Do people actually read these journals? I was considering posting my live notifications for Twitch and Picarto streams, but I don't even know if people would care LOL

I'm raising money for the Trevor Project this Pride month, where half of all my proceeds for these YCH's will be donated at the end of the month, and we've raised over $75 so far - Last year we raised over $200, and I hope to break that record~

Wanna know more about the Trevor Project?
Click here: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/

Samples of my YCH can be found here:
Hugs:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61193439/
https://ko-fi.com/c/ddf82232ed

PFP:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61193415/
https://ko-fi.com/c/0ebf1395cb

It has been many years since I have posted on this account. My username has changed, and I am now Twitch streamer by the name of d20thoughts.
Come hang with us!

https://twitch.tv/d20thoughts

I know, I've been procrastinating to myself, and that's the worst kind. But, I have nothing to do tonight, so I thought I'd give an update on what's happening.. especially considering so much has happened since the last time I posted.. (again. Anyone starting to see a pattern here? I only like posting when I have a shit load to say!)

Alright, so it's been nearly two weeks since that last post. What has happened? Well, first, I'd like to publicly apologize to Sam on here for the guild trip that I posted. After consideration, I've realized that I was in my own way trying to force her out here this month. Although, I've realized this, and tried putting myself in her steps after Draco posed such a simple question: "Why not move out there for the semester?" He was right, why hadn't I thought that? Then I started to think about the reasons/excuses of not going, but boiled all down I was just afraid of doing it. I know I would love to be living with Sam right now, but I'm afraid of moving to the middle of nowhere.. where I know only Sam.. no job, no school, no car, no friends.. I'd feel isolated and cut off from my life here in Massachusetts. (Plus, she has no internet!) So I really have to apologize, hun. I never meant to make you feel badly about the situation, and realize that what I was doing was wrong. Don't feel bad about staying, because I feel that if you feel this is what you need, then it must be. Come here when you are ready, and my warms will be wide open, waiting to receive you.

Moving on. After about another hard week of job searching (I spent at least 30 hrs total looking for part time jobs in my area that fit my qualifications), I have found something! It took a week of phone tag, but my new boss Paul finally said to me that he will be starting on me Tuesday, and before then we need to go over the paper work and getting the company uniform.. but soon I will be working for Domino's Pizza in Downtown Chelmsford, MA, as a delivery person. Yes Slayne, this means if you order out for Pizza I will most likely be at your door. This also means that I won't be working minimum wage anymore! Goodbye 8.50 an hour, hello averaged out 12-15 bucks an hour and tips!

In other news, I've started the semester again. It's going be a tough one, considering I hate waking up in the morning, but here's my schedule. Luckily there was no class on Monday, so this week was easy on me:
Monday:
Lowell Campus: Applied Computer Programming I -
8:00AM to 9:50AM
Lowell Campus: Principals of Electric Circuits -
6:00PM to 9:30PM (Yeah, I'm retaking this class again, since I failed last time)
Tuesday:
Lowell Campus:Computer Network Security -
10:00AM to 11:50AM
Wednesday:
Lowell Campus:Applied Computer Programming I -
8:00AM to 9:50AM
Thursday:
Lowell Campus:Computer Network Security -
10:00AM to 11:50AM
Bedford Campus: Beginning Japanese II -
12:00PM to 2:30PM (and the great thing is that she said I can make up the hours during any other Japanese I class times at the Lowell Campus!)
Friday: No Classes

Although, it's still gonna be difficult getting used to this new sleeping schedule. Ugh, my god, my body was not born to wake at the break of dawn (6:30AM here.) Every day that I've had to wake up before 8AM, I've been coming home in a daze and passing out for a couple hours. I think I'm just adjusting, but it's a pain in the ass.. Doubt it will interfere with my work, though. I'm so excited about starting the new job..

And now I'm the phone with Sam.

*Intermission*
*Gustav Mahler's "Ressurection Symphony" plays in the background*
*End of intermission*

Now what else do I have to say? Think, think, think...

Oh yeah, I'm bored at home. Tonight, nothing to do. Tomorrow, I'm going with Rickey to go see The Birthday Massacre at the Middle East in Cambridge, MA. That should be a helluva time, and he's paying for the gas and my ticket!

And I'm trying to quit smoking for good now. Or at least cut my habit in half, because I'm starting lose my breath after having started smoking again. That and pot.. I dunno what to think of my smoking the cannabis anymore, to be honest..

Anyway, toodles!

I am feeling the most complex mix of emotions that I have ever felt. A single drop of the hat and I could react in any direction. I've got things bringing me down, depressed, pissed, happy, emotional, longing, etc. I think I'm feeling the most Bi-Polar right now than I ever have before. (If you didn't know Sam, yeah, I am. Although I think I told you before that I was. *Shrug*)

Sam is deciding to stay in Iowa until the end of the semester, but I honestly don't know how that's going to work out. She has absolutely no support out there, except for maybe from her Aunt. Her father is an ssshole to the upmost extent, her friends aren't very friendly at all, and the closest person that could give two shits about her lives six hours away in Wisconsin. Of course, followed up by me up here in Massachusetts. For the past week we've been hanging on a thread about what Sam's decision is going to be. When she left on Monday, she had such a strong feeling to stay here, but her mom convinced her to return home and at least tie up loose ends before leaving. Then she was hit with a bunch of bills, that she can barely afford, and the stress of going to classes and finding a new place to live. She seems adamant about staying there, despite all the worries she's having about moving here and all our reassurance that it would be painless. She wants to come here, but I don't know exactly what's holding her back. Yes, it is a big step, but I feel we're ready for it. I really do. I can't imagine myself without her living here, and that might be just because for two weeks I became accustomed to her being here, laying with her at night, her scent, her touch, her voice, her presence, her clothing, her compassion.. everything. She brings the best out of me, really, and I feel as though I'm regressing to an asshole without her here. If she does decide to move here this month, she has until the 15th, which is the day of or before (I forget which) that is the last day for her to withdraw with a full refund from classes and her books. She can apply to Middlesex Community College over the net, or even in person as long as she gets here before the 22nd. As soon as she withdrew, I would fly down to Madison, Wisconsin, and wait with my brother and his family until she drove with all her things in her car to Prarie du Chien. After that, we'd stay for a day, leave for her mother's for another day or two, and drive up to Massachusetts. It's all very possible, and not as costly as it seems. Gas would be no more than 100 bucks and Mom would pay for the plane ticket to Madison, which would also only be 210 for a one-way nonstop flight.

Whatever happens, I just wish she would decide soon, because she is tearing me apart with her being so indecisive. I need to know, that way I can decide whether or not to go looking for a job or not. But I guess she's already decided, although I can tell it's hurting her to do so, which is making me wonder why the fuck she's staying there if she's going to be in so much pain. At least here she will be watched over, have a roof, food, water, electricity.. *Sigh*

On the upside of things, I spoke to old boss Linda's boss Kent today, and explained to him the situation of what happened this past Monday. The funny thing is that he responded just like Kelly thought he would, he was shocked but also bemused by what I had said to Linda and said that he understood why I did such thing. He even plans on getting me a job at a new plant, of course after first speaking with AJ about it (Anton Jr.) But I'm excited, this means I won't have any trouble getting a new job..

Two weeks after posting last, a lot has happened. Heaven came and went while Sam visited. I spent so little time on the net and lazying around like I am used to. We kept busy best we could, because I wanted to show Sam as much as I could, and introduce her to the family and my extended family (friends, that is.)

Starting off that Thursday, we relaxed at home, cuddled for hours before actually going to sleep. On Friday, I went to work at 1 to 5 then came home to chaos (in a good way) as my complete family had gotten together, which is not something done in five or so years. It was great having everyone back together, we felt like a big, complete family again. Many smiles were made and many tears fell, but we all had a great time, and they all got to meet Sam.. whom they loved. My nieces and nephews.. Robert has gotten so tall, Ricky's voice is changing as he hits puberty, Autumn is as shy as ever, and Elizabeth has become a completely different person than I knew a few years ago when her and my brother's family moved to Wisconsin. My brother's were the same as always.. Gene the extreme conservative, Eric the bleeding heart liberal, and their discussion of 9/11 (which is.. 7 years late? so maybe the family has been broken up for more than seven years now? Wow, I hadn't realized that..) We ate, drank, and were merry for most of the night, up until 9 o'clock when they all decided to head back to their places; Gene's family to the hotel, and Eric's back home to Derry, NH. I so hope that we can do this again at the next big holiday.

We went to the movies, visited Kevin, and Lance/Christine that weekend as well, but nothing too big. The week of the first, we had a small get together on New Year's Eve, where Jenny and Zombie visited, Kevin had a few, and even Ej stopped by for a little while. There are few things as magical as kissing on midnight on New Year's Eve, my heart went a'flutter and it was as if.. she completed me at that moment. *Shrug* I don't know how else to put it, but now that she's gone back to Iowa, it feels as if that half of me was ripped out..

Anyway, I had work on Monday, Friday, and Saturday again that week.. We went to Haven, and Jen put some really great makeup on Sam. Although it wasn't necessarily her type of club, I believe that we had a good time together. I just wish that Patrick had been there to meet her, because I really expected him to be, but I heard later on from Preston that he went to Chicago to visit family for New Year's and probably wasn't back until after Tuesday. The day after we went shopping, visited Boston with Abe and Kev on Weds (which was also Kev's 19th B-day. Congrats again, man! One more year til you're a real man! :P ) We also went to the Weathervane while she was here, but unfortunately not the Old Salt at Hampton Beach, although I really wanted to take her and even get a hotel room for the night next to the beach, she kept saying no, no, no.. so we didn't. The day before she left, we went out to Alvin and the Chipmunk's at Chunky's in Haverhill, and both found it cute and funny. I felt it was very well done, although different from the original cartoons by far, considering they were real Chipmunks and not anthropomorphs.

The day that she left.. which was yesterday.. was very heartbreaking. I half-woke (because we were awake until about five AM and I had to get up in four hours..) for two hours cuddling her from behind, and fighting back the tears.. And watched her pack as I got ready for work. For the last hour all we could do was hold each other and cry, because I could not take her to the airport.

I was originally supposed to take her to the airport, but because of a few problems at work, I was not. It seems that my boss forgot that I had asked for that day off, so I switched with someone else, and that was okay. Stupidly, I should not have trusted this to work, because the day after we had decided to switch the days he was fired from work because he was caught stealing credit card information from the store. Oh, you're gonna laugh all of you, when you read this next sentence.. he was caught buying sixty dollars worth of pornography using a seventy year old woman's credit card, using the store's phone, and using his full name. I'm wondering if he <i>wanted</i> to get arrested for credit fraud (which I bet he did) or something. I mean, because.. <b>how stupid</b> can you be to do that? Honestly, if I were to have done such a thing, I would've gone to a payphone a city away and used a fake name like Shio, Fellay! But anyway, back to the topic, I went to work after a heartbreaking hour of crying.. and it hurts so much to remember those feelings.. but that's not where the story ends.

I went to work, albeit a few minutes late, and came in to see my boss standing behind the desk waiting for something. I whiped me face best of the tears, and said hello in the most cordial way I could, and walked behind the the front desk to put down my backpack and get out my work clothes and change. But, before I could even clock in, my boss Linda started bitching at me about "Why did you leave work for me again on Saturday?" I denied, but also asked why she had cut my hours again on last Monday, which I had to work 20 minutes over the closing time in order to finish cleaning up the place, and she said that I hadn't done enough work to earn those extra minutes. She said that if I had done my work, I would have been out by 5. I gritted my teeth and tried to bare it, and as I walked to the back of the store to change into my clothes in the bathroom I just snapped. Why should I take this fucking shit? I wasn't supposed to be here today, she knew why I didn't want to be there, she should have hired someone else to work with me, and I shouldn't have to take this shit from an ignorant person such as her! So I turned around about half way to the bathroom and calmly said, "You know, Linda.. I quit." She calmly said, "Fine, I'll have someone here in 10 minutes." I got pissed and don't remember how exactly the conversation went from then on, but I remember telling her off, saying "Linda, you're such a stupid fucking cunt.." and rubbed in her face that I had been using my laptop despite her telling me not to when she forced me to sign that "Discipline form" two weeks ago. She said that she knew, and asked me if I thought she was stupid, "Yeah! You are!" And she proceeded to call me a fuckface, bladdy blah blah.. I got my stuff and went back to the car and rushed home, expecting Tony to have taken Sam at 1:30 (only 10 minutes away) to the airport to get their early for the rush. I drove so fast, I skidded to the front of the house and noticed his car was gone, I rushed in and down the stairs to see if her bags were still there.. they were, and then I saw her sitting on my bed crying and writing notes. I collapsed into her, knocking her over onto the bed and kissed her. Told her what happened through many tears, then calmed down. I explained to her why and what happened, and how I realized that it was just <i>not right</i> that I couldn't take her to the airport.. that I <b><i>had to</b></i> be the one to do it.. So after a few hours we left (because I didn't think we needed to get their so early.) I won't go into detail what happened there, but waiting in the car as she waited for the plane to take off, I wished with all my heart that I would just slightly turn my head to the back of me and hopefully see her running back. It didn't happen.. but I have hope that she will be here soon.. and to stay.

... okay, I'll finish later, I'm getting too emotional to write anymore..

It's Christmas afternoon. Fuck mornings. Niece tried waking us up at 7am, none of us wanted to, I even went back to bed and waited until everyone was opening gifts to be woken back up. From 7 to 11, it was nothing but Johnathan opening his horde. lol. When we told him he had to stop, it was appalled.

Woke up to my niece yelling in my ear once again, with me huddled up in my heating blanket and the teddy bear that Sam gave me before I left from Iowa, and grumbled. Told her to go upstairs, and I picked up the phone to call the phone upstairs, and found Sam on the phone (who was looking to talk to me, I gather) and I was like, "Oh, hey" (in my half-garbled sleepy voice) and we said our Merry Christmases. :3 A good way to wake up a second time.

Anyway, my haul was tiny this year, albeit very expensive so I am in no way complaining.. (just wish someone had gotten me Guitar Hero like I've been asking for two years), I got:
a GPS for the car
a customized traditional Fedora
a Dragon-sword letter opener
a gift certificate to the Weathervane for when Sam visits
and a DVD/CD Drum lessons box set

But the best gift has yet to arrive.. Sam.. but I only have to wait two more days.. and I can't wait to have her meet the family this Friday! For the first time in (I think) five years, the whole family is coming together to celebrate the holidays in my house. My brothers, my sister, their children and spouses; making that 14 people that Sam's going to meet on Friday afternoon. Haha. The pressure is really getting to her, but I'm sure she'll do fine, she's already done quite well with the family she's spoken to over the phone. She even has presents waiting for her. I'm so excited. *Squee*

I actually have a bit of shopping to do tomorrow, as well. I hope that the Christmas sales are good, because I have my brother's, sister-in-law's, and one nephew and niece to buy for. D; I had no idea that we were all getting together, was I wasn't planning on getting them anything, but since I heard my brother got me something nice.. I just have to reciprocate..

Today I plan on finishing up the cleaning in the basement and play around with my new toys. I'll post a picture later of what I've got.

Oh, and before I forget, Merry Christmas to all the people I couldn't get (or haven't got in touch with yet), and I hope you had a great one! You all mean so much to me in your own ways. They say that Thanksgiving is the time for closeness with friends and family, but nothing like Christmas. Every year I'm thankful to know each and every one of you. To those that have stuck by me through the years, I won't ever let you go, you're my real family.

It's been yet another long time since my last post. Let's see, what has happened since the first Sunday of this month.. The biggest things were the hours problem at work, which I lost. The big boss said my manager was in the right, but he did say that next time there's work available at the end of the day that I can just leave it for the morning crew to do in the morning. You know what that means.. I'm going to take advantage of that fact any and all times I can. For now on, every time I work nights, there will be at least two hours of extra work saved up for the morning shift.

I've been shopping my heart out. I've gotten presents for nearly everyone. I got one for my mother, father, sister, brother-in-law, two of my nieces, one nephew, Preston, Zombie, Jen, Sean, Lance and his current girlfriend Christine, Sam, and I've still got my brother and sis-in-law from Wisconsin to consider. I've been making 220 a week for the past couple weeks, so luckily I can afford this, but I want to save up this paycheck and next week's so when Sam visits.

Oh yeah, the best news evar: I found out what my surprise that my family, friends, AND Sam have been keeping from me for over a month.. Originally Sam planned on arriving on Jan 3rd after visiting her mother and friends in Wisconsin, but my Mom payed for an early ticket for her so that she's arrive on the 27th! I'm glad, too. Mom noticed how I was getting so depressed over her absence over the holidays. She may not be here for Christmas, but I'm glad she'll be here for New Years.. 'cause I've never had that New Year's kiss, and it was tearing me apart that if I couldn't at least celebrate Christmas with Sam, so this will make for it. :3

Originally I had no plans for New Year's either, but since I found out that Sam's going to be here, I quickly rushed into making plans and inviting everyone that I know that hasn't already made plans.. which, unfortunately, isn't very many. Most of the people that I try getting in touch with either say they have plans or are unsure what they're doing that night. But, I'd rather just have Sam instead of a big group, so it doesn't bother me much. I'm just glad that I can get these people to meet the love of my life. :3

So yeah, she's staying now from December 27th (next Thursday) until January 7th (a Monday), which is nearly two weeks worth of visiting! I've got so much I want us to do.. (but I'm not going to post that stuff here, since she reads this.. =P Sorry, hun.) And I hope we can do it all, because I want to show her what it's really like here in New England. I'm also open to suggestions from others, if they have any recommendations, like places to go in Boston.

Also, lately I've been playing a shitload of YuGiOh, all thanks to my co-worker. I found out that Zombie, Lance, and Kevin used to play. Now I'm going to see if I can get them all back into it, so that I have someone other than my co-worker to play everyday at work. Lol. But really, so far I'm borrowing Lance's deck dubbed "Nija" (which is "devil" in Polish), consisted of Zombie/Effect and Fiend/Effect's, which I removed most of the Fiend's and turned it into a wicked Zombie deck. Kicked both my co-worker's and Zombie's ass with the new version of it. When I get enough money after Sam visits, I'm going to go onto EBay and buying a box of booster packs (for 30-30$) and making my own deck, because it sucks to be borrowing someone's deck all the time.

So what else is new.. well, I haven't been to a club lately, and I hope to go to Resurrection tonight in Manchester, NH, but with how the weather looks right now I'm unsure about that. There's been so much snow, I mean, jeez. Two weeks ago we got a foot, a week later another foot, and this week.. I bet you we get two feet.. totaling in four feet total. I haven't seen this much snow pile up in years, and I'm not complaining for once. I used to hate shoveling and snow, but I'm gonna love showing Sam how much of a Winter Wonderland New England is. Hehe. That, and I can't wait to go sliding when it finishes snowing. Man, that's gonna be killer.

My final written exam for Beginning Jap 1 was last night, and I know I already aced it, because she told me that I got an A from doing everything else. It was so easy, that I think I may have made a few mistakes, but I'm not worrying. My final exam for the Computer class was easy. We were told to write five simple programs and write their flowcharts. I copied someone's programs, that everyone had access to, edited it so that I changed the nature of it.. wrote a generic flowchart for all of them.. e-mailed it to him and ta-dah. Done. Now I can't wait for next semester.. ;3

Also, I've been burning DVD's up a storm. I've freed over 100GB of information from my Storage HD after about three weeks of keeping at it. lol. Other than this... I think that's it! Adios, muchachos. I hope you all have a great Christmas/Winter Equinox Celebration and Happy New Year's

Who thinks that I should quit smoking cannabis?

I'd like detailed reasons/explanations as to why I should or should not, plz.

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies.
[X] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[X] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[X] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[X] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[X] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[X] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[X] Wear boxers-briefs.

Total = 11 Points

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[X] You love to shop.
[] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[X] You like hanging out at the mall.
[] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[X] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[X] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total = 8

Very little has happened to me between this past Weds and now. I'm just so bored this morning, that I thought I'd post something. I've worked on Thursday, Friday, and yesterday. Thursday a co-worker threatened me to "come to her next time" when I hear about something, that I should "go to the source instead of spreading rumors." This was concerning the fact that I was speaking with people about how her and Kelly have been stealing. I want to know how she found out I was speaking of this when no one that I speak to speak to her about it. The only person that I can think of would be my manager, but she's the one that told me and the new guy Eric that she's been suspecting them of stealing for a long time.. trying to make the night clerks look bad. All I did was agree with her about this, but apparently she's made a "formal complaint" to the head office about me. Honestly, I told her that Linda (manager) told me about what she thought was happening, and that Eric overheard and we discussed it. She tried getting into my face again, and all I did was laugh. The next day (Friday) nothing happened and it was a normal workday, same with yesterday. I guess they didn't really care about her bitching.

That aside, there have been some problems with Sam and her family, but I'd rather not discuss them. Personal stuff. I'd rather just like to say that, Hun, whatever you decide to do.. I'm here for you. And even when we don't' talk about it, I think about it, and worry (but you already knew that, huh?)

Right now I'm speaking with Duncan via AIM about someone that passed away a week or so ago that was one year below me in high school. He was name was Patrick Frye, and he was shot to death. I hardly knew him, but he knew a lot of my friends from the junior class. I've been trying to get a hold of them to find out what happened, but every time I IM them (since phone calls don't work, because they're always busy) they ignore the question about his shooting. I dunno what to think of this, perhaps class of 2005 and 2006 and just cursed? Because a lot of people have died just this year alone.. students, a teacher.. jeez.

Oh, and today I woke up at 9am. Actually 10am, but thanks to daylight savings.. it looks like I'll finally be getting up earlier. No, not because you finally "broke me", Sam. :P This is because I've been going to bed before 2am lately. Lol. This is why I'm here, I woke up too early and there's nothing pertinent to accomplish before hanging out with Lance later today.

One month, 29 days.. until my angel comes back to me.

So much happened this past weekend. It was, I must say, the most adventurous and courageous move I've ever done for love. After having a few girlfriends over the net already, I could not just let Samantha run through my fingers like I let the others, so I went out and saw her on the 25th and left on the 29th. It was.. to say the least.. the best experience of my life. It started with Lance bringing me to the airport on Thursday morning, we had a bite to eat while he gave me some sex tips (lol..), then I boarded the flight with a slight hesitation and fear; heading towards Denver, CO. I mean, I was nervous because 1) I've never met her before, 2) If things didn't go well, I would have had to wait somewhere until the 30th in Sioux Falls, SD, and 3) I was worried what she would think of me and how I would act. But, things worked out well. After the lay over from Denver to Sioux Falls, I slowly walked down the hall to the baggage claim where Sam and a friend of hers named Karla, a red head, were waiting for me. At first, like Sam thought I would, I noticed Karla's red hair.. then a beautiful angel running into my arms, I was shaking, and smiling.. she gave me a quick kiss before I could react and I hugged her so hard. Thanks again for making the first move, hun, I was in shock. We got in the car, Karla drove us for two hours from Sioux Falls, SD, through Minnesota, and into Estherville, Iowa. Which was such a long, flat, straight road.. I felt like we were in the same area every five minutes. Totally not like what I'm used to here in New England, where there's turn after turn. Sam and I sat in the back seat, shared our official first kiss + French kiss (my first true one ever, not just some drunken slobber all over my face), first cuddle, and just softly spoke to each other from there until we got to Karla's dorm. We dropped her off, then went back to Sam's, where Tina (her roommate) had left for the weekend per request of Sam so that we could have some time alone. I'm so glad that she did, as well. But still, Kyle (her best friend) and a co-worker Betsy stopped by after their shift at HyVee (a supermarket which is pretty much the monopoly of the town), and we spoke for a while. After they left, we watched a move together, and cuddled all until 6am.. we tried to so hard to stay up for the sunrise but all weekend long couldn't get there without falling asleep. lol. It didn't help that I was an hour behind (since IA is in Central time), and that she usually gets up at 6am..

On Friday morning she went to classes in the morning, stopped by for a 20 min break, more cuddling, then another class.. she came back and we watched another movie.. almost all weekend we spent together was just leaning against each other, just enjoying company when we could, and that was the best. Did some shopping, more cuddling, then went to Wal-Mart, came home and pretty much just fell asleep in each other's arms.This day was blur of fun..

Saturday we got up early, left to help her Biology Club with the decorations at the local VFW for a elementary school Halloween party. It was great. I wish I could've seen the kids' faces. Met her parents around 5:30 (Central) and I believe that I made a good impression on them, despite having to lie about where I came from. Oh, I did come from Massachusetts, but I "originally lived in Whitewater and went to middle school with her, we stopped talking for a long time, then met up myspace after I had moved out here for a while." Yes, big lie, and I felt bad for doing it. I like being honest, when I can, and it felt really hard not to say, "Mr. and Mrs. Farmer, the truth is..." But gah, she felt really insecure about it, and I thought I'd trust her.. Gonna have to, she's mah girl. -heart- But before that we got a keg for the house party that Sam was holding that night after we ate with her parents. Her friend made a shitload of Jello shots (with Everclear and Vodka), I had like 20 that night was not effected.. but Sam had like 5 and was slurring her words. Haha. I made a big impression on her friends by playing Bullshit well, taking all those shots, being the house DJ with my Creative ZEN, and handling the bonfire outside. You know, all these things in New England are kind of required, but out there can really impress people. :3 One of her friends (that she used to have a crush on, that she admitted to me before coming there) was so drunk that he had to stay the night. But that didn't make me stop fooling around (which of course we did every chance we could.. heheheh..), of which I'm sure he heard, and I hope he got jealous over. *Smirk*

Sunday she was supposed to go to church, but of course with the lack of sleep we had, we just decided to stay in. Of course, we watched another movie.. we must've seen Clerks 2 like five times that weekend. Got her laundry done (which is mundane to some, but I felt closer to her doing this with her), we rented two movies, went home.. she made me dinner while we watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding, then Evan Almighty (which we fooled around the whole time.. she was kind'a pissed, but kind'a liked that, I think. haha) then after that, we put on Clerks 2 (again, yes) and.. between the darkness of Iowan suburbia, the candles lit on the table next to the couch, and the sound of the Jackson Five's "ABC-123" playing in the movie.. we made love (officially) for the first time. It was.. very special. Especially after the first round we finished, Sean texted me and said, "SOX SCORED! WE GOT THE CHAMPIONSHIP!" I just smirked and texted back, "They weren't the only ones that scored tonight." He replied, ".......daaaaaaaammmnnn...." Hahahaha.. *sigh* But anyway. After our fun, we just cuddled again the whole night.. the next day, though.. was very hard.

Monday finally came and I had to leave that evening from Sioux Falls, SD. She had classes in the morning, only went to one and skipped the other two so we could just spend as much time together as heavenly possible. She let me drive to Sioux Falls from her place this time, and I was glad, because I wouldn't've had her leaning on me the whole time if she was the one driving. And I really needed her then, because I think if she hadn't, I probably would've gotten off that plane before it left for O'Hare. You have no idea how close I was to leaving everything behind me in New England to stay with her.. which is why I haven't been able to type this out until today. Since Monday night, I've been bawling my eyes out, holding the bear that she gave me and sprayed her perfume on.. I miss her so much..

But, my hopes are up, she plans on visiting after New Year's, and maybe even moving up here if she likes it. Life in Iowa is getting worse for her, and I can't think of any other way to help than to offer a new home. I hope she can make it, because being away from her hurts more than anything I've ever felt.. and I've been in a lot of pain before.

I love you, Sam. Please visit soon.

I fucking swear, the shit my boss will try to pull.. She tried putting me on to work next Weds, even though I said I'd be having class. She said that since I had all these days off this weekend for "school" (even though that it is a lie, she should still not be able to stop me) then I have to work on that Weds and if I don't, then I'm fired. Because of state law, I knew she couldn't do this, but would rather have the schedule cleaned up because I don't want Vanessa (the new girl) and Carol working an extra seven hours since I won't be going. So I called the boss of my boss, and told him what was going on, he said that he'd talk to her today. I went in, my boss was there, almost waiting for me.. she said that I had to work, I asked her if she spoke to her boss (Kent) about this, she said yes and that he said that I had to work. I found out about two hours after she leaves that this is complete bullshit. He comes in wit another man for the charity known as Coats for Kids, I tell him that I spoke with Linda and that I understood his decision that I had to work next Weds. He said, "What? I never spoke to Linda today. I've been too busy. She lied to you." I was livid, but kept it hidden. I was pissed that she would try doing this to me, but excited that I got her caught in a lie. Now he's going to speak with her tomorrow when he finds the time, and if he needs to he will call my cellphone and discuss this. If I have to go to a meeting with them, I'll have to tell them that I cannot, because I'm booked until then and will meet with them then. If things go smoothly enough, she'll either get harshly punished or fired. Also, Eric (the new guy) spoke to her about how I spoke with my mom on the phone yesterday (when I asked for her opinion on the subject) where I said that I was pised about how Linda knew that Carol and Kelly (the other two senior clerks that work in the morning) were able to knowingly steal from the cashiers and still not get fired. She called me about an hour after she left from the office, and I suppose she spoke to him about this, and wanted to let me know that she "was doing all she could with the little evidence that she has on them," and if she told anyone else about this, it wouldn't be enough because it's all "heresay." Bullshit. By law, she is allowed to fire whoever she wants from the store for whatever reason (that doesn't go against the law, like my need to attend class.)

But, besides this boss shit, I'm excited for tomorrow morning. I'm leaving to finally visit Sam in Iowa. The plane leaves at 1:30, so I plan on leaving the house at 9 to go pick up my check at Anton's, go to the bank and cash that, come home and have breakfast, probably have Lance meet me at my place for 10, we talk for a while and leave when we feel ready (or 11am at the latest), arrive at Logan Airport around noon. I go through check-in with my e-ticket and all that stuff, leave at 1:30 from Logan with United Airlines. From there, I arrive din Denver at 4 (Mountain time) and leave there at 7 (Moutntain time, and yes that's a three hour lay over) to a connecting flight to Sioux Falls, SD. Arriving there at 9-10pm (Central time) and get picked up by Sam and Karla.. leave there and arrive in Estherville, IA, at about 11:30-12 midnight. I'm super excited. lol. So far I have my carry-on packed, and working on my "personal bag." I plan on bringing my sketch book, mp3 player, and DVD player to keep myself busy.

Maybe I'll post somethin' in the morning before I leave, but til then adios, muchachos~!

I had the most interesting dream last night. It was very lucid and bright, with a complete time line that I could affect by my actions. It started off with a vision of me about a year or so in the future, still looking as overweight as I do, and I join the army. Somehow I get into Special Ops, get assigned a drill sgt., then everything from there until the next scene is fragmented. I remember finding many of the training exercises siphoning, knowing people two specific people that were either very close to me, to themselves, or both.. a black bald man and a medium-short Spanish woman with medium-length hair (they were very friendly), and I remember us having to watch videos for training. The next scene that I remember is myself, wearing a green uniform of which I believed to be the Army's, and a green beret, I had about three lines of pins on my left chest (commendation pins), I was shaved and I had short hair again (of which I haven't had in about 3-4 years now), and I could feel everything as if I was really there. I had memories of the people that I saw in the building, but not how I got there.. and I knew that I was going to the mess hall. Instead of getting food, I just sat down some people that I thought I knew and listened into their conversation. There was a white woman with medium-length brunette hair, a Jewish guy with short hair, and another girl. They were speaking about the presentation that was happening in about a half hour, and how we should all be getting there soon. They left after about 5 minutes of finishing their plates and speaking, not forgetting to say, "Something wrong, Lawrence? You don't seem yourself today." I cannot remember the last time someone called me Lawrence, the last time I asked someone to do that was when I was kid, and demanded respect. Heh. I shrugged it off and continued to get lost in thought, like where I was, what I was doing here.. and better yet.. what year was it? I look down at myself, and saw that my waist line had diminished considerably and that I was quite muscle bound, with very chiseled features. I don't think you have any idea how frightening it was to have such a realization. I got out of the chair and walked to the exit and toward an elevator, but not before taking a look around. Everything was different, technology-wise, than I could remember it. Things looked much smoother, faster, and fashion had changed. To me, it felt like nearly 3 or 4 years had passed. To say the least, I was confused. After getting onto the elevator, a man approached me, handing out a hand held computer and said that he owed me a favour and that this phone was mine. I was like, "That can't be phone." I held it in my hand, and before I could start talking to him, he nodded to me and walked off the elevator. I took a look at the hand held, and it looked much more advanced than any thing I've ever seen for hand held technology. It seemed to be running a combination of MacOSX and Windows Vista Premium.. I couldn't tell.. there were buttons for e-mail, Internet access, chatting.. the usual stuff. But when I accidentally reset the machine, the DOS screen was completely different than what I was used to seeing. It was Windows alright, but the DOS programming had changed dramatically. I even saw a string of characters that didn't make sense to me, but for some reason stook out very well in my dream.. "AQB59421. . . ." Just then, I suddenly remembered the presentation at the theater. I thought that maybe if I went there, I could find some answers, so I went the way that I somehow knew to get there. I found a seat towards the middle-front of place, and took out my "phone" again, as soon as the lights were off. Before I knew it, some female army personnel that I suppose was a very high rank came in and said something about one of the men doing the same thing I was doing, so I quickly turned mine off and hid it in my coat pocket. Just then, people that I knew from my Special Ops. group busted in through the doors, and the black man and Spanish woman that I saw were there, and ordered by their female superior to take that man out of the theater. He was nearly dragged, and I was so shocked from all of this that I passed out in the chair. I woke up wondering who I was, where I was, when I was, and what was going to happen to me.. This was one of the most realistic and scary dreams that I've ever had..

Wee. I have stuff to talk about. Alright, let me start from the beginning. Tuesday I went to Haven again. This time Preston drove and we brought along Abraham and Zombie. It was a blast, a great guy's night out. I snuck in my flask and got drunk off of 6 shots of my own liquor that I poured into a cup of Red Bull and ice. Man, that 3.75 was worth every penny. Danced my ass off and socialized. We hung out with Pat, Erin, and Preston's new fling Sarah after the club until about 4am. We then proceeded to return home, got a little lost, but it wasn't bad because Abraham was wide awake (since he usually works third shift hours) and we got home safe. I'm certain to bring my flask back again for Devil's Night.

Wednesday was Samantha and I's "official" one month anniversary [ :P ] and we spent all the time we could after she got home (around midnight/1am) until she couldn't keep her eyes open anymore. I can't think of a better way to celebrate an anniversary than just being with the one you love. A week from today, I will be visiting her, and I'm very excited. I'm considering packing only one backpack, so that way I don't need to chance losing my luggage taking a connecting flight with United Airlines. I don't mind being late or early, but losing my luggage would piss me off. I did get Ticket Protector Insurance though. just in case a flight is delayed.

Today I woke up and went to the post office to return a power cord to a company that sent me the wrong item. I'm getting the S&H refunded along with the original payment, but just incase I sent the item with a "Signature Confirmation" so that way I know they receive it. After that, I went to fill up my tank at the local cheap, independent gas station. Said "Hi" to the nice Arab, then went Anton's to say goodbye to Darlere, because this was her last day working for the company.

When I got there, little to my surprise, I saw next week's schedule and noticed that my boss planned on making me work two days of my requested days off so that I can "focus on school work and midterms" (*Wink, chortle*), but I digress. This is the third time I believe, that this has happened. Nearly every time I ask for days off, months in advance, I have to deal with this shit with my manager. She's always changing my hours, never giving me a break, and I never get to see her. I seriously think that she is threatened by my presence. Not only did I graduate high school where she didn't, but I'm in college. I've made friends with almost all the customers, and have aced more than one "Secret Shopper" (and that has never happened at her store before.) Not only that, but I go over her head when she isn't being responsible for her actions to speak with Kent our regional manager. But if I can't get next weekend off, I'm seriously going to quit. I'm going to try speaking with Kent first about this, to see how he'd react to my threat to quit. I mean, seriously, I asked for these days off nearly 30 days ago~! It shouldn't have been hard to write that down and remember it. In fact, she did write it down, and it was up on the wall next to her desk and next to next week's fucking schedule! I mean, how much of a stupid cunt is this woman?

Anyway, that's my news for today. I need to go take my shower, still.. So, bye bye.

I'm mainly doing this because Sam has been asked me to post. Nothing really big has happened.

Just celebrated my one month with Sam, although in her eyes it isn't until the 17th. We watched Footloose together, because that seemed like the only movie we both had copies of. lol

I'm doing very well in both Beginning Japanese 1 and Intro to Computer Systems. I'm acing both classes. Still haven't finished memorizing the Katakana table, though. Been a bit lack in my studies, but I'm already amazing my fellow students because I can remember Hiragana without looking them up in the reference. I'm forcing myself to read the book so that I can reinforce my memory. They ought to be doing the same thing, otherwise it's like taking a language without learning how to read nor write it.

Whoops, brb, the porcelain goddess demands my attention for a moment.

Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, so I'm 20 now. The party on the 28th was nice. Had a few friends over, played some video games, and had a few drinks. It ended up with four nude people playing truth or dare at 5am. Fun, fun.

My boss is still treating me like crap, there's a new employee that I've just trained, we're getting along well..

Got massively sick last weekend with a bad case of the stomach flu. I hadn't been that sick in years. So, I haven't had the time to draw or study as much as I like. But, it felt good that I was able to throw up at my work's bathroom sink, it made their work day horrible. :3

Haven't drawn much because I've been sick, either..

Went to Haven this past Tuesday again. No orgies like last time, no drinking either, but great DJ's, car rides, and dancing. I had a blast. Preston and I plan on doing the same thing again this coming Tuesday.

That's it.

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Well, I just got over a horribly combo of the stomach and head flu. The after effects are just as crippling as the flu's were, ugh.. I haven't had a sickness like this in years. That's why I haven't been drawing lately.

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(-) Don't like it; more -'s more disliked (max of 3)
(o) Don't really mind either way
(?) Don't know what this is

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Bondage (++)
Clothing (++)
Leather (++)
Latex (+)
Stockings (++)
Gloves (+)
Shoes/Boots (++)
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Muscle Female (----)
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Scalie (++)
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Transformation (o)
Macro (----)
Micro (----)
Impregnation (o)
Mpregnation (?)
Pregnancy (Isn't this the same thing?)
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Vore (----)
Paw (++)
Foot (+)
Suit & tie (o)
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Crossdressing (+)
Masking (?)
Incest (----)
Yuri (F/F) (+++)
Yaoi (M/M) (+)
Sissy Boy (+)
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Rape (---)
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Orgy (++)
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Domming (+++)
Biting (+)
Solo Masturbation females: (++++) males: (++)
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Fat/Pudge (++)
Merging (---)
Cock Vore (----)
Unbirthing (----)
Hard Vore (----)
Gender Shifting (-)
Tentacles (++)
Anthro (++++)
Nonanthro (++)
Demons (+)
Angels (++)
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Stolen from KageRagnarok

Natural Hair Color:
[s] Brown - $100
[] Blonde - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Other-$75

Eye Color:
[] Brown - $1
[] Green - $75
[] Blue $50
[x] Hazel $100
[] Other - $15

Height:
[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[]4'9" to 5'4" - $45
[] Under 4'9 - $45

Age:
[] 31 to 40 - $100
[] 26 to 30 - $75
[] 21 to 25 - $50
[x] 19 to 20 - $25
[] 0 to 18 - $100

Birth Order:
[] Twins or more than twins - $300
[]First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[] second born - $150
[] Middle child-$100
[] Last Born - $100
[] third born - $100
[x] fourth born - $100
[] fifth born - $100

Drink?
[] No - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[] Sometimes - $215
[] YES - $200
[s] Only weekends - $350
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]

Vision?
[] perfect vision -$300
[x] need or have glasses/contacts but don't wear them - $200
[] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[] Surgical correction - $1

Car(s) Color
[] Pink - $2,000
[] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[] Gray - $600
[] Blue - $900
[] Obsdian - $800
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[] Black - $450
[] Red - $400
[] Green- $350
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[] Purple- $250
[] Metallic - $200
[] Yellow - $100
[] Primer - $75
[] Tan- $20
[] Rusted - $15
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Shoe Size:
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Favorite Color:
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[] Brown - $50
[] Purple - $225
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Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes - $0
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REPOST WITH TITLE:
"I cost $____ a night "

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001. Where is your cell phone? piano
002. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? Sam
003. Your hair? long
004. Work? hardly
005. Your father? retired
006. Your favorite thing? voyager
007. Your dream last night? blank
008. Your favorite drink? water
009. Your dream car? corvette
010. The room you're in? computer
011. Your pet? none
012. Your fears? few
013. What do you want to be in 10 years? married
014. Where did you hang out last night? home
015. What you're not good at? some
016. Eyebrow rings on the opposite sex? sexy
017. One of your wish list items? wii
018. Where you grew up? lowell
019. The last thing you did? stank
020. What are you wearing? pajama
021. What aren't you wearing? shirt
022. The website? FA
023. Your computer? upgrades
024. Your life? odd
025. Your mood? tired
026. Missing? friends
027. What are you thinking about right now? sam
028. Your car? saturn
029. Your friends? few
030. Your summer? humid
031. Your relationship status? taken
032. Your favorite color? blue
033. When is the last time you laughed? yesterday
034. Last time you cried? forgotten
035. School? computers

Well, it's 3am. I've been officially 20 yrs old for a half hour. Spent the first few hours talking with Sam and Sean in my computer room, having a beer and having a cig. I'm on my second, and getting ready to go to bed. Man, I haven't had one of these in so long.. I missed Budweiser.

Tomorrow ought to be fun. Going to Salem. I'm tired and buzzed, so I'll pot more tomorrow. Night, all.

A very long post of things I have put into my journals the past two days:

Sept 19th:
Once again it's been a long while since I've posted.

Is that intro sentence beginning to annoy/bore anyone (That would still be reading this)?

Anyway. In the past two weeks something remarkable has happened. The tarot reading that my sister gave me about love (Starting chaotic, then resolving into something worth the trouble) has.. come true. After another few years of being alone, I've found someone that I can love. The problem is that she's long distance, like the other girlfriends that I've had. This time, I'm going to try as hard as I can to visit her. I even plan on stopping by next month.. if I can find the time off.

We met on Furcadia a few years ago. I had a crush on her then, but she was taken at the time, so I couldn't make my move.. We talked as friends for a while, but after two months or so, we just suddenly stopped talking. Up until two weeks ago, I never would have thought I'd talk with her again, but she randomly IMed me out of the blue. Must have been fate. Ever since, we haven't been able not to speak with each other. We love each other's company and we make each other feel so much more... relaxed, loved, wanted.. Her voice is beautiful, too..

Anyway. Before I start drifting off into about nothing but mushy stuff. I've started classes again. So far so good, although I've had a cold the past few days, which made studying difficult. I'm taking Japanese and Intro to Comp Systems. Both are very much fun, although we've done very little so far. Jap is all about memorization at the moment. I need memorize the complete Kana chart: all of Hiragana and Katakana. Man, it's been difficult, but so far I have Hiragana down pat. It's great too, I can read Japanese writing now. ;3 Only problem is, I don't know what most of the words mean. lol. Intro to Comp Systems is too easy, though. It's basically a course on How to diagnosis, build, and repair comps. Fun, and I'm learning a lot of minor details, but nothing major that I didn't know about yet. Also, we're going to learn how to debug Linux later on in the year. That will kick ass.

I'm drawing still. Porn, too, which I've never done before. Over on FA and a new Furverts.net site that I have:
http://kobaruto.furverts.net/

Check it out. Great yiff!

Unfortunately, I've gotta cut this short. I need to watch my nephew before my sister leaves to pick up my niece, and I need to study some more before going to class. Hopefully I will add more on later tonight. Til then, adios muchachos.

Oh, and check out my profile. Did a big overhaul of it.

Sept 20th at 10am:
I apologize to those whom read this, though I doubt very much these days that anyone really does. Last night, after getting home from class and hanging out with Zombie, I got preoccupied once again with speaking with Samantha. Every moment that passes by that I hear her voice I become more entrapped in her. I feel anxious about saying it, but I'm growing fonder of her each day. I'm nervous that this may end up in the gutter like my past relations, but I really want to try my best to prevent that. She's so sweet.

Anyway. What did I forget to type about last night? Um well, damnit, class is starting. I'll need to type again after I get home before work.

Sept 20th at noon:
Okay, now I'm back at home. Gonna try to post something else. Problem is, I've forgotten what I wanted to say. Haha.

In class was just another minor review of what we've been reading, this time going over microprocessors and random access memory. Nothing big, but I was able to teach the professor something that he didn't even know. For your techies out there, I bet you already know about CPU-Z and SpeedFan. Well, Moghimi didn't, and he asked me to show the class what they were and how they worked on the projector. That inflated my ego a bit.

Hmm... I'm reading Samantha's old journal posts. It's fun.. and puts a smile on my face. I hope she starts writing in her journal, because I find it difficult to read Myspace blogs. *Hint*

Got work in a half hour, and I wish the time flies by today like it did on Tuesday, but I need to train a new employee. Bah, I haven't even met him yet.. His name's Eric, 17, and a highschool dropout. Probably'll be a dumbass that will need my supervision most of the time. I hate having someone rely on me when I'm at work, it decreases my efficiency so much.

I've had a few laptop problems lately. I blame Preston for mentioning them. For a few months now my laptop has been on the fritz. He says that after two years of owning a laptop, it will degrade and shit. I wish he hadn't said anything, because it's starting to happen. First the battery died, and can only hold 15 minutes off of the AC adapter. Then the AC adapter fucked up. I bought a replacement, but it was the wrong one, and now I need to send it back to get a replacement. Fucking hell. Zombie said he may be able to sodder the old one, so I'm hoping he can..

Oh. and I've been a Summer/Autumn cleaning spree again. Actually stopped a week ago, but I've been able to keep it very well kept. I'm proud of myself, because in the past I could never keep it clean for more than 24 hrs. Now I see myself actually picking up after myself and I feel like going, "*GASP* Who is this Larry? I don't know this guy!" I'll have to post some pics to show how it's changed, too. Brb.. gonna go do that. *Left the comp at 12:37*

aaand I'm back. *Returns 12:45*

Uploading the pics now..

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v.....yRoomSept2007/

And it's getting late, so I should be getting ready for work now. Until later, this is Larry signing off.. adios, my friends.

NINTENDO:
[X] You respect Mario. Mario's my homeboy.
[] You know who Shigeru Miyamoto is.
[X] You believe the DS is superior to the PSP.
[] You hate Sonic for being a cool whore, as well as SEGA fanboys.
[x] You love cartridges over CDs. While they have a smaller chance of getting damaged, you get really sick of blowing into those fuckers after 15 years.
[x] You feel sick whenever someone mentions "CD-i Phillips".
[x] You still like Pokemon...even a teeny tiny bit.
Score 5

SEGA:
[x] You respect Sonic. Sonic was awesome back in the days of the sprite. We need more sprite games.
[X] You know who Yuji Naka is.
[x] You weep for the Dreamcast.
[] You dream for Shenmue 3
[] You hate Mario for being so lame and fat, as well as Nintendo fanboys.
[x] You love harlequin clothes for reminding you of NiGHTS.
[x] You love the Virtua Fighter series.
Score 5

XBOX/MICROSOFT:
[x] You love HALO.
[] You bought at least one multi-format game on Xbox.
[] You know who Blinx is.
[] You are proud of your Gamerscore.
[X] You smile at how everyone complains about the PS3 MORE than they did at the 360.
[x] You find such a thing as having a full memory store to be inconceivable.
[] You have been on Xbox Live.
Score 3

PLAYSTATION/SONY:
[] You have a PS3.
[x] You believe the PS2 has the greatest game library ever.
[] You believe the PSP is superior to the DS.
[x] You hate the Xbox and the 360.
[] You bought the PS3 as soon as it was out.
[] You know who Ken Kutarugi is.
[] You consider Resistance: Fall of Man superior to Gears of War.
Score: 2

RETRO:
[x] You know what an Atari console looks like.
[x] You played Space Invaders, Pong and/or Pacman. We kept scoreboards on our bedroom wall XD
[x] If you are British, you know what a ZX Spectrum is. If you are American, you know what a Commodore 64 is.
[x] You wish you didn't know of E.T the game.
[x] You love point-and-click games.
[x] You emulate.
[x] You despise anyone who can't respect the old skool.
Score - 7

SHOOT-EM-UP GAMER:
[x] You played Time Crisis and/or Virtua Cop.
[x] You consider HALO inferior to Goldeneye 007.
[] You consider Goldeneye 007 inferior to HALO.
[x] You snort in disgust at the idea Columbine was caused by playing too much DOOM.
[x] You have played Counter Strike and fragged merrily.
[x] You know why everyone hates medics yet you've never been in the army.
[x] You've done Grand Theft Auto and yet never been in jail.
Score - 6

RPG GAMER:
[] You love at least one Final Fantasy game.
[x] You cried at least once during any RPG game.
[x] You named at least one videogame character after yourself.
[x] You equate videogame music of RPGs to the artistic level of Wagner or Beethoven.
[X] You know that even the most effeminate villain can become badass with a brilliant theme song.
[] You believe that your heart is the most powerful weapon.
[x] You've dreamed of having an RPG adventure with your friends/family, level upgrades et al.
Score - 5

BEAT-EM-UP GAMER:
[x] You do a Hadoken.
[X] You know at least one Fatality. Scorpion's was the best.
[x] You mash buttons like Chun Li kicks.
[x] You have calluses on your thumbs.
[x] You've injured yourself mimicking at least one move from a game.
[] You know kung fu.
[x] You know of, or play, M.U.G.E.N.
Score - 6

IMPORT GAMER
[] You know more titles of games in Japanese than others do.
[x] The Dreamcast is still alive to you.
[x] You despise the NTSC/PAL divide.
[] Money is no object to you.
[x] Customs can go to hell.
[x] You pity the average continent-bound gamer. What?
[x] You praise emulator hackers.
Score - 5

Total: 44
Result: I'm a Retro gamer. Totally.

Been feeling a bit under the weather lately. Ugh.

Anyone know where I can find more banners like this?

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