I'm looking to get back into this. I remember playing with it a while back last year or two with Catnel, but never got anywhere. I have a bunch of cool items, but a shitty avatar and no one to talk to on there. If anyone on here plays SecondLife and wouldn't mind me tagging along somewhere, I'd be all ears. Also, if someone has a place where I could download some Avatars.. because mine is truly shitty. :3 Thanks in advance!

Don't know what to post, but I was getting annoyed by that Bartab meme. In the news, I've started classes again. I'm taking Computer Systems Fundamentals (Repair/build/troubleshoot computers and operating systems including Windows and Linux. This will be fun) and Beginning Jap 1 (Already major fun.) Also, I was able to acquire the original Legend of Zelda for NES. Kicks ass. So far I have six hearts, two pieces of the Triforce, the white sword, and the magic shield. Oh, and I've successfully fixed a salvaged computer again. Managed to give my friend Zombie a greatly upgraded computer.

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Oh yeah, does anyone have a hacked version of Poser that I could get my paws on?

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I've seen a lot of usericons based off of the Caramell Dansen loop. I would love it if someone could make me one. *Hinthint*

Title your response "My Bar Tab is$........"
You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

Smoked pot -- $10
Did acid -- $5
Did some X -- $15
Did cocaine -- $20
Did meth -- $25
Ever had sex at church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25
Had sex for money -- $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
Had sex with members of the same family -- $50
Had sex with 2 different people in the same day -- $50
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Crossed dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15
Ever drive drunk -- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
Went skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend --$50
Done oral -- $5
Got oral -- $5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving-- $25
Stole something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $100
Spit in someones food --$25
Made a nasty home video -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in the wild -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking -- $5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work --$25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good --$25
Been raped -- $500
Have raped -- $200
Had sex with some one under 16 -- $300
Had sex with a dog -- $25
Had sex with a horse -- $50
Had sex with a cat -- $75 (extra points $50 if you tied it up so you didn't get scratched)
have you ever has sex in a fursuit -- $100
Have you ever had sex wile your partner where a fursuit -- $100
Been spanked by a lover -- $50
Been wiped by a lover -- $ 100
Been fisted -- $150
If you know what "CBT" stands for -- $250
Used whip cream in bed -- $25
Used handcuffs in bed -- $50
Used a whip or pattal in bed -- $75
Ever imagined the person you where having sex with was some one else -- $100
If you have had a butt plug in for more then an hour -- $75
If you ever used any vacuum cleaner attachments -- $100
Had some one come climb in your bedroom window for sex so your parents would not find out -- $100
Used a blow up doll -- $50
Drove away from a car accident you caused -- $500
Cut your self on purpose -- $100
Cut some one else on purpose -- $150
Pissed on some one $10 Add $10 if they drank it
Been pissed on $15 add $20 if you drank it
Shit on some one $20 add $25 if they ate it
Been shit on $25 add $50 if you ate it
If you have ever been shot -- $300
Dyed your hair -- $10
Dyed your pubes -- $20
If you ever ate your own cum (vaginal fluids for females)-- $20
Smoked wile having sex -- $20
Ate a sandwich wile having sex -- $50
Slapped some one across the face wile fucking them-- $100
If ever shoved a candle up some ones ass and lit it-- $200
Fucked some one wile they where crying-- $300
If you have ever fucked a girl on the rag -- $100
If you ate her out after -- $200
If you have sucked you're own cum out of a guys ass -- $200
If you took this test and where completely honest add -- $500
Didn't use a condom -- $50
Got an STD -- $ 25
Have an STD -- $ 100
Planed to kill some one -- $50
Killed somebody -- $1,000
Add $5 for each tattoo and piercing you have
Add $10 for each scar over an inch long that you have

Oh yeah, my tally was $2,315

1. What is your character's name?
Koba

2. What is your character's name in another language?
Cobalt

3. How old is he/she?
Physically, 20, mentally 30's

4. What is your character's race/species?
Domesticated feline

5. Do they have a crush?
Yes

6. Do they have many friends?
Many..

7. What planet is your character from?
Earth

8. Does your character like to eat?
Pudgey fur. You tell me?

9. What's his/sher favorite food?
Hot Pockets and Sushi

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Hot Milk and Choco Mix with Butterscotch Liquer

11. Is your character annoying?
I 'spose I can be, at times.

13. Is your character loved?
Only by his friends and family.

14. Is your character hated?
If he is, no one has had the balls to tell him.

15. Is he/she emo/goth?
Goth, I guess. Doesn't dress it. Don't believe that Goth is predetermined with clothing, but by the music a person listens to. Marilyn Manson? Not goth. The Brides? That's goth. Also goes Goth club hopping.

16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Bi, leaning toward straight

17. Is he/she a virgin?
No.

18. Name 3 hobbies
I won't name the obvious. Collecting comics, playing the drums, fire dancing

19. Is your character normal?
There is no normal.

20. Is your character attractive?
Beauty is in the eye of tbe beholder, but he thinks his moobs are damn sexy, albeit a weight to carry.

21. How does your character handle emotions?
Sometimes well, sometimes poorly. If he is betrayed, he will never forgive, and always dream of revenge.

22. Does your character have other forms?
No

23. Does your character overreact?
Yes. Like I said, he will never forgive betrayals. Trust is everything.

24. Is your character a criminal?
At least, never convicted.

25. Does your character go to school?
Yes

26. What's his/sher IQ?
164

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
Yes. Gastral Reflux, a little mood instability, asthma

28. Is your character dead?
No

29. Does your character have a family?
Yes,

30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Yes

31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Mid-highschool

32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
AThroneOfSouls

33. Is your character single?
Yes.

34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
In the past.

35. Does she/she have an element?
Surprise

36. Do you role-play your character?
No

37. Do you write about your character?
No

38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Yes. he can be a little snappy when things don't go his way. But he always feels bad about it afterwards.

39. Does your character get depressed?
Yes.

40. What's your characters favorite animal?
Skunks

41. Does your character have any fears?
Few; heights, indecision

42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Yes. Gullible

43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Very few. He has little respect for many people.

44. Does your character like music?
Yes, oh god, yes

45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
There's too many to choose from.

46. Is he/she impatient?
Yes

47. What's something funny about your character?
He will hold all types of mile manuesha (sp?) in order to come up on top as being correct. Like, an argument over something he has no evidence on the spot for, he will remember six months later and bring it back up with proof.

48. Name 5 nicknames
Larry, Koba, Kitty, Teddy Bear, Orff

49. Does your character curse?
Like a sailor.

50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
Should I be proud?

Before FA, there was DA, and before DA there was.. Side7! Created in 2002, when I was only 14 years old, my god.. this account stinks of failure and youth.

http://www.side7.com/cgi-bin/S7SDB/.....o&aid=6735

Won't you take me back to school?
I need to learn the Golden Rule
Won't you lay it on the line?
I need to hear it just one more time
Oh, won't you tell me again?
Can you feel it?
Won't you tell me again
..tonight?

Each and every heart it seems
Is bounded by a world of dreams
Each and every rising sun
Is greeted by a lonely one
Oh, won't you tell me again?
Can you feel it?
Oh, won't you tell me again?
Tonight...

'cause out on the ocean of life my love
There's so many storms we must rise above
Can you hear the spirit calling?
As its carried across the waves
You're already falling
Its calling you back to face the music
And the song that is coming through
You're already falling
The one that its calling you

Make a promise, take a vow
And trust your feelings it's easy now
Understand the voice within
And feel the changes already beginning
Oh, won't you tell me again?
Can you feel it?
Wont you tell me again?
...tonight

And how many words have I got to say?
And how many times will it be this way?
With your arms around the future
And your back up against the past
You're already falling its calling you
On to face the music
And the song that is coming through
You're already falling
The one its calling is you

Each and every heart it seems
Is bounded by a world of dreams
Each and every rising sun
Is greeted by a lonely one
Won't you tell me again?
Can you feel it?
Oh, won't you tell me again
...tonight?

On a side note for those that actually read this, what would you think if I posted a pic of myself in the Show_yer_sheath LJ community? ;3

When you never know
Is when it's always there,
It seemed so clear...

The slightest touch
To catch the breath,
What turns it all around

The single path that I can see,
Emptiness devours me

Enlightened by the cold.
It overcomes the torment...
Enlightened by the cold

Enough to burn through walls
Built on anguish
Can I be revived?

Let it hit with force
Strong enough to blind.
The numbness heals.

My worth is only defined
by the next disaster

*Twiddles fingers and attempts to write an entry*

Well, where to begin. Hm, I just got back from the kitchen, where my sister was reading my tarot cards. In short, it says that with my current "love problem" only chaos will be the end result. To narrow it down to the girls that I've had an eye out for lately, it's all down to chance, and whatever happens I'll just be like the usual Libra and shrug it off. Sounds accurate, but it wasn't very helpful. I dunno.

Last night I went to Haven in Northhampton, MA, (A goth club) and had a blast. Even though it's a two hour drive, it was killer fun. I went with Patrick, Zombie, Sammy, and Rickey. This was my first time there, and lucky me it was the night of their infamous Gothic beach party. Even though it was a cold night, I saw people swimming in the mini-pool.

The place was cool. It had a pool table, video games, a dance floor, a smoking area, and well-lit tables. The real fun didn't happen until around 2am, when we were invited to the after hours party across the street at the hotel. Let me tell you, I haven't gotten so drunk and horny in so long. I ended up drinking nearly six or ten shots of Absinthe straight (which wasn't a good idea), and getting into basically a little orgy with four girls and guys. Nothing major happened, but I loved all the fondling. Been a long time since I've given someone oral.

But let me tell yah, I'm paying for all the liquor I had last night. I had to forcibly make myself vomit this afternoon so I wouldn't be in so much pain. I had to work, and if that wasn't enough, I had the usual aches. Shitty. It was well worth it, though. Next time I won't have so much to drink..

Anyway, yeah, that's all I have to post.

I'm lookin' for stuff to draw. Anyone that would like their character drawn, give me a hollar, I'll do it free of charge. :P

FA:U Con Report:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/182486/

Quick question: Can I post art that is not Furry? I've seen others, but I have some quite varying art.


FA:U Con Report:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/182486/

Alright, so, a lot has happened. Last week, I had posted a long post, which I rarely do, and Yiffer Fox just so happened to notice that I was looking for a ride. He let Waccoon know about my situation, and he just so happened to have a spare bed in his room for someone. Since he had already payed for it, and it was the same price as a single room, he didn't charge me. Although, that didn't stop me from helping out with money when I can. I really appreciate how both Yiffer and Wac were such good people in helping me out. As I said before, I couldn't go because all my friends with cars couldn't go because of some reason or another, so I was stuck at home with a crappy car. Thank you both so much! Yiffer and Wac, I am forever in your debt. :3 This weekend was a blast.

Starting at 1pm on Friday, Wac came by and picked me up, then we went to get Yiffer and his brother, before heading out. Let me tell you, it was a hellish start. It took us like 10 hrs to go somewhere that should've only taken 4 hrs to get to. It was raining slightly, so I guess people decided that if it's sprinkling, they must got 30 mph on the Mass Pike. Ugh. Luckily I had brought a few CD's to listen to, but no one else did. I was kinda hoping they would, so I didn't bring too many. That's alright though, we mostly just talked a lot, while listening to Lewis Black in the background. Had some dinner at The Cracker Barrel then continued to set out for our destination. We got lost on routes 1-9, which for some reason were two routes merged into one, with three variations of the road: Express, Local, and Truck. Aaand, the hotel was located right on this route. It was like, WTF is this? We had to choose between the three and pray we go the right one! After getting lost on this route for about an hour and a half, I suggested that we go north then try retracing where we went wrong. By luck, we got there, but not after some more frustation. That wasn't the end, though. We tried finding a spot to park, but the area was so tiny and packed, the only place to park was in the rear of the hotel and it was currently being blocked off by three cars. They had the nerve to complain to Wac for temporarily parking in a Handicap spot. I mean, come on, what else were we supposed to do? After some patience, we finally got to the back and by luck got the only space available. Things were looking up.

We went in, checked-in, went to the room and left our things. Kinda restless from the journey, Wac suggested we'd go out and go for a walk. (Oh, keep in mind that Yiffer and his bro already had a room, so we didn't see them much at all the rest of the weekend.) We got our sketchbooks and went out for a stroll. You'd think that a con with over 300 attendees would have a few night owls, but we only found two: Miranda and her gopher Damien. Another stroke of luck, we spent the next couple hours talking nonsense and I doodled. They were the first two people I met at this con, and I'm glad, because I knew no one. They went to bed early, and we bumped into someone else, KNGRU aka Sandy Hedges. Had a fun time talking about some MMORPG's and more random stuff, as I continued to doodle. Around 3am, Wac and I decided to call it a night and go crash.

Next morning, I woke up at 10, and wandered around. Got my badge, stuck around Miranda and Damien's table, and got some breakfast. Didn't see Wac til around 2-3pm, cause he had overslept. That morning seems like a blur now, but it was nice. Spent all most all of the day just talking with people in the dealers' room. Doodling some more. There was a lot of drawing this weekend, as people that watch me on FA/DA can tell. Spent almost all day just playing video games, chatting, browsing, hugging, and walking around the hotel. A blast, even though not so much happened. Even checked out the bands, and sad to say, Zga Zga made my ears bleed.. So I spent the rest of the night with Wac and a bunch of others drawing until about 5am at the registration table. Real fun. :3

Sunday, the last day, slept until 10am again and got ready. We checked out, packed the car, then did the same thing as the day before. It was really quiet, like all Sunday cons, but the Zoo was killer. Just sitting there, drawing (again), and shooting the shit with all the big artists made me feel like I belonged in this fandom, without any judgement. I mean, I know I'm not the best, but I felt equal.

I am grateful I was able to attend this con, and look forward to going to FurFright this coming October. See ya'll then!

Oh, and I'll have some pictures up just as soon as I get them developed tomorrow night.

Got a ride to FA:U and so much happened, tonight I'm just going over all the messages I've received. More to come tomorrow.

Alright, so it's 2:30am and I'm sitting here at the computer, listening to Eddie Izzard Lego-ized videos on Youtube, and smoking a clove cigarette. I've been meaning to post, surely, I have. But, as most of you know, I just have trouble posting unless something big is happening. Well, there is, in a way. I suppose. I just don't know where to start.

In the matter of love, I'm finally getting into that "Summertime Blues" mood that I get once a year. You know, that time of year when a single person just wishes that they had someone to lay next to at night. Not someone to fuck, that's something I could get when I want, but just someone that I could snuggle with. I miss being able to love a significant other. Although, I have been feeling a bit.. I don't know what the word is.. about my sexuality. I'm beginning to wonder, what if I'm not completely Bisexual. I know that I do love the female and male body, but I just can't see myself hooking up with males like I do with females. I could see myself loving any gender, but getting there would be different. I love one male, but I could only admit that I have feelings and attraction for him after years of speaking to him everyday, because what we have is a great mental connection. But, at the drop of a hat, I could fall for any female that cares to give me attention. I'm confused why I can't do the same with a guy. Especially confused because I've been hurt by many females in the past.

In the matter of school, I'm feeling overwhelmed and anxious. Last semester wasn't so great. This semester is getting off to a bad start, too. I've only been able to get into one class that I need, because I didn't pass a major class last semester. I will need to start paying off my Peel Grant Loan from the government, which means since I'll have so much extra time because I only have one class this semester, means that I need to work my ass off on the days that I would normally be free in order to pay the bills. I'll be taking Computer System Fundamentals, which is kind of a step backwards, since I was already put in a class beyond this subject. Confusing, but if I don't pass this class, I cannot take others.

In the matter of social issues, I'm getting stuck between a bunch of friends and one of their ex's. Nikki, the insane model that Lance dated, is just trying all she can to ruin his life and name in the Goth and Modelling scene of Massachusetts. I'm trying my best to defend him, but friends of ours that seemed like such good people the past five years, are actually supporting the ex-gf when we all know that what she saying isn't true. I mean, I'm sitting outside Ceremony at An Tua Nua in Boston, listening to her moan and complain about Lance.. and our so-called friends Preston and Abraham are there agreeing with her. When I approach them about this, they say that she is also their friend, and are just trying not to get inbetween Lance and her. Bullshit. He was their friend years before this cunt came along, and yet they're treating her like she's not the venomous bitch that she really is. She successfully stole his gf away from him and is also slowly taking away all of his models. It's not like photography is Lance's major profession/skill, but it's a passion that he loves to do. (www.lancelothevampire.deviantart.com)

Another matter of social issues, I attended Jen and Zombie's birthday cookout at Pat's house in Chelmsford, MA, this past Sunday and had a blast. Sammy, Rosey, Marshall (Jen's co-worker), Patrick (of course), Ricky, Karen, and of course Jen and Zombie were there. Spent the whole day from about 5pm to midnight pretty much buzzed off of Goldschlager, Jack Daniel's Watermelon Spikes, and Clove cigarette highs. We did some fire dancing (which kicked ass), played Karaoke Revolution, and generally just shot the shit. Even got all of them to go topless while playing Karaoke Revolution. Haha. Which, I swear, did not lead to anything bad. I promise, although it was fun snuggling up with the girls. Haha. Oh, and flaming Poi are so much fun. I recommend everyone try it at least once.


Um, what else am I feeling..

The occasional, "I look/feel like shit" is happening. Soon to pass, nothing new. Damn allergies.

Hmm, the cigarette buzz is wearing off. Time for another.. brb.

*Light, inhales and exhales deeply* Ahh.. nothin' like a Djarum Clove Cig.

Anyway. Now it's 2:45am, still listening to Eddie Izzard, though I'm not really listening.. My desk is a mess, but to me it's always a mess down here. I've been cleaning a lot lately, because I've been nervous, but no one's seeming to notice. I've rearranged, vacuumed, laundered everything over and over.. Nothing seems to stay clean. *Sigh. Inhale, exhale* Oh, and I've discovered how to achieve the nicotine high. Funny, huh? I've been smoking these on and off for the past two years and yet didn't' feel a thing other than getting a great taste on my lips. Heh. Good and bad thing, I'm smoking less pot, but more cig's. It's like, it's legal, but it's worse for me. Or is it? Cigs supposedly higher metabolism, while pot makes you eat more than you should, but Cig's cause cancer and make me wheeze and cough.. and Pot does not.

Not sure where else to lead this. I've been restless lately, and even though I have to wake up at 10:30am this today, I'm still not asleep. I blame this on me staying up and talking to this girl I met on LJ (Julia/Gracefulwing) from over in Sterling, MA. She's an amazing girl to talk to. I can talk to her from 8pm to 4am and not consider going to sleep. She's cute, she's young, she's OCD, and taken. It sucks, I can't even visit her, even though she's 40 minutes away.

Oh, speaking of this girl, (which I don't think has any real connection to what I'm about to say) I have lost my inspiration to draw again. Ever since arriving back from Anthrocon, I was drawing up a storm. Even set up a FurAffinity account finally. Great site, nice people, but I just can't draw anymore.

I wish I knew of a good online game or chat area to visit, because the ones that I have are getting boring and overdone. Counterstrike has its moments, and Day of Defeat is great, but I'm looking to meet new, interesting people to talk to. If anyone has any ideas, besides Yahoo Chat, send me a line. LJ just isn't enough sometimes.

Anyway, I've run out of the will to type anymore, but maybe I will later this week. Probably not, but hey, maybe I will. I've got the weekend free to myself (and look, I'm still typing), since my previous plans to go FA:United over in Newark, NJ, fell through horribly. I'm not talking to Jules anymore, because he's a prick.. Lance can't come because he has a model to shoot with this weekend.. and Ej's staying home because of problems with her Dad getting out of the hospital. Maybe I can still look forward to FurFright over in CT, but I would still love to go to FA:U this weekend. If anyone that reads this is going that way, and lives in/near Boston or Lowell, I would love to come with. I could help help out with gas, room money, etc.. and you would have my eternal thanks.

Time for me to go sulk a bit more before heading to bed. Goodnight, all. And.. good luck?

I've just been havin' a lot of drama lately. I've actually lost my inspiration to draw, yet again. I've been known to go months without a single doodle. Hopefully this won't last long, because I really want to get into the FA community.

More bad news is that I won't be able to go to FA:U unless I can get a ride and possibly stay with someone. All my friends can't come and I can't drive down there, but could help pay for gas and the room. I could also pay with booze.. or yiff. *Smexy e-Wink*

Also, I don't normally advertise this, but if anyone has SlSk send me a message at Kobaruto. I'm on the main server using ver156c. I share.. a lot. Just tell me you saw me on FA and I'll add you to my list.

Well, this is my first account on FA. I am a convert from DeviantART http://kobaruto.deviantart.com/

I've been drawing a lot more furry artwork lately, so I supposed I'd give this place a shot. :3 I'm a furry rooting back in 2000, when I discovered a video on TeamARTail.com about furries in Florida. This past month I attended Anthrocon for the first time ever, and can't wait for FA:U in Newark, NJ!

Drawing is mainly a hobby for me, but I always love trading artwork with people. My specialty is taking someone's IRL pic and transforming them into an anthro. :3

I'm hoping to meet lots of people on here, exchange some art, and hopefully some new local furiends!