I am trying to use lineart from

This seems unlikely as I am getting partial transfer of those lines, so I just can not see this as the problem. So maybe it is the heat source. True it is a cheap walmart iron I am using, but there is no bow to the bottom, I do it on a surface that will reflect the heat, and yet, still nothing. I swear I am going to break out the damn heat bricks if this keeps up and try the next one on that.
There is another more tried and true method for this, but I can not find transparency sheets for the life of me in any of the stores around here. Even staples does not have them, which only goes to show that computer projectors have taken over completely. I suppose I will have to order a box, but at a buck a sheet I am warry. Perhaps I can set up a file of a bunch of things to etch and get them all printed at once at staples, but this is a route I am just not taking right now.
All I want is for this magazine method to work, since I have plenty of old magazines around that I can rip pages out of to print on.
Maybe I should switch from silver to copper or brass for now, but then I have to go out and buy ferric cloride. And I would still have the issues of the transfer not working. All I want is for this dang thing to work. I have my enamels. I can make it look cool. But I need to have the etched cavities for this to work.
Ah art drama, and me not even a real artist.
Things I want to commission. Or why my wallet will be empty.
Posted 13 years agoThis is just intended as a simple list of things I want to commission, more of a way to keep myself in track and reminded of things that I want drawn when funds are available to myself.
First off - a Tavimunk cub picture. WANT! They are so cute. Perhaps my avian self, with the stuffed dog uncle brian that I used to carry and sucking my winglet tip, much as I sucked my thumb. Crashed in sleep as I used to be able to, anywhere and on any surface? Perhaps.
Next - something based off my favorite picture of myself from when I was a kid. Much like Saucy did that young love picture for me based off an old photo of mine. I like the old 70's indian sweater and hat I had on, and I look so cute reaching up towards that tree. Not sure if my feathered self will fit in this one, or if I will call upon the inherit transformation magic of ravens and go for ye old bear form or something similar. Tavimunk tag I commissioned should take care of this.
Now onto the less defined stuff:
I need to get another flying squirrel girl picture done. She is just too cute to leave at that one picture. But I do not have a name for her, much less a personality so this is a difficult thing to think of. She is both of, and separate from my Kenomomimi world.
Something naval. A strapping young captain on the quarter deck of his sloop the raven. Colours flapping in the wind behind him as he commands his crew to chase down those scurvy wharf rats of pirates that have been raiding commerce off his majesty's colonies.
A hawaiian island scene. Village in the background, sandy beach and several anthropomorphic Nene (hawaiian geese) drawing an outrigger onto shore. Perhaps not nene but some other native bird.
I also want to get my national geographic style nude work done. The 70's style noble savage that was just an excuse to get a young naked girls photo into the magazine style image.
Perhaps an Atelier style work of some sort. An academic nude study. Sketch work as they normally are, with added charcoal definition. Like what most sketch books get filled with. Seeing the muscles as they are beneath the fur. Ephebe picture, perhaps as much as I am not into nude males it is the traditional thing. Something like it might come from the academic nudes of the 19th century website.
And that is all I can come up with now. Certainly due to be edited. After all, I did not get my favourite subjects of Agate and Erik in here anywhere. Perhaps Erik is the subject of that last one.
Beaver picture. Something with beavers in it, for the walls of my cabin to be built up in Quesnel. I have a pond just outside the place I want to build since they are intent on damming my stream.
Prairie shot. Rolling hill down to the train tracks below. Silk train blowing its whistle and ringing its bell as it pulls in to do a quick changeover of engines before it is on its way again. Cub(s)? running down the hill to watch. Old steam trains, circa 1910.
Koakai - gray raven character, bent over his jewelers bench, lost to the world as he works/plays with his shinies.
Koakai raven character archaeologist picture. After all I spent the time getting the paper, might as well have my character doing the work even if I do not.
First off - a Tavimunk cub picture. WANT! They are so cute. Perhaps my avian self, with the stuffed dog uncle brian that I used to carry and sucking my winglet tip, much as I sucked my thumb. Crashed in sleep as I used to be able to, anywhere and on any surface? Perhaps.
Now onto the less defined stuff:
I need to get another flying squirrel girl picture done. She is just too cute to leave at that one picture. But I do not have a name for her, much less a personality so this is a difficult thing to think of. She is both of, and separate from my Kenomomimi world.
Something naval. A strapping young captain on the quarter deck of his sloop the raven. Colours flapping in the wind behind him as he commands his crew to chase down those scurvy wharf rats of pirates that have been raiding commerce off his majesty's colonies.
PIN: http://collections.rmg.co.uk/collec.....cts/36515.html
COAT: http://collections.rmg.co.uk/collec.....cts/71226.html
HAT: http://collections.rmg.co.uk/collec.....cts/71252.html
A hawaiian island scene. Village in the background, sandy beach and several anthropomorphic Nene (hawaiian geese) drawing an outrigger onto shore. Perhaps not nene but some other native bird.
NENE: http://www.all-bird.com/nene-bird/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nene_(bird)
http://www.theenvironmentalblog.org.....se-safe-haven/
Nene more defined in picture by Saucy. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9506679/
Canoes: http://www.hawaiialive.org/resources/image/533.jpg
http://orchidoutriggers.com/images/.....outrigger2.jpg
http://www.hawaiialive.org/resources/image/532.jpg
HUTS: http://www.hawaiialive.org/viewer.p.....amp;hostID=345
http://www.hawaiialive.org/resources/image/129.jpg
CLOTHES: http://www.hawaiialive.org/viewer.p.....amp;hostID=373
http://www.hawaiialive.org/resources/image/81.jpg
http://www.hawaiialive.org/resources/image/477.jpg
I also want to get my national geographic style nude work done. The 70's style noble savage that was just an excuse to get a young naked girls photo into the magazine style image.
Perhaps an Atelier style work of some sort. An academic nude study. Sketch work as they normally are, with added charcoal definition. Like what most sketch books get filled with. Seeing the muscles as they are beneath the fur. Ephebe picture, perhaps as much as I am not into nude males it is the traditional thing. Something like it might come from the academic nudes of the 19th century website.
Nude Refs: http://academicnudes19thcentury.blogspot.ca
And that is all I can come up with now. Certainly due to be edited. After all, I did not get my favourite subjects of Agate and Erik in here anywhere. Perhaps Erik is the subject of that last one.
Beaver picture. Something with beavers in it, for the walls of my cabin to be built up in Quesnel. I have a pond just outside the place I want to build since they are intent on damming my stream.
Prairie shot. Rolling hill down to the train tracks below. Silk train blowing its whistle and ringing its bell as it pulls in to do a quick changeover of engines before it is on its way again. Cub(s)? running down the hill to watch. Old steam trains, circa 1910.
Train: http://www.trainweb.org/oldtimetrai.....silk_train.jpg
Hills: http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_ZC-cbeemO.....20/prairie.jpg
Train on Landscape: http://www.stare.ca/images/saskatchewan_train.jpg
Koakai - gray raven character, bent over his jewelers bench, lost to the world as he works/plays with his shinies.
REF: https://inkbunny.net/submissionview.php?id=308928
Benches: http://www.ganoksin.com/exhibition/...../bench-pic.jpg
http://www.flickr.com/photos/bentforms/5166159727/
http://www.waterfalljewelers.com/cm.....e_ID328666.jpg
Koakai raven character archaeologist picture. After all I spent the time getting the paper, might as well have my character doing the work even if I do not.
Copper - Ugly and Dirty all in one
Posted 13 years agoI have broken out the jewelery tools again recently, more out of sheer boredom and a desire to be creative then anything else. In doing so I decided to mess around with copper, since it can be soldered as easily as silver but on a cost per ounce it is much cheaper. Without even shopping around I recently picked up a 6x12" piece for 20$, something that would have cost me a lot more if it had been in silver.
Unfortunately copper while nice and shiny and igniting my raven's heart in that regards, is an utterly ugly metal when it comes to being dirty. Silver is nice and easy to clean. Pop it into my pickleing solution and let the weak acid eat away at the blackening. In sterling silver, this is normally caused by the copper coming up to the surface and reacting. The pickle strips away that copper and everything comes out clean. When working with copper, the same is not quite true. I could very likely try and find a better pickle for cleaning copper work, but I am also a lazy raven. This leads me to having to do a lot of smoothing with files and fingernail emery boards. It becomes even worse when you know that solder does not flow to dirty areas. This can be a boon as well as a bane, for if the copper is dirty (and i said it dirties quickly) the solder will not flow. However I can also intentionally dirty the metal to keep solder from flowing there.
I have been working with my doming block trying to form an over-sized locket/pocket-watch case where I could store small images of my characters. This has led to undercutting the discs size, trying to line things up, having solder flow in places I do not want, or not having solder flow at all. I have also melted a bezel for a stone I wanted to set, and am dreading the next bit where I must solder on some small bezels to a curved surface as well as trying to get the hinges onto this beast.
But it is all in good fun since I can not write while I listen to podcasts, at least I can work with my hands.
Now to wait for the end of the month so I can commission my next work. I think this will be a cub/baby fur. I have a favorite image of me as a youth, and I think it would look very cute (on par with the one saucy did of me an a friend).
Unfortunately copper while nice and shiny and igniting my raven's heart in that regards, is an utterly ugly metal when it comes to being dirty. Silver is nice and easy to clean. Pop it into my pickleing solution and let the weak acid eat away at the blackening. In sterling silver, this is normally caused by the copper coming up to the surface and reacting. The pickle strips away that copper and everything comes out clean. When working with copper, the same is not quite true. I could very likely try and find a better pickle for cleaning copper work, but I am also a lazy raven. This leads me to having to do a lot of smoothing with files and fingernail emery boards. It becomes even worse when you know that solder does not flow to dirty areas. This can be a boon as well as a bane, for if the copper is dirty (and i said it dirties quickly) the solder will not flow. However I can also intentionally dirty the metal to keep solder from flowing there.
I have been working with my doming block trying to form an over-sized locket/pocket-watch case where I could store small images of my characters. This has led to undercutting the discs size, trying to line things up, having solder flow in places I do not want, or not having solder flow at all. I have also melted a bezel for a stone I wanted to set, and am dreading the next bit where I must solder on some small bezels to a curved surface as well as trying to get the hinges onto this beast.
But it is all in good fun since I can not write while I listen to podcasts, at least I can work with my hands.
Now to wait for the end of the month so I can commission my next work. I think this will be a cub/baby fur. I have a favorite image of me as a youth, and I think it would look very cute (on par with the one saucy did of me an a friend).